I just realized that I have stupidly forgotten to upload this story here. Sorry. This is the orginal idea for Kinnectically Charged. Please read Forever Young if you haven't already for this is the sequel. Plus the changes don't begin until the end of chapter two. So please reread at least that chapter.
Justin’s POV: Today is the day. Yes today I get the hell out of this school. That’s right folks no more school for Justin Taylor. Oh god I am so relieved. I literally thought this year would never end. See after I broke things off with Brian, time just seemed to slow down to a crawl. It’s been extremely tough these past couple of months. I haven’t been sleeping well at all. My work load is enough to make any other person want to rip out there own heart. I really don’t know how I have managed keep it all together, but I have. I have however managed to stay far away from Brian. I am quite proud of myself actually. I mean you don’t know just how many times I have wanted to call him, or run over to the loft and beg him to just take me back, fuck everything I said, and fuck me. I have dreamt it I don’t know how many times, but I have never gone through with it. Yeah for me right? I look at myself in the gym mirror smoothing the creepy material out a bit. Seriously this has to be one of the worst things I have ever seen, let alone worn. I shake my head and just thank the heavens for Armani suits, which I am wearing under this hideous mock before I go out into the auditorium and take my seat. I really wish I didn’t have to do this whole walking thing. But like I said before, Jarred and Trudy really wanted to go. Not to mention that if I didn’t walk Jonathan would’ve kicked my ass. He’s coming and bringing his boyfriend, William. He’s a really great guy and I really think that Jonathan has found his perfect fit. They are perfect together. I think they’ll be together for the long hall. Not to mention when I gave Deb her invitation she cried, saying just how much it meant to her that I wanted her there. I just told her I wouldn’t have it any other way. She’s even bringing Carl. I really think he’s a great guy. He loves her and takes care of her the best way he can, and hell just dealing with a person like Debbie makes him a saint. As the ceremony drones on and on I think about all the offers I have gotten from numerous agencies. That’s the thing I am most excited about. Getting to really start my career. That’s the best thing out of all of this. I’m seriously considering an offer that was made to me, from one of the largest ad agencies in New York city. They have made me a very gracious offer that I would be crazy to pass up. But to tell you the truth I am a little scared. I mean hell I have never been out of the Pitt’s. of course vacations and simple road trips and such. But not really. Taking this offer would mean leaving everything I have ever known behind. Which I am not to sure I am ready for. I mean it’s not like I am leaving a lot behind. Just the people that are here tonight, Trudy Jarred, Jonathan, and Deb. That’s it cause we are not going to mention the other person. It’s just of no consequence at this point. Especially since I ended things months ago. “Justin Taylor,” I suddenly hear and stand up to move up to the podium. Did I fail to mention that I’m the Valedictorian? Humh? Oh well. Oh god it can’t be please tell me... I feel that pull, the one that I know all to well, the one that get’s me every time. And as I look in the direction of the pull I find myself looking into the eyes of the man I love. I give him a small smile and a he returns it. God he looks so good. I let my eyes sweep over him quickly, and man he really looks so very good. But as I realize that I have been standing up here in front of all my peers for about a minute not saying a damn thing, I snap out of it and start my speech. Pulling my eyes away from Brian’s. but as I make my speech of the usual this is our day and we will have wonderful lives and blah, blah, blah I wonder how the hell he got in here. I mean you have to have an invitation, and I know I didn’t give him one. Then there’s the most important question of why the hell is he here? I mean I haven’t seen or heard from him in months, and then all the sudden he’s here at my graduation. I just don’t get it. When I finish up my speech they clap and move to sit back in my chair. I look over to Brian again and he is still looking at me, and he nods his head as if to say nice job. I give him a small smile and a nod of thanks. I can’t seem to pull my gaze away from him, and he doesn’t seem to be trying to pull his gaze from me. I can hear the faint voice of the dean calling out the different names and when the people start to walk through my line of sight to Brian I can finally pull my gaze away. From then time just seems to fly by, and as I hear my name called and stand up to accept my diploma and awards from the dean I look towards my friends and they are all clapping for me and snapping their camera’s and waving to me. So I smile my Sunshine smile for them, and quickly before I take my seat again I look towards Brian. He’s clapping for me and he has a huge smile on his face. I can feel myself blushing and I wish I wasn’t but the man has unbelievable powers over me. So I just smile back at him and take my seat. I wait very impatiently for the ceremony to end and when it finally does, I stand take off my hat and gown and make my way towards Brian. However I am cut off, by first Trudy and Jarred. “Oh, Justin we are so very proud of you,” Trudy says as she takes me into her arms. “Yes Justin, I have never been prouder of anyone in my life,” Jarred says as he takes me into his arms once Trudy has let me go. “Thanks,” I say with a smile. “Sunshine!!” I hear Debbie yelling from behind me, I start to turn towards her when I am yanked around and pulled into a bear hug. “Deb,” I whisper, because I currently can’t breath. “I’m so proud of you, you did so good,” she says through her tears. “Deb,” I gasp out once more patting her back “Debbie...Deb, you have to let him go he can’t breath,” I hear Jonathan say from somewhere I can’t quite make out right now. All I know is that someone is pulling her off of me, and I can suddenly breath again. I take a deep, deep breath and it makes me cough a little. “Justin, baby are you ok?” Trudy asks me rubbing my back. I give her a half smile, and nod my head. “Yeah I’m fine.” “Trudy, Jarred, this is Debbie.” they shake hands. “She’s taken care of me since I made my way on Liberty Ave.” “Oh it’s so good to meet you,” Trudy says. “I’m glad Justin has had someone looking out for him,” Jarred says patting my back. “Oh Justin is a good boy, he works way to much but other than that,” boy she is one happy woman. “Well Justin has always insisted on taking care of himself,” Jarred says and it’s true, he had offered at the beginning to put me through college but I wouldn’t take his money. I didn’t want them doing that, it wasn’t their responsibility. “Well we all know just how stubborn JT is,” Jonathan says as he moves in and gives me a hug. “Nicely done JT,” he whispers into my ear. He puts a smile on my face. He pulls back and I see his boyfriend standing off to the side. “Hey William I’m glad you could make it.” “Me too, Justin. It was a great speech,” he says as we shake hands. “Thanks,” I say and watch as Jonathan wraps his arm around William’s waist. I smile at them. I’m so glad that Jonathan and I were able to stay friends. I was more than a little worried that he would never speak to me again, especially since he didn’t call me for an entire month after we broke things off. Then he called me one afternoon, and everything just seemed to go back to the way it was. Us being best friends. He met William about a month later and he’s been the happiest I have ever seen him ever since. “Congratulations Jus,” I hear Brian say from behind me. I feel my smile leave me and the room gets a little tipsy. I turn around slowly, making sure I don’t fall over. When I look up into his eyes I can see all my feelings being reflected back to me. He smiles at me and I can’t help myself as I smile back at him. “Bri,” I find myself practically whispering. “Hey ya Sunshine,” he says holding out his arms and even before he has them fully opened I find myself buried in them. His arms are tightly wrapped around my waist, and mine are just as tightly wrapped around his neck. I feel him slightly nuzzling my neck as I do the same, breathing him in. “I miss you,” I hear him whisper, and I don’t need to look into his eyes to know that he’s telling me the truth. “I miss you,” I tell him back and he pulls away just enough so that we can look into each others eyes. “What are you doing here?” “I couldn’t very well miss one of the biggest days of your life, could I?” he says teasingly, and I have to smile. “Hmhmhm,” I hear from behind me bringing me back from Brian and myself’s little world. I step out of his arms and turn towards my friends with a slightly embarrassed smile. I forgot they were here. “Oh um, Jarred, Trudy I’d like you to meet Brian Kinney,” I say gesturing towards him. “It’s nice to meet you both,” Brian says reaching out to take Jarred then Trudy’s hand. “Justin has told me a lot about both of you.” I feel him rub his hand against the small of my back and I force myself to stand a little straighter instead of leaning into his touch. I really wish he wouldn’t do that. I look over to Trudy and I can see everything she is thinking flashing over her features. But I shake my head letting her know that now definitely isn’t the time for that conversation. “It’s nice to meet you,” Jarred says. “Hey Brian it’s good to see you again,” Jonathan says as he holds out his hand and Brian accepts it. “You too,” Brian says and he still hasn’t taken his hand away from my back. “This is my boyfriend William,” Jonathan says gesturing towards him and Brian and he shake hands as well. “Nice to meet you,” they both say. And then it goes a bit quiet, and to tell you the truth I’m not quite sure what the hell to do or say. “So I do believe that you said something about a celebratory dinner,” I say to Jarred, because I couldn’t take the silence any more and because I was pretty sure no one was going to break it. “Yes I did, didn’t I?” he smilingly says. “All of you are more than welcome to join us, I’d like to hear all about the Justin that I have missed over the past couple of years. “Well now that’s just to good of an opportunity to pass up,” Brian says and I look to him and he just gives me a sweet innocent smile that I know doesn’t fit and grabs me a little tighter around the waist. And I have to tell you it feels really damn good to be here in his arms again. I always feel so safe here. Like I never want to leave. But then I feel that little quiver in the pit of my stomach and I have to pull away from him before it gets to hard to do it. “Ok so does everyone have a ride?” I ask quickly. And when everyone answers in the positive we head out towards the exit. But right as I am about to get into my car I hear Deb yell at me, “Sunshine why don’t you ride with Brian,” and when I look towards her I see her arm through Jonathan’s. “I’m going to ride with Jonathan and William here.” fuck. “Well I guess it’s just you and me, Sunshine,” Brian says coming to stand in front of me. I don’t want to do this. KCKCKCKCKCKCKCKCKCKCKCKCKCKCKCKCKCKCKCKCKCKCKCKCKCKCKCKC Brian’s POV: I give him a little smile to hopefully get him to relax a little bit. He seems so tightly wound up. I really didn’t think I would make him feel so uncomfortable. Maybe this wasn’t such a good idea. I don’t want to ruin this day for him. When I see him try for a small smile, I lay my hand out for him, he looks at it for a couple of seconds before he takes it, and I intertwine our fingers tightly. Not wanting to let him go. I lead us to the Jeep and unlock the door for him, and only letting go of his hand once he starts to climb in. When he is some what settled I close the door and make my way to my side, jumping in and starting it up. I follow behind Jonathan’s car, trying to keep my mind on the road and not the blond sitting beside me. Man when he jumped into my arms I thought I had died and gone to heaven it felt so good, and when he pulled away, I wanted to yank him back and kiss him till we were both breathless. God I missed him. I couldn’t wait to get to the auditorium today so I could see him. Just be close to him, god I haven’t even seen him since that night at Deb’s and I have been going up the walls, just trying to keep myself from begging him to come back to me. But now having him so close, having his sweet smell surrounding me. Well lets just say it’s almost to much for me to take. I however wouldn’t give it up for the world. Having him with me right now lets me have that little tiny bit of peace that I always have with him around me. It just makes me realize just how much I have got to keep him around me, with me. Before I know it we are pulling into the parking lot of an old worn down building, and I look towards Justin with a furrowed brow, because I am not understanding why in the world a man like Jarred Kenning’s would be taking us to a run down restaurant. But when I look at Justin’s face all I see is a huge smile lighting up his face. “Ah, Justin what is this place?” I ask skeptically. He looks to me without losing that gorgeous smile of his. “This is the greatest restaurant that you will ever eat at,” he says excitedly. And I have to say I am just happy to be with him, so either way it will be a great dinner. We all park and get out meeting around our cars, and I without thinking put my hand on the small of Justin’s back to lead him. When he looks at me with those big questioning eyes all I can do is smile, because truthfully I don’t think I could take my hand away from him. So he just nods his head accepting the fact that I can’t let go and lets me lead him. Which at this point I am grateful for. “So Justin,” Jarred says turning towards us as we walk to what I would think is the entrance. “Did I make a good choice?” he’s smiling and I still am not getting the whole thing about this dilapidated building. “Oh absolutely, you know me to well.” and he’s still got this huge smile on his face. When we get to a huge metal door, that looks like my loft door only oversized, it rolls back as if on it’s own. When I get a look inside, it is one of the most elegant restaurants I have ever seen. What looks like a hundred different colored blue silk see through throws, just hanging from every possible rafter. Different patched worked rugs with so many designs working through them just coming together throughout the walk way, “Mr. And Mrs. Kenning’s it’s so good to see you again,” a man in a tux says coming out of one of the many blue throws. “Tony it’s good to be back,” Mr. Kenning’s says as they shake hands. “You remember Justin,” he says pointing to him. “Oh my god yes, Mr. Taylor how are you doing, it’s been so long.” they shake hands. “I know Tony it has been awhile. But everything has been going really well. How about you?” “Everything is going really well. The restaurant is flourishing and Randy and I just got married last year,” he says with a huge smile. “Oh my god Tony,” Justin says with a huge smile as he gives the guy a hug. As he pulls back he still has that sunshine smile across his face. “So where is he? I wanna say congratulations.” “Well you can’t cause he’s at home with our new baby girl,” he says and he looks extremely proud of the fact which he should be. Even if it is a bit hetero for my liking but hey it’s not my life. “Jesus Tony, it’s everything you have ever wanted in your life,” Justin says seriously but with a huge smile. “Yep it really is, and I couldn’t be happier.” Jarred, Trudy and Jonathan, all congratulate him and then do some introductions before he leads us to sit at a huge round table. We all take our seats with me making sure I sit right next to Justin. The menu is a little of everything and I have to say I have never seen anything like this restaurant. I know I will have to make it a point to come back here a lot more. However that’s if the food stands up to review Justin gave it. When Tony comes back a bit later we all give our orders. And then some how the conversation turns to all things Justin and I have to say I am completely eating it up. And as we eat and drink our coffees after dinner it stays the same. “So anyways Justin gets going and suddenly we hear Jonathan yelling to stop but Justin kept going and then we hear metal scraping metal, and the car tugged backwards a bit and he stopped and I looked back and Justin had taken out the fence on the exact same place yet again,” Jarred says and everyone is cracking up a bit, even me. “Hey knock it off,” Justin says hitting me in the shoulder, but it just makes me laugh a bit harder with the look he is giving me of total rage. “I’m sorry Sunshine, but I have never heard of a person taking out the same fence in the same place three times in two days,” I say with a laugh. “Why did you guys keep trying to teach him how to drive?” I ask Jarred and Jonathan. “Oh trust me after that we found a very secluded dirt road to teach him on,” Jonathan says with a smile. “No kidding and still he almost killed all of us by rolling the car because he went over a dirt mound,” Jarred says. “Alright,” Justin says with a bit of annoyance but not much. “I think that’s enough embarrassing moments of Justin Taylor for tonight.” “Oh fine spoiler all of our fun,” Jarred says. “For he’s a jolly good fellow, for he’s a jolly good fellow,” we hear men singing in the back round and when we look over Tony and a bunch of waiters are carrying a cake over towards Justin, and our table joins in, “for he’s a jolly good fellooow, which nobody can deny!” they place the cake in the center of the table and everyone claps and Justin has a huge smile on his face. God I want to kiss him so badly, it’s been so long since I have felt his soft, sweet lips on mine. “Thank you, everyone this means very much to me,” Justin says and I can see out of the corner of his eye a bit of wetness. “You guys being here and supporting me no matter what and loving me no matter what,” he says looking at me and I smile at him before he looks to everyone else. “Means everything to me.” everyone claps and Justin grabs the knife and starts to cut the cake. “So who wants some cake?” he asks and pretty much everyone accepts a piece. When dinner is over and everyone is filing out of the restaurant and saying their goodbyes and as Justin is talking with Tony, Jonathan pulls me aside. “He’s scared,” he says looking at the sunset. “I know,” I won’t try to be obtuse about this situation. “Are you going to hurt him?” he hasn’t looked at me but I look right to him. “I never meant to hurt him in the first place.” “Maybe not, but you did,” he looks to me and I can see the protectiveness and love that he has for Justin. I don’t say anything, cause really what can I say? He’s right. “Look I’m not trying to give you a hard time.” “Hm,” I grunt in disbelief. “Look when Justin and I were, well when we were trying to have a relationship I tried really hard not to see the love that you two had for each other. But it kept on jumping out at me. So that’s when I knew that the only way he would be happy was with you. Not with me, and even though that hurt more than anything in the world I knew that I had to make sure he took the chance to be with you.” I know he must see the confusion I am in. “I don’t understand.” “After I told him I was leaving, I also told him to try with you.” “You told him to try with me? Why would you do that?” I know how much he loves Justin, and I could see just how much he wanted their relationship to work. “Because of what I saw in you when you looked at him.” I shake my head still not quite understanding. “He was scared that you would break his heart but I knew that you loved him and I told him what I knew to be true,” “And what’s that?” “That you would do just about anything to make him happy,” and I can see the certainty he has in that statement. It’s the certainty I wish I had in that statement. “I have never lied to Justin, and I never will. So now I think you should go and do what’s in your heart, and prove me right.” he says walking towards the others and giving Justin a hug. I am more than a little taken aback at the faith he seems to have in me to make Justin happy. I mean how does he know he’s so right when I don’t even know if I could do it. Either way it looks like everyone is starting to leave so I make my way over there and say my goodbyes. “I’m going to catch a ride with Jonathan, and William. I still have a lot to catch up with them, and still have a good ass chewing to give for them not coming around often enough,” Deb says completely serious and I can see Jonathan grimace at the fact. “But I am so proud of you Sunshine,” she says giving Justin a hug. “Thank you Deb, I’m glad you came,” he pulls back and Deb kisses his cheek, then rubs away the bright red lipstick. “Me too, sweet heart.” “Ok we’re going to take off, but I’ll call you tomorrow JT,” Jonathan says giving him one last hug and then leading William and Deb off. “Well it was lovely meeting you Mr. Kinney,” Trudy says extending her hand, which I take. “It was my pleasure really, but please just Brian.” “Well then Brian, I am sure we can trust you to take good care of our Justin then?” she looks at me with a curiosity that I don’t feel very comfortable with right now. But I know how much the Kenning’s mean to Justin so I hold back all my smartallic remarks that use for such occasions. “Of course you can.” I say instead because in all reality I would never let anyone hurt Justin, not even myself which is why I let him go. “Good.” she says, reaching over to give Justin a hug. “It was good to meet you Brian, I hope we see you again,” Jarred says as we shake hands. “I hope so too.” “Justin again I am so very proud of you,” he says giving Justin a hug. “We both are,” Trudy interrupts. “We both are and we want you to have this,” he hands Justin an envelope, which Justin pushes away. “You know I can’t accept that,” “Yes you can and you will,” Jarred says opening up Justin’s hand and putting the envelope in it. I can see the fight going through Justin. “We have never asked anything of you, but we are asking that you accept this one gift from us.” “Thank you,” Justin says after a minute. “We love you Justin, and even with everything that is going to happen in your life, we always want to be a part of it.” Jarred says and I can see the tear that he wipes away before it runs down his cheek, right before Justin takes them both in a hug. “You will always be a part of my life. No matter what,” he pulls back. “I wouldn’t have it any other way.” they both nod their heads. “Good,” Jarred says and takes his wife by the waist. “We are going to get going, but you two have wonderful evening.” “We will,” Justin says and I look over to him with quite a bit of curiosity. But he just waves to them with a sweet smile. We watch as they get into their car and drive away before Justin turns to me. “So Sunshine, it’s your night,” I say taking him by the waist and leading him to the Jeep. “We can go anywhere you want.” “Anywhere?” “Anywhere,” I say opening up his door, and as he sits down he looks to me. “Then I’d like to go back to my car.” and there went my heart. KCKCKCKCKCKCKCKCKCKCKCKCKCKCKCKCKCKCKCKCKCKCKCKCKCKCKC Justin’s POV: Everything in me is screaming for me to take that comment back. But I know better. I know that if I allow myself to go any further into this fantasy day I’ll end up going to his loft, sleeping with him and breaking my own heart when I have to leave. You know sometimes I really hate my life. I mean shit everything is like a dream tonight but I know in the end nothing good can come of it, and I hate that fact more than anything else in life. “You want to go back to your car?” Brian questions me slowly, and when I look over to him I can see the confusion and hurt in his eyes. “Brian, know you it’s best this way,” I say trying to convince myself more than him. “Right, that’s what you keep telling me,” he says with a tint of anger or maybe it’s just frustration, I’m not to sure. But with the way he closes my door I am leaning towards the anger. I try and remain calm and just act as if nothing is wrong in this situation, but I tell you it’s not even close to being easy. As he gets into the Jeep he doesn’t waist any time getting it started and driving back towards the school. “I take it Debbie gave you her extra ticket?” I ask because simply put I can’t stand this awkward silence we stepped into. “Yep,” and he’s being so curt towards me and I hate it. I hate having him mad at me. “It meant a lot that you came,” I say looking directly at him, and he looks into my eyes quickly before turning them back to the road. “I really wanted to be there,” and I know he’s telling me the truth, and I kinda feel bad for not inviting him myself. “You look tired,” I say brushing a bit of hair away from his face and tucking it behind his ear. He does look a bit tired, and it worries me. “I haven’t been sleeping to well,”and he looks to me and I already know why he hasn’t been sleeping well, it’s the same reason I haven’t been sleeping well. We aren’t together. “And I’ve been working really hard the last couple of months.” “Me too,” is all I can seem to come up with. “So have you decided on what company you’re going to join?” he asks me and I feel my stomach doing flippies now. I wonder what he’d say about the New York offer?” “No, not yet,” I say because to tell you the truth I’m not sure I want to find out the answer to that. “Well I know it can’t be because there is a lack of offers,” he looks to me with furrowed brows. “No, I just haven’t figured it all out yet,” and it’s the truth, I’m not sure just where I want to be right now. “Hmm,” is all I get from him though, as we pull up to my car. He parks right next to it and turns the Jeep off. Turning towards me, so I turn towards him. “I’m really glad you came Bri.” “Me too,” he says running a hand down my cheek, and before I can stop myself I am leaning into his touch. God I have missed this so much, it hurts. I put my hand up to hold his hand there just a bit longer. “Come here,” he says and pulls me forward with the same hand until our lips touch in a feather light kiss. Slowly taking each lip into our mouths and savoring the taste of each other. It naturally progresses into a slow passionate kiss, licking and touching and tasting every part that we have both missed so much. As I try and pull away before we go to far he grabs my face with both hands so tenderly holding me a breath away from his lips and whispers, “Not yet, just not yet.” I don’t argue or try to pull back when he pulls me forward and our lips touch in another slow passionate kiss that makes every inch of me ache even more than I already do for him. When we finally pull away it’s only for the sake of needing air. But we keep our connection by putting our foreheads together. When our breathing calms down a bit I open my eyes to find Brian already staring into mine. I run my hand through his silky hair and down his cheek, I love the way he feels. Every single part of him. I peck his lips again and then I close my eyes and barie my face into his neck, holding onto him as tightly as possible as he does the same to me. I swear I want to cry right now, but I am not about to let him see me do that, especially not when it’s over him. I’m not to sure just how long we have been siting this way before I take a deep breath of him and whisper, “I should go now,” I don’t want to but I better, so I pull myself back away from him, but not before he lays a kiss against my neck that causes a shiver to run throughout my body. God I love it when he kisses me there. We disentangle ourselves from each other, and as I straighten out my clothes a bit, he says “Would you do something for me?” “Sure,” I tentatively reply. “Can you meet me tomorrow,” I watch as he pulls out a card. “At this address?” he asks handing me the card. I look it over and I notice the address to be the old bath house off Liberty Avenue. “Didn’t this place close down?” why would he want me to meet him at a bath house anyways? I don’t want to see him trick. “I don’t understand.” “The baths did close down,” he says nodding his head. “But that has nothing to do with why I want you to meet me there.” “Then why?” “It’s a surprise. So could you just do this? Meet me there?” and he’s using the puppy dog eyes that he knows I can’t refuse. Damn him. “Alright, what time.” “About 7:30?” he questions. “Why so late?” “In the morning,” “Why so early,” I ask indignantly. Because shit I planned to sleep in tomorrow. It being my first real day off and all. “Just meet me there and I will answer any questions you have then,” he says with a chuckle, and I know I must be pouting. “Don’t pout, it’ll be worth it, I promise.” then he leans over to place a peck which of course last a bit to long for normal peck standards, but who really cares when it’s his lips against mine. “I’ll see you tomorrow,” I say pulling back and turning to get out of the Jeep which became a bit easier knowing I’ll be seeing him tomorrow. “Seven-thirty,” I hear him yell as I close the door. So I just nod my head and smile as an answer, and watch as he drives off, and as I turn to get into my car I wonder why the hell he wants me to meet him in a closed down bath house.