AU Thank you to the girls. Thanks to Nikki for helping with this chapter in finding better way of wording something when I was having trouble. Thanks to the beta who wants to remain unknown but you know who you are. Big thanks to you. Also thanks to Sid for making me write on this. It's all for you. Also thanks my girls. You all rock. Ash, thanks for the evil thoughts. Nise, my sister..thanks for always being there. More to come soon.
Brian Pov: It’s been two days since Justin left when I came out of the shower to find him gone. I knew where he went so I called Emmett’s and he told me he is safe with him and to give Justin some time to get his thoughts together. Em took him to his therapy yesterday and called me after to let me know he was ok. As I look at myself in mirror I feel another presence in the room. “Go after him; show him he is worth it.” I turn to see Michael standing at the bathroom door. “I don’t go after anyone.” “Bullshit. The guy has gotten to you, now you need to fucking get to him. This is only confirming what he feared that you wanted him gone.” I look back at myself in the mirror. “I am scared.” I laugh at the shocked look on his face." What, am I not allowed to be?” “No, I mean yes you can, but I'm not shocked that you are, just shocked you are admitting to it. Brian I was never his biggest fan, but I know how he has changed you. I know he has gotten those walls cracked and slipped through them, you love him." “I know how I fucking feel about him Mikey I am not saying I don’t love him.” I look at him before looking down. “I fucking love him.” “Then go for him.” Mikey rubs his hand on my back. "Go get the man that you have broken all your rules for. Go get the man that makes you happy. Go show him all his thoughts are wrong.” “When did you become so fucking smart Mikey?” I smile, knowing what I am going to do. “I have to go; let yourself out.” I walk into the room, grabbing my pants and shirt. After getting dressed I go to Emmett’s and knock on the door twice before he opens it. “Brian.” Em looks at me. “Em, I need to see him, I need him back.” He looks at me. “Since when does Brian Kinney go after anyone?” “Since he fell in love with a blond angel. Where is he, Em?” I look around. I see Em with a few tears in his ears. Shit I am too late I think to myself. Falling to the couch I look out the window and take a deep breath. “He’s at school Brian he had a project to work on.” I look up to see Emmett’s brightest smile as I smile back. “But I will go with you because I promised him I wouldn’t let you get near him until he said ok.” I simply nod as I stand up. “Let’s go then.” I grab his arm and head out to get the man of my dreams back. We walk the halls of PIFA and come to the door where I see Justin sketching. He looks so good when he does that. He draws so passionately. He moves his head to the side and I see an image of me on the sketch paper in front of him but I am not smiling and I have sad eyes. “Stay here, I will see what he says.” Emmett walks in and I lean against the doorframe waiting for him to come back out. Waiting to see if I get Justin's permission to walk in there, and if I walk out alone or with my heart and soul. Justin POV: I’m sitting here doing a sketch of Brian when I seem to lose my train of thought. Hell I always lose track of everything when I think of the man. “Justin.” I turn to see Emmett coming in. “Hey Em. I would have called you when I got done.” I tell him looking at the pencil in my hand. “I know baby but I needed to talk to you. That’s a nice picture of him do you want to talk about him?” “Not really. It still hurts.” I look at the perfect imagine in front of me. “Justin talk to me sweetie.” I look into his eyes. “I miss him E I miss him so much, but he deserves more and from the fact he hasn’t called or came by means I was right. I love him E but after what he saw, how could he want me?” “Because I do.” I turn to see Brian at the door then I look at Em. “I will make him leave if you want but I think you should hear him out.” I look into his eyes, nodding. He walks past Brian. “Don’t fuck this up Brian or you will have me on your ass and not in the life-affirming way you think. Don’t hurt my baby.” I smile knowing I can count on E anytime. “I don’t plan on hurting him; I am hoping he will come home with me for good.” I look at him before looking away. I feel strong arms around my waist, knowing that feel I lean into it. “Hey Sunshine. How’s it going?” He whispers into my ear. “It’s okay.” I whisper out. ”We nee to talk and I want you to listen to everything I say to you. I am not with you out of pity, I am with you because..” He pauses and turns me into his arms. “I want you to see my eyes when I say this. I want you to see I am not fucking around. Justin Taylor, you fucking little shit, you stole my heart and I love you. Don’t throw us away on fears of not being good enough for me. Or that you feel like it’s too much for me, Justin. I know things will not be easy and I will handle it. What I can’t handle, we will handle together. You broke my walls Justin. You showed me that I wasn’t being a real man then, now I am because of you. I can love and feel something good, because of you.” I look into his eyes, feeling tears in my own. I close my eyes as I feel him turn me around to face the sketch I am doing. “Justin, do you know why I have sad eyes in this picture? You always see me for the real thing. But why did you do it with sad eyes?” “I don’t know it just seemed right.” “Yes it was right I have sad eyes Justin because I haven’t had you with me in days. I am sad because I love you and want to take the pain away. I am sad because I don’t want to lose you. I have sad eyes Justin, because I don’t have the most amazing Sunshine in my life. You are the only thing I am missing in my life Justin, the missing link.” I feel him take his finger and wipe a tear off my cheek. Then he kisses it away. “Brian.” I start to say but he stops me. “I’m not finished you are my security blanket just like I am yours. But the truth is you are more mine then the other way around. When I am with you, I know I am home I found that in your arms. Right now, the loft is just that, a loft I want you to come back and make it a home, our home. Please, come home Sunshine I need you and I love you. You made me break all my rules and the most important one is, I fell in love with you. Don’t take my heart away. And if you walk away, you take it with you because you have it in your hands. Please Baby, just come back with me let me take care of you and you take care of me. We will take care of each other.” I look into his eyes and know he means all of it. “Okay, I will. I love you too.” I tell him. “And Justin,” But this time I stop him. “I know I was an idiot to walk away from you and I won’t ever do it again.” He goes to say it but I put a finger on his mouth. “I promise.” “Good, because I will always find you to bring you home. I won’t let you go that easy. We will be okay Justin, as long as we are together.” He rubs my face. “I agree because now I see what you mean. Let’s go home Brian.” He nods as he leans down and kisses me. He places his forehead against mine, smiling into my eyes and I can’t help but smile back. “That’s the Sunshine I miss and love.” I look back at the picture as Brian walks by me, picking it up. “As long as I have you I will never have that look.” I kiss him hard and letting him know I feel the same way. After we get home we take our showers which took twice as long since there was a lot of making up to do. He picks me up and carries me to the bed laying me down and kissing down my chest. Biting my nipples I can’t help but moan. He moves down over my stomach with little kisses on my skin making me giggle then he looks up smiling. “I always want to make you do that.” I put a hand on his face. “Me too. I want to make you happy.” “As long as I have you I will be.” He goes back down and takes my dick in his mouth and I can feel his hand running up my body, taking my hand into his and squeezing it. I feel that old familiar tightness as I let go and squirt my spunk into his mouth and down his throat. He leans up and kisses me passionately. I smile at him as I roll him over and kiss down his body. I do the same thing to him that he did to me. But before he can cum he pulls me up. “I need you inside me, now.” I look into his eyes and place a condom on as I move up between his legs. Pushing into him slowly I never take my eyes off his because they are full of love, desire and want. I lean over and kiss him. He holds me close as I keep pushing into him slowly. I stroke his cock in my hand and place his hand over mine. Intertwining our fingers together we stroke his dick together as I move in and out of him again and again. Placing soft kisses on his lips and I close my eyes. “Open your eyes; I want to see them.” I do as he asks and open them and stare down at him. We both start to cum together while we are looking deep into each other’s eyes. He leans up, kissing me. “I love you Justin. When I met you, you didn’t just change me you fixed me. You made me who I want to be. You are beautiful and talented and nothing I can do or say will ever make me love you less because you mean the world to me.” “I love you too.” I move off him lying next to him on the bed as he pulls me into his arms and I know I just know that we will be okay. “We should go get your things.” He whispers to me. “Can we wait a few hours? I just want to lay here with you awhile.” He just smiles and pulls me towards him and I snuggle into his arms and it just feels right. We will make it as long as we have each other. The next afternoon we head over to Em’s to get some of my stuff. “Justin, I see you have been thinking of me the days you were gone.” I look over to see what caught his eye and I see the sketches I have done. “No matter how hard I tried every time I picked up a pencil or paint brush I seem to always end up with your face staring back at me in the end.” He pulls me in and kisses me. “Well if I had your talent I would have done the same thing. I am unforgettable.” He looks into my eyes before we both crack up laughing. “Seriously Justin I would have been drawing you if I knew how to draw. You are my inspiration for life.” I lean up and kiss him. As usual with us the kiss goes into more as I feel him pushing me back onto Em’s bed. Pulling me up to a sitting position he pulls my shirt off. Biting my neck he moves down taking my nipple into his mouth as I lean my head back moaning from the sensation of his lips on me. I now feel him pulling my pants off my body so I lift up to make it an easy task he leans over taking my dick into his mouth. Moving my hands through his hair I move my hips. “Brian please fuck me.” I grunt out. “Anything you want Sunshine.” He moves up taking his own clothes off. Placing a condom on his hard cock he positions himself at my entrance and pushes in slowly I feel my eyes close. “Open your eyes. I want to see you.” I open them and look into his face. We move together as my body feels like it’s on fire. I feel my heart leap from my chest as my eyes once again flutter closed and Brian stops moving. Opening my eyes I look at him. “Keep your eyes open Sunshine I want to see all the emotions in you and you in me. I want us both to remember our faces.” He begins to move again. “To remember how we feel at this moment and the moments ahead of us. I want to see the love in your eyes and my love in my eyes for you.” He pumps in and out kissing my neck as he bends over. I know that we both won’t last long. “I want you to know how happy I am with you.” He pushes all the way in stopping just at the prostate before jabbing inside three times. “Oh shit, Brian.” I keep my eyes on him not wanting to miss any of his emotions. Repeating the movement I feel the old familiar feeling slipping into my balls. “Fuck me.” I look up to see he is smiling but not just his lips, his eyes too. “No.” He whispers. “I am making love to you Sunshine It will always be love with us.” With his words and the jabs on my prostate we both start to cum. Looking into each other’s eyes I can see the love in them and I know he sees it in mine. He leans over to kiss my lips and he looks into my eyes once more when we hear sobbing from the doorway. Looking up we see Emmett standing there. “That was so beautiful. I am so touched.” He runs over and jumps on the bed hugging us both. “Umm, E we need to get dressed.” I laugh at him and Brian just looks from Emmett to me and breaks out into a smile. “If it was anyone else I would have decked him but how can I hit a woman?” We all laugh again as Emmett gets up. “First off I am a ‘queen’ not a woman and second you wouldn’t hit a queen? I’ll leave you guys for a bit so you two can get dressed or make love again.” Brian gives him a look but smiles down at me once E is gone. “He’s a fucking character isn’t he?” I nod my head in agreement. “Ok Sunshine, let’s get you up and dressed so we can get your stuff back to the loft. We won’t change the sheets since Emmett will want them to dream of us.” I laugh and lean up to kiss him. “Get dressed so we can go home and do it again.” I hurry up and put my pants on wanting to get to the loft so we can start our life again. Brian POV: After getting dressed I look over at Justin a few times while doing it and I see him looking in the mirror. I walk up behind him and slip my arms around his waist. “What are you thinking?” I ask kissing the side of his head. “How lucky I am and how happy you make me feel.” I squeeze him closer. “I’m the lucky one. Now get dressed so we can go home and spend the rest of our afternoon and night in bed.” I let him go to finish getting dressed. We get a few bags and head out the door as we drive back to the loft Justin leans over and unzips my jeans taking my dick out he slips it into his mouth. “Justin,” I breathe out. “Just drive.” He whispers. I slow down to the speed limit as he is sucking my dick. Most people would speed up but I want it to last so I slow down. I feel his mouth engulf me as my hand runs through his hair. He works his magic as I feel my sperm spill into his mouth. Sucking me dry he leans up kisses my neck. “Very high protein shake.” He licks his lips which causes me to laugh. “Yes very high” “I should have more of those.” He smirks. “Anytime, Justin.” I smile as I pull up to the loft. We get out of the jeep grabbing his bag we head to the door. As we reach the door I see something out of the corner of my eye and it's coming right for Justin. But before I could stop it I see a bat swing and connect to Justin’s head. I see Justin fall to the ground in a pool of blood. “JUSTIN. NO. NO. NO,” I scream, taking him into my arms. As I look up I see a blond boy running off. “FAG!” He yells as he disappears into the night. I hold an unconscious Justin in my arms. “Justin please don’t die on me, I need you. I just got you and I can’t lose you now.” Rocking him in my arms I pick up my cell and dial 911. “Yes, my partner was just hit in the head with a bat. Please hurry.” I give them the address as I toss it aside. “Justin, hold on. Just hold on. I am here and I love you,” I whisper, holding my partner in my arms for what I hope isn’t the last time.