Midnight Whispers
QAF Brian and Justin Fanfiction
Reviews For Why Not With Me
Reviewer: Naughty_teaspoon (Signed) · Date: May 18, 2019 05:24 PM · On: Only Us

This chapter was beautiful. Brian really felt it. It felt so natural and realistic. Noting felt forced or rushed. Absolutely amazing. 

Reviewer: SunshineSally (Signed) · Date: May 13, 2015 03:49 AM · On: Only Us

SOBBING! He has finally realised what LOVE is and how he's meant to feel with the one person that makes him so happy.

Reviewer: 7wildwaysup (Signed) · Date: December 27, 2014 04:19 AM · On: Only Us

"Only us. Only us. Only us."

God I love this chapter...

Thank you so much ~ Kathleen

Reviewer: CFC (Anonymous) · Date: October 13, 2013 05:56 PM · On: Only Us

Good feelings, good chapter.

Reviewer: MissMoe (Anonymous) · Date: October 26, 2009 07:47 AM · On: Only Us

I totally understand the progression of Brian's feelings. When he told Justin of his jeolousy as they sat in The Chair, I turned to mush. Wonderfully written. Also, I must say, that sex scene...nice job. ;) I especially loved the little love bite Brian gave Justin. I can't wait until your next update.



Author's Response:

That scene turned me to mush, too. For some or other reason, the whole chapter was mushy to me -- right from Brian's whispered "Justin?" at the beginning.

Thanks too for the feedback on the sex scene; as usual, I couldn't tell at all how it turned out. The bite seemed natural, I'm glad it worked! 

 

Reviewer: Anonymous (Anonymous) · Date: October 26, 2009 06:11 AM · On: Only Us

I love this story!!!! I am addicted, its great to see Brian dealing with his past for a change instead of drowning it in Beam or someone elses ass.   Can't wait for the next edition.



Author's Response:

Thank you so much! I'm hoping the next chapter will be up on Saturday! :)

Reviewer: HalfTime1030 (Anonymous) · Date: October 26, 2009 04:23 AM · On: Only Us

Life's still a bit crazy but I wanted to stop by & say I LOVED this chapter - you still have an amazing talent at being able to bring the reader inside Brian's head as he's working through his own feelings...  and I don't think it's too sudden. This has always been something that has been in Brian & Justin's horizon but Brian wasn't ready mentally & emotionally until this point.

How are your students/classes going?

~Michelle



Author's Response:

Thank you!! I'm glad his feelings came through clearly -- this was one chapter where I wanted to make things as clear as possible. Work is... *sighs* unfortunately not really better. Some days are slightly better, others slightly worse. But I'm learning a lot... Thanks for checking in on me! :)

 

I hope things are going well for you! :) 

Reviewer: Kitty_Ballou (Signed) · Date: October 25, 2009 06:02 PM · On: Only Us

Oh no, Tiffany, you don't have to be nervous... *hugs + still cries after this beautiful + amazing + gorgeous + sweet chapter* It's so honestly and understandable and of course it's just natural that Brian finally sees what happened with him: that he HAS feelings! True feelings that are more important than anything else! That Justin is the one he needs to be happy!

And I am sooooooooo happy that you had started this story + shared it with us! You make me think about things in my own life - like QaF did it too. It's a few weeks ago I got my third little tattoo. The first was a little sign on my left wrist - created by my own. The second is an open heart on my left shoulder. And this third one is the word "Liberty" on my left wrist, next to the other little sign. It has to be "Liberty" because everyone should have the right and the possibility to choose how to live his own life. To do what he likes to do. Even other persons won't or don't understand you. They may not understand you - but they have to agree about what you choose for yourself.

And that's the thing Brian understands too... And that makes me feel so proud of him! And of you. Because you wrote this amazing story! And I have to repeat my own words: Don't worry nervously! *hugs again* There's no need to... ;-)



Author's Response:

Awww, thanks so much!! You are so ridiculously sweet and supportive with your comments! I am so lucky to have such wonderful reviewers! 

Your tattoos sound absolutely beautiful -- in picture and meaning! 

Thanks so much for your words of support!! 

*hugs back!*

Reviewer: edom (Signed) · Date: October 25, 2009 05:49 PM · On: Only Us

I don't think it was too sudden, I think it was just right. It was that final push Brian needed to realize why people would want monogamy.

I'm glad dr. Stevenson told him that E is in the same category as alcohol for Brian, that it's a crutch for not feeling, or feeling a specific way, I think that was news to him.

I really liked this chapter, the emotions in it was wonderful and I’m glad Brian figured it out, with a little help J



Author's Response:

I think you're right -- the surprise for Brian was that he was going to have to deal with emotion yet again (his favorite thing! lol!). I really appreciate your feedback and support of the story and its development! :)

Reviewer: Poppieshaze (Anonymous) · Date: October 25, 2009 04:11 PM · On: Only Us

I love this story, it feels so right and in character... It wasn't unrealistic at all, can't wait for the next chapter!



Author's Response:

Thank you so much! Wow, nice to hear from you again! Glad that you're still enjoying the story!! :)

Reviewer: Anonymous (Anonymous) · Date: October 25, 2009 10:17 AM · On: Only Us

I think it is very realistic-  Brian is getting in touch with his emotions-  he's always had them but never acknowledged them-  this is a journey that he is taking and Justin is helping him take it-  supporting him along with dr. Stephenson.  the sex is good and believable-  can't wait for more

 

sfscarlet



Author's Response:

Thank you so much! I really appreciate the feedback and support! I'm so glad you're enjoying the story. I may have the next chapter Saturday (a guess only).  :)

Reviewer: templeton_ma (Anonymous) · Date: October 25, 2009 10:06 AM · On: Only Us

Sorry for not commenting on the last chapter. Was dead tired from a week of outplacement workshop. Need to work on my resume today for the consultant to review. Long road ahead.

"I brace myself, not sure how much detail I could really handle. "

It's so funny that the Doc is kind of afraid to hear about the details of BJ love acts. He He.

"Only us."

Two simple words that mean the world. Even in the TV series, I always wonder how jealous Brian really was or was not when Justin tricked. It was fine when Justin was still a teenager just to let him have fun and explore. But by S5, it really started not to make much sense. Anyway, the realization depicted in this chapter makes sense. I also think that a part of jealous comes from fear as well. The fear that if someone else can make Justin feel as good, there is a chance that someone may steal his Sunshine away again.



Author's Response:

It's okay! I know you must be really busy with all that's going on! I hope it will all work out for the best!

Yeah, Dr. Stevenson is a little.... well....worried that he'll become distracted from the real issues at hand! *wink!*  Like maybe distracted by beverages falling on his papers, or his suit, or his rug! *smiles!* 

I like your point about the fear of someone else taking Justin away. I may have to use that later! 

 

Thanks so much for commenting and I hope things calm down soon! 

Reviewer: Rach (Anonymous) · Date: October 25, 2009 09:56 AM · On: Only Us

I really liked this chapter. Brian and Justin are at a really good place now and I think it was a good decision to just be with each other, it will make them even closer.



Author's Response:

I think you're right -- it will bring them closer. I'm so happy that you enjoyed the chapter; I was really hoping that everyone would! :)

Reviewer: BluvsJ (Anonymous) · Date: October 25, 2009 09:48 AM · On: Only Us

Great chapter as usual..... I think Brian being jealous and only wanting to be with Justin... is a big step towards his recovery... with Dr. Stephenson's help and guidance Brian is finally realizing that he needs and deserves the same things as everyone else.....



Author's Response:

I like your perspective on Brian thinking he deserves what everyone else deserves / has. That is a really insightful way of looking at it. Thanks so much for the comment and for your support throughout the story!

Reviewer: meme (Anonymous) · Date: October 25, 2009 09:06 AM · On: Only Us

THAT’s  IT, That’s always been it…….That was very good I must say,  I just wish that people would stop believing that Justin dose not know what the hell he doing when concerning Brian, on a lot of level, shit is it always o.k. for Brain to act like a bitch to Justin fuck LET NOT  forget he was a grown man when he meet a teenage Justin and by today standard Brain would be on CNN, Headline news, in jail.


But really no matter  what  Justin ever said about  not changing him (Brian) he always hope even when time were bad and they really were it was a sick  relationship one that Brain created big time and yes Justin play a part in it but still that it would only be just them two (now who’s the strong one here). It’s really sad that it took so long and something so personal to make a big impact let’s hope it last.



Author's Response:

I'm glad you enjoyed the chapter. I definitely think it will last; it was just that last piece of the puzzle that finally had to "click" for him. :) Now it's all cemented in place! :)

Reviewer: JTSecrets (Signed) · Date: October 25, 2009 06:48 AM · On: Only Us

A detailed review from Gina Marie is something to be very proud of. I have cherished every review she gave me; she has such a depth of feeling about writing style and a complete handle on canon. I loved her and she helped my writing greatly. As I read Gina's comment for this chapter I felt pride for you; she only does it for the best of writing.

If I may suggest you consider getting Nickie to make you a banner; a story of your quailty deserves a great one and IMHO Nickie is the best.

 



Author's Response:

You're absolutely right. Her comments always mean an improvement for the story, and in one chapter she really saved me from an idiotic mistake I'd made. 

As far as banners go, I've never given it much thought. I don't know how to make them and don't know anyone who does. I appreciate and understand the thought and the compliment, but don't worry -- it really doesn't worry me at all to have or not have one. :)

Reviewer: Gina Marie (Signed) · Date: October 25, 2009 06:37 AM · On: Only Us

Hey Tiffany, excelent chapter!  I know you took somewhat of a beating last chapter, (and yes, I know I was the one who threw the first punch) but I am glad it didn't deter you from your vision in this story. This chapter dealt with many of the issues I had with Brian's actions in the last chapter, and dealt with them in a very realistic, productive way.

In the last chapter, I did not like Brian. And it did not sit well with me that he was just substituting one drug for another. In this chapter, the Doc makes that clear to Brian.  Pointing out the contradiction of going all day wihtout alcohol, yet takeing E.  Now Brian is thinking about the 'reasons' behind his getting high, instead of just focusing on one drug or another.  That's a big step forward.  It's not about alcohol, drugs or sex, but what is driving him to do those things? I especially like Brian's thoughts, confused thoughts, on why he does E in this chapter. He really doesn't know, and that's VERY believable.

Also he is starting for the first time to understand what love is.   He knows he loves Justin by  the definition he's been given on what Love is. He wants to be with him, he cares for him, he'd do anything for him.  So, under those definition, he concludes he loves Justin.  But what happened with the trick, what he felt, is the first time I think he 'paid' attention to what was going on inside of him.  Jealousy is foreign to him.  He loves sex, and loves when he and Justin fuck other people together.  He never gave it much thought until...(and it always just takes one action, one straw of the proverbial camels back, doesn't it?) Justin made that 'special' noise.  He probably never consciously connected that noise to being 'his' before and it hurt him.  Hence his description, his knees felt wobbly, his chest was tight, his heart was pounding...'  It was what Oprah likes to call, "A ligthbulb moment"   All of a sudden a lightbulb came on in his head.  And he didn't like what he saw when it did.  The action was the same, like the doc said, but the response this time was different because he viewed the action differently for the first time.  All because he heard 'the noise'.   And that's why he acted like a total prick to that trick.  (Which I'm still pissed at him for!  lol)  But I don't think he'll be throwing any more tricks out in the future. I don't think there will be any more tricks. And no, I don't think it's too sudden. That's how things happen sometimes. Just .... like .... that.  That's how I quit smoking after 20 years of being a heavy smoker.  Just like that, one day, I said no more.  I feel Brian is doing the same here.

Great chapter.  A lot of progress. I would like to see more progress on Justin's part. There is still the question the Doc asked, "Why did Justin suggest they bring the trick home to begin with"?   In my opinion, it's because Brian has conditioned Justin to believe things about him, that simply don't apply anymore.   Justin needs to address this.  Like I said in my last review, people change in recovery. What worked for them before, doens't work anymore.  Justin needs to learn how to deal with this new Brian.   I think he needs his own therapist (spin off?) or at least some couple therapy with the Doc.

 

 



Author's Response:

Hi, 

I'm so happy and relieved that you liked this chapter and that it helped to clarify / resolve some of the issues brought up previously. I really never expected the general reaction to Chapter 37. You see, I'd planned it out very far in advance: the threesome and where it would lead B/J. In fact, in my mind it was sort of guidepost chapter. I guess it was so ingrained in my vision of the story (as you so aptly put it), that I never stopped to think how it would look to those who only had "half" the story (i.e., the Chapter 37 half). 

However, I'm glad for how it turned out because I'm thinking a lot more about the Justin side of things -- more than I would have otherwise. I realize now that I'll have to do more explaining than I originally realized, which is good. Thank you so much for drawing my attention to these issues; I sometimes get way too lost in BrianLand! 

Your thoughts about Brian's state of mind are exactly, exactly, exactly what I was aiming for! :)

As for Justin needing his own therapist -- you're probably right... 

As for a spin-off: I like the idea, but I don't think I could write it. Maybe someone else could (hint, hint!). I'm not trying to be coy, either -- I honestly don't think I understand Justin's character enough to write for him like I do for Brian in this fic. I love Justin, but I don't... I don't empathize enough with him to really write for him in the same way. I wish I could. 

Thank you so much for your very thoughtful and thought-provoking comments! They always better the story and broaden my horizons! :)

 

 

Reviewer: JTSecrets (Signed) · Date: October 25, 2009 06:15 AM · On: Only Us

BINGO!!!!

This was the only direction your plot could go and make sense of the mental mine field the last chapter created. Very well done.

Brian nevers does anything half ass; he has to push someone off a fucking cliff to get to next. hehehehe



Author's Response:

*smiles* 

Yep, this is where it's been heading! Finally, the fruition! 

I'm thrilled that you enjoyed this chapter; it feels a little like validation! ;)

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