Thanks to my wonderful Beta, Carolyn. You da bomb. Thanks to Shauna for the Plot. Thanks to Tay..for well..everything.You know what I mean. ------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------ I'm Moving On By:Rascal Flatts I move around the empty loft and can’t help but think about the days that it was full. I’ve had so many things happen here. I think back to when I didn’t know Justin. How I was so happy bringing tricks here, fucking them and sending them on their way. I've dealt with my ghosts and I've faced all my demons Finally content with a past I regret Its not that I regret anything, the only thing I regret is not doing this sooner. Letting him leave alone. But I know that he is stronger than anyone I know. I've found you find strength in your moments of weakness For once I'm at peace with myself Knowing Justin overcame everything that happened to him. The man lived through being kicked out, to dealing with me and the bashing. I blamed myself for that night. But everyone kept telling me it wasn’t my fault, even Justin. I've been burdened with blame, trapped in the past for too long I'm movin' on But I’m moving on. Letting go of that part of my life. Letting go of that hurt. I’m learning through what Justin did. He really is my inspiration. I've lived in this place and I know all the faces Each one is different but they're always the same The gang’s all the same. But they all have different names. They mean me no harm but it's time that I face it They'll never allow me to change I look at my past with them and know that no matter what I’ve done to show that I’m changing, they never let it be what I want it to be. A new me. I know now what I’m going to do is right. But I never dreamed home would end up where I don't belong I'm movin' on I never thought that this would ever feel so empty without Justin. I hate feeling like home isn’t here anymore. I'm movin' on At last I can see life has been patiently waiting for me And I know there's no guarantees, but I'm not alone I look up to see Justin smiling at me. I’m not alone. I have the most patient partner. He comes over to hug me as his arms slip around my neck. There comes a time in everyone's life When all you can see are the years passing by And I have made up my mind that those days are gone I decided when he left for New York I would do anything I could to stay with him. Those other days are gone. Gone are the lonely nights. Gone are the mornings of waking up alone. I sold what I could and packed what I couldn't Stopped to fill up on my way out of town “You ready Brian?” Justin asks me. “You’re sure about this?” “More then anything in the world.” I answer as I pick up the last of the bags. “Well then, New York here we come.” I laugh as we pull out onto the road. I've loved like I should but lived like I shouldn't I had to lose everything to find out I decided when he was gone that I would never let him go again. I lost him way too many times to lose him again, over a stupid thing like distance. Maybe forgiveness will find me somewhere down this road I'm movin' on We both did our forgiving and we both know that we’ll be fine, as long as we do it together. Looking back through the rearview mirror I see my past slowly disappearing. Then looking to my right, I see my future staring back at me. Smiling as the only words that came to my mind when Justin questioned me about this move. And if I really want to move away from them. Away from my friends and family. I looked at him and smiled and said three words to him. "I'm movin' on" Moving on with my life. Moving on with the man I love. Yes I’m moving on. Smiling once again I look at the man beside me before looking back to the road we’re on, smiling to myself. Yes, I'm movin' on.