The parts in <i>Italic</i> are in Brian’s head and the parts in <b><i>Bold Italic</b></i> is in Brian’s head but also what Justin is saying in front of him, like in unison.

I also want to thank my beta on this chapterPonga who told me it looked good enough to post as is. Mean's i'm getting a little better.lol Also thanks to the girls for helping me out when I got stuck. Sorry it took so long to get this chapter out. Just had to figure out how to work it out in my head.Please leave feedback.Enjoy.Kami..extra special thx to you for never getting tired of me bugging you for help.Love ya<HR>





**Brian’s POV**

I am starting to feel a little better when I wake up. I look at Vance and then over at Stockwell. I can’t fucking believe that Justin knows about this. How did he know?  

“I’m good Vance. Just got a little light headed.” I stand up and move over closer.

“So you want to clean up the streets? Is that what you said?” I look at them both. Getting my mask back up I sit behind my desk.

“Yes. I want to get rid of all the fags, I mean homo’s off the street so our kids can feel good and free about walking down the street.” I feel a twitch in my head.

“Well I am here to help you with your ad. Not clean up the Pitts.” I simply tell him

“I heard you are the best man for the job.” 

“Well he is. He is top notch.” Vance agrees with him as they continue talking. The meeting went to long for me but in all reality it only lasted two hours.

I can hear Justin’s voice in my head.<i> “Brian, don’t worry about him. He is an asshole. He can’t hurt you. Just calm down.” </i> Where the fuck did that thought come from?

I shake the feeling of deju ve’ and head home. I seem to be tired a lot lately. Before I know it I’m back at home with Justin beside me. <i>“I know it’s been a long day. Let’s just relax”</i> I nod my head and he takes my hand and leads me to the couch. I love when he just holds me. Odd isn’t it. I freaked out when I brought him home, and I still freak out but right now, it’s very nice and comforting to have him here.

I hug and kiss him. “Thanks Justin.” I whisper to him. 

“Anything for you Brian” He smiles that Sunshine smile and I know that he is telling the truth.

“So how was work? Meet the new asshole, Stockwell?” 

“Yes I did and I have to say, you freak the shit out of me Justin. You know way to much on this.”

“I told you,<i> it’s all a matter of knowing</i>. He doesn’t matter.<i> Stay true to yourself.”</i> I just nod my head before closing my eyes. Willing sleep to take me to La-la land. 


The next day I get up and find myself alone in the bed. I feel cold somehow. I get up and take a shower. I rub the washcloth on my face. It feels refreshing somehow. Not sure just why I am using it. I usually use one of those loofahs. They are better for the skin. I file this away for later. I wash up and head out to the kitchen where Justin is eating. I see a plate he made for me. 

I sit down to eat and look at him. He looks so sweet. He smiles at me and I feel my heart melt a little more. I never thought I would feel so comfortable with someone living here. I still freak out at times but who wouldn’t? 

“So you want me to make the posters?” Justin asks me out of the blue.

“What are you talking about?”

“About Stockwell closing the backroom. I will make the posters that will help you bring him down.”

“Close the backroom? What the fuck?”

“Brian, Stockwell is a homophobic asshole who is shutting down the backroom because he finds it gross that we fuck there. Ya, you can have women doing men and he would say it was okay. I will help make the posters. Us working together, we will bring him down.”

<i>“Do you remember that Brian”</i> Races through my head. I shake my head knowing Justin didn’t just say that.

“Of course, you can help. But I don’t think we will need to.” I tell him and he just looks at me funny.

“Brian Kinney, not standing up for what he believes in.” Justin knows me so well <i>“I was so proud of you for standing up and taking control.”</i> I have got to stop drinking so much.
 
“Brian, Stockwell must be stopped. If we ever want to be able to go in the backroom of Babylon we have to stand up.” 

“I have to get to work.” I tell him getting up and getting dressed. I kiss him on the lips and head out the door, waving and telling him ‘later’ as I shut the door.

I get to the office to find Stockwell and Vance in my office. 

“What brings you both in here.”

“Stockwell has some amazing news.” I nod my head at them.

“Well Mr. Kinney, I have taken the Liberty by the balls so to speak.” He laughs at his own joke. “ I have shut down a frequent spot where those ‘gay’ like to have sex at. The backroom at a club called Babylon. It’s closed now. Now no one has to witness ‘them’ doing each other.” Stockwell is so fucking sure of himself.

I take a drink of my coffee and think about what Justin told me.<i> “Break the damn door down”</i>

I shake the thought out of my head. 

“Isn’t this a great start Brian. First thing of cleaning up the streets of Gay people is to shut down where they have sex. Liberty Ave will be cleaned up.” 

“Look Jim, why mess with them. They are just people. So you don’t like who they pick to pleasure their needs. What right do we have to tell them who to have sex with” 

“Brian are you telling me you are okay with gay people?” Jim asks me.

“All I am saying is that we and I mean gay and straight have a right to pick who we want to be with.”

I am getting a headache here from listening to this man.

We talk about how to clean up the ‘gay street’ and through the whole thing I just kept thinking about Justin and what he said about bringing Stockwell down and doing posters to help.

The rest of the day went by way to fucking slow. I just wanted to go home and fuck who I wanted because it is my choice and not some homophobic assholes. 

I get home to find Justin sitting on the couch, writing something. I walk over and sit next to him. Not looking at him yet.

“Okay, want to help with the posters? And how the fuck did you know?” I ask myself with my eyes closed.

<i>“I remember everything we have done together.”</i> I open my eyes and look at him.<i>“And I won’t ever forget any of it.”</i> But he isn’t talking. . 

“I didn’t think I said that out loud.” I tell him.

“Say what Brian? You haven’t said anything since you sat down.” I look at him with my eyebrow up.

“Okay, look, you were right, for some reason. I want you to help with the posters. What are you writing?”

“Names for the new business when you get fired for taking Stockwell down. Take a look. It will be the name of it. It’s called Kinnetik, with two N’s” he smiles widens.

“Justin, what makes you think I am going to get fired?” 

He looks at me and smiles before taking my hand and telling me, “Because I know everything about us.” Then he kisses me.

“I like the name. Two N’s. Genius.” 

“You said the same thing last time” I shake my head and lean it back. I don’t know what to think of this kid.

“Justin can we change the subject? It makes me a little freaked out when you talk about things that come true.”

“Ok. How about Ted and Emmett? They are a couple but I think they make better friends. They will break up.” I nod my head.<i> “And I was right about them</i>,<b><i> just like I am right about you being okay”</b></i> Damn my head. What is with all these fucking voices.

<i>“Calm down Brian. It will get better”</i> I now hear Debbie’s voice and she isn’t in the fucking loft. What the hell is wrong with me?

“Brian? Are you okay?” Justin asks me.

“I’m not sure. I am hearing voices. Probably just need some rest. It’s been a long ass day.” I get up and move over to the bar, getting the bottle of Beam I open it and take a big swig. 

“Then why don’t you take a shower and rest. I can wash your back if you like” 

I grin at the thought. Hell why not, it is a good thing to end this fucking day.
“Let’s go Sunshine” He smiles at me and we move to the bathroom. I stand there and watch him take his clothes off. He sees me watching and turns it into a strip tease. I love when he does that.

I move towards him and help take his clothes off, his eyes never leaving mine. After we are both undressed we hop into the shower. Justin leans my head back into the water and runs his hands through my hair. 

He kisses my neck and chest as I moan. I love the feeling of his hands in my hair, his lips on me. His cock rubbing against mine. But just as I started to enjoy it, it went away. I look at him as he slowly lowers himself to his knees. Taking me into his mouth I close my eyes. 

“Oh God Justin. I love your mouth.” He shows his appreciation of my gratitude, he moves his mouth faster, rubbing my balls with one of his hands.

I moan as he begins to use the water from the shower as lubrication and sticks a finger up me. He twirls it around inside of me before adding a second one and then a third. Never stopping his movements on my cock. Before I could protest I feel that familiar pressure and he knows it. Taken me all the way in his mouth, humming around my cock and his fingers probing inside of me I explode into his mouth.

He leans up and kisses me, letting me taste myself on his lips. <i>“No matter what, that part of your body also works. Just hope it beings you back faster”</i> I look down at him. Did he say that or was that in my head? 

“Let’s get out and go to bed. I can help you once we get there.” 

<b><i>“Brian that was just for you. I can wait”</b></i> I look at him and wonder why I heard him in my head and his lips are moving. <b><i>“I love you Brian”</b></i>

He lays me down and cuddles into my neck. I lay there thinking that as Justin has lost his mind by thinking we were together, I’m losing my mind. Maybe he’s brainwashing me.

I still can’t get these voices away. They are usually louder at night, when I am relaxing. What is wrong with me? I haven’t been drinking, as much. Maybe I should stop. And I don’t take as many drugs, even though I feel like I am on them constantly. 


The next day I awake to an empty bed. Thinking it was all a dream I get up and hear someone in the kitchen. Maybe lasts night’s trick.

Walking into the kitchen I see Justin standing at the stove, headphones on and shaking his ass. Hell, it’s no trick, just Justin. Shaking his fine ass. I love that ass. I smile watching him and as he turns around he sees me. 

Jumping he drops the pan to the floor. “Fuck you scared me. You always did love watching me move my ass.” He gives me a seductive smile. Besides his ass, his smile is his other best quality. 

“You hungry?” He asks me.

“Not for food Sunshine.” I pull him into me and kiss him hard. I kiss his neck and turn him around, jerking his pants down as I reach over for a condom I sheathed my dick and prepare Justin for a meal he won’t forget. 

After preparing him I slide my dick into his tight ass. So fucking tight. I moan a deep moan <b><i>“I love when you make that low moan. Means something is good.”</b></i> 

I stop moving and look down at his back. He pushes back into me and I forget all about that voice in my head. I swear it’s like hearing him say it here in front of me and then in another part of my brain. I shake that thought as he pushes back into me. 

“Fuck me Brian.”  Who am I to deny what he wants? Who am I to deny what I want? I start to push into him again. 

I forget all the voices and fuck my blond twink that has made his way into my life. Even though he did it out of forgetting we really don’t know each other, but at the same time it’s like we have known each other forever. Brian Fucking Kinney is feeling a tad bit to good in this situation. I start to think about the circumstances that lead us here. 

Justin had awoken in the hospital demanding that he knew me. That we’ve been together for years. I got talked into bringing him back here to the loft. We have been fucking even before we left the hospital. I smile at the thought as I feel Justin pushing his ass into me and moaning. 

I push faster and deeper. I plunge my dick into his ass harder and it’s like, it’s not enough. He pushes back even farther. I reach around and just as I thought, he is as ready as I am to feel that release.

I pound him faster as I lean over his back and stroke his hard dick, using the pre cum as lube. I bite his neck.

“OH FUCK! BRIAN! I’m going to cum” the last part is said in a little voice, asking for mercy.

“Cum with me Justin.” I tell him as I let lose of my orgasm as Justin cums and clutches my dick in his ass. I feel his heartbeat as I lean on him to catch my breath. 

<b><i>“You were always amazing”</b></i> I just nod my head. Ignoring the one voice inside it and answering the one in front of me.

“So are you Sunshine” I kiss his back and pull out. Both of us grunt from the emptiness of the feeling of me being out of his ass.

“I am going to take a shower while you clean up this mess you made” I smile pointing around the kitchen as I walk towards the bathroom. Before I make it out of the kitchen Justin cracks my ass with the dishtowel.

“Ouch you little shit” I grab the towel as he tries to do it again and pull him into me for a kiss. 

<b><i>“I love you Brian”</b></i> I have to stop hearing that fucking annoying voice. Ok it’s not annoying, it’s Justin’s voice but it’s like in the back of my head. I look down at him and kiss him. 

“Get to cleaning Sunshine and I want my eggs over easy. Oh and I want sausage, not bacon. I like sausages.” I smile at him with my little ‘sausage’ joke. 

I go take my shower and as I am leaning my head back I feel the chill of cold air. Knowing what it is, or should I say who it is coming into the shower. Before I could say anything I feel my cock in a warm place. That warm place of Justin’s mouth.


Before I had time to object, ok I would NEVER object to Justin on his knees in from of me with my dick in his mouth. I feel that tingle and shoot down his mouth. I have never came so fast. Justin is just so fucking talented with every part of his fucking body. 

He stands up and kisses me and let’s me taste myself on his tongue. I love that taste. Not for my own pleasure, but to taste Justin.

“I’ll have your eggs and umm sausage ready when you get out.” He smiles at me and climbs out and leaves me alone again. I don’t know why but I feel colder when he isn’t around.

I head out and sit down and eat. “This is good Sunshine.” 

“Thanks” he takes a bit from his plate.

We both finish our breakfast, okay by now it’s lunch. But who cares? 

As I start to feel that empty feeling again I feel Justin wrap his arms around me and kiss my neck. I smile with my eyes close, yes Justin warms me up. It doesn’t feel the same without him around. He makes me warm and fuzzy. Okay if you tell anyone that Brian Kinney said ‘fuzzy’ I will have to hurt you. I smile at the thought and feel Justin’s hands on my face as he smiles at me.

<b><i>“Everything will be fine Brian. I promise”</b></i> I just smile and nod and put my head into his neck wondering what the fuck is going on in my head. I can’t figure out just why I feel like I’m losing my mind. Especially since it was Justin in the accident and not me. Brainwashing? I will have to look into that shit. But for now, I just want to take my blond back to bed for round three.