OMG this is such a beautifully written heartbreaking story and I love every word, thank you

I loved the exchange b/t Brian & Chris! I got all giddy when he said he'd be afraid of Justin's wrath and mentioned Brian's feelings about Justin! Although, their kiss was pretty damn hot!!

I also liked the thing b/t Jus and Linds; I think it helped them understand each other better!

I'm glad you're feeling better! It seems like the better you feel the more of Brian's loveable snarky self is coming back! Yay!

Hugs, Cindy

You stun me; words fail me to comment on a chapter so jammed packed with so much detail and emotion. Let me just say BRAVO! Thank you for writing it; and I'm looking forward to NEXT!!!

I have been waiting, very impatiently I might add...for this newest chapter and once again you did not disappoint.

Sure I want the happy ending eventually for Brian and Justin...and real bad ass karma for those who deserve it twofold....Your writing is so full that taking this journey with you, in some strange and difficult circles..is oh so much fun!

Hopefully you feel much better and the next update will not be so long in coming. 

*peers into folder*

I know you're probably really busy, Cyn ... but I can't wait to read another chapter of your story.

*hint hint* :)

Your details never tire me Cyn, it only adds to the depth of your story ... which is still amazing!

For a brief moment when you talked about figures running towards Justin while he was helping Cedric ... that bad guys were going to kidnap him.

Great update! 

Good plot development. Monty is some piece of work. I hope he gets busted for this. Thanks for the update.

Bam!  Jared got a real lead!  Love it!  Great background story on him btw. I for one like details.

Loved the airplane scene.  Turnage is one tough sob. Why does that turn me on? lol  Seriously though, I love how you made him more 'human' with his musings on that girl who thanked him for making her beautiful when in fact he didn't think he accomplished that at all. And the lesson she had taught him.  that story made Turnage more likeable to me.  Chris totally has Brian's number.  Love how he knows him so well, and I notice doesn't flinch when Brian is 'unmasked.  Best part of the airplane scene is when turnage told Brian he'll be better looking when hes done with him and Brian's answer, "no I won't...because you can't improve on perfection." lol priceless!

Now where Turnage is showing his 'humanity' and endearing himself to me, Ted is losing me totally. Where the fuck is his humanity?  Is he really that petty? After all Brian has done for him? It's nothing short of betrayal in the works. He's already betrayed Brian in the sense that he does not respect his wishes.  He's plotting against Cynthia?  Someone needs to bring that queen down!

Just when I was starting to hope that Brian's 'family', and I use the word loosely, is starting to 'get it'. I see I'm wrong.  Lindsey and Deb still don't  get it.  One would think Deb despises Brian and Lindsey thinks she owns him.   Michael was the only one in the last chapter, that got it.  So glad he did too.

As for Monty...I hope he fries for his actions.  Nice going on Briggs part. another lead!

As usual, great update Cyn!

Ok now, we need a new chapter from you. (sends cyber slap across the internet)

Good evening, All,

I hope it's all right if I post like this, to give a response - inadequate though it will certainly be - to the wonderful comments so many people have posted for this chapter.  In a perfect world, I would find the time for individual responses for each of you, but we all know that this world is far from perfect.  There's just too much work, and too little time to do it, but I do want to express my thanks for all of you.  Your enthusiasm and your thought-provoking remarks are wonderful motivation for trying to write the best story I can.

I do want to reassure you all that all is not as dark as it may seem - that there is a light on the horizon, although it may seem very distant yet.  Part of the purpose for writing this story is to give our lovely heroes - both of them - a chance to learn lessons they need to know, and to find their way through a landscape of uncertainty and old injuries that have prevented them from finding their common path.  As I see it, it does no good to bring them together until they find resolutions for the buried damage that neither has ever been completely successful in dealing with.  They must heal - individually - befpre they can heal together.

And, BTW, I am perfectly aware that a lot of the characters at the hospital are breaking all kinds of regulations.  Unfortunately, I actually work in a hospital and know that it happens every single day - not because hospital employees want to break the rules, but because secrets are just terribly hard to keep.  People tend to talk together about things that happen on the job, and other people always seem to overhear what isn't meant for them.  It's depressing - even scary - but it's also true.  If you doubt it, I invite you to just stroll around any sizeable medical facility and just listen - casually.  Ideally, any communication between medical staff and patients, or family, or support people - whatever - should happen in private.  But it usually doesn't.  It's not deliberate disregard of the rules.  It's just human nature.

Anyway, I hope I've managed to make it believable, and that you continue to be interested.  It is gratifying to find that readers care about what will happen next, enough to speak up and say so.

Thank you all so much.

CYN

Excellent story and writing. I'll be looking for more ep.

I am so glad that Brian and Michael met one last time. It was a beautiful scene ... and as for Justin ... I think Cedric has sent him on a journey of self discovery. Until Justin comes to terms with his role in the relationship, there is no reason to shatter Brian even more.

Congratulations on the blue ribbon, Cyn! I don't know how you get one, but you certainly deserve it!

Thanks so much for updating!

I checked LJ before I went to work this morning and noticed that you updated this fic.  I decided to wait until this evening to read it.  Thank goodness I decided to wait.  I started to tear up during the Michael scene and was practically sobbing by the time Justin and Brian said their goodbye on the roof.  So heartbreaking... I can't wait for an update. 

This is my first time commenting, but I had to tell you how much I am loving this story.  This chapter was so intense and poignant.  I was very happy to see that Brian and Michael reconciled.  I love when Michael says, "You're still my Brian, and you will always be young and beautiful to me, because I don't see you with my eyes. I see you . . . with my heart."  Made me start to cry.

And then when Brian and Justin spoke on the rooftop, it was absolutely heartwrenching.  Your writing is captivating and wonderfully spun and I look forward to each and every update!

~Terry

I can't believe Brian's leaving without Justin! How will he go through all that's waiting for him without his Justin? I really thought he would hop the helicopter with Brian. They can't give up on each other.

I loved that Michael went to see Brian and the two of them parted on good terms. It was sad but very sweet.

I'm looking forward to read more.

this is sad, riveting and really holds the attention of the reader, gripping one on the edge of their seat. i hope you update it soon...very heart-breaking!

feroza

Oh my god, I'm sitting here at 1 in the morning and reading about Justin running to the roof and as I continue reading I feel my lip start quivering and then I notice tear are running down my face and all of a sudden I'm a sobbing mess picturing that scene where they are both so in love with each other yet saying goodbye and I don't know who is hurting worse; Brian for having to leave or Justin for being left.

Brian's dream just shows how much he needs Justin there; and then Chris was trying to comfort him, that was kinda sweet until Matt had to barge in with his jealous self; well, that was funny, actually!  

Loved the scene with Mikey! I'm so glad they worked it out before Brian left!

I'm expecting Justin to show up unannounced in North Carolina, at some point, you know! I hope you have purchased his plane ticket already!  :-D  LOL

Congrats on the Blue Ribbon ... you sure deserve it!

Cindy

I'm delighted to see a new chapter but too damn tired to read tonight. I want to give you a chapter hit and promise to read this tomorrow when I finally wake up.

Welcome to "10 Most Reviewed Stories" List !!!!!

How well I know how reviews can motivate one to write. I'm very much looking forward to you future chapters and you can count on my chapter reviews too.

I just really hope you don't hurt Justin; I really love that boy!   :)

Author's Response:

Oh, my God.  I literally had no idea.  Being a relative novice here, I'm unfamiliar with most of the features of the site, and, being a total cyber-dweeb, I never much figure out how to join in and check on such things, so I am doubly grateful for both your lovely reviews and for clueing me in.  And know this:  I love Justin too.  No promises that he won't have some rough waters to navigate (Brian too) but they will both survive.  I do (I promise) believe that Brian/Justin are the One True Pairing that put every other pairing to shame.  I really hope you'll love it along the way, and I very much hope to have time and opportunity to read some of your work, about which I'm hearing such lovely things.

CYN

Half a box of Kleenex later...hard to read through tears.

Surgery out of town of course!

Where is Justin's bodyguard?

QAF show was genius for the sub-plots not mention, which you have captured here wonderfully.

I think of all the possible enemies of Brian: Stockwell, Ethan, Craig Taylor, Brandon, and Gardner Vance even. Did I forget anybody?

This story litterly has wrung me out to dry.

Shit....

Have you ever read a story with so many tears in your eyes you couldn't see the words on the monitor?

Right now you're one of my favorite authors, but if you seriously hurt Justin...

I am so far on the edge of my seat it's a miracle I don't fall on my ass.

Your writing is nothing short of amazing.

Plot ideas abounding in my head; Mr. Hamster gleeming with the thought of stealing your ideas; over a thousand adjectives in this chapter to paint the story....@WOW!!!

Stockwell, Hobbs, shit.

Gina Marie turned me on to your story. DAMN you can write!

This story is so wonderful!! I'm a little concerned that Brian seems a little OCC in his dealing with Justin. After knowing of a theat to his sunshine it seems to me that Brian wouldn't let him out of is sight. I do hope that Justin end up going with Brian as he recuperates. Another littlle peeve is that all the guys gay or straight seem to develop lusty feeling for our beloved stud. Not very realistic or even fun to read- getting a bit over done. Oh! after proof reading my comments they come off as a bit critical - please don't take offense!  YOU ARE A BRILLANT WRITER!! I'm following this story to the very end. It's so incredibly good!! BRAVO AND MORE SOON?

Oh... I did not understand the end od this chapter. What was that?

Hmmmm... after Justin's interaction with Ethan, I am wondering if he is somehow involved in Brian's attack.  That would be an exciting twist.  It would be especially interesting to see if Ethan could bring himself to physically hurt Justin.  Great chapter as usual.  Looking forward to more!    

Just love your story, I keep waiting for more, hope all is well with you and yours and that you are writing as I post.

Your story makes me see just how frail and beautiful is the heart of Brian, and just how much Justin is his perfect match.  Beauty is more then skin deep when it comes to these 2 men.

This chapter was beautiful.  I was so happy to see Justin finally grow up emotionally and realize what love really is.   And I was especially happy to see how much Brian still loves Justin.  I have no idea how this story is going to go... I only hope it will end up with Brian and Justin together and happy in the end.   Justin is the only person Brian belongs with, and it has always been that way.   Otherwise you might as well call your story an AU.  *Just kidding.*  :)  Keep up the great work!     

BUT will Brain finally GROW UP TO???????????????????????????????????

It take a real grown up to let someone you love more than yourself go if they want to leave even if it's now with them.. and it take a real man to teach a man to be a man......Justin is a very good teacher.

First sign of Justin growing up.  About time!  Very encouraging. When he said, "if you make him happier, then I'll walk away." Now thats real love. I hope Brian on some level heard that.

Those guys who did this to Brian scare me big time!  The loft!   Oh no. And I have a feeling they are going to get to Ted and manipulate him into helping them. Ted's such an ass.   Who's supplying those monsters with information? I smell a rat in their midst.

Great update. great scene at the end with Justin coming in to soothe Brian.  Our little boy is growing up.   :-)

Sorry to hear you've been having some trouble. I hope the new year brings you nothing but good things!

This is a fantastic story - you have an extraordinary plot and also really interesting personal development. bravo!!! My only question is if Brian is really able to concentrate so much on what he feels needs doing in the future - without suffering the emotional repercussions of torture?

Wow Brian is unbelievable when he sets his mind to a action. His ability to determine how his assortment friends will best be safe even if they hate him in the process. The family have always been blinkered so it is interesting to see Ben understands what is going on.

I really don't know how you can come up with such complexity of Brian. Sometimes I feel like Brian was so big that he is almost like the master of the universe. But then I remember you commented in someone's review that you will later show us Brian's imperfection also. I can't wait to see how you will place that. It will be very interesting.

I like your interpretation of Ben and Emmett. Ben is definitely cool headed to see what's going on. Emmett has the heart of gold that Brian can trust. I am glad that at least Brian has Emmett and Cynthia.

One thing I am not sure is Justin. I like Justin a lot in the early chapters but I am started to dislike him. Someone commented that Justin seems a little OOC, which I can see where that came from. But Justin in the TV series was never consistent to me. So, I can understand all the different interpretations. One thing for sure. Justin needs to grow up. He certainly acted like a child to me in previous chapter. Chris actually acted like a  gentleman to me even in his confrontation with Justin since what he said was just the plain truth.  As I am writing this, I realize what the problem really is. Somehow the pure connected love in the early chapters between Brian and Justin was no longer present in the recent chapters. Ironic that the love connection was there when they were apart but it is so out of sync when they are not. You will definitely be a genius to come up with a plot to bring the love back together... Can't wait.

What the point’s of brain leaving town  if Justin isn’t with him…he’s already hurt him more than if the guy’s who attracted  brain  could do,  why… can’t brain ever be honest with Justin it’s like he love and hate him at same time.. It seem sad that ever story out there want Justin hurt or always being mistreated or seem weak lees than a person by brain. A lot of these story ready make brain seems retreated.

Great chapter.  Every part of this story is filled with so much angst.  I hope that Justin doesn't decide that he can't live without Brian and do something crazy...  I'm looking forward to your next update.

Wow I just love this story. OMG poor Justin he would rather hurt his hand than say what he almost did. Brian's determination to keep Gus and Justin safe is so heartbreaking. Can Justin and Brian become a couple again after all of this 'sigh' cheers Chris

I was so happy to find a new chapter when checking today!

It was a great chapter. Of course I loved the reunion between Brian and Gus and what Gus said about Brian still being there, behind the bandages.

As much as I like Chris, I can't wait for Brian and Justin to find resolution. I guess I'll have to wait longer for it to happen, but I'm loving to see that Justin is not giving up but fighting.

Loved the encounter with Rick Turnage. The character is interesting, as is the interaction with Brian. Two "queens", so it should be interesting to see how this relationship will develop. I loved he drawed Brian as he was and gave him an hope to come back to be that person.

Looking forward to read what happens next!

***doing the happy dance to see another chapter!***  Love this story.  The characters are so richly drawn> Yep, Turnage is a hoot.  Love Chris. Still think Justin needs to do some soul searching-but glad to see him sticking around (even if thats not what Brian wants for him right now)

More please!

OK, I'm ready for things to get going!  I know what you said about the set up but I can't stand that the great Doc hasn't met Brian yet and be able to see     soe hope for Brian!  Keep it coming, it's great!

 

 

 

 

Just read all 20 chapters in 2,5 days... Beautiful! This is seriously the best fanfic I've ever read! I love the way you take your time to describe thoughts, scenerys etc. Keep up the good work!
Can't wait for the next chapter!

Just had to come back and comment again after reading some of the other comments. Unless my reading comprehension skills have deserted me, the whole point of the Mclaren character was to be a believable beard. So how could he be anything less than beautiful and hot for Brian? As for the other peripheral characters who have expressed thoughts about Brian - well in my experience, Brian is an incredibly polarizing character. People love or hate him. I don't know a single person who is indifferent - so I find it perfectly logical that people in the story (and thus, in the Kinney universe) would be as extreme in their thinking.    

 *scratches head*

Yes, Justin is having a little pity party at the moment - but that is completely in character, IMO. I love Justin, and I love Brian/Justin, but Justin was always every bit as (and sometimes more) self-centered as Brian. So yeah, the realization that maybe this time it's HIM who will have to win Brian back is going to take a little time to really sink in.

I don't think you've made a single mis-step in your story telling thus far. Your ability to build towards a climax is terrific and I trust that your story will continue to satisfy - and the bottom line is, it is your story. I'm just glad you let us come along for the ride! 

Another outstanding chapter!  I really hate Mel, and Ted is truly a disappointment.  I hope that Cynthia will be able to recognize Ted's resentment, and keep an eye on him.  He obviously cannot be trusted.  Justin is getting on my nerves - it just seems like he is having a pity party for himself, rather than worry about how Brian is progressing.  Focus on the bigger picture, Justin!  With that said, I am intriqued by McClaren.  I can't wait to see more interaction between Brian and his beard, lol.  Also can't wait for the plastic surgeon (Turnage) to make his grand debut.

Cyn, you continue to outdo yourself.  Merry Christmas to you, and I look forward to reading more soon!  Hugs!

I think Brian shines in stories that show his strengths without demonizing the other characters.

Author's Response:

Thanks for taking the time to comment.  I'm not sure if you mean that I am 'demonizing' the other characters.  I certainly don't intend to do that.  As I've mentioned before, I really, really never liked Melanie, so, if I'm demonizing her, it might be because I think she earned it in the course of the series.  From my perspective, she was consistently focused on her own selfish ends, and proved herself willing to take advantage of everyone around her, including her partner, her friends, and her professional associates in order to get what she wanted. 

But thanks for following along and speaking up.

CYN

I am beginning to hate Ted, Mel is a twisted bitch. I love Emmett I think he is the best thing that can happen to Brian and Justin.  Can't wait for the Dr. to arrive and to see what Justin is going to do about the "new" man.

Author's Response:

Yes, it's probab ly obvious to everyone that I am not a member of the Mel fan club.  But Ted has always been a bit of an enigma to me.  I really, completely disliked his tendency to wrap himself in martyrdom and to blame everyone for everything in his life that didn't suit him, and I also thought he was too conventional and too easily manipulated in his thinking.  But underneath everything, I do think he wanted to be a decent person and a good friend.  In this story, he is still a work in progress, and even I don't quite know whre he'll ultimately choose to go.

Thanks so much for your comment and your continued support.

CYN

Wow! Wow! Wow!  Ok, so much here. First, I don't care if everyone hates me but I sincerely hope Chris and Brian get it on! There are sparks flying there!  You cant' tell me Chris didn't feel something when he kissed Brian. Pretend or not, it's fucking Brian Kinney!  lol   Oh PLEASE develop a very complex, hot, sexy, relationship between the two!  I think if thier farce becomes real, that will be the REAL Test for B/J's love, wouldn't it?  Justin will be forced to fight hard. Fight Brian and fight Chris for Brian!  Talk about a love triangle!  My knees are weak just thinking about it!  lol

Ok, now the bad news...Ted.. WTF???!!!  You're making me despise him. Mel, I can understand. She's a cunt and is out for revenge. But Ted? Brian saved his ass! He knows it and still he's only thinking of saving his own ass, and the business, which I don't think he gets yet that it's BRIAN'S business!  Who the fuck does Ted think he is?  I hope Cyn catches on to what a fucking weasle he is and kicks is ass.

And Justin, wow.  So painfully 'human'.  I can't believe he actually thought, 'why do I have to fight?'  Sorry, but that seem a bit ooc for me. Justin always fought for Brian. Ok, stalked, but in his mind same thing.  I can't  believe he actually wondered why he should have to fight? Yes, he answered his own question, 'because he never really did before' but the fact that he even had to ask himself that question makes me concerned.  If he decides to fight for Brian, the question now is, how hard? And we'll only know how hard he's willing to fight if he's up against real competition. (hint..hint)  Winning Brian's love should NOT be easy for Justin.  And he should be tested.  Loving Brian is a monumental task.  Is Justin up for it? Right now, I'm not so sure. I hope so.

Another great chapter.  Enjoy the holidays! Come back afterwards and thrill us some more with your wonderful story!

Author's Response:

Thanks for your comment - and I always think joy is sweeter if preceeded by heartbreak, so I hope you'll be pleased in the end.

CYN

I'm addicted to this story! Best QAF fic for sure.

OMG, what an AWESOME update!

Everything Emmett said to Justin was SO RIGHT! I don't doubt Justin's love for Brian, but it's easy to understand why Brian always doubted. Justin kept leaving and for a man like Brian, who thinks he doesn't deserve to be loved, this is almost as saying "I don't love you that much."

I'm glad Justin realized what his actions caused.

On the other hand, I'm afraid of Emmett being right about Brian FOR REAL. We know that Chris will be Brian's "boyfriend"...but what if Brian really gave up on Justin? What if, BEFORE the torture he endured, Brian had ALREADY given up? Because all his actions in the beggining of the story were of someone who didn't have hope anymore (hope in his and Justin's relationship)...What if he's really "gone", like Emmett said?

Oh! And thank you for making Brian's "friends" realize what a bunch of *** they always were to Brian!

Once more, you managed to write an amazing chapter. Brian's reaction to his own face was perfect, just like I thought it would be. He's so in character that I can picture the scenes happening (altough I CAN'T imagine Brian's face not being perfect).

I'm completelly addicted to this fic! I hope tour inspiraton to write never leaves you, LOL!

Thanks for another chapter.   :)

 

This story is so fabulous. I jump for joy each time I get an update in my inbox, even though I know that it's going to break my heart.

Justin just needs to be persistent. He needs to stay put finally and continue loving Brian.

I love the angst and the drama of this chapter and it is absolutely true that when the going gets tough, Justin bails...

really sad!

feroza

I would just like to say that I love this story! I found it recced over at LJ, and I began reading it a few hours ago, under the impression that it was finished.... I was very sad to see that it wasn't. But now I have another WIP to follow, which is kind of cool (just in time for the holidays!) Anyway, awesome story, and I love how real you make the characters (I love your Emmett!) I can't wait until the next chapter!! ~Jaime

Indeed.  What has Justin done.  Glad to see it's finally hitting him.  Well, this will be a test of his love. I believe he will accept this Chris character as Brian's new boyfriend, but, if he really loves Brian, he'll fight for his man.  Which I think will be a 'real' fight. Did I imagine that, or was that 'real' attraction between Brian and Chris?  Brian thought him the most beautiful man he ever saw....hmmm....I thought Justin was the 'most beautiful' man he ever saw.  Some real drama coming up I see. LOVE IT!

Ted continues to disaapoint me.  As do the others, but none more than Ted.  Emmett is right.  Brian is not longer the same man.  He's different, and they are going to feel that 'difference' in the days to come.  I think even Brian doesn't realize how differernt he is now. He's 'rediscovering' himself. And I hope in the process, discovers he's a lot stronger the he believed.   Not that he wasn't strong before, he was, but he possessed a strenght he needed to cover up his many insecurities.  He never felt worthy of love, or had any sense of self value. He did see his looks as his 'one' redeeming quality in life.  His brashness, stubborness, and ruthlessness was born out of survival.  We tend to do that, built up defenses, strong ones, to hide our insecurities.  To survive past abuse, and Brian was subject to much past abuse.

However  Brian now is going to realize he has a deeper strenght.  One that's going to break through his insecurities and make him face the man he really is.   He wont' be able to hide from himself anymore.  I don't know if I'm making sence, but I do believe Brian not only hid who he was from his family, but also from himself.  Being 'strong' was a fascade he played well.  His 'mask'.  He can survive anything, and he did.  But now comes the 'true' measure of his strenght and I think he's going to surprise even himself.   He's not just a pretty face with a lot of money and drive.  Those things he strove for, worked for, because he believed they were tools to his strenght are going to pale in comparison to the true strenght he'll find within.   Brian Kinney....meet Brian Kinney...  Ok, I hope I made some semblence of sense in that whole mumble jumble.

Happy for Emmett and Drew!  I see a new direction being taken in B/J's relationship. It cannot be the same as it was.  Nor should it be. That relationshp, as we witnessed, was fraught with flaws. But a new relationship might emerge. One where the new Brian Kinney and the new Justin Taylor (I believe certain revelations wll change Justin as well) will be explored.   I do hope Justin gracefully accepts Chris as Brian's boyfriend.  That would throw Brian off balance.  Brian needs to see  Justin has changed too.   Like Emmett said, he is tired of just waiting around for Justin to leave.   If Justin accepts Chris, yet still pushes forward, I think Brian will start to see him in a new light.  But if Justin acts like Justin, queens out, gets hurt, leaves, whatever, it won't do much for his cause.

Great update. My only complaint is that you are not writing and posting every day!  lol.  What's this RL bullshit? lol   Seriously, I'm very grateful for  the weekly updates, and always eager to read this story. It never disappoints!

 

You surprised me again and again in this chapter. Brian is even deeper than I thought with what he said to Drew.

And listening to Emmett talking to Justin... I couldn't be more shocked when I read "he's just... gone". It is so brutally true. And during the whole speech, I kept thinking about how you wrote Brian in every single earlier chapters, especially in his alone moments. It is so clearly now what you had been paving all along. Amazing. It feels like Emmett wasn't just talking to Justin. But he was talking to us, your readers. I felt like I was slapped on the face too, just like Justin.

Brian's change makes perfect sense. And it showed that when he finally saw the damage on his face. The only way he can rise again is to be reborn like a phoenix.  The only question to us all (characters in your story and us readers) is whether we will still be allowed into the world of the new Brian.

Another great chapter. I'm loving this story more and more with each chapter.

I expected something like that from Brian, it's such a Brian thing to do, to push away the people he loves to protect them. I hope Justin doesn't let Brian do that though. I hope he realizes what Brian's doing and doesn't let go of him.

I can't believe what Brian did, but I should have seen some of this coming. I hope I wasn't the only one who did this. :) Amazing chapter, can't wait to read more.

Also, I love what you're doing with Cynthia. Before, I liked her a lot, but now I'm all of a sudden loving her and can't wait to read more with her & watch QAF when she's in it. :)

Author's Response:

Thanks, Lizzie.  I always love it when the characters that I try to flesh out appeal to my readers.  Hope you continue to enjoy.

CYN

Ok, I am not suprised that Brian lock himself up again, just like what he had done when Justin was bashed, or when he got cancer. At first,  I am kinda pissed off by his lame excuse. Another hot-ass guy? I hope, and I believe this time Justin won't let it go.

However, when I connect what Brian said to Mathis and what he says to Justina292;a321;think maybe this time is different. He is not acting as that kind of lonely hero, licking his wound alone. Maybe the reason he pushes everybody away is that he doesn't want them get hurt. He must be scared by the words from those bastards who kidnapped him, like they would go to find his lover after they torture him.He is taking himself as an virus. Preventing his beloved people from being infectious, he pretends to be cold and distant???

But this time he can not handle everything alone. This is a hate crime. Those bastards are extremely dangerous. He, Justin, and anybody being threatened must work together to fight back!!How and when will he understand!!OMG, sometimes I really want to slap him.

 

I also like the conflict between Cynthia and Mikey. As for Debbie??I don't know. I always think she is the few people who really understand Brian. It was Debbie who told Brian he had fallen in love with Justinz90;And I think Debbie always reminded Mikey not to expect too much from Brian. Maybe she blames Brian for him not being love her son. Butz90;z90;z90;z90;z90;z90;I just always think she is the sensible one in this "pseudo-family". I thought she really loved Brian.

 

Anyway, I am not questioning your understanding of the characters. And I am waiting for more fantastic descriptions of these friends of Brian in your future update.

Author's Response:

Thanks for your comment.  And I really think that one of the most incredible things about these characters and their story is how different people see it in different ways.  I hope you continue to find my version believable.

CYN