Reviewer: SunshineSally (Signed) · Date: May 14, 2015 02:38 AM · On: Let It Take You
Justin always knows what he needs, the pain though, I can't :(
Reviewer: Minoloushe (Anonymous) · Date: February 13, 2010 08:46 PM · On: Let It Take You
You know my thoughts on this chapter already, so this comment was really just going to say again that I loved it :) But for something different, I decided to re-read the chapter while listening to “Helpless” at the same time. Omg…if I loved this chapter before now I’m just a puddle on the floor…I feel ridiculous for saying this but it made me cry…seeing Brian and Justin through and with the song…seriously, I’m just sitting here crying now....
Reviewer: veglogic (Anonymous) · Date: January 28, 2010 02:48 AM · On: Let It Take You
I loved that by Justin not blind folding him, Brian will actually face his emotions for the first time. I think this will go a long way in helping him not resist them in the future. I also wanted to say that I liked the way you wrote Joan. She's very complex. I liked how real you made her. I'm eagerly awaiting more.
Author's Response: Thanks so much. I do think that not having the blindfold was a help to him this time; I'm glad that you agree. Thanks so much -- I did want her to be somewhat complex, since she does have a story. Thanks so much for your great comments :) !
Reviewer: MissMoe (Anonymous) · Date: January 27, 2010 12:43 AM · On: Let It Take You
First off, one line that totally just, blew me away.
My whole body is filled with something venomous… I shake my head desperately, feeling now that I’ll explode if I speak. That I’ll die.
I truly understand that. When I was speaking to my bestfriend about my uhh issues, that's exactly how it felt. Like I had this monster within me fighting, but I just couldn't let it out. When Brian was struggling so hard to be vulnerable, it definitely made me reflect on things. This chapter is definitely intense. Most definitely. Your wording is so on point. I can totally relate and envision every moment that's happening. I enjoy that, a lot, because while I'm reading I'm really experiencing the story and getting to know the character. Beyond what I already know, getting to know him as he grows beyond his defense mechanisms.
Hm, wow, another long review..and it's written during the day again. Yes, it's another yay moment, haha. Yay!
I'm just happy Brian had that release as I did. Now we had totally different ways. I had to write to really release any emotion. Whereas Brian is blessed with Justin to push those boundaries to get him to face his troubles and come out the better for it. :) I can't wait for the next chapter. You're on the ball with posting and I'm on the ball with being less of an insomniac, yay!
Author's Response: Thank you so much for your thoughtful and kind words. I'm so happy to hear that the emotions reflected were genuine and clear. It was such a "capstone" sort of chapter, as I see it. His fear of being emotionally (and then physically out of control, in the manner of his father) contributed a great deal to his terror. He was facing a flood of memories and emotions from the past, since this was the first time since being re-connected with himself as Beautiful.
It's interesting how the same sort of emotional issues can be dealt with in so many different ways...
I wish I could say that the next chapter will be up very soon, but I'm not sure. It's taking a little longer than I thought it would.
Thanks so much for your great reviews! :)
Reviewer: sjmpets3 (Signed) · Date: January 26, 2010 10:12 PM · On: Let It Take You
i don't know how i feel about this chapter.
Author's Response: I know this chapter is rather difficult. Brian was hurt for the first time since his very early years while in touch with himself as "Beautiful." That was what made it so difficult for him; and his emotions that had been kept in for so long were sort of triggered in the process. He fought to keep them all at bay, and was afraid of what would happen if his emotions got out and overran him (as it seemed they would because he felt weak in their presence). With the security of the handcuffs, he knew at least that he would be physically under control even if he emotionally wasn't... Ultimately it turns out to be a very healing experience for him, despite the extreme intensity of the moment.
I hope this makes some sense and thanks so much for your comments! :)
Reviewer: BluvsJ (Anonymous) · Date: January 26, 2010 08:53 PM · On: Let It Take You
OMG.. Hearing Joanie say she let Jack do those horrible things to Brian for his own good.... had to be the worse thing he could hear... Thank God Justin found a way to release his pain... or it would have poisoned him......
Author's Response: It was terribly hard for Brian because of what Joanie said that day, and I think it brought forward many feelings he hadn't expressed for a long time (since he was last connected to himself as "Beautiful"). I'm so glad you enjoyed the chapter. :)
Reviewer: edom (Signed) · Date: January 26, 2010 08:27 PM · On: Let It Take You
I feel so bad for Brian, that feeling that he'll drown if he lets go is so sad.
I love that you made him react the way you did, that is very IC. Justin did the right thing, getting him to a place where it was safe to fall apart, where he knew that Justin would catch him.
So beautiful and I'm looking forward to Dr. Stevenson's reaction to these confrontations.
Author's Response: I'm very glad you liked the chapter. Brian was overcome with a lot of current and past emotions -- thank goodness for Justin! I am looking forward to Dr. Stevenson's thoughts, too. :) Thanks as always for supporting the story! :)
Reviewer: bksbracelet (Anonymous) · Date: January 26, 2010 05:27 PM · On: Let It Take You
OMG so brilliantly written the depth of pain Brian has been in for so long his defenses are so inbuilt he canot let it go easily. Thankfully Justin is there to be his safe place to fall. :)Chris
Author's Response: Thank you so much. It was an extremely difficult time for Brian because it was the first time he'd been hurt since being re-acquainted with himself as Beautiful. Having Justin there was so important... :) Thanks so much for your support of the story. :)
Reviewer: templeton_ma (Anonymous) · Date: January 26, 2010 04:10 PM · On: Let It Take You
*** slient for a long time too ***
I think if one day Brian is able to release his emotion without having to be restrained, then it will be the ultimate rebirth.
Author's Response: I thought about doing that; I paused for a while before writing the sentence with the cuffs... Ultimately though I chose to include the restraints because I think that Brian needs them to feel safer with his emotions. I think at heart he's still afraid of expressing strong emotion. I don't think he physically trusts himself to handle it well and subconsciously requires assurance that in some sense at least, he will remain in control, even when he feels out of control. I think this was influenced heavily by how his father expressed emotion, that left him with a terror of being the same way.
I do think it would be wonderful if Brian could trust himself that much, but I also doubt that it would work, except maybe in the extra long-term. My hunch is that it is so ingrained that it will take a very long time for him to break that pattern.. I hope that makes sense. :)
I'm very thankful for your support of this chapter! :)
Reviewer: Marny (Signed) · Date: January 26, 2010 01:21 PM · On: Let It Take You
* cries * please I need a tissue, beautiful. I wanna hug Brian.
10+
Author's Response: *hands over kleenex*
Thank you so much!!!! I am very grateful for your response to the chapter; it was an extremely meaningful one for me. :)
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