Since Justin rarely cired in canon I find that part of your story stretching but yet you present it so well. The time Brian had cancer, the second night Justin saw Brian in the beginning rejected besides Daphane's car, and attacking his mom for stopping Brian from seeing him; those are the only times in five years I remember Justin crying. I must say your analysis of canon is amazing and the depth of your plot genius.

Author's Response:

You're right about the tears. I sometimes think I'm overdoing it, but I don't know what else to type to convey what I want to convey. If it were on tape, I think Gale and Randy could play it beautifully without tears and we'd all "get" what they were going through. But on paper...I just don't know how to make it work, so I just go with whatever flows through the fingers. :) 

Thanks so much for the kind words and support!! 

I really have to say that I am enjoying this fic. I never posted a comment because I just enjoy the reading of them. Now it seems that we are moving into the what was everyone else's part in Brian's negative life situations. I am not saying that other's didn't play a part but wow. I love how other's want to slap Justin. No matter how mature a teen or early 20's someone is they are still going to do these that make you wonder if they are 5. I love that a few seem to think Justin was suppose to keep rolling over for Brian as well as some thinking Brian was suppose to just do whatever Justin wanted at the time. Maybe if both have been talking more to each other instead of at each other things could have been a little better.

Now the Mikey comment I saw as a time for Brian to go and think about some things. It was not cool to put it that way but if someone comes in your home and starts attacking who you are and how you're choosing to live your life you will strike back. I have to remember that in the land of QAF no one is suppose to ever give back as bluntly to Brian as he does to others.

 

Author's Response:

Thanks so much for your thoughts and for reviewing!!! 

I think you have a good point -- communication / miscommunication is the biggest issue. Fortunately for them, they've been getting better at it thanks to -- well, the therapy I gues and the Talking Chair, which I think helps Brian tremendously. 

I think every character's actions make sense, given their perspective. It's only a matter of understanding other people's perspective, which usually comes more with time than anything I think. 

I'm so glad you're enjoying the story! 

Yet another heart-wrenching, beautifully written chapter.

Thank you

Author's Response:

Thanks so much! I'm so happy that you enjoy the story! 

I loved the part with Doc spilling his coffee, sooo funny!

Brian and Jusin had a lot of breakthroughs in this chpater and a lot of tears. I like that at least some of the issues were finally resolved, it's best to try and move on from things that you can never change. I swear everytime Justin calls Brian 'Beautiful', I melt. Even when I soo should not be so focused on that, it's just so sweet, and I think Brian revels in that too. Excellent chapter, despite whatever delay there was in posting, I think sometimes with therapy a few issues do need to be shelved for a later time because larger issues need more attention sooner. Ohh I'm so excited for the next chapter. :)

Author's Response:

*giggles thinking of poor Dr. Stevenson in his stained suit* 

Actually...I'm really excited that you like the "Beauitful" so much. It has a lot of significance to me and Brian, and possibly a good deal more later in the story, depending how things go. So... you're right in your focus in my book! 

Dr. Stevenson has a hard time knowing where to start and where to go, since so many of the issues are tangled with each other... he tells me sometimes how complicated a patient Brian is... !  *smiles*

Thanks so much and enjoy the next chapter!!! 

Michael’s “he left because of you…who wouldn’t” comment always made me so ANGRY – it’s calculating and cruel. The look on Brian’s face when he said it is just desolate. And thank-you, thank-you, thank-you for incorporating the “shirt changing” scene in 507 – ‘cause that always broke my heart (and made me want to bitch slap Justin, but let’s not go there). So I think you’ve picked a perfect place for the third attempt. Reading this is like qaf therapy, very cathartic!

 

My anti-Justin / Michael sentiments aside, I like how Dr Stevenson is navigating them through the guilt and towards something better. I can’t believe I’m going to say this but…I’m actually kinda liking Justin now. The world has officially stopped turning. It’s never really made sense to me that Justin, at the age of 21 of 22 (?), was suddenly so desperate for domesticity / kids / marriage in season 5. But maybe he was looking to re-create what he remembered as his own parents’ happy marriage (before the divorce, about which he expressed guilt) in the same way that Brian was running from it because of his own experiences.

 

Add to canon all you want – ‘cause at this point WNWM is my dream story.

Author's Response:

Awww, thank you!!!

*dazed that you're starting to like Justin a little* 

I find it so amazingly hard to even watch lots of Season 5. I get so upset... not really at Justin. I'm not really anti-Justin... I mean, I can sit at home and think "Oh my god, why didn't you... blah bah blah," or "I would have so...blah blah bah." And I do. But... I have to try to understand Justin even though it's harder for me than understanding Brian...

I was never quite sure if one specific event triggered Justin's longings for domesticity, but I have an interpretation in the next chapter.

Thank you *** so much *** ! :) 

I'm not good at long reviews, Sorry my english is not good enough. But this story is the first thing I read when the computer is on.

thanks thanks thanks for writing this story

I wanna hug both men, they need it.

* kisses *

Author's Response:

Oh, don't ever apologize! I would never even be able to try to read a fanfic in another language. I wouldn't even be brave enough to *try*. So don't apologize! Your comments are wonderful and warm and perfect so just keep them coming! 

 

*kisses back!* :) 

 

What stood out to me most was your incorporating of the Brandon story line and how Justin completely overlooked what Brian was trying to tell him when he kept trying those shirts on. I'm not sure the episode but I'm sure you know the scene (since you wrote about it, haha). 

Brian actually ADMITS the fact that he got turned down upset him, and Justin threw it to the wayside claiming it happens to "everyone" like you quoted, then Brian says something like, "One small gesture overlooked." I ALWAYS thought he was talking about the fact he relatively, by Brian Kinney standards, opened up to Justin, admitting the rejection and Justin just overlooked the attempt instead of the obvious Brandon not succumbing to his Kinney charm.

That always kind of bothered me even though I could understand Justin's frustration as well.

...Woo, sorry I got a little elaborate with that but I was really really stoked when you worked that into the chapter since that one scene of the show always stood out to me.

Another fantastic chapter! I love how things are developing.

Author's Response:

I don't think any scene in QAF angers me more that one......Justin is totally just... *sighs in frustration at Justin's imperfection*. 

 

Thanks so much for the comment! I'm glad that I'm not the only one who was struck by the scene and this interpretation of it *poor Brian!...! :).