Thanks again to Shiri who wrote this and I did some english to it and sent it to my beta who is the best.Ponga. Also thx to my friends again.Let me know what you think so I can pass it onto Shiri.
BRIAN: I'm at Babylon now. Its boring as hell and I don’t have the patience to stand like a fucking idiot with the guys… pretending that I'm enjoying the small talk. I'll just go tell Michel that I'm goin home. I'm walking to the bar… and then I see him. God he is so… so fucking hot. With his blue eyes and his gorgeous long blond hair. Maybe small talk in the bar isn’t so bad after all. "So Sunshine, how are you feeling?" I hear Emmett ask him this annoying but politely question that I know for a fact that he hates. "Justin! Long time no see. Buy me a drink" I tell him that but, what I really want is to prevent Emmett from asking all these questions…and hey… be honest Brian you want all his attention to yourself. "Hey Brian" he's saying with a shy smile I looove his smile… I can swallow him in one piece when he's smiling like that. "Here is your drink, Brian" he's giving the glass to me. And suddenly we stare at each other. Knowing… I'm putting the glass back on the bar after I empty it. I'm holding his hand and dragging him to the dance floor with out any warning or invitation. I have this feeling that I need to do IT now. Like its NOW OR NEVER. We're standing in the middle of the dance floor. And it’s a bit embarrassing and strange to be like this again… to put my arms around him again… but at the same time it feels so familiar to be with him like this again. I look into his eye and I know he feels the same. He's looking down like he's afraid to look at me. "Justin, what's wrong?" I ask him and he looks up at me. He continues looking at me . Looking but not saying anything. Continuing to look in each other eyes and I've got to ask: "Will it be O.k. if I kiss you?" He's not giving me an answer and I start to feel like I made big mistake… maybe it was too soon. Maybe he needs more time. But then I can hear him laughing… laughing really hard. "Since when does Brian Fucking Kinney need to ask?" fucking twat I'm trying to be nice and he's laughing at me. "Fine! I won't ask next time" I tell him and move my lips toward his.Our lips meeting and I can feel the passion once again in me. Oh god! Its feels so fucking good! We stop kissing and we just hold each other. And he puts his head onto my shoulder. Its feels good but still, I know my baby and I know that something's bothering him. And I did promise myself that I would ask this time. "Justin… what's wrong? Is it too soon?"I ask him with concern.Something Brian Kinney doesn't do,but with Justin I've always failed at hiding. "No" he answers. "So?" the last thing that I want to do is to push him to hard… but I did learn that it's better to ask. "I'm just… I don’t know, scared… I guess" he's saids in a really quiet voice. "Of what?" I ask him,wondering what my brave angel is afraid of. "I'm scared that I'll make mistakes again… with us I mean" oh! Is all I can think. "Will it make you feel better if I tell you that I'm sacred too?"I say to him,running my fingers in his hair.Letting him know that I'm serious. This fucking kid the things he's doing to me. Has ALWAYS done to me. And I can hear him laughing again…" Since when are you scared of anything?" I guess that I deserved that and that I supposed to laugh to but instead… "Things change, Sunshine. I know that I need to open up to you more." I said that and I know I'm serious because its true. "Brian" he wants to say something but I'm not letting him. "And … tell you that I care for you and…" I stop to take a deep breath. And … things will be different for us… I mean… " I am trying to say the words. "Brian" he is trying to get my attention. "Wait. Justin I need to tell you some things. Come on… I'm trying here." I begin oh hell: "And…OH! FOR FUCKING SAKE. I LOVE YOU. O.K?" Finelly I said it.I actually said it and I am still alive.Damn this boy..no man for making me feel this way. "I love you too, Brian!" I hear him saying back.Smiling that fucking Sunshine smile and I lose it again. And we're holding each other smiling at one another and then we start to kiss again. And I think to myself…. Some mistakes can be made right.