This story was written by me and a friend of mine who's English isn't very good,Shiri..this one is for you. so I changed some things and sent it to my beta who is the best Ponga..thanks for everything. I want to also thanks to all the people who read this and helped me with it.
JUSTIN: I can't believe it. Brian doing his sister a favor... and what did he get in return?? A big fist in his face. How can she accuse her own brother of such a terrible thing. So I needed to do something.... And not just because Brian did so much for me, I did it because it was the right thing to do. I can swear - BRIAN DIDN'T DO IT!!!! So now I'm on my way to the loft, I need to give Brian his bracelet.back. Maybe I'll call him,I'll tell him to meet me downstairs?. No that would be to strange. O.k. So now I'm knocking at his door. God.. Why did I come here? He opens the door! GOD, he looks so damn beautiful. Such a beautiful face..... God's face! Ooh! Come on.. Come on. Justin you didn't come here for that! Just give him the fucking bracelet, Give it to him and go! BRIAN: I open the door and I see him. He holding my bracelet in his hand and than he puts it on me. It looks like hes grown-up so much since.Since what Brian? Since he got hurt... Don't go there. Don't go... But I can't help it, 'Cause he looks so confused and so uncertain,but his face, those lips..Those red lips I've got to have him HAVE HIM just one more last time. So I bend my head a little..And I...I'm kissing him. It's so good to kiss him.To kiss my baby again.... To kiss my Sunshine.... But he is not mine. "Shouldn't you be getting back to your boyfriend?" JUSTIN: I'm standing here like an idiot in the middle of the street, And I can't even move, it's like my legs are stuck to the floor. All I can do is to think about Brian and at the way he kissed me.And the way he touch my hair....And...And Ethan Oh my god! What am I going to tell him. I'm coming up to Ethan's.I'm coming up to my.... O.k.. What can I do? It doesn't feel like home. I'm going in to the apartment and he sits there just sits and looks at me. I think he knows, knows that I was there... knows that I gave Bri.... He doesn't know shit. Just act normal and relax. But he sits their and looks,he looks very mad. "Where have you been Justin?" My heart skips a beat "At Woody's" "At such a late hour?" I knew it,he knows "What are you, my mother?" "No. I'm your lover" " So? What am I now, permitted to go out?" he knows. BRAIN: red, blue,yellow.... all the colors mixed together red lips..... blond hair...... blue eyes....... blue eyes..... red lips...... blond hair....... kissing him. loving him. holding him fucking him . . and than I wake up. JUSTIN: I'm at the diner, it's the morning shift. The place is full of customers. and I'm busy giving everyone of them the best service I can give. But it doesn't really matter , 'cause I'm not here I'm with him, my heart belongs to him. Debbie's calling me, asking what's wrong with me, and I pretend that I don't understand. but she knows me to well. She's telling me to go home, saying that I don't look so well. And I want to go, but I don't know where I'm supposed to go. I don't know where my home is. I want it to be so much, I want to be where I belong, to stop pretending, to stop feeling so alone..... to feel normal again Suddenly Ethan is here and I didn't even notice when he came in. And I cant help it. I'm thinking about last night again. What is he doing here? Did he come to ask questions, come to drill me again? "Hey pretty face" I hate when he says that, makes me feel so cheap, reminds me of his stupid friend. He's standing close to me. "Hey pretty face, how about a quiet night at home?" There's that word again 'home' "Ethan, I'm busy,I'm working!" "Yes! I know you working! You're always working , working at the diner,working with Michael... WORKING WITH FUCKING BRIAN! Or maybe I should say FUCKING fucking BRI"--- "Sunshine!"Debbie's coming.... "Sunshine, table 9 is waiting!" saved by the bell, a big wigged red bell. DEBBIE: Who the fuck does he think he his? This motherfucking son of a bitch, this asshole, piece of shit talking to my Sunshine like that.Such a big idiot. JUSTIN: I'm going to table 9, Todd sits there,it's strange to see him actually wearing some clothes..for a change. "How are you Justin?" always the polite one, always with a smile on his face. I guess having sex 24/7 will do that to you. "I'm fine" that's a lie. "So what can I get you?” "Do you have any fish on the menu?" I think he's been in the back room to long. I'm about to answer Todds question and than I hear him. " Can I get some fucking service over here???" I'm taking Todds order and then I need to get Brian's. Debbie is to busy as it is and...I can't… can't let him enjoy the benefit of the doubt. Can't let him think he can have me back with out a fight. FIGHT BRIAN, FIGHT YOU FUCKING ASSHOLE, FIGHT FOR ME. 'cause God damn it I don't know how to do it anymore. I'm tired.So tired, and I don't want to know,don't want to know what I know now. I didn't leave because of Ethan. I thought I loved him, but now I can't even stand him any more. Ethan was just a cover up. I don't even think I left because of the rage party. I wanted him to love, to love me. I know HE cared about me,maybe even loved me, but he felt the need to hide it. If he hides his feelings for me... than... than... what it's worth??? BRIAN: I'm at the diner. I'm sitting with the guys, having bad coffee and even a worst meal, but who are you kidding Brian? You didn't come here to eat. I'm looking at him. He looks so tried. He sure as hell can use some rest. Why Debbie hasn't sent him home. She probably did and the fucking twat refused to go. Ian is here to. I can see them talking. Some how I have the feeling that it is not a nice lovers’ conversation. Ethan's standing there looking like he going to throw a fit. I'm about to call him "Jus.." but than I can here Deb yelling "Sunshine table 9" got to love that woman. Now he's talking to the guy in the table next mine. Hey, I think it's Todd, taking a break from the HARD work. I can see Justin's face. He smiles, but it's not the Sunshine smile I know. I've got to do something. I need to make sure that he's alright. "Can I get some fucking service over here???" I hope Deb doesn't come over. Good the right person comes over. You need find something smart to say with out letting him know that...I...what the fuck is he doing here!? JUSTIN: I'm about to take Brian’s order. Oh! God not again. Ethan is standing so close to me. I can smell his cologne and I don't like the 'fragrance' at all. "Justin!?" "Ethan I'm working" I can not believe this! "Working with him?" he starts to raise his voice. I'm hoping that if I ignore him, maybe... just maybe he will go. I'm holding the coffee pot in my hand. I can feel my hand start to tremble. Why can't I have a break, why now? I'm about to switch hands, hoping that nobody will notice. I can feel Brian put his hand on mine, he knows.. he always knew. That's why I love him so much, always will. I feel my hand start to relax. The pain is fading away. Just him and me...God... it feels so good. Always knows how to touch me.. This is our best times.. When he touch me...when he moves his fingers in my hand. FUCKING SHIT IT HURTS!!!!. Now Ethan is the one that’s holding my hand. I try to pull away, but I can't. "Ethan let go. Ethan???" " That how you work with him? LETTING HIM TOUCH YOU LIKE THAT LETTING…" I can't hear anything. I'm starting to see black shadows, and it hurts. I'm feeling the tears falling from the pain. "Ethan, Please...ETH.." suddenly I can see Brian's hands running on me. Brian????? What the hell... Ethan is on the floor. I can see Michael and Ben holding Brian. "YOU FUCKER !!! IF YOU EVER TOUCH HIM AGAIN I'II KILL YOU!!" I never saw Brian this mad. Brian's releasing the guys hands. "GET UP" He holds Ethan by his shirt..."YOU SON OF A BITCH" Dragging him to the diner's door. I'm standing near table 9. It's so quiet. I think I never seen the diner with so many people here and at the same time so quiet. Brian comes to stand next to me. He touchs my cheek...caressing it "Are you okay" No I'm not "Yeah" he starts to touch my hand, but I can't be here.. I need to get out of this place. " Thanks" I kiss his cheek and go.