Author’s note: first of all I wanted to say thank you to my fantastic Beta – reader, Susan. The songs Brian sings are “Nothing is changed” and “Final answer” by The Calling.
“Tell me if I’m wrong,” Michael said to Brian. “First, you saved Justin Taylor’s life, brought him to the loft and then you tried to fuck him, right?” “Yes, “ Brian said smiling, thinking about that night. It had been a week since he rescued the blond from becoming someone’s hood ornament and he couldn’t stop thinking about him. “You realize that you could have fucked yourself like that, don’t you? He could open his mouth to the press and reveal everything.” “Don’t worry, the boy won’t say a word,” Brian replied and smiled to himself. He knew that Justin had his own secret too. He didn’t know why, but he felt like things would be just fine for him. “How can you be so sure? You know fans like to hear gossip about celebrities. This boy could spoil everything you worked so hard for.” “Not Justin. Believe me, Mikey I don’t think he’ll say anything.” “Oh my God, you even remember his name!” “I guess I do.” Brian smiled. He wondered how hearing that meaningless name could make him so happy. However, he didn’t have the time to come up with an answer. “Ladies and gentlemen, tonight we have the pleasure of having one of the greatest singers back on stage after being out of the scene for a while. Let’s give a warm welcome to Brian Kinney!” It was a day just like this In a life of our times Shrugging signs there's no chance for us It's not mine to decide You never listened to what I said you never thought I'd succeed And though I've given you all I can You show no faith in me After the unforgettable night with Justin, Brian had received a proposition to make an appearance as the guest star on a segment of MTV. It had been a week and here he was, back on stage, and it seemed that the fans had indeed forgiven him for having cancelled his earlier concerts. And I remember, and I recall And I can see that nothing's changed at all Though we falter, we don't have to fall And I can see that nothing's changed at all Even when I was you ****** Brian had just stepped outside when he heard a voice behind him. “You really surprised me, you know?” He recognized the voice and smiled. No one could make him smile like a certain blond. “Why? Didn’t you like my performance, Justin?” “On the contrary, tonight you sang with all your heart and soul. I haven’t heard you sing like that in a long time.” “That was because tonight I had a muse.” Brian stared intensely at Justin who blushed at the meaning of what was being said. “You don’t sound like a person who uses that word.” “That’s because I never have. So you came,” Brian said, changing the subject. “I promised, didn’t I? I never lie to a friend.” “I wish everyone was like you,” Brian murmured. “What? Did you say something?” Justin asked. “No, nothing important… so, you want to go somewhere else?” “Oh, I’d love to but I promised Kip that I’d be home by midnight. I don’t want him to worry.” “Right… so, later.” “Later.” ******** “So, how was Kinney?” Kip asked, once Justin was in bed. “Great. He hasn’t been that good in years…” Justin paused when he saw the sceptical look on Kip’s face. You’re not convinced, are you?” “Don’t get me wrong, Jus, I believe he’s good and I’m glad that you found yourself a friend. It’s only that…” “You don’t like the idea that I have Brian Kinney as friend.” “Justin, I know Brian Kinney and I also know that the man doesn’t do friends.” “But he does with me,” Justin said trying to defend the man. “I really hope so because I’d hate to see you disappointed or hurt,” Kip said sincerely. He loved Justin and if something happened to him he would never forgive himself. “Now enough with talking, I just want to feel you inside me.” “Well since you asked me so politely… Kip said as he moved to devour the blond’s full lips.” They started to kiss and undress each other but every time Justin closed his eyes, all he could imagine was the brunet on top of him. Everything was confusing and he didn’t understand what was happening. ************ I want love To carry me through All the moments, I'd kindly undo Locked away So I can feel safe “Okay, now raise your voice,” Michael said to Brian. The two were in the singer’s loft, where he was trying out the song he had just written. The strange thing was that Brian never did write his own songs. Now that I'm down on my knees, begging for change Look down at the water Before I jump in To find I was sinking fast, in all the might have been “Perfect.” Michael was giving Brian suggestions on how to sing his song. He was glad to see that his friend had once again found the enthusiasm he had at the beginning of his career. What I need now is an honest answer, to make things better You can see now my hands are tied, and I surrender So I'll wait here for your final answer, your final answer “Good, I like it.” At first Michael wondered why his friend had changed so much in the last few days and he realized it had to do with one person; Justin. Ever since that night with the young singer, Brian hadn’t been the same. Is there love without hate Is there pleasure without pain? I have seen all my mistakes I cast you out, but now, I want you back So light me again, cause my heart is turning black What I need now is an honest answer, to make things better You can see now my hands are tied, and I surrender So I'll wait here for your final answer, your final answer Could it really be? Could Brian really love Justin? Of course, even if the man did love the blond there wasn’t any possibility he would ever admit it. Michael could only hope that one day Brian would realize he was in love but for now he was just happy for his friend. Remember the night you wore that dress It flowed through out lips Drink after drink, and kiss after kiss I'm still holding on, day after day Don't run away Michael had been in love with Brian since the first moment he met him, so many years ago. However, he realized that his dream of Brian being in love with him would never came true. Actually, he began to wonder if what he felt for Brian was really love or just sympathy. I want love to carry me through Can you tell me what I'm supposed to do What I need now is an honest answer, to make things better You can see now my hands are tied, and I surrender So I'll wait here for your final answer, your final answer “You’re really good,” Michael said, clapping his hands as he complimented Brian. He was really proud, both as a friend and a manager. “I…” but Michael interrupted him before he could say anything more. “I know, you’re always good… I know that. But this time, well let’s just say you made me really proud to be your manager as well.” “Thank you, Mikey. Also, thanks for being my friend and putting up with my diva attitude.” “Oh well, you get used to it.” “Michael I know I’ve really hurt you,” Brian said seriously, as a hint of sadness washed through his features. “It’s okay, you’ve been through a lot.” “Yeah, but if I didn’t have you I probably wouldn’t even be alive.” ************************************************************************** “What are you doing here?” Kip Thomas asked when he spotted Emmett Honeycutt. ”I’ve been to see another client, another singer I’m going to manage… Have you heard of Kate Lock?” ”No, I don’t think so… she’s the client you came to visit in this hotel, right?” Emmett nodded. ”No, I’ve never heard of her.” ”That’s because she doesn’t have talent at all,” Emmett said sincerely. “Then why have you decided to manage her? Is she rich?” Emmett nodded. “I’m only going to manage her ‘cause her father is an old friend of mine. I’m doing him a favour.” ”Really?” Emmett nodded. ”Wait a moment… you’ve done the same thing with Justin.” ”Yeah but Justin is talented… let me tell you a secret. At first, I didn’t want to manage Justin at all; I didn’t have enough time.” ”So what made you change your mind?” Kip asked curiously. He knew that Emmett didn’t do it for him. ”Vengeance,” Emmett said. “Could you explain yourself?” “You remember Brian Kinney?” Kip nodded so Emmett went on. “We were lovers. I loved him but in his eyes I was just another trick. I was desperate, I wanted to take revenge on him but I didn’t know what to do. Then I had the idea; I could manage someone talented enough to replace Brian. In other words, I used Justin.” “WHHATT?” Justin said. He had just arrived and had heard Emmett make the comment. “Justin, Honey, what did you hear?” “Enough to say FUCK OFF to both of you!” Justin couldn’t believe what he had just heard. He looked at his lover with hurt filled eyes but not before he glared at his so-called manager then he quickly turned and ran. He didn’t know where he was going, or what he was doing and he didn’t know how he arrived at Brian’s loft. “Justin you’re crying, what happened to you.” “They betrayed me, both of them.” “Who? Who betrayed you and what did they do?” Brian asked. He was frightened into thinking about the worst things that could happen to his new friend. “I saw them at the bar in the hotel. Kip and Emmett were talking, I didn’t know about what. Then I walked over to them and heard Emmett say that he just used me to hurt you.” Now everything was clear to Brian. At first, when Emmett told him he was going to ruin him, he laughed about it. Now he could see that Emmett had been very smart. Unfortunately, he wasn’t been smart enough. “Brian I swear that I didn’t know anything. I just wanted to be a famous singer.” “Shh, Baby I know,” Brian said taking Justin in his arms. He felt bad for him and as Brian held the distraught boy, a flood of emotions overtook him. The man decided to take his chances and started to kiss Justin. There had been many nights he had dreamed about full, strawberry lips against his. Justin didn’t resist at all and fervently returned the kiss. They didn’t know if minutes or hours had passed. They only knew that they were making out like two teen-agers. Brian was in heaven, he didn’t remember the last time he felt so good and he had Justin to thank for that. Justin was living his most erotic dream. It seemed that lately all his erotic dreams had involved Brian. Brian decided he wanted more, so he released Justin from his embrace and pulled him toward the bedroom, and slowly began to undress the blond. He kissed each area of creamy white skin that was revealed as each item of clothing was removed. Once Justin was naked, Brian gently laid him on the bed and leaned over to brush a kiss against already swollen lips. Then he trailed his tongue down his lover’s chest reveling in the sweetness of the young man beside him. Brian could feel the boy writhe beneath him as he started to moan, “More please,” as the brunet answered him by taking his nipples between his lips. Brian continued his assault as he licked and sucked his way down the blond’s flat stomach. He noticed how excited the boy was but chose to ignore his growing erection; instead, he buried his nose in his pubes and inhaled the musky scent that was uniquely Justin. Brian knew that Justin wanted more but he continued to tease him by using his tongue to gently flick his balls and trace the inside of his thigh. The blond’s moaning grew louder and his breathing heavier until Brian could see that he wasn’t going to be able to hold out much longer. He was leaking profusely and fisting the sheets and begging Brian to take him. “Brian, please,” he begged, unsure how much longer he could take it. He was in sheer agony and he wanted to feel the brunet’s full lips and warm mouth enveloping his leaking cock. “Tell me what you want, Justin,” Brian coaxed. “I want you to suck me,” he moaned. “I think I can manage that,” he smirked and started to lick his way up Justin’s engorged cock. Once he reached the head he swirled his tongue around before he completely engulfed it in the warmth of his mouth. As Justin’s cock hit the back of Brian’s throat it wasn’t long before his warm, creamy liquid spurt forth. Justin’s body went rigid and he shouted, calling out Brian’s name as wave after wave of pleasure washed over him as he came. “Brian, you’re overdressed,” Justin commented with a smirk once his breathing returned to normal and he finally realized that the man was still dressed. “I think that we can remedy, can’t we?” Now it was Justin’s turn and he started to sensually undress Brian, just like the man had done to him minutes before. Justin couldn’t help but admire Brian’s fully exposed body. “You’re so beautiful,” he said. “Men aren’t beautiful,” Brian answered seriously, a shadow passing over his face. “You are,” Justin said truthfully. Brian replied by reaching over for a condom and putting it on himself. He was aching to be inside Justin and he quickly flipped him over, lubed him, and penetrated him. It was only moments and Brian could feel the familiar tingling and tightening of his balls just before he came. They fell asleep in each other’s arms after making love for hours.