Reviewer: Naughty_teaspoon (Signed) · Date: May 15, 2019 08:45 PM · On: You Better Know
That was painful, but so good. Joan that bitch. I got angry too just like Justin.
Reviewer: SunshineSally (Signed) · Date: May 11, 2015 03:33 AM · On: You Better Know
My poor baby omg, but I am so glad Justin got him to break down, hopefully this will help him...
Reviewer: JTSecrets (Signed) · Date: October 24, 2009 07:57 PM · On: You Better Know
You put tears in my eyes with this chapter. Intense sh*t!
Author's Response: Ah, the beginning of the angst. I always feel a little masochistic when I'm happy that I made people tear up! Well...it is what I was going for! :)
Reviewer: Kitty_Ballou (Signed) · Date: August 23, 2009 05:53 AM · On: You Better Know
*cries like Brian did*
What did you do to us?? *sniff* - It's so sad and so - so... I don't know, I don't find the right words, I'm tired, because it's too late to think in english (I'm from Germany + it's 1 o'clock in the morning)... I really adore your story even it's so sad and overwhelming! And poor Brian... Poor Justin! Of course he loves Brian! Who wouldn't, for heavens sake???
Author's Response: First of all, I have so much respect for everyone who reads fanfic (or anything for that matter) in a non-native language. That amazes me. I've tried to do that, trying to read Camus in the original French and it takes me *so long* and I just usually don't have the skills or patience or anything. So *hats off to you!*
I love this review, because you are just where I wanted readers to be -- with Brian. :)
Thanks so very much for everything!
Reviewer: Marny (Signed) · Date: August 19, 2009 03:01 PM · On: You Better Know
I wanna hug them both
Author's Response: Me too!!! :) :) *thanks you!*
Reviewer: sjmpets3 (Signed) · Date: August 11, 2009 08:57 AM · On: You Better Know
having kept that bottled up all those years, no wonder he's in the state he's in. justin has to get through to him. brian needs to believe in the love justin has in him. the faith he has in them together.
Author's Response: Hi! Just noticed that I missed this review back when it was left! I'm sorry about that!
I love your phrase "faith he has in them together." That captures it so perfectly!! :)
Thanks so much and I'm sorry for the late, late reply!
Reviewer: Sake (Anonymous) · Date: August 09, 2009 10:19 PM · On: You Better Know
I don't mind the ansgt so much when Brian and Justin on on the same side of it. (for the most part!) Your doing a great job, I wish you had the next 10 chapters done!!!
Author's Response: I wish I had the next 10 chapters done, too!!!!! The story is mostly "done" in my head, with main "events" holding up the fort in a timeline. What still remains is putting it all on paper, when I usually end up with lots of surprises that just write themselves into the mix. :)
I don't anticipate a lot of Brian v. Justin angst in this story. Someday I might try my hand at that, but it'll be a while! :)
Thanks so much for the encouragement and thec comments!
Reviewer: BluvsJ (Anonymous) · Date: August 09, 2009 10:06 PM · On: You Better Know
OMG.... I can't find the words to describe how I feel about Joan..... for her to do what she did to Brian ... then use her religious beliefs as an excuse for doing it !!! If Joan was alive during the Salem Witch trials ... she would have been first in line with a box of matches....
Author's Response: I know!! I'm worried I might end up writing a chapter in which Justin runs into her on the street and.... lets out some of his anger! A better case for the Pink Posse, perhaps? ;) I don't want Justin in any trouble though, so...
Thanks so much for your thoughts! :)
Reviewer: scrub13 (Signed) · Date: August 09, 2009 05:14 PM · On: You Better Know
God, that was intense and wonderfully written. I had to read it three times before I could let it go and write this. Brian isn't opposed to love, he just doesn't think he can have it, The lines that stood out for me was how he felt Justin said he loved Brian just cause he was expected to and that he hoped Justin wasn't mad at him. So like a child wanting love, but expecting it to be yanked away at any moment.
To be honest I've always wondered how Brian survived his early childhood, before he met Michael and Deb. Where did the young Brian turn to survive his parents? Did he retreat into a fantasy world or was there more to his relationship with Claire than we know now? He couldn't have made it to 14 if he didn't have some coping mechanism.
Author's Response: I really want to thank you for your comment about coping mechanisms. That's something I haven't really thought about explicitly, but I imagine you're right. In a certain way, this is being addressed in chapter 13, but... you have really iven me something to consider -- he probably must have done something in the early years to get by. I will definitely be giving this a lot of thought in the next few days! Thank you so much for that suggestion -- I sincerely appreciate it.
The lines you picked were ones I wasn't even sure I would include -- I couldn't tell if the meaning would be clear. But I guess it was, because that is very much the sentiment I was aiming for! (That is such a thrill for me...finding out that the story went where it was supposed to, so to speak!). These issues are looked again in the next chapter; I hope you'll enjoy it.
If that isn't the best compliment...that you reread the chapter 3 times...**blushes speechlessly**. I'm honored.
I hope you'll like the next one as much!
Reviewer: Minoloushe (Anonymous) · Date: August 09, 2009 05:13 PM · On: You Better Know
Wow.
That is beautiful and angsty as hell (in addition to being a sucker for vulnerable Brian I’m also a complete angst junkie, so the two together…*sighs*…*very happy reader*…)
The following sentences from Brian’s POV just sum up everything really:
“Of course that’s what Justin would say. He pretty much has to say that’
and
“I have no idea what he’s so upset about. I hope he’s not mad at me. God, I hope he’s not mad at me”
When you stop and think about it, that’s pretty heartbreaking – to be in a place like that…
Honestly, at this point I’m a bit in awe at the speed your updates while keeping the writing so strong…great writing! More please : )
Author's Response: I'm really excited that you mention those particular sentences!!! I was thinking of deleting them; I thought they might be confusing. I knew what I meant by them, but I was worried that it wouldn't be clear to those not living in my head! Now I am so glad that I left them in!!
Thanks so much for the generous compliment about my writing. I am really lucky in that writing is very natural for me. Once I know where a chapter is going and I write the first few lines, it is typically very fast. Of course, chapter 13 that I'm writing now has been something of an exception to that. But it's coming along.
The biggest thing though is that I'm off for the summer because I'm a teacher -- so I have some time on my hands. :)
Thank you so much for your feedback! I'm so pleased that I left those lines in! :)
Reviewer: Sunny (Anonymous) · Date: August 09, 2009 04:25 PM · On: You Better Know
Now we know how important Love is to Brian. He needs love like the air to breathe. But not any love he needs Justin´s love. The love of a man and that´s the main problem. It´s a sin to love another man so God won´t love him. If god doesn´t love him nobody else will. So what´s the solution? Should he stop being gay so that love will love him finally? Should he pretend to be someone he isn´t? To plant such thoughts in your child´s mind has nothing to do with being christian or religious or even with God himself it´s plain diabolical. But how can he interrupt this vicious circle? I guess that´s where Justin´s desperation roots in. He knows how important it is for Brian to accept his love. But on the other hand he knows that it´s easier said than done so he starts yelling. He hopes that if says it only loud and often enough that Brian will believe him and everything will be right. But it´s not a problem of hearing. Justin´s message is heard by Brian´s ears and his heart but not by his mind.I can understand why Justin started yelling but I´m afraid it isn´t the solution. Holding him and reassuring him that he´s there to help him is a start. I guess they will nees professional help soon.
Sorry for writing so much I got carried away,Sunny
Author's Response: First of all, don't ever apologize for a long comment!!! I ***love**** comments / reviews! (That's probably obvious, considering how shamelessly I beg for them in the chapter notes.)
You really bring out some interesting aspects of Brian's/Justin's dilemma. Justin is starting to realize how Brian honestly just doesn't know anything about functioning relationships and has almost no experience with people caring about him and loving him. Justin is absolutely determined to change that. I don't know how Brian interprets the yelled speech at the end. I am sure, though, that he is starting to understand (not consciously though) that Justin is willing to fight for him.
I totally agree that the best sort of care for Brian at this point is the tender kind -- the holding and so on. Unfortunately, this is what Brian is most uncomfortable with. I think it'll get easier for Brian to accept affection soon.......
Thanks so much for your thoughts and analysis; you bring up many great considerations! :)
Reviewer: edom (Signed) · Date: August 09, 2009 04:09 PM · On: You Better Know
I like that Justin gets so spitting mad at Brian's parents about this. It shows Brian that he means it when hs says they were wrong.
It's good that he had some kind of break through, he needed to. I hope he accepts that he needs help and go see the psychologist.
Great chapter.
Author's Response: I think you're right about Brian's reaction to Justin's tirade. I think Brian is starting to see the depth of Justin's commitment and that he does mean it. The core of this issue comes in a couple chapters, so it's not quite resolved yet.
The break was definitely a long time coming; I think I'll have to follow up on it more than I have in upcomnig chapters.
Thanks so much as always for your perceptive comments! :)
Reviewer: Pastrychef4 (Anonymous) · Date: August 09, 2009 12:51 PM · On: You Better Know
OMG, this absolutely killed me! Talk about heart-wrenching! The layers of damage inflicted upon Brian by those jackals claiming to be his parents is staggering. How will he ever manage to overcome such trauma? Guess I will have to keep reading, huh? :D
Excellent chapters! Can't wait for the next update!
Author's Response: I know...I have it all mapped out, rest assured. You will definitely have to keep reading!! It's actually been slowing me down a little -- trying to figure out how to show his healing, which would obviously take a long time in RL, but not drag out every moment of it in a fic, because I don't want to bore you all to tears. So I'm working on it... Though I'm hoping one less-than-totally-angsty chapter might be welcome soon. :)
I also have to guard against blaming too much on Jack and Joanie and making it unrealistic in that way. That's hard to avoid though.
Thanks so much for your comments! The next chapter will be up late today (in my time zone ;).
Reviewer: Gina Marie (Signed) · Date: August 09, 2009 12:07 PM · On: You Better Know
Oh my, so heartwrenching! And beautifully written! Justin's 'wrong' tirade was dead on perfect! Justin just needs to keep pealing away the layers of hurt from Brian with love and reason. For Brian 'is' the 'believe' painting. As a whole, beautiful, but layered with pain, so much pain....
I can't tell you how much I'm loving this story, and the quick updates. I've been so bad with updating my story lately, (life being so fucking intense lately). You're story is so inspiring, I look forward to each and every chapter.
Author's Response: Thank you so much!! Justin is definitely putting up the fight in favor of true love at this piont. I think Justin gets a lot from the experience, too; from finally getting to do something to demonstrate his love for Brian.
I am really lucky because I am a teacher and have the summer off. That's one thing that enables the quick updating at the moment -- without that I'd probably be slower. :)
I really appreciate your comments and am very glad that you're enjoying the story! :)
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