~~~~~~~~~~~~ Authors Notes ~~~~~~~~~~~~ I hope you all enjoy this story, 'cause I really enjoyed writing it.
Justin’s POV: I’m sitting in my apartment debating my choices on quitting my the club that I have worked in since I was sixteen years old, and going to work in this new club that is quite hot right now but still new and very unestablished. See it opened up about three months ago and the owners have been trying to get me to go dance for them for a year now. I guess that one of the owners a man named Vic Grassi saw me dance one night and decided that I was the one that could help their club become one of the hottest spots in the Pitts. I refused because I had been working in the same club for almost five years. I was going to be graduating from PIFA soon and I just wanted to keep my routine the same and just wait everything out. But what can I say Vic and his business partner Emmett offered me an obscene amount of money, and I just couldn’t pass it up. So about a week ago I made the decision to move over to their club. Barry was very upset with me but what can I say I have to do what’s right for me. Barry is the one who got me started on this business, but believe it or not I am the one who established his club. I’m not trying to be all braggy or anything but before I came, his club was ready to close down. Now it is the hottest exotic male strip club in Pittsburgh. I hold many titles in the Pitts. but I could care less about them. All I ever wanted to do was get through high school and college on my own without the help of anyone else especial without the help of Craig Taylor.....not that he’d help me anyways but hey what’s it matter now? I have made a life for myself regardless. I take care of myself and have every since I was sixteen and he threw me out. God I still remember that day like it was yesterday......it was the day after my sixteenth birthday and wow was it amazing to start with but then it just went straight to hell......... See their was this boy that was staying with us for a couple of days one of my dads old friends from college’s kid. His name’s Johnathan he was seventeen and so much more experienced than I was, but god how I wanted him from the first moment I saw him. Anyways our dads decided to go out for the day drinking and fishing I do believe was on the agenda. So me an Jonathan were sitting on the couch watching god knows what.....all I could concentrate on was the fact that this gorgeous guy just a little taller than me gorgeous swimmer build deep brown eyes so dark they almost looked black with light brown hair and a slightly darker complexion than me was sitting so close to me. I kept on stealing glance at him and him at me until finally he scooted over until we were side by side, I turned my head to look into his eyes and he just smiled and leaned in to kiss me. It was so soft at first then when I felt his tongue play across my lips I opened up my mouth to him; and he slipped his tongue inside. It was the most amazing thing, I mean it was my first kiss and he was so good at it. When I started to get the hang of it the kiss depended and we had our hands all over each other I practically jumped out of my skin when I felt him touch my crouch, he pulled back and I know I looked like a deer caught in head lights at that moment he just smiled and chuckled and told me “Just relax.” the only thing I could do was nod my head, my whole body was on over load and I had a huge lump in my throat. I just knew that we were going to have sex and I wanted to so bad that I didn’t want to ruin it with my mouth. So I just relaxed as he reached for the bottom of my shirt and lifted it over my head, he sat there for a minute touching all over my chest, before he looked up to me and yanked his shirt over his head. He leaned in and started to kiss me again only this kiss was much more intense and less controlled than the first but god it made me want so much more right then. I didn’t want to wait anymore. I felt him undoing my pants and I let out a moan, he made quick work and before I knew it he had me naked laying across the couch, he stood over me undoing his pants and pulling out a condom and a small packet that I had no idea of what it was at the time before he covered my body with his. From that moment it was like my body was on autopilot I was thrusting my hips into him as he did the same making the most wonderful friction he kissed me all the way down my chest down to my cock taking me into his mouth I remember yelping it felt so amazing I didn’t think anything could feel better, I was almost there when I felt him pull away I whimpered at the loss wanting to scream. But then I felt something cold at my ass and it made me jump but Johnathan held onto my hips. “It’s cold.” I said. “I know, but I don’t want to hurt you so I have to open you up first ok?” he says with sincerely. “Ok.” I said even though I had no idea what he meant then I felt him stick his finger into me I remembered it burned a little and I tensed up but he rubbed my stomach and I relaxed into his touch’s. when I felt another finger enter me I tensed again but not as bad. But when I felt the third enter me it was almost to much. “Just relax Justin and breath I promise it’ll get better I promise.” then he hit my prostate and I just shot my load right then and there. But he didn’t stop and it was a little hard trying not to squirm away from him but when he put his mouth around my cock it was like I instantly got hard again, it was amazing and right before I was about to cum once again he removed his mouth and his fingers and settled down on top of me bringing my legs over his shoulders. I felt his dick at my entrance, then he looked at me..... “Are you ready?” he asked and I remember that my heart was pounding so hard in my chest, and I was a little scared but my excitement and just fuck my hornyness was so much more powerful at that point that I didn’t care. “Yeah.” I replied and I felt him start to push forward and it hurt so much, I think I probably made some noise cause the next thing I knew his mouth was on mine and he was putting himself all the way in to me. He moaned into our kiss as I was panting so hard but he wouldn’t let the kiss go he stopped when he was all the way inside me and I was so thankful for that. He continued to kiss me until I was relaxed again and then he pulled away and looked at me as he started to move slowly in and out of me. It started to feel better after a little while and we kissed and touched and he started to move faster and I could feel my orgasm starting and just as I was about to cum I heard him whisper “I’m cumming” and then the nightmare began....... “What the fuck is going on? Get the fuck off of him!!!!” but it was to late I was already starting to cum from his last slam into me and so we were both cumming as our fathers watched. God could you imagine anything worse......Craig was there in an instant pulling Johnathan off of me. Then it was just a bunch of yelling and screaming and both of our dads calling us fags and other choice names that I do not care to repeat or think of. We were both told that we had to give up our disgusting thoughts and get to being the straight good little boys we were brought up to be. I decided that at that moment I didn’t want to have to do that I wanted to be me not what everyone else thought I should be. So I refused what he would call an offer for the good life......well from what I had already seen it doesn’t matter how much money you have if you aren’t happy with yourself. But anyways that is when I got thrown out of my house the house I grew up, in the house with all the memories of my mom.....but we wont get into that little segment now. So I packed a bag and took my ass out of their. Poor Johnathan though he didn’t even get a choice he was just thrown out on his ass. So we set out together and since we both had savings accounts since we were little it really wasn’t a problem getting a hotel room for a while then an apartment, about a week later. I was extremely happy for that week me and Johnathan got to know each other very well and we continued on in having a sexual relationship. He taught me everything he knew in the time we were together. However my happiness didn’t last long since my dad informed the school that he would no longer pay for my education at St. James Academy. So I pulled my money and got the tuition paid myself but it sucked up most of my finances. So I knew I had to get a job. Johnathan wasn’t doing much better at the time he went to a private school as well and so he decided to enroll into St. James as well sucking up most of his finances as well. So we both went out looking for jobs. He got one waiting tables at a nice restaurant and me I got one as a janitor working the graveyard shift. We did this his entire senior year and then at the end of that year I found out he was moving away to go to Dartmouth. Imagine my surprise at that when I thought he was going to be around that our relationship meant more to him than that but hey a guy has to do what he has to do or at least that’s what he told me. Fine so he left and I was on my own completely. I had never been completely on my own before so it was quite an eye opener. Cause by myself I just couldn’t afford to keep the apartment and the car that we had shared and the utilities so I thought for sure I was going to lose everything. That’s when Barry came along, I was extremely depressed and I thought I’d go out to the club that me and Johnthan had always went to and have a little fun. Me and Johnathan never really had a closed door relationship and neither of us ever wanted it that way; we were like best friends with benefits. We would fuck but it was never love in that way. Sure I loved him, he was my friend through that year but that’s as far as it ever went we were always free to do whatever we pleased so I went to Boy Toy and was just dancing my ass off I got my dick sucked and fucked a couple of guys and at the end of the night I wasn’t feeling much better. I was walking down the alley trying to get to my car when Barry came up to me I was scared at first....... “Hey!” he yelled and I started to walk faster. I just needed to get to my car. But he stopped me with a hand on my shoulder and swung me around. “Look fucker I’m not going to fuck you so just leave me the fuck alone.” I say yanking my arm free. “Look I don’t want to fuck you.......” he says and I just look at him like ya right motherfucker. “Alright so I wouldn’t mind fucking you but that’s not why I stopped you.” “Well please enlighten me.” I tell him in my most sarcastic voice, as I cross my arms over my chest. “Alright see I have this club and well I was wondering if you had ever thought of being an exotic dancer?” my mouth just drops open I can’t believe this guy. “No can’t say that I have.” I tell him and start to walk away. But he catches up to me and walks along side of me still trying to make his point. “Well I think you could really make a ton of money off of it.” that gets my attention but I keep walking I don’t want to give away how desperate I am. “You have an amazing body and the way you move to the music will just blow every man in the place away.” I stop abruptly..... “Look.....?” “Barry.” “Look Barry I don’t know what you’re thinking but I am.....” “Hey just give it some thought and let me know what you decide it could be a great money maker and I know you could be the best in the business.” he says handing me his card and walking to what I assume is his car, and takes off.. I got into my car and headed home. I sat and thought about everything and came to the decision to give it a try and so I called Barry that Monday morning and we set up a meeting for that morning. We decided that I would try it out that night since Mondays were always slow and see how everything went. I must admit it was weird at first but it wasn’t as bad as I thought it was going to be so I continued to do it and I started to draw in the crowds. It was nice and a little validating. Even if that sounds weird to you. It meant that I could take care of myself and I didn’t have to worry about my money situation any more cause in-between the janitorial job and the exotic dancing I was making really good money and since after I started the exotic dancing I didn’t have the time to go out anymore I started saving money and making sure I had enough to go to PIFA which I had decided on after Johnathan and I had a talk about my future one night. So I have worked and worked and worked and studied hard to get where I am today and trust me even if the money thing was situated it didn’t mean the rest of my life was. I was so naive’ when I started this business and well it just didn’t go over very well but I guess it just has to be learned since no one was willing to teach me the ropes at the time. See one thing you need to learn is to never trust anything at face value, and never ever trust a first impression, and always keep your distance. Never date anyone that goes to your club; customer or coworker it will never work and it will always end in disaster. I have had a couple of thoughs kinds of situations and have seen countless others do the same. Never let anyone into your personal business; just keep it to yourself no one else needs to know. It will only complicate your life in the end. Last but not least keep to yourself and just do your job.....that’s all you’re their for, your not their to socialize, or make friends. Now that doesn’t mean be down right rude to anyone I was brought up better than that but if you are to nice to the customers some think that you want more and then they try to get it from you. They become stalkers and such; I have had a couple of close calls over the years and I don’t wish that for anymore. As for the friends thing. In this business I have found that the guys are just to jealous or to much into themselves to ever be a true friend so why bother they are just acquaintance’s and leave it at that. So these are some good rules to live by in this business, or at least they are for me. I look at the clock and see that it’s almost eight o’ clock, and time for me to head out. When I get to the club I take the back entrance made for us dancers, and various other employees and make my way up stairs to the dancers floor. It’s an amazing club. We have the top floor and then below us are two dance floors and then below thoughs is a back room that is massive. It’s the size of a dance floor, totally in cased in blue lights with couches and chairs anything you could ever want in a back room. I really haven’t had a chance to try it out and now that I work here I doubt I ever will but it’s a great room. I did however come to dance here last week on my 21st birthday and they have a great sound system and lighting and tv’s and laser effects. Anyways our part is what really did it for me it has a huge stage with three poles and built in side bars and benches. It is like an exotic dancers dream stage. So when I saw it and they offered me the money I couldn’t pass it up. It really was a great birthday. “Hey baby you all set for tonight?” Emmett asks me as he makes his way into the dressing room. “Yeah I’m all set. Besides it’s pretty much the same old thing that I have done for the last five years.” he’s a really sweet guy from what I have seen so far but like I said never trust a first impression. “I know. I am really glad you decided to come And dance here I’m sure your going to love it we have a lot of great people working here, that I’m sure you’ll just love.” obviously he hasn’t been in this business very long if he thinks that. But I’ll play along. “I’m sure I will.” I say returning to getting myself ready. “Alright well I’ll let you get back to getting ready. But if you need anything just let me or Vic know alright?” he says from the door way. I turn to face him and reply. “Thank I’m sure that I’m fine though. Oh but do you have all my music set up for tonight?” I ask him my music is one of the keys to everything. “Yes everything is ready and I even checked everything myself.” he says with a smile. “Thank you Emmett I really appreciate that.” I tell him. “Call me Em honey everyone does, plus I like Em better anyways.” he says as he makes his way down the stairs. I finish getting ready and put on my costume. I am the first one up since I will be the new head liner here. So everyone else has just started to arrive they are introducing themselves to me and I can see the distaste they have for me already. But again like I said you’re here to do a job nothing else. I make my way over to the set of stairs that leads down to the center of the stage and as I hear my song start to play I start my dissent. I hear Em making my introduction now. “Gentlemen and gentlemen. It is with great pleasure that Forever Young may introduce it’s newest exotic dancer. You no doubt have heard of him he is the number one exotic dancer in the state for the last four years and now has decide to grace us with his presence, here is the infamous JUSTIN!!!!!!” oh dear god why did he have to say all that shit. Like I said before I could care less about all those titles but I guess others think it is some great a achievement, which in a way I guess it is cause I know others want that title. But the infamous Justin what’s that all about a simple here’s Justin would have sufficed. Ah fuck it what do I really care? That’s right I don’t. FYFYFYFYFYFYFYFYFYFYFYFYFYFYFYFYFYFYFYFYFYFYFYFYFYFYFYFYFYFYFY Brian’s POV: I have been listening to nothing else for the last year and a half but we are going to do this with the club and that with the new club and what do you think of this or do you think we should go for that? God it’s been infuriating. Not to mention that ever since Vic saw this exotic dancer he has been practically obsessed with having him work in their new club. When I heard they finally got the guy to come dance in the club I couldn’t help myself I had to be here to see what the big fuss was all about. Hearing Em’s introduction I chuckled. I mean jesus this guy can’t be all that....the infamous Justin. Oh please. But the crowd is going absolutely wild. Jeeze this is pretty unbelievable. The song is already playing it’s High School. This is a good song. I see the stairs lighting up and I’m guessing that, that’s him I see coming down the stairs in; oh yeah some tan chaps with fringe on the sides and oh god look at that ass. Ummm. That’s really just...... Wow! He’s got his head down so I can’t see his face all I can see is him turning around and his tan vest opened so you can see his absolutely gorgeous chest god maybe I was wrong about this guy after all oh do I see a nipple ring? Yes I do. Jesus I rub my hand over my face trying to calm myself down a bit. This is not something I expected. However this could still be ok. I mean he could be a complete and total dog. He throws off his hat and turns his head in the opposite direction and the crowd is on their feet. Shit I can’t see from where I am at the bar. Fuck how do I get a good look with out being noticeable? Fuck! Oh here we go the crowd is starting to give a little and I can see an opening but his back is towards me and there he is......my breath hitches in my throat and I can’t believe this. My god he’s a gay mans wet dream. He’s gorgeous. Blonde hair, blue eyes, he looks like he’s 16 or 17 tops but I know that can’t be Em and Vic would never hire anyone under age. He looks so innocent, oh but look at the way he moves.....now that’s not so innocent. I shift a little trying my damndest to relieve some of the pressure he has caused. God I can’t believe this. He’s not even my type but still I have to have this man. I’m going to have this man. How is it that I have never seen him before? I just don’t have a clue. Here comes Em. Maybe I can get some information out of him, he’s always to eager to give out the gossip without thought of the other persons prying. “Hey Bri. You finally decided to come and see the show hunh?” “Thought I’d check it out.” I say in a non chalant manner. Taking a swig off my beer. “I’m glad you finally came. So what do you think of our newest dancer?” he says gesturing towards the stage. I feel myself tense up a bit I mean he can’t say what do you think of Justin? I shake my head and focus on the goal here. “Not half bad.” I say. “I know I couldn’t believe that we finally got him to come and dance here he is a very hard person to convince it took us over a year to get him here.” “Yes I know you two have talked about nothing else since Vic saw him.” I say in a board manner. “Well I’m sure you can see why.....I mean he is going to make our club the hottest club in Pittsburgh, not to mention a lot of money.” he says with a big smile. I just look at him like he’s lost his fucking mind. This is not the Emmett that I know. He seems to be totally focused on what this kid can bring in for him, like he’s not even a person. “What?” he asks me and I shake my head trying to get my emotions; jesus I can’t believe what is going on with me. “Nothing....it just seems like you are becoming a ruthless business man that’s all.” I say with a smirk. I wanna see his reaction. “God no I just meant that when he started in this business he was working in a club where the doors were ready to close; then he started dancing there and it became the hottest exotic club in Pittsburgh. I’m just hoping that he can do the same for us.” he says. Humh. “So what’s he like then?” I wonder if he even knows? “Oh he’s a sweet heart or so it seems. But he does seem a little distant.” “Oh why’s that?” I ask. “I don’t know he just seems standoffish in a way. Like he only wants to do his job no small talk just right to the point most the time.” he says thoughtfully. I nod my head trying to understand why he would be like that. “He’s not rude or anything but he doesn’t go out of his way to make friendly conversation either. But then again I really haven’t had a chance to talk that much with him.” “Ah I see. So how old is this kid he looks like he can’t be more than 17 years old.” “No, no me and Vic would never do anything to harm our business we checked his back round and he just turned 21 a week ago. So he is perfectly legal.” “Wait a minute you said in his introduction that he was voted the best exotic dance for the last four years?” I question. “Yeah well he has been dancing for about 4 and a half to five years but he had a fake ID. Which has nothing to do with us now, cause he’s legal.” he says looking over to stage. I do as well and become transfixed once again as I see that he has taken off his vest and is slowly undoing his pants. He opens them up and I look to his face and see the most gorgeous heart stopping smile I have ever seen. “Gorgeous.” I say under my breath. “Did you say something Brian?” Em says looking at me. I shake my head... “No, I didn’t say anything.” I see Emmett shifting around and see him handle his cock trying to get it into a more comfortable position. I hate the fact that he is getting hard off of Justin but I really can’t blame him either I got hard practically on the first site. I just shift my gaze back to the stage and watch as he finally takes his pants all the way off, and toss them to the floor at the beginning of the run way. I vaguely hear yelling and hollering in the back round but my attention is mainly on the gorgeous blonde on stage. I see money flying onto the stage and I know I must have an extremely horrible look on my face but I just hate watching him up their and I can’t help it. I have no idea what’s going on with me. I have never in my life felt like this before. I think I may be losing my mind. This is just all to strange. I see him stop dancing and take a bow. And I am still looking not to pleased I know.....but then all the sudden he looks at me; right in the eyes and his smile starts to fade, It feels like he is trying to find something. I have no idea what he could be looking for. He shakes his head and looks away from me smile firmly back in place he waves and turns to go off the side of the stage. “God he is so amazing on that stage. Absolutely captivating.” I nod my head not being able to say anything, that was extremely unnerving. His eyes are so beautiful and so captivating on their own I felt like I couldn’t get away from them. “Brian? Brian are you alright?” I hear him ask. “Yeah I’m fine why wouldn’t I be?” I say. Turning and looking him in the eye, hoping that will make it more believable. He stares at me for a second. “Humh? You know Bri I could introduce you to him. I’m sure from the way I saw him looking at you he’d love to meet you.” he says turning to the bar and signaling the bartender. “Why isn’t that sweet of you. But I have never nor will I ever need yours or anyone else’s help getting a guy.” I say with a chuckle. Can you believe the audacity of this man? Like I would ever need anyone’s help getting a guy. I’m the fucking stud of Liberty Ave. “How could I possibly forget.” “You know I really have no idea how you could possibly forget.” I tell him with a smile. “Maybe just maybe it was because I caught the way you were looking at Justin?” I start to say something to refute that statement but before I can he continues. “But you know I could be completely wrong of course and maybe I didn’t see that certain look in your eyes.” he says. “I have no idea what the fuck you’re talking about Emmett.” I tell him angrily. “Of course you don’t Brian.” he says taking his cosmo and moving off into the crowd. I just watch him go; dumb founded. He saw a change in me. How did this happen? What am I going to do? FYFYFYFYFYFYFYFYFYFYFYFYFYFYFYFYFYFYFYFYFYFYFYFYFYFYFYFYFYFYFY Justin’s POV: Oh my god, oh my god. I just saw the most gorgeous man on the face of this earth. When I finished my dance I just felt this pull to look in his direction and I never feel that...... I never directly look anyone in the eyes when I am on the stage. But he just had a way of pulling me in. He looked angry and upset. I couldn’t understand it and I tried to find the answer in his eyes cause I just needed to know. I have no idea why. But I did. But when I looked into his eyes and searched...... their were to many walls put up and I just couldn’t get through them. When I realized what I was doing however I shook my head and looked away quickly, and got off the stage as fast as possible. I have no idea what I was thinking. But those eyes and god he was just so beautiful. I still have two more dances to get through before I can get out of here and I am just hoping that he isn’t around for any of them. Lord please. 1:30 am. I’m heading out now and I decided to head down to the first floor and grab a couple of shots before I head home. God knows I need it after the night I had. He stayed for the second dance but left in the middle of it. I was so thankful but still so thrown off. I’ve never had anyone affect me like that before and it is very unnerving. When I get to the bar I tell the bar tender to give me a shot of beam. Which he gets to me right away at no charge he says and I nod my head in thanks. Then I feel that pull again but this time I don’t look over. I decided after the first time I couldn’t afford to do it again so I avoided it at all cost. As I’m doing now. But I guess he has different plans for me. “Buy you a drink?” he asks sliding up to me. God his voice is just so perfect I want to drowned. And oh god he smells so good. Snap out of it Taylor. “Nope I’m good.” I say as I down my shot and slam the glass down. I signal the batender for another though. As the bartender pours the next shot I hear the gorgeous man continue. “I thought you said you were good?” I slam back the shot and..... “And I am.” I signal the bartender for another. “Well why don’t I buy this one then?” as I get the next shot I pull out my wade of money and throw down a couple of bills and throw it down on the bar, I grab the shot and down it, putting my walls firmly in place I turn to him, look him in the eye, it sends shivers down my spine just looking into his gorgeous eyes they are so intense. “Look.... “Brian Kinney.” “Brian whatever you’re thinking, you can just stop it right now. There is no way you are going to fuck me so I suggest you just leave it at that.” I say with a smile at the end, and turn back to the bar. “One more please.” I say. God I can’t believe I have to turn this guy down I bet he would be the best lay of my life.....but with him being a customer then me feeling the way I do already about him it just is so not a good idea. Ever since Johnathan left regardless of the terms of our non relationship I did love him as a friend and it just seemed that I should just stay away from anyone that I think I could become attached to no matter what the circumstances. So if I ever find myself in the situation that I do now I just don’t even get involved. I turn my back on the whole situation. Regardless of the circumstances. Even if he wasn’t a customer I would still turn away from him. FYFYFYFYFYFYFYFYFYFYFYFYFYFYFYFYFYFYFYFYFYFYFYFYFYFYFYFYFYFYFY Brian’s POV: Wow he is so gorgeous when he’s feisty. And those eyes are even more amazing up close. I really want this man more than I have ever wanted anyone before. So if he thinks I’m giving up he has another thing coming. “Well...... feeling better now that you’ve gotten that out?” I ask him as I prop myself up on the bar with my elbow. He puts his head down on the bar, mumbles something and then stands up straight and throws back his shot. He turns to me and with a wasp smile says. “It was nice meeting you Mr. Kinney I hope you enjoyed the show.” then turns and walks away towards the back of the bar. Disappearing through a curtain. I stand their open mouth for a second before I pull myself together. I can’t believe that he just turned away from me. Like I wasn’t worth his time. Well I know that it’s not true I know he feels something for me. I could tell by the look in his eyes, when he was on that stage, and from the way he just looked at me now. But I must say he has an amazing set of walls set up. But being me the master of walls I can see threw the majority of them. I wonder if he could see through any of mine? I’m going to have to be more careful of that. I wouldn’t want him to see how he affects me. I’m also going to have to watch out for Emmett, cause how he saw what he saw I have no idea. But then again Justin kinda sets everything in me off balance. Oh I need to take my mind off of all this. I move onto the dance floor and find a likely candidate for the job and move over to him, “I’m gonna fuck you, I’m gonna fuck you all night long.” I whisper into his ear leaning back I see a huge smile on his face and I lead him out of the club and back to the loft.