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Penname: TrueIllusion [Contact]
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Member Since: August 12, 2018
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I first started writing fan fiction before the internet was really much of a thing, and way before fan fiction archives existed. My best friend and I didn't even know that's what we were doing when we started crafting stories starring our favorite TV characters alongside original characters we'd created. I wrote *NSYNC fan fiction in high school, that bit the dust when the site I'd posted it on decided to no longer host RPF. Then I dabbled in Harry Potter fan fic in college. Then all of the reading and writing I had to do for grad school all but killed my love of reading, and it's taken me a long time to truly get back into it. Ten years later, I think I'm finally fully there, and I'm back to writing again too.


I've been a fan of QAF since college, in the early 2000s. Brian is my favorite character, because he's so complex, and I truly believe we owe a lot of that to Gale Harold and the way he interpreted the character. I'm a B/J shipper all the way. I'm not a Michael hater. And I love all of the hurt/comfort and the angst.


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Stories by TrueIllusion
Not Like You by TrueIllusion New! Rated: NC-18 [Reviews - 82]
Summary:

It’s funny how life works sometimes -- in cycles, repeating the same themes in different ways with different situations. Leaving it up to us to recognize a familiar situation and call on our past experience to get through it. But sometimes you can’t see the forest for the trees.

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Justin decides to make a huge transition in his career, but things are not always what they seem.


Categories: QAF-U.S. FICTION, Angst, Brian/Justin, Drama, Hurt/Comfort, Post-513 Fic, Real Life Issues Characters: Brian, Justin, Original Character(s)
Challenges: None
Series: Stories from the "Changed" Verse
Chapters: 19 Completed: Yes Word count: 65677
[Report This] Published: August 16, 2019 Updated: November 02, 2019


Summary:

No one had been more shocked than Brian when Melanie, of all people, had suggested that, since she didn't really celebrate Christmas, but J.R. was heading to Pittsburgh to be with her dads, perhaps Brian and Justin would rather come to Toronto to have a more subdued celebration with Lindsay and Gus.

"Lindsay never really gets to enjoy the decorations she puts up, since we're rushing around and then traveling during this time," Mel had explained. "I just thought it would be nice if you and Justin wanted to come to our place instead… You know, let Linds and Gus go all out, and then have a nice quiet holiday at home." 

"Quiet" was all Brian needed to hear before he agreed. 

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Brian and Justin travel to Toronto to spend Christmas with a small part of their chosen family.


Categories: QAF-U.S. FICTION, Angst With a Happy Ending, Brian/Justin, Canon, Family, Fluff, Friendship, Hurt/Comfort, Mel/Lindsay, Post-513 Fic, Christmas Characters: Brian, Gus, Jennifer Taylor, Justin, Lindsay, Melanie
Challenges: None
Series: Fatherhood
Chapters: 9 Completed: No Word count: 24410
[Report This] Published: July 30, 2019 Updated: September 24, 2019


Summary:

I know what Brian is doing -- he’s being protective of me, the same way he always has been. That’s just his nature; he’ll do anything for his friends, and he never wants to see anyone he cares about get hurt, physically or otherwise. But I’m a big girl, and I can take care of myself.

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Cynthia and Brian are more than just co-workers; they're friends. Family, really. But how will they support one another when push comes to shove?

This story fits into the "Changed" verse.


Categories: QAF-U.S. FICTION, Angst, Brian/Justin, Drama, Friendship, Humor, Hurt/Comfort, Post-513 Fic, Real Life Issues Characters: Brian, Cynthia, Original Character(s)
Challenges: None
Series: Stories from the "Changed" Verse
Chapters: 9 Completed: Yes Word count: 33448
[Report This] Published: July 03, 2019 Updated: August 07, 2019


Comfortable by TrueIllusion Rated: NC-18 [Reviews - 8]
Summary:

For some reason, being in Pittsburgh always got me thinking about all of the ways in which our lives had changed over the years, and all of the things that added up to make us into who we eventually became -- the version of us that has been married for close to twelve years now.

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Brian and Justin take a few days in Pittsburgh to just relax and be with each other. However, with Brian's birthday and the anniversary of his accident fast approaching, there's a lot going on in Brian's head.

 

This story fits into the "Changed" verse.

 


Categories: QAF-U.S. FICTION, Angst, Bottom Brian, Brian/Justin, Family, Friendship, Hurt/Comfort, One-Off Fic, Post-513 Fic, Romance, Birthday Fic Characters: Brian, Justin
Challenges: None
Series: Stories from the "Changed" Verse
Chapters: 1 Completed: Yes Word count: 9520
[Report This] Published: June 23, 2019 Updated: June 23, 2019


Summary:

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I really do have the best dad in the entire world.

I know a lot of kids say that -- and they give their dads coffee mugs and t-shirts and dorky-looking ties that say it -- but I feel like for me, it really is true.

My dad kicks more ass than any other dad I know, even though he hasn’t used his legs in almost thirteen years.

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As Gus prepares for his high school graduation, he reflects back on his life so far, and his relationship with Brian.

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This story fits into the "Changed" verse. Thanks to SandiD for the banner!


Categories: QAF-U.S. FICTION, Brian/Justin, Family, Fluff, Friendship, Mel/Lindsay, One-Off Fic, Post-513 Fic Characters: Brian, Gus, Justin, Melanie, Original Character(s)
Challenges: None
Series: Stories from the "Changed" Verse
Chapters: 1 Completed: Yes Word count: 7926
[Report This] Published: June 16, 2019 Updated: June 16, 2019


Summary:

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I was in Atlanta when I first started noticing the strange, intermittent numbness and tingling in the fingers of my right hand. I was finishing up some paperwork, and I was having a hard time holding onto the pen, though at the time I thought it was just because I couldn't feel my fingers in the way that I was used to. I knew I'd been pushing myself too hard, spending too much time working on my laptop and not enough time doing yoga, so I thought it was probably just stress. I needed a break, although I wasn't sure when I was going to get one, because I was only scheduled to have two days at home before I had to leave again to travel to Dallas.

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Rob has a health scare that leads him to reevaluate his life. Brian helps support him along the way.


Categories: QAF-U.S. FICTION, Angst, Drama, Friendship, Hurt/Comfort, Post-513 Fic, Real Life Issues Characters: Brian, Original Character(s)
Challenges: None
Series: Stories from the "Changed" Verse
Chapters: 8 Completed: Yes Word count: 18720
[Report This] Published: May 25, 2019 Updated: June 09, 2019


Summary:

Gus’ lips rolled inward, a carbon copy of Brian’s signature contemplative look. “I just like…” he sighed again, more heavily this time. “I just wish I could forget about this for, like, an hour or something.” 

Brian made a small noise of realization that made Justin look toward him, and as soon as he registered the intention on his husband’s face, he moved closer to Brian and hissed, “No. Brian, you can’t.” 

Brian gave Justin his most charming smile and said, “Oh, but I can!”

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A heartbroken Gus spends a weekend in New York with Brian and Justin. In an effort to help his son, Brian turns to a tried-and-true method.


Categories: QAF-U.S. FICTION, Angst, Angst With a Happy Ending, Brian/Justin, Canon, Could be Canon, Family, Hurt/Comfort, One-Off Fic, Post-513 Fic Characters: Brian, Gus, Justin
Challenges: None
Series: Fatherhood
Chapters: 1 Completed: Yes Word count: 17410
[Report This] Published: June 04, 2019 Updated: June 04, 2019


Full Circle by TrueIllusion Rated: PARENTAL GUIDANCE -13 [Reviews - 4]
Summary:

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Never in my life did I ever think I’d find myself on a business trip with Ted Schmidt, of all people. Actually, never in my life did I think I’d ever find myself in business with Ted Schmidt at all. But, alas, here I am, nearly fifteen years into owning my own business, and nearly fifteen years into being in that business with one Ted Schmidt.

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Brian and Ted go to Chicago for a business meeting that has the potential to change Kinnetik's future, and reflect on the past and their unlikely friendship in the process.

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This story fits into the "Changed" verse.


Categories: QAF-U.S. FICTION, Brian/Justin, Fluff, Friendship, One-Off Fic, Post-513 Fic, Ted/Blake Characters: Brian, Ted
Challenges: None
Series: Stories from the "Changed" Verse
Chapters: 1 Completed: Yes Word count: 7617
[Report This] Published: May 19, 2019 Updated: May 19, 2019


Summary:

Leaning back against the leather headrest, Brian let out a shaky breath, already feeling sweaty and a little disoriented. He realized he had two choices here, both potentially impacting his dignity in a major way. As much as he wanted to try to tough it out the additional half hour, to endure whatever happened next in the comfort of a Four Seasons Hotel suite, the reality of the situation was that Lindsay and Melanie’s neighborhood was much closer. And it was absolutely inevitable that Brian's body was going to revolt sooner than later.

Well, fuck.

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Brian's planned trip to Toronto to spend time with Gus is interrupted by a very-much-unplanned illness, which gives him a lot of time to think, and leads to some unexpected revelations.


Categories: Friendship, QAF-U.S. FICTION, Brian/Justin, Canon, Could be Canon, Family, Fluff, Hurt/Comfort, Mel/Lindsay, Post-513 Fic, One-Off Fic Characters: Brian, Gus, Jenny Rebecca, Justin, Lindsay, Melanie
Challenges: None
Series: Fatherhood
Chapters: 1 Completed: Yes Word count: 22462
[Report This] Published: May 14, 2019 Updated: May 14, 2019


Father Figure by TrueIllusion Rated: NC-18 [Reviews - 7]
Summary:

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This story fits into the "Changed" verse.

“Who the fuck is calling me now?” Brian muttered as he rubbed his eyes and tried to focus on the clock. It was 2:16 a.m., and this call had better not be a client with some so-called emergency, because Brian had people who were supposed to deal with that, whom he’d hired in an effort to keep late night phone calls from happening. He was more than a little perturbed at having been woken up and was ready to give the person on the other end a piece of his mind, until he saw the caller’s name on the display. It was Rob, and that realization sent Brian’s heart into his throat. Rob was an “early to bed, early to rise” sort of guy, and would definitely not be calling at 2 a.m. unless something was seriously wrong.


Categories: QAF-U.S. FICTION, Angst With a Happy Ending, Brian/Justin, Family, Fluff, Friendship, Humor, One-Off Fic, Post-513 Fic Characters: Brian, Justin, Original Character(s)
Challenges: None
Series: Stories from the "Changed" Verse
Chapters: 1 Completed: Yes Word count: 20957
[Report This] Published: May 08, 2019 Updated: May 08, 2019


Matriarch by TrueIllusion Rated: R [Reviews - 39]
Summary:

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Justin's in his studio, working on a painting, when he gets an upsetting phone call from Brian.

This story fits into the "Changed" verse.

Thanks to SandiD and PrettyTheWorld for helping me make the story the best it could be, and to SandiD for creating the banner!


Categories: QAF-U.S. FICTION, Abuse, Angst, Brian/Justin, Drama, Family, Friendship, Hurt/Comfort, Minor Character Death, Post-513 Fic Characters: Brian, Justin, Original Character(s), Other Canon Characters
Challenges: None
Series: Stories from the "Changed" Verse
Chapters: 12 Completed: Yes Word count: 29114
[Report This] Published: April 05, 2019 Updated: May 03, 2019


Summary:

“Sonny Boy--” Brian began, intentionally ignoring Justin’s question.

“--You had no idea why she sent me down,” Gus interrupted, his words more of a statement.

Brian shook his head. “Your mother neglected to inform me of her intentions.”

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Lindsay has ulterior motives when she sends Gus for an unscheduled weekend visit with Brian and Justin.


Categories: QAF-U.S. FICTION, Angst, Bottom Brian, Brian/Justin, Canon, Family, Fluff, Humor, One-Off Fic, Post-513 Fic Characters: Brian, Gus, Justin, Lindsay
Challenges: None
Series: Fatherhood
Chapters: 1 Completed: Yes Word count: 11391
[Report This] Published: April 23, 2019 Updated: April 23, 2019


Summary: Feature

When Justin came home from his studio and found Brian in the kitchen making dinner, he knew something was wrong.

Brian didn’t cook. Even after 15 years of knowing the man and spending most of them in a relationship with him, Justin could count the times Brian had made them dinner on one hand. Apparently, tonight he was adding one more to the tally.

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Fifteen-year-old Gus is spending the summer with Brian and Justin in New York. He decides to test the limits of Brian's relatively lenient parenting style, with unintended consequences.


Categories: QAF-U.S. FICTION, FEATURED STORY, Abuse, Angst, Angst With a Happy Ending, Brian/Justin, Could be Canon, Family, Fluff, Hurt/Comfort, One-Off Fic, Post-513 Fic Characters: Brian, Gus, Justin
Challenges: None
Series: Fatherhood
Chapters: 1 Completed: Yes Word count: 11576
[Report This] Published: April 02, 2019 Updated: April 02, 2019


Normalcy by TrueIllusion Rated: R [Reviews - 7]
Summary:

Sequel to "Simple and Straightforward"

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Counting down the days until Brian’s final radiation treatment was like counting down to normalcy -- at least, as normal as their life together ever had been or could be. At the very least, it would be an end to the runaway roller coaster ride of the last six weeks. Life had been speeding through a shitload of twists and turns, dragging a breathless Justin and Brian along for the white-knuckled ride as they both struggled to make sense of the scenery flying by.

This story was written in July 2018.


Categories: QAF-U.S. FICTION, Angst, Angst With a Happy Ending, Brian/Justin, Canon, Could be Canon, Drama, Gap-Filler, Hurt/Comfort, One-Off Fic, Season 4 Characters: Brian, Justin
Challenges: None
Series: Walking the Tightrope
Chapters: 1 Completed: Yes Word count: 3018
[Report This] Published: March 22, 2019 Updated: March 22, 2019


Summary:

This was the same, only different.

This time, his filters were firmly in place, because Justin knew that kicking, punching, and destroying wasn’t going to fix this. It wasn’t going to take away the fact that his lover had cancer.

This story was written in July 2018.


Categories: QAF-U.S. FICTION, Angst, Angst With a Happy Ending, Brian/Justin, Canon, Drama, Gap-Filler, Hurt/Comfort, One-Off Fic, Season 4 Characters: Brian, Justin
Challenges: None
Series: Walking the Tightrope
Chapters: 1 Completed: Yes Word count: 3071
[Report This] Published: March 22, 2019 Updated: March 22, 2019


Flight by TrueIllusion Rated: R [Reviews - 7]
Summary:

This was why he didn’t do boyfriends. He didn’t do love. He didn’t do commitment. Because when you do boyfriends...love...commitment...you let yourself get attached. When you do boyfriends, you hope and pray they won’t ever leave you. Because if they do, you’ll feel like your soul has been torn out and you have nothing left to live for.

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This is a song fic based on Lifehouse's "Flight." It takes place shortly after the series finale.

It was the second fic I wrote for the QAF fandom in July 2018.


Categories: QAF-U.S. FICTION, Angst, Angst With a Happy Ending, Brian/Justin, Canon, Could be Canon, Hurt/Comfort, One-Off Fic, Post-513 Fic, Real Life Issues, Song Fic Characters: Brian, Justin, Michael
Challenges: None
Series: None
Chapters: 1 Completed: Yes Word count: 3687
[Report This] Published: March 22, 2019 Updated: March 22, 2019


Summary:

He could tell Michael that he loved him. Always had, always will. Brian wasn’t sure why saying “I love you” to Michael was so easy -- why it was different. Why the words flowed off his tongue with Michael but felt stuck in his throat with Justin.

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This is a song fic inspired by Lifehouse's song "Yesterday's Son." It's gap filler, and a peek inside Brian Kinney's head through several key story arcs in the course of the show's five seasons. It's the first story I wrote for the QAF fandom in July 2018.


Categories: QAF-U.S. FICTION, Angst, Angst With a Happy Ending, Brian/Justin, Canon, Gap-Filler, One-Off Fic, Song Fic Characters: Brian, Justin
Challenges: None
Series: None
Chapters: 1 Completed: Yes Word count: 4880
[Report This] Published: March 22, 2019 Updated: March 22, 2019


Familiarity by TrueIllusion Rated: NC-18 [Reviews - 128]
Summary: Feature

Brian asked Justin a very important question when the "Changed" series concluded. What will his answer be? Where will they go from here?


Categories: FEATURED STORY, QAF-U.S. FICTION, Angst, Angst With a Happy Ending, Brian/Justin, Canon, Friendship, Hurt/Comfort, Post-513 Fic, Real Life Issues Characters: Brian, Justin
Challenges: None
Series: The Changed Series, Stories from the "Changed" Verse
Chapters: 30 Completed: Yes Word count: 263228
[Report This] Published: October 22, 2018 Updated: March 17, 2019


Identity Crisis by TrueIllusion Rated: PARENTAL GUIDANCE -13 [Reviews - 1]
Summary:

One shot. Standalone fic. Introspective S4/S5 gap filler from Lindsay's point-of-view.

Written for the 2018 QaF Gift Exchange as a gift for TheaPink on LJ. Request was a story about the girls breaking up and getting back together in canon time, with the song "Just Hold On" as a prompt. The song immediately made me think of their S4/S5 breakup. This is a peek into Lindsay's thoughts during that time.


Categories: Season 5, QAF-U.S. FICTION, Angst, Angst With a Happy Ending, Canon, Could be Canon, Gap-Filler, Mel/Lindsay, One-Off Fic, QAF Gift Exchange LJ, Season 4 Characters: None
Challenges: None
Series: None
Chapters: 1 Completed: Yes Word count: 2112
[Report This] Published: January 08, 2019 Updated: January 08, 2019


Summary:

One shot. Standalone fic. Post-513.

Justin comes home for the holidays. For good.

Plot bunny by BritinManor.


Categories: Christmas, QAF-U.S. FICTION, Angst With a Happy Ending, Canon, Could be Canon, Brian/Justin, One-Off Fic, Post-513 Fic Characters: Brian, Justin
Challenges: None
Series: None
Chapters: 1 Completed: Yes Word count: 4108
[Report This] Published: December 25, 2018 Updated: December 25, 2018


Summary: Feature

One shot. Set 25 years post-series. Standalone fic.

How do you feel your way through the darkness once the sun has gone out?

Brian's journey into the light.

Major character death. You'll want some tissues.


Categories: FEATURED STORY, QAF-U.S. FICTION, Angst, Brian/Justin, Could be Canon, Drama, Hurt/Comfort, Major Character Death, One-Off Fic, Post-513 Fic Characters: Brian, Justin
Challenges: None
Series: None
Chapters: 1 Completed: Yes Word count: 4552
[Report This] Published: December 03, 2018 Updated: December 03, 2018


No Carbs After Seven by TrueIllusion Rated: PARENTAL GUIDANCE -13 [Reviews - 2]
Summary:

One shot standalone fic.

There's more than meets the eye when it comes to Brian's ever-present food rule, "no carbs after seven."

Plot bunny by Sally. Thanks to SandiD for beta reading.


Categories: What If, Abuse, Angst, Could be Canon, Child Abuse, Family, Drama, One-Off Fic, Real Life Issues Characters: None
Challenges: None
Series: None
Chapters: 1 Completed: Yes Word count: 3229
[Report This] Published: November 26, 2018 Updated: November 26, 2018


Summary:

Sickfic without plot. Justin gets sick. Brian takes care of him.

One-shot.

Set late season 4, post-cancer, pre-Liberty Ride.


Categories: QAF-U.S. FICTION, Brian/Justin, Canon, Could be Canon, Fluff, Gap-Filler, Hurt/Comfort, One-Off Fic, Season 4 Characters: Brian, Justin
Challenges: None
Series: None
Chapters: 1 Completed: Yes Word count: 3610
[Report This] Published: November 01, 2018 Updated: November 01, 2018


Three Days by TrueIllusion Rated: R [Reviews - 7]
Summary:

An account of the three days Michael and Brian spent at the hospital, after Justin was bashed. Takes place right at the end of episode 122 and moves forward from there.


Categories: QAF-U.S. FICTION, Angst, Brian/Justin, Canon, Friendship, Gap-Filler, Hurt/Comfort, One-Off Fic, Rape, Real Life Issues, Season 1 Characters: Brian, Justin, Michael
Challenges: None
Series: None
Chapters: 1 Completed: Yes Word count: 11622
[Report This] Published: October 17, 2018 Updated: October 17, 2018


The Lost Boy by TrueIllusion Rated: PARENTAL GUIDANCE -13 [Reviews - 3]
Summary:

The first time Debbie Novotny heard about Brian Kinney, Michael was in the eighth grade. It was just after spring break. He’d come home from school chattering away excitedly about the new boy in his class who’d just moved to Pittsburgh from some town she couldn’t remember. All through dinner it was Brian this, and Brian that. Michael was clearly enamored with this Brian kid.


Categories: QAF-U.S. FICTION, Abuse, Could be Canon, Child Abuse, Family, Friendship, Hurt/Comfort, One-Off Fic, Christmas Characters: Brian, Debbie, Michael
Challenges: None
Series: None
Chapters: 1 Completed: Yes Word count: 9353
[Report This] Published: October 16, 2018 Updated: October 16, 2018