Reviewer: sjmpets3 (Signed) · Date: November 06, 2009 12:04 AM · On: Over
omg! so worth the wait. it's getting closer to coming home. together.
Author's Response: Thanks! I'm glad you liked it. :D
Reviewer: Alina (Anonymous) · Date: October 09, 2009 12:42 AM · On: Changes
oh, I just noticed that I left a anonymous review...sorry :)
well, now you know, it was from me ;)
hugs, Alina
Author's Response: Oops, lol. I responded to that one, too. Thank you again for reviewing :D
Reviewer: Marny (Signed) · Date: October 06, 2009 04:10 PM · On: Trust
Just wow ... I'm speechless, this is such a wonderful emotional story. I'm glad Justin is doing much better.
Hope you update soon, please
Author's Response: Thank you :) I'm so happy you're enjoying the story, and Justin's recovery. Thanks for r&r-ing :D
Reviewer: cattabella (Anonymous) · Date: October 06, 2009 11:31 AM · On: Trust
oh lord, that was heartwarming. can't wait for more, don't desert us!
Author's Response: I'm glad you liked it! Thanks for reviewing :D
Reviewer: cattabella (Anonymous) · Date: October 06, 2009 11:12 AM · On: Extraordinary
I am just so relieved you aren't letting the fic die! Very long and rewarding chapter. Lovely.
Author's Response: Thank you! I'm glad you liked it :D
Reviewer: Anonymous (Anonymous) · Date: October 06, 2009 01:02 AM · On: Changes
Oh my god, that was quick! :) Well, I didn't expect an update, but I enjoyed this chapter so much.
I love your 'version' of Brian...he is very, very similar to the 'Season-two-Brian' (after the bashing) and that's SO cute :)
You write very in-character (do you say that? I mean the opposite of out-of-character ;) ) which is totally amazing, because there are few writers who can do that.
Oh, and I really wanna know what Brian and Carl are planning...please, release us soon :)
Author's Response: I absolutely love sweet, caring, post-bashing Brian, and that's always how I see him reacting when serious h/c situations come up where he is the one doing the comforting. I'm so glad you like the version of him in this story, and that you think I'm writing IC characters...I'm always worried about making Brian too schmoopy. And I promise there will definitely be a lot more on Brian and Carl's plan. ;) Thank you for reading and reviewing :D
Reviewer: judi (Anonymous) · Date: October 06, 2009 12:44 AM · On: Extraordinary
Well, I guess I'm one of the lucky ones that hadn't read chapter by chapter but the whole thing in one fell swoop. I was happy to start getting some light to read in the last two chapters and I'm looking forward to his recovery.
You do write long chapters so of course they take time. But if there's too much time, you lose the sense of it. You have created a definite mood that I hope you'll be able to maintain, especially as we watch him recover. Thanks for the story. I like it a lot and look forward to the next chapter.
Judi
Author's Response: I'm so glad you're enjoying the story, and Justin's recovery :) I definitely hope to maintain the "mood" on my end as I write, too. Thank you for reading and reviewing :D
Reviewer: Marny (Signed) · Date: October 05, 2009 09:08 PM · On: Memories
OMG I can't stop reading this story, this is so good, so emotional, so ... so wonderful writen. I started reading today and I will finish the rest of the chapters today.
* runs of to the next chapter, hugs *
Author's Response: Thank you so much :) I'm so happy you like it. Thanks for reading and reviewing :D
Reviewer: emd (Anonymous) · Date: October 05, 2009 12:02 AM · On: Trust
Omg, a new chapter! Can't wait to see what Brian is planning for Gary. Hope he nails that sucker soon lol. More please :-)
Author's Response: There will be hell to pay, for sure. ;) Thanks for reviewing :D
Reviewer: scrub13 (Signed) · Date: October 04, 2009 09:03 AM · On: Trust
I've been reading this story for quite a while and just wanted to say how much I love its depth of both tragedy and beauty. It is truly amazing how one decsion, one moment can have such a profound impact on a person's life and the levels of cruelty we humans are capable of heaping on each other.
This story is also testimony to the resiliancy of the human spirit and the power of love in a person's life. I love how real the emotions are in your story and how there are no quick fixes and that everyone is flawed and not expected to simply move on to advance the next plotline.
I am wondering what devious plot Brian and Carl are hatching.
Author's Response: Thank you so much. I'm so happy you're enjoying the story, and I'm glad that it feels realistic, which has been one of the things I've worried most about...keeping it interesting while keeping it real. And there will be more on Brian and Carl's plan later, for sure :)
Thank you so much again for your kind review :)
Reviewer: HalfTime1030 (Signed) · Date: October 04, 2009 06:28 AM · On: Trust
Beautiful. :)
(and I'm quite curious as to what Brian's plotting w/Carl...)
Author's Response: Thank you, glad you liked it :) There will definitely be more on Brian and Carl's plot later. Thanks for reviewing :D
Reviewer: sjmpets3 (Signed) · Date: October 04, 2009 04:46 AM · On: Trust
thank you so much for this update.
he's starting to feel like himself again. slowly, but he's getting there. you can tell just by how much his dreams have changed.
lindsay hit the nail on the head. as with the bashing, this happened to him too. not physically but yeah mentally. justin's fears and pains are his fears and pains added to only his fears that justin doesn't know. brian won't let him see.
the trust issue is a big thing for justin and brian giving him that much to know that he wouldn't try suicide again says so much more than he could ever ever hope for.
Author's Response: Brian has certainly gone through it all with Justin, but as you said, he's beginning to trust him more and more. :) Thanks for reviewing, I'm glad you liked it :D
Reviewer: BluvsJ (Anonymous) · Date: October 04, 2009 03:47 AM · On: Trust
I am thrilled you updated so soon... I love that Justin and Brian are finally trusting each other more and more... and that Justin is starting to be comfortable with Brian physically... I have one question.. where have Sap and the other bastards who raped Justin been all these months??
Author's Response: Thank you :) I'm so glad you enjoyed it. Brian and Justin are definitely moving into new/old territory physically. As for Sap, there's going to be more later on what he's been up to these last few months. Thanks for reviewing :D
Reviewer: alys (Anonymous) · Date: October 03, 2009 10:36 PM · On: Trust
beautiful, love the whole/ tie/ pills nightstand conversation. truly shows how much brian cares, above and beyond his words
Author's Response: Thanks :D Brian really does care, so much. I'm glad you enjoyed it, thank for reviewing :D
Reviewer: Manuela (Anonymous) · Date: October 03, 2009 08:24 PM · On: Trust
thanks for the new chapter, which was as great as the rest of the story.
I really like that you stayed loyal to canon and wrote Michael and Lindsay as good friends, instead of making them uncaring or something like that as it sometimes happens in fics. I loved to see they know Brian and understand him as they often did on the show.
The dinner with Jennifer was a beautiful piece, I'm glad to see she nows knows and understands Brian and Brian&Justin more than she did before.
I admit I was worried about the pills. When Justin found them I wasn't sure of what to expect. I was happy to see he didn't take and abuse them and I was also happy to see that Brian knew and chose to trust Justin, at least to a certain level. I loved the line "you're worth too much, Justin...to take a chance over.” So true and so beautiful.
Last thing I want to say is that I love your chapters are so long, because it makes me completely immerse in the story and its atmoshpere and emotions. When chapters are too short I find it more difficult to do that.
I can't wait for the next chapter, keep up the great work!
Author's Response: Thanks :D I never understand why Michael and Lindsay always seem to be written as the bad guys. They make mistakes where Brian is concerned, but they both really love him. I'm glad you liked the scene with Jennifer, and Brian's line about Justin :) Thanks so much for reviewing :D
Reviewer: Kat (Signed) · Date: September 27, 2009 02:16 PM · On: Extraordinary
How wonderful that Justin was finally able to complete a drawing of Brian. I knew that the one thing that was missing was the bottom half of Brian's body that Justin had been unable to draw.
He is making such strides and I'm glad that he is seeing just how far he has come.
So Brian, Ted, Mel and Carl are up to something?!
Author's Response: His artistic self is finally catching up with his emotional healing. :)
Not exactly...they're not all up to something...I promise there will be more on this later. ;)
Thanks for reading and reviewing :D
Reviewer: Kat (Signed) · Date: September 26, 2009 03:31 PM · On: Promise
Poor Justin! I was so happy that he had gone to Woody's with the guys, but worried about him too. Still making little steps, each day he's getting better. Getting a little more of himself back.
Author's Response: He's certainly getting better, however long it takes to get himself back ;) Thank you for reading and reviewing! :D
Reviewer: Alina (Anonymous) · Date: September 25, 2009 09:56 PM · On: Changes
I just wanted to say, I totally love this fic! It's so...intensive. And I could never stop reading, even if the next update would be in 6 months :) (Don't take that serious ;)
And I think it's great that the chapters are that long...even if it is a bit difficult for me, since I'm not a native speaker, I'm from Germany. (So, sorry for my bad english)
I'm sooo looking forward to the next update! I love that Justin makes such progress :)
Author's Response: Thank you! I'm so glad you're enjoying the story. (And don't worry, I plan to update a lot sooner than six months ;) ) And your english seems great to me. I've been taking a course in Spanish, and as a result, have a new appreciation for how hard it is to learn a new language, lol.
Thank you again for reading and reviewing :D
Reviewer: Kat (Signed) · Date: September 25, 2009 03:35 PM · On: Time
I wonder what Brian is up to! So curious as to what those phone calls are about. He has to realize that Justin is going to worry about it, even with his so called answers.
Glad the sleeping pills are helping, its good that he's fnally getting a full nights rest.
Author's Response: Hmm, he's definitely up to something.... And true, they'll never stop worrying about each other. ;)
Thanks for reviewing :D
Reviewer: BluvsJ (Anonymous) · Date: September 25, 2009 03:17 PM · On: Extraordinary
It was definety worth the wait..but..try not to wait this long in the future..lol... as for the chapter.. it was wonderful seeing Justin become more comfortable about everything...especially with Brian... update soon
Author's Response: Thank you :D Lol sorry for the wait, it really couldn't be helped, unfortunately. I'm glad you enjoyed the chapter. Thanks for r&r-ing! :D
Reviewer: HalfTime1030 (Signed) · Date: September 25, 2009 06:11 AM · On: Extraordinary
totally loved it!! This is such a fantastic story - it's well worth the wait every time! :)
Author's Response: Thank you! I'm so glad you're enjoying it :D
Reviewer: Kat (Signed) · Date: September 25, 2009 04:57 AM · On: Awakening
So close, but yet so far. It is more than Justin was able to do weeks ago. I can only imagine how frustrating it is for him. He wants his life back, but he keeps hitting this wall. He'll be ok though, Brian will make sure of it.
Author's Response: He's frustrated, but he is taking his life back, slowly but surely. ;) Thanks for commenting :D
Reviewer: EstherGreenwood (Signed) · Date: September 25, 2009 01:22 AM · On: Extraordinary
I'm still reading. :) And yes, I think you've earned a pass from being pelted by the peanut gallery with rotten fruit. Shit happens.
Author's Response: Thanks, I'm glad you're still reading. :D And thank you very much for not pelting me with rotten fruit, LOL. Losing my laptop was certainly not by choice. ;)
Thanks again for r&r-ing :D
Reviewer: Kat (Signed) · Date: September 24, 2009 03:24 PM · On: Choice
Its been awhile since I've read this. Didn't realize I had gotten so far behind. Well, I'm so glad to see Justin getting some of that fighting spirit back. That spark that Brian saw in his eyes was a good sign too.
I hpe Justin gets to the point where he will stop blaming himself for this. At least he knows Brian's right, that it was Sap's fault, his heart just needs to believe it.
Author's Response: He's definitely getting there, little by little. And with Brian's help, he'll just keep getting better :)
Thanks for R&R-ing :D
Reviewer: emd (Anonymous) · Date: September 24, 2009 04:14 AM · On: Extraordinary
I'm definitely still interested and reading. So thrilled to see an update! In the meanwhile I've been re-reading the previous chapters :-) This story is so good that it's always worth the wait. Hope you continue writing.
Author's Response: Thanks! I'm so happy you're still reading and enjoying the story :D Thanks for reviewing :)
Reviewer: Sunny (Anonymous) · Date: September 24, 2009 03:59 AM · On: Extraordinary
I´m happy that your computer is working again and that you´re able to post again. I´m certainly still interested in your story and loved that chapter.
Hugs, Sunny
Author's Response: Thank you! I'm so glad you're still reading and I'm happy you enjoyed the chapter :D Thanks for R&R-ing ;)
Reviewer: EssentialBliss (Anonymous) · Date: September 24, 2009 03:23 AM · On: Changes
I love it! I am still reading and was thrilled to see that you had uploaded a new chapter. Thank you!
Author's Response: Thank you! I'm so glad you're still reading and enjoying. Thanks for reviewing :D
Reviewer: Cait (Anonymous) · Date: September 24, 2009 12:28 AM · On: Extraordinary
It was wonderful! Just wanted to let you know I'm still reading and have all along and it's always worth the wait!!!
Author's Response: Thank you! I'm so glad you're still reading and enjoying the story. Thanks for r&r-ing :D
Reviewer: sjmpets3 (Signed) · Date: September 23, 2009 11:00 PM · On: Extraordinary
omg what an amazing chapter.
you can tell just by his thoughts that things are getting better. slowly, but definitely surly better. kathy's exercise of writing what good thing happened that day or week was a way of finding a bright spot mixed somewhere in all the gloom. daphne pointing out how much things really did change in the last four months, making him realize that life was getting better was what he needed.
his frustration at not being able to finish the drawings of brian is because the closeness that they shared from having sex is missing. being able to watch brian in the shower,being able to lie with him naked back to naked chest, having brian lay on the sofa naked and him draw him without freaking out just proves that the day they do have sex again is coming closer.
Author's Response: Thank you! I'm glad you liked it :D
Things are definitely getting better, however slowly, and between Justin's friends, Kathy, and Brian, he's starting to see that. And that day with Brian is certainly drawing closer ;)
Thanks again for reading and reviewing :D
Reviewer: Anonymous (Anonymous) · Date: September 23, 2009 09:53 PM · On: Changes
sorry you had trouble with your computer.
I'm glad you're still writing this, because I'm still reading and absolutely loving your story. And your style is great, I really like it.
I loved the entire chapter, but my favorite was when Justin could draw Brian again. Really beautifully written. This line really got to me, for some reason:
"Four months and one week after the party, I drew my boyfriend naked."
It's kinda obvious, it's what the chapter is about, but said like that it really got to me what Justin's been going through.
I hope you keep writing and finish this, cause it's one of my favorite stories.
P.S. Kinney McSkinney cracked me up, it's genius!
Author's Response: Thank you so much! I'm so glad you're enjoying it.
I actually had that line planned at the very beginning of the chapter. ;) And I'm glad you liked Kinney McSkinney, lol. :D
I definitely plan to keep writing this. Thank you so much for reading and reviewing :D
Reviewer: eringrace (Anonymous) · Date: September 23, 2009 08:09 PM · On: Changes
Great chapter. So happy to see this story updated this morning.
Author's Response: Thank you :D I'm glad you liked it!
Reviewer: Fiona (Anonymous) · Date: September 19, 2009 07:28 PM · On: Promise
This story really resonates with me. Thanks for all your hard work - it is so appreciated.
Author's Response: I'm so glad you're enjoying the fic! :) Thank you for reading and reviewing :D
Reviewer: lmccormick (Anonymous) · Date: August 23, 2009 09:00 PM · On: Promise
it's wonderful when are new chapters forthcoming/
Author's Response: Thank you! I'm glad you're enjoying the story :)
I'm not really sure when the next chapter will be up. It's finished and ready to go, but unfortunately, my computer (along with the chapter) is currently in repair, and I didn't get the chance to back up the file. So whenever I get my computer back, the next chapter will be up.
Thanks for reading and reviewing :)
Reviewer: manu (Anonymous) · Date: August 16, 2009 05:50 AM · On: Changes
I found your fic a couple of days ago and I've already read all the chapters you wrote so far. I'm really loving it, you're a great writer. I can't wait for a new chapter! I guess Brian is working on making Sap pay for what he did to Justin? I'm looking forward to see what he's cooking up.
Author's Response: Thank you! I'm glad you're enjoying the fic so far.
Brian is definitely cooking something up. ;) No one gets away with hurting Justin.
Thanks for reading and reviewing :)
Reviewer: Hotesse (Signed) · Date: August 04, 2009 04:06 AM · On: Changes
Yes! I havn't been going to MW for a few weeks now, it's summer and I needed some outdoor activity (lost 20 lbs in the process) BUT what a lovely welcome back to find an update from you.
The shower "scene" was perfect. I liked that Brian notiched Justin checking him out! BRAVA!
Author's Response: Most of my outdoor "activity" this summer has consisted of lying in the sun and floating in the pool, lol. And congrats! :D
It was a pretty frustrating scene to write (and rewrite, and re-rewrite...) so I'm glad you liked that part. Thanks for reading and commenting :D
Reviewer: emd (Anonymous) · Date: July 30, 2009 02:07 AM · On: Promise
Thanks for the update. This just keeps getting better and better :-) Can't wait for more.
Author's Response: Thank you :D Glad you liked it!
Reviewer: Bliss (Anonymous) · Date: July 28, 2009 04:21 PM · On: Promise
Wow, another great chapter.
I was so happy to see the update. I am really happy that Justin is making progress.
Author's Response: I'm so glad you liked it :D Thanks for reading and commenting!
Reviewer: cattabella (Anonymous) · Date: July 28, 2009 11:09 AM · On: Promise
As always you balance angst and the hope of recovery perfectly. Can't wait for more.
Author's Response: Thank you! I'm glad you liked it :D
Reviewer: sjmpets3 (Signed) · Date: July 28, 2009 09:23 AM · On: Promise
thrilled to see this update.
brian's dream was a bit scary. nobody but justin knows how this whole thing effected brian except maybe daphne. justin is too stubborn for his own good sometimes and brian should never second guess himself. even if justin had gotten mad at him for following him into the bathroom it would have been an emotion he hadn't felt in a long while.
dinner is nice, but is brian planning on staying away if carl will be there so that justin doesn't get upset or be there to get justin upset?
Author's Response: Thank you :D Glad you liked the update.
Justin is a lot like Brian in the way that he's too stubborn for his own good. But in this case, Brian definitely knew best.
There's going to be more on the Carl thing later, but I will say that it doesn't have to do with upsetting Justin.
Thanks again for reading and commenting :D
Reviewer: Bliss (Anonymous) · Date: June 22, 2009 11:35 PM · On: Time
I am so happy to see that the new chapter is up. It is great as usual. I love that you have Brian saying "It's only time"
Author's Response: Thank you :D I'm glad you liked the chapter, and Brian's line. Thanks for commenting!
Reviewer: alys (Anonymous) · Date: June 22, 2009 11:09 PM · On: Time
beautiful. brian needs to open up a little more, no secrets. justin needs to relax more. it will happen, the desire to try again will overcome the fear.
Author's Response: Thanks :) Don't worry, Brian won't be able to keep his secrets for too long. And Justin still has some hurdles to overcome, but eventually he'll be able to relax a little more, too. :) Thanks for commenting!
Reviewer: BluvsJ (Anonymous) · Date: June 22, 2009 05:15 AM · On: Time
Just caught up with this story... My heart breaks for both Brian and Justin.. I really hope all Brian's secret phone calls have something to do with getting revenge on that F#$king S.O.B. Sap... update soon..
Author's Response: The phone calls? They might. ;)
Thanks for commenting. I'm glad you like it :)
Reviewer: sjmpets3 (Signed) · Date: June 21, 2009 06:15 AM · On: Time
what a great chapter. both have the patience of saints although justin's is waning. experimenting with what he can take,wants and doesn't want to do are a step in the right direction i think. it can only help right? just so you know, i love brian's lesbian thoughts. they make him more human.
Author's Response: Thank you :D
Justin's patience is wearing thin, but experimenting is definitely a step in the right direction for them both :)
I'm so glad you love Brian's lesbianism, haha. I'm always afraid I'm making him too mushy.
Thanks for commenting :)
Reviewer: Cait (Anonymous) · Date: June 21, 2009 05:25 AM · On: Time
Perfect! When I saw this update I almost screamed and you certainly did not dissapoint. It was amazing just like every other chapter you've written. The "only time" killed me (in teh best way possible).
Author's Response: Thank you :) I'm glad you liked the chapter. And...sorry for killing you with the only time thing...lol. ;)
Reviewer: emd (Anonymous) · Date: June 21, 2009 04:42 AM · On: Time
Really love this fic and your writing. Thanks for the update! Definitely worth the wait. Hope you update soon. :-)
Author's Response: Thank you! I'm so glad you're enjoying it :)
Reviewer: bksbracelet (Anonymous) · Date: June 20, 2009 08:33 PM · On: Time
I love this fic it is so intense, each POV so in the moment and both of them trying to get through another minute. Brillant brillant work thank you
Author's Response: Thank you! I'm so glad you like it. It really is a minute-by-minute process, but they're slowly getting through it. :)
Reviewer: Sunny (Anonymous) · Date: June 20, 2009 02:26 PM · On: Awakening
Just yesterday I thought about you and this fic and if there would be a new chapter soon and TADAHHH here it is. It was certainly worth the wait. I love your style and the emotions you can create. You once started a story called Live like music. Will you go on with that story any time soon? Hugs, Sunny
Author's Response: Thank you :) I know I've been really horrible about updating lately, but I'm so happy you thought it was worth the wait! I'll try to have the next chapter up sooner.
I honestly kind of got caught up in this fic and forgot about Live Like Music. I might try to continue that if I can, now that I think of it. :)
Reviewer: cattabella (Anonymous) · Date: June 20, 2009 12:48 PM · On: Time
Guh. Wonderful. Absolutly fantastic. I have watching for the next chapter for awhile and when I saw it today I was so happy. Can't wait for more
Author's Response: Thank you :D I'm so happy you liked it.
Reviewer: Bliss (Anonymous) · Date: June 14, 2009 02:06 PM · On: Changes
I just reread(having been reading every update) the story so far and I just love your writingstyle and feel the emotion in this story. I hope you update soon.
Author's Response: Hey, I'm so glad you like it, and especially that you thought it was worth a re-read :) I know I've been slacking on the updates lately, but the next chapter is almost done, and I'm going to try to update quicker in the future. Thanks for reviewing :)
Reviewer: EstherGreenwood (Signed) · Date: May 12, 2009 11:05 AM · On: Changes
Progress is progress. Very nice chapter. You're definitely gifted in that this is a slow burning story without being draggy at all.
Author's Response: Thank you :) Progress is definitely progress, no matter how small. I've really been worried about it dragging lately, every chapter it seems like it ends up longer than I originally planned, so I'm relieved to hear that you don't think it does. Thanks for reviewing :)
Reviewer: Hotesse (Signed) · Date: May 11, 2009 07:48 AM · On: Awakening
*weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeep*
Brian needs a sleeping pill too. And they need to SLEEP together... all modeled in clay together... for about 18 hours.... that's all I have to say for now.
Love it.... in the most perverted of ways.
Author's Response: Hey :) I'm so glad you liked it, even in the most perverted of ways ;) Thanks for reviewing :)
Reviewer: bksbracelet (Anonymous) · Date: May 09, 2009 06:47 PM · On: Awakening
I love this fic I keep it in my favourites in case I miss a chapter so I can hunt it down if RL gets too hard. Brian and Justin both wanting the same thing to get back to the special life they had. Brian is realising how special their life was so he works as hard as Justin to get them there, look forward to next chapter :)Chris
Author's Response: I'm so glad you're enjoying it :) Brian and Justin are both finally on the same page, and they're working hard to get back to where they were before. Thanks for reviewing, I really appreciate it :)
Reviewer: Memo (Anonymous) · Date: May 09, 2009 03:42 PM · On: Awakening
Wow, you almost made me cry... again. This is one of the best stories! So heartbreaking and insightful! I'm checking the site every day hoping that you uploaded a new chapter.
Author's Response: Sorry about almost making you cry...though I guess it means I'm doing something right, haha. ;) I'm so glad you're enjoying the story! Thanks for reviewing, I appreciate it :)
Reviewer: sjmpets3 (Signed) · Date: May 09, 2009 09:44 AM · On: Awakening
again, the beginning was so bright. justin was sleeping even if it was due to the pills, without nightmares. brian was sleeping. things were comfortable. the ending was heartbreaking. will it ever get better while they're still together? how much longer can they go on?
Author's Response: I've been trying to kind of balance the happy parts with the bad ones, because Justin really is making progress, even if he's not completely better yet. It's not going to be easy, but things are going to continue to get better for them as Justin tries to heal. Thanks for reviewing :)
Reviewer: EMD (Anonymous) · Date: April 21, 2009 12:56 AM · On: Choice
Yay a new chapter! Happy to see Justin making progress. I am so addicted to this :-)
Author's Response: I'm glad you liked it :D Thanks for reviewing :)
Reviewer: coldandplanetary (Anonymous) · Date: April 19, 2009 05:06 PM · On: Choice
I thought I'd drop a quick note to say that I really love this story. Thanks for taking the time. :)
Author's Response: Hey coldandplanetary :) I'm so glad you're enjoying the story. Thanks for reviewing :)
Reviewer: sjmpets3 (Signed) · Date: April 19, 2009 07:32 AM · On: Choice
the beginning, i adored. they were almost themselves again. almost. therapy, hard to take. the meds will help him start putting his life back in order. and as much as brian hates therapists and the meds they perscribe i'm glad he's going along and not voicing his opinion. justin knows how he feels. the argument, i can see brian trying to get his point across. he's right. if justin going to the party and having happen what happened then he's as much at fault for letting chris take a bat to justin's head. the fault lies only with chris and the sap.
Author's Response: Thanks :) I really enjoyed writing the beginning, I thought they deserved a little bit of a light hearted moment after all that stress. Brian usually knows when to let things go, and he's definitely going to this time. He's willing to try anything right now. I'm glad you liked Brian trying to open Justin's eyes. It's completely and totally Chris and Sap's fault, Justin just needs to see that. Thanks for reviewing :) Glad you liked the chapter.
Reviewer: gerri (Signed) · Date: April 18, 2009 08:34 PM · On: Choice
That was such a wonderful chapter to read. I have had glimpses of hope for the last couple of chapters, but that was the first real sighting. I love that Brian is helping in more ways than he knows just yet. I am so glad Justin has again learnt that it is important to know when to ask for or accept help. No more being the victim, yay Justin!
Author's Response: Thank you :) They're definitely starting to turn things around, and Justin accepting help is just another step in the right direction for them both. He's taking back his life again. :) Thanks for reading and reviewing :)
Reviewer: 7qt (Signed) · Date: April 04, 2009 03:48 AM · On: Survivor
I could've -Maybe should've written after every chapter that I read -But didn't want to delay goin' to the next chapter -You've done such a wonderful job at writing feelings with such clarity and such discription of their life -It is really remakable -Its like readin' a fuckin' novel-I loved it -Its really great- Am looking forward to reading further chapters an' can't wait for the day when they can actually have great sex and make love together -the healing is slow but as they say -Time is a tremendous healer which has patience and immence power of pulling you back from the brink of life to make you walk 'Tall' again 'n' live with love and hope -I'm sure Brian 'n' Justin too will find each other as the soothing magic of time fills their heart 'n' soul -You're doin so well-Post more soon-We're waitin' -
Author's Response: That's okay, just that you reviewed is appreciated :) I'm so glad you're enjoying the story, and I'm flattered that you like it so much. You're right, Brian and Justin are making great strides toward healing, and with time, things will start getting a lot better for them. More is on the way, I promise. Thanks again :)
Reviewer: Lish (Anonymous) · Date: March 31, 2009 02:47 PM · On: Survivor
I have so much love for this story, you make it so real and not sappy. I just love it more please?
Author's Response: Thank you :) Glad you're enjoying the story. More is on the way :)
Reviewer: emd (Anonymous) · Date: March 27, 2009 02:22 AM · On: Changes
Recently discovered this fic and just wanted to say I love it. Very IC. Looking forward for more!
Author's Response: Thank you :) Glad you're enjoying it. More is coming soon. Thanks for r&r-ing :)
Reviewer: siren (Anonymous) · Date: March 26, 2009 10:37 AM · On: Survivor
great story so far...not great in it's happy, but very compelling and fascinating. as soon as i started reading, i couldn't stop, i can't wait to read more
Author's Response: I'm happy you like it :) More is on the way soon. Thanks for r&r-ing :)
Reviewer: cattabella (Anonymous) · Date: March 26, 2009 10:11 AM · On: Survivor
that was perfect, so well-paced and excellently crafted. What can I say? You have a gift!
Author's Response: I'm glad you liked it! Thanks for reading and commenting :)
Reviewer: Hotesse (Signed) · Date: March 26, 2009 06:27 AM · On: Survivor
:)
Author's Response: :D
Reviewer: Kat (Signed) · Date: March 26, 2009 02:22 AM · On: Survivor
Justin is making such strides right now. I'm so glad he went to the dinner and enjoyed himself. He needed to be among his "family" again. I'm also glad that his test turned out ok. Such a relief for him and Brian.
Author's Response: He really did need a happy night with the people he cares about. I didn't have the heart to make him HIV+ right now. He's entering a healing stage, and he'll continue to make strides toward getting better. :) Thanks for reading and reviewing :)
Reviewer: Tee (Anonymous) · Date: March 25, 2009 11:27 PM · On: Survivor
Justin is getting better. It will just take time. I can't wait until he is ready to have sex with Brian again. I think when Sap pays, Justin will feel a sense of closure and that will help. As for Brian, his feelings regarding fantasizing about Justin needs to be addressed in therapy. I look forward to more. Please update soon. This story is getting better and better/
Author's Response: He is getting better, day by day, and as he does, he'll start getting more physical with Brian. And there's going to be a mention of Sap sometime in the next few chapters... More is coming soon, thanks for reading and rewiewing :)
Reviewer: sjmpets3 (Signed) · Date: March 25, 2009 11:13 PM · On: Survivor
i feel that this chapter is their turning point. the dinner at deb's was a big step for him. i can understand why jennifer wasn't there. he wanted to belong again and they let him. she wouldn't have. he talk with ben set his mind in the right direction also. he was living through it even without noticing that that was what he was doing. brian, omg brian. when in love he loves forever and with everything he's got. this didn't just happen to justin it happened to both of them. his thoughts in the shower broke my heart but made me so damn pround of him. "He was worth everything." i'm so glad he finally realizes it. the phone call couldn't have come at a better time. i think justin will be able to into his next therapy session with a little bit more weight off his shoulders. he's drawing again of happier things. he rated his day saturday with a 5 and he got the call that he's okay. yeah i would definitely say it was a truning point for them. you are doing a fantastic job with this story. just wanted you to know that it's highly appreciated.
Author's Response: It was a turning point for them both, and one of the first happy experiences Justin has had in a while. He needed a night with his friends, and like you said, to belong again. I agree about Brian, in cannon he always seemed like the kind of person that, once he cares about someone, there's no letting go for him. He's been with Justin through every part of this, in one way or another, and as Justin starts to heal, so will he. He's still got a way to go, but he's doing so much better than he was, even therapy will be a little easier as he starts to get better. Thank you so much :) I'm glad you're still enjoying the story, thanks for reading and reviewing :)
Reviewer: gerri (Signed) · Date: March 25, 2009 08:01 PM · On: Survivor
I noticed something today and it is such a testiment to your writing. Justin is getting better, even if he doesn't realise. It may be small steps but it's there and you have been so cleaver to have managed it so quietly that I had almost not have noticed, just like him.
Author's Response: Thank you :) Justin is getting better, little by little, even when he doesn't think he is. Thanks again for reading and reviewing :)
Reviewer: gerri (Signed) · Date: March 13, 2009 08:46 PM · On: Scars
It's a start.
Author's Response: It certainly is ;)
Reviewer: cattabella (Anonymous) · Date: March 11, 2009 11:13 AM · On: Scars
Hope you are feeling better and getting over being sick! Another touching, wonderful chapter.
Author's Response: Thanks, I'm feeling a lot better :) And I'm glad you enjoyed the chapter :)
Reviewer: Kat (Signed) · Date: March 11, 2009 01:57 AM · On: Scars
Great chapter! Justin is really making progress. Michael was a friend and didn't stick his foot in his mouth. He was actually sensative to Justin and Brian's needes! Justin still has a ways to go, but he's doing so much better than he was. I think the dinner will be good for him...I hope!
Author's Response: He certainly is :) He's got a while to go, but he's getting there. Mikey does have a habit of saying exactly the wrong thing at exactly the wrong time, but I like to think he has his not-so-cring-worthy moments on occasion, too. ;) Thanks for reading and reviewing :)
Reviewer: alys (Anonymous) · Date: March 10, 2009 12:37 PM · On: Scars
A beautiful chapter. Glad Mikie is clueless or brillant in this chapter. Brian is great, even finally admitting Justin is his partner. Admitting his own fears about Justin.
Author's Response: Thank you :) I like to think Mikey has his moments, whether intentional or not ;) Brian and Justin are both facing some of their worst fears, and finally starting to come out on the other side of things. Brian's usually the last one to grasp onto his own feelings, but he gets there...eventually...haha. Thanks for reading and reviewing :)
Reviewer: EstherGreenwood (Signed) · Date: March 10, 2009 10:44 AM · On: Scars
I'm happy to see an update for this but I'm sorry that you were sick. Hope you're doing better. It's so great to see Justin making progress. I have to mention again that I love the realistic pacing.
Author's Response: Thanks, I'm feeling a lot better now :) And fortunately, Justin is getting there, too. He's got a long way to go, but he and Brian will make it. Thanks for reading and reviewing :)
Reviewer: sjmpets3 (Signed) · Date: March 10, 2009 07:26 AM · On: Scars
amazing chapter. from the beginning when he wouldn't open his mouth to the end where he was sitting around talking and laughing with brian and michael. what a change. i think having brian read about the dreams is what is getting him to open up more. he doesn't have to hide anything now brian knows it all. i hope brian understands the signifigance of the number doe justin's feelings. wed and thurs. were the two days furthrest from his therapy which is why the numbers were higher. him wanting to go to deb's is a giant step for him but i'd like to see jennifer and daphne there also.
Author's Response: I really wanted to show that, while Justin still has plenty of issues to work through, he is starting out on the road to recovery. The no-secrets rule with Brian is an important part of Justin getting better...he relies on Brian to help him through this, and to do that, they need everything to be open between them. Dinner at Debbie's is definitely a huge step, he's finally trying to start taking his life back. Thanks for reading and reviewing :)
Reviewer: cattabella (Anonymous) · Date: February 25, 2009 01:14 AM · On: Reason
I am so glad you have been updating this! I hadn't checked it for awhile and then when I did there were several new chapters up. this is still the best fic of this type I have ever read. I know this plot is done a lot, but this is realistic and very sensitive to a horrific topic. Really well done. I look forward to your next update!
Author's Response: Thanks so much :) I'm really glad you're enjoying the fic, and that you think it's realistic and sensitive about the topic it deals with. I've been nervous since the beginning about making it 'real,' since it is such a difficult subject to deal with. Thanks again for reading and reviewing :)
Reviewer: Hotesse (Signed) · Date: February 22, 2009 04:30 AM · On: Changes
Thanks so much for the update! This story is so good, I wish I could write like this. Unfortunately it raises the bar to a whole new level so there are only like a handful of stories I can stand to read in MW now...
Kathy is good, I can see that right away, and as Justin can can see a tiny light at the end of the tunnel... that's a start. But Oh they have been through so much, it's amazing how strong Brian is. Any normal person would break... hope he doesn't...
Author's Response: Thank you *blushes* :) Kathy is definitely an improvement to their situation, and Brian's love for Justin and his will to help them both out of this gives him his strength. Hopefully it's enough for them. Thanks for reading and reviewing :)
Reviewer: Leigha (Anonymous) · Date: February 19, 2009 10:00 AM · On: Changes
I have been following this since chapter one. Honestly, your updates are one of the things I look forward to most every week.
Author's Response: Thanks, I'm glad you're enjoying the fic :)
Reviewer: gerri (Signed) · Date: February 18, 2009 08:55 PM · On: Reason
All Justin needs is one good reason and if that is Brian...well better for them both.
Author's Response: If anyone can bring Justin back, it's Brian ;) Thanks for reviewing, gerri :)
Reviewer: Kat (Signed) · Date: February 18, 2009 01:16 AM · On: Reason
I'm so glad Justin finally went to the therapist, this is just the start he needs. I really hope his test results come back ok.
Author's Response: It was time the two of them start turning things around. They've still got a while to go, but it's a start. Thanks for reading and reviewing, Kat :)
Reviewer: alys (Anonymous) · Date: February 17, 2009 09:43 PM · On: Reason
A beautiful poignant chapter. Loved the povs'.
Author's Response: Thank you :)
Reviewer: TLS (Signed) · Date: February 17, 2009 01:35 PM · On: Reason
I am so glad that Justin (and Brian) are finally getting help. I like Kathy and I hope that they continue to see her. Great chapter...Update soon I hope hugz
Author's Response: I'm glad you like Kathy, it was definitely the right decision on Brian's part to make Justin go. Thanks for r&r-ing :)
Reviewer: sjmpets3 (Signed) · Date: February 17, 2009 10:17 AM · On: Reason
the dark tunnel is lightening. i think kathy is perfect for him. for both of them. he's becoming more aware of he world around him. it was the best thing brian could have done was to force him to go. what an amazing chapter.
Author's Response: It certainly is :) I'm glad you like Kathy, it really was the best thing Brian could have done for Justin, and Justin will realize that. Thanks for reviewing, I'm glad you enjoyed the chapter :)
Reviewer: Kat (Signed) · Date: January 28, 2009 05:41 AM · On: Chance
WOW! Thankgoodness Brian got through to Justin. I was so glad he realized, pride be damn, he needed to tell Justin he loved him. That saved their lives! And I'm so glad Justin finally felt able to tell Brian what happened. Now they can start healing and moving forward.
Author's Response: At first I was afraid that it would be too OOC to have Brian say that he loves Justin, but I thought that at a time like that, when Justin's life was basically on the line, he would just say 'fuck it' and go for it anyway. I'm glad you thought it worked. :) And they're definitely moving into the 'healing' stage now that Justin has finally talked to Brian. Thanks for r&r-ing, Kat :)
Reviewer: TaraN (Anonymous) · Date: January 27, 2009 09:03 AM · On: Chance
Wow, this story is really intense. I just started reading it. I had a day off from school and wanted to relax so I spent a couple hours reading this. It is well-written. I still feel you left us with a cliffhanger. I am curious as to what Brian's reaction will be to Justin telling him all of that. Update soon.
Author's Response: Thank you :) I'm glad you're enjoying the fic so far. And sorry about the cliffy...I'll try to update soon, promise. Thanks again :)
Reviewer: EstherGreenwood (Signed) · Date: January 27, 2009 08:27 AM · On: Changes
This chapter was well worth the wait (not that you kept us waiting that long :)). I actually teared up a bit throughout and that rarely happens with fics.
Author's Response: Thank you, glad you thought it was worth it. :)
Reviewer: Kat (Signed) · Date: January 27, 2009 06:20 AM · On: Free
I read this chapter when you first put it up and forgot to leave a comment! The chapter was great and I just can't stop hurting for Justin.
Author's Response: Thank you :) Glad you enjoyed it, even if it was kind of angsty.
Reviewer: Buffytess (Anonymous) · Date: January 27, 2009 04:31 AM · On: Chance
oohh thanks for a great chapter i was so sad through the whole chapter, and my heart was breaking, poor Justin he is hurting so much and i feel sorry for Brian to for feeling so helpless i hope they can get through this together. I am looking forward to the next chapter. Many Hugs Buffytess
Author's Response: They've still got a long way to go, but now that Justin's finally opened up, they can start trying to heal together. Thanks for reviewing, Buffytess :)
Reviewer: elvenfixation (Anonymous) · Date: January 26, 2009 01:57 PM · On: Chance
...wow; I'm speechless. Thank you for the update. That was an amazing chapter, definitely worth the wait...seriously, wow! (Can't wait to find out where they go from here...)
Author's Response: Thank you so much! I'm glad you liked the chapter, and that it was worth the wait. Thanks for reviewing :)
Reviewer: sjmpets3 (Signed) · Date: January 26, 2009 06:57 AM · On: Chance
it was the three words that brian said that got him to justin. now that all of it is out in the open, that he fianlly told brian all of it, now they'll be able to start living again. it's the first much needed step. as for the sap, brian is going to track him down. no matter where he goes, he's done for. very powerful chapter.
Author's Response: It's definitely a turning point, so to speak, in Justin's progress. He's still got a long way to go, but he's definitely getting there, especially now that he talked to Brian and it's all out in the open. Thanks for reviewing :)
Reviewer: Kat (Signed) · Date: January 20, 2009 05:32 AM · On: Storms
I hope he does talk to Brian, I really do!
Author's Response: I'll see what I can do. Justin's his own greatest obstacle right now. Thanks for reading and reviewing :)
Reviewer: twistedlogic20 (Anonymous) · Date: January 16, 2009 10:46 AM · On: Free
OMG!!! I cried the whole time I was reading this chapter! Of, couse it's a beautifully written as every other, and just as sad! Please, please, tell me the Sap will pay for what he did. I can't wait to read more.
Author's Response: *Looks apologetic* Sorry about making you cry. I didn't mean to...well, actually, I did. But that's not the point. ;) I have a couple of ideas on what's going to happen with Sap, but I haven't decided on one just yet. Thanks so much :) I'll try to update ASAP.
Reviewer: Suse (Anonymous) · Date: January 16, 2009 12:06 AM · On: Free
I am sitting here with my mouth open and I don't even know what to say. You have made Justin's pain so real.
Author's Response: Thanks, I'm glad you're enjoying the story. :)
Reviewer: Tiffany (Anonymous) · Date: January 15, 2009 07:26 AM · On: Free
You can't leave us waiting too long for the next update. Phenomenal chapter... but I need to know what happens next!!!!
Author's Response: Thanks :) I'll try not to make you wait too long. I have a lot planned for the next couple of chapters, but I'll try to update soon. :)
Reviewer: EstherGreenwood (Signed) · Date: January 15, 2009 01:37 AM · On: Changes
I'm probably just stating the obvious here, but that was intense. And you left us with a quite literal cliffhanger...Can't wait to see what happens next.
Author's Response: Thanks :) Sorry for the cliffhanger...I couldn't resist. I'll try to update soon, I promise. :)
Reviewer: Memo (Anonymous) · Date: January 14, 2009 03:47 PM · On: Free
Oh my god, run, Brian, ruuuuuun! Man, what a chapter! You've done it. You made me cry. Happy now? ;) But seriously, you have a very intense way of writing and I like that you take your time to really let the feelings develop. Can't wait for the next update!
Author's Response: Thanks so much, I'm glad you liked it. Sorry I made you cry though ;)
Reviewer: sjmpets3 (Signed) · Date: January 14, 2009 03:12 PM · On: Free
two awesome chapters. i can't imagine justin pain enough to kill himself. does he really think it's easier than getting the help he needs. can brian stop him? please update soon.
Author's Response: Thanks, I'm glad you liked them. :) Justin is, pretty much like he said, just done with trying to deal with everything. Hopefully Brian will be able to talk him out of it... I'll try to update soon, thanks for reviewing :)
Reviewer: Josieb1 (Anonymous) · Date: December 23, 2008 11:46 PM · On: Storms
Another great chapter, this story is just so good it has me on the edge of my seat. Thanks for updating before the holidays and have a lovely Christmas and New year.
Author's Response: Thanks :) I'm glad you're enjoying the fic, there will be more coming next year. Have a Merry Christmas and happy new year, josieb1 :)
Reviewer: calisurferchic (Anonymous) · Date: December 23, 2008 01:25 PM · On: Storms
You have the greatest gift for continuous cliff hangers! Seriously - I have reviewed my reviews of this fic and it seems I am always saying the same thing LOL. So I will repeat myself: another really good chapter. Justin hiding in the bathroom breaks my heart. Please, please update soon and please have him let Brian in just a little? Pretty please? Despite my pleading to have him heal faster - I have to say that you are dealing with a very difficult and painful subject really well. The fact it isn't an overnight cure or he has a fix-all breakthrough is very genuine.
Author's Response: Haha, funny thing is, reading cliff hangers drives me crazy, but I love writing them (sorry.) ;) I guess it's more fun from this end. Justin and Brian are both reaching the end of their ropes here, so something is definitely going to have to change. Justin is really trying, so maybe he'll be able to let Brian in a little pretty soon. And I'm so glad you think Justin's progress so far has been believable, since I'm always wondering (worrying) about that. Happy Holidays, calisurferchic :)
Reviewer: elvenfixation (Anonymous) · Date: December 22, 2008 05:04 PM · On: Storms
...great cliffhanger to end the year with. I'm glad Justin finally decided to talk to Brian, even if his motives aren't exactly rational, (trying to get out of therapy,) but I still have a feeling things aren't going to be that easy. I can't wait to find out what happens. Out of all the stories I've read this year, yours is definitely one of the top five. I'll look forward to new chapters next year (and plenty of pain for "the sap...?") Take care, and have a good holiday and a happy New Year.
Author's Response: Thank you :) I thought it was a hopeful sort of way to leave it off for now, with Justin deciding to talk, even if there was a lot of angst and fear surrounding his decision. Wow, really? Top five? *blushes* Thanks :D Knowing that people are enjoying what I write makes me want to do it more, so I'm glad you're enjoying the story. There will definitely be more coming next year, and hopefully less pain for Justin and more pain for the sap. Hope you have a happy holiday, and have a great new year :)
Reviewer: cattabella (Anonymous) · Date: December 22, 2008 12:46 PM · On: Storms
amazing. can't wait for more. happy holidays, too!
Author's Response: Thanks :D There will definitely be more coming, next year. Hope you have a great holiday :)
Reviewer: EstherGreenwood (Signed) · Date: December 21, 2008 04:56 PM · On: Changes
I really like this story because, as a previous reviewer has said, we're seeing it in "real" time. You really get the emotions across well.
Author's Response: Thanks so much, EstherGreenwood. I'm glad you're enjoying the story.
Reviewer: Anno53 (Anonymous) · Date: December 20, 2008 10:12 AM · On: Memories
This story is so amazing ... I feel so sorry for Justin for having to cope with all of this ... and Brian is trying to hard to help. Great story!
Author's Response: Justin's got a lot to deal with at the moment, but thankfully he doesn't have to do it alone. Thanks so much, Anno53 :)
Reviewer: elvenfixation (Anonymous) · Date: December 11, 2008 12:48 PM · On: Memories
...I'm happy you updated, and I'm so glad you're feeling better. I'm still seriously hooked on this story; (actually, it's the only QAF story I'm still following right now). Your characters are totally belivable and in character and the progress up to this point has been completely realistic. I hope Brian can get through to Justin and get him to see a therapist. I can't imagine how freaked he must have been to see those drawings...Brian really is so amazing in this story... Anyway, I look foward to reading more.
Author's Response: Thanks :) It was so frustrating because I had all these plans for the chapter, and then I got sick and couldn't do anything about them, lol. Thanks so much, and I'm so glad you think the boys are in character and that it's been realistic so far. I'm always questioning whether or not they're in character, particularly Brian, so it means a lot that you think they've been believable. Thanks again, elvenfixation. I'll try to update soon :)
Reviewer: gerri (Signed) · Date: December 11, 2008 11:38 AM · On: Memories
I am so beyond hooked to this it scares me. I have to read when I see it's posted and I jut loose myself in it, very dark, very honest and very good.
Author's Response: Wow, thanks. I'm glad you're enjoying the story.
Reviewer: Kat (Signed) · Date: December 11, 2008 02:26 AM · On: Memories
My heart breaks for Justin with every chapter! I can only imagine what those drawings did to Brian. I'm glad that Justin is at least considering therapy, it would be a start. He's just so broken now it hurts my heart. You can just feel his pain and Brian's emotions in every word you write
Author's Response: Justin still has a long way to go, but Brian's not giving up. I'm glad you're enjoying the story, and thanks for r&r-ing :)
Reviewer: Josieb1 (Anonymous) · Date: December 11, 2008 01:30 AM · On: Memories
I was so happy to see another update to this story this morning. This was another very powerful chapter. I can quite believe that Justin is suicidal after the way he has been feeling, and Brian's panic is just so real. Thanks for continuing with this story.
Author's Response: Justin's still got a lot of healing to do, unfortunately. I'm glad you're enjoying the story, and thanks for reviewing :)
Reviewer: sjmpets3 (Signed) · Date: December 10, 2008 11:54 AM · On: Memories
right now i don't know who really is worse off. justin with his thoughts or brian with his helplessness. he's going to snap if something doesn't give soon.
Author's Response: They've both got almost more to deal with than they can handle right now, Brian's got to convince Justin to start trying to help himself, though they both need some help on this one. Thanks so much for reading and reviewing.
Reviewer: Kat (Signed) · Date: December 04, 2008 06:22 AM · On: Dominoes
So intense! Wow, so the secret is out. As I was reading it and more names popped up that knew what happened, I was like omg how is Justin going to handle this. I'm glad Brian got out all of that pent up frustration while Michael was there. He needed that release badly. Jennifer dealt with that pretty much like I felt she would and I'm glad she didn't go into blame Brian mode. Now, I'm wondering how everyone else will be once they do see Justin. I just hope they respect his boundries or Brian will ban them all from getting near Justin.
Author's Response: I'm glad you thought Jen's reaction came across okay. I figured she'd go into mother mode and just want to help her son, however she could. Only this time around, she's figured out that he needs Brian by his side. But it's all in the open now, everyone knows what happened, and now it's up to Justin to reach out and take the first step. Thanks for reviewing, Kat :)
Reviewer: elvenfixation (Anonymous) · Date: November 30, 2008 01:00 PM · On: Dominoes
Another awesome chapter. I'm glad the secret's out now. Now Justin can start to focus on healing instead of worrying that everyone will find out what happened. As usual you write everyone so in character. I can really imagine a scene like this for Jennifer. Will be waiting impatiently for more.
Author's Response: Thanks :) I'm glad you thought Jen's part was in character, I've never written her like that before. More is coming soon :) Thanks for reviewing.
Reviewer: calisurferchic (Anonymous) · Date: November 30, 2008 07:34 AM · On: Dominoes
Amazing and poignant chapter. Can't wait for more.
Author's Response: Thanks :) More is definitely on the way.
Reviewer: sjmpets3 (Signed) · Date: November 26, 2008 09:25 AM · On: Dominoes
very powerful chapter. as infuriating as michael can be and is, this time he did good. giving brian a release of all that pent up anger and helplessness. it was good for him. jennifer and justin will be okay, but she should know her son by now. he would never leave brian unless he wasn't wanted. he knew he was. jennifer and brian will be okay too. at least this time she isn't blaming him which is nice. i think she could tell just how much he was hurting by what justin was going through.
Author's Response: Michael was bound to do something right eventually, Brian really needed to let it out. Jen is finally realizing that Brian does really love Justin, in his way, and both of them would do anything to take away Justin's pain if they could. Jennifer just wants what's best for her son. Thanks for reviewing :)
Reviewer: elvenfixation (Anonymous) · Date: November 15, 2008 03:57 PM · On: Infected
...wow, thank you for the update. And I'm so glad you gave Justin something treatable. I was worried there for a while, especially with the title of the chapter. (Though he won't be out of the danger zone for a while yet.) Now, who's at the door? My bet would be on Michael, Jennifer, or Daphne. (By the way, I've put this story on my rec list. I've given it four stars for the moment, but I'm sure it'll rate a five once it's finished.) I'll be waiting for the next one. Keep up the good work.
Author's Response: I didn't have the heart to give him HIV, at least not right now, but I didn't think he'd be able to get off with nothing, given what he went through. (And incidentally, I chose the title of the chapter on purpose, for precisely that reason of making people worry, if they paid attention to the title. Kinda mean, huh?) Well I'll give you a hint, it is one of those three at the door. ;) *Feels honored that you awarded the fic four stars, and put it on your rec list* :D I'm so glad you're liking the fic. Thanks so much for reading/reviewing :) I'll try to have chapter twelve up next week.
Reviewer: Kat (Signed) · Date: November 15, 2008 04:59 AM · On: Infected
I'm glad Brian and Justin had that talk. They both needed to say and hear those things. Now who is tap, tap, tapping outside Brian's door?
Author's Response: Justin just needed a push, now that he knows Brian's sticking around, he can finally start to open up a little. I'm seriously worried everyone's going to be disappointed when they find out who's at the door...lol. Thanks for r&r-ing, Kat :)
Reviewer: twistedlogic20 (Anonymous) · Date: November 15, 2008 01:30 AM · On: Infected
I'm so glad you wrote this chapter. Now Brian and Justin can both start to get better! (specially Justin). I can't wait to know who was that a the door! I kind of think is Jennifer. Please keep writting.
Author's Response: I'm so happy you liked the chapter. I thought Justin might need a little nudge to start really opening up to Brian. Hmm maybe it's Jen...she's going to be in the fic, but you'll have to wait to see who's at the door. I'm afraid it might disappoint people a little, lol. Thanks for reviewing :) I'll hopefully have the next chapter up around this time next week.
Reviewer: alys (Anonymous) · Date: November 14, 2008 12:31 PM · On: Infected
Love how Brian is being strong and demanding Justin be forthright with him. So who's at the dooor? Great chapter.
Author's Response: Glad you liked Brian this chapter, thanks for reviewing :)
Reviewer: sjmpets3 (Signed) · Date: November 14, 2008 11:35 AM · On: Infected
what a chapter. marvelous. no more hiding. for either of them. brian's not running, but justin still is. from his demons. now who is it at the door to make things harder for them?
Author's Response: It's all in the open now, Justin just needs to face what happened head on and stop trying to run from it. As for who's at the door, you'll have to wait and find out, ;) I'm glad you liked the chapter, thanks for reviewing :)
Reviewer: Kat (Signed) · Date: November 09, 2008 03:31 AM · On: Rage
I hope Brian doesn't start feeling like Justin doesn't trust him again. They did work through that, Justin had been afraid Brian wouldn't want him anymore. I hope this doesn't set them back. I hope Justin's test results will turn out ok and that he will be open with Brian regardless. Very believeable with the Brian/Mikey confrontation. Just like Michael to throw something in Brian's face.
Author's Response: Yeah, they did work through it, but having it thrown back in his face by Michael doesn't help things much. It's more the fact that Justin didn't trust him to be there for him that's hurting Brian. But there'll be more on this, probably next chapter. I'm glad you thought the Brian/Mikey scene was believable...I was worried about keeping them IC, I had about three versions of that part. Michael sometimes doesn't think before he speaks in situations like that...and usually ends up making things worse. Thanks for reviewing, Kat :)
Reviewer: calisurferchic (Anonymous) · Date: November 08, 2008 02:45 PM · On: Rage
wow. amazing chapter. god my heart hurts for both of them.
Author's Response: So glad you liked it, despite the pain they're both in. Unfortunately, there's still some angst ahead. :( Thanks for r&r-ing :)
Reviewer: elvenfixation (Anonymous) · Date: November 08, 2008 01:14 PM · On: Rage
wow...another amazing chapter. The scene between Brian and Michael was so in character...I could really imagine a scene like that on the show. (I hope Justin's test results come back okay; (angst is good but him being positive would be too much...) Please, update soon; I'll be waiting on the edge of my seat.
Author's Response: I'm so glad you thought Michael and Brian were in character...I was kind of obsessing over getting that scene just right. And I'll try not to make you wait too long for Justin's results, whatever they turn out to be. Thanks for reading and reviewing :)
Reviewer: sjmpets3 (Signed) · Date: November 08, 2008 09:13 AM · On: Rage
he knows in his heart why justin didn't tell him. i hope there's an update soon because worrying about justin's results does not sit well. please let us know soon.
Author's Response: Unfortunately, Michael brought up the exact point Brian was trying ignore. And I promise to try and update really soon, and not make you wait too long for Justin's results. Thanks for reviewing :)
Reviewer: Kat (Signed) · Date: November 03, 2008 07:39 AM · On: Truth
So, so heartbreaking! But very Brian like to be there and be supportive of Justin. I know he's hurt that Michael knew what happened, but he's obviously gonna fight that battle another day. Mikey won't know what hit him when Hurricane Brian blows. In this chapter you can just feel both Brian and Justin's pain. Brian's pain in knowing what has happened to Justin, wanting to fix this for him somehow and his vunderability. Justin is breaking my heart, I just want him well. But I appreciate you not fixing him to quickly. Letting this play out in "real time", unlike Cowlip did with the bashing storyline.
Author's Response: I like to think Brian, for all his faults, will always be there when the people he cares about need him most. He was there after Justin was bashed, and he'll be there now. Mikey, however, better take cover...Hurricane Brian is going to be a terrifying one. On top of finding out his boyfriend was raped, he now has to deal with the fact that his best friend knew about it and kept it a secret. Brian's got a lot to deal with at the moment. He just wants to help Justin, and Justin just wants to stop hurting, but neither one of them know where to start. I always kind of thought Cowlip rushed certain things on the show that should have taken more time...the bashing, Brian's cancer, etc. But here in fanfic land, we can take the time to explore things more than they can on TV shows. It's going to be a while before Justin's anywhere near back to normal. Thanks for reading and reviewing, Kat :) Glad you're liking the story.
Reviewer: Anonymous (Anonymous) · Date: November 03, 2008 06:55 AM · On: Truth
That was just awesome!!! I cried while reading the whole thing! I'm so glad Brian is finally giving Justin the help he needs to be well again. And I can't wait to see what Brian will do to Michael for not telling him. =)
Author's Response: So sorry I made you cry :( But I'm glad you thought it was awesome :) They've got a long road ahead of them, but Brian's not giving up on Justin. Though Mikey better watch out...Brian's not very happy with him at all. Thanks for reviewing :)
Reviewer: sjmpets3 (Signed) · Date: November 03, 2008 05:30 AM · On: Truth
i don't know how they're going to get through this with just the two of them. he has to talk justin into going to therapy and to go to the cops. seeing that the sap did this to someone else, once he thinks it over, just might give him the courage to get his life back. now michael keeping this from brian is another story. he has every right to be angry. thanks for the update.
Author's Response: That's one of Brian's greatest fears right now, that he won't be able to help Justin get through this. Ultimately, Justin will have to make the decision to get professional help or go to the cops, but Brian isn't going to just drop it, either. But Mikey better brace himself, Brian is seriously pissed at this point. Thanks for reading and reviewing :)
Reviewer: josieb (Anonymous) · Date: November 02, 2008 06:08 PM · On: Truth
Another amazing chapter, both POV's are so true to the characters. Brian does need to know the details as until he does it will all get magnified in his mind and just make things worse in the long run. Justin should go to the police as well, but i can understand why he doesn't want to.
Author's Response: Thank you :) I'm glad you thought so. Justin will eventually have to talk about what happened, but it's going to have to be on his own terms, and it'll be hard for both of them. Going to the police would naturally be the best course of action, but Justin isn't really thinking about it like that right now. But now he has Brian there to take care of him as much as possible. Thanks for reviewing, josieb :)
Reviewer: calisurferchic (Anonymous) · Date: November 02, 2008 12:27 PM · On: Truth
oh my god. that was so perfect. I am actually crying.
Author's Response: Thanks so, so much :D But I'm so sorry I made you cry! :( If it makes you feel any better, I almost started crying myself during this chapter. I need an angst break.
Reviewer: kinneydu (Anonymous) · Date: October 30, 2008 03:01 PM · On: Poison
Great story. Very angsty, but good characterisation. Looking forward to the next chapter.
Author's Response: Thanks :) Glad you like it, despite the angst-factor.
Reviewer: twistedlogic20 (Anonymous) · Date: October 29, 2008 01:36 AM · On: Poison
OMG!!!! I have been waiting for this chapter for soo long and it was compleately beautiful, and the best part is that you managed to keep everyone totally in character, something that most writters can't do in a story like this one. Also, I'm so glad Brian finally knows what happened but the way he found out was a total mess and so horrible for him. However I'm happy it happened 'cause at least now he'll be able to help Justin and beat the shit out of the Sap! Please keep writting! oh, and I wanted to aks you if you have a livejournal page or something like that? 'cause I would love to add you to my friends so I can keep track of all your stories. =)
Author's Response: I was kind of worried about Brian this chapter, so I'm really glad you thought everyone was in character. I always wonder if they're all coming off right. :) The way Brian found out was pretty horrible (sorry, I'm cruel to him). Out of Daphne, Justin, and Michael all knowing...he had to find out by linking some gossip to what happened to his boyfriend. That definitely could have gone better. Now that he knows, though, he and Justin can finally start to deal with this like they should have been doing a month ago. I don't know exactly what's going to happen to Sap yet, but I have a good idea. If he doesn't get what's coming to him anyway, Brian is intent on making him pay. Sorry, I have a livejournal page, but I've posted about four things on it, and three of them were chapters from this fic. I've been having some technical problems with the site, I don't really post over there much. All my QAF stuff is here and on fanfiction.net. If you want the link to my stuff there, there's not much QAF stuff over there that isn't here, (I think like, one fic), but if you want it, email me :) Thanks so much for reading and reviewing :)
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