Brian put his foot up on the bench seat and gave Michael a push, sending him on his ass to the floor.

This so should have been canon!

You must feel like Im spamming you with comments.  I really enjoy the tone of your stories and it appears I am going thru them all one by one, lol.

Brian looked over at his over priced cat carrier only to have Sophie hiss at him. Brian hissed back. It was going to be a long twenty years.

Ha Ha.  Great line.  I have two kitties myself and I dread every birthday for them, opposite of Brian, I dont want them to get old!

OH, and my cats walk on counters and coffee tables, too.  Im glad Im not the only one!  They dont like pepperroni though, but they will stick their heads into any unattended tea cup!

I like this story a lot so far.

Cute story.  Im glad you added the epilogue.  I dont necesarily need to go ahead 10 years, but its nice to know how the family accepted Justin and how the cats, and Brian, managed to integrate.  LOL.   Upchucking cat, never good.  Cat upchucking your $600 cashmere sweater on your undoubtedly Prada shoe - run cat RUN!

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thank you

OOOhhhh.  How did I forget that Justin kept in touch with Sonny Boy via internet and phone?  :o)

Money should make life easier, but it sure can  wreck a relationship.  Im glad Brian is willing to be reasonable.

I like Peter the limo driver.  :o)

Nice AU, a very different take of how Brian and Justin end up together.  I love the setting and "fish boy"  :o)

Just rereading to help me go to sleep and have good dreams... it really doesn't get better than this:

“Brian?” Justin whispered softly after a few moments of silence. He held up his right hand, which was still trembling slightly. “Hold my hand.”

I took his hand gently in mine, running my fingers over it, turning it over in my palm and suddenly realizing how small and delicate it was compared to mine. I brought his hand to my lips and kissed it, making Justin unfurl his fingers and splay them out against my face, holding onto my thumb which rested across his palm. I wove his fingers with my own and brought both our hands down to rest against his chest.

“I don’t hate my hand when you’re holding it,” Justin whispered so softly his words were almost lost to the blissful silence than enrobed us. “I don’t hate the world when I’m with you. I don’t hate my life when you’re in it…”

Justin’s voice trailed away as he drifted peacefully from the conscious world and into sleep. I buried my nose in Justin’s soft fragrant hair, holding him tightly and closing my eyes as they stung with tears. I knew he wouldn’t remember his beautiful words in the morning just as I knew I would never forget them.

I was his pain management.

Ugh.  I live on Vancouver Island, but am not familiar with Blackcomb.  I've been to Whistler but only in the summer.  Beautiful area, but even with etherial snow covering it your story dramatically paints it in bleekness.

after the death fic I had to read something that makes me smile... this fic had me grinning like a fool like it always does.

At this late stage of inebriation, I could almost forget that I was wearing the furry reindeer head ornamentation. That was, until I tried turning around and floppy fucking ears whapped me across the face.

GIGGLE!

I thought of trying to make some witty quip that combined the words ‘humbug’ and ‘fucking’, but all I could come up with ‘humbuggering’ which didn’t quite sound right…

SNORT!

#4. Something you receive from a guest’. 

Uhhh…After pondering the point for a few moments, I wrote down ‘DAMAGE DEPOSIT’. You can never trust some people. May be I’d get an extra score for using two ‘D’s’ in a row.

OMG!

When my turn to share came around, I’d gotten as far as ‘eggnog maker’ (which for the record, got shot down despite my fervent arguments), before Justin started giggling like a giddy school girl beside me. 

“What’s so fucking funny, elf boy?” I asked him, giving him a playful poke in the ribs. Justin gave another snort of laughter that sounded like a motorcycle starting up and shook his head, making a valiant effort at self-control.

“I’m just,” he gasped, looking up and wiping the tears of mirth from his face, “just admiring your astonishingly creative literary skills.”

I DONT NORMALLY FIND DRUNKS THIS SEXY... BUT THIS BRIAN GUY.

‘TH-PIDERS’ AND ‘TH-LIPPERS’

GRINS!

It was an ‘F’. Perfect.

YES.  EVERYTHING BRIAN WROTE IN THIS ROUND WAS PERFECT(LY FUNNY)!

“Justin, How ‘bout you Haul your Horny Husband’s Hiney Home so you can Have Hot Happy Holiday Hokey…and leave us to finish the fucking game?”

A CHRISTMAS MIRACLE!  I NEVER WOULD HAVE EXPECTED MIKEY TO BE SO GOOD WITH THE ALLITERATION!

EXCELLENT STORY!

A little hard to follow, but based on the reviews, so worth it.  Im gonna give it a try!

Oh Vince, you have no chance.

I like the co-op housing idea.  Its great to see Brian in NY with Justin.  Justin seems so exiled when he doesn't have anyone from Liberty Ave near him.  I hope your story will include Daphne, I think she would try to be near Justin as much as possible, at least by phone or text.

Oh boys!  Hunter, you fool.  A girl would easily give up dinner in a fancy restaurant than find out how Hunter paid for it!

Mikey, well.....Ok, Im not surprized or particularily shocked.  He's always been a bit of an idiot.

Brian - good boy!  Sticking with your man in sickness and in health.  The fact that he knew Justin was to sick to fool around before he flew out, but came to visit anyway, makes me love him bunches more!

The new characters are interesting and Im looking forward to learning all their secrets.

Poor dumb Michael.  Lou is hilarious, I like her.  Ted, poor bastard.  I think Blake is out of liine in this case - I hope he can find it in himself to look objectively at Ted and their relationship.  I hope Ted "mans up" and doesnt waste any chance he is given.

This is a slower format to read and I am so drawn to the story I haven't been off my computer much in two whole days!

Grrrrrr.   I just read the trailer.   Just  Grrrrrr.

I thought you wrote jealousy rather well, and I love both parteners dropping their own jealousies to reassure each other.  Mom walking in while they were fixing the "pipes" was funny.

Im glad Ethan and Evan are gone.  Im glad Daph and Lou are good.  I like that Brian wants to focus mre on their relationship.  I hope they live in the same city again soon.

I hate to think this is almost over!  Vince is pathetic and would be breaking my heart if he wasn/t so self centered to begin with.  Probably mean, right?  Just when he kept walking in on B/j, breaking the bowl, and messing up the loft, I found him unapologetic and rude.  Now he broke into our lover's houe and as far as I am concerned is desicrating it by sleeping in their master bedroom - he sould have at least used a guest room.

I never watched the episodes with Drew and Emmett so I dont have an opinion, but Liam wasn't for him either way.  He thought Liam was creepy at times, and didnt have the chemistry he has with Drew.  I see nothing wrong with giving it a go - but I think Drew will break his heart.

Brian and Justin so far dont have any interaction with the gang and I miss that.  I hope the next chapter has some more scenes as well as your "outtakes".  LOL, Im glad for the extras!  :D

Very nice!  You shoulc be proud of yourself for finishing this daunting project.  I enjjoyed it very much---now I might be able to get some sleep because I haven't been able to do anything in my spare time but read it!   Luckily, the weather has been so hot that laying about trying to keep cool is the only appropriate reaction, so sitting with the laptop as long as I have been doesn't look as pathetic as it could have!

One:  the wedding that wasnt is what Brian and Justin most likely would have done...their relationship has always been misunderstood and kept private so their ring ceremony makes sense to be private...it also allows them to stake a public claim on each other that doesn't raise expectations for them to suddenly change into stepford fags.  In time....who knows

Two:  Im glad it ended happily.  The whole lot of them deserved a moment of time when everyone was content.

Three:  I would have liked to see them move into Britin, or heard more about the reviews for Justin's art show.  I like to think of him being busy with commissions and portraits as well as being his usual creative genus.  Maybe even going back to school.

Four;  so, where is this season 7?

Michelle

In one swift move Brian was inside of Justin. He gave Justin a few seconds to adjust and then he started to move hard and fast inside Justin so the blond would know who he belonged to. Justin tried to push himself up so he could be on all fours and push against Brian but the brunet had a good hold on his neck and wasn’t letting him move.

“Brian.” Justin yelled.

Brian leaned down and bit Justin’s shoulder and sucked on the smaller man’s neck hard so it would leave a mark. He wanted everyone to know that Justin was his.

GUH!  I love Brian`s possesiveness and need to declaire his claim (instead of denying he has any feelings at all for Justin).

“What are you doing here, Erica? ” Justin asked.

Erica looked at him not sure what he had said. She really didn’t care. “I came for Eric.”

Wow. I know that some people can be described as a breath of fresh air, but man, she is a blast of arctic air!  Burrr. 

Brian was sure that he couldn’t talk at that moment to save his life. He was scared shitless of giving Justin’s his present.

“Are you okay?” Justin asked.

“I got you something,” Brian signaled not being able to utter a word.

Justin smiled a little not sure if he wanted it.

“You have given me enough Brian,” Justin assured him.

Fear of Brian pushing him away later will probably always taint the gifts Brian gives of himself.  Which is silly on Brian`s part.  How much more can you declaire your love and commitment than breaking holes in walls and making a bedroom for you and your lover`s children to share?  Very loving and sexy chapter.  I loved it!

Too many things made me happy to quote them all in this chapter!  It was all so nice and loving.

Apologizing and saying he loved him was an amazing gift from Jack to Brian.  Even if he didn't mean it, it would/could/should heal a lot of wounds.

“Daddy?” Eric asked.

Justin looked at his son and smiled.

“What is it baby?” Justin asked cleaning Eric’s mouth.

“Daddy?” Eric asked.

Justin frowned and realized then that Eric wasn’t calling for him, but for Brian.

This is both an AWWW! and an OUCH!  Because Brian is spending so much time with Eric its really sweet to see the baby miss him, but it also must be weird to have your child call out `daddy` for someone else.

Oh, and it is fun hearing Michael getting to call Brian pathetic and a moron for a change, lol.

Wow.  I imagine it would be exciting and maybe a bit frightening to "hear" all the noise of the world again.  I understand that a person born deaf would actually have a very hard time handling it.  Its a good thing Justin went deaf after knowing what the phone sounded like, and what a knock on the door was.

Yeah, I just bet Brian had Ethan's number the moment he walked into the room, lol.

Im glad Michael and Hunter are looking after their friends.  Its nice to see them for Brian's and Justin's relationship.

Its weird how Brian gets along better with his father than his mother.  I mean, I guess I understand it.  Physical abuse is easier to heal from than emotional abuse.  I guess ignoring your son's cries for help is the worst a mother can do.  I really and truly dislike Joan.  Yet, canon has Jack as some sort of redeamable character.  I dont think he is.  Im not sure why he even tried, especially as Brian being gay must have been just another thing to hate about his son.

Brian kept watching all of them make a mess and then looked back at Justin, Eric and Gus and he smiled. He simply didn’t care if they broke anything else or if the boxes seem to be making the loft look awfully small. Justin was there with him and that was the important thing.

I love that Eric is kinda "weird".  And that Brian and Justn are adjusting so quickly.

Congratulations on getting a blue ribbon designation!  You and this story really deserve it!

And yes, Im back reading it again, lol.  Ive been so busy lately that I dont have time to get lost in a new story, if you know what I mean.  I just want a good read before bed without being so curious about what comes next that I stay up too late.  While short one offs are great, after a steady diet of them they dont really cut it anymore.  So I sometimes find myself rereading stories that are longer and more indepth with character arcs and real plots just to keep up the good feelings my inner gai boi requires for my general well being and happiness.  :o)

WHY MICHAEL IS AN ASS:

 “You brought him.” Michael said.
“I don’t see why not?” Brian asked. “You brought Ben.”
“But he is my boyfriend.” Michael pointed out. “And he is part of the family.”
“And Justin will someday.”  <--- *SMILES*
“Why are you doing this?” Michael asked. “Do you feel sorry for him?”
“You know pity makes my dick soft.” Brian told him getting annoyed.
“Well, have you fucked him?” Michael asked.
“No.”
“Then I guess your dick is soft!” Michael hissed before he moved away.

WHY MELANIE CAN BE A REAL CUNT:

“The rolls, please.” Melanie tried again.
Melanie tapped Justin on the shoulder and he turned towards her with a questioning face.
“Are you fucking deaf or just fucking retarded? Can you pass me the fucking rolls and stop fawning over Brian?” Melanie hissed.
“Mel.” Lindsey complained.
Justin came out of his daze and got up. He took the rolls and gave them to Melanie before he walked away.

WHO TALKS TO PERFECT STRANGERS LIKE THAT?!  JUST BECAUSE JUSTIN LIKES BRIAN?!

Justin smiled back and kissed him. Brian pulled him closer to his body and kissed him back. He loved kissing Justin.

“I guess this means you guys are okay,” Jennifer said.

Brian pulled back startled. Justin looked at him weird until he saw what Brian was looking at. He blushed and hid his face on Brian’s shoulder. Brian smiled at Jennifer and nodded.

Even in canon Jennifer and Brian got along when she finally understood that Brian really cared for her son, and that her son was truly in love with Brian.   She is a good mom.

“Here,” Jennifer said, putting Eric in Justin’s arms. “He was crying.”

Justin looked at his mother, not sure if it was true. He looked at Eric who looked okay and wondered if his mother would say something like that to make him reconsider the operation. He took a deep breath and sat down with Eric on the bed. He didn’t know what to do anymore.

This was pretty harsh of Jennifer.  I can understand Justin`s reluctance - the fear of disappointment is really intense in these situations.  Then her throwing in Brian and the baby just seems really harsh.  Of course he wants to hear them.  But just thinking about it gives him the desire, then comes hope, then the intense fears that it just wont happen.

I liked this a lot. Thanks for writing and posting it here.

Okay, I think Im getting confused by the timeline.

Justin went to NY in winter and had not called Simon for 3 months.  Then, if he had three semesters of school and is about to graduate it means he has been gone just short of two years.  Which means we caught up to the prologue?

I didn't know there would be so much agnst in this story - at least that is how Im reading it.  Justin's talking about not being ready to come back, and Brian's visits are rare and conversations over the phone are stilted.  Brian has been having difficulty emotionally. Then that prologue!

Damn Drama Queen!  By not saying anything he only worries everyone more!

He said 'bye', not 'later'.................

Okay, maybe Lindz is redeaming herself a bit here, but somehow it still sounds..............I dont know.

And that last paragraph. :o(

Okay, Im getting a headache.  I dont do agnst well.  Ive been wanting to read Cynical21's fic, but I  cant bring myself to do it.  :o(

Fuck!  But Yay!  But fuck!  And the Ethan thing - shit.

OH I am glad Justin is packing up his paintings and getting out of their!  He should also pack up his apartment and take it all home to Pittsburg.

And check on Brian.

Are you going to make me cry?

Soooo...He's hiding cancer so Justin will follow his destiny....then he will get treatment hiding from everyone so Justin wont find out.....and he plans on being healthier than ever when they visit and reunite?  Right?

Honestly, I think I need a little breather from this fic.  You are doing a marvellous job telling this story.  You are talented and know the characters well - - - Im just too pathetic for too much agnst.

LOL.  I think Ill either re read some fav fic or hunt down some fluffy or pr0n fic, just to fortify myself.  LOL

I love your poem "Dream Pool".  It is profound and awesome.  I'd say it's amazing you wrote it when you were only 16, but I know that as adults we don't grow to see truth more clearly, but more compromised.  A youth's optimism and strong sense of right and wrong are beautiful.  Of course great art can come from them.  :)

I loved that Brian 'wrote' it for Sunshine, and gave him a book ready to hold all their memories.  I'd felt the occasional urge to comment on this story, but that part just made me swoon with happiness and I couldnt hit 'next' until I did.  

I fear this may be your 'magnum opus' for this fandom.  Every time I read it I love it more and more.  And your poem!  Dream Pool is beautiful and this story is a fitting setting for such a jewel.

Its interesting having Brian as the younger one.

Love the end of this one, a real favorite.  I am a rarity, or it seems from reading a lot of the comments on other stories/sites, I like when Brian calls Justin Baby, or his boy.  Not all the time, more like it accidentally slips out in the heat of passion.  LOL.

Oh, and yes, SPAMMED YA!

Very weird but likeable fairy tale.  It took me awhile to catch on to what kind of creatures they were.  Ted was confusing, and the mating seemed like warewolves or something.  But, having Michael turning green at the end, how could that not be a "happily ever after?"

I loved the love, but didn't like the end, sorry.  I cant see Brian in that way or Justin so accepting of it.  That's not Justin.  I kept hoping that they would run away or something.

Did  you ever right the sequel?

Brian then slid the door closed. Justin started crying and ran down the stairs. He needed to get home. He had never felt so bad in his life. He just wanted to close his eyes and die.

Whenever Justin cried on the show it just broke my heart, especially when Brian was to blame.

Intrequing start...

Why is Brian so violent with Justin?  I hope that Justin is doing more than tolerating it, but enjoying it - otherwise its just squicky.

Ooh, nice stirring of the plot with the blackout thingys!

On no, not Daphne!  I think there is some fanfic law that says you cant do that to such a favorite character!  If not then I propose we make it a law, :o(

Okay, Kennedy, that makes him the killer of Blake and is the guy in the mask  who stabbed Justin once before.  What about the rest of the tricks, Ben and Ethan and Daphne? (I got the impression Daph recognized her attacker and wanted to know how he got in the apt - so no mask and Kennedy doesn't make sense as someone she knows)

Chas Kennedy was the guy gunning for Brian's top spot at the ad agency, but drowned at his cabin.  Is he a relation to Derek Earl Kennedy, the murderer? 

That also leaves the trick in the elevator (penn) an Justin's parents' murder a mystery - if they are even remotely related.

There are also the mysterious circumstanses of Justin's hit and run, Hobbs, Brian's dad, and the guys who jumped Brian when he was tricking in the beginning of the story.  Though, of course these may all just be red herrings.....

Bah, its all still such a mystery!

OH YOU! 

If it wasn't oh so marvellously, romantically, insanely for the love they have for each other, this would be a terrible terrible terrible end to a murder mystery. 

Yet, you really pulled it off by letting Justin be the "innocent" I have always adored and allowed Brian to do everything he does if only because he could NOT protect those he loves. 

They retain a love of mythic proportions, so how could I not forgive them (AND YOU!) for doing all they can to protect it?

BRAVO!

Poor Chance.  He is not going to stand a chance, is he?

I like how relaxed Justin got to be when he was drunk.  It was a nice break from what I could only imagine would be total fury.

The glimpse of Brian's inner thoughts were nice.  At least a little bit of the Brian we love has shown itself.  I hope Justin sees it soon.  The last sentence certainly indicates he'd be pleased if he know how much Brian really wanted him for hisself.

I never liked the novels whose main character was opressed.  It drives me insane.  Im hoping that Im gonna like this story more andmore as we go along.

“Oh god,” Justin moaned. He opened his eyes and traced his fingers along Brian’s face. He couldn’t wait to draw the man. He had thought about doing it before but always stopped himself. He leaned closer and kissed Brian’s closed eyes. His fingers grabbed hold of Brian’s long, wet hair. He loved it, pulling on it and hearing Brian groan.

Im thinking that this is the turning point.  If Justin wants to draw him and feels comfortable/compelled enough to begin making love to Brian, I suppose I could hope that there will be expressions of love or at least some respect at some point.

Justin having self-respect is important to me.

“What does my little damsel want to do?” Brian asked the blond.
“Stop calling me that or I’ll kick you in the balls,” Justin warned him.
“You’re not behaving like a good boy,” Brian pointed out.
“You want me to be a good boy?” Justin asked. “I thought you liked it when I was naughty.”

Im proud of how Justin managed to behave after such a frightening ordeal - pissed at Ethan, but not hysterical or crying (though both would be understandable!).

Im also glad that he makes it clear he is NOT the little WOMAN!  In my mind I have always thought of Justin as growing up into quite the consumate top.  In my mind, he NEVER bottomed for anyone but Brian.  Not that I think that being the bottom is submissive or somehow less than being the top, but I dont think that because he isnt 6 foot tall he cant be masculine. (Randy is 5'10", while not exactly "tall" he would be far from the shortest man in the room!)

“Go to sleep, Justin,” Brian told him. He didn’t have any idea why the blond was mad at him; he thought it was because he had yelled at Justin. He thought the blond was overreacting. “You have to wake up early to go with the guys.”

Well, that's canon Brian - clueless.  *snort*

ps. Im heartbroken that Justin feels so much dispair.

Justin looked inside Brian’s eyes and what he saw terrified him. The man was stained with malevolence in his heart. But that didn’t stop Justin from being in love with him. He closed his eyes and tried to keep his up charade. He had to hate Brian so he would want to get away from the man. He had to go back home and forget that Brian ever existed.

Totally rational.  Exactly what any "normal" person should feel.

Yet:

“I didn’t know you were there,” Justin told him.
“Liar,” Brian said. “You squared your shoulders. You do that each time I walk into a room. You can feel me. We have a connection you can’t deny. Hell, I wish I could, it would make my life a whole lot easier. But I wanted you and never lied to you. You want me Justin. Your friends know it. The crew knows it. Your body knows it.”

How can you despise a man (okay, a totally hot alpha male) who admits he notices things about you and acknowledges their "connection" even though he would be better off forgetting all about it?

Justin frowned and got up. He didn’t like the way Jack had treated him. They were a bunch of bandits what else could he expect from them. He sighed and started thinking about Brian. It didn’t matter who Brian really was, the brunet had always treated him better than anyone.

I think Justin is doing amazingly well.  It would be one hell of a crazy situation where you have to admit you feel safest and cared for the most when you are with the one who enslaved you to begin with.

I doubt I would have been nearly as brave as Justin.  Admiting this to yourself is hard enough, saying it out loud, well!:

“I hated myself,” Justin said. “And I wanted to blame you.”
Brian looked at the blond frowning. “What?”
“You were right. I want more,” Justin told him as a tear made it out...
“And when it was over, all I could think was how...how Chance was waiting for me and there I was already forgetting all about him.. “I pretended like I didn’t want it, like you were the problem and not me. I’m such an awful person.”

But hey!  Justin wont be made into a total pussy!  When Brian is an ass, well the twink will ALWAYS call Brian on it!:

Brian sighed and hugged the blond in his arms. “So, you really weren’t mad at me?”
Justin bit his lower lip. “Yes, the one time you screamed at me I was fucking pissed at you.”
Brian arched a brow. “I can order you around you know.”
Justin looked up at Brian. “I like to think that I mean more to you than just another slave.”
Brian smiled at that. “Keep thinking that. You can’t go wrong.”

Now hearing Brian's admission has simply got to be gratifying!!!

And only Brian Fucking Kinney could ever get away with saying something so ambiguous and have it sounding fucking romantic!  LOL

Loved this chapter!  :o)

Justin wrapped his arms around the brunet. He knew he would always get what he wanted from Brian. He also believed that if he kept things civil between himself and Brian there would be a day when he could convince Brian to let him go home. He just knew it and he wasn’t ready to give up that hope.

Brian tightened his hold on the blond. He would show Justin that he was his property and if he wanted to do anything that had to do with his own body he would learn to ask Brian first. The blond was going to learn one way or another; after all he had all the time in the world.

Talk about being different wave lengths!

Brian said. “But still I won’t let you go. Ever.”
Justin bit his lower lip and his eyes watered. He felt so sad and yet part of him was happy to hear those words from Brian. The man wanted him always there and he knew the brunet loved him and that’s why he didn’t want to let him go but part of him was yearning to be back home.

Justin's agnst is so hard to hear.  He is a strong young man made submissive.  He simply wants the right to choose.  But he is also a good guy and would never choose to live the life of a pirate.  Sigh. 

A great chapter.  A lot of growth in the character`s and plot arc. 

Well, you didn't make that as agnsty as you could  have.  I think Im a little disappointed, actually.  Time is flying too fast and it has none of the agnst Justin had when he first became aware he was trapped on the pirates yaght. I'd thought he would feel equally trapped by his loneliness, family, or even society, after being away so long.

I like their relationship now.  The ship is its own world.  Gays and heteros mixed, but with a gay captain, all love is acceptible.  Now about the actual danger of living that lifestyle....

I still just love these two, LOL.

Very hot scene.  You did a good job of showing earlier a scene where Justin really didn't want Brian and Brian stopped.  That allowed me to just go with this scene knowing that if Justin really wanted to stop, Brian would have.

They just had to fight it out.  They both know the truth, but they were still hurt.  I forgive them.  Hope they forgive each other.

Why you little.....twat!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Im going to make up my own ending until your sequel comes out.   I cannot live with the agnst of thinking that Brain and Justin did not....well, I dont care! 

So, when is that sequel coming?  This has been some story.  You are very talented and I enjoyed it all.  The sex scenes are some of the best I've read and your Brian and Justin are amazing.

Nice segue into a new phase in their relationship.  Looking forward to seeing what you have cooked up for us.

AAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!

As much as I sincerly believe Justin needed to grow up a bit more, take a true chance on his art, and know what it was like to be fully independant === just like any other young person leaving home for the first time, it hurts so much to actually see him go.

Brian's description of the state of his heart - in a ziplock with Justin in NY - feels so achingly painful.  Really well done.

Now boys, its just like any pair of sweethearts watching a loved one going to an  out of state college.  Time will pass, holidays will occur, reading breaks will come regularily, computer cams are immediate, and Thank God Brian has the cash to fly them to each other regularily!

But it still hurts.