Gerri Thank you for the wonderful beta Helen: thank you for the banner. Thank you to everyone who is reading and reviewing I really appericate it. :) Comments=Love Kira’s Room "Daddy Brian?" "Yes." "Why don’t you love my daddy anymore?" He looks at Brian with unshed tears in his eyes; Brian walks over and picks him up off Kira’s bed, sits him in his lap, inhales and exhales deeply. "Shae, I love your dad very much more than anything." "Is it me?" Shae looks up at Brian a single tear running down his small red little cheek. "No! God no, never you or your daddy Shae. I love you and Justin with all my heart like Kira." "Then why do you and Daddy never kiss anymore all you both do is cry?" Liberty Diner Michael sits in a booth with his old friends shaking his head. "I can’t believe it." Then Ted lowers his face. "I know." "Why is Brian pushing Sunshine away?" Emmett asks the question they all know the answer to on some level. "Because he’s stupid." Emmett slaps Ted on the back of the head. "No, he’s afraid." "Brian Kinney, afraid? Why, now that’s stupid ?" "I agree but he figures he is responsible for Kira getting hurt because was distracted by falling for Justin." Debbie comes up to the booth the boys are on. "I love that asshole, but that is the dumbest thing I ever heard." All the boys are nodding their heads in agreement. Outside the Hospital Brian walks over to the Hospital and heads to the smoking section on the outside away from the main doors, when he gets closer he sees a familiar blond head much like the blond he just left in the room with Jennifer and Molly. Brian walks over towards Justin and pulls out his cigarette and lights it and sits next to the blond. "How are you?" "How do you think I am?" For the first time Brian notices how tried Justin looks and he can see the pain in his eyes. "Tell me." "No" "Please tell me" "Fine, you want to know what’s wrong with me?" Justin stands up to get some space between him and Brian. "You propose to me, then you push me away, not to mention my son wants to know why Kira wont wake up along with why his Daddy Brian doesn’t love him anymore and to top it all of you selfish bastard you seem to think you’re the only one in pain." By now there are tears running down Justin’s face, Brian gets up and walks over to Justin and thumbs away the tears and whispers to him. "I’m sorry." Justin looks up in to Brian’s eyes. "I thought you said sorry was bullshit." Brian smirks and huffs a laugh. "Sometimes it’s not, sometimes its necessary. "Do you still want to marry me? Have a family with me?" "Yes…" Justin begins to smile his sunshine smile for the first time in four days. "…but we can’t." "Why the fuck not" Before Brian has a chance to answer Molly comes running towards them with a big smile on her face. "Kira woke up!" All three race to Kira’s room to see her. Brian and Justin rush into her room and Kira looks at the door and see her fathers standing there with smiles on their faces looking relieved. They see Shae lying next to her talking to her flamboyantly, moving around his hands as he talked. Molly and Jennifer stand in the corner as Brian and Justin each moved to a side of Kira’s bed. They both leaned down and kissed her forehead. Kira whispers. "Daddy, Papa you’re here." Brian and Justin both look at her with concern with that comment but before they can ask the question Kira starts to cry quiet tears. "I’m sorry so very sorry." "Brown eyes, why are you apologizing baby?" "Because I ruined your wedding." Kira was stilling crying while the rest of the family entered looking concerned and confused. Jennifer and Molly didn’t know weather to laugh or cry either. Justin braved and asked the question that everyone was afraid to. "What do you mean you ruined our wedding?" "Well, that’s why we were staying with Grandma Jen and Aunt Molly's because you and Daddy were on your honeymoon, right?" Kira looks at her fathers for some time feeling the confusing in the room. "Kira, you didn’t ruin our wedding or anything like that. Kira looks at Brian and Justin with a confused look on her face now. "Then why are you and daddy not in love anymore?" Justin’s POV I look at Brian and I know my face has a shocked expression. How do you answer a question like that question when you don’t really know the answer yourself. I mean Michael said its fear but what is he so afraid of. I hate that I have to answer Kira and Shae’s questions. Before we can really answer the question the Doctor enters, I swear I have never been so happy to see a Doctor in my life and I can see the relief in Brian’s eyes. He tells us that Kira can go home Wednesday, its Monday now so that’s two days away. I wondering if I can talk Brian into go home for a night to get some sleep. Tuesday Night Kira was laughing and talking animatedly to her father when she felt someone quietly enter the room; she looked over at the door and saw Justin start to walk into the room. Brian and Justin pass each other as one enters and the other leaves they both say later. Justin assumes Brian is leaving for the night so he walks over to the chair that Brian was sitting in. "Hey Daddy J." Kira says sleepily. Justin leans up and kisses her on the cheek. "Hey baby girl, how are you feeling tonight being your last night in hospital? Kira smiles a little. "Okay I guess I can’t wait to get out of here." Justin laughs a little. "I don’t blame you, what’s wrong?" "My head is a little sore but Nurse Joy said she will bring my medicine when I am ready for bed, also my heart hurts." "Do you want your medicine now?" Kira shakes her head no. "Okay, why does your heart hurt?" Justin brushes Kira's curly bangs out of her face. "Because my family is broken." Kira slowly lets the tears fall from her eyes. "You still have your family, no matter what." Justin wipes her tears away. "No, I don’t!" Kira shakes her head no to prove a point. "Not the one I want." Brian gets half way to his Jeep when he realises he forgot his keys, he starts to head back to Kira’s and starts to open the door quietly not to wake Kira up in case she is asleep when he hears Justin and Kira talking. He rests his head against the door knowing he should walk away and not listen to this but a part of him wants to know. As soon as he hears his daughter start to cry he begins to walk away when Justin’s next question stops him in his tracks. "What family do you want?" "I want you and Shae to live with Daddy and me, I want the four of us to be happy." "I know you do and trust me I want that more than anything in this world." "Why isn’t it happening then?" Before has a chance to answer, Kira slowly starts to fall asleep while Brian slowly closes the door and walks away from the room. He goes over to the smoking section to have a cigarette and takes a breathe trying to digest the intense conversation he has over heard. Justin also decides to quietly leave the room and stops at the nurse's station to let them know he will be back in few minutes. He walks over to the smoking section not even paying attention to who is there. He walks over to the rail and lights his cigarette. "You know those will kill you?" Brian walks over to Justin and stands next to him. "Jesus Christ Brian!" Justin grabs onto the railing even tighter. Brian smiles his tongue in cheek smirk. "Sorry Sunshine didn’t mean to scare you." Justin looks up into Brian’s face and sees the smirk. "You didn’t scare me and sorry is bullshit and also, what are you still doing here?" "I forgot my keys and I wanted to say goodnight to Kira one last time." "She just fell asleep but I’m sure if you're really quiet she wouldn’t mind having you wake her up. Justin smiles playfully at Brian, forgetting that he is mad at Brian for a second. "True but if I wake her up she can be such a drama princess." "Well, she had to learn it from somewhere and who better than the master." Brian gently shoves Justin for the comment. "Play nice." Justin shrugs and leers a little at Brian. "I always play nice." "Yeah sure you do." Brian looks at Justin with lust but quickly puts on his mask. "So…" "I over heard what you and Kira were talking about." "I’m sorry, I wasn't sure how to deal with it or answer her questions." "Sorry for what, being honest with her and trying to answer her questions?" "Trust me I didn’t answer all her questions." Brian looks at Justin with a raised eyebrow. "What question didn’t you answer?" "Why we aren’t together...?" "She asked that?" "Yeah, she is very intuitive." "Why didn’t you answer it?" "How can I answer a question, when I don’t even know the answer myself." He looks up at Brian one last time for the night and heads back inside the hospital. He just needed to get away from Brian for a minute but before he was able to escape through the doors he felt someone pull him back and he looked up and saw Brian’s hazel eyes. "Jus." "Don’t." He leans up and gently brushes his lips against Brian’s for what feels like the last time. "Goodnight Brian." Justin turned and slowly started to walk into the hospital again.