Midnight Whispers
QAF Brian and Justin Fanfiction
Reviews For Timeless
Reviewer: JerseyGirl (Signed) · Date: January 01, 2019 08:59 PM · On: Chapter 61

Once a year I find myself drawn back to this superbly written story! Just finished reading Timeless for a third time and it is still my all time favorite story! In my book, it’s a Masterpiece!! The emotion is still palpable, the way the characters are written is so different, even knowing the outcome doesn’t make it any less enjoyable. What some readers may have missed is that this is a Brian story as seen through the eyes of the writer, it was her story to write and tell. Justin and the others were passengers on her story train, and after taking time to read most comments, to some degree I feel the criticism is why a sequel was never written. Sure we all need to have thick skin at times during our life but when you take time to put your heart into something, I’m sure it can be discouraging. I do think it’s ok to voice opinions but if the story isn’t your cuppa,  then don’t read. I apply that rule to each and every story I read, and I’ve read hundreds! Candy

Reviewer: coleamber (Signed) · Date: August 16, 2018 09:21 PM · On: Chapter 52

Kill mel now and Ted

Reviewer: coleamber (Signed) · Date: August 16, 2018 07:48 PM · On: Chapter 50

still routing for Chris

Reviewer: coleamber (Signed) · Date: August 16, 2018 05:46 PM · On: Chapter 47

Good for you EM


I hope Brian does not have to suffer blindless too 

Reviewer: coleamber (Signed) · Date: August 16, 2018 03:12 PM · On: Chapter 45

Gus is such a spoiled brat

Reviewer: coleamber (Signed) · Date: August 15, 2018 09:22 PM · On: Chapter 36

Cyntia is great

Reviewer: coleamber (Signed) · Date: August 15, 2018 04:10 PM · On: Chapter 34

poor Chris, he would been better for him

Reviewer: coleamber (Signed) · Date: August 14, 2018 08:05 PM · On: Chapter 19

I do not feel sorry for Justin, the selfish little Brick

Reviewer: Sita (Signed) · Date: July 11, 2018 11:05 PM · On: Chapter 34

I can't correct my grammar on the original review, but what I meant was "how far down the hole Ted has gone."


LOL! That is all. 

Reviewer: Sita (Signed) · Date: July 11, 2018 11:02 PM · On: Chapter 34

Omg, only took 34 chapters to get to what I was waiting for! This story has been absolutely brilliant so far. Despite the times when I wanted to crawl out of my skin because I wanted to know what would happen with Brian or Justin, you have developed a beautiful world of multidimensional characters that make this story so much more exciting and so much harder to put down. I am so far in love with this story, and so excited to see what comes next! This has to be one of the best - if not THE best - fanfics I've read as of yet! (And QaF isn't my only fandom!)

My favorite part of this chapter was undoubtebly this one,  Brian pulled away then, and Justin almost gasped when he spotted the twinkle rising in eyes previously filled only with clouds of dread and doubt, and he was immediately glad that he was already on his knees as he was certain that his legs would not have supported him before the sheer power of the joy that tore through him. "You do realize that's the most ridiculously romantic thing that anybody has ever said," Brian observed with a patent-worthy Kinney smirk.

Justin smiled and collapsed into arms that were suddenly there to catch him. That would, he hoped, always be there to catch him.


That was definitely the moment that I had been waiting for. It made me swoon (and maybe do a happy dance!)


One more thing, I am so sad with the direction of Ted and Melanie in this story. I can see how those two characters could end up going that way though. I just ache for how far down the whole Ted is gone. And I was so sad when he relapsed by drinking alcohol. I just hope he can eventually see and somehow try to amend what he has done wrong.


Can't wait to see what comes next!

Reviewer: JerseyGirl (Signed) · Date: January 30, 2018 10:09 PM · On: Chapter 1

I have just finished reading Timeless for a second time, if there was any doubt before there isn’t now, it is my all-time favorite QAF story!! I found it so compelling that after reading it for the first time a few months ago, I was drawn right back in, a true testament to the depth of the writing skills of the author! Cynical stayed true to the original characters, give great insight into who Brian was beneath all of the layers of “what you see,” showed the vulnerability of Justin being so young and how his lack of life experiences colored how he saw things and how he reacted, introduced us to many new characters to love. The use of vivid descriptions to set a scene was pure creative genius, it was like being taken on a visual vacation and dropped right into the setting!! The way a mood, a feeling, love, anger was infused in the eyes of the character left no doubt as to what they were conveying! The author also has the ability, in the middle of angst laden chaos, to deliver one line zingers that took me from crying buckets to literally laughing out loud  “You must be so proud…you fucked a Boy Scout.”  

Oh, I want to retract my original statement that I wouldn’t want a sequel, who am I kidding…I would love one! I have since eaten crow (and humble pie) and would love nothing more then for this amazing adventure to continue. There are so many chapters that could be written; How our boys adjust to their lives together after all they have been through, does the house become a palace or a prison, how does the extended family deal with the new Brian, do they go back to their old ways of how they treated him, does Brian step back into being CEO at Kinnetik, what happens to Linz/Sharon, Hillard/Keller, Cynthia/Mathis, do they find happiness together, what happens to dear “sweet” Melanie, always want more Gus, would love a little(ok a lot) of McClaren/Liam hot togetherness, does McFed come back to try and stake a claim to Brian(without success)if so how would our little pitbull Justin handle it. I can only imagine!!

I know a lot of time, energy & research goes into writing an epic story like this, so if the itch ever strikes you to write a sequel, I hope you scratch it! I will forever be a faithful fan and reader!! Candy

Reviewer: Juditka (Signed) · Date: January 27, 2018 04:28 PM · On: Chapter 61

<br />Beautiful story. I was happy when I was reading the epilogue. Brian recovered and returned to Justin. It could not have been to write a finer ending. Thank you very much.<br />

Reviewer: seo plugin (Anonymous) · Date: May 20, 2017 04:19 AM · On: Chapter 46

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Reviewer: Jay (Anonymous) · Date: April 17, 2017 10:24 PM · On: Chapter 61

OMG!!  I cant read this, sorry. I had to stop reading, not liking this at all. A friend told me their opinions on it and I should of listened. I started reading this and have to say that Brian would never treat Justin in the way he is in this story. Justin has told him that he loves him and wants him back and Brian is not only being so cruel to Justin but at the same time he is is having a relationship with someone else. And actually falling in love with this other arrogant jerk. Brian would never Do that. Brian would never be so cruel to Justin and hide behind the feeble excuse that he is protecting Justin and carry on with someone else.  He would never dismiss him in the way that he did in this story. He is being so selfish. His character would  never do that. And the Arrogant Jerk would probably never be his type anyway. 

In this story it's actually Brian's fault as well as Justin’s'a that they didn't make it work when he went to NY but in the story all the blame is put on Justin. Brian ignored him among other things. It was both their fault but you put Justin through the ringer and put all blame on him.

To make Justin have to Beg? In this story Justin is made to be so wrong about all things and Brian to be right. Someone must be looking at Brian through rose colored glasses because in the show they both were wrong at times and right at times and that is not reflected here. Only Justin being wrong is reflected in here. 

Justin shouldn't have to Beg Brian just like I would never want Brian to Beg Justin. Brian protects the people he loves but he never uses it as an excuse and would never go as far as he did here with his plan. Sure he would protect Justin but not pushing him away or be cruel to him with his made up stories and not getting in another relationship. Brian could always be selfish to some extent but here it was extreme.

Sorry I ever gave this a try. I disagree with all your views in this story and how you perceive are boys. After all that I said, however,  I do think that you are a good writer though. I didn't mean to show disrespect but I just wanted to tell you how I felt about how they are being portrayed. Reviews can be positive or negative because they are people's views after all.

Reviewer: Flo3241 (Signed) · Date: April 07, 2017 01:29 AM · On: Chapter 61

While this was a beautifully written fan fiction...and one of my best read on here......I wish I hadn't started it. 

I wrote a massive paragraph about why I wish I hadn't started it. But, I have decided not to post it cause I hate leaving criticism on fanfics. I personally don't think they are nice since writers put so much work on posting stories...I know I can't write to save my life so I don't deserve to be critiquing someone else's work ....but I gotta say one of your readers Cheburashska2 hit the nail right on the head with her comment on chapter 60. Literally how I felt.

Anyways saying all this I probably would read the sequel if you decide to write it. Cause while I dislike some parts of the story I can't deny you are a brilliant writer. 

The story was an emotional rollercoaster and it's probably pointless leaving a comment now since this was completed years ago. But in case you do see I want to say thank you for completing it. 

Reviewer: vic32 (Signed) · Date: April 04, 2017 09:57 PM · On: Chapter 20

Can you please kill off Mel my god I hate her so much. 


Brian please stop pretending, plz you are breaking my heart in to bits.


get back to Justin.


you see really evoking emotions in my I'm in bits crying xx

Reviewer: vic32 (Signed) · Date: April 04, 2017 09:25 PM · On: Chapter 19

My heart is broken.

Reviewer: vic32 (Signed) · Date: April 04, 2017 05:00 PM · On: Chapter 18

Bloody heck Brian wtf are you doing telling Justin that when you know it's not true. You need him now more then every. Please let them be ok, my heart couldn't take it.

Reviewer: vic32 (Signed) · Date: April 04, 2017 03:31 PM · On: Chapter 17

Go Cynthia, she is one kick ass girl, I've always liked her and thank god Brian has her. Oh boy I wanted to smack the others, get Justin by his side ASAP plzzz 

Reviewer: vic32 (Signed) · Date: April 04, 2017 12:05 PM · On: Chapter 16

Gosh the depth of emotion is almost overwhelming here and Justin isn't going to give up on and neither is Emmett. The others need to take a step back and look at their ways and actions, words and see the real Brian Kinney in order to help him heal both in body and soul.


so moving x

Reviewer: vic32 (Signed) · Date: April 04, 2017 10:46 AM · On: Chapter 15

Thank god for Matt snd his skills, Brian is so lucky that he is the one to care of his medical needs. I knew Justin the whirlwind would sweep in like an unstoppable force and with him by Brian's side the healing will be even stronger. I hope Brian doesn't push him away.

Reviewer: vic32 (Signed) · Date: April 04, 2017 09:42 AM · On: Chapter 14

Justin is far more stringer then people think and if anyone can succeed in getting to Brian to Brian's real truth real heart it's him. Brian needs him now nore then ever and got love anyone who stands in his way.

Reviewer: vic32 (Signed) · Date: April 03, 2017 09:56 PM · On: Chapter 13

I like Matt and I think he is just who they all need right now not just Brisn. I can understand why Michael is a little hurt, Brian told this guy more then him but yes it was to protect him. 


Ooooh boy watch out gang a pissed off Justin is a force to be rekoned with. Please let everything be ok.


Fantastic chapter yet again xxx

Reviewer: vic32 (Signed) · Date: April 03, 2017 09:34 AM · On: Chapter 12

I pray that Brian's friends stop bitching and open their eyes to the reality that a Brian is still that broken little boy and see that he needs be looked a after as much as he looks after them. My heart was aching reading this and I think Matt will do everything in his power to help heal all. 


Fantastic work x

Reviewer: vic32 (Signed) · Date: April 02, 2017 09:38 PM · On: Chapter 11

Hold on Brian plz you have a lot to live for, don't let this evil twits win. I'm sure Matt will help or get linched by a mob of scary friends. I wanna slap Mel, thank god I can't jump into a story because I'd have ripped her a new one.


seriouly amazing. I'm off to sleep so fingers I can review more tom xxx

Reviewer: vic32 (Signed) · Date: April 02, 2017 09:06 PM · On: Chapter 10

Omg omg omg omg omg omg, nooooooooooo, noooo, crying massive tears and gasping for breath as I read this. Poor Brian, no one deserves this no one. I can't even begin to imagine the pain, the fear and not for himself. Even at that moment his only concern was for Justin. That shows the death of love he has for him. Please get them back together soon please.


wow fantastic work, serious outstanding xx

Reviewer: vic32 (Signed) · Date: April 02, 2017 09:02 PM · On: Chapter 9

Brian listen to them and use the extra security please. You really are stubborn when it comes to you needing help, you matter as well you know. Let people help you.

Reviewer: vic32 (Signed) · Date: April 02, 2017 08:59 PM · On: Chapter 8

I wanna slap some of them at times. Do they even think before speaking. Debbie should know, better they all should. 


You our seriouly doing a fantastic job, seriouly be very proud x

Reviewer: vic32 (Signed) · Date: April 02, 2017 08:57 PM · On: Chapter 7

My lord, I could feel Brian's panic, his fear and the flashbacks to that other night that's imprinted on his mind and the pain forever imprinted on his heart. Emmet is stronger then people think and he will get Brian though this even though he was the one attacked. 

Reviewer: vic32 (Signed) · Date: April 02, 2017 08:55 PM · On: Chapter 6

I'm glad Brian has those guys back in the Pitts and yet I feel dread coming and even before I read this for the first time you cauldron feel it, yet again I'm so gripped in this incredible story.

Reviewer: vic32 (Signed) · Date: April 02, 2017 08:53 PM · On: Chapter 5

Justin's art is a powerful thing and the fact Brian is central to that is no surprise. I'm weeping reading this, you have such a passion in your words you should be very proud.

Reviewer: vic32 (Signed) · Date: April 02, 2017 08:52 PM · On: Chapter 4

I can feel Justin's feelings so strong and my heart is breaking. Both our guys are suffering and there is no need is there.


you moved me again. 

Reviewer: vic32 (Signed) · Date: April 02, 2017 08:50 PM · On: Chapter 3

Brian, why are you putting yourself through this, you should know all you have to do is go see him, balance out both your worlds. Your happiness counts to sweetheart.

Reviewer: vic32 (Signed) · Date: April 02, 2017 08:49 PM · On: Chapter 2

They need to open their eyes and see the Brian of today don't they. The only one who knows him and truly loves him is Justin. Yet again you moved me, you'll hear that a lot in my reviews. I have read this lots of times. 

Reviewer: vic32 (Signed) · Date: April 02, 2017 08:47 PM · On: Chapter 1

Gosh I have read this so many time and every time my heart is gripped. You sure can move us with your words. Crying here.


such a fantastic start.

Reviewer: Flo3241 (Signed) · Date: March 11, 2017 10:47 PM · On: Chapter 10

I have just read previous comments about this chapter...geez readers were so bloody rude......I'm so glad it didn't stop you from posting more cause this is a brilliant story. 

Reviewer: Flo3241 (Signed) · Date: March 11, 2017 10:36 PM · On: Chapter 10

Oh my goodness...Bloody hell!...That was so heartbroken. I actually took a few hours break cause I couldn't keep on reading it. But then I came back to complete the chapter.

I'm actually shaking. Like physically shaking.....That was so draining. It was aweful to read but I guess that was what you were going for. Shows how good a writer you are. 


PS: I normally finish a completed story before leaving a comment and I know you wrote this years ago so you'er probably not gonna see this. But I couldn't not leave a comment after reading this chapter. 

Just Brilliant. 

Reviewer: Galesgal (Signed) · Date: September 09, 2016 08:12 PM · On: Chapter 17

i love cynthia and brian.    i think i wanna make them siblings in a story or have a kid.   There was just sinething there that no one discused.

Reviewer: Galesgal (Signed) · Date: September 09, 2016 07:35 PM · On: Chapter 14

OMG THIS STORY IS BEAUTIFUL!!!!!!   I wanted to comment on every chapter but i think i'll start my commenting now.   just wow.

Reviewer: Galesgal (Signed) · Date: July 02, 2016 04:26 PM · On: Chapter 2

Poor Brian

Reviewer: Galesgal (Signed) · Date: May 02, 2016 06:43 AM · On: Chapter 1

oh no i know something bad is going to happen to him.   i'm excited i prefer bad things happening to brian and not justin.

Reviewer: misseshermionemalfoy (Signed) · Date: October 24, 2015 05:13 AM · On: Chapter 10

oh-my-lord this is horrible I'm gonna have nightmares :(

Reviewer: misseshermionemalfoy (Signed) · Date: October 24, 2015 04:25 AM · On: Chapter 9

I've had a lot of thoughts about this story so far. I mean a lot. At some points I thought you were mixing oil and vinegar by making Brian pine for Justin. At some points I was frustrated that you didn't know Jim Beam is bourbon not whiskey. At at others I was concerned that characters were being used to voice your personal headcanons and thoughts and ideas about relationships. 

Then I read this fucking amazing- beautiful- out of this word monologue and I think all my criticism of your style was pretty much stopped. When Brian talks about clipping Justin's wings and keeping him dirtbound I thought I was sitting next to THE Brian Kinney. It was perfect. 

Reviewer: Kayleigh (Anonymous) · Date: May 31, 2015 11:02 AM · On: Chapter 60

You're a good writer but I wholeheartedly disagree with your characterization of Brian. I'm sorry but there's just no way that I could buy his "relationship" with the fed. When did he fuck anyone more than once or kissed a guy on the mouth after he and Justin set the rules. And fall a bit "in love" with the dude? lol it's just too OOC.

Reviewer: nickknack (Signed) · Date: May 09, 2015 04:52 AM · On: Chapter 61

This was as good, if not better, than any novel I have ever read. The devoplment of all our favorite QaF characters was really well done and made for compelling reading.  I am so going to miss my daily fix and can see myself returning again and again to re-indulge. I loved this and will always keep my eyes open hoping for more from you, even if it is not a sequel to this wonderful story. My thanks for helping me through, and making bearable, an enforced period of rehabilitation and recovery.

Reviewer: toniu (Signed) · Date: January 16, 2015 04:13 AM · On: Chapter 61

I read your story when I first started reading QAF fanfiction. I loved it then. So after hitting a lul in good stories I went back to read yours again.

I still like the story. It is movie quality writing. The intrigue and suspense is great. The characterization was also pretty spot on.

The one thing I had a hard time getting through was this thought that Brian pushed Justin to go to New York. Or the assumption that Brian wouldn't try to keep the relationship going. Brian tried to give Justin what he wanted. The whole marriage proposal was probably too much. But he professes his love. Justin decided to go to New York.

Now correct me if I'm wrong, at the beginning of the show didn't Justin say he wanted to be a graphic artist or animation. Why did suddenly this artist become the big deal? Also not all painters come from New York.

As for McClaren I believe he loved Brian. But even his love was flawed. I feel his love was based not on Brian the man, but on Brian the man with all his bravado was still a man that needed taking care of.

To be honest in the end only Justin really knew Brian or had his love. I'm not the biggest Justin fan, though I am a big Brian and Justin fan.



Reviewer: Fi b (Anonymous) · Date: October 29, 2014 06:31 PM · On: Chapter 61

Thank you for sharing your gift and thank you for the different perspective on Brian and Justin's personalities. I loved McFed and I think he would indeed make an excellent match for Brian. But as inreal life, the heart wants what it wants, in spite of and sometimes even because of apparent flaws. Brian loves Justin, in spite of his immaturity.  That's just the way it is.

Reviewer: Jess (Anonymous) · Date: October 08, 2014 06:16 PM · On: Chapter 1

This is such an amazing story !! The best one I've ever read ! 

You sais something about a spin-off and also about a sequel... you're not planning to go on with this story and these characters right ? It would be so great.

Thank you for this story ! 


Reviewer: Mwierman (Anonymous) · Date: June 18, 2014 03:55 PM · On: Chapter 61

Wonderfully written!  I'm glad you chose to finish this story. This is your creation and your story arch. Can you imagine if every piece of published literature was open to the type of critique that fanfiction is? No author would ever have the courage to publish! Thank you for giving these characters a chance to live again through your words. 

Reviewer: Lindsay22la (Anonymous) · Date: May 04, 2014 02:06 AM · On: Chapter 61

Just saw this mentioned on GIH and literally sighed "Ahhh... Timeless".  I just had to drop by here and tell you again how very much I loved this story.  Your original characters are amazing.  Just amazing.  Loved the storyline.  Aw shucks... I just loved it all!  THANK YOU for this lovely story.

Reviewer: ToniU (Anonymous) · Date: April 15, 2014 02:39 AM · On: Chapter 1

I am enjoying this story. I am new to the  Queer as Folk fanfiction. I'm not even sure you even read the reviews for this story. Still I feel compelled to review. I love Brian Kinney, it angers me that he is always the asshole and Justin is the poor saint. You are the first that has put Brian in a positive role. Except now it just feels too much. How much does poor Brian and Justin have to go through. I begin to feel there is a resolution on the way instead you add another obstacle. Not sure I like Chris McClaren, he's like a vulture trying to gather whatever crumbs Justin leaves.  Still it is a compelling story.

Reviewer: Lucia (Anonymous) · Date: March 01, 2014 07:11 PM · On: Chapter 61

First of all ,I'd like to thank you for this wonderful story. I really dont know how many times ive read it ( i lost count already).It is undoubtedly the best B/J story ive ever read and i have to admit ive spent years reading whatever i happen to stumble across. This is the first time i submit a review  and i decided to do so cause this is all so the first time a story makes me wonder whether Brian and Justin truly belong together. After having read this story and, to my surprise, i feel that McLaren is the one who would be able to make him permanently happy due to the fact that your OMC really gets Brian cause he fell head over heels in love with the ¨imperfect¨Brian with the vulnerable man and Brian opened up for him and for once allow someone to protect him.

Id love to hear about Chris and find out what happened to him.Id be awesome if you could give us a brian/Chris story...

Thanks once more xoxo

Reviewer: A. Legget (Anonymous) · Date: July 31, 2013 12:08 AM · On: Chapter 61

This is wrong, and far from mandatories, I 

 1. Brian fucked the same guy over and over again?

 2. Brian never kissed on lips except for Justin and Mikey, you should al least respect this policy

3. Your adoration for Brian is somehow out from the line, so Brian has more than one lover (other than Justin) and why did you call all of them 'the lovers' of Brian, they didn't hold significant romantic bullshit unlike Brian and Justin do.


anyway this is yours, so as a reader, my suggestion is, you should have warned the readers on your description that you like to put Brian/Chris pairing to overshadow B/J. I regret reading this honestly. 

Reviewer: Anonymous (Anonymous) · Date: April 15, 2013 04:42 AM · On: Chapter 61

Just reread the entire saga. I read it the first time with my B/J eyes and the ending could not have been more perfectly romantic. However, in lieu of some of the comments, which I found somewhat offensively "wrong" at first, I read it again with more objective eyes and found much to my suprises that some of the more untraditional viewpoints on B/J have some merit.

McClaren walking away could be seen as tragic, perhaps Brian's and Chris' fated relationship in another time and place would be a better match.

If you ever decide to write again and pursue that particular thread in the future, I would not be adverse to reading it.

Reviewer: judi (Anonymous) · Date: December 28, 2012 11:41 AM · On: Chapter 29


Reading again! 
Poor pathetic me!  I can't seem to find something I like as well and would rather reread than read what seems to be dominating the site just now.  ( I'd forgotten how strident you made Debbie in this story.)  Also how early in the story you showed your hand in how it would end! 


Reviewer: Nidrayoga (Anonymous) · Date: December 18, 2012 06:17 AM · On: Chapter 61

Dear Cyn, THank you thank you so much. I love your writing,love your take on Brian and Justin. I really enjoyed the ride.


Wishing you all the best for 2013 , hope that you stay health and happy,

Catherine xxxxx

Reviewer: Anonymous (Anonymous) · Date: December 02, 2012 11:34 AM · On: Chapter 1

You are definitely an awesome, talented storyteller!!! No taking that away from you in the least...that being said, did we even watch the same series???

I love Brian as much as the next straight girl, but, infallible super-hero, he ain't! I know each & every character on the show let Brian down on more than one occasion; however, as much as he did for each and every one of them, he was also a total bitch to them at times, regardless of his reasons or his home life (which although was alluded to as being bad on the show, I never took it to be as horrific as a lot of writers in this fandom make it out to be) & he deserved some of the repercussions of his actions. I’m sure neither you nor I would put up with a lot of his shit in real life without the omniscient point of view we were afforded as the viewer.  And when did Lindsay become a saint, really? Or Melanie, such an unmitigated cunt? Sorry, but the characterization was just totally over the top & skewed if this was supposed to be canon & not AU.

Like I said, you are a brilliant storyteller & I totally support/respect any writer’s wish to tell their stories in the way they see fit. I certainly don’t have the talent to write shit, but I am an avid reader & I also think we have a right to voice our opinions when the opportunity is given & even requested by the author, thus the purpose of the comment section on MW. I am not out to slam any writer’s efforts & I totally give praise where it’s due! You could definitely write on a professional level…no doubt about it!

I would love to read something else by you in the QAF fandom, but, gotta tell ya...the Brian worship was a little much, even for me (and I certainly wouldn't kick him out of bed *snicker*)

Reviewer: feet526@aol.com (Anonymous) · Date: November 30, 2012 11:16 AM · On: Chapter 61

I am one of the OBCESSED QAF fan fic readers...from the beginning of time!!! I can not begin to thank you enough for this most beautiful story. I watched daily for updates and only hoped it would NEVER end! I cried and sobbed and thank you for sharing your brillant talent. I LOOK FORWARD TO MORE OF YOUR TALENT!!!! Thank you again, so much. L.

Reviewer: Anonymous (Anonymous) · Date: November 30, 2012 12:34 AM · On: Chapter 61

Finally found the ending - and what an ending, the ending I had thought I wanted but yet it was bittersweet.

"He alone had known better; he . . . and one other.

He closed his eyes for a moment, and allowed himself a scrap of memory - a scrap he seldom examined at all."

Somehow you have taken an orginal character and made me think that perhaps B/J is not destined forever and that maybe that Brian/ Chris would be the ending that would provide Brian with the longterm happiness and security that he desparetely needs and deserves.

"Brian spent another moment studying the artwork; then he looked down and spent an equal amount of time studying the artist.

"I see a deep, bottomless love - a love that should last forever."


Brian shrugged. "That depends, doesn't it?"

Justin is older, wiser and more attuned to Brian's way of thinking, as Brian has always understood Justin's (he might not have explained or communicated that understanding but it was there in his actions) but the rest of the encounter also shows that he is still a 'dreamy-eyed school boy" who wants, believes in, the notion of romantic love than can conquer all and still has that "what is good for Justin is good for Brian" selfish streak. Once the honeymoon period is over, I wonder if these two strong but opposite men can truly be the all for each other. That they'll always hold a place in each other's heart is not the question, but sometimes love is not enough and I think Justin would never believe that.

"The FBI agent had knelt then - barely long enough to drop one last kiss on lips swollen from the passionate force of their encounter - before standing up and walking away" This is something Brian Kinney would do and much to my suprise McClaren walking away is a very bittersweet notion because in spite of myself, the way you have written the story makes me believe a Brian/McClaren pairing just might be Brian's best chance of true happiness and those are words I never thought I'd write.

You've written an excellent book-length work. Full of complex plots as well as characters, and did not take the prevailing QaF fandom view of B/J but made it uniquely your own and the story was so much better for it.

Thank you for the tremendous effort and the persistance to stick with it in the face of health issues and angry fans. This is one fan who is very glad you did. Good Luck with all you future plans.

Reviewer: judi (Anonymous) · Date: November 24, 2012 09:02 AM · On: Chapter 61

Hi,  I have read and reread and reread this story.  I didn't know that you had been ill and at one time was concerned that you were not going to finish it.  I think this is one of the best B/J stories ever written (and I've read a huge amount) and I think your characterization of Brian is the strongest and my favorite representation of what I fantasize him to be like.  I also love the character of Cynthia, who really hasn't been as fully developed elsewhere, with an incredible a backstory.  I personally would have preferred Justin more understandable as Brian's real partner as he came off a bit weak for someone that Brian adored and respected but maybe that's just because your Brian character and some of your original characters were so strong and more fleshed out.  But I totally understood the choices you made at the end and your analysis of the situation was absolutely brilliant.  I feel blessed to have had this experience with you and I really hope you will write more in this fanfic, even if you start from a completely different premise (although I can't imagine a more creative or finely crafted story.

So thank you for your efforts and for the gift you gave us by sticking with this and using your amazing imagination and intelligence to inspire something so original and creative.


With love, Judi

Reviewer: ar (Anonymous) · Date: November 22, 2012 10:57 PM · On: Chapter 61

It is a wonderful novel.

I think you must publish it, you are a great writer.

Congratulation and thank you.

Reviewer: Patya (Anonymous) · Date: November 21, 2012 05:36 PM · On: Chapter 61

Sorry, I don´t think Brian has change at all  or grown emotional. This talk you free to go, means to me he can´t really commitment. And why he still sleep with other guys and thisnks it´s fine? The fact the he can sacrifice his life for those he love was never a doubt, but why he can´t trust or commit? Maybe in a sequel...

Reviewer: ANDROMEDA (Anonymous) · Date: November 20, 2012 11:06 AM · On: Chapter 61

Dear Writer,

There is no doubt that you are a really talented writer and that I really enjoyed reading you. You pay attention to details and you take the time to really analyze your character’s feelings etc. Thank you also for finishing your story, despite life and everything you did it and that’s great.

Reading your story I couldn’t help thinking you had a goal, to give Brian, for you is rightful role and capture his essence: a hero. As any hero he had enemies, he went trough horrific situations, he was beaten, shot etc. But he was still standing, brave despite all the traumas. As any hero, he was hated by some people, but also admired, loved and hero-worshiped. He was even the hero of his own relationship, being noble, protecting Justin by pushing him away, making sure he learnt a lesson etc.

He reminded me of the Greek heroes who sometimes become gods. At some point I thought he had a God complex, because he was all the time the one deciding, what, where, when and how things should go between him and Justin. Frustrating!!!!!!! I know he was being noble and sacrificing himself etc. 

But making the man he slept/sleep with, to tell Justin about his illness, not hero like, such a shitty thing to do…..LOL.

As any hero, he was so sure of himself, I would have loved for a character to shaken his positions LOL.

As for B/J relationship, you really managed to show us their turmoil, pain and the love for each other. However because Brian is such the centre of this universe and your admiration for this character is so obvious, his presence was sometimes for me overwhelming. I felt like he overshadowed Justin and even their relationship. Sometimes next to Brian Kinney (the sun), Justin was a pale sunshine instead of a meteorite.

I didn’t know I would say it one day but yes too much Brian LOL. But who could blame you?

But as a Hymn, a declaration of love for the character Brian Kinney, which I think your story is. It’s a f…. masterpiece!!!!!!

Take care and my goal was not to be rude, mean or make you feel bad, so if that’s the case I do apologize.

Sorry also for any mistakes, English is not my first language. 


Reviewer: Suse (Anonymous) · Date: November 20, 2012 10:24 AM · On: Chapter 61

I can't imagine why anyone would be in an uproar over that beautiful ending. I will admit when I read your Chapter Notes I was a little nervous. I told myself you had never let me down yet and however it went it would be true to your story. I so look forward to any new endeavor you might make into the world of Brian and Justin. While Brian and McLaren are hot my heart goes to Brian and Justin.

Take care of yourself, and enjoy your retirement when it comes. I took that step ten years ago and was happy to do so. I am back working again and I love it for the new opportunities and new people it has brought into my life.

Reviewer: Pam (Anonymous) · Date: November 19, 2012 11:39 PM · On: Chapter 61

Thank you for this story, in all it's angst-ridden glory. My allegiance lies first, and probably always with Brian. I'm not sure if the character was truly written as  maddeningly multidimensional or if Gale Harold's protrayl, which I suspect added significantly to egnima that is Brian Kinney, but whatever, the character has captured my fantasy heart. I'm glad that Justin finally started to clue in to the "real Brian' and his unique outlook on life. You have done a fine job at capturing the essense of B/J and for that matter of the other cannon characters as well. The original characters were also well drawn and came to life.

I'm also wondering how much Brian's fundemental belief in his unworthiness of true happiness and even though he espouses the concept of Free Will- so many of his actions speak to his sense of obligation, protectiveness and the drive to do what is right regardless of his own feelings (if they're acknowledged at all) - had to do with the Brian/McClaren relationship ending as it did. To me McClaren "got" Brian, and was his real chance at long term happiness. I know that is not a popular opinion but it is what I got out of the story. Justin changed but not truly enough to be lasting as I think his core personality is set, not in a bad way just not right for Brian no matter how many times he and others assert to the contrary; he's a character that has many good traits but not the right combination to mesh. I want to hope that once you've rejunvinated your creativity, maybe played in another fandom, you will come back and write the story of love that should have been.

Reviewer: Lyn (Anonymous) · Date: November 19, 2012 07:09 AM · On: Chapter 1

Hi sorry that my last review is just about unreadable, I typed it out on my tablet and I should know by now its not a good thing to do.. 

I tried to say that this story was one of the first I discovered on Midnight Whispers and it kept me coming back, I loved it. I think your ending so such an epic tale hit all of the right notes, and I have to say that I have enjoyed many many months of pleasure reading it.  

Please dont let the negitive comments some have left you deter you from writing.  I love your story telling like I said it kept me coming back, I wonder how many others will say the same.

I feel happy now that your story has concluded, but sad that this was the final chapter in a great adventure.  

Thank you for keeping on going even though at times real life got in the way etc.


Reviewer: zsadistwhore (Signed) · Date: November 19, 2012 05:30 AM · On: Chapter 9

I was listening to As I Am (from The Big Gay Musical) as I was reading Emmett's conversation with Brian, completely by accident, but it was the most perfect coincidence and combination.

As much as I love quick happy ending fics (you know, where after like a month of being apart, one decides they can't live without the other and move to whether they are to be together forever), I love yours (from what I've read so far) because it's more true to how I believe Brian and Justin would actually act. (But I do have to admit to skipping right to the end, just to see, before starting to read properly.)

Reviewer: nm131 (Anonymous) · Date: November 19, 2012 04:53 AM · On: Chapter 61

Thank you for the roller coaster ride of this angst-ridden, romantic story.I though the ending stayed true to the story and beautifully written.

Now I am hoping for a Brian/McClaren story because you made my heart ache for that pairing and I have come to care about them as well. It is a beauty of fanfiction that one can write many different stories and interpetations of the characters, there is no one right way to see things, only those true to the author's vision. 

Thank you again for perservering until the end.

Reviewer: Erdmut (Anonymous) · Date: November 19, 2012 04:44 AM · On: Chapter 61

This is perfect. Given your warning, I was very nervous about the epilogue, but honestly can't understand what readers might have been angry about. It fits perfectly with the rest  of the (one of the best ever QAF) story.

congratulations! I really hope you'll continue writing for this fando

Reviewer: cynical21 (Signed) · Date: November 19, 2012 01:42 AM · On: Chapter 61

Wow!  I'm tempted to just leave it at that - and if anyone believes that I could manage to restrain myself to a single word, well, they don't know me very well, do they?

First of all, let me say that I would like to respond to each and every comment left here, but time runs short.  Hopefully, I will get the chance to do that later.  In a couple of months, I expect to be officially, finally retired, so I should have time then to catch up with all the things I should have done before.  Until then, please accept this as my abject apology for the lack of individual responses, and my most heartfelt thank you for all of you who have spoken up to speak on my behalf.

And, before I go any further, let me thank the wonderful Robert - one of our dedicated admins - for taking the time and trouble to post the photograph I sent him, which displays my idea of what 'Chateau Justin" looks like.  And, before anyone can point it out - as someone surely will - the palm trees shown around the pool ARE something of an anachronism; Idon't think palm trees grow in rural Pennsylvania.  But the house and its surroundings, those are exactly as I pictured it in my mind, and when I came across the photo on an architectural site on the Web, I simply could not resist.  I hope it will serve to clarify the setting for all of you.

Now - on the elephant in the corner.  Please understand that I do not - ever - want to discourage anyone from critiquing my writing.  If you want to post that I'm far too fond of the sound of my own voice (figuratively) and should learn to avoid using ten words when one will do, I will thank you politely and know that you're undoubtedly right.  If you want to tell me that my grammar sucks or my sentence structure is abysmal, you are perfectly within your rights to think so - and to say so.  If you find fault with my obsession with detail, or my excessive fascination for those incredibly beautiful faces, feel free to point it out.  I will say thanks for reading and for taking the time to comment.  I may even agree with you, though I might not admit it.

There is, however, one thing that I am not prepared to tolerate.  Nobody - and that is an absolute - NOBODY has the right to dictate what I can write.  That is the one area where I will stand up and defend myself against all comers.  For you, Lovely readers, you have your own set of options, but they all boil down to one choice in the end: to read or not to read.

Assuming that you have, by this time, learned my feelings on these two incredible characters, I would recommend that, if you disapprove, you look elsewhere for fan-fic entertainment, because THIS is the true bottom line.  I may yet decide to write a sequel, or even a completely different story involving these beloved characters, but I will NEVER change my interpretation of who they are and how they might confront the traumas of life.

For all of you who have expressed encouragement and interest in a sequel,  am tremendously honored by your comments and your caring.  I think I need to take a little break for now; the creative juices may need a bit of rejuvenation, and I do have a couple of other stories hanging that need attention.  One is in the "Brothers & Sisters" genre, and I will probably visit that next.

But there is one huge factor in deciding whether or not I should write more QaF:  I have fallen in love with many fictional characters over the course of my ridiculously long life - dating all the way back to my fascination with the original James T. Kirk.  After that, there was Han Solo, and then Ewan McGregor's Obi-Wan Kenobi.  And then - oh, my God - the fabulous Jack and Ennis of "Brokeback Mountain".  But I have never, never loved any of those characters more than I love our beautiful Brian and Justin, so it's probably safe to say I will be unable to resist the urge to return to their universe sooner or later.

All of you make that possibility much, much more tempting.


Reviewer: Ondina (oz_ondi) (Anonymous) · Date: November 18, 2012 03:49 PM · On: Chapter 61

Thank you so much for this epic story of Brian and Justin. I have saved my comment for the very last, and believe me Cyn you didn't disappoint me one bit. What a wonderful epilog. I am vey much in your corner with your thoughts about Brian, I agree with everything you said in your last note. You write such a wonderful Brian, his depth of character and selflessness always astounded me on the show. I also loved the character McFed-McLaren, who was so much in tune and really "got" the real Brian. Its a shame that you can't please everyone, but I wouldn't let a few comments detract from your monumental achievement to write and finish this great story. Its was about time Justin finally saw the "light" and understood Brian's actions. He was very much the same in the series. The innocent victim and Brian always the Asshole!

Congratulations and rest assured this is one of the best b/j stories that has ever been written. I look forward to that new sequel whenever you are ready to write it. I hope you don't let a few detractors stop you from continuing this wonderful journey of B/J you have started.
I have also added you as a friend if that's ok??...I hope your health is improving and wish you all the best in future writings.

Reviewer: valell50 (Signed) · Date: November 18, 2012 01:36 PM · On: Chapter 1

Thank you for sharing this story with all of us. I have been reading this for years and understand how difficult it has been for you to complete. Please know that I feel blessed to have enjoyed every moment of your sometimes painful but always loving story. It was a brilliant ending. My prayers are with you as you continue to fight your health problems. Val

Reviewer: Anno53 (Signed) · Date: November 18, 2012 12:15 PM · On: Chapter 61

Thank you, Cyn, for sharing such a beautiful story. Your added characters were wonderful and your writing is so rich. Loved it from beginning to end.


Reviewer: Anonymous (Anonymous) · Date: November 18, 2012 11:00 AM · On: Chapter 61

This whole story has been outstanding.  I can't tell you how much I enjoyed reading it.  I certainly hope you continue to write future stories with Brian and Justin.  You are one talented writer.

Reviewer: Terri, Sydney Australia (Anonymous) · Date: November 18, 2012 10:59 AM · On: Chapter 61

A very satisfying ending! Such a great story! And YES, YES let us have a Timeless Book 2!!!! You're a great storyteller and it would truly suck if Timeless did not continue - pleeeease!

Reviewer: Xpo787 (Anonymous) · Date: November 18, 2012 10:44 AM · On: Chapter 61

I have enjoyed reading this story. And I'm very glad about the ending. Thank you for this well written gem. :)

Reviewer: TrinTiff (Signed) · Date: November 18, 2012 09:51 AM · On: Chapter 61

*SIGH* Just wonderful! "The End?" Hardly ... this is finally their true beginning! :-)

HUGS! Cindy

Reviewer: Carol (Anonymous) · Date: November 18, 2012 09:41 AM · On: Chapter 1

I am at a loss as to why anyone who has followed this story would give it a bad review. I ve read most of the stories on the site and timeless is undoubtedly one of the best. Brian is perfection ... And in Chris Mclaren you actually managed to create a character that seriously rivalled justin for my affections ...   definitely a first, just like this review. Unfortunately not everyone recognises or appreciates depth, complexity and very real talent. Well done.

Reviewer: lyn (Anonymous) · Date: November 18, 2012 09:20 AM · On: Chapter 61


I am sitting with a lump in mu throat. i was supprised at your comments before reading and still habe not read your recent reviews but thought i would leave  mine first.

your story was one of  the first i foundom here  and it kept me comimg back.

I loved the endiing it finosjed it off perfectly in my opinion and has made the story complete

thank you for  hours of pleasure

i for one a, sad too see  the story finshed



Reviewer: helenann23 (Anonymous) · Date: November 18, 2012 08:40 AM · On: Chapter 61

i for one hope you'll reconsider a sequel, I loved this story and i would love to know how their life moved forward from the point where this story ended. i followed this story faithfully from begining to end, it was an emotionally awesome journey!!!!!         THANK YOU!

Reviewer: debv3 (Signed) · Date: November 18, 2012 08:34 AM · On: Chapter 61

"The artist could not have guessed how prophetic that name would prove to be."  So ominous....good ending.

Reviewer: NoChaser (Signed) · Date: November 18, 2012 08:12 AM · On: Chapter 61

First of all, this has been an amazing journey you have taken us on - at times more painful than I wanted it to be, at times not nearly painful enough for certain principals. Thank you for the journey and for the vehicle in which we were transported.

I've often said that Brian Kinney is the most complicated and convoluted character I've encountered in all my several decades of enjoying literature (and I include the visual arts within the scope of that description). The ‘Brianic hero'. (No, not Byronic, although that is a close match) He has managed to carve out a niche all of his own, through the auspices of so many writers, and his tortured soul has claimed so many, many hearts. Tortured, private, pained, loving, caring, secretive, proud, arrogant, humble, strong, weak... and ultimately somehow convinced his life is fated to loneliness.

I'll admit to being more than a bit gobsmacked with the ending of Ch. 60 - it was so evocative of a lonely man dancing on a catwalk high above an oblivious world. And it was not what I expected. At all. But it was very them. The forever push/pull. The Justin/Brian story is unlike any other, truthfully - more like deBeauvoir and Sartre than Cinderella and her prince. And I believe Brian would have done exactly what your Brian did. Not exactly what I wanted him to do, obviously, but what he felt compelled to do. His reasoning is somewhat misguided at times and his cliffs are many. And Justin? He has his misguided reasoning and his numerous cliffs, as well. They are just not as often referenced. Neither is a saint, neither is a demon. And, though I may have taken exception to your portrayals of the two at select points, and though my views may differ greatly on the value of commitment as a reason to stay together, ultimately you held these two together in very canon style. With no locks on the doors. Brava.

Thank you so much for your dedication to this story, for its angst (both on and off your pages), as well as for your tenacity and very obvious talent. I wouldn't have missed this dance for the world.


Reviewer: Gina Marie (Signed) · Date: November 18, 2012 07:44 AM · On: Chapter 61

An amazing, beautiful ending - fitting for this amazing story. Journey actually.  I can't tell you how much I enjoyed it all.

And I would have enjoyed it either direction you would have taken me, the ride has been that fantastic. If Brian rode off with Chris, I would have loved it.  Why? Because you made all these characters real, and relateable.   sometimes love works, sometimes not. 

I'm, of course, happy Brian and Justin have a future together, but the end is just a stopping point.  The journey  continues, and I do hope you write a sequel, if not, I'll just let my imagination take me places maybe I shouldn't go.  :-)


Thank you so much for this truly wonderful story.

Reviewer: samcdee (Signed) · Date: November 18, 2012 07:26 AM · On: Chapter 61

A very complex and awesome story.  I am very sad to see it end.  Please rethink a sequel and don't let the negative reviews get  you down.


Reviewer: Fran (Anonymous) · Date: November 18, 2012 07:06 AM · On: Chapter 61

BRAVO! And Thank you!  I've enjoyed every minute of this ride and will miss your story greatly! I do hope you decide to write a sequel.  Don't let "those few" stop you!  Be proud Cyn! Your wrote one hellva story!:)

Reviewer: debv3 (Signed) · Date: November 18, 2012 05:58 AM · On: Chapter 1

I must admit first that I have not read the last 2 chapters yet. I fully intend to.  I have to second thw review shf1210 left, as I said on LJ don't let other people make you doubt yourself, it's your story to tell tell it. Write a sequel if you want to. That is the beauty of MW or LJ or any fic site, if they not want to read it they just click a little button and leave. Thanks for a great story.

"Reviewer: shf1210 (Anonymous) · Date: November 17, 2012 09:44 PM · On: Chapter 61


I sincerely apologize for anyone who disuaded you from writing a sequel. I will miss this story. I would stop everything I was doing when you put out a new chapter even at times staying up much later than a person with a 5 am alarm clock should. Please reconsider a sequel even if it takes a while to get there if I have stuck with you for all of these months and I read Chapter 1 when it came out then I can wait for the sequel. "



Reviewer: 4depthoflove (Signed) · Date: November 18, 2012 05:35 AM · On: Chapter 61

"Him that I love, I wish to be free - even from me."

Words not capable of being expressed out of selfishness, and words not capable of being expressed without pain. Words that Brian lives by, and that until this beautiful epilogue, Justin had absolutely no ability to understand...or live out. 

These two characters are so much more than the overly simplistic story of the innocent and the arrogant that so many seem to think it is. It is the story of the damaged boy who has become a man, and along the way was so broken, that he can't imagine, can't conceive on any level, that he would be able to survive should that now change. 

Right or wrong...and we all know it was not right, he pieced together the Brian Kinney he thought made him worth existence. If he didn't provide, far beyond all reason, for those he loved, then their relationships had no merit. And he couldn't allow that, because then HE had no merit, and no true right to live. Sure they all treated him terribly, making him out to be the bad guy each and every time, but he wouldn't have it any other way.

And if, in order for those he came to love to find all the promise that life offered them, he needed to make them hate him, well then so be it. It was worth the price. They deserved all the things in live that he never would, and he desperately needed to be the one to provide it. Besides, they were all better off without him anyway. 

If only he could have realized sooner that the extremes he needed to go to in order to force them to want to live their lives without him negated everything he held true. He IS worth loving after all. 

I love that you made Justin come to this realization before they could be reunited as well. He hurt Brian time and time again with blows more cruel and more devastating than any Jack could ever have delivered. No, there was no malice, and through most of it no conscious awareness, but it was real none the same, and Justin himself had nothing but continued pain to offer Brian until he realized that fact. 

Now, they have both grown, both matured, and both learned the one thing that will carry them through the years...

...love isn't commitment, it isn't rules, it isn't obligation, and it almost never comes without pain and agony. It is a desire felt so deeply within the soul that without it life will simply never be as sweet...and it is a choice we must be compelled to make day after day, for the rest of our lives, not because we should...but because we want nothing more...for depth of love.

thank you for this labor of love - and for not stopping before the epilogue...it made me smile!

loving life,


Reviewer: Anonymous (Anonymous) · Date: November 18, 2012 05:14 AM · On: Chapter 61

I love how Justin is always portrayed as selfish and at fault while all even when he's being a complete asshole, all of Brian's actions are completely validated. Because he apparently can do no wrong.

I also love how Brian is waxing poetical about his undying love for Justin but he doesn't trust him nor respect him. Considering him his partner, his equal and yet, he doesn't let him know about his sickness, instead choosing to just leave him without a word. And sleeps with McLaren.

But the best kick I got out of this:

"Perhaps they would become more important later; perhaps his own indiscretions would be redefined in time as well. But not, he was fairly certain, his final parting from Chris McClaren.

That had been different; that had been something separate and apart and forever private; he was pretty sure it would probably be discerned sooner or later, although he doubted it would ever be mentioned or discussed."

But of course. Justin is to this day villainised about Ethan, but why would Brian be held accountable for cheating on Justin with a person with whom he also fell for and developed emotional connection with.

I should be glad Brian/Justin got a happy ending, however it came to be in the end. So I guess that's something.

Reviewer: shf1210 (Anonymous) · Date: November 18, 2012 04:44 AM · On: Chapter 61

I sincerely apologize for anyone who disuaded you from writing a sequel. I will miss this story. I would stop everything I was doing when you put out a new chapter even at times staying up much later than a person with a 5 am alarm clock should. Please reconsider a sequel even if it takes a while to get there if I have stuck with you for all of these months and I read Chapter 1 when it came out then I can wait for the sequel. 

Reviewer: Socaqueen4 (Anonymous) · Date: November 18, 2012 04:39 AM · On: Chapter 61

Thank you!  I have been on this great emotional roller coaster ride with you from chapter 1 to chapter 61.  This is one of the best stories that I have had the pleasure to read.  Again, thank you..

Reviewer: iLoveMojito (Anonymous) · Date: November 18, 2012 04:31 AM · On: Chapter 61

I don't know what other people wrote you, but, yes it was clear that Brian would never come back begging Justin. An end like that would have been totally disappointing. On the other hand I think yours was the perfect ending. Thank you! 

Reviewer: bksbracelet (Signed) · Date: November 18, 2012 03:43 AM · On: Chapter 61

Wow that story was epic and it made me laugh and cry but most of all it made me think about the construct of love. This story is now a all time favourite and I am going to reread it in its entirety again. Your skill as writer is brilliant I am sure you must write professionally, thank you for this wonderful gift.

Cyn do not bother with the moaners they are not worth your concern:) I am sorry you are sad this is over but you have produced a lasting gift for those of us lucky enough to read it xx Chris

Reviewer: Photon (Signed) · Date: November 18, 2012 03:38 AM · On: Chapter 61

Blue Ribbon and Best Fan Fiction Classic awards today. Congrats.  New longest completed story on Whispers. It would take 12 books to publish this story hard copy in large print. Small print?

The Old Testament contains 593, 493 words while the New Testament contains 181, 253 words. That is a combined total of 774, 746 words in the Bible.

This story is 784,046 words long - 700 words shy of the English King James Version Bible. That too is a very big book!

A Featured award status can only be given to a completed story. A handful of stories in progress still have blue ribbons - grandfathered in.

*Photon is an admin account created for more photo/image memory space. ~ bob

Reviewer: Morgan (Anonymous) · Date: November 18, 2012 03:38 AM · On: Chapter 61

This has been one of the most wonderful stories I have ever had the plesure of reading, and I thank you so much for writing it.

Reviewer: Tagsit (Anonymous) · Date: November 18, 2012 03:14 AM · On: Chapter 61

Loved it! Great ending! Congrats on finally finishing. TAG

Reviewer: galenut (Anonymous) · Date: November 18, 2012 02:38 AM · On: Chapter 61

It's been a long ride, but it was worth it. This is one of the best stories ever. Thanks so much for writing it, Marion

Reviewer: Mariana (Anonymous) · Date: November 17, 2012 01:31 PM · On: Chapter 60

I was never so disappointed in my life reading your ending of this story.

If I knew more than three years ago that this is the ending you're planing I'd have never started reading it.


Reviewer: Pam (Anonymous) · Date: November 15, 2012 09:41 PM · On: Chapter 60

Whoa, did you just PO a lot of readers! What an update powerful with the scenes at the loft and when Brian viewed the painting of him for the first time. The way Ted was handled was also very well done.

I'll admit you took an unexpected turn but not totally out of left field either. While I'll join the crowd in wishing Brian shared with Justin the whole truth,my reasons are different. I do get what Brian is trying to tell Cynthia and McClaren. No suprise from me, the one who swims against the tide, but I think it's more cruel of Brian and more tragic that it is falling to McClaren to explain the situation to Justin as McClaren has proven time and time again that he understands Brian in a way Justin never will and in reality he is the one who is sacrifincing for love.

Reviewer: Linda (Anonymous) · Date: November 15, 2012 09:20 PM · On: Chapter 60

I think this chapter is true to your story and is well written as usual. The people who are upset haven't been paying attention to the style of the piece. You have been writing this in a ridicously romantic way, in the language you choose, the imagery you paint, and the plot with it's very flowery star-fated lovers theme regardless of actual reality and it's angst-ridden lows. Even McClaren is no real competition for Justin and serves to accent the tragic aspects and the B/J mystique.

We know that B/J will end up together(I will be shocked if  you end it any other way, you have spent far too much time and effort on their love and have repeatedly affirmed it and couldn't state it any plainer than "Justin would forever rule his heart"), the reader just doesn't know the how quite yet. There is some validity to Brian's viewpoint why he isn't telling Justin, it isn't the conventional view of the fandom, which usually places all blame for the downs of the relationship on Brian. One must also keep in mine that if you are planning a sequal tension and unresolved conflicts/issues will feed the sequel that will eventually, best guess, be B/J together facing Brian's blindess and end with a happily ever after that is craved by B/J shippers everywhere. 

Reviewer: bb (Anonymous) · Date: November 12, 2012 10:48 PM · On: Chapter 60

your Briane is a selfish lover!

Reviewer: lattemiele (Signed) · Date: November 12, 2012 07:42 PM · On: Chapter 60

I agree totally with Cheburashka 2

Reviewer: Anno53 (Signed) · Date: November 12, 2012 08:49 AM · On: Chapter 60

What will Justin decide?!

Reviewer: Gina Marie (Signed) · Date: November 12, 2012 07:54 AM · On: Chapter 60

Oh you CANNOT leave it like this!  Now that would be cruel! I anxiously await the epilogue.  this story has been such an amazing journey  -  I cannot tell you how much I enjoyed it, and thank you, thank you, thank you for writing it!  It will go down as one of my all time favorites!

Reviewer: TrinTiff (Signed) · Date: November 12, 2012 07:24 AM · On: Chapter 60

I, too, am baffled and disappointed in how Brian never changed to stop "protecting" Justin. I was really hoping for a happy ending after all of the pain they went through. This story is an excellent piece of work and your writing is beyond talented; but I have to say that the ending of this chapter left me feeling the same way I felt at the end of episode 513. I know you had your reasons, and that everything doesn't end in happily ever after but still, I wish this one did.


Reviewer: Cheburashka2 (Signed) · Date: November 12, 2012 06:12 AM · On: Chapter 60

As great as this chapter has been (e.g. the way Brian dealt with Ted, the scene of the family in Deb's kitchen, etc.), the overwhelming feeling I have after finishing reading it is, unfortunately, profound disappointment.

I'm sorry. I truly am, but I just COULD NOT suspend my disbelief enough to buy Brian's reason's for not telling Justin the truth about his vision. IMO, it goes beyond selfishness, beyond just a lack of trust in his partner, beyond a lack of respect FOR his partner... To me it's a betrayal of major proportions.

After almost 800 thousand words and 60 chapters I was hoping that Brian would grow up enough (especially after everything he's been through in this story) to TRUST Justin, to TRUST Justin's LOVE for him and to TRUST their relationship, what I am left with instead is Brian selfishly leaving his partner, and supposed love of his life, in the dark about a serious health issue; and not only that, he's letting Justin's COMPETITION to do the "honors" of telling him the truth. Brian treated McLaren much more fairly and with much more respect and trust than his own partner. I truly don't know how anybody, how any person with any self-worth or self-respect would not feel insulted, belittled and betrayed.

With only the epilogue being left, I assume Justin will hear the truth from McFed and will swallow the whole explanation hook, line and sinker, like a doormat, and sweep this betrayal under the rug because the "perfect" Brian Kinney will somehow throw him a bone and allow him to finally love him. I'm sorry, but it's bullshit. I've followed this story from the beginning and I've loved it up until this chapter. I've HOPED so MUCH that Brian would finally treat Justin like an EQUAL, like a PARTNER, like a MAN.... but in the end that didn't happen...

I shouldn't be taking this so to heart - it is fanfiction after all. But I've spent HOURS reading this story. I got involved with these characters, canon and original ones. I got so invested in the plot. And I feel like I've been lead to believe that there would be a happy ending for Brian and Justin, but it looks like I've been totally wrong.

Basically, the point of my rather long rant is that there SHOULD have been a WARNING in the front page of the story letting people know that after EVERYTHING Brian's character experienced no change or growth of any kind; that he has learned nothing about love or trust, or relationships and that he'll continue to treat Justin like a child, like something less, like someone undeserving of HONESTY and RESPECT, and LOVE. While Justin's character has grown and changed; while he has realized his mistakes, made actual effort to apologize and correct his actions, and has PROMISED to never leave Brian, he is STILL being denied equal treatment as one half of that relationship. And he is still being denied TRUST, which, in my opinion, is the underpinning of any successful relationship.

Basically, I should have been warned that whatever form they end up in at the end of an epilogue, it will not be a happy Brian/Justin pairing with the kind of LOVE, TRUST and EQUALITY most B/J fans like me hope for.

I apologize if this was in any way harsh, but it's from the heart. I greatly admire you as a writer and taken purely objectively (setting emotion aside) and as a whole this was an incredible work of fan fiction. But I just couldn't not voice my disappointment, when I had SUCH high hopes for a happy resolution for these characters.


Reviewer: linda (Anonymous) · Date: November 12, 2012 01:05 AM · On: Chapter 60

I have really loved this long, baffeling, sub-plotted, angst ridden story a lot.  I truly hope after all these chapters that the end will not be Brian leaving Justin for good.  I don't think my heart would survive this being the way it ends.   Please keep my heart in tact.

Reviewer: valell50 (Signed) · Date: October 13, 2012 12:02 PM · On: Chapter 59

I am so glad that you are able to finish this wonderful story and hope you write the Sequel. Don't worry about the time you need to finish it. Taking the time to pull all the pieces together shows your dedication and respect for us, your readers, and the story. Thank you!

Reviewer: Anonymous (Anonymous) · Date: October 12, 2012 05:55 PM · On: Chapter 59

Great chapter. Can't see how you can end it one chapter to go. Definitely need to write a sequel.

Please in the epilogue don't turn Justin into "psuedo wife" with a Mary Sue ending of B/J living in a dream house raising a bunch of blonde-haired kids like so many post 513 authors do. That ending is almost as bad as Cowlips since it completely repudiates everything about Brian that made us fall in fantasy love with him. There can be emotional growth and loving committment without the femme version Justin or male pussy-whipped Brian.

Reviewer: Anonymous (Anonymous) · Date: October 09, 2012 05:58 PM · On: Chapter 59

Don't want the saga to end!. It's about time Justin came to his senses - It's not all about him, time to grow up and realize that a partnership/committment in love does include sacrifice. Even if Brian doesn't espress that as his belief, he certainly has shown that he knows this in his actions.

My vote is for don't go the McClaren/Quinn route some reviewers think you're heading towards. It doesn't grow organically from the story. Save McClearen for another story, another time and on another more Brian/OMC friendly site. You could do Justin/Steve then too, since he sounded like a nice guy who got the shaft from Justin.

Now what are you going to do about Ted? Are you saving Brian's blindness for the sequel? Hope your back holds out for more writing.

Reviewer: Anonymous (Anonymous) · Date: September 27, 2012 05:52 PM · On: Chapter 59

I am so going to miss this story when you're finally finished! Nice to see the bad guys being apprehended. I'm glad that Brian witnessed a small part of that.

I'm a confirmed B/J shipper and and hope that Brian will now be honest with Justin regarding his possible blindness. Reading some of the comments I have to say I haven't ever thought of Justin as selfish just young and wants to expereince the entire buffet life has to offer but  to be honest there is an element of selfishness to him.  A lot of what he wants is about him and his language is I want, I need, I have a right, Brian needs me regardless....so I can see where his epiphany was needed for their love to last, if it can - after all neither Brian or Justin are great communicators and there is a lot of push/pull over the years.

Don't hurry, I won't have any great QaF fanfiction to look forward to then.

Reviewer: Anonymous (Anonymous) · Date: September 27, 2012 06:24 AM · On: Chapter 59

Great chapter! I am wondering how Ted can be so self-delusional in light of the mounting evidence of the consequences of his actions, non-intentional as they may be.

This is just a quick comment for thought about DavidR's comment. A person's motivation for his/her actions or a character's actions can be a matter of perspective. For the incurable romantics, Brian and Justin are fated lovers or incapable of loving anyone else with the same depth. Others can believe individuals who once experienced love can find a different love of the same depth of feeling with another individual. This relates to Justin's questioning his motives, selfish or not, immature or maturely thought out, predestined or master of your fate. David presented one, view the flip side is that Justin, by leaving Stephen the way he did, just proved that Justin is somewhat selfish and immature. He gave little or no thought to Stephen, who he was having a relationship with, and reacted in purely what is good for Justin manner. Brian did not "need him" or ask for him and in fact had good reason for wanting Justin to stay safe and away from Pittsburgh. But then we wouldn't have this wonderful romantic story

Reviewer: DavidR (Signed) · Date: September 27, 2012 03:25 AM · On: Chapter 59

    Thanks for another chapter.  I don’t understand the issue with the number of chapters or when this story will end.  It is a terrific story, and if it took another 500 chapters to complete, I would be more than happy.

   I do wonder what will happen to Ted.  I don’t think in all his actions, he did anything illegal. He has been an ungrateful ^#@$! and I would hope he gets banished to where ever #%$%^ belong.

   I also think this chapter went way off base with Justin questioning that the B/J relationship problems were because of his selfish and self centeredness.  No, not true at all. What about Steven?  He was in every way better for Justin than Brian, and Justin was happy.  What happened?  Brian needed Justin and Justin threw it all away for Brian, including Steven.  That was not selfish or self centered act.  The only problem with Steven was that he was not Brian. 

    McFed is a terrific guy, maybe like Steven, on the surface,  better than Justin in every way.  But – he is not Justin, hasn’t been, and could never be Justin.  It really is all that simple.  Further, if was a story about Brian and Chris, then I surely wouldn’t bother to be here.

     Once again, thanks for this unbelievably wonderful story.



Reviewer: Tagsit (Anonymous) · Date: September 26, 2012 03:22 AM · On: Chapter 59

Yay! Brian and Justin are heading home. The bad guys are all rounded up. McFed and Auinn? Maybe. Now for dealing with that pesky vision issue . . . TAG

Reviewer: Pam (Anonymous) · Date: September 24, 2012 09:13 PM · On: Chapter 59

AAh yes , the secret of QaF's crossover success - "a growing appetite among hetero young women for watching beautiful young gay men making love to each other." Only not only "young" hetero women, some of mature women share the guilty pleasure.

Take all the timeyou need to finish this story- better finished right than quickly. This chapter is as well written as all the rest. I like how you keep giving us little tibits of character developement along side plot forward movement. Each chapter is worth the wait and this one doesn't dissapoint.

Liked Keller laying on the line for Justin. For much of the Brian/Justin story it has been all about Justin and everyone has fed into Sunshine's mystique. It's time for Justin to grow up, the spoiled bratty kid act has gotten old and is no longer cute. Brian believes love isn't about sacrafice, but maybe because that's due to almost no one ever showing him anything different. He has sacraficed his wants or others views of him for those he loves multiple times. In fact, one could make a case of the Brian/McClaren attaction is the willingness of McClaren to sacrafice McClarens desires by willingly backing off in favor of Justin's claim and his responbile, not reckless, behavior of laying his life on the line for Brian. If my prefered ending isn't happening and for this story it shouldn't, I suppose I'll have to be contented for the possible McClaren/ Liam attraction even though it does seem a little forced (not a critism, maybe I read the wrong meaning from the chapter, but that part seemed a little off, like throwing a bone to the people who came to care about the character without really coming naturally from the story. Better to write a Brian/McClaren story on posting another site since this site is pretty B/J only, perhaps taking place a few years in the future. But's that's just my opinion.)

There's still a lot of story to go, so I'm looking forward to however you end it and a possible sequel if  your still interested in writing QaF and  your health allows it.

Reviewer: Lena M. (Anonymous) · Date: September 24, 2012 05:48 PM · On: Chapter 1

i really love this story...and the way the characters developed. Especially Justin, it was time for him to realise what has been happening in their relationship... kinda hoping for him to  make it up to Brian in some way ;). I am completely in love with the character of Chris and even though i did always wanted to see Brian end up with Justin in this story, it was really sweet to watch Brian and Chris develop feelings for each other. They would obviously be a great match (in another story maybe :) ?) .Its a really amazing story and i hate to see it come to an end but i guess for now thats ok because im really hopeding for a sequel. You are an amazing writer and i hope you´ll continue writting amazing storys like this one !!! <3


hmmm.... i kinda want to admit a dirty little fantasy that really stuck with me throughout this story and especially in this chapter.....how hot would it be to have all three (Chris, Justin and Matt)of those beautiful man makeing love to their beloved Brian at the same time !XD



Reviewer: bksbracelet (Signed) · Date: September 24, 2012 05:15 PM · On: Chapter 59

Wow what a great chapter again. Justin had not realised he is a little spoilt but it was time for him to have a wake up call. Brian is just adored by everyone around him. I wonder where Ted is and when will the family realise the damage Ted and Mel have done. What a monumental story you must be so proud :)

Reviewer: TrinTiff (Signed) · Date: September 24, 2012 11:37 AM · On: Chapter 59

I'm really glad this isn't the final chapter! I love these characters and will be sad to see their story come to an end. I'd be happy if you never shut up about them! HUGS! Cindy

Reviewer: Terri, Sydney Australia (Anonymous) · Date: September 24, 2012 08:52 AM · On: Chapter 59

Love comeuppances - though there are still quite a few to come.  Terrific chapter, but the story seems far from resolution - why is Justin so clueless about Brian's eyes, what happens to Ted, what is Mel up to etc? Also it seems you should be planning Timeless Book 2 to keep us all entertained as it appears not everything will be covered in another chapter and an epilogue! You are an awesome writer - thank you  . . .

Reviewer: Cherie (Anonymous) · Date: September 24, 2012 04:27 AM · On: Chapter 59

I'm not suing! The wish for resolution and the story never ending are running neck and neck. You did say there was a sequel....right?

Reviewer: galenut (Anonymous) · Date: September 24, 2012 03:57 AM · On: Chapter 59

Another great chapter,sorry to see it coming to an end. Its been a long ride ,but i really enjoyed it.

Reviewer: Anonymous (Anonymous) · Date: September 07, 2012 07:07 PM · On: Chapter 58

Love this last chapter, the story can go on forever as far as I'm concerned. Love B/J in this story even if you go over the top, just a little, sometimes. Love the image of Cedric swinging the broomstick - the whole scene was wonderfully written and really ramped the tension.

I don't go looking for canon/other (B/OMC or Justin/OMC) stories but I have occaisonaly started one in error, although there doesn't seem to be a lot of those kind of stories out there, and have gotten sucked in and actually enjoyed it (Swamp Fever is an example). Good writing is good writing! If you want to write a Chris McClaren story just put the warning and those who won't give that type a story a chance don't have to read it. You write for your own pleasure and while the readership will be undoubtly be smaller, it will find readers. No one has the right to tell you what to write and what not to write (if you aren't getting paid by them). Maybe post on a different site if this isn't a freindly environment for other characters.


Reviewer: DavidR (Signed) · Date: September 04, 2012 09:58 PM · On: Chapter 58

     I know I have said it before, but I will say it again; this is one great story.  I don’t care if there are five chapters left or five thousand.  Well --- you know what I mean.   I do wish you good health.  If it takes four weeks for the next chapter or forty weeks, I will be here to read it.

    I didn’t miss the irony that it was Cedric and his broom stick that probably saved Brian’s life.  Cedric who was first befriended by Justin; it was Justin who got him the job at Kennetic.  It was Justin …..

    Thanks for this very exciting chapter.


Reviewer: Anonymous (Anonymous) · Date: September 03, 2012 11:45 PM · On: Chapter 58

Okay, we know Brian will survive, Keller will make sure of that but will he wake up blind and force the truth to be known? What's going to happen with Ted? I always liked the Brian at work scenes so I hope he stays involved with Kinnetik. A lot of other things going on so i hope you do write the sequel.

Reviewer: Anonymous (Anonymous) · Date: September 03, 2012 10:51 PM · On: Chapter 58

I read the first few chapters when you first started writing this story then got involved in another fandom. Recently came back to Qaf and refound this story. I was pleasently suprised to see you are still writing it and actually think it was better for me to read most of it in one go over a series of days. It's great and a real B/J treat. Now I'm really hooked for your writing and am especially impressed you do it without a beta. Sorry to hear about your health issues that caused the long WIP, though.

You've done a great job fleshing out all your characters, canon and original and are pulling all the plot elements together naturally and not forcing the ending, nicely done!

You have made me care about McClaren and what happens to him. For a split second my heart was in my throat that you would have him die saving Brian and thereby ending the problem of the mutual attaction between him and Brian, because one is there even though B/J are star-fated lovers in this story. So a spin off I would read. I think, if I can remember that far back, that another author had Brian and Justin in a stable relationship with a third guy, can't remember the author or the name of the series. The same type of intermittent arrangement could be interesting and hot. But can't see Justin, as you have written him, accepting that - he's too threatened by McClaren. Anyway, if you aren't intimitated by all the B/J is the only way to go fans and do write any kind of McClaren story, I would most likely at least give it a fair chance.

Reviewer: anon (Anonymous) · Date: September 03, 2012 06:25 AM · On: Chapter 58

You do like cliff hangers, don't you. Of course, we all know B/J will live in bliss forever at the end but it's quite a journey. Great chapter.

To weigh in on the McClaren idea. I'd like to read more about him, with or without B/J. I wouldn't be adverse to an AU Brian/McClaren, just not the ending of this particular story. But from what you wroteasking about Chris, this story is firmly B/J, I think you meant you might write another story about Chris McClaren and that would be fine with me - I'd read it, you write well and I have an open mind.

Didn't much like the Cowlip ending, actually didn't much like season 5, especially how they left Brian. Randy Harrison, I think, is on record for saying he didn't think B/J would end up a life long partners, friends yes but he saw Justin as going off on his own. A lot of people don't like that but he did have insight into his own character. That said, you're doing a great job of writing the story as you conceived of it - a soul mate ending of Brian and Justin.

Reviewer: Pam (Anonymous) · Date: September 03, 2012 06:07 AM · On: Chapter 58

WOW, what a chapter ending!

Your plan for the ending sounds fair. I'm looking forward to the sequel or rather the middle between the ending of this story and the epilogue. That's if you want to write it.

Give me some more of McClaren. I hope he stays friends with Brian if only to playfully annoy Justin. They do have a bond with each other even if it is not as lovers.

Which brings me to expressing a wish the same as at least one of your other readers for a Brian/McClaren story. Beleive it or not there is some QaF fans out there that do read Brian/OMC or Justin/OMC stories. There are even a few very good Brian/OMC out there ("Swanp Fever and Burn" by Brian H and Arwensong's "Better Friends and Lovers" series come to mind) So I think there would be a readership, albeit not as large or vocal, as strict B/J shippers. for an AU Brian/Chris McClaren well written story. And you do write well, the character of McClaren deserves not to be put in a drawer and forgotten. Give him an AU reward, pretty please when everything else is done and if your still interested in QAF.


Thanks for the quick updates and hope you spine is getting better all the time.

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