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It's been a fun night, and after dancing and drinking our asses off at Babylon we find ourselves back at the loft. I am feeling a bit tipsy as I plop down onto the couch where Em and Brian sit next to me. I look at the both smiling when Emmett leans in and starts kissing me. I kiss him back but freeze when I feel Brian’s hand on my leg. I hear him whisper, "It's ok Justin, this night is for you" as Emmett smiles at me and kisses me once more. Stopping he turns my head towards Brian, where Emmett whispers "For you Baby. I'm here with you." As Brian kisses me I feel Em rub his hand on my thigh. I moan, kissing Brian deeper. I can feel my body shaking. I start to pull away when Brian leans his head onto mine. “Justin, it’s ok. Neither of us is here to hurt you. We both love you. Let us love you.” He leans back down and kisses my lips, with his eyes open as he stares into my eyes. I can see the love reflecting back. I look down at Emmett who has been watching me. “Baby, I am here. No need to worry. Brian isn’t here to hurt you. Let us make you feel better. You asked me to help you, and I told you that you wanted it to be with Brian. Well, this way is the best of both worlds. Neither of us will push you into anything, but Baby, this is to help you.” I simply close my eyes and nod my head. I want to be with Brian, but I am afraid to. But with Emmett beside me, I know I am okay. I feel Brian kiss my neck. “I won’t hurt you Sunshine.” I lean my head back as Brian runs his hand over my dick. I moan as I feel my dick come to life. “That’s it baby, let us help you,” Emmett says from below. Next thing I know I feel my pants being taken off, slowly. I look up at Brian smiling down on me. “You okay?” He asks me. I simply nod. I am nervous but with the alcohol helping calm me, I am giving into this a lot easier. I lean my head back, leaving my eyes open to watch as Em leans down and takes me into his mouth. I look at Brian who smiles and nods his head, letting me know he is okay with this. Brian leans down and licks my nipples, pulling one into his mouth. Emmett strokes my dick as Brian strokes my face. “We are here for you Sunshine.” He kisses me again as Emmett works his way up. I feel Brian moan into my mouth as I stroke him through his jeans. Emmett takes my hand and places it on Brian’s hard cock and he makes me stroke Brian. He slowly pulls his hand away, leaving just my hand on Brian. I stroke at my own pace as I feel Emmett take his hand and unbutton Brian’s pants. He slowly pushes them down to let Brian’s cock spring free. I move my hand back up and stroke him. I feel Em’s mouth on Brian’s dick as my hand continues to stroke, getting wet from Em’s spit. Brian arches up into pleasure. “Fuck Justin. Fuck Em.” Brian whispers. He leans over and takes my dick into his mouth as my hand and Em’s mouth continue to explore his cock. I moan as Brian licks and sucks on my dick. I look at Em and he looks up at me, smiling. He leans up and kisses me, while both our hands stroke Brian’s now harder then a rock cock. I am feeling so many things at this moment. But with Emmett here, it does make it easier to let Brian touch me. Not that I am afraid of Brian, I’m afraid of the contact. I just didn’t want to let Brian start and then freak out on him. All my thoughts are stopped as Brian takes my penis all the way into his mouth, humming. “Oh fuck I am going to cum.” I can feel it coming on. “Cum in his mouth Justin. It’s what he wants. He wants to taste you.” As I am about to shoot into Brian’s mouth I see Emmett take Brian into his mouth and hear us both moaning at the same time as we both shoot our loads. I fall back onto the couch. “Let’s go to the bedroom where we can be more comfortable.” Emmett tells us as we all move into the bedroom. Brian picks me up and carries me. I am gently laid down on the bed with Brian leaning over me, smiling. “You are so fucking hot Justin.” I can tell from the poke in my leg that he is hard again. Brian slowly kisses his way down as I lean over and take Emmett’s dick into my hand and stroke him through his jeans. Funny I didn’t notice he still had them on. I undo his jeans and he pushes my hands away, shaking his head. “No, baby, this is just for you. Just relax and let Brian in.” “But you are hard.” I look at him. “Ya, who wouldn’t be, but sweetie, this is just for you and Brian. I love you too much to take this any farther.” “I want to make love to you Justin.” I hear Brian say from above. I look at Em. “I’ll be right here.” He said as he pulls me up and gets behind me. Leaning against his chest I feel Brian take me into his mouth once more. Emmett is rubbing my chest and stomach kissing my neck. “Just let him in Baby. It’s ok,” E tells me. Brian leans up and kisses my lips once more. “I love you Justin.” I feel him take a finger and place it at my ass and rub it at the entrance. I take a deep breath. I know I need to do this, to be able to let them in. It’s been awhile since my dad did that. I need to let him in. I spread my legs to let him closer and he moves his finger in and out. Taking me into his mouth to help me forget the finger, even though you can’t forget the finger. I moan in pleasure when he puts two fingers in. Em is kissing my neck. “That’s it baby, let him in.” I feel Brian take his fingers out and place the head of his cock at my entrance. “Justin, look at me.” I open my eyes looking at his face. The love and passion that is so clear in his eyes. He pushes in and starts slowly. “All is good Baby, just let yourself feel the love and passion Brian is offering.” Emmett whispers. I close my eyes and feel Brian push in and I start to tense. “Justin, open your eyes.” Brian tells me. I do as he says and look at him. “Just keep your eyes on me. It’s just us. We love you Sunshine. Just keep your eyes on mine. Look at me.” Brian runs a hand over my cheek. He slowly moves again, showing me the love in his eyes. I keep my eyes on his. “That’s it Justin, see the love in his eyes. He isn’t going to hurt you, just relax and let him love you like you deserve.” Em whispers to me. I just keep watching Brian’s eyes. He’s moving in and out slowly as he strokes me. Before we both know it, we are shooting our loads, and he’s kissing my lips. Brian looks into my eyes once more and smiles. “So fucking good Sunshine. I love you.” “I love you too.” I tell him as he kisses me again. I lay there in Brian’s arms as I begin to cry. “Justin you okay?” Brian asks and I nod my head. He gets off me so I can get off Emmett. “Ya, just a little overwhelmed.” I look at Em and smile. “Em you look like you need to wipe.” We all look at the front of Em’s pants where there is a big wet spot and start to laugh. “Why didn’t you let me help you?” “Because Baby, this was about you and Brian and the love you share. I was just here to help get you comfortable enough to let Brian make love to you again and it helped.” “But we wouldn’t have minded.” I look at him and then to Brian. “But I would have. Baby I love you way too much to take advantage of the situation. Now if you are okay I am going to go find a trick and relive some moments.” We all laugh as Em kisses me and then kisses Brian. “Thanks Em, for everything.” Brian hugs him again. “Anytime Brian. I’m here for you both.” Emmett goes out of the room and we hear the loft door closing as Brian looks down into my face. “He’s a great man,” Brian said running his hand over my cheek. “Yes he is. He’s a great man,” I repeat as Brian rolls us over to where I am laying on his chest. ********************** Brian POV: With Justin lying on my chest I can tell he is letting me slowly in. “What are you thinking about?” I ask him. “About my mom and sister. When I was younger and Molly was alive we used to play this game as we lay in bed together. She would say a phrase from a movie and I would have to guess it. We did a lot of things together. We would talk about when we got older what we wanted to do. She wanted to be an actress. She would always stand up and act out a scene.” I see him smile at the memory. “She would get me involved in it and we would be so into it, my mom would come in and join us. She would always play the part of someone close to us.” Justin wipes a tear. “Sounds like fun.” I rub his back. “It was a blast. We usually would be so calm when my dad was out of town. We all knew we were safe and could just do stupid things together. My mom did love us. I know she did, but she was just as scared of my dad as we were.” I stay quiet, knowing Justin needs to do this at his own pace. “Molly was so good, she would have been a great actress. I can still remember the times we were all happy. I remember the family trips before my dad started abusing us. We would go on family trips and we would always sing songs.” “It’s good to have those memories. Just always remember the good times. You don’t want to forget them all together. They loved you.” “I know. Just sometimes it’s hard to remember the good stuff. And now I have a lot more good things to add to my life.” He leans up and kisses me. “And to mine.” I kiss him and he smiles again. “I missed that smile. Sunshine.” “I know you did. I still can’t believe you and Em did this.” “Well there isn’t anything I wouldn’t do for you. I knew you trusted him whole-heartedly . I knew you would feel more comfortable with him here.” I kiss his forehead. “It’s not that I didn’t trust you. I’m just ashamed of a lot of things. One of those is that you saw it first hand. I could hide a lot when it wasn’t seen, but to know you saw me in the position, I felt small.” “Justin this isn’t ANYTHING small about you. I don’t think anything different about you, just that I need you inside me right now.” I kiss his temple. “Are you sure?” “Justin, you already had my dick up your ass, now to fully get back into swing of things, I want yours in mine.” I reach over and grab a condom and lube and hand them to him. I see him lean up and get between my legs. He prepares me and with one slow motion we are one again. He makes love to me, sweet and passionately and with nothing but love between us. As we both cum he leans his head up. He wanted to see my face and when I look up at him, I see why. He has tears coming down his face. I reach up and wipe them off his face. “You okay?” I whisper. He nods at me. “I just, I didn’t think I could get back here. I didn’t think it would hit me like this to be with you again. And they are happy tears combined with release. Brian please just hold me.” And that is what I did, I hold my lover in my arms, both of us crying for the pain he is letting go of and for the joy of being together again.