Midnight Whispers
QAF Brian and Justin Fanfiction
Reviewer: Linnu (Signed) · Date: March 04, 2021 08:14 PM · On: Part Seven

I wish you well on your cancer journey. I discovered QAF after my cancer diagnosis, and what I have come to know as my summer of surgeries...when I spent most of my time in bed resting before starting my radiation treatments (August through Sept). My son had set up a TV on each side of my bed so I could flip over each time I got uncomfortable.....I had watched everything on Netflix, HBO, etc,,,,and was flipping through Showtime and discovered QAF...I would watch an episode, fall asleep, rewatch, fall asleep....etc....I swear I watched every show halfway through multiple times....LOL....then after radiation and continued chemo the brain fog set in and I couldn't read a book because the plots and characters would get all tangled in my brain (reading really is my favorite pass time not TV)....when somehow I discovered FANFICTION....never even heard of it before....This was my saviour....I could get lost in the stories for hours because I basically knew the characters, and the story lines more or less....so now almost 3 years with NED I am now hooked on Fan Fiction and still enjoy finding new stories when I need some escapism from the real world (ie COVID craziness). I wish you good health in this time of COVID and continue writing.....if you ever need a BETA reader let me know...I'm a teacher now, but started my professional life as an editor and would love to do something to give back to those who have given me hours of joy and distraction at a very difficult time of my life...

Keep writing.....

 

Reviewer: Linnu (Signed) · Date: March 04, 2021 08:14 PM · On: Part Seven

I wish you well on your cancer journey. I discovered QAF after my cancer diagnosis, and what I have come to know as my summer of surgeries...when I spent most of my time in bed resting before starting my radiation treatments (August through Sept). My son had set up a TV on each side of my bed so I could flip over each time I got uncomfortable.....I had watched everything on Netflix, HBO, etc,,,,and was flipping through Showtime and discovered QAF...I would watch an episode, fall asleep, rewatch, fall asleep....etc....I swear I watched every show halfway through multiple times....LOL....then after radiation and continued chemo the brain fog set in and I couldn't read a book because the plots and characters would get all tangled in my brain (reading really is my favorite pass time not TV)....when somehow I discovered FANFICTION....never even heard of it before....This was my saviour....I could get lost in the stories for hours because I basically knew the characters, and the story lines more or less....so now almost 3 years with NED I am now hooked on Fan Fiction and still enjoy finding new stories when I need some escapism from the real world (ie COVID craziness). I wish you good health in this time of COVID and continue writing.....if you ever need a BETA reader let me know...I'm a teacher now, but started my professional life as an editor and would love to do something to give back to those who have given me hours of joy and distraction at a very difficult time of my life...

Keep writing.....

 

Reviewer: Linnu (Signed) · Date: March 04, 2021 08:14 PM · On: Part Seven

I wish you well on your cancer journey. I discovered QAF after my cancer diagnosis, and what I have come to know as my summer of surgeries...when I spent most of my time in bed resting before starting my radiation treatments (August through Sept). My son had set up a TV on each side of my bed so I could flip over each time I got uncomfortable.....I had watched everything on Netflix, HBO, etc,,,,and was flipping through Showtime and discovered QAF...I would watch an episode, fall asleep, rewatch, fall asleep....etc....I swear I watched every show halfway through multiple times....LOL....then after radiation and continued chemo the brain fog set in and I couldn't read a book because the plots and characters would get all tangled in my brain (reading really is my favorite pass time not TV)....when somehow I discovered FANFICTION....never even heard of it before....This was my saviour....I could get lost in the stories for hours because I basically knew the characters, and the story lines more or less....so now almost 3 years with NED I am now hooked on Fan Fiction and still enjoy finding new stories when I need some escapism from the real world (ie COVID craziness). I wish you good health in this time of COVID and continue writing.....if you ever need a BETA reader let me know...I'm a teacher now, but started my professional life as an editor and would love to do something to give back to those who have given me hours of joy and distraction at a very difficult time of my life...

Keep writing.....

 

Reviewer: askaeddie (Signed) · Date: April 25, 2019 12:06 PM · On: Part Seven

Yeah, I just wanted to say that I totally agree what you said in end notes. It was similiar like after Jusin bashing, all this trauma and so quickly it dissapear. Justin had nightmares when he was at his mom place but seems like he stopped them when he was living with Brian and this walking on street - one moment he needed help and support, the real one and after few metres and minutes later he was able to go back on his own. For me it wasn't realistic, not with this reality.

And the same with Brian's cancer. Treatment takes weeks, I think and they show us in 2 episodes that he was strugglin during treatment. And I've been missing scenes when Brian was all alone (after he throw Justin) ale then when Justin come back - there was just some few words from Brian but it was just words.

It was very sad that they didn't treat this situations how they deserved, just real. We missed so many moments, and it's ot that I wanted to see how Brian is jumping around Justin or opposite way, just seen them and how they handle it together. After all they put them throught this shitty hell and showed like it was a blinking, not a very drastic experiences. 

 

So thanks for your FF, I think you could make it much longer and wrire much more but I'm happy for what it is. 

Never believe that Justin would leave to NY, it didn't make any sense.

Reviewer: YumYumPM (Signed) · Date: August 12, 2017 03:13 AM · On: Part Seven

Wow, now they have a plan I hope it works.  I wondered why Brian's cancer sounded so realistic.  

Reviewer: YumYumPM (Signed) · Date: August 09, 2017 12:46 PM · On: Part Six

Interesting placement on the tatoo.  I always hated that Jen kept the fact that Brian was there at the hospital from Justin.  I love the last line, it gives me the warm willies.

Reviewer: YumYumPM (Signed) · Date: August 09, 2017 11:56 AM · On: Part Five

Brian is finally letting Justin in.  Hopefully he'll keep him.

Reviewer: YumYumPM (Signed) · Date: August 08, 2017 02:45 AM · On: Part Four

The cancer's back.  No wonder he drank too much.  Michael sometimes goes too far even if he means well.

Reviewer: YumYumPM (Signed) · Date: August 07, 2017 03:13 PM · On: Part Three

Wow.  We learn more about Brian in this chapter.  It gave me a new look at Mikey because I always thought he was a shitty friend.

Reviewer: YumYumPM (Signed) · Date: August 07, 2017 02:21 AM · On: Part Two

Want to know what caused whatever Brian was going through!  Which means I'll have to read more chapters!!!  Good job.

Reviewer: YumYumPM (Signed) · Date: August 06, 2017 06:50 PM · On: Part One

Intriguing start.  Wonder what really happened.  No telling what will happen with Michael making assumptions.  Once Justin gets there things could go anywhich way.  Looking forward to see where you take us.

Reviewer: eureka1 (Signed) · Date: October 14, 2015 08:36 PM · On: Part Seven

This was a fantastic, realistic Brian and Justin story! Brian's battle with cancer was particularly heartwrenching. Extremely well told although I was sad to read it was based on personal experience. I hope your cancer is in remission.

Are you still writing QAF stories? I'm at the point where I've just about read all I can find and am therefore begging for more. :)

Reviewer: eureka1 (Signed) · Date: October 14, 2015 07:53 PM · On: Part Six

Your rendering of Brian's tattoo made me laugh...as did the boys' exhange about it. ;)

Reviewer: eureka1 (Signed) · Date: October 14, 2015 07:37 PM · On: Part Five

Improving communication! :)

Reviewer: eureka1 (Signed) · Date: October 14, 2015 07:12 PM · On: Part Four

I like this stronger, not-whiny Michael. Friendship instead of co-dependence. Hallelujah!

Reviewer: eureka1 (Signed) · Date: October 14, 2015 06:28 PM · On: Part Three

Justin is strong man with a voracious sexual appetite that matches Brian's. It's good to see him presented that way. We all know that in some ways, Brian is the more vulnerable and less adaptable of the two.

The sharing and bonding session between Michael and Justin was really interesting--as was the news that Brian was versatile in his youth.

Reviewer: SunshineSally (Signed) · Date: July 27, 2015 08:01 PM · On: Part Seven

Thank you for this wonderful story, I am gutted it has come to an end x



Author's Response:

There are other stories in the same universe, sort of sequels :)) thanks so much fo reading!

Reviewer: SunshineSally (Signed) · Date: July 27, 2015 07:36 PM · On: Part Six

Haha love his cheesy tattoo  :) And those magical talking pills x

Reviewer: SunshineSally (Signed) · Date: July 27, 2015 07:08 PM · On: Part Five

This all makes so much fucking sense, the way he is and how he sees himself. Ho he perceives bottoming etc. YOU'RE AMAZING!



Author's Response:

Thank you for all of your kind reviews!!! I'm so glad that you are enjoying it so much! Xx

Reviewer: SunshineSally (Signed) · Date: July 27, 2015 06:48 PM · On: Part Four

Love love love love love! I loved Michael's speech to Brian, saying he's a martyr like his mom, you're so right. And He bloody needs to know how much people love him - AND ACCEPT THAT! Jesus, this is good x

Reviewer: SunshineSally (Signed) · Date: July 27, 2015 05:03 PM · On: Part Three

Girl, you kill me-  but in the best possible way. I actually thought something happened to Brian when he was younger, and it's like you have jumped in to my brain and written this for me xxxx

Reviewer: SunshineSally (Signed) · Date: July 27, 2015 04:29 PM · On: Part Two

My heart is breaking omg. Poor Brian, he is so fucked up - but poor Justin too, for finding out about all of this - like this :(

Reviewer: SunshineSally (Signed) · Date: July 27, 2015 04:18 PM · On: Part One

OMG! Brian, what have you doneeeeeeeeeeeeee?

Reviewer: nickknack (Signed) · Date: June 01, 2015 09:47 PM · On: Part Seven

Amazing story,scarily realistic but hopeful

Reviewer: Galesgal (Signed) · Date: June 09, 2013 03:34 AM · On: Part Six

This story is great.  I always wondered where it was but then i have always wondered why they didn't jut use his real tattoo.

Reviewer: yvonnereid (Signed) · Date: August 09, 2012 06:26 AM · On: Part Seven

Im sorry to read you have been dealing with cancer.

 

You wrote a very good story here,and I thought you were very realistic with it. I too felt Brians cancer was very rushed on the show.

 

Huge Hugs,Vonnie xoxox



Author's Response:

Thanks Vonnie! xo

Reviewer: lrknow (Anonymous) · Date: May 23, 2012 02:19 AM · On: Part Seven

Read your story and the sequel over at LJ but did'nt comment cause I'm not on your flist and I'm abit of a lurker.. lol.. anyway, just wanted to say that I really enjoyed all of your fics that I've read so far and I think you are very talented, hope to read more of your stuff in the future...



Author's Response:

Aw thanks. Please feel free to comment on LJ any time, lurkers are always welcome :)

Reviewer: Mary (Anonymous) · Date: March 12, 2012 06:25 AM · On: Part Seven

I just finished this and loved it!!



Author's Response:

Thank you! glad you enjoyed it :)

Reviewer: Anonymous (Anonymous) · Date: March 04, 2012 07:36 AM · On: Part Six

I always thought that tat never existed.... it was just back in the days that the show copied the UK version, verbatim.

Great story....love your writing.



Author's Response:

yeah, that would make sense--along with justin being ambidexterous and jen saying that she wished he was never born, but i figure, if it's in there, it's too late, its canon... :) thanks so much for reading and for writing!

Reviewer: Hotesse (Signed) · Date: February 24, 2012 06:16 AM · On: Part Seven

Thank you. thankyouthankyouthankyou!!
This is the best cancer-related story I've found. I'm so sorry you had to go through that, but it's clear that you know what you are writing about. I agree that Brian got over his big-c pretty fast on the show but I guess that's TV. I look forward to reading your other stories

Author's Response:

Thank you so much for the compliments! I appreciate it. It kind of bugged me that they blew through that story arc--i thought it was pretty relevant to his character development...oh well--that's what fanfic is for. thanks again for reading and for writing :)

Reviewer: inabluefunk (Signed) · Date: February 21, 2012 09:13 AM · On: Part Seven

This was a beautiful story, though be it extremely sad. The struggle with cancer is indeed never ending and I am glad to hear you are dealing with your situation for a dozen years. I wish you strength to endure for many more years to come. I will keep my eyes open for your future posts. ;) Marla



Author's Response:

Thanks so much for reading it and thank you for all of your kind words and comments! :)

Reviewer: inabluefunk (Signed) · Date: February 21, 2012 08:41 AM · On: Part Six

;-)

Reviewer: inabluefunk (Signed) · Date: February 21, 2012 08:19 AM · On: Part Five

Such a sad chapter ;( but a lot of things are coming out for both the boys to deal with.

Reviewer: inabluefunk (Signed) · Date: February 21, 2012 07:51 AM · On: Part Four

WTG! Great chapter



Author's Response:

thanks!! :)

Reviewer: inabluefunk (Signed) · Date: February 21, 2012 06:42 AM · On: Part One

;)

Reviewer: Jackie Mag (Signed) · Date: February 18, 2012 10:29 AM · On: Part Seven

When I was reading I could tell that you, or someone close to you, had gone through the same thing.  Either that or you're a doctor,... but it was more personal than that.

Great story. ....  Keep it coming.

- Jackie



Author's Response:

Thanks so much. Sometimes i feel like a dr, lol :)-  Thanks for reading and for all of your comments!

Reviewer: Jackie Mag (Signed) · Date: February 18, 2012 10:12 AM · On: Part Six

That was the perfect spot and the perfect thing LUCKY YOU.



Author's Response:

Thanks!! i can see it very clearly in my head, lol. :)

Reviewer: Sasha (Signed) · Date: February 17, 2012 04:29 PM · On: Part Seven

Hey.
I loved the story. While I was reading I was wondering if you had any personal experience with radiation, because it was so well written and very detailed. Than I read the footnote at the end of the story and had my suspicions confirmed. Hope you are doing better this days and that you get better as much as possible.
Like I said I loved the story and would love to read a sequal. Do you have any plans for one?
Thenks for writing and posting.
Sasha

Author's Response:

So glad you liked it, thanks for the kind words and thoughts. I do have WIPs that could be considered sequels. I'm working on them and will be posting in the not too distant future. Thanks again for writing! :)

Reviewer: chandrika (Anonymous) · Date: February 15, 2012 05:49 AM · On: Part One

great story

thank you



Author's Response:

thanks so much! :)

Reviewer: soul1essharpy (Signed) · Date: February 15, 2012 12:47 AM · On: Part Six

*snort* Awesome idea for Brian's tatoo.

In real life, Gale has the word 'Resist' tattooed on his right middle finger between his middle and index fingers. ( you can see it in the 'i want you safe speech' as Brian cups Justin's face)

Also, Randy has/had a scorpion on his left bicep that you can see they tried (and failed) to hide in the premiere 'morning after' shower scene.

Author's Response:
Oh yes, I am *well* aware, lol. There are also promo shots for the show that were released before they started filming where randy's tattoo is featured like it was put there on purpose. at first i thought it was a temp. some people make gale's real tattoo into brian's tattoo in fics but in the episode where it is mentioned, ted tells emmett that it's in a place that he would never see--so it has to be somewhere hidden. ted would have seen it during the orgy brian had the night jfk jr died, when ted tried to fuck him. don't you wish there was a queer as folk version of trivial pursuit? thank you so much for reading and for writing! :) :) :)

 

Reviewer: Raine (Signed) · Date: February 14, 2012 09:48 PM · On: Part Seven

It has been a great read! I still down know why they ever stopped at season 5, seeing those two characters are eternal and people can write around they forever :))



Author's Response:

Thanks so much for reading and for writing. I really wish the show was still on--or that they had at least continued it for a bit longer. At least we have the fandom :)



Reviewer: kellydeer (Signed) · Date: February 14, 2012 11:02 AM · On: Part One

I truly enjoyed this story & plan on reading the others in this 'verse. You managed to portray everyone in character, but also allowed believable growth that would have taken place over the years.

I feel for you and what you must have gone through with your cancer, but at the same time, applaud you for continuing to fight! I can only hope that you are truly cancer free & wish you the best of health in the future.

I do hope to see more full length stories from you & will certainly be checking back often!

Thanks for this story...more please???



Author's Response:

Thank you for your kind words. I'm doing okay, its a struggle but I live life somewhat normally :) I have some epilogue/continuation stuff that I'm working on--mostly fun stuff, nothing heavy. Thank you for reading and for writing xo

Reviewer: jm c (Signed) · Date: February 14, 2012 07:34 AM · On: Part Seven

i hope you write another chapter of this amazing story or a new story about brian and juston and what happens next



Author's Response:

I'm so glad that you enjoyed the story and I do plan on posting more soon. Thanks so much for reading and for writing. :)

Reviewer: LibertySun (Signed) · Date: February 14, 2012 06:18 AM · On: Part Seven

You are truly a gifted writer with a superb talent for manipulating the written word, really a wonderful story. You have managed to keep everyone in character and projected their emotions throughout. Such a very realistic portrayl of the subject matter. Beautifully and delicately handled. Very evident was your honest and real connection to this. I do send you my very best for your health and happiness in life in general. Thank you for writing this. *hugs* ~Mandi



Author's Response:

Wow, thank you very much! I really appreciate your comments. This was the first full fic that I ever wrote. I never had any intention of posting it, but a friend convinced me. I hope to have as many as you do up one day, (I can't write AU for the life of me--I think it's a lot harder than writing canon-based fics) the characters have really inspired me write; plus, the fact that I couldn't live if I thought that Brian and Justin didn't end up together--that modivates me as well :) Thanks again for your kind words, xo

Reviewer: Missn31 (Signed) · Date: February 14, 2012 04:49 AM · On: Part One

Wonderful writing - heart wrenching stuff and I love the relationship between Brian and Justin. I did wonder if you had personal knowledge of cancer treatments as the details seemed so accurate and now I know. Wishing you all the very best. Thanks for a great story xxxx



Author's Response:

Thank you so much for reading and for commenting. It's true, I do have a lot of medical knowledge for someone who isn't in the field :) thank you for your kind wishes and I'm so glad that you enjoyed the story. xo

Reviewer: wow (Anonymous) · Date: February 14, 2012 03:17 AM · On: Part Seven

wonderful story - i wish you all the best with your own recovery.



Author's Response:

Thank you very much for your warm wishes, and thank you for reading and for writing :)

Reviewer: 4depthoflove (Signed) · Date: February 14, 2012 02:23 AM · On: Part Seven

very nice - thanks for sharing this story!

loving life

Charle



Author's Response:

Thank you for all of your comments Charle :) Im glad that you enjoyed it!

Reviewer: kim136@dodo.com.au (Anonymous) · Date: February 14, 2012 01:58 AM · On: Part Seven

great finnish i will keep a look out 4 u     all the best  kim



Author's Response:

Thank you for all of your comments Kim, I really appreciate it. Thanks for the compliments :)

Reviewer: Marny (Signed) · Date: February 14, 2012 01:14 AM · On: Part Seven

Thanks for writing this story. It's hard for me to read, because my mom died 10 years ago from cancer and three weeks ago my stepmom died of it * sigh * .

 

Hope everything is okay with you now * big hug * keeping you in my thoughts.



Author's Response:

Oh, I'm so sorry for your loss.

I wrote this fic in the summer, just for myself with no intention of posting it anywhere, but then I thought, what the hell, maybe some people will identify with it in some way. For me, it's a life long problem that I've had since I was 20 but I try to not focus on it too much.Thank you so much for writing and thank you for reading. xo

Reviewer: Raine (Signed) · Date: February 13, 2012 04:37 AM · On: Part Five

I'm reading it for the second time :)



Author's Response:

Thanks!!! ;)

Reviewer: Ann (Anonymous) · Date: February 13, 2012 01:42 AM · On: Part Six

Nice chapter! 

 

I've also always wondered about the 'where' and 'what' of Brian's alleged tattoo... I mean it can't imagine him getting a tattoo on his dick. But it must be pretty close by considering we haven't seen it! Lol... he really is a big dork isn't he! 



Author's Response:

Thanks. I didn't mean for it to sound like it was right on his dick, more like, above it. My friends and I joke about the scene when he's in the tanning bed and he needs some serious manscaping--I imagined it to be somewhere under there, lol!

 

Reviewer: cybers (Anonymous) · Date: February 13, 2012 12:11 AM · On: Part Six

*lol* Love the tattoo and its placement. This story just keeps getting better.

Author's Response:

Thanks so much. I also picture a couple of four leaved clovers somewhere in there as well--i have given this a lot of though, lol!

Reviewer: Anon (Anonymous) · Date: February 12, 2012 04:57 PM · On: Part Six

Vintage material on brian and justin.  Look forward to the next chapter.



Author's Response:

Thanks ! Will post it soon, probably monday :)

Reviewer: kim136@dodo.com.au (Anonymous) · Date: February 12, 2012 01:16 PM · On: Part Six

i like the chapter up date soon    kim



Author's Response:

thanks kim! :)

Reviewer: feet526@aol.com (Anonymous) · Date: February 12, 2012 12:27 PM · On: Part Six

WONDERFUL chapter.....You really have the Big Man,  "Beauty", as I call him, down pat!  Can't wait for next read!  Thanks so much.......



Author's Response:

thank you and thanks for writing! :)

Reviewer: Predec2 (Signed) · Date: February 12, 2012 07:09 AM · On: Part Six

I really enjoyed this chapter!  And I can't think of a better place for a "Lucky You" tattoo then where you decided to put it - ha!  I think you did a great job in this chapter of describing Brian and Justin's thoughts.  And I always did adore the thought of Justin being the nurturing one toward Brian.:)

I will be looking forward to the rest of your story; thank you for sharing it with us.:)  *Hugs*

 

Kimberly



Author's Response:

Thank you for reading and for writing! Only one more chapter left!

Reviewer: jm c (Signed) · Date: February 12, 2012 06:36 AM · On: Part Five

i can not wait to read the next chapter of this story



Author's Response:

I posted it as you were typing that :)

Reviewer: Marny (Signed) · Date: February 11, 2012 04:28 PM · On: Part Five

Wowww ... I just read all five chapters. Sorry I didn't review on every chapter, but I couldn't stop reading. This is so beautiful written. Thanks.

 

* hugs * 



Author's Response:

Thanks so much, I appreciate the comment. I'll be updating it at some point today. :)

Reviewer: Ann (Anonymous) · Date: February 10, 2012 11:06 PM · On: Part One

This is awesome! Just found this story and read it in one go - I'm completely hooked! Looking forward to the next update! 



Author's Response:

Well I am glad that you found it and that you enjoyed it. Thanks for reading and for commenting. I'm planning on posting tomorrow. :)

Reviewer: kim136@dodo.com.au (Anonymous) · Date: February 10, 2012 08:51 AM · On: Part Five

great story update soon kim

Author's Response:

Thanks! :)

Reviewer: Windrider1967 (Signed) · Date: February 09, 2012 07:47 PM · On: Part One

Nice start, can't wait to see where you go with this

 



Author's Response:

Thanks! :)

Reviewer: Nettie (Anonymous) · Date: February 09, 2012 03:10 PM · On: Part Four

Just loving it. I have a sore finger from hitting refresh all the time. Hope you are updating soon, before the finger fals off :-). 



Author's Response:

Ha ha, I won't make you wait long. It will be early this afternoon :) Thanks for your comment!

Reviewer: feet526@aol.com (Anonymous) · Date: February 09, 2012 01:32 AM · On: Part Four

I'm staying...I'm staying~!!!!!!!!  Just hurry and send more!  LOVING THIS...Thank You



Author's Response:

I'm so very glad! thank you--will be posting today :)

Reviewer: Patya (Anonymous) · Date: February 08, 2012 08:31 PM · On: Part Four

What an emotional chapter! And finally Michael became an adult ! That´s what I could see for the future of this series! Beautifull chapter!



Author's Response:

Thanks so much! I appreciate your comment :)

Reviewer: kim136@dodo.com.au (Anonymous) · Date: February 08, 2012 12:28 PM · On: Part Four

mikeys speech to brian was right but i can see brian side to gret writing kim

Author's Response:

thanks for commenting again kim. i accidently erased your last comment and felt bad. glad you're liking the story :)

Reviewer: Anonymous (Anonymous) · Date: February 08, 2012 11:55 AM · On: Part Four

this is a really moving and well written story - can't wait to read the next chapter! thanks for writing



Author's Response:

thank you and thanks for commenting :)

Reviewer: 4depthoflove (Signed) · Date: February 08, 2012 10:53 AM · On: Part Four

I am so loving this story - there...now that he's awake and alert I can say it! ha ha

First of all, can I say that I have never been a Mikey fan - but this scene where Brian comes down a notch and becomes human like the rest of us is just outstanding. You tell it with just the right amount of compassion and love - and just the right amount of...pissed off!!!! It's kind of like the scene where he tells Brian off when Justin is staying with him and Ben, only better - much better!

waiting for more - thanks for this story

Charle



Author's Response:

Thanks so much for all of your comments. That scene was my insiration for that conversation, it's one of my favourites from the series. I wasn't a big fan of Michael--i'm still not really, but then I realized that that had more to do with Hal Spark's annoying facial expressions than the actual character itself, so I have tried to separate the two, lol. Thanks again!

Reviewer: Patya (Anonymous) · Date: February 07, 2012 09:33 PM · On: Part Three

I´m really loving this story! Waiting for more!



Author's Response:

Thanks!! You won't have to wait long, i promise :)

Reviewer: cybers (Anonymous) · Date: February 07, 2012 10:10 AM · On: Part Three

I'm really enjoying this story and I can't wait untll Brian wakes up and they have to deal with his issues. Great job on all of the chapters so far but this chapter was even better as it's one of the few times I've read a Michael/Justin interaction scene that really worked.

Author's Response:

oh thanks so much! i was a bit worried about how it would be recieved. hope you enjoy the rest of the story!

Reviewer: no sleep (Signed) · Date: February 07, 2012 08:01 AM · On: Part Three

As usual, I always forget something I wanted to say. 

This is an excellent story. My disagreements have nothing to do with how well this story is written and how much I enjoy reading it. It will definitely be placed in the favorite category in my Nook. LOL

You have brought up some excellent points in this story that I am glad that someone is addressing. I always wondered about Brian's substance abuse.

Great job so far!



Author's Response:

thanks so much for all of your comments, i love talking about stuff like this. the next chapter might throw you for a loop but everything comes together, i promise! hope you enjoy! :)

Reviewer: no sleep (Signed) · Date: February 07, 2012 07:54 AM · On: Part Three

“No, if anything I used him. He always wanted me to have really positive experiences, no matter what I did and I wanted to doeverything. I wanted to do everything with him and I did and he always made sure that I felt really safe and comfortable. That always made me think that maybe he did have some bad experiences when he was younger or something."

This and a few other statements were things I thought about from time to time.

Debbie never calling the police still doesn't sit right with me. Brian could have ended up permantly damaged or dead. The suicde attempts Michael never addressed were plausible as explained here, true, Michael was a poor friend in the aspect of being like his mother and just ignoring it.

Justin blamed himself for Brian's emotional condition but he had been flying blind. Brian never let on what he was feeling or needed to Justin. He was constantly pushing him off the cliff. I know he thought it would be easier than having Justin realize he would be better without him, but he should have been more mature and communicative.

My feeling is that Brian can only blame himself. He had a poor support system with his friends who allowed him to induge in drugs and alcohol, including Justin in that aspect. 

Reviewer: no sleep (Signed) · Date: February 07, 2012 07:32 AM · On: Part Two

"Once again, I was wrong. You know, everyone is always so worried about Brian hurting my feelings when really, I’m the one to blame for every fucked up thing that’s ever happened to us. He’s the one that always ends up hurt the most.”

 

I totally disagree with that one.



Author's Response:

I think he gets hurt more because he internalizes everything and Justin is more expressive

Reviewer: no sleep (Signed) · Date: February 07, 2012 07:15 AM · On: Part One

That was a riveting first chapter. I could not stop reading!



Author's Response:

So glad to hear that. I was a bit worried about this chapter, thanks! :)

Reviewer: Raine (Signed) · Date: February 07, 2012 01:40 AM · On: Part Three

Wonder what will Brian's first words be, after he wakes up :))



Author's Response:

something about blowjobs? j/k...you'll find out soon!

Reviewer: wordshipper (Signed) · Date: February 06, 2012 10:24 PM · On: Part Three

It's a mystery. Brian needs to wake up!



Author's Response:

Tomorrow!



Author's Response:

Tomorrow! all will be revealed...

Reviewer: bksbracelet (Signed) · Date: February 05, 2012 07:14 PM · On: Part Two

Oh gawd this is sad but I always thought that Brian bordered on depression in the series so this is looking brilliant thank you



Author's Response:

thanks so much!

Reviewer: wordshipper (Signed) · Date: February 05, 2012 08:52 AM · On: Part Two

Great story! Can't wait for more....



Author's Response:

thanks! tomorrow...:)

Reviewer: AndieL (Anonymous) · Date: February 05, 2012 06:56 AM · On: Part Two

I'm really enjoying the story - great angst, and I LOVE hurt Brian.  Thanks!



Author's Response:

Me too...stay tuned! thanks for reading and for commenting :)

Reviewer: feet526@aol.com (Anonymous) · Date: February 05, 2012 05:30 AM · On: Part Two

LOTS of chills and angst...but loving it!  Please moer soon.  thanks



Author's Response:

thank you! more soon, i promise :)

Reviewer: 4depthoflove (Signed) · Date: February 05, 2012 02:59 AM · On: Part Two

oh my goodness - this story is just mesmerizing - and disturbing - and sad - and intense - I can feel Justin's pain and emotions - really good writing - keep the chapters coming!

Charle



Author's Response:

Thank you so much! I will :)

Reviewer: jm c (Signed) · Date: February 05, 2012 02:09 AM · On: Part Two

i can not wait to read the next chapter of this story great job



Author's Response:

Thanks! I won't make you wait for long :)

Reviewer: Predec2 (Signed) · Date: February 05, 2012 02:07 AM · On: Part Two

I'm enjoying your story very much!  You especially got me with the part about their wedding rings being worn on a chain and how Justin was concerned with finding his to place it with Brian's.  Brian is such a complex person that it's quite interesting to see different aspects of his character and how his loneliness for Justin might have been manifestated itself in this way (although that's a guess at this point).

I'll be looking forward to the rest of your story!  Thanks for sharing with us.:)  *Hugs*  ~Kimberly



Author's Response:

So glad that you are enjoying it. I like to add pieces of my former stories into new ones so I can pretend that it's all part of one big plot...and that the show still exists even if its only in my head :)-

Reviewer: linda (Anonymous) · Date: February 05, 2012 01:39 AM · On: Part Two

so sad cried my eyes out.  has to get better from here.  more soon please.....



Author's Response:

Awww. sorry! More soon, I promise. And like I said, I like a happy ending...no matter how long it takes to get there :)

Reviewer: Cheryl (Anonymous) · Date: February 05, 2012 12:40 AM · On: Part Two

Ok, you 've got me hooked.  Great chapter!  Excellent writing.

When are you posting the next one.



Author's Response:

Excellent! Monday at the latest :)

Reviewer: Raine (Signed) · Date: February 04, 2012 11:42 PM · On: Part Two

That last sentence shows me this is going to be a great read :)

"Your" Justin is excatly what I imagine him to be, post season 5!



Author's Response:

What a compliment! Thank you :) I hope you like the rest.

Reviewer: kim136@dodo.com.au (Anonymous) · Date: February 04, 2012 11:41 PM · On: Part Two

great writing i love it kim

Author's Response:

thanks so much!

Reviewer: Raine (Signed) · Date: February 03, 2012 12:51 PM · On: Part One

I like it :) Very Stieg Larsson dark kind of way. I'm looking foward to your portray of Brian and his words and thoughts.

For me, it's hard to find a good story that represents Brian post-season 5 as a believable Brian, and to see the connection. Looking foward to your next chapter!



Author's Response:

Thank you! You won't have to wait long. Brian can be hard to write because he is so complex. I hope you like mine :)

Reviewer: kim136@dodo.com.au (Anonymous) · Date: February 03, 2012 11:25 AM · On: Part One

great chapter kim

Author's Response:

Thanks for saying so! :)

Reviewer: 4depthoflove (Signed) · Date: February 03, 2012 10:39 AM · On: Part One

wow - this is intense - deeper and darker than most stories here that I choose to follow, but I am intrigued at the new look into Brian's shenanigans for his birthday just before the prom that this will offer us - as well as a more involved look into how he really deals with all he has been through - and what makes him tick deep down inside where he can't hide from it

this chapter was well written and while it would be odd to say I enjoyed it given the serious nature of what is going on here, I definitely am anxiously awaiting the next chapter - I really want to know more...

 

Charle



Author's Response:

It's okay to say you enjoyed it--sadly, oh so sadly, they aren't real people so it's okay to make their misfortune our entertainment:) You have no idea how much I wish that they were real though--thank you for the great review.

Reviewer: ycorgigirl (Anonymous) · Date: February 03, 2012 10:13 AM · On: Part One

This sounds very promising.  I loved the first chapter and am already hooked. Can't wait for more. Thanks for sharing!



Author's Response:

Thanks for the encouragement :)

Reviewer: wordshipper (Signed) · Date: February 03, 2012 06:28 AM · On: Part One

Yikes Brian's a mess!



Author's Response:

Isn't he? lol

Reviewer: NATHALIE RUDE (Anonymous) · Date: February 03, 2012 06:18 AM · On: Part One

MOI AUSSI JE VOUDRAIT BIEN SAVOIR.



Author's Response:

Vous saurez bientôt

Reviewer: Galesgal (Signed) · Date: February 03, 2012 03:29 AM · On: Part One

Wow i cant wait to read more



Author's Response:

Great! Thanks :)

Reviewer: Cheryl (Anonymous) · Date: February 03, 2012 02:59 AM · On: Part One

Good introduction to this story.  Can't wait for Justin to arrive.  Patiently awaiting another chapter.



Author's Response:

You won't have to wait long! Thanks!

Reviewer: Morgan (Anonymous) · Date: February 03, 2012 02:43 AM · On: Part One

Very interesting... can't wait to read more :)



Author's Response:

Yay, thank you!

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