Reviewer: aglaja5 (Signed) · Date: December 21, 2016 08:09 PM · On: Chapter 31 - Give it time

Hi again! Why have you been unsatisfied with the chapter “Broken”? I think it’s perfect. The emotions are so palpable. So, now Jesse and Brian meet again! And as always, you are amazing. How you express their feelings. Brian’s anger as he learns that Jesse has been able to walk again for several years. Haven’t expect him to be so angry, but somehow it’s understandable. Jesse should have talked to Brian earlier, but again, we all make mistakes. Just Brian should know that and although he doesn’t do regrets and apologizes he has asked Justin for forgiveness -  and received it. But okay, as you said “Give it time”.

The scene between Brian and Justin is beautiful. “Your” Justin is incredibly, amazing. He loves Brian just as he is, always feeling what he needs and giving it to him. He knows when to keep silent and just be there – and thereby again Brian opens up. And again, it’s also good to see that Brian’s really grown up, not being angry or shutting himself off. They are just so beautiful together. Big hug and a thank you! Hm, I think I don’t want this story to end….

Author's Response:

I have no idea why I was unsatisfied with it. Maybe because it was an important chapter,  that I wanted to have it right and that of course, when you're writing it, it's hard to take a step back and to analyse it with a more critic eye. But now that I have reread it, I like it :)

Brian is surprised in this chapter. He never imagined Jesse coming to see him in his office. And he wasn't prepared. That's why he is reacting like that. He is not really angry, more perturbed and well, he is trying to deal with his feelings and have no clue what they are. But I have a feeling he just needs time to process it lol I mean, I'm not sure how I would have reacted in his case, but I know I would not have welcomed the person with open eyes at first sight. Time is essential here.

As for Justin, I said it before, he is an amazing character in this story. And I really love him with Brian in this chapter. They are beautiful together, I couldn't agree more.

As always, A huge hug my friend! And I'm thrilled you don't want this to end LOL

Reviewer: Toto_too514 (Anonymous) · Date: December 21, 2016 02:26 AM · On: Chapter 35 - All over again

This was wonderful! I am so glad that I waited to read this when I actually had the time to enjoy it. The meeting with Jesse went well, there's so much hope that they will be able to rebuild their friendship. Reading about Jack and his reactions to every little thing never fails to make me smile. The easy-going banter between Brian and Justin is so comforting... they will be fine. More than fine!

Off to read the epilogue...

Author's Response:

** smiling ** I'm so glad you have enjoyed this so much. I had a great time writing this chapter, especially the easy-going banter going on between the characters. And yes, they will be more than fine!!!

Reviewer: aglaja5 (Signed) · Date: December 19, 2016 08:14 PM · On: Chapter 30 - Broken

No, no, no – this so sad, tragic, heartbreaking and real intense. I really admire how you describe Brian and his inner turmoil, his fight against his demons, losing it more and more. He loves Justin so deeply but doesn’t feel worth being loved, thinks that Justin would deserve better. One can feel his despair, so afraid of losing Justin but seeing no other way as to let him go by pushing him away. I suffer for them both. For Brian because of his hopelessness and self-destruction. And for Justin because he has to endure so much, there is just no end, it’s just getting worse and worse until everything shatters. And I have to repeat your words. Justin really is a saint. Thinking what would be best for all the others mainly for Brian, recognizing how wrong an abortion would be, trying again and again to reach Brian and getting more and more hurt by the person he loves so much and so selflessly. And a big big compliment to you. One can feel their emotions, their fear, the little hope Justin has for a few moments, the despair, the anger, the rage and finally after Brian’s left Justin’s pain and emptiness. “Justin’s love wasn’t enough” – so sad! Warmest regards, a.

Author's Response:

What can I say that you hadn't already said? This chapter was so hard to write and even when I pusblished it, I was unsatisfied with it. But this sentence 'Jutsin's love wasn't enough' resumes very well their relationship up to that point. Brian needs to find himself alone, to realize he needs to forgive himself, and to move on. He is still a 18 years old teenager stuck on the scene of the car crash for now. However, Justin might be gone, but Brian will eventually listen to him, even if t's too late for them at that time. The good news is, the major angst is over my friend!! Warmest regards back at you and thank you again for all your wonderful reviews. Warms my heart :)

Reviewer: aglaja5 (Signed) · Date: December 19, 2016 04:07 PM · On: Chapter 28 - Drifting to the breaking point

Hi my friend! What should I say… This is such an intense and sad chapter. But I think they would have split up anyway. And although Brian tries to stop his way of acting, his self-destruction, it seems as if there was already too much broken, as if it was already too late. The pregnancy seems to be the final straw. But the result is Gus and without Gus I don’t think that Brian would have been able to change his life, being able to believe in love or believe in being worth to be loved. So, as tragic and painful as it all is, everything seems to be somehow necessary. And In the present they get their second chance! Very well written. Warmest regards and a big hug! a.

Author's Response:

You're absolutely right. Gus is the reason why Brian will finally be able to move on. So, yes, it's painful but right now, Brian's fears and guilt are leading his life. He is scared out of his mind. He is lost. He feels guilty for so many things. He needs a shrink if you ask me LOL 

Reviewer: LauraB725 (Signed) · Date: December 18, 2016 08:03 PM · On: Epilogue

Hi Alois 😊. I don't remember what I said before my review was lost but I'll do my best with my repost! A beautiful ending to a beautiful story! What else can I say that I haven't already said 😊. Thank you for taking me on this awesome journey. It was both heartbreaking and heartwarming and I enjoyed every moment. I hope that you plan to write QAF again. I will most definitely read it! 😘d84;a039;

Author's Response:

Thank you so much for reposting your review! But most of all, thank you for your support all along. Again, I can't say enough how precious reviewers who have sent me words of support when I was feeling like giving up really are. 

I doubt I will ever engage in a story like this one again (read long and angsty), but I have a couple of collaborations in the work, so this is probably not my last post :)

Thank you again Laura and see you soon! :):):)

Reviewer: aglaja5 (Signed) · Date: December 18, 2016 06:43 PM · On: Chapter 26 - This is just goodbye

Hi again! I’ve already written a review the first time I’ve read this chapter and there isn’t so much more to say about it. It hurts and I suffer with both Brian, Justin and Jesse. I somehow admire Justin and his strength. You’ve said it before in one of your answers and I agree. He’s a saint! J I don’t know if I could handle such a situation. And when Justin says “I hope you will find what you are looking for…” – It shows his deep true love for Brian and it’s somehow so altruistic. Warmest regards, a.

Reviewer: Predec2 (Signed) · Date: December 18, 2016 03:59 PM · On: Epilogue

Hi, my friend - I wish I could recall everything I had said in my previous review about your story, but hopefully I can think of most of it. :) First of all, you have such a wonderful writing style that evokes great emotion in your words.  To write scenes from both the present and the past seems difficult to me, too, but you have done it with ease in this story. :)

I am very glad that Jesse and Brian's friendship was capable of being healed, and very happy for Jesse and Aaron's wedding. And Brian's heartfelt declaration toward Justin was so amazing. 

I still think the best part of all in this story is the portrait of Jack you have described, and how his relationship grew and changed over time to where it is now.  His relationships with both his son and his grandson are so precious! And in a bittersweet sort of way, Jack's condition/personality after his accident allowed him a second chance to be the father that Brian had always craved, to the point where Brian can now express his affection for this 'new' Jack; something he could have never done with the pre-accident Jack who was definitely not worth anyone's sympathy. 

I know this has been a difficult journey for you at times, so I would just like to commend you for your perserverence and determination in getting it done.  It would have truly been a shame to have not had the pleasure of reading this story from beginning to end. 

I do hope one day you will be inspired to write again, for you are truly a gifted writer. Thank you once more for being an author on MW.  XOXO  ~Kim

 

Author's Response:

Your review means so much to me. I'm glad I could touch you with my writing, make you feel the characters' emotions. Also, I have to admit that alternating between past and present was way more exhausting that I thought. Maybe that's why I had so much difficulty with this fic. I'm glad that the result flows, though, but I doubt I will ever try that exercice again, or at least, not with such a long story.

There were so many things I wanted to cover with this fic. Friendship. Family. How the birth of a child can change a man. Forgiveness, but most of all, flaws. Humans have flaws. Well except for Justin, who is clearly a saint in that fic LOL

I enjoyed very much writing about Jack. I will maybe revisit this universe just to be able to write about him again. The three Kinneys men here were a bowl of fresh air to write about toward the end.

Thank you for your support all along. I have no doubt when I say that, that I would have given up if not for you. I'm still...exhausted by this fic to be honest. So, your review and congratulations are very percious to me.

As you know, I've started a fic with another author, which I want to finish. So, this is not the last for me. Karynn and I will also write a oneshot with Brian and Gus from this universe. I will probably use your ideas ;)

A big hug, my dear friend :)

Reviewer: Alois (Signed) · Date: December 18, 2016 10:01 AM · On: Chapter 35 - All over again

Dear readers, 

Due to the last restoration of the site, I was unable to respond to your comments. From memory, the reviews missing are from Laura, Sandy, mcm, Kim, Chris, aglada and two other reviewers, one who reviewed on the epilogue, and one on chapter 2. 

I would be very grateful for you to repost your review, so that I can respond to you. If you don't I will post a response to your review myself by tomorrow (luckily, I have a good memory and honestly, I love reviews!!).

Thank you so much!!!!! A huge hug to all of you :)

Reviewer: aglaja5 (Signed) · Date: December 13, 2016 03:58 PM · On: Chapter 24: Turning Point - Part Two

Hi my friend! No, no, no… It was such a beautiful beginning. Awesome to see Brian not only apologizes but also being able to fight his demons because of his deep love for Justin. Sooo great! And a real hot but also beautiful scene. Thanks for this! And then everything shatters in just one moment. Their whole world breaks apart. I know what’s coming so what should I say. It’s just so tragic! Again you’ve done an amazing job in combining the past and the present. It’s good to learn about their past to understand Brian’s insecurity about Jesse in the present. Thanks again for this brilliant story. A big hug, a.

Author's Response:

This moment is going to change everything! I'm revealed readers have reacting to it they way they did, as imagining something in my head and actually writing it wasn't all so easy. Past and Present are joining now :) 

Again, thank you for the praise!! Your reviews are wonderful to read :):):)

Reviewer: aglaja5 (Signed) · Date: December 11, 2016 07:04 PM · On: Chapter 24: Turning Point - Part One

Hi my friend! An exciting chapter. It’s scary how a single moment can change one’s life. What impressed me is Brian finally acting “normal”, asking Jesse for help. This is somehow unique. He must be real scared! An also impressing – I’ve stated this In another review and I think it’s the same with the Brian of the show: Brian saying he doesn’t believe in love, loves Justin so deeply – it’s so beautiful! Warmest regards and a big hug! a.

Author's Response:

Brian loves Justin, there is absolutely no doubt about it. Asking for help isn't something Brian does easily, but he has no choice here. I'm so glad you're loving this! Thank you again for letting me know :)

Reviewer: aglaja5 (Signed) · Date: December 09, 2016 05:54 AM · On: Chapter 22 - Seeds of Doubt

Hi my friend! This is such a painful but also beautiful chapter at the end, but first, I would like to answer your answer to my review on chapter 20. I think you’ve misunderstood. „Brian is hurting Justin over and over again“ This only referred to “your” Brian and I understand that he’s only hurting Justin mostly because of his own past and insecurity and because of believing that he isn’t worth being loved. And “your” Justin isn’t hurting Brian. I think he just tries again and again to deal with the shit Brian’s sometimes throwing at him but I think it’s so hard to endure it all. With their relationship in the show it’s different. I agree, they are hurting each other. In my opinion, Justin is too young, too unexperienced and therefore not able to deal with the kind of relationship Brian is offering. And Brian, yeah, it’s difficult, because on one hand his very mature, he knows what he wants, giving Justin so much, trying not to expect something, being honest, but on the other hand, there are moments when he is hurting Justin so much (I remember this picnic-scene where Brian refused and nearly laughed about him). There would be so much more to say about it… It would have been good if they would have talked more to each other, but okay, it was the show and it was sadly meant to be this way.

So, again, you have done a real good job in showing Brian’s inner conflict. Not able to deal with this situation in another way, but also never forgetting about Justin no matter how drunken or in what a state of mind he is. Would have been cute if it isn’t so sad. And the last sentence nearly broke my heart “maybe he was enough” – if he just could have a little more trust in Justin and more important self-confidence! As always, brilliant! Thanks and a big hug!!!!!! a.

 

 

 

 

Author's Response:

I undersatnd what you're saying. Brian in that story is so fucked up, even more than in the show (haha). He also is 'only' four years older than Justin here, which change their dynamic of course. But you got it. Brian's inner conflict is dictating his life, and preventing him from being the man he could be. He will change eventually, but the journey will be a long one, full of heartache and uncertainties. But in the end, it will be worth it, I promise :)

Thank you as always for your detailed reviews. Always a delight to read your thoughts! A big hug my friend :):):)

Reviewer: YumYumPM (Signed) · Date: December 09, 2016 12:12 AM · On: Chapter 35 - All over again

Christmas was great, especially for Jack.  Brian and Justin together.  A double date with Gus seems in the cards. 

Author's Response:

Christmas spirit is certainly in the air. Gus is irresistible, isn't he?

Thank you as always for your amazing support!!!♥♥♥

Reviewer: LauraB725 (Signed) · Date: December 08, 2016 01:35 AM · On: Chapter 35 - All over again

Hi Alois...beautiful chapter! The Brian and Gus love discussion was hilarious, I imagine I smiled like a fool through the entire scene at least it sure felt like I did lol. I'm saddened that this wonderful journey is nearly over😔. Thank you for writing and sharing such a beautiful story. Definitely one I plan to read again from start to finish. Looking forward to the epilogue!

Author's Response:

I'm thrilled you liked it! I should have put a sweet overload alert haha. Brian and Gus conversation was hilarious to write, too. I feared that the whole chapter was too sweet and I struggled to write Brian in this last one but hey, he's happy, so, he deserves to be sappy LOL

Thank you so much Laura, for your support on this story. It had been a great help anytime I wanted to quit :D

* A big hug 'à la Jack' * :)

Reviewer: aglaja5 (Signed) · Date: November 29, 2016 05:03 PM · On: Chapter 20 - Hints of Jealousy

Hi again! Hm, now the more painful times are coming. I must admit I’ve forgotten about Spencer so it’s good to re-read it. It’s almost funny to see how jealous Brian acts although he is the one who hurts Justin again and again and who can’t give Justin what he wants or what he would like to have. And it’s soooo sad to see that Brian realizes it but can’t change it – at least at this time. There is nothing more to say about it I think. Again you’ve done a real good job because the pain and hurt and despair is so palpable. I’m glad that the next chapter is in the present where our two boys face better times. Warmest regards and a big hug! a.

Author's Response:

Hey!! So, I'm back home after a wonderful vacation! As promised, I wanted to respond (and yes, I love to respond to the reviews, especially when they are as detailed as yours :D )

Ahh, Spencer. I think Brian reacted strongly to him because of a gut feeling he had, although, he does overreact here. The future will give him reason though, as you already know. I don't necessarily agree about the fact that Brian hurt Justin over and over. Not that he doesn't either, but in the show, I felt like they both had the power to hurt each other, Brian because of his brutal honesty, and Justin because of his youth. In this story of course, this is different. Brian is way more insecure about his relationship with Justin, mainly because he is convinced he isn't worth it. Thus, the mistakes, and they are many. I think he is wrong to think that way, but at the moment, he is unable to think otherwise.

As always, a HUGE thanks for your review!! ♥♥♥

Reviewer: Predec2 (Signed) · Date: November 29, 2016 12:46 PM · On: Chapter 34 - In his smile

Hi, dear friend - what can I say about this incredible story that I haven't already expressed?  Such poignancy in this chapter, in addition to a touch of bittersweetness with the birth of Brian's son, but the loss of the man Brian loved.

You caught Brian's mixed feelings regarding his reunion with his father so well.  And connecting his decision to go see the father he loathed with the birth of his son - and his conviction to be a better father than his had been - was the perfect rationale for it.

Brian has always been such a complex character to me in so many ways, and I think throughout this story you have captured that so well.

It has been a long, gradual journey for Brian and Justin in this story; one that I will miss when it is over.  But it will linger for a long time in my mind, which is what a good story SHOULD do. 

Thank you for this amazing story.  I feel honored to have been a part of its creation, and I hope we can one day look forward to a new story from you. (hint, hint). 

*Hugs*  ~Kim

Author's Response:

Sorry for the delay in responding my dear friend, as you know, I'm on a trip with no phone subscription. Thank god for wifi!

I will never be able to thank you enough for your amazing support on this story. I was very moved by your review and as you know, I doubt I would have finished this one without you. Your help has been invaluable to me. Your friendship ever more so.

I have honestly no clue if I will ever engage this kind of journey with another long story, but I hope to write more in the future. We'll see :)

THANK YOU SO MUCH!!!!!! 

 

Reviewer: Toto_too514 (Anonymous) · Date: November 28, 2016 02:28 AM · On: Chapter 34 - In his smile

What a lovely chapter! So much of who Brian is and how he relates to the other characters makes so much sense after reading this. The scene with Jack had me in tears.

I like how all the little details are being settled... but at the same time, I'm a little sad knowing it's almost over! I've become used to always being able to come here to read another chapter! 

Author's Response:

Aww, I'm so glad you feel that Brian's reactions to the events of his life in this chapter makes sense as to how he behaves going forward. And yeah! So happy that the scene with Jack could touch you :)

It will be weird not to work on this story anymore. I think I might want to revisit this verse one day. We'll see.

What I'm sure of, is that you have been one of the most wonderful reader a writer can dream of. Thank you so much for your amazing support! :):):)

Reviewer: qafqueenbee (Anonymous) · Date: November 26, 2016 01:52 PM · On: Chapter 34 - In his smile

I'm enjoying this story a lot, waiting fot the next chapter.

Author's Response:

And I'm really glad. I will post the next chapter as quickly as I can.

Thank you for your comment, which is deeply appreciated :)

Reviewer: YumYumPM (Signed) · Date: November 25, 2016 04:44 AM · On: Chapter 34 - In his smile

So we're back to square one and the first chapter.  Well done.

Author's Response:

Yep, the loop had been filled ;) Thank you as always for your support my friend!

Reviewer: aglaja5 (Signed) · Date: November 24, 2016 06:29 PM · On: Chapter 17 - New promises

Hi again! It’s funny. Every time I ended reading a chapter I want to stay in that time, want to know what happens next. Then I start the next chapter and after reading a few sentences I’m again so fascinated by it that I forget that I actual wanted to stay in the other time. You always create such an intensive atmosphere. Awesome. I really like the conversations between Brian, his father and Dr. Collier and also between Brian and Debbie. Fortunately Brian has someone he can open up a little and ask for advice. And then this phone-call. It’s so beautiful to read how carefully they behave to each other. Warmest regards and a big hug! a.

Author's Response:

That's actually the best compliment you can give me, so THANK YOU SO MUCH!

And yeah!!! So glad you like the scene with Brian's father, and Debbie. I really enjoy writing about them in this story :)

Thank you again :) You're awesome!!

Reviewer: aglaja5 (Signed) · Date: November 22, 2016 04:24 PM · On: Chapter 15 - Reunions and surprises

And hi again! Just a few words. I really like how you characterised everyone. They are all amiable in ther own way. Warmest regards and a big hug again!!! a.

Author's Response:

Thank you!!!! Warmest regards back at you :) :) :)

Reviewer: aglaja5 (Signed) · Date: November 16, 2016 05:56 PM · On: Chapter 13 - Decision

 

Hello! I’m glad that Justin was honest with Tyler and also with himself and yeah, also with Brian. Thanks for this passionate scene at Kinnetik – hot but also cute. And I’m also glad that Brian has grown up and doesn’t push Justin away. I’m looking forward to the next chapters because not only is the present now getting brighter but also the past is still bright. J Warmest regards and a big hug! a.

 

Author's Response:

Justin had to be honest if they were to find their way to each other in the present. i'm glad you like the Kinnetic office's scene!! I also enjoyed writing that one. The contrast, especially for Brian, in the past and in the present is really interesting to play here. 

Warmest regards back at you and a gazillion of hugs :)

Reviewer: aglaja5 (Signed) · Date: November 14, 2016 06:52 PM · On: Chapter 11 - Who's left behind

Hi again! This time just a few words. I like your Michael. There are many stories with an anti-Michael and somehow I can understand this opinion. In my opinion, there are these two sides of Michael in the show. The one who is in love with Brian, who does everything Brian asks of him and not accepting the relationship and the bond Brian and Justin share, but on the other hand, there is the Michael who also told Justin that Brian really loves him. Whatever. Again warmest regards, thanks for your wonderful story and a big hug! a.

Author's Response:

I'm one of those who like Michael. Sure, at times, he was annoying especially at the beginning of the show, but who wasn't once in a while. I agree with you about him having different sides. I chose to make him a good guy here, as he is not in love with Brian like he was in the show, thanks to Jesse mainly. But I'm sooo glad you like him here, as I know he is far from being a popular character. In fact, I created Jesse here partly for that reason, so that the readers wouldn't be influenced by their previous judgement about his character. I have a feeling if Michael had been the one hurt in here and rejecting Brian, people would have hated him more LOL

Again, a huge thank you my friend!!! ♥ Hugs ♥

Reviewer: qafqueenbee (Anonymous) · Date: November 11, 2016 06:20 PM · On: Chapter 33 - Hug me, hold me

I am enjoying this story. Now that everyone has made up can't waite to see what comes next. Hope there is more to come.

 

 

 

lah

Author's Response:

Hello!

We're reaching the end of this tale, but I'm very happy you're enjoying this. Thank you for reading, and for your comment. I hope you will like the last chapters :) :) :)

*Hugs*

Reviewer: aglaja5 (Signed) · Date: November 10, 2016 05:28 AM · On: Chapter 8 - Connection

Wow! I really love this chapter. It’s amazing. First the way you describe how they both started to think about the other. As if they are already bonded in some way. Brian watching Justin while sleeping. Then this moment at the roof. And finally the panic attack and the way Brian acts, knowing instinctively what to do to help Justin to endure this moment, the unconscious need to protect Justin. Maybe I 'm doing a little too much interpretation? J Ridiculous romantic? J Whatever, I love this chapter! And I love your writing style. Thanks again and warmest regards!

Author's Response:

I do remember this chapter being the one I preferred so far when I was writing it :) So, I'm so glad to read your marvelous thoughts about it here. There is a connection between those two, that's for sure ;D

As always, a HUGE thank you for your wonderful support!!!

Reviewer: Toto_too514 (Anonymous) · Date: November 09, 2016 12:28 AM · On: Chapter 33 - Hug me, hold me

So happy to see Brian and Jesse making amends... and thankful that Justin convinced Jesse to be patient. Brian would have found it nearly impossible if he wasn't able to do it on his own terms. And wonderful to see Brian include Justin on the trip to Baltimore. 

Sweet scene with the Jack and Gus at the bruger joint, and love Jack's present to Brian. 

Author's Response:

I was having this very good feeeling in my chest while writing this last scene, and this hug between Jesse and Brian. And of course, Justin's presence in Brian's life is all he needs to finally let himself live and love.

Brian has reconciled his feelings for Jack, and is starting to show it, too. 

As always, your thoughts are a delight to read. Thank you SO MUCH again for your support on this story ♥♥♥

Reviewer: Lorma (Signed) · Date: November 08, 2016 06:09 PM · On: Chapter 33 - Hug me, hold me

This was the most heartwarming chapter of all!  It is so wonderful that Brian is letting himself show love and be loved now that his relationship with his dad has been repaired.  I am so happy that he and Jesse have reconciled their friendship and that Justin now knows the depth of his love.  

I don't want this  to end and that is my gauge for an excellent story.

Author's Response:

I'm SOOOO happy you don't want this to end, truly warms my heart to read your words. Your support has been amazing all along this ride!!!

The boys, and especially Brian, is finally having an happy ending. And I don't see him complaining any time soon ;P

Thank you again. Sending lots of ♥♥♥ your way :):):)

 

Reviewer: bksbracelet (Signed) · Date: November 08, 2016 09:22 AM · On: Chapter 33 - Hug me, hold me

Oh that was lovely Brian has eventually arrived at a safe place in his life and he reaching out to it with both hands. Justin and Jesse and Jack (all Js lol) taking the gift of trust Brian is offering

Author's Response:

3 J's LOL I didn't even realize that Brian was surrounded by J's haha

Brian had grown up and he is totally fine with it. He is one lucky bastard ;P

Thank you so much for your comment Chris! * Hugs *

Reviewer: sfscarlet (Anonymous) · Date: November 08, 2016 02:09 AM · On: Chapter 33 - Hug me, hold me

I can't beleive the story is almost finished. I love that Brian asked Justin to join him to visit Jesse and the picture Jack painted for Brian- priceless-  With all this growing, is Jack going to realize what he did to Joan and Claire?  I'm not sure that is something Brian really wants to deal with or if he already has.  Olay ,not to deal with it as it is something that can't be changed and Jack is in a way better place now.

Author's Response:

Ah, yes, I admit I can't believe it either, it's been so long since I started it! Brian and Justin are in a very good place now that Brian has dealed with his past.

About Jack, I'm not sure he can realize what he's done. Well,  he knows, because he had those dreams so he had figured it out and he had talked with Dr Collier and Brian about it. But they all chose to move on, to help him deal with the memories and not let them destroy him. Because if he could really understand and connect to the man he was before, it would destroy him. I think it's impossible for him to connect with the man he once was, and that's why he can't realize fully what he had done as a consequence. It's just inconceivable for him to be a man who killed his family because he was a drunk, insufferable piece of shit. But conversely, all he wants now is prove to his son that he cares, so who knows what's going on in his head? :D

It was one long response LOL Thank you as always Sandy for your amazing support!

Reviewer: chouchou (Anonymous) · Date: November 07, 2016 11:28 PM · On: Chapter 33 - Hug me, hold me

Just so happy for these two!

Author's Response:

I'm too LOL It was time :) Thank you for reading and commenting!

Reviewer: aglaja5 (Signed) · Date: October 31, 2016 08:37 PM · On: Chapter 5 - Hesitation

Wow! Even after reading this the second time it affects me so much. It's amazing how you are able to let the reader feel this deep feelings between them. Their disruption, their longing, their insecurity, their love. I love this chapter, i love your writing style and I love these two cute, beautiful but also damaged guys. Thanks for sharing this wonderful work! Warmest regards, a.

Author's Response:

I remember not feeling very satisfied when I wrote this chapter, so I'm glad you like it. This story was a challenge, and still is, even if it's easier now; Thank you for all your comments!!

* Hugs *

Reviewer: aglaja5 (Signed) · Date: October 25, 2016 03:47 PM · On: Chapter 2 - A New beginning

Second day, second chapter. Interesting chapter because of the background infos about Justin's situation. I like "your Emmett" very much. He is very sensitive. And this first encounter between Justin and Brian is good written (it's somehow funny but also a little sad). Warmest regards! a.

Author's Response:

Yes, this chapter helped to understand Justin's story. Emmett is a sweetheart, isn't he? As for Justin and Brian's first encounter, well, as a reader said, Justin had met the big bad wolf. And this is just the beginning :)

Reviewer: Lorma (Signed) · Date: October 22, 2016 07:37 PM · On: Chapter 32 - A new life

This story is so good, I honestly don't want it to end!  I'm so glad Debbie got through to Brian.   I think Justin had to leave him in order for Brian to face the truth.  

Author's Response:

Thank you so much for the praise Lorma, it makes me so happy! I completely agree with you, Justin leaving Brian had been an eye opener for Brian, even if he still had to deal with its meaning and to realize his mistakes to finally move on. And having Gus will change him for good :)

* Hugs *

Reviewer: Predec2 (Signed) · Date: October 19, 2016 05:31 PM · On: Chapter 32 - A new life

Wow. As always, so exquisitely written, my friend! I love the way you have analyzed Brian's feelings and thought processes here. And I think you did a great job of explaining how Brian changed his mind about the baby. You kept both him and Debbie very much in character, also.

 

I'm really going to miss this story once you're finished. Thank you for allowing me a sneak peek along the way,  and I hope we see many more from you in the future. *Hugs* ~Kim

 

 

Author's Response:

You have no idea what 'exquisitely written' coming from you means to me :):):)

I'm also glad you found Brian and Debbie IC here, as I really enjoyed writing that part. I always love their moments in the show.

I'm the one who needs to thank you for all you've done for me. Seriously, I wouldn't even publish today if not for you. And that's the honest truth :)

* A big hug my dear friend *

Reviewer: krussell87 (Signed) · Date: October 19, 2016 12:13 PM · On: Chapter 32 - A new life

OMG!! So love this story!!! d84;a039;d84;a039;

Author's Response:

And that makes me soooo happy!!!! :):):)

* Hugs *

Reviewer: sfscarlet (Anonymous) · Date: October 19, 2016 02:14 AM · On: Chapter 32 - A new life

such a a sad chapter.   i need to go back and read the reunion of them getting back together  just to reassure yjat they do

Author's Response:

Hi my friend! I'm sorry you feel like it's so sad, and it kind of is, but Brian needed to be ready to deal with his demons, and Justin's leaving has started to make him realize that he needed to move on and deal with his past, once and for all. What better incentive then than a mother act and a son to take the last step?

I promise you this time in their lifes will make their love stronger than ever by the end of this story :)

* A big hug my friend *

Reviewer: Toto_too514 (Anonymous) · Date: October 11, 2016 10:55 PM · On: Chapter 31 - Give it time

I really like the title of this chapter... both Jesse and Brian need to give it time. There's obviously still a lot to work out between them, but after the initial shock of the first meeting, hopefully it will go smoother. As much as Brian was hurt by what Jesse said at the time, he's got to realize that Jesse wasn't in his right mind when he said them. I'm glad it didn't seem to interfere with the Brian and Justin reunion!

Author's Response:

Hi my friend!

Time can heal the wounds. Jesse and Brian need to heal, together. They both know it, even if Brian needs time to sort out his feelings. It's a good thing he has Justin to push him in the right direction ;)

The old Brian, the one who couldn't deal with his demons, would have probably pushed Justin away at that point. But Brian isn't that man anymore and I doubt he will ever do anything to jeopardize his relationship with Justin. On the contrary, he is even more grateful, and aware of how lucky he is.

Thank you as always for your wonderful support!!! * Hugs from France *

Reviewer: 7wildwaysup (Signed) · Date: October 11, 2016 03:19 AM · On: Chapter 29 - Jesse’s story

Eight years is a long time... Now it's time to heal old wounds, and kiss and make up... Hugs Hon ~ Kathleen

Author's Response:

Definitely! Thank you so much for all the comments, it was a delight to wake up and discover them this morning.

* Big hugs from France *

Reviewer: 7wildwaysup (Signed) · Date: October 11, 2016 02:07 AM · On: Chapter 27 - Loving life

Just when everything was starting to get back to normal. Will Jesse's return help or hinder this family reunion? I hope Brian doesn't freak out too much, and he accepts Justin's help working through his emotions... On to the next chapter! Hugs Darling ~ Kathleen

Author's Response:

That is the question, right? Will Brian freak out or not? * evil author * LOL

Reviewer: 7wildwaysup (Signed) · Date: October 10, 2016 09:06 PM · On: Chapter 25 - New beginnings

It's a family reunion, I pray that all goes well. I think that's what they all need, it will help them finally finish healing...

Hugs Hon ~ Kathleen

Author's Response:

Exactly. They need to put their demons to rest to move on and be truly happy :)

Reviewer: 7wildwaysup (Signed) · Date: October 10, 2016 01:58 PM · On: Chapter 24: Turning Point - Part Three

Oops, I just saw the response to my older review... For some reason I'm not getting the notifications... Okay back to the fic!

Later Hon ~ Kathleen

Author's Response:

Thank you for all the comments Kathleen! It makes my day again :)

* Hugs from France *

Reviewer: Predec2 (Signed) · Date: October 09, 2016 04:38 PM · On: Chapter 31 - Give it time

Hi, my friend!  OMG, loved, loved, loved everything about this chapter!  How you wrote both Jesse's and Brian's emotions, how you showed that Brian still loved his friend, despite his words and pain, and how Justin was there for Brian, no questions asked, when he needed him. 

 

I think this is one of my favorite chapters!  You write so exquisitively.  I will really hate to see this story end, but please never doubt what a lovely, poignant tale you have woven here.  XOXO  ~Kim

Author's Response:

Hi Kim! I'm soooooo glad you liked this chapter! I like Brian and Justin becoming so close again, and of course, Brian is really a big softie when you think about it. It's painful, but it's also the reason why he and Jesse's friendship is so sincere and true. And Justin is a wonderful man to be there for Brian without pressuring him. He knows him, loves him and believes in him. It's time they have their happy ending.

Your comment makes me so happy, you have no idea :):):):) XOXO

Reviewer: 7wildwaysup (Signed) · Date: October 08, 2016 01:46 PM · On: Chapter 13 - Decision

Well the hardest part is over, or at least I hope it's over... Sure I know Brian will continue to be bullheaded rejecting the idea that Justin still loves him. But Justin's never been one to give up once he makes his mind up... Now lets see if they can finally find their way back to one another... I'm loving this fic...

Hugs Hon ~ Kathleen

Author's Response:

Hey Kathleen! Well, hopefully, Brian will soon realize that he really can't resist Justin ;) As you say, once Justin makes up his mind, he is unstoppable! I'm so glad you're enjoying this, thank you so much for taking the time to leave me all those beautiful comments * big smile *

*Hugs from France*

Reviewer: bksbracelet (Signed) · Date: October 07, 2016 01:44 PM · On: Chapter 31 - Give it time

Loved loved this chapter thank you

Author's Response:

That makes me sooooo happy!!! Thank you Chris :)

Reviewer: Glo (Anonymous) · Date: October 06, 2016 07:17 PM · On: Chapter 31 - Give it time

Well I think that went as well as it could, considering the circumstances. Like you said, Brian just needs some time to process it all.

So glad he & Justin are having fun again! Can't wait for the next one! 

Author's Response:

Yes, considering, it wasn't so bad. As Debbie once said, Brian's bigger organ is truly his heart. As for Justin, I doubt Brian will ever let him go again! Thank you so much for reading and especially taking the time to leave a comment. I hope you're okay my friend after all the hard times lately. And I saw congratulations are in order for the marriage of your daughter, so congratulations !!! 

Reviewer: YumYumPM (Signed) · Date: October 06, 2016 03:52 PM · On: Chapter 31 - Give it time

Everybody has come full circle now.  Let's hope that everything works out.

Author's Response:

As always, a huge thank you for your support my friend :) Hopefully, their happily ever after is within reach

Reviewer: 7wildwaysup (Signed) · Date: October 06, 2016 12:08 PM · On: Chapter 1 - Unexpected Reunion

A new twist to the start, or should I say reunification of our boy's. On to the next chapter...

Hugs Hon ~ Kathleen

Author's Response:

Hey Kathleen!

Thank you for giving this story a try. I hope you will enjoy it :)

* Hugs *

Reviewer: Toto_too514 (Anonymous) · Date: September 22, 2016 12:37 AM · On: Chapter 30 - Broken

Wow! Even though I had myself prepared for some kind of awful scene that finally drove the boys apart, I wasn't fully prepared for something this intense I am very angry at Brian right, especially for thinking he can force Lindsay to have an abortion because he is not ready to be a father. The only thing keepig me from going completely off the deep end, are the little hints and hopes of reconcilliation that we see in the "Present" chapters. Great job!

Author's Response:

Thsi chapter was so hard to write! I mean, it needed to be intense, but seeing them at each other's guts is not easy. Of course, Brian is not thinking, but reacting too strongly. We all know he will change his mind and also win over his own demons, but that period of his life is not a good one for him, and by extension, for the people close to him.

Thank you as always for your wonderful support!!! 

* Hugs *

Reviewer: chouchou (Anonymous) · Date: September 19, 2016 09:30 PM · On: Chapter 1 - Unexpected Reunion

Outch! This chapter really is something!

Author's Response:

N'est ce pas? La bonne nouvelle est que la partie la plus dramatique du passé est enfin écrite! Mais à voir si de nouveaux drames éclatent ou pas dans le présent ;)

Reviewer: bksbracelet (Signed) · Date: September 19, 2016 03:57 AM · On: Chapter 30 - Broken

Omg can Brian ever give himself and Justin a break

Author's Response:

LOL In the past? It's a no, but he will have eight years to think about his behavior, ha!

Thank you Chris for your comment!

Reviewer: sfscarlet (Anonymous) · Date: September 19, 2016 01:42 AM · On: Chapter 30 - Broken

The chapter is well written and the heartache that both men feel is evident.  The saving grace is that int he other timeline they are healing and are talking again.

Author's Response:

The present is now what is keeping us sane. The break-up was inevitable, though. 

Thank you as always Sandy for your amazing support :)

Reviewer: WhiteSnowFox (Signed) · Date: September 19, 2016 12:18 AM · On: Chapter 29 - Jesse’s story

I somehow missed your last updated.  I have no idea how.  but now I get two chapters!  And awwww it's me!  I liked her too!  I'm so touched you used my name.  :)

I have to say, I feel like this chapter is one of my favorites.  I know a lot of people might be wanting you to focus on Brian or Justin, but I truly like Jesse as a character and so I want to see more of him.  And his recovery is amazing, it's so nice that he had Aaron there supporting him through all of this...He has a family now and I can't think of anyone who deserves it more.  I just hope his reunion with Brian is cathartic instead of causing any more strife.  They both deserve to be at pease.

As always, wonderful job!  :)

Author's Response:

I'm very happy you feel that way about this chapter, you have no idea! I loved writing about Jesse's story

And I'm glad you like 'your' character ;) Thank you for letting me using your name * big smile *

Reviewer: krussell87 (Signed) · Date: September 16, 2016 12:50 AM · On: Chapter 29 - Jesse’s story

This is the most addicting story!!! I always hate when a chapter ends!!d84;a039;

Author's Response:

Hi Kim!

Not sure if it's you or not who is posting this review repetitively. I'm deleting them as they come, so as not to have the same one over and over again. But whetever the cause tor those extra reviews, thank you for the support!!

Reviewer: sfscarlet (Anonymous) · Date: September 13, 2016 01:27 AM · On: Chapter 29 - Jesse’s story

caught up with this great story-  so glad that you have overcome your writers block and continued to write.   Can't wait for more

Author's Response:

Hi Sandy!

My writer block is behind me, hopefully. I don't have much to cover for this story to be over, so I think updates might be faster now :)

Thank you as always for your wonderful support!

* Hugs *

Reviewer: solkeera (Anonymous) · Date: September 12, 2016 04:27 PM · On: Chapter 29 - Jesse’s story

nooooo you are evil to stop there! lol

 

Author's Response:

LOL I know! It's just to make sure you will come back for more ;)

Thank you sincerly for your support, it means so much!

* Hugs *

Reviewer: LauraB725 (Signed) · Date: September 12, 2016 01:35 AM · On: Chapter 29 - Jesse’s story

Hi Alois! This was Awesome! I really enjoyed Jesse's story but I can't wait to read more about his reunion with Brian. Anxiously awaiting your next chapter!! Thank you 😊

Author's Response:

Hi Laura!

I'm so thrilled you liked Jesse's story! I needed to cover his life before being able to move forward on his meeting with Brian. And I know, what an evil way to end this chapter, right?

Thank YOU for the never-ending support on this story, it means so much :)

* Hugs *

Reviewer: WhiteSnowFox (Signed) · Date: September 09, 2016 11:51 PM · On: Chapter 28 - Drifting to the breaking point

So this is it, right?  It's over?  I survived?  :(  So painful...Even through all of that Justin was sticking around.  But the baby is just too much.  And I don't blame him.  How more supportive can one person be?  My heart bleeds for him...

And stupid Brian!  He knew it was over.  He didn't even bother telling Justin, he just went straight to mourning their relationship.

As always, this is so well done.  I am looking forward to more!  :)

Author's Response:

Ahhh, no, it's not over yet, but it's getting there real fast. Justin is a wonderful guy, but he's only human. And Brian's reaction to Lindsay's pregnancy is going to be a breaking point, I'm afraid.

Brian is reacting badly. Being a father completely freaks him out and he also knows Justin is going to leave him because he can't deal with it. So * ahem * still bad times coming, but hey, we all knew we would get there eventually, right?

So, angsty chapters are not done yet, but it will get better... eventually LOL

Thank you as always for your amazing support!! I always love to read your thoughts :)

Reviewer: aglaja5 (Signed) · Date: September 07, 2016 07:21 PM · On: Chapter 27 - Loving life

Hi again! The next review because I've already read the last two chapters this afternoon. Thanks for writing this scene - it's beautiful and hot and it's good to see them happy at last. They are so cute together. I couldn't imagine one of them with anyone else. They belong together. I just hope it'll last. I'm a little bit afraid because of the return of Jesse. How will Brian react?

And I hope you will update soon. :-)  Maybe I'm a little bit crazy, but I'll stop reading at this point. I think the next chapter is painful again and I can't stand it... Think I have to wait for the next chapter hoping it will be more comforting.

Warmest regards and again thanks very much for this wonderful story so far! a.

Author's Response:

I'm glad you liked this scene! They are so good together right now. As for Jesse's return causing troubles for them, well, we will have to wait and see ;D

I've just finished the next 'present chapter', but I need a few more days to have it corrected before publishing it. Also, this one will be centered mainly on Jesse and his story. And * ahem * I don't blame you on not wanting to read the next chapter right away, as I can safely say this is the most painful so far, and I still haven't finished torturing the boys in the past, but I promise it will get better.

Thank you again sincerely for all your reviews on this work, it means more than I can say. I hope you will enjoy what's to come, even with all the inevitable heartache the characters will go through.

 ♥ Warmest regards back at you ♥

Reviewer: aglaja5 (Signed) · Date: September 07, 2016 05:15 AM · On: Chapter 25 - New beginnings

Hi! This is one of my favourite stories about Brian and Justin. I've started reading it two days ago and I can't stop. It's great! So many different aspects, beautiful, cute, hot and on the other hand it's exciting, dramatic with so much hurt that I suffer with them. Amazing! And yes, I hope you've already written the missing scene and if not... I'm begging you! Please! Please! Please! :-) Warmest regards, a.

Author's Response:

Hi my friend!

Aw, you made my day with your review! I'm so glad you're loving this story :) and LOL I wrote that sex scene, I hope you will like it! I still have a few things to say before this story is over so stay tuned! I should be able to post the next chapter very soon :)

Thank you again for the heartwarming feedback * happy smile *

* Hugs from France *

Reviewer: peacock (Anonymous) · Date: September 04, 2016 03:25 PM · On: Chapter 28 - Drifting to the breaking point

Wow. Just wow.

Author's Response:

Hi my friend!

I hope this was the good kind of Wow (well, if I can use the word 'good' regarding this chapter)  Thank you so much for following this story :) More to come very soon!

Reviewer: Toto_too514 (Anonymous) · Date: September 03, 2016 02:19 AM · On: Chapter 28 - Drifting to the breaking point

Wow! What a comeback! It may have been a while since this story was updated but it did not disappoint! The heartache affecting everyone here is palpable... but I believe that such heartache can only occur when there is true love at the center. I feel awful that the boys have had to go through this, but since you've given us peeks at the future, I have tremendous hope that they will get their happy ever after, or their own version of it... eventually.

I also hear that there are congratulations due... much happiness with your new baby! 

Author's Response:

Hi my friend! Aw, thank you so much for your thoughts! The boys are going through the most difficult time of their relationship, but I agree 100% with you. They wouldn't suffered so much if they didn't belong to each other. Unfortunately at the time, it wasn't enough, but they will learn valuable lessons from that time, too. And, yes, they will cherish what they have even more in the future.

And thank you so much! My baby girl is doing great and now that I can rest a little more, I can also resume my writing. Expect another chapter soon!

* hugs from France *

Reviewer: qafqueenbee (Anonymous) · Date: August 25, 2016 11:59 PM · On: Author’s note

I  started waiting until stories are done before I start to read tjem, because so many wsa unfinished. I started to read your story because you had more than 20 chapters.  Please fiinish it.  I am enjoying it a lot. I want to know what happens now that Jessie is back and what happen that cause Justin to leave.

 

Author's Response:

Hey!

Thank you so much for your feedback :) I had to take a break from writing but I plan to update this story very soon. I was feeling really down when I wrote this note, though, but I'm confident I will finish this story in the next few months, thanks to all the support I had from my wonderful readers. So stay tuned, you will know very soon what have happened between Brian and Justin in the past and what is going to happen with Jesse :)

* hugs from France *

Reviewer: WhiteSnowFox (Signed) · Date: August 11, 2016 10:58 PM · On: Chapter 27 - Loving life

Oooo Jesse is back!!  Yay!  Well, yay for Justin and hopefully yay for Brian.

Let me say, that these chapters are so good at relieving all those nasty emotions from the past.  It's hard to reconcile just how much Brian has changed, but it's so good - and such a relief - to know that no matter what happens in the past, they'll find their way back to each other.  So thank you so much for writing it this way.

Also, when Brian says how much he's missed them being together I almost melted.  I could just FEEL the regret he felt at all those horrible things he did.  But at the same time I feel like he does deserve this second chance...

I hope you'll show us when in the past Brian realizes he's messed up and started to make these changes.  It'll be interesting to see how he handles himself given the mistakes would be so fresh.  To know that he still feels so deeply in the present means it must have been heartbreaking for him in the past...

Oh look at me ramble...It's just so good!  I love every word!

Thank you!  Thank you!  Thank you!

Author's Response:

Brian had changed so much since that time. He began to explain it to Justin in the previous 'present' chapter, but yes, I will definitely follow his thinking process once Justin will leave him. But be warned. He hadn't done his last mistake yet.

And yes, Jesse is back! I'm eager to write about the present now. The past is so dark, it's not a joyful ride to say the least. The contrast between those two times of their lives is important for me. Everyone can have a second chance at happiness.

Kristine, you're amazing with your reviews, thank you so much!!! 

 

Reviewer: feet526@comcast.net (Anonymous) · Date: August 11, 2016 04:34 AM · On: Author’s note

Sorry you are losing interest in this story!  I have been enjoying it so much and look forward to any and all updates. 

Hope you continue; I am sure I am not alone.  You must decide, of course, but I hope you take the positvie road!

Author's Response:

Hi my friend,

I'm better now. I want to finish this, so it's safe to say that there is a 99% chance I will finish this story :) Thank you so much for leavins a comment and telling me you like it though, it helps a lot and I'm always so happy to read a comment from a new reader :) More to come as soon as I can!

* hugs from France *

Reviewer: krussell87 (Signed) · Date: August 10, 2016 11:55 PM · On: Author’s note

I just today came upon your story and read it in one sitting!!! I do hope you can finish this story..... I am in awe of your talent. Would be a shame to not reach an ending. Love this story!!!d84;a039;d84;a039;

Author's Response:

Hi Karen!

Aw, thank you so much for leaving me this beautiful comment! I'm alwasy so elated to read that someone is discovering and loving this story :) 

As you've seen, I've written two more chapters since that note, so, it's safe to say my motivation is abck ;) but the readers's encouragement helps more than I can say, so thank you so much for letting me know you were enjoying this. It means a lot :)

* hugs from France *