Brian put his foot up on the bench seat and gave Michael a push, sending him on his ass to the floor.

This so should have been canon!

You must feel like Im spamming you with comments.  I really enjoy the tone of your stories and it appears I am going thru them all one by one, lol.

Brian looked over at his over priced cat carrier only to have Sophie hiss at him. Brian hissed back. It was going to be a long twenty years.

Ha Ha.  Great line.  I have two kitties myself and I dread every birthday for them, opposite of Brian, I dont want them to get old!

OH, and my cats walk on counters and coffee tables, too.  Im glad Im not the only one!  They dont like pepperroni though, but they will stick their heads into any unattended tea cup!

I like this story a lot so far.

Cute story.  Im glad you added the epilogue.  I dont necesarily need to go ahead 10 years, but its nice to know how the family accepted Justin and how the cats, and Brian, managed to integrate.  LOL.   Upchucking cat, never good.  Cat upchucking your $600 cashmere sweater on your undoubtedly Prada shoe - run cat RUN!

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thank you

OOOhhhh.  How did I forget that Justin kept in touch with Sonny Boy via internet and phone?  :o)

Money should make life easier, but it sure can  wreck a relationship.  Im glad Brian is willing to be reasonable.

I like Peter the limo driver.  :o)

Nice AU, a very different take of how Brian and Justin end up together.  I love the setting and "fish boy"  :o)

Just rereading to help me go to sleep and have good dreams... it really doesn't get better than this:

“Brian?” Justin whispered softly after a few moments of silence. He held up his right hand, which was still trembling slightly. “Hold my hand.”

I took his hand gently in mine, running my fingers over it, turning it over in my palm and suddenly realizing how small and delicate it was compared to mine. I brought his hand to my lips and kissed it, making Justin unfurl his fingers and splay them out against my face, holding onto my thumb which rested across his palm. I wove his fingers with my own and brought both our hands down to rest against his chest.

“I don’t hate my hand when you’re holding it,” Justin whispered so softly his words were almost lost to the blissful silence than enrobed us. “I don’t hate the world when I’m with you. I don’t hate my life when you’re in it…”

Justin’s voice trailed away as he drifted peacefully from the conscious world and into sleep. I buried my nose in Justin’s soft fragrant hair, holding him tightly and closing my eyes as they stung with tears. I knew he wouldn’t remember his beautiful words in the morning just as I knew I would never forget them.

I was his pain management.

Ugh.  I live on Vancouver Island, but am not familiar with Blackcomb.  I've been to Whistler but only in the summer.  Beautiful area, but even with etherial snow covering it your story dramatically paints it in bleekness.

after the death fic I had to read something that makes me smile... this fic had me grinning like a fool like it always does.

At this late stage of inebriation, I could almost forget that I was wearing the furry reindeer head ornamentation. That was, until I tried turning around and floppy fucking ears whapped me across the face.

GIGGLE!

I thought of trying to make some witty quip that combined the words ‘humbug’ and ‘fucking’, but all I could come up with ‘humbuggering’ which didn’t quite sound right…

SNORT!

#4. Something you receive from a guest’. 

Uhhh…After pondering the point for a few moments, I wrote down ‘DAMAGE DEPOSIT’. You can never trust some people. May be I’d get an extra score for using two ‘D’s’ in a row.

OMG!

When my turn to share came around, I’d gotten as far as ‘eggnog maker’ (which for the record, got shot down despite my fervent arguments), before Justin started giggling like a giddy school girl beside me. 

“What’s so fucking funny, elf boy?” I asked him, giving him a playful poke in the ribs. Justin gave another snort of laughter that sounded like a motorcycle starting up and shook his head, making a valiant effort at self-control.

“I’m just,” he gasped, looking up and wiping the tears of mirth from his face, “just admiring your astonishingly creative literary skills.”

I DONT NORMALLY FIND DRUNKS THIS SEXY... BUT THIS BRIAN GUY.

‘TH-PIDERS’ AND ‘TH-LIPPERS’

GRINS!

It was an ‘F’. Perfect.

YES.  EVERYTHING BRIAN WROTE IN THIS ROUND WAS PERFECT(LY FUNNY)!

“Justin, How ‘bout you Haul your Horny Husband’s Hiney Home so you can Have Hot Happy Holiday Hokey…and leave us to finish the fucking game?”

A CHRISTMAS MIRACLE!  I NEVER WOULD HAVE EXPECTED MIKEY TO BE SO GOOD WITH THE ALLITERATION!

EXCELLENT STORY!

A little hard to follow, but based on the reviews, so worth it.  Im gonna give it a try!

Oh Vince, you have no chance.

I like the co-op housing idea.  Its great to see Brian in NY with Justin.  Justin seems so exiled when he doesn't have anyone from Liberty Ave near him.  I hope your story will include Daphne, I think she would try to be near Justin as much as possible, at least by phone or text.

Oh boys!  Hunter, you fool.  A girl would easily give up dinner in a fancy restaurant than find out how Hunter paid for it!

Mikey, well.....Ok, Im not surprized or particularily shocked.  He's always been a bit of an idiot.

Brian - good boy!  Sticking with your man in sickness and in health.  The fact that he knew Justin was to sick to fool around before he flew out, but came to visit anyway, makes me love him bunches more!

The new characters are interesting and Im looking forward to learning all their secrets.

Poor dumb Michael.  Lou is hilarious, I like her.  Ted, poor bastard.  I think Blake is out of liine in this case - I hope he can find it in himself to look objectively at Ted and their relationship.  I hope Ted "mans up" and doesnt waste any chance he is given.

This is a slower format to read and I am so drawn to the story I haven't been off my computer much in two whole days!

I thought you wrote jealousy rather well, and I love both parteners dropping their own jealousies to reassure each other.  Mom walking in while they were fixing the "pipes" was funny.

Im glad Ethan and Evan are gone.  Im glad Daph and Lou are good.  I like that Brian wants to focus mre on their relationship.  I hope they live in the same city again soon.

I hate to think this is almost over!  Vince is pathetic and would be breaking my heart if he wasn/t so self centered to begin with.  Probably mean, right?  Just when he kept walking in on B/j, breaking the bowl, and messing up the loft, I found him unapologetic and rude.  Now he broke into our lover's houe and as far as I am concerned is desicrating it by sleeping in their master bedroom - he sould have at least used a guest room.

I never watched the episodes with Drew and Emmett so I dont have an opinion, but Liam wasn't for him either way.  He thought Liam was creepy at times, and didnt have the chemistry he has with Drew.  I see nothing wrong with giving it a go - but I think Drew will break his heart.

Brian and Justin so far dont have any interaction with the gang and I miss that.  I hope the next chapter has some more scenes as well as your "outtakes".  LOL, Im glad for the extras!  :D

Very nice!  You shoulc be proud of yourself for finishing this daunting project.  I enjjoyed it very much---now I might be able to get some sleep because I haven't been able to do anything in my spare time but read it!   Luckily, the weather has been so hot that laying about trying to keep cool is the only appropriate reaction, so sitting with the laptop as long as I have been doesn't look as pathetic as it could have!

One:  the wedding that wasnt is what Brian and Justin most likely would have done...their relationship has always been misunderstood and kept private so their ring ceremony makes sense to be private...it also allows them to stake a public claim on each other that doesn't raise expectations for them to suddenly change into stepford fags.  In time....who knows

Two:  Im glad it ended happily.  The whole lot of them deserved a moment of time when everyone was content.

Three:  I would have liked to see them move into Britin, or heard more about the reviews for Justin's art show.  I like to think of him being busy with commissions and portraits as well as being his usual creative genus.  Maybe even going back to school.

Four;  so, where is this season 7?

Michelle

In one swift move Brian was inside of Justin. He gave Justin a few seconds to adjust and then he started to move hard and fast inside Justin so the blond would know who he belonged to. Justin tried to push himself up so he could be on all fours and push against Brian but the brunet had a good hold on his neck and wasn’t letting him move.

“Brian.” Justin yelled.

Brian leaned down and bit Justin’s shoulder and sucked on the smaller man’s neck hard so it would leave a mark. He wanted everyone to know that Justin was his.

GUH!  I love Brian`s possesiveness and need to declaire his claim (instead of denying he has any feelings at all for Justin).

“What are you doing here, Erica? ” Justin asked.

Erica looked at him not sure what he had said. She really didn’t care. “I came for Eric.”

Wow. I know that some people can be described as a breath of fresh air, but man, she is a blast of arctic air!  Burrr. 

Brian was sure that he couldn’t talk at that moment to save his life. He was scared shitless of giving Justin’s his present.

“Are you okay?” Justin asked.

“I got you something,” Brian signaled not being able to utter a word.

Justin smiled a little not sure if he wanted it.

“You have given me enough Brian,” Justin assured him.

Fear of Brian pushing him away later will probably always taint the gifts Brian gives of himself.  Which is silly on Brian`s part.  How much more can you declaire your love and commitment than breaking holes in walls and making a bedroom for you and your lover`s children to share?  Very loving and sexy chapter.  I loved it!

Too many things made me happy to quote them all in this chapter!  It was all so nice and loving.

Apologizing and saying he loved him was an amazing gift from Jack to Brian.  Even if he didn't mean it, it would/could/should heal a lot of wounds.

“Daddy?” Eric asked.

Justin looked at his son and smiled.

“What is it baby?” Justin asked cleaning Eric’s mouth.

“Daddy?” Eric asked.

Justin frowned and realized then that Eric wasn’t calling for him, but for Brian.

This is both an AWWW! and an OUCH!  Because Brian is spending so much time with Eric its really sweet to see the baby miss him, but it also must be weird to have your child call out `daddy` for someone else.

Oh, and it is fun hearing Michael getting to call Brian pathetic and a moron for a change, lol.

Wow.  I imagine it would be exciting and maybe a bit frightening to "hear" all the noise of the world again.  I understand that a person born deaf would actually have a very hard time handling it.  Its a good thing Justin went deaf after knowing what the phone sounded like, and what a knock on the door was.

Yeah, I just bet Brian had Ethan's number the moment he walked into the room, lol.

Im glad Michael and Hunter are looking after their friends.  Its nice to see them for Brian's and Justin's relationship.

Its weird how Brian gets along better with his father than his mother.  I mean, I guess I understand it.  Physical abuse is easier to heal from than emotional abuse.  I guess ignoring your son's cries for help is the worst a mother can do.  I really and truly dislike Joan.  Yet, canon has Jack as some sort of redeamable character.  I dont think he is.  Im not sure why he even tried, especially as Brian being gay must have been just another thing to hate about his son.

Brian kept watching all of them make a mess and then looked back at Justin, Eric and Gus and he smiled. He simply didn’t care if they broke anything else or if the boxes seem to be making the loft look awfully small. Justin was there with him and that was the important thing.

I love that Eric is kinda "weird".  And that Brian and Justn are adjusting so quickly.

Congratulations on getting a blue ribbon designation!  You and this story really deserve it!

And yes, Im back reading it again, lol.  Ive been so busy lately that I dont have time to get lost in a new story, if you know what I mean.  I just want a good read before bed without being so curious about what comes next that I stay up too late.  While short one offs are great, after a steady diet of them they dont really cut it anymore.  So I sometimes find myself rereading stories that are longer and more indepth with character arcs and real plots just to keep up the good feelings my inner gai boi requires for my general well being and happiness.  :o)

WHY MICHAEL IS AN ASS:

 “You brought him.” Michael said.
“I don’t see why not?” Brian asked. “You brought Ben.”
“But he is my boyfriend.” Michael pointed out. “And he is part of the family.”
“And Justin will someday.”  <--- *SMILES*
“Why are you doing this?” Michael asked. “Do you feel sorry for him?”
“You know pity makes my dick soft.” Brian told him getting annoyed.
“Well, have you fucked him?” Michael asked.
“No.”
“Then I guess your dick is soft!” Michael hissed before he moved away.

WHY MELANIE CAN BE A REAL CUNT:

“The rolls, please.” Melanie tried again.
Melanie tapped Justin on the shoulder and he turned towards her with a questioning face.
“Are you fucking deaf or just fucking retarded? Can you pass me the fucking rolls and stop fawning over Brian?” Melanie hissed.
“Mel.” Lindsey complained.
Justin came out of his daze and got up. He took the rolls and gave them to Melanie before he walked away.

WHO TALKS TO PERFECT STRANGERS LIKE THAT?!  JUST BECAUSE JUSTIN LIKES BRIAN?!

Justin smiled back and kissed him. Brian pulled him closer to his body and kissed him back. He loved kissing Justin.

“I guess this means you guys are okay,” Jennifer said.

Brian pulled back startled. Justin looked at him weird until he saw what Brian was looking at. He blushed and hid his face on Brian’s shoulder. Brian smiled at Jennifer and nodded.

Even in canon Jennifer and Brian got along when she finally understood that Brian really cared for her son, and that her son was truly in love with Brian.   She is a good mom.

“Here,” Jennifer said, putting Eric in Justin’s arms. “He was crying.”

Justin looked at his mother, not sure if it was true. He looked at Eric who looked okay and wondered if his mother would say something like that to make him reconsider the operation. He took a deep breath and sat down with Eric on the bed. He didn’t know what to do anymore.

This was pretty harsh of Jennifer.  I can understand Justin`s reluctance - the fear of disappointment is really intense in these situations.  Then her throwing in Brian and the baby just seems really harsh.  Of course he wants to hear them.  But just thinking about it gives him the desire, then comes hope, then the intense fears that it just wont happen.

I liked this a lot. Thanks for writing and posting it here.

Okay, I think Im getting confused by the timeline.

Justin went to NY in winter and had not called Simon for 3 months.  Then, if he had three semesters of school and is about to graduate it means he has been gone just short of two years.  Which means we caught up to the prologue?

I didn't know there would be so much agnst in this story - at least that is how Im reading it.  Justin's talking about not being ready to come back, and Brian's visits are rare and conversations over the phone are stilted.  Brian has been having difficulty emotionally. Then that prologue!

Damn Drama Queen!  By not saying anything he only worries everyone more!

He said 'bye', not 'later'.................

Okay, maybe Lindz is redeaming herself a bit here, but somehow it still sounds..............I dont know.

And that last paragraph. :o(

Okay, Im getting a headache.  I dont do agnst well.  Ive been wanting to read Cynical21's fic, but I  cant bring myself to do it.  :o(

Fuck!  But Yay!  But fuck!  And the Ethan thing - shit.

OH I am glad Justin is packing up his paintings and getting out of their!  He should also pack up his apartment and take it all home to Pittsburg.

And check on Brian.

Are you going to make me cry?

Soooo...He's hiding cancer so Justin will follow his destiny....then he will get treatment hiding from everyone so Justin wont find out.....and he plans on being healthier than ever when they visit and reunite?  Right?

Honestly, I think I need a little breather from this fic.  You are doing a marvellous job telling this story.  You are talented and know the characters well - - - Im just too pathetic for too much agnst.

LOL.  I think Ill either re read some fav fic or hunt down some fluffy or pr0n fic, just to fortify myself.  LOL

I love your poem "Dream Pool".  It is profound and awesome.  I'd say it's amazing you wrote it when you were only 16, but I know that as adults we don't grow to see truth more clearly, but more compromised.  A youth's optimism and strong sense of right and wrong are beautiful.  Of course great art can come from them.  :)

I loved that Brian 'wrote' it for Sunshine, and gave him a book ready to hold all their memories.  I'd felt the occasional urge to comment on this story, but that part just made me swoon with happiness and I couldnt hit 'next' until I did.  

I fear this may be your 'magnum opus' for this fandom.  Every time I read it I love it more and more.  And your poem!  Dream Pool is beautiful and this story is a fitting setting for such a jewel.

Its interesting having Brian as the younger one.

Love the end of this one, a real favorite.  I am a rarity, or it seems from reading a lot of the comments on other stories/sites, I like when Brian calls Justin Baby, or his boy.  Not all the time, more like it accidentally slips out in the heat of passion.  LOL.

Oh, and yes, SPAMMED YA!

Very weird but likeable fairy tale.  It took me awhile to catch on to what kind of creatures they were.  Ted was confusing, and the mating seemed like warewolves or something.  But, having Michael turning green at the end, how could that not be a "happily ever after?"

I loved the love, but didn't like the end, sorry.  I cant see Brian in that way or Justin so accepting of it.  That's not Justin.  I kept hoping that they would run away or something.

Did  you ever right the sequel?

Brian then slid the door closed. Justin started crying and ran down the stairs. He needed to get home. He had never felt so bad in his life. He just wanted to close his eyes and die.

Whenever Justin cried on the show it just broke my heart, especially when Brian was to blame.

Intrequing start...

Why is Brian so violent with Justin?  I hope that Justin is doing more than tolerating it, but enjoying it - otherwise its just squicky.

Ooh, nice stirring of the plot with the blackout thingys!

On no, not Daphne!  I think there is some fanfic law that says you cant do that to such a favorite character!  If not then I propose we make it a law, :o(

Okay, Kennedy, that makes him the killer of Blake and is the guy in the mask  who stabbed Justin once before.  What about the rest of the tricks, Ben and Ethan and Daphne? (I got the impression Daph recognized her attacker and wanted to know how he got in the apt - so no mask and Kennedy doesn't make sense as someone she knows)

Chas Kennedy was the guy gunning for Brian's top spot at the ad agency, but drowned at his cabin.  Is he a relation to Derek Earl Kennedy, the murderer? 

That also leaves the trick in the elevator (penn) an Justin's parents' murder a mystery - if they are even remotely related.

There are also the mysterious circumstanses of Justin's hit and run, Hobbs, Brian's dad, and the guys who jumped Brian when he was tricking in the beginning of the story.  Though, of course these may all just be red herrings.....

Bah, its all still such a mystery!

OH YOU! 

If it wasn't oh so marvellously, romantically, insanely for the love they have for each other, this would be a terrible terrible terrible end to a murder mystery. 

Yet, you really pulled it off by letting Justin be the "innocent" I have always adored and allowed Brian to do everything he does if only because he could NOT protect those he loves. 

They retain a love of mythic proportions, so how could I not forgive them (AND YOU!) for doing all they can to protect it?

BRAVO!

Poor Chance.  He is not going to stand a chance, is he?

I like how relaxed Justin got to be when he was drunk.  It was a nice break from what I could only imagine would be total fury.

The glimpse of Brian's inner thoughts were nice.  At least a little bit of the Brian we love has shown itself.  I hope Justin sees it soon.  The last sentence certainly indicates he'd be pleased if he know how much Brian really wanted him for hisself.

I never liked the novels whose main character was opressed.  It drives me insane.  Im hoping that Im gonna like this story more andmore as we go along.

If  you love something, then set it free.  If it returns to you, then its yours.

To be let free would be the greatest "gift" Brian could give Justin.

Justin returning to Brian in his own free will, would be the greatest gift Justin could give Brian.

Taking the risk at all.......well, could either of them?

“Hey,” Brian said wrapping his arms around the blond.

Justin turned around and gave him a big smile while his brain thought of the perfect plan to get away

This is why I can't read these kidnap type stories.  This line makes me sad.  Why?!  I should be glad that Justin is still thinking with the head on his shoulders.  Yet, after their great night together I rather wish that they both were closer emotionally.

And I just wrote that after ranting several chapters about Justin's self worth and masculinity.

See?  Stories like this ultimately make me skitzo.  Not good for my mental health at all.  LOL.

Poor conflicted Justin.  But in essence he is a good man.  I dont think he could kill anyone unless he or someone he cared for was in imminent and potentially fatal danger.

Brian is a very dark character in your story.  That he has a soft spot for Justin appears to be his one and only redeaming feature.  Well, that and he is hot.

Oh damn.  What a roller coaster ride.  Brian's insecurity has always been his downfall with Justin.  Justin,  while being "on" to Brian, frequently forgot that in canon, but in your story I think Justin is sailing blind on dark waters and has no idea what goes on in Brian's head.

How can Brian hear Justin ask to keep snuggling while giggling and saying he's happy only hear Justin express hate for him as well as their entire circumstances?

So Brian loves Justin and Justin loves Brian and everyone knows it.

It really only makes things more difficult.  If Justin stops fighting he will be `broken` and lose an important part of himself.  If Justin stops fighting, Brian will not love him the same, because that is the part of Justin he respects - that strength that fuels his fearlessness.

Its funny.  On the show, at the end, Justin HAD to leave. 

I`ve never been able to make myself watch the last episodes one by one in full and in sequece because it breakes my heart too much.  I catch 10 or 12 min videos on youtube.  My season 5 dvds are still not unwrapped at all, and Ive had them well over a year now. LOL.

But, I must say objectively, Justin DID have to leave.  He was too young and inexperienced to make a huge decision like marriage without going out on his own for a little bit.  Maybe that is not necessary for all couples or all young people, but Brian and Justin are not ordinary.  I cant ever imagine Brian, being as successful as he is and at his young age not reaching even further and perhaps moving to NY one day too, for business.  Perhaps somewhere else, even.

And Justin, he wants to be an artist.  Not just to live off his work, but to be one of the greatest.  He needs life experience and new perspectives to do that kind of work.  He has only lived a tiny life in Pittsburg.  His experiences by way of violence has unfortunatly be varried and vast, but there is a lot of other things life has to offer.  He NEEDED to leave, even if only to know for sure that he could go back home to Brian.

In your story, Justin HAS to ESCAPE to equalize the power struggle between he and Brian.  Neither could ever be sure of the other until all choices are made without control being an issue.  Justin is his own man again, they are now Equals.

Im rationalizing and rambling.  I believe what Im writing, but Im also sure the agnst that making these decisions is going to begin in the next chapter and Im a little concerned how painfull all that is going to be.  :o|

I love them.  You know?  I just really love them.

Im glad Justin didn't do anything with Brandon.  I know Brian's feelings on the rights of gay men and fucking, but your story on the boat seems to be a bit different.  I think.  Because they are doing it raw, I think of Brian and Justin as being monogamous.  And I think they are, but that doesn't mean they are not human and are occationally tempted.  As Justin was by Brandon.  I trust that Brian didn't do anything with Luke.  Justin's actions with Brandon looked just as guilty.  They both need to talk.  I suspect as Brandon tends to Justin, he will let Brian know how much the blonde loves the captain. 

I hate the idea of a scarred Justin.  Is that wrong?

okay.  im concerned.  the boys are all in danger.  and we only have one chapter to go!?!?

LOL.  Honestly, I wasn't too sure about this story when I read the warning.  To me Justin will always be the sweet, unaturally sane one.  So the thought of an Asshole Justin was just too bizzaro.  But he is the same kind of asshole as Brian has always been - if he hurts you it was only because he was trying to protect you from something worse.  He's not really an asshole, just fcuked up, lol.

I liked the surprise ending (the reason Justin left) and was thinking that the story could really have been an AU with canon up to season three - maybe just before or during the Stockwell thing.  They were at a really nice place relationship-wise then, but still tricking - a perfect set up to your plot twist.

I like AU that comes off of canon, it gives it a meatier backstory if the author isn't going to build one up so I can really feel how the gang would interact and react within the new plot.

I hope Im not coming off as too critical - this is just my opinion and only worth as much as you're willing to give me for it, lol.  Thanks for writing the story and I certainly enjoyed it enough to read the other stories you have written on Midnight Whispers.

Michelle

I heard Cyntha laugh in the background and blushed.  There weren't many people Brian allowed to hear our private exchanges.  Cynthia had been around for everything.  Seen every thing, heard everything.  Brian trusted her. Sometimes I wonder if she isn't taking notes and plotting a torrid gay romance novel based on the roller coaster that is Brian and Justin.

Oh, how I wish I had the kind of view into the B/J love affair that Cynthia no doubt has!

I sat, amazed at my confessions, my anger at Lindsay.  She was supposed to be my friend, the mother of my child and… my Wendy.  But she refused to let Peter grow up.  Instead she robbed me of my Lost Boy then took my son and headed for Canada.  She had left me with nothing and I was fucking furious that I had allowed it.

Its about effing time Brian finally saw what Lindsay was doing.  I dont know if the writers of QAF meant for her to be a coniving bitch or shortsighted and concerned.  What I do know,  is that Brain allowed her too much influence.  Brian doesnt have a lot of friends, and the closest ones aren't very good ones. 

Cynthia and Ted have his back as much as Justin does.

"So, let's look at this from a different perspective, Brian. Have you ever wondered why you didn’t go with him?" he asked calmly.

Lines like this convince me of Ted's sincere concern for Brian;c and growing awareness of how to support Brian.   He's been there for Brian with his sound Business sense and accounting, then covering for him physically, and now he is stepping up "poking the tiger" and trying to help Brian emotionally.  I think Ted is quite brave.  And a true friend.

YAY.  Them working together is probably my favorite AU plots.  Megan seems amazing.  The offer seems amazing.  I hope you will finally reveal what's on Brian's mind!