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Lost Chapter 11

Brian found Justin sitting on the edge of the bed, the room dark. He sighed as he closed the door and moved toward the other man. 

“Justin.” He whispered.

“I hate what I’ve done.” The blonde quietly murmured. “I can’t ever take it back; I can’t ever be who I was.” 

“That’s not true.” Justin glanced toward the sound of the voice. Brian moved up next to him sitting next to him and pulling him into his arms. “You can’t take it back but what you did has nothing to do with who you are. You did what you had to do. We all do what we have to do.” 

“I can’t stand the way people look at me when they know. It’s like I’m some pathetic dog or something. Some charity case they all have to tip toe around.” Justin relaxed against Brian’s chest realizing he didn’t feel that way in Brian’s arm. Brian never looked at him like that. He accepted what Justin had done and even though the first day or so had been difficult, it seemed now that he had put it behind him. 

“I have an idea.” Brian kissed the top of Justin’s head then pulled back. “There’s a resort up here. I’ve used it before to escape these little family vacations before.” Justin chuckled at the man’s tone. “It’s called North Lake. It’s beautiful.” Brian offered. “Why don’t we go there and just have a little time for the two of us without so many helpful others?” Brian said with a wink. Justin leaned up and kissed the older man’s lips. Brian immediately deepened the kiss and pulled the blond tighter against his own chest. Justin pulled back momentarily, a pleading look in his eyes, wanting Brian.

“Get undressed,” Brian said gently as he stood, moved to the door and made sure it was locked. When he turned around he saw Justin leaning over untying his shoes. Brian smiled as he began unbuttoning his own shirt. It was moments like these that Brian believed that maybe love was possible and that maybe, just maybe, he’d found it.

Justin, feeling Brian’s gaze on the top of his head, finished removing his shoes and socks and looked up into the other man’s steely gaze. Justin blushed slightly at being the center of such a powerful look – a look that silently spoke volumes and offered so much hope for the future.

Justin scooted up towards the center of the bed and stretched his right arm out, gently patting the covers, inviting Brian to join him. Brian smiled widely and quickly, if not gracefully slipped out of his remaining clothes before jumping onto the bed and pushing Justin from his Indian style seated position onto his back.

Justin allowed Brian to rearrange him, enjoying the tender yet sturdy touch of the older man’s hands. Justin’s blue eyes never left Brian’s, until the brunets head lowered and lips claimed lips.

Brian broke their kiss first as he pulled away and pushed himself off of Justin, landing on his back. Brian laid there for several seconds before Justin realized what was going on. Brian had given him control – the control to proceed at his pace – however fast or slow he desired.

Justin climbed onto Brian, pushing his own erection into Brian’s stomach and gently rubbing his ass against Brian’s own thick cock. Justin leaned forward and pressed gentle kisses on Brian’s forehead and nose; both men’s hips increasing their thrusting motions, wanting more.

“Jus… Justin,” Brian whispered breathlessly.

Justin pulled back and took a deep breath. He focused his eyes on Brian’s; the man’s hazel eyes were glassy and content. “More?” Justin asked with a smirk.

“Mmm… more.”

Justin gave the man one more quick kiss on the nose before reaching over to the nightstand and retrieving a condom and bottle of lube. Justin returned to his position on top of Brian, but this time he was facing Brian’s thick dick, Justin’s ass towards Brian’s face. Justin gave the man’s cock several quick licks and it hardened impossibly further, standing at attention awaiting its orders. Justin felt Brian’s fingers run along his ass crack, poking gently at his opening. Fumbling with the condom package, Justin finally was able to remove the latex disk and unfurl it onto Brian. Justin squirted some lube onto the tip of Brian’s cock and watched as it slid down, coating the member.

Justin dropped to the lube to his side and felt Brian reach for it. The older man, popped the top, and squirted some into his palm before coating two fingers and gently pushing them into Justin. The blond groaned and pushed back – his ass squeezing down tightly on Brian’s fingers.

Brian watched in fascination as his fingers disappeared into Justin. Amazed that this simple act, with this man, could produce such feelings within him; after all, he and Justin had done this numerous times and Brian himself had done this thousands of times with nameless individuals before. But that was then and different. Justin was different.

Justin pushed back more forcefully onto Brian’s fingers, wanting more. Brian wanted nothing more than to sink is dick into Justin’s tight ass at that moment, but he was determined to allow the blond complete control over this encounter. Brian was surprised when he felt Justin’s tight channel release his fingers. He felt Justin move and shift and when Brian opened his eyes he saw Justin straddling his hips, looking down at him with what could only be described as total adoration on the man’s face.

Justin sat up, wiggled his midsection gently as he slowly impaled himself on Brian’s erection. Both men’s eyes shut tightly as they took in the feeling, each knowing that this was exactly where the other belonged.

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Michael stumbled down the stairs. The group gathered around the table went silent as David’s face appeared behind the other man. Deb immediately rose and headed into the kitchen. As usual, her emotions were shown openly on her face and the anger she felt at both her son and his lover was obvious. 

“Deb.” David tired. 

“No.” She cut him off. “That kid needed understanding not to be used by one of us. You and I BOTH know what this was about. Using Sunshine to hurt Brian, it’s despicable.” 

“Maw, that’s not what David was doing.” Michael argued. 

“Then what were you doing?” Emmett jumped in surprising everyone.

“He was minding his own business and Justin came on to him.” Michael defended.

“Really?” Emmett challenged his disbelief evident. 

“Michael.” David attempted to shut the other man down before the discussion went any further. “They all feel protective of Justin. It’s only natural that they would want to see his side.” 

“See his side?” Ted asked jumping in. “This isn’t about seeing someone’s side. This is about trying to make sense of how—“

“A man, a mature experienced man, managed to find himself helplessly seduced by an 18 year old, half his size.” Melanie finished Ted’s thought.

“I know it looks suspicious—“

“No, it is suspicious.” Lindsay rang in empowered by Melanie’s outrage.

“Well let’s just bring the little shit down here and get all of it out in the open.” Michael spat angrily tired of feeling like he and David were being treated like the bad guys. 

“Can’t,” Deb spat.

“Brian and Justin left this morning for North Lake.” Vic reported, not looking at his nephew or David. “Apparently they needed some time to sort out a few things without any interference.” Vic’s last word was directed at the doctor, complete with a look of disgust.

“North Lake?” Michael questioned, ignoring his uncles unpleasantness.

“It’s a resort about two hours north of here.” Vic explained. “But don’t go looking for them.” Vic replied. “Brian is trying to get Justin to believe that he is still loved in this family and that he has other options than to go back to the streets.” 

“He wasn’t on the streets.” Michael shot. He remembered the card he’d found in Brian’s pocket. “He was a fucking escort.” 

“Well at least that’s better than walking the street.” Ted reassured the group.

“Probably the only reason he’s still alive.” Melanie added. 

“Well I just hope Brian can get through to him.” Deb offered from the kitchen. 

David sat wishing he’d never touched the blond. He’d never imagined it going this badly. Michael sat silently next to his partner, already plotting his next move to save his best friend from the conniving blonde’s clutches.

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Justin had been surprised when Brian had offered to let him drive. Brian never let anyone drive when he was going to be in the car. The road was dry but the late spring snow had dusted the sides of the road. He stole a quick glance at Brian. So much had happened over the last few days. He was relieved to find the man asleep. Justin sighed and began working through all that had happened. He needed some time alone to put it all into perspective. 

He’d found Brian by chance, then Brian had sought him out. At first Justin had believed that it had been out of anger then pity but now after the night they had shared he was starting to wonder if it was something more. Could Brian have the same feelings for him that he had for the brunet? He knew he loved Brian. He knew that Brian had been his first love, his only love. It was more than sex. If anything over the last few months, Justin had learned that sex had nothing to do with love, and yet somehow in the midst of having Brian make love to him, Justin had felt something, it had been overwhelming and frightening. It had been familiar and yet so distant. He’d forgotten how deeply he cared for Brian until they’d been joined once more. 

Justin knew it was dangerous to consider leaving Hamilton though. Brian continuously reassured him that he wasn’t about to let Justin go back to work for the man, but Justin knew Hamilton far better than Brian. There was no way Hamilton would just let him go. Justin knew that he was one of the man’s best money makers. He would have to disappear, play dead, something substantial to get the man to let go and leave him alone.

Justin shuddered as he drove up the winding road as he considered what Hamilton would do if he knew that Brian had taken his money maker this far out of the city. He was frightened of what the man would do to Brian if he learned of his plan to take Justin out of the man’s employment. It was a different world, Hamilton’s world, and Justin had entered it with reservations but wondered now if he would ever be allowed to leave it again alive. 

“You okay?” Brian’s voice startled Justin and he nodded not replying. “Spill.” Brian demanded. 

“No, I don’t want to.” Justin admitted. “I don’t want to think about it anymore.” He gave the man another look then focused on the road. Brian furrowed his brow but let it go for the moment. It was obvious that Justin was concerned, but Brian knew better than to push. 

“We’ve been on the road about an hour and a half.” Justin announced. 

“It should be up here.” Brian reported. “You’ll know it when you see it. It’s beautiful.” Just as they came over a slight rise in the road the resort appeared. It was dusted in light snow, hidden back in the trees, all wood, rustic but lots of windows. Brian smiled as he watched Justin’s face light up. 

“You’re right, it is beautiful.” Justin’s voice was soft and full of awe. 

“Yeah,” Brian agreed. “A great place to get away.” 

“It’s about thirty minutes out of the next town. There’s an airport there. We can fly out in a few days.” Brian straightened up in his seat. 

“We aren’t going to say good-bye to Gus, or anyone?” Justin asked surprised by his feelings of regret. As hard as it had been to be around the gang, he’d enjoyed seeing them and realized now how much he had missed them. Besides, he wasn’t sure when or if he would see them again. 

“We’ll see.” Brian replied cryptically. Justin pulled up in front of the lodge where a valet appeared who took the keys. Justin and Brian walked in, Brian’s hand possessively on the small of Justin’s back. As they entered Justin was a little surprised to find more than one gay couple in the lobby holding hands. 

“Best thing about North Lake.” Brian leaned in and whispered. “Lots of queers.” Justin smiled relieved that he didn’t have to worry about being confronted. That happened some in New York, but not much. It tended to depend upon the area of the city he was in. Sometimes the johns’ would take him to very nice places, places that were too polite to say anything, then there were the dives where no one gave a shit but in the middle, the average joints always seemed to have to make a statement of some kind. Perhaps it was the insecurity of not wanting to be considered a lower joint and the knowledge that they’d never be a classy spot that made the middle of the road so intolerant. 

“I called earlier.” Brian spoke to the clerk. “Kinney.” 

“Oh yes,” The clerk smiled in Justin’s direction. “We have your room all ready, Mr. Kinney.” Justin didn’t like the way the clerk was looking at him so he wandered toward the fire place. There a group of men were standing and discussing some event that had occurred the previous night. 

“Oh my.” One of the men stated causing all to look in Justin’s direction. The man’s voice who had spoken reminded Justin of Emmett. He was tall, handsome with the same voice inflection. He wondered if the man was from the south. “Look what the cat drug in.” 

Justin looked behind him to see if they were talking about someone else. 

“Do I know you?” One of the men stepped forward causing Justin to look away. He wasn’t sure if one of his old tricks would recognize him or not. There had been so many, he knew he’d never recognize all of them. 

“No.” Brian voice ended the speculation. He bent and possessed Justin’s mouth making it clear where the lines were drawn. The other men accepted the limit, offering a few smiles of approval. Justin and Brian headed to the elevator. 

“Sorry.” Justin mumbled. 

“Nothing to be sorry for.” Brian reassured him. “If we’re going to be together, I’m going to have to get use to old fuckers wanting to get in your pants.” They entered the abandoned lift. Brian pushed their floor then pressed Justin to the wall kissing him once more. “You just remember, no more sharing. You’re all for me.” He kissed him again. Justin felt a thrill at Brian’s words. He wanted nothing more than to be all for Brian. He couldn’t imagine ever wanting another man when he could have Brian. 

They entered their room. It was beautiful. It was more spacious than anything Justin had ever stayed in. It was almost triple the size of his shit-hole apartment. 

“So, let’s go grab some food then maybe see what there is to do.” He offered. Justin turned giving the man an amused and confused look. “What?” Brian asked irritated. 

“Nothing, you just never struck me as the ‘let’s go explore the hotel’ kinda guy.” Brian kept a straight face then stuck out his hand. Justin took it as they headed out. 

“There’s a lot about me you don’t know.” Brian replied once they were in the hall. 

“Obviously.” Justin stated softly. “But I want to.”

“In time.” Brian replied pulling the man closer. “In time we’ll know more than we ever fucking wanted to about each other.” They both laughed. Justin couldn’t believe it was really happening. Brian seemed to truly want to be with him and not just for sex. He wanted more than that. He wanted them to be more intimate than sex partners. He smiled as that small spark of hope grew a little more.

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Michael made his way up to his bedroom still seething. He quickly grabbed up the pants he’d worn the previous day from the floor and pulled the card from his pocket. Grabbing David’s cell phone from the nightstand he made the call.

“I need to speak to Mr. Hamilton.” He stated angrily. “Tell him it has to do with Justin Taylor.” He waited a few moments surprised when an older distinguished sounding man answered.

“Hamilton.” He replied curtly. “Is this Mr. Kinney?” Hamilton wondered what it was that Taylor had pulled this time. He’d have to teach that boy a lesson once and for all as soon as he returned. He had already issued the summons to pull him back into one of apartments upstairs upon his arrival. He wondered what else it would take to finally tame the young blond.

“No, this is a friend of Mr. Kinney’s.” Michael replied. 

“Well, Taylor is out for the week, but if you wish to reserve his services—“ Hamilton was relieved it wasn’t a complaint. He had a reputation to protect. He hadn’t risen to the top of the industry just to let one blond bring him down. 

“I don’t want his services, and I doubt anyone else will be receiving them as well in the future.” Michael spat. “Mr. Kinney has taken it upon himself to save Justin from you. He’s run off with him and they are staying at a resort close to the Pocono’s called North Lake.” Michael lowered his voice as he heard people passing in the hallway. 

“I’m afraid you are mistaken. Justin is under contract and knows that –“

“Look Asshole, I’m trying to do you a favor. Brian is not thinking straight. He thinks he wants this kid back in his life full time. If you want your little piece of ass back, I suggest you get up there and get it yourself.” He closed the phone ending the conversation. 

Hamilton sat for a long moment considering the anonymous tip. He didn’t have to check the ledgers to know how much Justin Taylor was worth to him. He had no intentions of letting the blond walk away. It wasn’t just the money either, if he allowed it, then who would be next. Hope was a dangerous thing to allow in the presence of desperation, it was important to keep it far and elusive. 

“Ann.” The man called over the intercom. “Get North Lake Resort its north of the Pocono’s.” 

A few moments later Ann Carol transferred the line to Mr. Hamilton’s office. 

“Yes, I’m trying to reach one of your guests there. Could you put me through to Brian Kinney.” Hamilton sat patiently as the call was placed. 

“Yes Sir, he’s in room 415. I’ll put you through.” The operator’s falsetto replied. Hamilton hung up at first ring. He had his answer. He slammed down the receiver then punched the intercom button. 

“Ann, I need to get up to North Lake. Make the arrangements.” He spat into the intercom. He was a busy man. He had no time for these sorts of inconveniences and dramas. He placed another call then asked Ann to make the arrangements for three arriving as soon as possible. He’d pay Kinney and Taylor a little visit. Perhaps all the blond needed was a not so gentle reminder of whom he belonged to. Hamilton would happily administer that lesson while the boys taught Kinney the facts of life.

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“Who was is?” Justin asked. Brian shrugged then hung up. 

“Probably Mikey.” He admitted. 

“Trying to save you from me.” Justin gave a small sympathetic smile. 

“He needs saving himself.“ Brian offered. Justin nodded in agreement.

“I’m sorry about that.” Justin admitted. 

“Well, Dr. Dave’s an asshole.” Brian replied angrily. 

“With a small dick.” Justin informed him much to Brian’s delight. 

“Really? How small?” He asked uncharacteristically playful.

“Very small.” Justin smiled playing along. “So small I had to get out a magnifying glass just to find it.” Brian laughed. He loved this side of Justin and he’d missed it so much. He missed having a fellow smart ass to laugh at the world with. 

“Well I hope you didn’t get eye strain.” Brian offered pulled the blond against him.

“I didn’t. I just pretended I was blind and kept my eyes closed.” Justin was ready to stop talking about David. He didn’t want to talk about him or Michael. He wanted to focus on Brian and where they were going from here. He leaned against the man’s body pulling strength from it. “Now what?” He asked trying not to sound insecure but failing. 

“Well there wasn’t much going on, though I do think we should both have a massage today.” He offered. “I’ll call down and schedule it.” He offered picking up the phone. 

“I’m tired.” Justin admitted lying down on the nearby bed. 

“First, massage, and then sleep.” Brian replied. 

Justin nodded pushing up off of the bed and reaching into his suitcase for the paper and pencils Lindsay had given him. He looked out of the window at the beautiful view. There was so much to draw, and yet he didn’t feel inspired until he turned and watched Brian sitting on the edge of the bed, fiddling with the phone cord, rolling his lips into his mouth. 

Justin sat in the nearby chair watching intently as he began recreating the man before him. He loved the way Brian was moving the cord up and down through his fingers. He had such long graceful fingers. Justin had always loved them. He remembered staring at the man’s hands for long periods of time while Brian would be sleeping. Brian glanced up and watched Justin for a moment as he worked. He swallowed his own smile, not wanting to let on that he was aware of what the blond was doing. It was a good sign. It was the best sign he’d had since they’d found one another again. 

He purposely remained on the phone long after the appointment was scheduled allowing Justin time to finish. Once he heard the scraping of the pencil slowing down he set the receiver down and stood. He moved to Justin’s side and looked down on the portrait of himself. 

“It’s good Justin.” He admitted. Justin was warmed by the praise. He hated that Brian’s opinion still mattered so much, but it did. There was no sense refuting it. 

“Thanks.” He replied setting it aside. 

“We have a couple of hours to kill.” Brian offered. “Why don’t we go hit the pool first.” 

“I don’t have any trunks.” He offered. 

“That’s what credit cards are for.” Brian replied sarcastically.

“Oh I thought they were to steal and run away with.” Justin replied surprising Brian who turned and met his gaze. Brian moved back cupping Justin’s face.

“If you ever do that again, promise you’ll keep using it until I can find you.” He stated his sincerity shocking the blond. Justin nodded then looked away. Brian turned Justin’s face back until the blond met his gaze once more. He wanted Justin to see that there was no blame but only concern in his hazel eyes. He kissed Justin gently on he lip then pushed him playfully away.

“Well let’s hit the pool.” Brian offered as they headed out to find some swim trunks.

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