Chapter 13
Brian Kinney’s Loft Pittsburgh Pennsylvania 11:30 PM December 31, 2018 Two naked bodies, one blond one brunet, lay entwined on a large, old fashioned, bed. The bed clothes had been pushed onto the floor by the activities of the two men. “Why’re you staring at me like that ‘senior‘?” Those beautiful blue eyes are going to be the death of me. He looks at me with that innocent look and I want to do anything he wants me to do. I think I’m beginning to understand how Gus feels about Alex. Not that I’d ever be as jealous over someone as Gus is about Alex. At least I don’t think I’d be that jealous. “Do I have to have a reason to look at your handsome face? I don’t think I’m ever going to get use to that silly nickname you saddled me with. Luckily you‘re the only one that uses it.” I say the stupidest things when I’m around this man. I wonder if that means anything? I love it when he pushes his cheek out with his tongue. I think I’m beginning to understand how Alex feels about Gus. “You aren’t just looking at me; you’re staring a hole into my soul.” I don’t believe I said something that stupid. I can’t believe how happy I am just because he’s in my arms. Of course the fact that his cock is stirring again makes me happy too. I can’t remember a time when I came so many times without actually fucking the trick. Of course ‘senior’ isn’t a trick. “I guess I’m staring because I don’t have the strength to move my head. I never knew a hand job could be so exhausting. For the most renowned top in Pittsburgh you give a hell of a blow job but I’ve never had a better hand job in my life, including when I jack myself off, but I can‘t kiss myself while jacking off and my other hand can only reach a limited part of my body. It‘s amazing that as long as you lived in New York you still have such a strong reputation here in Pittsburgh.” I wish I could see if he’s as good at fucking as the rumors claim he is. I’m very tempted to give in and let him fuck me, regardless of the risk. It’s nice knowing that his cock is stirring again just because he’s holding me in his arms. We are going to have to clean up soon or we’ll be stuck together forever. “You’re no slouch when it comes to giving blow jobs either Justin. What can I say; I was spectacular back in the day, but don’t worry I have a reputation in New York too.” At this point in time if he were to ask I’d roll over which would defy all the myths about ‘Brian fucking Kinney‘. I can’t remember the last time I even thought about letting another guy fuck me but for some reason I like the idea of letting this beautiful blond into my ass. Taylor House Suburban Pittsburgh Pennsylvania 11:30 PM December 31, 2018 Two naked bodies, one blond one brunet, lay entwined on a twin bed. The bed clothes had tangled up on the footboard from the activities of the two young men. While neither penis was erect they both were engorged, both chests and bellies covered in semen. “Will it always be this good Gus? How many times have we fucked each other and every time has been great. Will every time you stick your pretty prick up my ass feel so good? Will every time I thrust my cock up your rear feel just as good? But to be totally truthful the time we fucked each other while we were still in costume after the first performance of the play was the best. I‘ll bet we could‘ve sold tickets for that performance too. Romeo fucking Juliet wouldn‘t have surprised many but Juliet fucking Romeo would‘ve blown some minds” I sure hope every time we fuck will feel as good as it did tonight. I know we’re too young to marry but I want to be with Gus for as long as I live. “I hope so Alex, I hope so. That time after the play was special to me too. I think sneaking into the costume closet had something to do with why it was so good. I don’t know why Brian, I mean my Dad, is so insistent on being a total top since it feels so good when you fuck me. I keep telling him he should give it a try and he keeps looking at me like I’m a naive idiot. It’s surprising that as old as he is that he’s still a virgin in that way.” Wouldn’t it be cool if Mr. Taylor would be the one to take my Dad’s cherry and Dad the one to take Mr. Taylor’s cherry. It would be so symmetrical since I took Alex’s cherry and he took mine. I’m so glad I waited to have sex until I met Alex. I could’ve had my choice of guys from the time I realized I was gay but none of them seemed right. Who knew that all of that matchmaking would actually work instead of pushing Dad and Mr. Taylor apart? I just love looking at Alex’s cock since it’s so pretty even when it’s not rock hard, which doesn’t happen that often when we’re together especially when we‘re naked. I wish I‘d had a camera with me that night after the play so I could’ve taken a picture of his cock sticking out of Juliet‘s gown.. Alex suddenly gave Gus a sunshine smile. “Why’re you smiling like that Alex? Well besides how good you feel from my fucking you. That wasn‘t too conceited was it?” I really like fucking him and sucking him and jacking him off and just holding him. “I was just thinking how lucky we were that our Dads started going out after all of the matchmaking instead of running into the West Virginia hills to escape crazy female matchmakers.” I wish the two would just ignore their rules and fuck each other. Everyone agrees that Gus and I look exactly like our Dads so if we really like fucking each other then they should too. I can’t describe how good I feel with Gus’ cock up my ass or my cock in his mouth so I know Dad would feel the same if he’d just let Mr. Kinney fuck him. Brian’s Loft “It’s not hard to give a good blowjob when you have such a fine cock to work with Brian. You do know you have a fine cock don‘t you?” Why do I say such stupid things when I’m around Brian? I almost hate to admit it to myself but I think I’m in love. It’s a very fine cock though, long but thin enough that I don’t have any problems taking every inch. I really like playing with his balls too. If I didn’t know better I couldn’t tell that one is a prosthetic. It said something that he told me about his cancer scare. “Yes I know I have a fine cock, guys have been telling me that for over thirty years. I don’t want to brag but my fine cock is pretty good at other sexual acts.” I hope that doesn’t scare him off. But I really want to fuck that extraordinary bubble butt. It’s funny that in my dreams we were versatile with each other but in real life neither of us has been willing to let the other up his ass. Of course it’s amazing that my dreams turned out to be as real as they are. “Brian I don’t get fucked but I’ve been told that I do a pretty good job of topping. I could see if you agree with the others if you want me to fuck you.” Ask again and I’ll take the risk and let you fuck my bubble butt. I know I like it when I use my dildo while jacking off. I wish I could remember my one time getting fucked though. “Justin I haven’t had a cock up my ass since before you had any idea that your dick could be used for anything besides pissing.” Why did I tell him that? Ask again Justin and I’ll probably roll over without thinking about it.. For some reason I like the idea of letting him fuck me. I just know he’ll be a wonderful top. “What happened that made you quit?” If Alex tells me about the joy of versatility one more time I think I might scream. I’ve always been open with my son about everything but I never knew he would want to tell me how good he feels when his boyfriend rams his cock up his ass. Gus is a wonderful boy but I don’t want to know exactly how long and fat his cock is and how it stimulates my son’s prostrate with every stroke. I don’t want to know how pretty his cock is nestled in his thatch of pubic hair and I really don’t want to know how good it tastes. Brian’s tastes pretty good too and if his soft cock was much smaller it would disappear in that jungle of hair between his legs. “I don’t really remember why I stopped. I suppose some trick did a very poor job and I just didn’t see the need and after a few years my reputation as a top got so big that I didn’t want to risk it by rolling over. Justin I don’t know how to say this without sounding like an idiot but I’m going to say it anyway.” At least his cock won’t tear me open. It’s a nice cock, rock hard and straight as an arrow, but it can only be described as average in length and width. His balls are huge and no one could doubt he’s a natural blond with that beautiful blond bush surrounding his package. I’ve never understood why so many guys shave their balls and trim their pubes since an untamed pubic bush is so much more sexy than shaved nuts. “You never sound like an idiot. Go ahead and I promise not to laugh, I might giggle but I won’t laugh.” I have a feeling that we might make Gus and Alex happy and indulge in some versatility before the new year is very old. After all what is the likelihood of it happening again? Of course the only thing that turns Brian on more than my ‘sunshine smile’ is my giggle. Alex’s Bedroom “Gus do you think it’ll get too weird if our Dads become a serious couple instead of just friends who enjoy each others bodies? What will it be like if they decide to live together?” It doesn’t really matter since I’m not going to give you up no matter what Dad and Mr. Kinney decide to do. “It became weird the first time they went out on a date. They’d have to buy a bigger place to live since this house and the loft aren’t big enough for the two of them and us too. I thought Deb was going to faint when I told her that Brian, I mean my Dad, was going out on a date.” I couldn’t believe how happy Mom was when I told her. She’s getting better about me and Alex but she still thinks we’re too young to be so exclusive. But I just can’t imagine having sex with anyone else. I suppose having a third guy who we both fuck would be possible but I can’t imaging being able to be in the same state, let alone in the same bed, while some other guy fucks Alex and not beating that guy into a pulp. I know I have to control my jealousy but Alex is mine and I’m going to protect what is mine as long as I possibly can. I don’t think he’d handle some other guy fucking me much better though. “Emmett just told me that it was about time that someone got through Brian’s walls. I’m not sure I know what that means Gus. I’ve been trying to convince my Dad that he should enjoy the joy of versatility but he just starts giggling. I’m not sure what that means either.” All the stories about Mr. Kinney, that I’ve heard at the Diner, say that he’s a wonderful top. That tops who had never been fucked before begged him to take their cherry. Dad could lose his anal virginity to a master of the art if he’d just give it a chance. I know he likes using that dildo he has when he’s jacking off so he’d have to enjoy getting fucked by a master like Mr. Kinney. I just can’t imagine not having Gus fuck me any more than I can’t imagine not fucking him. I can’t imagine watching some other guy fuck Gus without beating the shit out of him. I know that Gus would explode before he’d let someone else fuck me. God I love him so much I can‘t stand it sometimes. “Maybe we should ask them if they want to go on a double date with us. That would certainly start the gossip mills going. Now that’s just an icky thought. “That’s a horrid idea Gus. I like the idea of our Dads dating but I don’t really want to see them kissing and I’ll bet they really don’t want to see us kissing either. My Dad has always been very open with me about everything but he almost gets green when I start talking about how good you make me feel when you’re fucking me.” I really couldn’t believe I told Dad that even as I was saying it. But it felt so good to tell someone about how good I feel when Gus and I are together. “You told your Dad that? I couldn’t tell my Dad that in a thousand years though I’m pretty sure that he knows since I get a boner whenever I talk about you to him. It was kind of embarrassing to be talking to him about how well I knew my lines for the play and how much I was looking forward to performing the play with you and to look down and see my cock sticking out of my gym shorts. I do like it that just thinking about you gives me a hard on. He’d shit a brick if he knew that I’d noticed but one day he was talking to your Dad on the phone and I thought that his pants were going to split he got such a boner. Hell I’m hard again which mean I have to fuck you again.” I hope he doesn’t take that wrong. “You know Gus I could take that the wrong way but I know what you meant. But in case you haven’t noticed my cock is just as hard as yours is so I guess that means we have to fuck each other again. Let’s go take a bath and do it in there for some variety.” I don’t know why but I really like fucking in the shower and doing it in that tub should be enjoyable as well. I think I’m going to surprise the hell out of Gus this spring when I suggest that we fuck in the showers at school after one of the spring play rehearsals. Maybe I’ll surprise him even more and suggest that we use that double headed dildo I got through the mail. I’m not really sure how we’re supposed to do it but I suppose I could ask Emmett. Brian’s Loft “Justin Taylor I’ll let you fuck me if you let me fuck you.” God did that sound stupid and juvenile or just plain idiotic? “I said I wouldn’t laugh Brian but I had no idea you’d say something quite that funny. ‘I can fuck you if I let you fuck me‘, I haven’t heard anything like that since I was 13 and Tommy Schneider said he’d show me his if I showed him mine. Of course I turned him down but I saw him in gym class a couple of years later and he didn’t have anything worth looking at.” He doesn’t want to know stupid things like that. “I know how stupid it sounded but I really want to make love to you. In my dreams we were versatile with each other and I want that in reality too. I know I can make you feel wonderful by sucking you off and by jerking you off but I can make you feel better than you’ve ever felt in your life if you’ll let me fuck you. I know how conceited that sounds but it’s the truth. I also think that you’ll fuck me into the mattress and make me as happy as I’ve ever been. I’ll be taking your anal virginity and you’ll take mine, well it’s been almost thirty years since I last got fucked so it’ll feel like being fucked for the first time.” I don’t believe I said all of that. But I do want to fuck him and I do want to get fucked by him. I can’t believe I’m thinking this but I want to be with him forever too. “Brian I’m not an anal virgin either.” I suppose I have to tell him the whole story and hope he doesn’t throw me out the door. “What does that mean? I thought you said you had been a top all of your life the first time I hinted about fucking that perfect bubble butt.” I didn’t think I could get any more corny. But just thinking about that ass gets me as hard as I’ve ever been in my life. I couldn’t believe that I got so hard that it hurt one day when I was just talking to him on the phone and I know that Gus knew full well what was going on. At least he was kind enough not to say anything about me getting hard just because of a phone call. But then he doesn’t have a lot of leeway since he gets hard just thinking about Alex. I know it’s wrong but I’m glad he didn’t inherit all of my traits. “I’ve never been fucked that I can remember and before you ask I know how idiotic that sounds. I have a long and complicated story that explains this but you have to promise me to hear the entire story before you throw me out of the loft. I’ve never told anyone this story since I’ve never thought anyone would believe me. Brian I do want to let you fuck me. I know that you’ll make me feel wonderful, based on everything else you’ve done to me and on the gossip about you on Liberty Avenue. But I’m afraid that something will happen that I’m not really sure I want to go through again.” He has a very worried look on his face, I wonder if he’ll let me finish the story before laughing his head off and throwing me out of his life? “You have me worried but go ahead and tell your story and I promise to hear you out before I throw you out into the snow. Like that’s going to happen ‘senior‘. He’s very serious about whatever this is. I have to keep a straight face no matter how silly the story seems to me. Taylor Spare Room Gus and Alex were lounging in an old fashioned, home, hot tub. They were sitting so that they faced each other with their legs entwined. “Alex I’m surprised that a house this small has a tub like this. But why is it in it’s own room instead of in the bathroom?” Do I really care since soaking in this hot water with the man I love is wonderful. “According to the rental agent the owner’s father won it in some contest but the bathroom wasn’t big enough to put it in so they installed it here since this room wasn’t being used as a bedroom at the time. We don’t use it very often since it uses all of the water in the water heater. But it sure feels good, especially with you sitting opposite of me and using your feet to fondle my dick and balls. As much as I love you Gus it’s going to be a while before we can do anything more tonight.” He knows as well as I do that I’m getting hard again from his feet fondling me. I wonder if Dad and Mr. Kinney had a good time on their New Year’s Eve date? I really hope that they listened to me and Gus and gave versatility a try. It’s kind of odd to be wishing that my father got fucked tonight but I do want him to be happy and I think Mr. Kinney would be good for him and I know he would be good for Mr. Kinney. I know how good I feel with Gus’ cock up my ass so I know he’d have to feel as good with Mr. Kinney’s cock up his ass. “You have that smile again Alex, what’re you thinking now?” Do I really care what he’s thinking? He might claim he can’t do anything more tonight but his cock is hardening again. Who knew my feet could arouse him as much as my hands? My cock is hardening again too, just knowing that I excite him is enough to excite me. I hope Dad and Mr. Taylor had a good time tonight and that they gave the idea of fucking each other at least a thought. Of course thinking about my father getting his ass filled for the first time in his life is kind of disturbing. “I was thinking that our Dads might have listened to us and given versatility a chance tonight. At least I hope they did even if the thought of them fucking each other is kind of weird. Just because your feet have given me another hard on doesn’t mean we have to fuck again.” Who am I kidding of course we’re going to fuck again, probably more than once. God how much do I love this guy? “Of course it does, if we get hard and it’s at all possible then we have to fuck each other. It’s in the bylaws of our relationship. Isn’t it in the ‘Rules of Being a Parent’ that once your kids are old enough to know what’s going on you have to become celibate? By the way did you have any idea that our relationship wasn’t a secret from the student body? I thought we were so circumspect about how we feel about each other.” Boy was that announcement a surprise. “Bylaws when did you write bylaws? It’s nice to know that we’re obligated to fuck each other and not just because we like doing it. I thought that we had been very careful and that no one at the school had any idea we were a couple.” Boy was that announcement a surprise. “I wrote the bylaws about two seconds after you agreed to be my boyfriend. It came as a complete surprise to me when we were announced as the Kings of the Winter Carnival. At least they didn’t try to make one of us the Queen.” I’m glad that the surprise of the announcement kept us from springing boners when they had us come up to the stage and put the crowns on each other. Of course it was a shock when the drama club started chanting ‘kiss, kiss, kiss, and everyone else in the room joined in. It really didn’t surprise me when Alex pulled my face down and kissed the shit out of me though the applause was a surprise. “I voted for you Gus but I had no idea anyone would vote for me.” When we fucked wearing the crowns later that night was almost as good as when we fucked wearing our costumes after the play. What the hell anytime we fuck is good. Looking back we wasted a lot of time before we fucked that first time because we were afraid to do anything without perfect privacy. Hell now I’d fuck him in my room even if Dad were home. “Alex do you want to fuck here in this tub or go back to your bed? Alex you do know that if you don’t want to fuck all you have to do is say no?” Don’t say no, don’t say no. What’s wrong with me, I’ve lost count of how my times I’ve come tonight and I’m worried that he’ll say no? “You’re kidding aren’t you Gus? I’m never going to say no, if I’m physically able then I want to fuck and be fucked by you anytime and anywhere. I know that you feel the same way so why’re you worried that you’re forcing yourself on me. You may be bigger than me but not so much that you can force me to do anything I don’t want to do. What I want to do right now is turn on the jets, then I’ll climb onto you and sink down on your beautiful cock. Then to make everything symmetrical you can then do the same and sink down on my cock. When we’re done we’ll have to call it a night though. I know your Mom is getting better about our relationship but we still have to get you home before the extremely liberal curfew she gave you for tonight arrives. I wonder if my Dad will make his curfew. He‘s out on a hot date with a very hot guy you know.” I wonder if I’m ever not going to want to fuck Gus or will he ever not be enough for me? “Sounds like a very good plan to me Sunshine. I love that nickname Deb gave you but I don’t think your Dad likes the one my Dad gave him. Do you really think my Dad is hot?” I hope those two are half as happy tonight as Alex and I are right now and for the same reasons. “Well would any older guy like being called ‘senior‘? Of course your Dad is hot but not nearly as hot as his first born son.” I hope he still isn’t worried that I would prefer his Dad to him. “I’m not sure my Dad or yours would like being called an older guy either Alex.” I can’t wait until we can spend the night together. I just want to be able to wake up some morning and see those beautiful blue eyes staring into my soul. I wonder when it’ll be the right time to ask him to live with me when we go to college next fall? Brian’s Loft “Brian, I know that this story is going to sound ridiculous but you have to believe me when I tell you that it really happened this way. I told you that I don’t get fucked but that ignored the fact that I did get fucked once. I haven’t let any man into my ass since because I didn’t like what happened at the time though I‘m very happy it happened now.” He hasn’t run away screaming yet. “Was it that bad, I can guarantee that I can do better than that. Wait a minute that makes no sense at all.” I’m being conceited again. I really have no idea where this story is going. “I don’t even remember it happening so I have no idea how good it was. It was the result of that fucking that I haven’t been willing to risk have happen again.” I hope that makes at least some sense. “You’re not making a lot of sense ‘senior’. I’d better let him tell this story without any more interruptions if I want to hear the entire story. “Go ahead Justin I’ll try not to interrupt any more.” “Thanks, it’s going to be hard to tell this story without interruptions. But as strange as it’s going to sound it did happen.” I’m pushing the truthfulness too much. He’ll believe or he won’t but I know it happened. “Before you start again let me summarize what you’ve told me. You got fucked once, you don’t remember it happening, you didn’t like the result when it happened but you’re happy it happened now.” This is going to be some story. “That about sums it up. OK I’ll tell the story from the beginning.” The beginning is usually a good place to start but looking into those hazel eyes just gets me all hot and bothered and I don‘t know what I‘m saying. “That’s always a good place to start ‘senior’.” I’m interrupting again. If we’re going to have any kind of future he’s just going to have to get used to me interrupting him every other world. Its strange but there was a time when I didn’t talk when I should’ve and now I talk when I shouldn’t. “I graduated from High School in 2001, a very prestigious private school in New York by the way. I’d been sure I was gay for years but I was afraid to do anything to find out for sure. Part of it was just fear of the unknown and part was fear of what my asshole father would do if he found out I was even having such thoughts let alone doing anything about them. In March of 2001 I finally got enough courage to do something about my feelings. On a Friday night I told my folks I was going to a party but instead I got on the train to ‘The Village’ where I figured I would lose my virginity and know for sure if I was gay.” This’s going easier than I expected. “I know I wasn’t going to interrupt but that was a very stupid thing to do.” Like I can really talk about doing stupid things because of wanting sex. If he only knew how I lost my virginity. Sucking that gym teacher off in the shower and then letting him fuck me in his office the next day. I never told anyone, not even Mikey, about the fuck. As I remember it certainly wasn’t the best fuck I ever got he just pulled down my gym shorts and jock, bent me over his desk and plunged in. At least he spent a little time preparing me to get a cock up my ass and he did reach around and jack me off. I know that I‘ve never took anyone‘s virginity that roughly in the almost 30 years since I lost mine. He never even really looked at me again, so it was a good thing that we moved away from that part of town that summer so that I didn‘t have to deal with his ignoring me. “I knew that but I figured what the hell I wanted to know what gay sex really felt like and off I went. Based on what happened later I figured that I managed to get fucked but I have no memory of anything after I got off the train and walked under a street light outside of a club. That’s not completely true, I sort of remember some guy walking across the street towards me. The next memory I have was waking up in my bed at home. I thought for a couple of months that I had chickened out and went home before anything happened. But then I started getting sick every morning and I decided that some guy must have given me something that caused me to black out about what happened and that my daily vomiting was some kind of late acting side effect. After my graduation my mother had to go to my grandparents house, in Maine, because my grandmother was having surgery and my homophobic grandfather couldn’t make himself a peanut butter sandwich. The last thing I remember her saying was that if I was a girl she would think I was pregnant. As things turned out I didn’t speak to her again until this year when she found us here in Pittsburgh. I should’ve gotten in touch with her years ago but my pride wouldn’t let me, I should’ve known that she didn’t know what my father had done. I’m getting ahead of the story.” I think that I was worried that if I got in touch with Mom I’d have gone crawling back home. “Don’t worry Justin just tell the story the way you want to.” I’ve got to quit interrupting him. “About the first of June I was coming down the stairs and I had the worst pain of my life. I fell down from that pain but all my Dad could say was that it was a good thing that none of his friends were there to see me be too clumsy to walk down the stairs without tripping over my own feet. I just laid there with this horrible pain and he finally realized that something was wrong and actually got me up and took me to the neighborhood clinic. Now remember we lived in a very snooty neighborhood so this was a very fancy clinic. Dr. Smith had every medical device necessary to run a clinic that was almost able to do anything a hospital emergency room could do. He prided himself on his discretion and because he was located in such a wealthy neighborhood he was able to charge extremely high rates which meant he had a very small number of patients on any given day. My Dad really appreciated that fact, he didn’t want anyone to think that the Taylors would ever have anything wrong with them that would need medical attention. So after telling how much of an embarrassment I was he got me out of the car and into the clinic. By this time the pain had lessened to a dull ache. I was afraid that my appendix had ruptured and that’s what I told the nurse who admitted me. They rushed me to an exam room where they did every possible test on my abdomen. Even though I asked what they were finding out they wouldn’t answer my questions. Finally the doctor and my father came into the exam room I could tell my Dad was furious by how red faced he was. I remember the conversation the two had like it happened 5 minutes ago. ‘In case your fancy machines didn’t show you Doctor Smith my son is a boy and boys can’t get pregnant.’ ‘I know that Justin is a boy Mr. Taylor; I graduated from John Hopkins and one of the first classes we took was how to tell a boy from a girl. But all kidding aside, somehow Justin has a uterus in the place of his right kidney and there’s a fetus in the uterus. I don’t know how it happened and I don’t know how it will end up but your son is pregnant.’ ‘Justin how could you embarrass the family this way. How could you let some man fuck your faggot ass?’ “Mr. Taylor, while I don’t know how Justin got pregnant but it couldn’t have been the way you just stated.’ ‘Stay out of this Doctor, my son has embarrassed the family and I won’t have it. Doctor you and your staff will not even hint to anyone about this disgraceful situation. If I ever hear anything about this mess then I will destroy you.’ ‘Mr. Taylor I assure you we will keep everything confidential but the world needs to know about Justin’s condition. We need to find out how he got into this situation.’ ‘Isn’t it obvious, he’s a hermaphrodite of some kind and he let some queer fuck his ass and now he’s pregnant. What else could’ve happened. I meant what I said Doctor if I ever hear anything about this; I will seek you out and destroy you. Justin can tell you that I’m serious.’ ‘Don’t worry about that Mr. Taylor I can keep my mouth shut. But Mr. Taylor the world needs to know about this, especially if it goes to term and Justin has a child.’ ‘Doctor Smith I will not have my family made fun of and letting anyone know about this abomination will do just that. If there’s a birth will you be able to do it here or will I have to find someplace?” ‘As long as there aren’t any complications I should be able to deliver the baby here. I’ve had several Caesarian deliveries over the years since I opened this clinic. Obviously Justin will have to have a Caesarian since there is no way he can deliver a baby any other way. I have to tell you both that I doubt that the pregnancy will go to term.’ ‘Did you find out what caused Justin’s pain or was he just faking?’ ‘I’m sure it had to do with this pregnancy, I certainly couldn’t find anything else which is why I found the uterus. Justin do you have any questions?’ ‘It doesn’t matter what he wants Doctor since he’s embarrassed me and my family by letting some fag into his ass.’ ‘Mr. Taylor I told you that it couldn’t have happened that way.’ ‘You also told me that you have no idea how it happened and so it had to have happened the way I said.’ ‘Mr. Taylor that isn’t how medicine works.’ ‘I don’t care how medicine works. Let me know when you want to see Justin but make sure this mess is kept quiet. Doctor Smith I mean kept quiet forever. You can see Justin when you really think it’s medically necessary but don’t think you can take advantage of my good nature.’ ‘Yes Mr. Taylor I’m sure you don‘t care about how medicine works. Don’t worry Mr. Taylor I wouldn’t dream of taking advantage of your good nature.’ I’m surprised Brian that you haven’t running screaming from the crazy guy in your bed.” I’m certainly glad he hasn’t run, maybe he’ll believe me. It’ll be nice to finally tell the entire story to another human being. “I told you I’d listen and I almost always do what I say I’m going to do. No matter where this story goes I’m not running away from you.” I think he really believes this story. What will I do if he really did get pregnant? I don’t care if he did get pregnant I love him and I want him and Alex in my life. I barely know him and I know that I’m in love, I’d better check for flying pigs in the morning. “Why’re you smiling like that Brian, don’t you believe me?” Of course he doesn’t believe me, I just told him I got pregnant. “Just a passing thought ‘senior‘. Of course I believe that you believe. But you have to admit it’s a hard story to get a handle on. Have you ever had a check up with another doctor?” What if he’s telling the truth and we fuck and he gets pregnant again? Am I ready to actually raise a child? Am I losing my mind, he’s a guy and can’t get pregnant. But am I ready to raise a child from birth? “No I haven’t because I couldn’t take the chance of the new doctor not keeping the secret and if anything had gotten out about me having a baby then who knows what my Dad would’ve done. I’ve only gotten the courage to tell you because I know that he’s had a stroke and is no longer a threat to me or Alex.” I couldn’t believe how relieved I was to get that information from Mom. I can’t believe she had the balls to send him to Nebraska. “I suppose you need to finish the story before you’ll let me fuck you. Justin I meant it about letting you fuck me. But go easy after all I’m just as much as a virgin as you are.” I can’t decide if I more exited by the idea of getting into that perfect bubble butt or letting him into my flat ass. “There isn’t a lot more to tell. My Dad treated me like a monster, he wouldn’t believe me when I told him that I didn’t remember letting a guy fuck me. He believed that I’d been letting guys fuck me since I was first allowed to go out of the house on my own. Like a six year old would know how to find a sex partner. Over the next several months we worked out how we would deal with it if I actually delivered a baby. I went to the clinic to see Doctor Smith every other week but after that first episode of pain I didn’t have any real problems again. The doctor decided that the uterus had just shifted for some reason and that caused the pain.” I just never told him or Dad when I had any pains but they were never as bad as that first time. I was afraid what Dad would do if he had to deal with my situation any more than he had to. “How much did you show?” I can’t believe I asked that stupid question, he’s going to think I believe this story. Though there’s no doubt that he believes it. “Very little. I only gained about 15 pounds but then Alex only weighed 3 pounds and 2 ounces when he was delivered. I’ve never known for sure why Dr. Smith decided that Alex was ready to come out on the 8th of September 2001 since I didn’t have any labor pains. I was only pregnant for about 6 months and while Alex was very small he was perfectly normal in every way. His lungs were totally developed so he wasn’t considered a preemie and the Doctor let me take him home on the 9th. My Dad arranged for a birth certificate listing me as the father and some runaway girl as the mother.” “So that was the mysterious girl that gave birth and then abandoned Alex within hours. You do know that he really wants to know who his mother is and how you actually managed to have sex with a girl. Before you ask I don’t even want to know what Gus has told Alex about me or his mother and that he’s told you.” I guess Emmett was right about Gus wanting me in his life because he’s certainly told me more about his life than I ever told my Dad. Of course I care about Gus and I don’t think Jack ever cared about anything except how much I cost to raise. “It surprised me the first time he asked about his mother, he was two or three, so I panicked and told him that story. I thought he bought it but then I couldn’t tell him the truth could I?” As bright as Alex was, even at two or three, he wouldn’t have understood if I’d told him he was the only child in history born to a man. “Well how did you get from the birth to Pittsburgh?” I really want to know. I really love this man and I just don’t understand why. Brian Kinney doesn’t do love. I really don’t know why fucking him is so important to me. If he doesn’t want to get fucked does it really matter? I want to be with him for as long as possible and if I never get into his ass will it really matter. I’ve fucked more than my share of men does it really matter if I never fuck Justin?” “Brian what’s the matter? Are you still here?” God I’ve scared him away. I want to be with him and if I have to let him fuck me to do so then I’ll roll over right now. After all I love having Alex in my life what would be wrong with having another child. At least this time I’ll have family to help with the baby. “Nothing is wrong ‘senior’ I was just thinking. Back to your story.” I have to make sure I don’t blow my chances with Justin. I want him in my life. “The first thing that my Dad insisted on was that I would leave New York, it surprised me that he didn’t insist I change my name but he felt that Taylor was common enough that as long as I wasn’t in New York nobody would link me with him. I agreed with this demand mainly because I didn’t want my child to have anything to do with the bastard.” He couldn’t believe that I would stand up to him. “I really surprised him when I demanded that he provide me with some money. I told him that if he didn’t then the only way I cold survive would be to go to the tabloids and get money from them. So he set up a system where I had access to an account, that couldn’t be traced to him or to me for that matter, where I could get a thousand dollars a month. It grew over the years according to inflation. I only used the money when I had to, I took any that I didn’t use in a month out of the account and put it into a savings account in Alex’s name. The first three years or so I had to use most of it to survive but once Alex was old enough that I could put him into daycare I was able to get a job we could live on and only used the stipend when I really had to. While Alex’s account balance isn’t as big as Gus’ account there’s enough for him to go to college without his having to work.” “Is the money still being put into the account now that your father is incapacitated?” “Yes it is, I imagine he set it up so that some financial firm does it and he had no more contact with it after he signed the papers. My moving from city to city was part of the deal I made with him. I was never able to put down any roots but I picked up my art degree by taking classes whenever and wherever I could. No matter how our relationship turns out I don’t want to risk my job at Vanguard. I really like using my art skills to support me and Alex.” I hope I didn’t offend him. “That won’t be a problem, I’ve talked it over with the head of the Art Department and he knows that I don’t expect any special treatment for you and I definitely don’t expect you to be held to a higher standard than anyone else in the department.” It didn’t surprise me though when his only comment was that I better not hurt Justin. Of course it wasn’t surprising since everyone at Vanguard loves Justin. “I certainly wouldn’t want any special treatment just because I’m dating the boss. We will still be dating after the story I just told you?” I hope I haven’t scared him away with my story. “Haven’t I made my position clear ‘senior’? No matter what story you told me I’m here for the long haul. While my friends and relatives may not believe I’m able to love someone besides myself I know that I’m in love with you. Whether I believe your story doesn’t matter since you believe it and what you believe is what’s important to me. Justin whether I ever fuck you or not doesn’t matter. I love you and want to be with you and I’ll never do anything you don’t want to do, for whatever reason.” I know what I just said but I want to fuck him even more but I’ll wait until he’s ready. “I want to be with you too but I just can’t take the chance. I know how crazy my story sounds but it’s true and as much as I love Alex I really don’t want to raise another child.” If he looks at me like that much longer I’m going to roll over and let him have his pleasure since I want to make him happy and if fucking me makes him happy then it’ll be worth the chance of getting pregnant again. “Justin I know that you believe that if I fuck you that you could get pregnant again. Even if you do you won’t have to raise a child by yourself again but I think I have an answer to the problem.” Why didn’t he think of this years ago and why did it take me so long to think of the obvious answer?” “You do? I never thought of one in almost 20 years and you think of an answer in 20 minutes. Pardon me if I don’t get overly happy at that statement.” God that was harsh. “Yes ‘senior’ I thought of an answer in 20 minutes and you’re going to laugh your head off when you realize how simple the answer is. Just to put the problem in a nutshell you’re afraid that if I, or any other man, fucks you then there’s a chance that you’ll get pregnant again. But you forget that I’m not just any man, I can’t get you pregnant, even granting the idea that you can get pregnant in the first place. I told you about my cancer scare and the fact that I have an artificial testicle, which I’ve never told to any other living soul. Part of the therapy involved in curing my cancer sterilized my remaining testicle. So I can fuck you twenty times a night and you can’t get pregnant because I can‘t get anyone, female or you, pregnant. But Justin you could’ve been getting fucked all of these years without worrying about getting pregnant since all you had to do was require that the guy wear a condom.” I wonder why he never thought of that since he became sexually active before the cure for HIV was found. “Fuck how could’ve I been so stupid? I guess I was so traumatized by getting pregnant in the first place that I never thought about using a condom. Of course once the cure was found no trick would’ve been willing to fuck me using a condom. I didn’t think about he radiation treatment sterilizing you but what if it hadn’t would you wear a condom?” Am I trying to run him off? “Of course I’d have worn a condom if that’s what it would’ve taken to ease your mind. Look Justin as much as it amazes me I love being with you and I love making you feel good and I know that I’m a great top and that I could make you feel wonderful But if you don’t want to get fucked then I’ll go along with your wish and deny myself that pleasure but I still want you to fuck me. I’m reasonably sure that I won’t get pregnant if you fuck me into the mattress but I do know that I‘ll enjoy it.. But if I do get pregnant will you stand by me and help raise the child?” I hope didn’t go to far but I don’t think I’ve ever seen his cock harder than it is right now. “Of course I’ll fuck you and of course I’ll help raise any child we should have together. Brian I’d love to have you fuck me and I know this’s going to sound silly considering the point you made about your sterility but could you wear a condom tonight? Of course that question assumes that you actually have a condom.” I love that shit eating grin he gets when he thinks he’s gotten his way. Then again he’s getting my cherry, so I guess he is getting his way but I’m getting his cherry so I can’t complain. “I can’t remember the last time I bought condoms so there probably aren’t any but if it’ll ease your mind I can go find some store that’s open and buy some.” There has to be some store open this early on New Year’s Day. If he needs me to use a condom then I’ll use a condom. “That would be silly. As long as you promise that in the billion to one chance that I get pregnant again that you’ll stand by me and help me raise the child.” If he doesn’t throw me into the snow I’ll know for sure that he really does love me. “You have my promise that if I get you pregnant I’ll stand by you and help raise it. I’ll even make you an honest man and marry you.” That surprised the little shit. Justin suddenly lights up the room with the patented Taylor Sunshine smile. “What’re you thinking now Mr. Taylor?” God he’s beautiful. “I just thought how boys would react if we were to tell them that I got pregnant because they pushed us into trying versatility.” “’Senior’ you’re evil, down right evil. But I love you anyway.” I almost wish I could get him pregnant. “I love you too Brian but I’m not evil I’m cute.”