Warnings: Reading at risk of being upset, Brian and Justin, Friendship, back in school. 
Beta: Helen
Banner: Helen
Notes: quotes will be in Italic. 


Two Months ago


<i>Justin was walking down the street past his old house after he left Brian’s; his mother was outside. He just stood there for a minute and then his mother came over to him. 

Jennifer: “What are you doing here?” 
Justin: “I just… I don’t know. You know that Mrs Kinney offered to let me live with her?” 
Jennifer: “Yes, she told me.” 
Justin: “What did you say?”
Jennifer: “I told her that was her choice because I no longer have a son.” 
Justin: “How could you say that? I mean, you are supposed to be my fucking mother!” 
Jennifer: “I stopped being your mother when you left with that boy.” 
Justin: “His name is Brian, not that boy. He is amazing and sweet and I love him. He loves me and you would have seen that if you had met him instead of turning into such a bitch.” 
Jennifer slaps Justin across the face. 
Jennifer: “Get away from here. You were a problem from the start of everything.” </i>

Justin

That’s my reason; my mother. I didn’t want to leave him; hell, I never wanted to leave him, but if my own mother didn’t want me, why would anyone else? When I called Brian last night I was scared. I just got mugged and robbed. He almost raped me, but I kicked him in the balls before he could and I ran. I couldn’t let him there hurt me like that. I am Brian’s.  I needed to hear his voice. He sounded so broken, I broke him but when he asked me to come home; how could I not. I wanted to come home more than anything , he is my forever. 

<i>Brian: “Hello.”
Justin: “Brian.”
Suddenly awake. 
Brian: “Justin, are you okay? Where are you?” 
Justin: “Um… I’m in New York.” 
Brian: “Okay. Are you okay?” 
Justin: (fights the tears) “No.” 
Brian: “Where are you exactly in New York?”
Justin: “The bus station.” 
Brian: “Why?” 
Justin: “I want to come home.” 
Brian: “Then come home.” 
Justin: “You’re going to hate me and I can’t hurt you anymore.”</i>

Brian

It took me almost two hours to convince Justin to come home. He was so scared and I actually couldn’t blame him. Yes, I was pissed, hurt, and angry but the most important thing is that I still love him and need him here.  So, here I am at 5 in the morning, waiting for the blond that stole my heart.  I told my mom so she wouldn’t worry, actually my mom told me to bring that boy home before she came to get him herself.  She is probably downstairs making breakfast along with getting the guest room, which will now be Justin’s room,  ready.  She said that even if we are together we may still need some space every now and then. 

The bus pulls in, people file out and as soon as Brian sees a mop of blond hair he breaks out into a smile. Once Justin spots Brian he runs to him and they hold each other. 

Brian: “I missed you blonde.” 
Justin: “I missed you too.” 
He looks into Brian’s eyes and Brian notices that Justin has tears running down his cheeks;  he thumbs away the tears. 
Brian: “It’s okay, you’re safe.” 
Justin: “I know; I was so scared you would hate me.” 
Brian: “I could never.  Come on let’s go home.”  
Justin: “Home sounds nice.” 
Brian: “Yeah, mom is probably making a feast.” 
Justin: “Great. I’m starving.” 
Brian: “Not surprised.” 

They collected Justin’s bag from the storage compartment of the bus and walked to Brian’s car and drove home.  They arrived home and as soon as they walked in, Joan was there pulling Justin into a hug while ushering him into the kitchen to eat. 

Joan: “Are you okay sweetie?” 
Justin: “Yeah, just dirty and tired.” 
Joan: “Well, eat this and then go ahead and take a shower.(she sees the smile creep on Brian’s face) Alone!” 
Justin laughs at Brian’s pout. 
Joan: “Do you want to tell us why you left?” 
Justin: “If you want to hear it, but I am sure you’re going to hate me.” 
Joan takes Justin’s hand. 
Joan: “I won’t hate you, you're family now.” 

Brian just stands back watching his mother and boyfriend; he can’t help but feel at peace by this. 

Justin: “Okay, remember when you said I could stay and I left. Well, I needed to clear my head, so I walked around; somehow I managed to walk to my old house. My mother was outside, I’m not sure why,  but I was standing there just looking at it. My mother came over to me and asked me why I was there. I told her how you offered me a place to stay and she told me that she no longer had a son and that I was your problem.  I called her a bitch and she slapped me.” 
Joan: “I’m so sorry baby.” 
Justin: “Thank you Joan, for everything.” 
He gets up and kisses her cheek before he leaves the kitchen. 
Brian: “How could she do that to him?” 
Joan: “I don’t know. But it doesn’t matter anymore, he is here safe now.” 
Brian: “I’m going to bed mom. Thank you for everything.” 
He kissed her cheek the same place Justin did. 
Joan sat there studying her boys. 

Upstairs

Justin was in his room fresh from the shower sitting on the edge of the bed when Brian knocks on the outside of the open door. 
Justin: “Hey.”
Brian: “Hey, Can I come in?” 
Justin: “Always.” 
Brian walks in the room and closes the door.  Justin lies down on the bed; Brian comes and lies down next to him holding him.
Brian: “Are you okay?” 
Justin: “I think so.  Do you hate me?” 
Brian: “I could never hate you Justin, I understand now.” 
Justin: “I wish I never left.” 
Brian: “I wish you never left too but you did.” 
Justin: “I’m really sorry.” 
Brian: “So am I.” 
Justin leans up and brushes his lips against Brian’s; he slowly pulls Brian on top of him and removes his shirt.  Brian looks down at Justin’s eyes and feels completely breathless by the love and lust mixed inside of them. 
Brian: “Are you sure?” 
Justin: “Aren’t you? I never let anyone.” 
Brian sweeps down to capture Justin’s lips and before they knew it they were both naked and rubbing their erections against each other creating friction. 
Justin pants: “Brian, please…” 
Brian: “Please what?”  
Justin: “Fuck me …god, please just fuck me.”
Brian: “Anything for you.” 

He leans to roll the condom on to his hard cock and places his member at Justin’s hole and slowly starts to push himself into the smaller man. 
Justin: “God.”
  
After a few minutes Justin pushes back to signal that he was ready. They slowly move together while touching and kissing, having some connection. All too soon before they knew it, it was over. Both exhausted from their love making. Brian slowly pulls out and ties the condom, along with throwing it in the trash bin.  Justin moves closer to Brian while Brian holds him. 

Justin: “That was…”
Brian: “Amazing.” 
Justin: “Yeah.” (sunshine smile)
He leans up to kiss Brian’s lips. 
Justin: “What happens now?” 
Brian: “Now we sleep so I can fuck you into the mattress again.” 
Justin laughs 
Justin: “Besides that, I mean, what happens tomorrow, next week, next year?” 
Brian: “We take it a day at a time.  I love you Justin, but you don’t have to be with me just because you live here now.”
Justin: “I know that. I love you too and I’m with you because I want to be not because I’m living here.”
Brian:  “Okay, good.  By the way,  your best friend is a feisty little spitfire.” 
Justin: “What do you mean?” 
Brian: “Well, after you left I was depressed obsessively so we hung out a lot and smoked. Like two days before you called I said something like ‘The real Brian is dead’, she stood up and chewed me a new asshole. So when you talk to her, be scared. 
Justin laughs.
Justin: “I usually am when I talk to Daphne. She might look sweet and innocent but she can make you feel like shit in no time.” 
Brian: “Yeah, I got that. What happened in New York?” 
Justin: “Umm.. The night before I called I was mugged, but what was worse was he almost raped me. (Brian looks alarmed) Don’t worry he didn’t. I kicked him in his nuts and ran. I knew that I wanted you to be the only one. I got scared and it made me realize how stupid I was and how much I wanted to be here with you for as long as you'll have me.” 
Brian doesn’t say anything, just pulls Justin in for a very deep and passionate kiss. They both fall asleep with smiles on their faces because for the first time in two months, they are both safe.