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Note: I am a huge Brian and Justin fan so please stick with me unless you really don’t want to read any further type of relationship with Jason and Brian.  
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Brian sits at his desk thinking about the night Jason broke up with him.

<i>Flash back 18 years ago

Brian hops into Deb’s car that Mikey drove to pick him up, he was shaken up but he didn’t want to talk about what happened. Of course Mikey didn’t understand that. 

Michael: “Please Brian, just tell me what happened?”
Brian continued to stare out the window.
Brian: “No, just take me to your house.”
Michael continues to drive to his house. 
Michael: “Okay but Uncle Vic is here from New York.”
Brian doesn’t say anything just nods his head yes. 

As they continued to drive down the street Michael sits worried about his friend, who he is in love with, and for some reason he knows the secret that he has been keeping for the past year has ended.  When they pulled up to the house, Brian made no inclination to move out of the car. Michael however, went inside the house. 

Debbie: “Michael, where’s Brian?” 
Michael: “in the car” (he answered as he sat down in between his mother and uncle) 
Vic: “why didn’t he come in?”
Michael: “he hasn’t said anything or moved since I picked him up. I don’t know what to do.” 
Debbie starts to get up but Vic motioned with his hand for her to sit down and heads outside to see Brian at last sitting on the front porch, with his face buried in his hands. Vic sits next him and wraps his arm around Brian’s shoulder. 

Vic: “Do you want to tell me what happened?” 
Brian: “I was fucking stupid; I mean I believed his lies when he told me he loved me.”
Vic: “Who are you talking about Brian?” 
Brian: “His name is Jason Denton. We have been dating for the past year.”
Vic: “Why didn’t you tell us?”
Brian: “Because …I don’t know, I guess I was scared.”
Vic: “No, not the Brian Kinney I know.”
Brian: (laughs a little) “Yeah and I fell in love, which was a crock of shit.” 
Vic: “Because you got your heart broken. It happens.”
Brian: “Never again. I’m done with relationships.” 
Vic: “I don’t think you are; I think you are hurting right now.” 
Brian: “No, I mean it; I’m done.” </i>

Present

Brian was pulled from his thoughts when Cynthia came into is office.

Cynthia: “Brian, are you okay?”
Brian: “Um…yeah, did you need something?”
Cynthia: “It’s after 7 so I thought we would head out.”
Brian: “Yeah okay.”


Brian and Cynthia pack up the office and leave for the night. Brian looks at the clock on the dashboard before he leaves and instead of heading to the loft, he goes in the opposite direction. 

New York 

Justin: “No, Michael.”
Daphne walks in the apartment to hear him talking on the phone. 
Justin: “Michael, where would I stay?”
Justin rolls his eyes.
Justin: “I can’t stay with Brian.”
Daphne walks over to him. 
Daphne: “You’re talking to Michael.”
Justin nods his head.
Justin: “Hang on Michael, Daphne just got home.”
Daphne: “What’s going on?”
Justin: “It’s Debbie’s birthday this weekend and Michael wants me to come home, supposedly she said she misses her Sunshine and would love to see me.”   
Daphne: “You should go. You haven’t seen them in almost a year. Go, Debbie is like a mother to you.”
Justin:” What if I…”
Daphne: Don’t worry about that, (smiles) we’ll figure something out. Now tell him yes.”

Justin rolls his eyes. 
Justin:” Okay I’ll come.  But where am I going to sleep? 
No, I can’t stay at Deb’s if you want to be a surprise; plus I don’t want to listen to her and Horvath go at it. (Justin laughs) Fine I’ll stay with you and Ben. No, don’t tell that I’m coming let it be a surprise. Fine tell Emmett and Ted…just don’t tell Brian. I gotta go. …….fine………okay….bye.”

Justin hangs up the phone:” My god, he is exhausting.” 

Daphne comes and sits down next to him on there couch. 
Daphne:”So, what are we doing tonight?”
Justin:” Well, it’s Wednesday and I have to leave early Friday.” 
Daphne:”Wow, Michael doesn’t give you much time.”
Justin:”It was a spur of the moment surprise party. He said it starts at 6 Friday night and if I wanted to come in tomorrow night I could. He and Ben would love it.”
Daphne:”I must say, I like him more now that he is married.”
Justin laughs 
Daphne:”How are you getting there?”
Justin:”I still have that ticket that Brian sent me a few months ago so I figured Deb is good reason.”
Daphne:”I’m still sorry he canceled on you.”
Justin:” its life, Comes help me pack.”

Outside of Britin’s front door.

Brian walks into the house and takes a right to the front living room where it was once bare but now is covered with a sofa in front of the fire place, a small rug in front of the couch that laid in front of the fire, with two big pillows that were supposed to be for the sofa; it looked like a small place where you could fall asleep in front of the fire. He is assaulted with memories of 2 years ago.

<i>2 years ago…

Justin:”What changed your mind?”
Brian:”I finally thought of one good reason to do it. ”
Justin:”And what is that one good reason? ”
Brian:”To prove to the person that I love, how much I love him. That I would give him anything...I would do anything...I'd be anything...to make him happy. I am selling the loft and the club. ”
Justin:”Without even knowing what my answer will be? ”
Brian:”I am taking my chance on love. ”
Justin:”And you mean it? ”
Brian:”I never meant anything more. ”
Justin:”OK. ”
Brian:”OK? ”
Justin:”Let's do it”.
Brian:”Say it. ”
Justin:”Yes. ”
Brian:”Yes what? ”
Justin:”Yes. Yes. I will marry you. ”</i>

Present 

Brian pulls out his cell phone and calls a familiar number 

New York 

Justin and Daphne are being incredibly lazy on the couch with a pizza box opened and a movie on when the phone rings and Daphne being closer reaches to get it. 

Daphne:”Hello.”
Brian:”Hey, it’s me.”
Daphne:”How are you?” (Looks at Justin)
Brian:”Is he there? ” 
Daphne:”Yes.”

By now Justin is looking at her 

Justin:”Whom are you talking to? ” 
Brian on the phone:”Don’t say anything Daphne.”
Daphne:”Okay.”
Justin:”Daph?”
Daphne gets up:”I’ll be right back.” 

Daphne hurries to her room and closes the door. 
Daphne:”What the fuck are you doing calling me here Brian? ”
Brian:”I just needed to make sure he is ok? ”
Daphne:”He is okay. Where are you? ”
Brian:”Britain. ”
Daphne:”I told you a year ago that I would be here to take care of him. Now I have to go because I am sure by now he is listening at the door. ”
Brian:”Okay, I see you soon.”
Daphne:”No you won’t. ”
Brian: ”Daph-”
Daphne: ”No Brian, it has been two years and you have barely talked to each other 12 times in those two years. You both are stubborn men.”
Brian:”Just take care of him.”
Daphne:”I am; but what about you? ” 

Britain

Brian hangs up the phone and absent-mindedly walks up to the master bedroom, which has a canopy metal bed that Justin picked out before they called off the wedding.  He collapses into the deep red sheets and quickly falls asleep. 

A few Hours later Brian wakes up and decides that he should head home. It was after midnight when he pulled up to the loft and saw someone standing there. 

Loft 

Brian returns from Britin and finds Jason waiting for him outside the loft door.
Brian: “Are you going to make it a habit? Am I going to have to expect you whenever now?”
Jason: “Don’t be rude, puppy (trying to touch his cheek) you’re the one who said to meet you here.”
Brian: “Oh yeah I forgot and I’ve asked you to not call me "puppy” (moving his head so that he could avoid his touch) 
Jason: “Of course (smirking) you are a grown man now; you will always be my puppy though.” (Staring at him with sad eyes).
Brian: (holding his breath for a second) “Come on in, chitchatting in the hallway is not my thing.”

They go inside, neither man knows what to say which, for Brian is pretty unusual. Jason decides that he has had enough of the awkward silence, and takes matters into his own hands. He strides toward Brian who is getting them drinks. Brian assumes Jason is still a Beam man; after all that's from where Brian got it from.  As he turns to give Jason his drink he finds him right behind him and now looking deep into his eyes. Jason takes the drink, swallows it straight and places his finger under Brian's glass to get him to do the same. Brian swallows quickly enjoying the burn and Jason puts both their glasses down and attacks Brian's mouth. Jason grabs Brian's neck with one hand and uses his other to guide him towards the sofa. As soon as Brian's legs touch the side of the sofa Jason pulls away and pushes Brian down onto it deciding to give Brian a show of his slightly older but none the less still perfect body. 


Brian's POV

How the hell did I end up here with my legs over the side of my lounge staring up at this gorgeous man that broke my heart? I don't know if I can do this, but I can't seem to find the words to tell him to stop. OMG, now I know I'm fucked as I watch Jason slowly slide his jacket off his broad but lean shoulders and carefully place it on the back of the lounge. I gasp out a breath as he slowly starts to unbutton his shirt that reveals his sculptured chest while I feel myself get lost in his lustful eyes. I begin to rub my hard cock through my deep navy Armani pants, as I am still dressed from Kinnetik. This stops Jason in his tracks, as he seems mesmerized by my ministrations. 

Jason's POV

"Holy Fucking Christ"
Before I get a chance to control myself I find I have blurted out my response that I wish I had kept to myself as Brian begins to accelerate his movements aware of its effects. Brian suddenly stops rubbing, thankfully as I was getting very close. How can this boy still get to me? 
"Brian stop, you are driving me crazy"
Again Brian has me saying what I'm thinking, I need to get back some control as I watch Brian undo his belt, undo his pants and slid them off his long, tortuous legs. He then sits up on his knees and walks over to the edge right in line with my agonizingly hard cock, and licks the outside of my crotch. As he does this he continues to undress now moving to his jacket and shirt, which he removes with panther-like speed and grace throwing it all to the floor

"That's no way to treat Armani Brian."
"Fuck the Armani and you have too many clothes on." 

The need in Brian's eyes is intoxicating and I also remove the rest of my clothing quickly but take a moment to place them over my jacket on the lounge. Brian just shakes his head at me and says,
"Do you wanna fuck or do laundry?"
"Oh I wanna fuck all right, all night long."
Brian suddenly looks a little strange, but I'm sure its ok, then he lowers his head and says quietly, 
"Be gentle, it’s been a while."
"Come here puppy."
I take Brian's head and push him to my now exposed cock,
"Suck puppy, you know you want to."

Brian POV

I must admit I really don't know if I want to, but Jason takes the decision away and grabs my head and begins to fuck my face. I just let him as my mind goes back to the days when this was what I did. All of a sudden Jason stops as he is panting hard and looking very much like this might be over soon. He looks down at me with a smile,
"Fuck you where always so good at that."
"Pity I can't say the same for you, I wouldn't know."
Brian replies with a smirk.
Jason's response is aggressive; he pulls me off the lounge and slams me to the floor, puts a condom on out of nowhere and slams into my ass without any preparation.
"NO!"
Suddenly he stops as I whimper,
"I need lube; it's been a while, I told you."
"Fuck!"
Jason pulls out to get some lube out of his jacket and I just lay there trying to remember why I am doing this? Justin would be so hurt, but fuck him he isn't here, he left, and I don't deserve him. Jason lays over me and squeezes cold lube straight into my hole, which makes me jump and then works his fingers into to me a bit roughly and then slams back in with a grunt. I swallow my pain and as the lube begins to work I feel that familiar burn that turns to bliss as Jason pounds into me and every now and then hits my prostrate. All of a sudden I feel him begin to shake and bang; it's over and he falls on me gasping for breath.
"I can't believe I came so quick, see what you do to me puppy."
I can't believe he is done, Justin and I would still be going strong, but that's not going to happen any time soon, if ever.

Jason's POV

I can't believe how tight Brian was and the thought that Brian has never had someone else inside him after me is perfect. I think that it won’t be that hard to win Brian's heart trump frothily once again.

Jason goes to have a shower and Brian just wipes himself with a washer and lies on Justin’s side mainly because he didn’t want to ruin the illusion of Justin. 

Jason’s POV

As I shower, I can’t believe how good that felt; it has been so long. What the fuck was I thinking when I left? He was so beautiful and so tight. It felt like heaven.  Heaven that I will have back no matter what. 

Brian’s POV

What fuck was I thinking? What will Justin think? Fuck it, like he will care he left me. He probably doesn’t love me any more that’s why he left.  I can’t believe I let him fuck me. The last time was the night Justin left. What the fuck was I thinking? 

When Brian looks at Jason who is now coming out of the shower, he must admit he still looks hot and as Jason moves to Brian’s side of his bed he slowly moves out and walks to the window of the loft that over looks the entire city.  He lights a cigarette to think; what’s going on and moves to the answering machine where the light is blinking. 
Suddenly Gus small voice rings through the loft

Gus: “Daddy, it’s me Gus (giggles) Mommy said we get to come and see you for Fanksgiving (Brian hears Lindsay’s voice correct him) Lindsay: thanksgiving sweetie (she whispers) yeah, what mommy said, so can I stay with you for a night? Call me” (he hangs up the phone and Brian just smiles into the dark thinking that at least he will get to see Gus.) 

New York 

Daphne walks out of her room to see Justin standing there with this hurt look on his face. 
Daphne: “Justin.”
Justin: “No, you have been talking to him for a year and you never told me.”
Daphne: “I didn’t want to hurt you and I have been telling him that he was stupid.”
Justin: “I need to go.”
Daphne: “Where are you going?”
Justin: “Home for a few extra days. I called Michael and he said that’s fine.”
Daphne: “Are you sure?”
Justin: “I can’t keep running away.”
Daphne and Justin hug each other good-bye. 
Daphne: “Good Luck.” 
Justin:” Thanks.”