Reviewer: coleamber (Signed) · Date: April 22, 2020 02:14 AM · On: The Way To His Heart
did read it again
Reviewer: coleamber (Signed) · Date: April 14, 2019 07:32 PM · On: The Way To His Heart
good one
Author's Response: I'm so glad you enjoyed this story :-) Writing it meant a lot to me personally. Thanks so much for reading and for your reviews!
Reviewer: coleamber (Signed) · Date: April 14, 2019 07:11 PM · On: Snakes and Ladders
why did stupid Jennifer bring Justin that letter
Reviewer: YumYumPM (Signed) · Date: August 30, 2018 01:58 PM · On: The Way To His Heart
This was a story of survival and with the help of Brian in others Justin did.
Author's Response: Thank you so much for reading, and for all of your wonderful reviews! I'm so glad that you enjoyed this story and found it moving. Thanks again for reading and for your comments. I apprecaite it so much :-)
Reviewer: YumYumPM (Signed) · Date: August 30, 2018 01:20 PM · On: Snakes and Ladders
We all want Justin to be happy.
Reviewer: YumYumPM (Signed) · Date: August 30, 2018 03:52 AM · On: Like the First Time
Things are improving.
Reviewer: YumYumPM (Signed) · Date: August 29, 2018 05:18 PM · On: Eternal Sunshine
Love how Emmett was the one to bring color back into his life.
Reviewer: YumYumPM (Signed) · Date: August 29, 2018 04:30 PM · On: Losing the Battle, Winning the War
When will everyone realize that it's not about weight but control. Is it possible to find something he can control as a start to recovery?
Reviewer: YumYumPM (Signed) · Date: August 29, 2018 02:33 PM · On: If You Need Me
Knowing Brian isn't going to run away from this should help make things easier for Justin.
Reviewer: YumYumPM (Signed) · Date: August 29, 2018 02:07 AM · On: Broken Wings, Unbroken Soul
The sadness in this chapter is unmistakeable. Brian is going to need help.
Reviewer: YumYumPM (Signed) · Date: August 29, 2018 01:49 AM · On: Even If It Kills Me
Leaving Justin alone right now might not be an option.
Reviewer: YumYumPM (Signed) · Date: August 29, 2018 01:39 AM · On: Shades of Grey
Will going back to Pittsburgh help. Having Brian with him will, but having no control, I'm not sure.
Reviewer: YumYumPM (Signed) · Date: August 29, 2018 01:02 AM · On: Dark Secret Love
Now that you've written this I can actually see it happening this way. Hopefully Brian can help.
Reviewer: cullengirl08 (Signed) · Date: July 14, 2018 01:34 AM · On: The Way To His Heart
This was an amazing story from start to finish, and definitely one of my favorites.
Author's Response: Thank you so much for reading, and my apologies for the delay in getting back to all of your wonderful reviews. I'm really glad you enjoyed this story; it has a very personal meaning for me as the author, and part of the point was to communicate the misconceptions around eating disorders. I am thrilled that you count it among your favourites :-)
Reviewer: Happy Gamma (Signed) · Date: January 30, 2018 03:34 AM · On: The Way To His Heart
I decided to wait until the end to review again. What an amazing story so well written about such a terrible illness. You did such a good job getting the reader's emotion involved with your words. I am off to read What a Wonderful Life next. On a personal note, years ago I went to a fitness center for a couple years. A girl showed up one day looking like what you wrote about. She was beyond skinny, all skin & bones and she exercised like a fiend. Everyone was so concerned, but she really was a stranger to us. She just got thinner and thinner. One day when I got there, her picture and obituary were posted on the bulletin board. She was 18 years old. As I read this incredible story, I could see her so clearly. So happy that Justin didn't end the way she did.
Author's Response: I'm glad you enjoyed this story, and thought it was poignant. As I said, it is by far the hardest thing I've ever written because - as you may have guessed - it's based on personal experience. Few people can fully comprehend how an eating disorder can destroy a life, and how they aren't about food or body image. It's basically a deadly manifestation of an obsessive-compulsive disorder. It's also not well-known that anorexia is by far the most deadly mental illness, with a mortality rate of 10%. As a teenager, I was that girl in your fitness centre, but I was fortunate enough to be forced into treatment, as Justin was in this story. I hoped that, with this story, I could help to elucidate the realities of eating disorders. The stigma that is still attached to them prevents many people who might try and get help from actually doing so...
Reviewer: Happy Gamma (Signed) · Date: January 29, 2018 03:27 AM · On: Shades of Grey
WOW. what a powerful story and chapter. I can't stop crying.
Author's Response: Yeah, it's pretty unapologetic. This story is by far the hardest things I've ever written. I'm glad you thought it was powerful. Thanks so much for reading!
Reviewer: Enohvee1875 (Signed) · Date: July 07, 2016 10:16 AM · On: The Way To His Heart
Such a powerful and empowering story. I am old enough to remember when eating disorders were beginning to be taken seriously as a cry for help. Those suffering from ED as well as society need to become educated. In order to get to the root of why a person tries to starve or eat themselves to death, you have to find out what is eating them.
Author's Response: I'm really glad you enjoyed this story, and found it meaningful and empowering. As you may have been able to tell, this is partly a true story. My own story, actually. There is still a lot of stigma around eating disorders that are untrue, possibly the biggest one being that EDs are about food and weight. They aren't. They are mental illnesses like schizophrenia or bipolar disorder that sometimes arise for reasons that have nothing to do with body image. Usually it has to do with a need for control, and it can completely tear a life apart. People also don't always realize that EDs kill - anorexia has the highest mortality rate of any mental illness (10%). There is still a heavy emphasis in our society around weight and food, mainly because of the obesity epidemic. I still don't think EDs get the recognition they need, but things are certainly improving.
Reviewer: nickknack (Signed) · Date: January 29, 2016 11:41 AM · On: The Way To His Heart
Wow, this was so gut-wrenching and emotional. I sympathise with all those who have struggled with this relentless and overwhelming illness. I love that you dealt with this so openly and compassionately, especially in allowing Brian to be so supportive of the man he loves. Very provoking.
Author's Response: Thanks so much for reading! I'm glad you found this story realistic and thought-provoking. Eating disorders are often misunderstood, seen as the whims of teenaged girls, rather than the potentially life-threatening mental illnesses that they are. Anorexia in particular has a 10% mortality rate. EDs are rampant in our society, but the stigma attached to them is so strong that many people don't seek help. This story was kind of my way of bringing the reality of on ED forward, and to challenge some of the stereotypes. Again, I'm so thrilled you appreciated it :-)
Reviewer: misseshermionemalfoy (Signed) · Date: October 25, 2015 05:23 AM · On: The Way To His Heart
This was really beautiful and made all the right statements about how eating diorders are NOT a choice. I'm so glad you wrote this.
Author's Response: I'm so glad you read it :-) Yes, one of the intentions of this story was to dispell some ED myths. Telling someone with an ED to 'just eat' is like telling someone with depression to 'just cheer up'. EDs have such a stingma in our society that people seem to have forgotten that they are serious, life-threatening illnesses, and not some kind of radical diet. With the obesity epidemic, I feel soceity has also lost sight of the fact that the other extreme continues to be a huge problem for many people, especally those who feel they have to suffer in silence. Thanks again for reading and for your review!
Reviewer: misseshermionemalfoy (Signed) · Date: October 25, 2015 02:00 AM · On: Dark Secret Love
This is really powerful. I don't see people writing about eating disoders much but you've written accurately about them so far. It's a rough subject to write about but I'm glad you didn't disconnect the eating disorder and depression.
Author's Response: I'm so glad that you found this story poignant and powerful. It was a tough subject to write about, especially as it's written from experince. I found there was so much people didn't understand about eating disorders, like the complusive need to lie about food and exercise, and how isolating that can be. It would have been impossible to write about an ED and not write about depression in some form. It is a terrible thing to be trapped inside. Thanks for reading and for your review!
Reviewer: Frances (Signed) · Date: October 14, 2015 12:35 AM · On: The Way To His Heart
Wonderful story. Heartbreaking and uplifting at the same time. Thank you for sharing.
Author's Response: Thanks Frances :-) I'm glad you enjoyed this story, although I know it can be hard to read in places - it is a very real story, but with real undertones of hope. Thanks so much for reading and for your wonderful review. I really appreciate it!
Reviewer: no sleep (Signed) · Date: January 02, 2013 12:56 AM · On: The Way To His Heart
I just…I don’t want to have to choose between them. That’s what tore me apart when I left here last year. I just had no control over what I wanted, and that’s when the anorexia started. I wanted you and I wanted my art, but I couldn’t have both.”
I would be lying to say I fully understand anorexia just I don't fully understand overeating and I'm not sure if the two are related in any way. I have witnessed and taken care of both in my profession but only treating the physical aspects of them. I remember movie of the week and afternoon specials when I was younger about anorexia, but nothing really stands out to me. Ilso remember people whispering around me and smetimes asking me point blank if I had an eating disorder. I was only 88lbs when I married my husband. I remember my gynecologist telling me I was underwieight. I remember how I would work out more if I felt my thighs were too large, even at that weight. I had a body image problem. It was never an eating disorder. I can't begin to understand what anyone with that disorder goes through.
I will read your anoxia stories on both Brian and Justin again. I'm determined to understand more. I'm just stubborn like that, LOL.
Author's Response: LOL! I'm glad you are stubborn about that ;-) It really is a very complicated disorder - each case is as unique as the person who has it. Although poor body image or low self-esteem can be the trigger for an eating disorder, is it (as far as I understand at least) seldom even the cause. The confusion and the misconceptions come when people only see the symptoms (i.e. weight loss etc.) and assume there is nothing more than that. As far as I'm concerned, eating (whether it is not eating or over eating) is only the most obvious symptom of a driving, obsessional need to control. It's not a consequence that many victims of eating disorders are high-achievers and perfectionists who avoid failure at all costs. The irrational but compelling idea is that failure can be avoided through control. Does that makes sense? Like I said, it can be complicated.
Thank you so much for taking the time to read this story a second time through. I'm so glad you saw things this time that you hadn't seen before. And thank you again for all of your wonderful and insightful comments. They all mean so much *hugs*
Reviewer: no sleep (Signed) · Date: January 01, 2013 11:58 PM · On: Snakes and Ladders
Okay, not Europe, but New york. Time to eat breakfast, LOL.
Reviewer: no sleep (Signed) · Date: January 01, 2013 11:54 PM · On: Snakes and Ladders
"...his gaze focused on a small sparrow..."
I understand that there is no true cure for anorexia -- that it is a battle that will go on for the rest of one's life. And if that is truly the case, I can understand Jennifer's reluctance in allowing Justin to leave for Europe, but like Brian pointed out, he wouldn't be happy. And itsn't the crux of the matter in the first place?
Now, I have racked my little brain, but I cannot figure out the significance of the sparrows.
Author's Response: LOL! The sparrow is just me being elusively poetic ;-) The sparrow is just basically Brian suddenly realizing the complexities of life, and how huge and detailed it can all seem somehow - even when looking at something as unassuming as a little bird. As for Jennifer and Justin... it is true that there is no 'cure' for an eating disorders, but people do recover from them. They just learn to deal with and confront the obsessions, until they no longer hold any power over them. What I do know for a fact is that a person has to *want* to get better - there is no way in hell recovery will happen otherwise. And I think that a big part of wanting to get better is being happy and stable - that's why Brian wants Justin to go to New York...
Thanks again for reading, as always, and for all your lovely comments :-)
Reviewer: no sleep (Signed) · Date: January 01, 2013 02:11 PM · On: Like the First Time
"And soaring above it all, he was aware of their powerful, unbreakable, infinite connection."
I'm glad I read this again. You don't get the full effect of this with the mechanical voice of a e-reader. This was intense.Their love making could not have been like the first time.
I trying to convey my thoughts here but my virus is making me a little woozy, so bear with me, LOL.
"Love was the most powerful weapon and the most protective shield."
Maybe if Justin had never left Brian behind for New York the anorexia never would have happened? Brian was such an integral part of him.
Hmm, I always thougth Brian did love Justin that very first night, hence the juggling and hand stands. But you also pointed out that "This time, Brian believed in love."
Loved this chapter!
Author's Response: I'm so glad you loved this chapter, and that you found the love making was intense and meaningful. So *not* like the first time... I think you're right in that Justin may never have developed the illness had he never left New York. It is true that most people who have or have had anorexia are predisposed to it, by virtue of their past, their genetics or the personalities. Bit it typically needs a trigger. Justin's trigger would have been leaving Brian - any big, life change can be a significant trigger. It's interesting what you say about Brian's handstands and juggling being a sign that he loved Justin. I've never thought of it that way before - I always just assumed his antics were because he was high. Huh. Interesting idea...
Thanks so much for reading, as always, and for all your insightful comments. *hugs*
Reviewer: no sleep (Signed) · Date: January 01, 2013 01:45 PM · On: Eternal Sunshine
"He sometimes forgot that this was Brian’s war as much as it was his own.'
It was only five weeks? It seems like it would have taken longer for the treatment. Maybe Justin did so well because he wasn't fighting only for himself.
I loved Emmett and those socks more than the story he told.
“You’re beautiful, you know that?”
That was such a heartfelt moment. Loved it.
Author's Response: Thanks Sandra :-)
The treatment does take longer than five weeks - it takes years and years. When a person is admitted to hospital for anorexia, they can only treat the most immediate and life-threatening symptoms like starvation. The initial weight gain can happen surprisingly fast once the person starts eating again, but it's the dangerous, obsessive thoughts and the resistance to the treatment that can take years to recover from. The test of time is always the hardest.
I'm really glad you liked Emmett in this chapter - I just loved him after I'd finished writing it. I can see Emmett being profoundly affected by Trudy's tragic story.
So glad you enjoyed this chapter - thanks so much for reading, as always, and for your wonderful and insightful comments :-)
Reviewer: no sleep (Signed) · Date: January 01, 2013 12:55 PM · On: Losing the Battle, Winning the War
"But he didn’t have a fucking choice. He hated not having the choice to control his own life."
I really woke up from a much needed nap so I'm still behind in getting my reviews done but I am determined.
I can see Justin or anyone geting to a breaking point in the treatment. It does seem as if he was forced to eat or else anf treated like a petulant child who wounldn't eat there vegetables. I don't see how anyone could get through such a treatment without a good support system.
I can see Justin worried about cum calories. That was funny.
Oh, your new userpics ARE AESOME! You always had gorgeous ones but you know I love the Lark series.
Author's Response: Thanks Sandra :-) I'm sorry it's taking me so long to get back to these - after the holidays, I'm really behind in replying to all my comments *sigh* As far as the treatment goes... well, I'm on the fence about whether or not this is really the best way to treat anorexia. I certainly have some reservations and even some bitterness about it myself. But this is the way the illness is treated for very serious cases, and it does require an awful lot of self-will and a lot of support. The part about the cum was meant to be a bit humorous, but it is also kind of sad that Justin was so far gone that little tiny things like this continued to haunt him. There was no escaping his obsession, not even with Brian...
I love my userpics for The Lark as well *g* Did you see the banner as well? I'm just thrilled with it ;-)
Reviewer: no sleep (Signed) · Date: January 01, 2013 12:27 PM · On: If You Need Me
"It made Brian’s heart ache."
I listened to this as a was packing so I had to go back to make sure I hadn't missed anything. The program seemed so severe. Close watch? I then realized that it was a life and death situation. It might as well have been a suicide watch.
It was heartwrenching to see how much it affected Brian and Jennifer and beautiful to see how support they provided.
Author's Response: Thanks Sandra! I think it's so cool that you're listening to this like an audiobook ;-) The ED recovery program is pretty harsh, but I suppose the people who developed it would tell you it has to be. By the time a person needs to be hospitalized for an ED, it is a life and death situation - that's who serious and unrelenting the obsessions are. It's also a sad but true fact that most deaths that are related to EDs are suicides. That's how crippling they can be, and it is a very, very difficult cycle to break. That said, in my opinion, loving support of the kind that Brian and Jennifer are giving Justin is the only real anecdote...
Reviewer: no sleep (Signed) · Date: December 18, 2012 01:41 AM · On: Broken Wings, Unbroken Soul
‘Broken wings,’ he thought, ‘but unbroken soul.’
The tough love of Brian was a beautiful thing to behold.
I was surprised that Justin wanted his mother called. I knew that he needed Brian.
Author's Response: Thanks Sandra *hugs* Yes, there is an awful lot of tough love in the story...
Incidentally, Justin didn't want Jennifer called. Brian called her because he knew he couldn't handle Justin in the state he was in by himself. I don't think Justin would have told Jennifer by himself — he tried so hard to keep it from Brian, and I image he would have tried doubly hard to keep it from his mother...
Thanks so much for reading and for your wonderful comment. *hugs*
Reviewer: no sleep (Signed) · Date: December 18, 2012 01:30 AM · On: Shades of Grey
“Brian was slowly beginning to piece together all the puzzle pieces that he’d been accumulating over the past two months. Although he didn’t understand the illness itself, he was beginning to understand what made it tick.”
There seems to be so many factors affecting Justin that I can’t keep up. Loneliness triggered his condition, but now I’m reading self-hatred and a need to please his friends and family. Maybe because I’m so busy right now that I’m absorbing everything, but I want to make sure I understand as much as Brian. Is it depression that is causing the anorexia?
Author's Response: Hey Sandra :-) Sorry it's taken me so long to get to this comment - it's been a little crazy lately! In answer to your question, is more the other way around - the depression is a result of the anorexia. An eating disorder can be very isolating and stress-inducing, which in turn can lead to depression. Because the disorder is sometimes perceived by the victim as being 'self-inflicted', this can lead to self-doubt, and hatred of the idea that you're doing something to yourself that you have absolutely no power to stop. The sheer power of the eating disorder's obsessive-compulsive tendencies makes the victim feel as if they are 'in control' emotionally, even as they know logically are completely out of control. It it a horrible place to be, trust me. It's no wonder that anorexia and depression nearly always go hand-in-hand.
Reviewer: no sleep (Anonymous) · Date: December 15, 2012 05:31 PM · On: Dark Secret Love
It's difficult doing this on my nook at work, so this may look a little ragged. I needed something to sink my teeth into and decided to give this a try. I read this inthe past bu can't remember the details. I loved the way you had Justin describe his need for contro, or rather his reasons why. He didn't have control over certainaspects of his life. Contro,ing his hunger was all he had. When he listed his father's hatred of him, his gimp hand, and the other hateful things he had endured, Ihad not realized how much he had gone through. Oops, time to past meds.
Author's Response: Hey Sandra :-) I'm really glad you decided to give this story a shot - I know you said that eating disorder fics are not really your cup of tea, which I totally understand. Still, I hope you'll find this one meaningful. In terms of Justin's need for control, I don't think it was any one of those factors (his father's refusal to accept his sexuality, his gimp hand etc) that triggered the eating disorder itself. Rather, Justin was trying to get control of his life in the moment, trying to deal with the loneliness and stress, and he retroactivly realized that his father and his gimp hand were things he hadn't been able to control and that had caused hi greif. In other words, they weren't the trigger - they were just things he used to justify his need to control his hunger. Does that make sense? In any case, thank you so much for reading, as always, and for all your wonderful and thoughtful comments. They mean a lot :-)
Reviewer: Bigdogz09 (Signed) · Date: July 16, 2011 11:25 PM · On: The Way To His Heart
Loved this, so well written and very inspirational. It's been quite a roller coaster ride at times, but such a enriching ride. Thanks so much for sharing this.
All the best,
Laura
Author's Response: Thanks so much Laura :-) Your comment really means a lot to me. This story really is a roller coaster ride - it was certainly for me while I was writing it, and I hope for everyone who reads it. I'm thrilled that you found it inspirational and enriching. Knowing that means so much. Thanks again for reading and for all your wonderful reviews. I really appreciate them all :-)
Reviewer: Bigdogz09 (Signed) · Date: July 16, 2011 10:38 PM · On: Like the First Time
Loved the last line, 'This time was forever.' Wonderful, wonderful!
Author's Response: And there's my hopeless romantic side coming through ;-) Glad you liked it. Thanks again for reading and for your comment. It means a lot :-D
Reviewer: Bigdogz09 (Signed) · Date: July 16, 2011 10:06 AM · On: If You Need Me
So intense and sad, but so good.
Author's Response: I'm really glad you found this chapter so poignant. It was a tough on to write, but I'm happy that the message got through :-) Thanks again for reading and for your wonderful comment. I appreciate it so much.
Reviewer: Bigdogz09 (Signed) · Date: July 16, 2011 09:15 AM · On: Shades of Grey
Wow, this is so powerful, so touching. This fic was recommended at GETITHERE and it is wonderful!
Author's Response: I'm really glad you enjoyed it, and that you found it poignant. I wrote it with the intention of making a point, and I think the story did achieve it in the end. I saw that it was recc'ed on Getithere /! The story is also on my LJ, along with the short sequel, "What a Wonderful Life".
Thanks so much for reading and for your wonderful comment. It really means a lot and I appreciate it so much :-)
Reviewer: Marny (Signed) · Date: July 02, 2010 02:24 AM · On: The Way To His Heart
Wow wonderful story, thanks for writing
* hugs *
Author's Response:
Thanks Marny :-) I'm so happy that you enjoyed it! Thank you so much for reading and for your wonderful review - it means a lot :-)
Reviewer: dzmom (Signed) · Date: March 09, 2010 07:31 AM · On: The Way To His Heart
Beautiful. Breathtaking. You captured an anorexic's thoughts perfectly. Thank you for telling this story.
Author's Response: Thank you for reading it. I know it's not the easiest tale in the world to read, but it was a story that needed to be told. I'm very glad that you thought it was accurate and effective. Thanks again for reading and for your wonderful comment. It really means a lot to me :-)
Reviewer: balrogtweety (Signed) · Date: November 30, 2009 07:14 PM · On: The Way To His Heart
This was a wonderful story. Thanks
Author's Response: I'm so glad you enjoyed it! Thanks so much for redaing and for your winderful review :-) I really appreciate it!
Reviewer: lougenessis (Anonymous) · Date: April 03, 2009 11:57 PM · On: The Way To His Heart
Simply brilliant. Thanks for giving us all a great explanation of the struggles of anorexia and how Justin and the people he loved help him battle it and succeed to get over it. Great story
Author's Response: Thanks :-) I'm really glad you enjoyed this tory, and that you could sense the difficulty and pain both Justin and Brian went through in his recovery. There's a lot of me in this story, and so it means a lot to know that the true message got through- that is, not that anorexia is difficult, but that people survive it. Thanks so much for reading, and for your wonderful comment. I appreciate it so much.
Reviewer: butterflytiger_1982 (Signed) · Date: September 05, 2008 12:08 AM · On: Dark Secret Love
I just got to read this fic, while you were writing it a bunch of my friends in the fandom told me I had to read it, that it was so good so I was waiting impatiently for you to finish it as I don't read WIP but then none of them told me when you had finished *stomps foot* but I finally noticed to was done and I just had to drop everything and read it. This story just wouldn't let me go, I gave up sleep before school because I needed to read this, I couldn't stop once I started. It's a beautiful original storyline and fantastically written. It's scary to think that Justin could stop something he loved as much as eating to be able to control something. I'm so glad you showed how it effected Brian as well as Justin and that the fight to get Justin healthy wasn't just his fight but Brian's as well. It's a wonderful story, great job. Later, Jessica
Author's Response: Thanks Jessica! I did drag this story out for about four months, so I'm sort of glad you waited until it was completed to read it ;) I'm so pleased that you found this story enjoyable and compelling. I'm also really glad that you could see that this was Brain's fight just as much as it was Justin's. Anorexia is a very powerful, destructive illness and it takes courageous strong, loving support in order to see the recovery process through. Thanks again for reading, and for your wonderful review!
Reviewer: Kat (Signed) · Date: August 19, 2008 04:16 AM · On: The Way To His Heart
What a great ending! I really enjoyed this story. I knew Justin would survive and that Brian would be right there beside him.
Author's Response: Thanks Kat! I'm so glad that you enjoyed this story :) It was a really rough ride for both Brian and Justin, but with the strong, loving support they each offered each other, there is a promise of a happily ever after ;) Thanks so much for reading, as always, and for all your wonderful reviews. I appreciate them all so much!
Reviewer: Big J (Anonymous) · Date: August 16, 2008 09:44 AM · On: The Way To His Heart
Well, I have tears in my eyes. I so enjoyed this as you know and this was such a fitting end to an amazing story. So many great quotes in this last chapter but one of my many faves "We don’t have ‘separate ways’,” Brian replied softly, kissing the top of the blonde head. “All roads lead back to you, Sunshine; no matter how hard I try to divert them." I'm so glad that Justin survived and you did too. I often thought about this story while I was away meeting Randy in Stockbridge and wondered if he would enjoy what you've done with this story. I've recced this on TQL and now that it's finished I know that quite a few more people will read it. I think this may be your best so far. Brians' support in this was astonishing - always trying to do the right thing and I know if I was Jennifer I would have freaked out just as much as she did. I could go on and on - I think I just did. Looking forward to your next story.
Author's Response: *Hands you a tissue* Thank you so much! This wonderful review makes me feel all warm and fuzzy inside ;) I'm so pleased that you enjoyed this story, and that you think it might be one of my best. There's so much of me in this story- more so than in any of my other fics- and I guess that's what makes it so...human, I guess. I love hurt/comfort, and I loved writing a loving, protective Brian who was not only able to be strong for Justin, but also who helped Justin be strong for himself. I'm really glad you liked Brian's quote in this chapter ;) Thanks you SO MUCH for reccing this story- I do appreciate that very, very much. And thanks again for reading, and for all your much-adored reviews- they all mean a lot to me :) P.S.- Happy belated birthday!
Reviewer: Big J (Anonymous) · Date: August 16, 2008 09:17 AM · On: Snakes and Ladders
After 19 days away in the US yours was the first story I read when I got back. I have missed this so much. What a stunning chapter. I can just feel their pain leaping off the page. Brian is being such a supportive partner when really all he wants to do is keep Justin safe with him. Goody, another chapter.
Author's Response: Thanks! I hope you enjoyed your holiday- I hear that you got to meet Randy, you lucky thing ;) I'm so honoured that this was the first story you went back to ;) I've been terrible about posting updates as of late (my RL has been pure instanity), so I'm glad there were two chapters for you when you got back. I'm really glad you liked this chapter, and that you could 'feel' all the emotions. Brian is truly a joy to write in this story- at his protective, loving best ;) Thanks again for reading, and for your much-loved review!
Reviewer: Jackie (Anonymous) · Date: August 15, 2008 01:50 PM · On: The Way To His Heart
...wow. An amazing ending. Brian and Justi talking made me choke up and I thought for sure I was going to cry. This was an amazing story. So much pain, hope, and love mixed together. You did a wonderful job. Thank you so much for sharing it.
Author's Response: Thanks Jackie ;) Sorry about those heartstrings- I just can't resist tugging on them every now and then ;) I'm so pleased that you enjoyed this story, and that you were able to 'feel' all of the emotions. Thank you so much for reading, as alwasys, and for coming along on the ride ;) I appreciate all your wonderful reviews so much!
Reviewer: Jacky M (Anonymous) · Date: August 15, 2008 12:35 PM · On: The Way To His Heart
This story and the ending does indeed give us all a huge feeling of love, courage and hope. Indeed it gives us readers a wonderful sense of optimism. You have given us all a rare insight into this scourge of so many of our beautiful young people. You are a fine writer and a heroic young woman to share this with us. Jacky M
Author's Response: Thanks Jacky ;) I'm so pleased that you enjoyed this story, and that you liked the ending. I wanted to close the story on that hopeful, optimistic note because I felt it would be most realistic, leaving a promise of a 'happily ever fater'. Yes, eating disorders are sadly prevalent in the world today, and so many people-men and women- chose to suffer in silence because there illness is not accepted or misunderstood. But it is getting better as people learn more about how and why to occur- and there is always hope ;) Thanks again for all you kind and thoughtful words, Jacky. I do appreciate it so much ;)
Reviewer: Wildsweet_angel (Signed) · Date: August 15, 2008 08:41 AM · On: The Way To His Heart
Beautiful ending. You gave a very realistic account of what it's like to suffer from an eating disorder. I enjoyed this story tremendously. Bravo, for a job well done!
Author's Response: Thank you! I'm so pleased that you enjoyed this story, and that you found it to be realistic and sincere. I'm also really glad you liked the ending ;) Thanks again for reading, and for your much-adored review. I appreciate it very much!
Reviewer: Alice (Signed) · Date: August 15, 2008 06:58 AM · On: The Way To His Heart
A perfect ending to a perfectly told story! Sapphire, you are truly the master at keeping people on the verge of tears, either from laughter or because we can feel the sincerity with which this story is told. I have yet to find a fanfic anywhere that deals with a serious problem in such a realistic and honest way. You not only portrayed their struggles, but also emphasized how powerful it is to have someone who understands, or at least tries to understand, and does what is best for the one they love when they are faced with a problem like this. Keep writing! :D Sorry if I began to ramble, and I hope that in a weird sort of way I actually made sense. :)
Author's Response: Thanks Alice- you have no idea how much I appreciate you reveiw. It really does mean so much to me. I'm so pleased that you found this story realistic and sincere. One of my goals in writing it was to create an honest portrayal of an eating disorder- not only to illustrate how devastating and all-consuming it can be, but also to demonstarte how important strong, loving support is in the recovery process. I'm also a huge fan of a 'protective Brian', and he was in his element here ;) I'm really glad you were able to 'feel' all the emotions, as well- they were such an important part of the story. Thanks again for reading, and for this amazing reveiw. I really do appreciate it so much!
Reviewer: Gina Marie (Signed) · Date: August 15, 2008 03:51 AM · On: The Way To His Heart
Bravo! Perfect ending to a perfect story! This one is diffinately going in my favorites! Great job!
Author's Response: Thank you so much! I'm so honoured that you list this story amoung your favorites- that means so much coming from such a talented writer like yourself ;) I'm very pleased that you enjoyed it. Thanks for reading, and for coming along on the ride! And thanks again for all your amazing reviews- I appreciate them all so much ;)
Reviewer: Cait (Anonymous) · Date: August 14, 2008 11:51 PM · On: The Way To His Heart
This was flawless! The interaction between Briana dn Justin was amazing and the ending tied it up pefectly. Thanks so so so so much for writing it!!!!! My only regret is thaqt it's over ;-)
Author's Response: Thanks Cait! I'm kind of sad that it's over too, but I knew this was how I wanted the story to end- trusting to love ;) I'm very pleased that you enjoyed this story- thank you so much for reading, and for coming along on the ride. And thanks again for your wonderful comment- I appreciate it very much!
Reviewer: alys (Anonymous) · Date: August 14, 2008 09:52 PM · On: The Way To His Heart
Thank you for a beautiful story. You did indeed take me on a roller coaster a few times.
Author's Response: Thanks Alys! I'm glad you were along for the ride ;) I'm so pleased that you enjoyed it! Thanks for reading, and for your much-loved review- I appreciate it so much!
Reviewer: sjmpets3 (Signed) · Date: August 14, 2008 06:11 PM · On: The Way To His Heart
please excuse all bad spelling and grammar. it's too early in the morning here.
Author's Response: LOL! I have to be the world's worst speller, so I'm pretty immune to most spelling and grammar errors ;) I didn't even really notice :)
Reviewer: sjmpets3 (Signed) · Date: August 14, 2008 06:08 PM · On: The Way To His Heart
sapphire, you have done it again. this was magnificant. daphne and justin going over how they were and how they are now. there are just some things that only truly dear friends and lovers are privilaged to know about you. the outside world doesn't have to privy to it. to me justin's dream was a reveal of what could be if he didn't fight hard enough. but brian, man brian, “You’ll always have me, whether you’re in New York or Pittsburgh or Paris, whether you’re gone for a week or a decade or forever. You’re part of my life through design and default.” i see why he may have faulted himself. again it the protectiveness in him. i know he feels he let justin down the first time he went to NY. that he got to the point where the exhibit wasn't about winning, it was about living. it didn't matter if he won, for he already had. "Confident in the knowledge that, for love, he would survive." in my heart, he did win. everything, including man he always wanted and dreamed about.
Author's Response: There was a lot to this chapter, and I ended up rewriting it several times because I couldn't quite decide what I wanted to say. I knew I wanted the story to end the way it did (with Justin still recovering), but I also wanted there to be a promise of a 'happily ever after'. Your wonderful line about ' the exhibit not being about winning, but about living', makes me feel that I've achieved that goal... Thank you ;) I'm very pleased that you liked the 'dream scene', too. You know how much I love protective!Brian, and here he is at his best ;) Thank you so much for reading, as always, and for every one of your amazing reviews. They do mean so much to me ;)
Reviewer: Jess (Anonymous) · Date: August 14, 2008 05:15 PM · On: The Way To His Heart
Oh I definitely got caught up in the emotional rollercoaster more than a few times. And I loved it the whole way through. I think this chapter was one of my favorites, though. And I cried a little during the part where Brian was telling Justin he'd always have him. I could hear both of them saying those exact words so clearly. It was all so brilliant and beautifully written. You did such a great job with this, I loved every moment of it, and I'll be looking forward to your next fic, definitely.
Author's Response: Thanks Jess ;) I'm so pleased that you enjoyed this story, and that you were able to 'feel' all of the emotions- they were such an important part of the story. Thanks again for coming along for the ride- I'm so glad that you were reading! And thank you so much for your very wonderful review. It means a lot ;)
Reviewer: elvenfixation (Anonymous) · Date: August 14, 2008 03:09 PM · On: The Way To His Heart
I so love this story...I'm really sad to see it end. But thank you so much for taking us through this amazing, if often painful, journey.
Author's Response: Thanks ;) I'm really glad you enjoyed it! I was sort of sad to see it end as well, but I knew this was the way I wanted the story to close- trusting to love ;) Thanks again for coming along on the ride, I'm so pleased that you were reading! And thank you for your wonderful review!
Reviewer: TaraN (Anonymous) · Date: July 31, 2008 04:09 AM · On: Snakes and Ladders
Wow!!! That was an intense chapter. I really hope that Justin does the right thing. Although it is going to be hard to do. Great writing as always. Please update again soon.
Author's Response: Thanks Tara ;) The decision Justin is faced with is an intense one, as going to New York could be be either really great for his recovery, or it could be a complete disaster. Both Brian and Jennifer bring up some really good arguments, but ultimatly, Justin will have to decide for himself... I'm very pleased that you enjoyed this chapter! I'll try and have the next one up as soon as I can. Thanks again for reading, and for all your wonderful reviews!
Reviewer: Gina Marie (Signed) · Date: July 31, 2008 03:26 AM · On: Snakes and Ladders
Another heartbreaking, equisit chapter. Each one more compelling than the last. I worry about Justin going to NY, but I agree, he has to go. Please update soon!
Author's Response: Going to New York could be the making or breaking of Justin's recovery- it's certainly a delicate decision, with huge pros and cons on both sides... I'm really glad you enjoyed it ;) I'll try to have the next chapter up as soon as possible. Thanks so much for reading, and for your much-adored review!
Reviewer: sjmpets3 (Signed) · Date: July 30, 2008 05:33 PM · On: Snakes and Ladders
what a decision he has to make. trust him or no. is justin really willing to risk everything? it seems it started out of loneliness, needing to control something. now he has control of his future, his painting. is it enough? of course brian will be in paris with him that week, but how offen will he be able to get to the city? right now it seems that it all boils down to a matter of trust. trusting justin enough to do the right thing for himself and the ones who love him.
Author's Response: It is a really, really hard decision for everyone involved. Justin wants to get on with his life, Jennifer wants him safe, and Brian wants him happy. At this point, those three fields don't necessarily overlap. And you're right in that it is all about trusting Justin- but this assumes Justin will be capable of identifying when he needs help. He's at a dangerous point in his recovery where he's ready to be 'set free', but anything could trigger a relapse... Anyway, thanks so much for reading, and thanks for your wonderful reveiw, as always ;)
Reviewer: Jackie (Anonymous) · Date: July 30, 2008 01:18 PM · On: Snakes and Ladders
With so much progress hopefully Justin will see the good and not let that little voice win. Great chapter. I can't wait to see what happens next.
Author's Response: 'Not letting that little voice win' is the harest part- sometimes that voice isn't so little. Sometimes, Justin may not be able to tell the snakes from the ladders, either... Anyway, I'm so pleased that you enjoyed it! Thanks so much for reading, and for all your much-adored reviews!
Reviewer: Kat (Signed) · Date: July 30, 2008 09:28 AM · On: Snakes and Ladders
I'm so happy to see that you have added an update to the story! Wow, this chapter was such an emotional rollercoaster. You can see the progress Justin has made and also how far he has to go. I'm so torn if I want him to go to NY, but Brian does have a point. If Justin does go, it will be his first real test on his own.
Author's Response: Thanks Kat! I'm so glad you enjoyed it (and sorry that it was so long in coming...). Justin has come a long was in his recovery, but he's at the perilous point now where anthing could trigger a relapse. The situation is difficult for Brian and Jennifer, too- Jennifer wants him safe, and Brian wants him happy. But ultimatly, it has to be Justin who makes the final decision... Thanks again for reading, and for all your wonderful reviews!
Reviewer: Jessica (Anonymous) · Date: July 22, 2008 06:38 AM · On: Like the First Time
Amazing story!! I can't wait for more, so keep up the fantastic work!! ^_^
Author's Response: Thanks!! I'm so pleased that you're enjoying this story- I hope you'll like where it goes ;) Thank you so much for reading, and for your wonderful review!
Reviewer: Alice (Signed) · Date: July 21, 2008 10:36 AM · On: Like the First Time
Wow...just the raw emotions that hit you as you're reading are enough to encourage one to keep reading. You have described Justin's struggle very well, to the point where it seems that you're not reading his movements nor feelings, but are actually there seeing him try to win the battle. Wonderful, bello, schön! [Hopefully that's the correct word, since my german vocabulary is extremely limited.] :D I feel that no language has the proper words to describe how great this story was written. Please keep writing and updating when time allows! ^^
P.S. Thanks to your writing skills my cousin has let me borrow MY computer as long as I let him read your stories. [Just wanted to let you know the immense power of your stories :D]
Author's Response: Thanks Alice ;) I'm glad you like the intensity of this story- anorexia is a very real and serious condition, and I've really tried to portray it with honesty and compassion. I'm totally impressed with your German, by the way ;) I'd love to learn it, but so far I only know about 30 words (including 'rattlesnake' and 'cell phone', which will get me a long way...). Anyway, I'm so pleased that you're enjoying this story- your wonderful review means a lot to me ;) P.S.- I'm glad your cousin was generous enough to let you use your computer ;) I'm so happy that he's reading this too- I hope he's enjoying the story, as well ;)
Reviewer: Alice (Signed) · Date: July 21, 2008 10:19 AM · On: Like the First Time
Wow...just the raw emotions that hit you as you're reading are enough to encourage one to keep reading. You have described Justin's struggle very well, to the point where it seems that you're not reading his movements nor feelings, but are actually there seeing him try to win the battle. Wonderful, bello, schön! [Hopefully that's the correct word, since my german vocabulary is extremely limited.] :D I feel that no language has the proper words to describe how great this story was written. Please keep writing and updating when time allows! ^^
P.S. Thanks to your writing skills my cousin has let me borrow MY computer as long as I let him read your stories. [Just wanted to let you know the immense power of your stories :D]
Reviewer: Anonymous (Anonymous) · Date: July 17, 2008 09:31 PM · On: Dark Secret Love
So beautiful!
Author's Response: Thank you! I'm so glad that you enjoyed it!
Reviewer: Jacky M (Anonymous) · Date: July 16, 2008 10:33 PM · On: Like the First Time
This is so moving, overwhelming and trustworthy - anyone can know that what they are reading isn't written for dramatic effect but from a place of truth and honest need to communicate what it feels like to have this terrible condition. Sapphire all praise to you. Love Jacky M
Author's Response: Thanks Jacky ;) I'm so glad you can appreciate the true significance of this story. I could never thank you enough for all your kindness and support, but I hope that you'll take my small note of gratitude to heart ;) It is an honour to have such amazing, dediacted readers (and friends) ;) Thanks again! Sapphire.
Reviewer: thess (Anonymous) · Date: July 16, 2008 09:46 AM · On: Like the First Time
So beautifully, passionately described how they love each other! Love it. Thanks for the update and hope you'll update ASAP.
Author's Response: I'm so happy that you enjoyed this chapter, and that you could 'feel' their love through the words ;) I'll try and have the next chapter up as soon as I can. Thank you so much for reading and for your much-adored comment!
Reviewer: Jackie (Anonymous) · Date: July 16, 2008 08:57 AM · On: Like the First Time
................wow. That was amazing. The emotions were so strong. Wonderful wonderful wonderful job.
Author's Response: Thanks Jackie ;) I'm so pleased that you you enjoyed it, and that you could 'feel' everything (I decided to pull out all the stops and go nuts with the descriptions in this chapter ;) Thanks again for reading and for your very much-loved review!
Reviewer: Sigi (Anonymous) · Date: July 15, 2008 09:36 PM · On: Like the First Time
this was simply beautiful!!!!!
Author's Response: I'm very happy that you found it so ;) Thanks so much for reading, and for your much-loved review!
Reviewer: Kat (Signed) · Date: July 15, 2008 08:48 PM · On: Like the First Time
OMG! What a chapter! This was so poetic, so beautiful, so Brian and Justin. I had to laugh when Brian told Justin they had only been home six minutes. LOL This was something they both needed, a healing for two. Brian was so gentle, sweet, caring and loving. Giving Justin everything he needed. And Justin gave it right back. Amazing!!
Author's Response: Thanks Kat! 'A healing for two'- what a beautiful way of putting it ;) That's excatly what it was- they both needed to find that peace in each other. (And, knowing Brian and Justin, they had to find it the moment they got back to the loft ;) I'm very pleased that you enjoyed this chapter! Thanks again for reading and for your wonderfu;l reveiw!
Reviewer: gerri (Anonymous) · Date: July 15, 2008 04:59 PM · On: Like the First Time
Now that was just so beautiful, so powerfully intense and demonstrating so much love, AHHHH!!!
Author's Response: Thanks- I'm glad you found it so meaningful (Love all those wonderful adjectives, by the way ;)) Im very pleased that you enjoyed it. Thanks so much for reading, as always, and for your much-loved review!
Reviewer: Big J (Signed) · Date: July 15, 2008 12:02 PM · On: Like the First Time
I've just read this on LJ and am an emotional mess and thought I would leave you the same review here. I just collapsed in a puddle of drool. I didn't think your writing could get any better but this is beyond perfect. Brian leaving the lube etc in prep. for Justins' homecoming - guh!!! Their mental and physical connection is just stunningly moving/touching/incomparable. So many beautiful quotes. "He was whole and alive and back where he belonged; within this circle of love that enclosed the whole world, but that was only big enough for two." Just one of the many. I've run out of adjectives. "It wasn’t like the first time. This time was forever." Sob, sob.
Author's Response: *Gets a mop for the drool, and hands you a box of tissues* LOL! Thanks- I'm SO happy that you enjoyed this chapter (it was kind of a 'Sapphire Special' in terms of pulling out all the stops and waxing poetic in emotion description) Your reveiw is so awesome- it makes me feel all warm and fuzzy inside :) I'm glad you found this chapter so emotional and meaningful. Thanks so much for reading and for all your very much-loved reviews!
Reviewer: sjmpets3 (Signed) · Date: July 15, 2008 07:17 AM · On: Like the First Time
stunningly breath-taking. sapph so much emotion. “This isn’t like the first time,” Brian murmured against Justin’s skin, his lips just brushing against the boy’s ear. “Because this time I love you.” "And soaring above it all, he was aware of their powerful, unbreakable, infinite connection. The piece of Justin’s soul that belonged to Brian- the part that had been starved out by pain and fear and despair- slid back into its vacant place, completing him and making him whole again." thank you, sweetie.
Author's Response: Thanks ;) I'm glad you could 'feel' all the emotions (I sort of pulled all the stops out for this one and waxes poetic ;)) I'm so plesaed that you enjoyed this chapter! Thank again for reading, as always, and for all your much-loved reviews!
Reviewer: TaraN (Anonymous) · Date: July 15, 2008 06:41 AM · On: Like the First Time
Beautiful!!! That's all that needs to be said.
Author's Response: I'm so glad that you found it so ;) Thanks so much for reading, as always, and for all your much-adored reveiws!
Reviewer: Gina Marie (Signed) · Date: July 15, 2008 02:47 AM · On: Like the First Time
Hmmm....Nice to see Justin is feeling MUCH better. Need I say I totally loved this chapter? :-)
Author's Response: Yes, he Justin recovering rather nicely... ;) I'm so pleased that you enjoyed this chapter! Thanks so much for reading and for all you much-loved reveiws!
Reviewer: welcome_earthling (Signed) · Date: July 09, 2008 11:21 PM · On: Dark Secret Love
Fantastic story! I haven't been in the QAF fic lately and then I come across this little gem :) I can safely say I haven't read a fic like this and it's really interesting. The characters are great, so much like the originals, but at the same time they have your own flare to them. I'm very interested to see how this story goes, keep up the good work
Author's Response: Thank you!! I'm so glad that you're enjoying this story and that you like the characters ;) I'm a big hurt/ comfort fic fan, and I descided to try this as a degression into something a little different. I'm very pleased that it interests you!! I hope you like where it goes ;) Thank you so much for reading, an for your wonderful review!
Reviewer: Big J (Signed) · Date: July 09, 2008 12:34 PM · On: Eternal Sunshine
How did you sneak an update past me? I decided to check the reviews today to try to delete my duplicate and found an update. YAY!! and it's a happy one as well. Emmett is such a joy. He just always knows how to cheer people up. Happy that Justin is going home but he still has a long way to go. 'It wasn’t the bed that I missed,” Justin said with a grin, addressing the whole table, but still looking at Brian. “It was the company.”' And he was going to say.........? Loved this line. Brian telling him he was beatiful - oh guh.
Author's Response: I posted this at 3 o'clock in the morning which it may have slipped under the radar ;) I'm glad you liked the update! Did I mention that I love Emmett? Although it was never played out in canon, I always felt that he and Justin were close as friends. You're so right in that Justin does have a long way to go...but he has taken a significant step in his recovery. Glad you liked Brian's little bit of not-so-fluffy fluff at the end ;) I actually have a huge, huge favour to ask you... I update this story on my LJ at the same time as I post it here. As I’m still having issues with my reviews on MW (I appear to still be actively losing them) could I possibly ask you to leave comments on my LJ, as opposed to leaving reviews here? I’d just hate to lose feedback from someone whose option I value so much. Thanks!!!
Reviewer: sjmpets3 (Signed) · Date: July 09, 2008 12:16 PM · On: Eternal Sunshine
this was a wonderful chapter sapphire. for a moment there i thought that emmett was going to tell justin that he too had was an anorexic. how sad was the story he told. home, i think they can live with justin as an outpatient. “It wasn’t the bed that I missed,” Justin said with a grin, addressing the whole table, but still looking at Brian. “It was the company.” the most perfect thing he could say. well done honey, well done.
Author's Response: I don't think I could deal with Emmett being anorexic, too... I like angst, but not that much! Emmett's story was sad, but it put everything into perspective for Justin which was helpful for his recovery... Now he can go home with Brian and enjoy the 'company' ;) I'm glad you enjoyed it! Could I ask you a huge, huge favour? I’m still having issues with the reviews on MW and I appear to still be actively losing them. If possible, could I possibly ask you to leave comments on my LJ, as opposed to leaving reviews here? I’d just hate to lose feedback from someone whose option I value so much. Thanks!!!
Reviewer: TaraN (Anonymous) · Date: July 09, 2008 11:24 AM · On: Dark Secret Love
Great chapter. I see a turning point in all of this. I can't wait until Justin gets home. Although, I don't think that New York is the best thing for him.
Author's Response: Thanks Tara ;) Yes, this is a very significant step in Justin's recovery- but he's not out of the woods yet. After the strict regimes of the ED program the 'real world' can be both wonderfully liberating, but also counter-productive... But at least Justin gets to go home and be with Brian. It'll put a little more 'sunshine' into his life ;) Thanks again for reading, as always, and for your much-adored review!
Reviewer: Edela (Signed) · Date: July 09, 2008 08:24 AM · On: Eternal Sunshine
Thank you honey... You know what I mean I guess!
Author's Response: I do know what you mean ;) Thanks Edda! I'm glad this chapter was meaningful for you. Thank you so much for reading and for your much-loved review!
Reviewer: Anna (Anonymous) · Date: July 09, 2008 03:58 AM · On: Eternal Sunshine
A wonderful chapter:) Thank you for writing:)
Author's Response: Thanks Anna! I'm so pleased that you've enjoyed this chapter! Thank you so much for reading and for your wonderful review!
Reviewer: gerri (Signed) · Date: July 08, 2008 08:09 PM · On: Eternal Sunshine
This is great news and I am sure it will actually help as well, things are looking up, loving it.
Author's Response: Thanks Gerri! This is good news, in deed! Justin is still not out of the woods yet, but he has taken a significant step in his recovery. He's starting to let the sunshine back into his life ;) Thank you so much for reading, as always, and for your wonderful review!
Reviewer: emmakinney (Anonymous) · Date: July 08, 2008 05:41 PM · On: Eternal Sunshine
Oh honey! I don't think you know how much I love this fic! This chapter had me smiling the whole way through, knowing that Justin is recovering and what Brian said in the bedroom was so fucking sweet, I almost cried. Emmett's story was fucking heartbreaking, but I'm so glad that it was a turning point for Justin. I actually cheered when I saw that there was an update! Can't wait for more, love, Emma xx
Author's Response: Thanks Emma ;) I'm so pleased that you're enjoying this story! Glad that you like Brian's little bit of not-so-fluffy fluff at the end ;) Emmett's story was heart-breaking, but it did bring everything in perspective for Justin. I actually have a huge favour to ask you... I always update this story on my LJ before I put it up here. I’m still having issues with the reviews on MW and I appear to still be actively losing them. If possible, could I possibly ask you to leave comments on my LJ, as opposed to leaving reviews here? I’d just hate to lose feedback from someone whose option I value so much. Thanks again for reading- I do appriecte it so much!
Reviewer: Kaylee (Anonymous) · Date: July 08, 2008 04:15 PM · On: Eternal Sunshine
Yay! Justin's getting better. I can't help but feel this New York thing is going to cause a lot of issues....
Author's Response: Thanks Kaylee! Yes, it is great that Justin is progressing so well in his recovery, but he still has a long way to go. Being back in the 'real world' can sometimes be counterproductive, and he'll need Brian there to keep him on tract (which is why the New York thing might cuase issues)... Thanks so much for your review! I did reply to your review on the last chapter, but it somehow got deleted :( I hope you get this one! Thanks again for reading!!!
Reviewer: Jackie (Anonymous) · Date: July 08, 2008 01:46 PM · On: Eternal Sunshine
Yay!! He gets to go home. Now's the big test. Hopefully being home with Brian will help. Great chapter . I can't wait to see what happens next.
Author's Response: Thanks Jackie! It is wonderful that Justin finally gets to go home, but you're right in that he's definatly not out of the woods yet. Being in the the 'real world' can be both liberating and counter-productive in recovery... I'm very pleased that you enjoyed this chapter! Thank you so much for reading and for your much-adored review!
Reviewer: berrynutz (Signed) · Date: July 08, 2008 01:42 PM · On: Eternal Sunshine
Another great chapter. Will be watching to see how Justin does as an out patient and what Brian's reaction will be when he finds out Justin is thinking of going back to New York.
Author's Response: Thanks! I'm so happy that you enjoyed this chapter ;) The 'real world', outside of the regimes of the ED program, could be both liberating and counterproductive for Justin, and he and Brian will have to think very seriously about Justin's plans to return to New York... Thanks for reading, as always, and for your much adored reviews!
Reviewer: Kat (Signed) · Date: July 08, 2008 01:34 PM · On: Eternal Sunshine
Oh bless our sweet Em and his colored socks! That was exactly what Justin needed! And how great that he gets to go home!! Another great chapter, I was sooooo excited to see you had added another one!
Author's Response: Thanks Kat ;) Need I mention that I'm a huge Emmett fan? Just when Justin needed the little bit of colour in his life :) I'm very pleased that you enjoyed this chapter. Thank you so much for reading and for your wonderful reveiw!
Reviewer: Gina Marie (Signed) · Date: July 08, 2008 01:00 PM · On: Eternal Sunshine
Yippppeee! Justin gets to go home! LOVED this chapter. Loved Em's interaction with Justin.. I'm up at 2 am, just to read this! lol Well worth it!
Author's Response: Thanks Gina ;) I'm so glad that you enjoyed this chapter! I've always been so interested in Justin and Emmett's relationship- althought it was never played out in canon, I got the feeling that they were pretty close as friends. ;) Glad you're a fellow night owl- I'm up at 3:45 am replying to reviews ;) Hee hee. Glad it was worth it!
Reviewer: Kat (Signed) · Date: July 02, 2008 04:55 AM · On: Losing the Battle, Winning the War
My heart constantly breaks for Justin, but you know he's a tiger and is gonna fight. And I love Brian being so loving and supportive, always knowing what his Sunshine needs! Can't wait to read the next chapter!! I also have to say the calories in cum line was funny! Only Brian and Justin!!
Reviewer: Kat (Signed) · Date: July 02, 2008 04:54 AM · On: Losing the Battle, Winning the War
My heart constantly breaks for Justin, but you know he's a tiger and is gonna fight. And I love Brian being so loving and supportive, always knowing what his Sunshine needs! Can't wait to read the next chapter!! I also have to say the calories in cum line was funny! Only Brian and Justin!!
Author's Response: *Hands you a heart repair kit* Sorry about those heartstrings ;) Justin is going through the hardest stage of his recovery in this chapter, but Brian was able to tell when it got a bit too much for him. He was also there to tell Justin that he was proud of him for fighting, and that he understood how hard this was for Justin. That understanding between them is so important. I'm really glad you liked the little bit of comic relief at the end of the chapter ;) Thank you so much for reading, and for your much-adored review!
Reviewer: Cait (Anonymous) · Date: July 02, 2008 01:34 AM · On: Losing the Battle, Winning the War
I love this story so much. The heartfelt way you capture their love is so beautiful. I can't wait to read more!!!
Author's Response: Thanks Cait ;) I'm really very pleased that you're enjoying this story, and that you can 'feel' the emotions. I hope you like where it goes :) Thanks again for reading and for your wonderful review!
Reviewer: Edela (Signed) · Date: July 01, 2008 09:02 PM · On: Losing the Battle, Winning the War
Hi Sapphire! Good to have you back, I liked this chapter and I agreee with the last two comments. It was good. Justen needed this superfood and I´m sensing it will be slowly easier for him to eat from now on. Don´t get me wrong I'm only beeing sarcastic about ED on the surface. I have spend the last 20 years of my life dealing with... I'm better now than often but surely some days are a bit on the shit side. You are totally point on in Justin hating Debbies talk and the constant waching at the hospital. It is so much more beeing with those who make you feel relaxed and at the same time avoiding people and places that you can't deal with. <br>Sorry about this loooong comment^^ I just wanted to write this since chapter one because this story actually made me cry in the beginnig and I don't do that. I am so glat I only discovered this story when you had posted 4 chapters. It was distrbing enough to read it I would not have wanted to wait there in the beginnig.
Author's Response: Thanks Edda ;) I can tell from your comments that you know exactly what this story is all about. I do really feel for you- I spent a good chunk of my teenage years dealing with an ED as well. I wasn't sure I could write this story at first because I thought it would be too difficult to bring up all those painful memories. But I'm glad I did now- it helps to write about it ;) And rest assured, this story will have a happy ending- I wouldn't be writing it if it didn't (I'm a firm believer in happy endings ;)) Anyway, thank you SO much for your wonderful review! I do appreciate it very much ;) And thank you for reading, as always!
Reviewer: Gerri (Anonymous) · Date: July 01, 2008 07:45 PM · On: Losing the Battle, Winning the War
Brian is being so supprtive by saying and doing all the right things. The calories in cum was fucking hilarious, well done.
Reviewer: Kaylee (Anonymous) · Date: July 01, 2008 12:29 PM · On: Losing the Battle, Winning the War
I still love it! I'm glad Brian and Justin got a moment to themselves! I hope Justin gets better soon...Update quickly.
Reviewer: Amelia (Anonymous) · Date: July 01, 2008 11:30 AM · On: Losing the Battle, Winning the War
Wait. The use of the title in the final sentence has me concerned. This isn't the final chapter, is it?
Reviewer: Amelia (Anonymous) · Date: July 01, 2008 11:30 AM · On: Losing the Battle, Winning the War
Wait. The use of the title in the final sentence has me concerned. This isn't the final chapter, is it?
Author's Response: Ameila...would I do that to you? LOL! No, this is not the last chapter- there's a few more to go, so no worries :) Thanks so much for reading, as always, and for your much-loved reviews!
Reviewer: Sara (Anonymous) · Date: July 01, 2008 11:25 AM · On: Losing the Battle, Winning the War
Brian is so great being there when Justin needs him, you can just imagine the women at the facility swooning when Brian enters lol
Author's Response: Thanks Sara ;) Brian really is such a huge part of Justin's recovery. The eating disorder program can cure Justin on the outside, but he needs Brian to help heal him on the inside... And yes, on a ward of entriely young woman, Brian would certainly turn some heads ;) Thanks again for reading and for your much-loved review!
Reviewer: Gina Marie (Signed) · Date: July 01, 2008 07:55 AM · On: Losing the Battle, Winning the War
Each chapter is more amazing than the last. I'm so happy Justin is winning this battle. So happy Brian is being so supportive. I am HOPING for a happy ending! If I haven't said it before, great, great job with this story!
Author's Response: Of course the ending will be happy- I’m a firm believer in happily ever afters. Or at least, happier ever afters ;) Justin is passing through the hardest part of his recovery in this chapter, but Brian is always there to be his pillar of strength. He’s as much a part of the recovery process as all the meds and the meals. I can’t tell you how pleased I am that you’re enjoying this story. It does mean a lot coming from you :) Thank you so much for reading and for you amazing review!
Reviewer: Kat (Signed) · Date: June 25, 2008 04:23 AM · On: If You Need Me
Wow this is just intense! You can literally feel the emotions Brian and Justin are feeling. Looking forward to reading more!
Author's Response: Thanks Kat ;) I'm really glad you can 'feel' the emotions here- for me, they're really the driving force behiend this story. There is a lot of angst and the pain, but there's also hope and love in there, too ;) Thanks again for reading and for your very much adored review!
Reviewer: Kaylee (Anonymous) · Date: June 23, 2008 01:36 PM · On: If You Need Me
I don't remember if i reviewed this chapter yet or not, but if i havn't its a great chapter and i can't wait for the next one!
Author's Response: Thanks Kaylee ;) I'm so pleased that you've enjoyed this chapter! (I'll try not to keep you waiting too long for the next one...) Thanks again for reading and for your very much-adored review!
Reviewer: Sunny (Anonymous) · Date: June 20, 2008 02:51 PM · On: If You Need Me
I love this story from the first chapter on. Hugs, Sunny
Author's Response: Thanks Sunny ;) I'm so pleased that you do! Thanks so much for reading and for your wonderful comments, as always!
Reviewer: TaraN (Anonymous) · Date: June 20, 2008 10:31 AM · On: Dark Secret Love
That was a wonderful chapter. The emotions were so raw and it was well written. I look forward to the next chapter
Author's Response: Thanks ;) I'm so pleased that you enjoyed it! I'm glad you found the emotions raw and real, but not over the top. Thanks so much for reading, as always, and for your wonderful review!!
Reviewer: Aimear (Anonymous) · Date: June 20, 2008 05:48 AM · On: If You Need Me
So beautifully written, the depth of pain and confusion being felt by Brian and Justin is nearly tangible. This is a fantastic story and I eagerly await how the plot develops
Author's Response: Thanks Aimear! I'm glad that you're enjoying this story and that you can 'feel' all of the emotions. This is certainly not an easy thing for Brian and Justin to go through. I hope you'll like where this story goes next. Thanks again for reading and for you're wonderful review!
Reviewer: Naima (Signed) · Date: June 19, 2008 11:44 PM · On: If You Need Me
jesus wheres a tissue when you need one. remarkable story, really wonderful, im so happy you are writing this. beautiful writing and characters, cant wait for whats next!
Author's Response: *Hands you a tissue* Thanks so much for this awesome reveiw, Naima ;) It made my day! I'm so pleased that you're enjoying this story and that you like the writing style. Hope you'll like what's coming next. Thanks again for reading and for your wonderful review!
Reviewer: gerri (Anonymous) · Date: June 19, 2008 07:49 PM · On: If You Need Me
It sounds so horrible for them, but I feel hope, thanks for the update, I love it.
Author's Response: Thanks Gerri ;) I'm glad you love this story, with all it's angst and heartbreak. I'm glad you can see there's hope here, too. Justin is strong enough to survive this. Thanks again for reading and for your always much-loved reviews!
Reviewer: Sara (Anonymous) · Date: June 19, 2008 02:25 PM · On: If You Need Me
I feel so bad for Justin, hes so scared and upset, maybe if Brian stayed with him during meals atleast at first it might calm him abit
Author's Response: Justin is in a very difficult and painful position here, but it will get easier for him after a while. It's very fortunate that he has Jennifer and Brian there to provide loving support- that's so important in the recovery process. Thanks very much for reading and for your wonderful reveiw!!
Reviewer: Amelia (Anonymous) · Date: June 19, 2008 10:30 AM · On: If You Need Me
GREAT story. I check the site every day, just checking for an update on this story...
Author's Response: Thanks Amelia ;) Sorry to keep you waiting on this one- it's been very busy at my end lately. When the insanity that is currently my life has died down, I'll get back to posting a bit more regularly ;) I'm so pleased that you're enjoying this story! Thanks again for reading and for your super awesome reviews!!
Reviewer: Edela (Signed) · Date: June 19, 2008 07:48 AM · On: If You Need Me
HAPPY BIRTHDAY !! My heart jumped when I noticed there was another chapter !!
Author's Response: Thanks for the birthday wishes, Edda ;) I hope you enjoyed this chapter. Thanks so much for reading and for your much-adored reveiw!!
Reviewer: Gina Marie (Signed) · Date: June 19, 2008 05:26 AM · On: If You Need Me
My heart, my heart, my heart.... Such a great chapter. So moving. Don't worry about not updating quickly enough. This story is soooo worth the wait! Thank you, and happy birthday!
Author's Response: Thanks for the birthday wishes! Hope your heart is OK ;) I'm so glad you enjoyed this chapter, and that you thought it was worth the wait. (I'm waiting oh-so patiently for an update on your story...but no pressure. I'm sure it will be more than worth the wait :) Thanks again for reading and for your wonderful reviews! I love them all!
Reviewer: Sigi (Anonymous) · Date: June 19, 2008 05:15 AM · On: If You Need Me
great story.. and: Happy Birthday!
Author's Response: Thanks Sigi!!! I'm so glad you're enjoying the story. Thanks so much for reading and for your review!
Reviewer: Jackie (Anonymous) · Date: June 19, 2008 05:01 AM · On: If You Need Me
First off Happy birthday! I hope you had a great day. You have a created a wonderful story and the way you've tapped into this disorder and still have the characters be themselves in amazing. Another great chapter. I hope that Justin will be able to overcome it and get better.
Author's Response: Thanks for the birthday wishes, Jackie! I'm really very pleased that you're enjoy this story, and that you're finding it realistic and ICC. And don't worry too much about Justin- I wouldn't be writing this if he didn't recover in the end ;) Thanks so much for reading and for your wonderful review!
Reviewer: Cait (Anonymous) · Date: June 19, 2008 04:39 AM · On: If You Need Me
Thanks so much for the update and this beautiful story!!!! Happy birthday!
Author's Response: Thanks for the birthday wishes ;) I'm glad you enjoyed the update! Thanks so much for reading and for your review!
Reviewer: sjmpets3 (Signed) · Date: June 19, 2008 04:35 AM · On: If You Need Me
sapph, i hope your birthday is a happy one. this story is so heartbreaking. i hope it wasn't you that went through this. if so, then i applaude your for yur strength and bravery. it must have been extremly difficult for all involved.
Author's Response: Thanks for the birthday wishes- I had an awesome one ;) This is, unfortunately, in part my own story. And yes- it was extremely difficult and painful for everyone involved. I guess that’s what makes this story it’s so poignant and heartbreaking. But I’m finding that it’s helping to write about it…it sort of puts it into perspective. And I am enjoying it as well, which I guess is what matters ;) It’s great to have such wonderful support! Thanks so much for reading and for your amazing reviews, as always!
Reviewer: Sunny (Anonymous) · Date: June 06, 2008 09:34 PM · On: Broken Wings, Unbroken Soul
WOW, I can`t say often enough how great this story is. I love the emotions - good and bad - all of them. You are doing a great job, please go on... Hugs, Sunny
Author's Response: Thanks Sunny!! I'm so pleased that you're enjoying this story (despite the rampaging emotions ;)). And no worries- of course I'll go on. What can I say? I'm hooked, too ;) Thanks again for reading and for your much-adored comment!
Reviewer: Karen (Anonymous) · Date: June 05, 2008 01:41 AM · On: Broken Wings, Unbroken Soul
This chapter was so heartbreaking and yet is so real and honest. I know I for one won't lose faith in Justin. Thanks and please update soon!
Author's Response: Thanks Karen! I'm very pleased that you find this story 'real and honest'...even if it is heartbreaking. I'm also glad you haven't lost faith in Justin (I know I haven't either ;)). Thanks so much for reading and for your wonderful comment!
Reviewer: Anna (Anonymous) · Date: June 03, 2008 10:17 PM · On: Broken Wings, Unbroken Soul
A great chapter, thank you for writing:)
Author's Response: And thank you for reading, Anna ;) I'm so pleased that you're enjoying this story! Thank again for this much-adored review!
Reviewer: gerri (Anonymous) · Date: June 03, 2008 08:45 PM · On: Broken Wings, Unbroken Soul
I am as sad for Brian as I am for Justin, beautiful work.
Author's Response: Thanks gerri ;) I think I actually feel worse for Brian in this chapter- he's in such a difficult position and he loves Justin so much. But where Justin is is a really scary place to be as well. But they'll get through it together- as I said, this story is about hope and love ;) Thank you very much for reading and for all your wonderful reviews!
Reviewer: Big J (Anonymous) · Date: June 03, 2008 07:46 PM · On: Broken Wings, Unbroken Soul
This is truly incredible. I appreciate the insight into this horrible disease esp. in gay men. I read the previous review about the epidemic in this part of our society and hope that this story enlightens your readers the way it has me. This was heartbreaking but I think Justin has made an important step and poor Brian feeling so helpless but trying so hard. He's about to do a very difficult thing but only because he loves him so much.
Author's Response: I sometimes think this story is so angsty its almost unlike my writing. But I just can't write it any other way- there is nothing good or possitive about an eating disorder except surviving to see the end of it- living with the knowledge that you've had the strength to fight it an the grace to accept yourself for who you are. I would never had attempted this story if I didn't know from the begining that this was what Justin would discover at the end of the story. The fact that there is a 'silent' epidemic in young men now just makes me want to write this even more... I really do hope that through this story I can at least make people aware of it. Anyway, as for Justin and Brian...yes, the road is long and winding- but at least neither of them are travelling alone ;) Thank you so much for your reviews! They do mean a lot ;) ~Sapphire.
Reviewer: Jackie (Anonymous) · Date: June 03, 2008 12:33 PM · On: Broken Wings, Unbroken Soul
Justin's desperation just grabs the heart. Amazingly done. I can't wait to see what happens next.
Author's Response: Thanks Jackie ;) This chapter tugged a bit at the heartstrings for me too, but I knew it had to be written. But things will get better for Justin and Brian (I know I keep saying that, but they will ;)) I'm very pleased that you enjoyed this chapter. Thanks so much for reading and for your always much-adored reviews!
Reviewer: jay corr (Anonymous) · Date: June 03, 2008 09:51 AM · On: Broken Wings, Unbroken Soul
I am so glad that you are writing this story. For a writing class I had this past semester we were required to write a paper on the topic of our choice as long as it raised an issue. I originally was going to write about eating disorders among females but found it far more intense and necessary to write about male eating disorders. Learning the facts about it makes it heartbreaking to realize how many men let themselves hurt so badly. I myself was thinking about writing a story on this topic but wanted to do the situation justice so I never could start it. Its good to see that there are other people that want to raise the issue and makes sure that the topic is discussed and not discarded. Thank you for being able bring this issue out into the open.
Author's Response: Eating disorders are a very difficult and complicated issue to deal with. I find they’re such a delicate and painful subject for so many people- I think virtually everyone knows a girl or woman who’s had an eating disorder- if not themselves, a friend or a family member, then certainly an acquaintance. But you never hear about them in men, even though they are so prominent; it’s a silent epidemic. Knowing first hand how destructive and devastating an eating disorder can be, I can’t imagine how much worse it would be to have the added social and psychological connation associated with being male as well. It IS a huge issue and one that should be ‘brought out into the open’. If I can enlighten even a few people of it through this story, I might consider this to be one of the most important things I’ve ever written. I'm so glad you see it this way. Thank you very much for this review…it does mean a lot to me and it keeps me inspired ;) And sorry for the long response…I’m not very good at the ‘concise and to the point’ thing…hope you don’t mind ;) ~Sapphire.
Reviewer: TaraN (Anonymous) · Date: June 03, 2008 08:20 AM · On: Broken Wings, Unbroken Soul
Wonderful Chapeter!!! I must admit that I am a little touched that you took part of my review and put it into this chapter {smiles}. I certainly hope that Justin does not go into cardiac arrest. Although, given Justin's spurts of irrationality it would be good if Brian or Jennifer certified him. Please update soon. I was waiting on this and was happy to see it when I got home from work.
Author's Response: Thanks Tara:) I hope you didn't mind that I used part of your review- it was so relevant that I felt I had to put it in somewhere. And I knew I had it on the best authority ;) I felt like I should have cited you or something... '(TaraN, pers. comm., 2008)' ;) I did try to give you some credit for it, though :) And I really, really appreciated everything you told me, so thank again! I'm glad that your enjoying this story! Thanks so much for reading, and thanks for your awesome review. It's so helpful to know someone in your field ;) ~Sapphire
Reviewer: sjmpets3 (Signed) · Date: June 03, 2008 06:32 AM · On: Broken Wings, Unbroken Soul
sapph, i am speechless. such an emotional chapter. i gather that from the doctor's own words her back story is that she at one time was anorexic also. "Please…take care of him…don’t let him suffer any more…" i agree.
Author's Response: It is an emotional chapter... I needed to get the kleenex out while I was writing it, too ;) And you did guess right about the doctor. As for Justin's...as it goes in the story, 'recovery is a journey of a million miles, but the hardest step to take is the first one'. It doesn't get easier, but it gets better- and in the end, it's worth every second of the fight. I'm so pleased that you like this story. Thanks again for reading and for all of your much-loved reviews!
Reviewer: Gina Marie (Signed) · Date: June 03, 2008 06:09 AM · On: Broken Wings, Unbroken Soul
Heart-wrenching, and so beautifully written. This is one of the most soulful stories I've read in fanfic. Wonderful job. Thank you
Author's Response: And thank you for you wonderful reveiws! They keep me inspired ;) 'Soulful' is a such great description...I think it's been good for my soul to write this. Thank you so much for reading and for your amamzing reviews. I do appreciate them very much!
Reviewer: Naima (Signed) · Date: June 03, 2008 05:09 AM · On: Broken Wings, Unbroken Soul
beautiful chapter, i feel so bad for brian,,,,i cant wait for the next one!
Author's Response: Thanks Naima! I'm very pleased that you enjoyed it. Glad you're able to feel for Brian...he's in a really difficult position. Great job with 'Dirty Little Secret' BTW- I'm glad you're getting around to posting some of your fics here ;) Thanks again for reading and for your much-loved review!
Reviewer: gerri (Signed) · Date: June 02, 2008 08:36 PM · On: Even If It Kills Me
I am finding the honesty of this fic refreshing. Ok Brian may seem a little OOC to sois, but I don't think so, we have all seen Brian's reactions to Justin hurt or in trouble and this si no diferent, well done.
Author's Response: Thanks gerri :) I'm glad you find Brian sort of ICC in this fic. I think with this story, it's not so much the character that's 'in character' but it's the love and understanding that is. If that makes any sense ;) But as I say, it's sometimes hard to judge. Thanks so much for reading and for all your wonderful comments!
Reviewer: Big J (Signed) · Date: May 26, 2008 11:36 AM · On: Even If It Kills Me
Ohhhh, this was so incredible. I feel so sorry for both of them. Brian is trying so hard to rescue him and their sex life was always such a highlight of their relationship. I hope Justin starts to improve after this. At least he thinks he getting better so that might be an incentive for him to further help himself. Did I mention how heartbreaking this is?
Author's Response: Heartbreaking, yes. I feel that, too, and I'm the one writing it... But there is hope there as well. Brian hasn't lost sight of who Justin is inside, and that's the most important thing. I think I've said it before, but loving support is so essentail in the recovery process. Thank you so much for this wonderful review (and all your wonderful reviews!)- they keep me inspired :)
Reviewer: Anna (Anonymous) · Date: May 22, 2008 05:38 PM · On: Even If It Kills Me
A beautiful chapter with raw emotions:) Thank you for writing:)
Author's Response: And thank you for reading! I do appreciate your review very much! I'm so glad you're enjoying it! Thanks again!
Reviewer: Anonymous (Anonymous) · Date: May 22, 2008 11:39 AM · On: Even If It Kills Me
Congratulation!!! That is a wonderful story. I loved every single word so far and the way you can create emotions - just brilliant. I know that Justin and Brian will fight and win at the end supporting each other as always. I`m just a bit concerned about the reactions and interferences of the "family". I`m really looking forward to the next chapter. Please, don`t let us wait too long... Hugs, Sunny
Author's Response: Thanks Sunny!! I'm so pleased that you're enjoying this story (and sorry it took so long to get back to this reveiw...) I think you're right in that 'the family' will be horrified when they find out, and that they may not understand at first. But Brian will be there to help Justin through it. Thanks again for reading and for your much-loved review!
Reviewer: thess (Anonymous) · Date: May 22, 2008 07:25 AM · On: Even If It Kills Me
hope you will update ASAP!!! touching!!!! thanks
Author's Response: Hi Thess. I'll try to update ASAP. My life is a bit crazy at the minite, but I'll try my hardest to have the next chapter up within the next week or so. I'm glad you're enjoying it! Thanks so much for reading and for your review!
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