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<I>“Justin!” Molly cries out. “Jus..tin. Help me please.” I can see her lying there but I can’t move. 

“Molly,” I stutter out. I feel a sharp pain in my side as my father kicks me again. 

“This is all your fault Justin. Your fault that your sister is the one who gets the brunt of this tonight. You defied me Justin.” my father screams at me again before kicking me in the back.

I look over to Molly who is lying there with her clothes ripped and blood on the floor around her. I see my father walk over to her and lean over her and stick a finger up her, making her scream. 

“Molly, this is all Justin’s fault. He was late tonight and I had quests that needed their needs met. Just remember Molly, this is your brother’s fault.” He looks back to me and kicks her before walking back to me. Kicking me as he walks up the stairs.

I crawl over to Molly and hold her in my arms. “It’s okay Molly, I got you now. I’m so sorry.” 

“I love you Justin. Please don’t let him hurt me anymore.” She looks so pale and fragile.

“I love you to Mollusk. I am so sorry.” I cry as I hold her. Picking her up she screams at the pain. 

I take her up to her bed, lying her down I lay next to her and hold her as she cries herself to sleep. I fall asleep as well and when I wake up it’s late. I look at Molly. Something isn’t right as I look at her again.

“Molly?” She opens her eyes and shuts them. 

“MOM!” I scream out. She runs in and sees Molly and the blood on the bed. 

“Oh my god. Molly. What happened?” 

“Dad did it mom,” I whisper and Molly nods her head. My mom picks her up and we take her to the hospital. “Justin stay out here.” I agree and she takes Molly in the ER and not long after I see my father going in. 

I walk in and see my parents with the doctor and my mom is crying. As I get closer I hear my father tell them “It’s Justin, her brother, who did it. I caught him once before.”

“Well from the injuries sustained from the rape and beating he gave her, we were unable to stop the bleeding. I’m really sorry, we couldn’t save her.” 

“NOO! NOT MY BABY GIRL!” I see my dad pull her into him as she falls into him crying. 

“Sir, we have to call the police on this. Your son is in a lot of trouble. He is still a minor therefore he will be put in juvenile hall. I’m so sorry for your loss.” The doctor walks away and I run out. 

Dead. Molly’s dead. Oh my god. I run until I can’t run anymore and collapse to the ground.

“Molly, no god Molly. I’m so sorry. God please NO!” I sob out. “Molly!”</I>

“Justin.” I hear a voice.

<I>”Molly.”</I> 

“Justin, it’s ok, I’m going to bring you out of it. When I count to three you will be awake and alert.”

<I>”Molly”</I>

“One,” I hear a voice say.

<I>”No Molly”</I>

“Two,” the voice says to me.

<I>”MOLLY!” I scream. </I>

“Three,” The voice says and I open my eyes to find myself back in Dr. Dade’s office. 

“Justin, it’s ok. You are ok,” he tells me and I feel so worn out. Just a minute ago I felt like I was reliving the whole night again.

I look back at him as he hands me a tissue as I wipe my eyes. “It’s okay, let it out. Would you like some water Justin?” I simply nod my head. I’m afraid my voice would betray me.

I woke up this morning in tears after having a dream of Molly’s face, begging me for help. I wrote Brian a note and came straight here. 

“Here Justin.” I look at Emmett who hands me a bottle of water. I called him as I was leaving, telling him I needed him. He came right away. “Thanks E.” 

“Anytime.” 

“Justin, you feeling better?” Dade asks me.

“Ya, I think so.”

“So let’s talk about how you are feeling.” He looks to me as I feel Emmett sit next to me. He knows why this is hard today. 

“Well, like I said, I woke up from a nightmare and didn’t want to wake Brian. So I left him a note telling him I had a few things to do. Emmett called him when we got here to let him know we were here.”

“Then that explains him out in the waiting room. I told him to just sit down until you asked him in.”

“Thanks. I just hate bringing him in the middle of this. Last night was so great and we were ahead of ourselves. I didn’t want him to think that it’s him.”

“Would you like me to ask him to come in?” 

“Please.” He nods as he goes over and opens the door. 

“Brian, come on in.” I am afraid to look at him as he comes in.

He comes over and sits next to me, lifting my face. “What happened?” He looks from me to Dade and to Emmett then back to me. 

“I had a bad night.” I say quietly. 

“Justin, you don’t need to run from me. I was worried when I got up and you weren’t there. Then Emmett calls and tells me you are here.” I try to look away but he gently turns it back to him. “Never be afraid to talk to me.” I put my head into him as he strokes my hair.

“Justin, why don’t you continue where we left off?” I nod as I look at Brian. 

“I woke up and remembered what today was. I didn’t want it to seem like I was a baby. I can’t stop the dreams.”

“Justin, in the dreams is it just like what happened?” Dade asks.

“Yes, I guess. I mean it’s more real then dreams.”

“Ok, so what happened?” 

“My dad raped her, kicked her and me and I put her in her bed. I woke up and she was bad so my mom took her into the hospital where my father came up. Molly died; my dad said it was me. I ran away.” 

“Why is it bothering you now?” 

“It’s the anniversary of her death. I always have a bad day on this day. I keep thinking I could have saved her if I just took her in that night. Or had mom take her in. I didn’t know she was that bad. I didn’t know.” I start to sob once again.

Brian goes to wrap his arms around me but I move away and stand up. “No, don’t. I could have saved her if I just took her in.” Emmett grabs me and hugs me to him. I try to pull away but I couldn’t.

“Shhh Justin, it’s not your fault. I was there. I saw what she looked like. There isn’t anything you could have done. You heard what was said about it. She lost too much blood and had too much damage to survive.” He hugs me tighter and I don’t know what else to do but let him.

“Justin, he’s right. It’s not your fault. Even your mom knew that.” I feel Brian behind me stroking my hair. I turn to face him as he pulls me into him. “It’s ok, I’m here. Never have to worry about me not being there for you. I told you last night, let me be the one to cry for you.” I let him take me to the couch as he pulls me down on his lap.

“I love you,” Brian whispers into my ear, which makes me smile. I look back at him 

“I love you too. Thanks for not being mad at me for leaving.” 

“Never Sunshine. Just glad that you had Emmett call me.” I just nod my head, looking back at Dade and Emmett.

“That’s great. It’s good to have someone on your side Justin. And look you have two wonderful men who will do anything to help you,” Dade tells me.

“I know. They are great.” I look down, a bit shy.

“Ok Justin, let’s talk again. You know that Brian and Emmett are here to help you. Just say what’s on your mind.”

As I look at them I snuggle farther into Brian’s chest where he hugs me tighter, letting me know he has me. 

“Well like I said, it’s the anniversary of Molly’s death. I woke up and went to the gravesite where I can see fresh flowers on her grave. I remember my mom setting that up to have fresh flowers on her grave on her birthday and on the anniversary of her death.” I take a deep breath before I continue. “When I got there, there were flowers on her grave from my mother. I get up to walk away when I see my dad’s gravesite as well as my mother’s and realized I have no family left. They were all dead. I’m all alone.” I feel Brian tighten his hold on me. 

“You aren’t alone Justin. We are your family. Emmett, the gang, and me. We are all you’re family and you are never alone. We love you.” 

“He’s right Baby. You and I have known each other forever and you know you can always count on me. You know that don’t you?” I look at Emmett and know that he was right. I know he was always the one who I came to when my so-called father beat me. 

“I know E, I love you guys, too.” I get up and hug him. 

“ALWAYS remember that, Baby. I will never desert you. None of us will. I love you baby,” Emmett whispers in my ear. 

“I know. Thanks.”

“You never have to thank me for loving you. It’s an honor to.” 

“I agree,” Brian says with a smile.

I look up at them and realize that they probably think I am being a child about this.

“I’m sorry. I shouldn’t be such a baby about this.” I whisper.

“Justin Taylor, look at me.” I hear Emmett’s voice and know he means business. I look up at him when he takes my face in his hands.

“I never want to hear you say that. After what you went through you are entitled to cry. It shows you are only human. If you didn’t cry I would be worried.” He pulls me in for a hug.

“He’s right Sunshine.” Brian smiles at me.

“Thanks guys.” I look to Dade.

“Well Justin I think this is enough for today. I want you to go home and rest. I will see you back here in two days. It’s been a long night for you.” I nod my head as I lean against Brian.

We say our good byes to Emmett and Dade, who I think has the hots for Emmett. 

<b>Brian POV:</b>

I take Justin back to the loft where we have a seat on the couch. 

“Here have a drink.” I hand him a bottle of water

“Thanks. Brian, I’m sorry about tonight. I didn’t mean for us to spend so much time there.” 

“No sorry’s needed. Just glad you let me be there for you.” I pull him into my arms.

“I am really tired. Do you think we could just go to bed?” Justin looks at me with tired eyes.

“Of course, let’s go.” I stand up and pick him up into my arms. Carrying him to the bedroom. I lay him down as I undo his shirt. He lets me undress him, down to his boxers, which are Spongebob Squarepants.  I smirk at him. “Cute.” He smiles for the first time tonight.

“Hey he’s gay you know. Just helping the little sponge out by supporting him.” We both laugh as I lay next to him. I hold him in my arms as he closes his eyes. “Thanks Brian.”

“For what?” I ask.

“For making me feel safe.” I kiss his head as I hear him sigh.

Soon enough he is asleep. I look down at his head as he sleeps. He looks like an angel. “You are always safe with me. I love you.”

Before I knew what was going on I am being awaken by Justin whining and screaming. 

“Justin, Justin wake up. It’s only a dream. It’s ok. You are safe.” I keep trying to calm him down but nothing is working.

“NO! Leave me alone. Please. I don’t want to. NO! Not Molly.” Justin curls up into a ball and keeps repeating no over and over.

Not knowing what else to do I pick up the phone and dial a familiar number.

“Hello?” The voice on the other end said.

“Dade, it’s Brian. I need a favor. Justin was fine when we got home. We laid down and went to sleep. He woke me up screaming and whining. Now I can’t get him to respond to me. He’s curled up and seems in another world.” I say in one long breath.

“I’ll be right over. And Brian, don’t try to get near him. He’s in a state right now.” He hangs up the phone. 

Don’t touch him? Is he out of his mind? I just want to hold him. About fifteen minutes later there is a nock on the door. I open it to find Dade on the other side. Walking in, he hands me some cash.

“Go have a drink with Mikey on me. I need to work with Justin alone tonight. He doesn’t need an audience right now. This is where therapist and patient work alone. Brian please, don’t argue with me on this. The more time you stay here, the longer he is like that.” 

I look over to Justin curled up in the bed. “Fine, I’ll call before heading home. Just take care of him. And keep your money. I can pay for myself.” I tell him, picking up my jacket.

“Brian, I’ll call you when we are done. Don’t call. I don’t need any interruptions.” He tells me as I look towards Justin again. “I know you love him Brian, but right now, just go.” 

“Ok, I’ll go. Call me and let me know what’s going on.” He nods his head and I open the loft door, taking one last look at Justin, I close my eyes and walk out.