Did He Ever Love Me? When he brought me here the first time and made love to me; when he said he wanted it to be special, so that I'd always remember it; so that he'd always be there, no matter who I was with - did he love me then? When he took me in, even after my Father beat the shit out of him? When he got me to face up to who I wanted to be, not what my Father wanted for me - did he love me then? When he was hurting after the bashing, hurting so much with guilt that he didn't even want me to know he was coming to the hospital; watching over me in the night - did he love me then? Hurting so much he was hitting every bar, every substance, and every guy, just so he didn't have to remember - did he love me then? And when he healed me (or did I heal him?), helped me to feel again, to give myself again - did he love me then? When he provided everything; from a roof over my head, to my tuition, to an expensive computer to help me draw again - did he love me then? When he was out fucking other guys, but always coming home to me - did he love me then? Making me no promises, but telling me no lies - did he love me then? When he said, "Go, if you don't know if you want to stay then I'm not going to try and make you (that's how much I love you) - did he love me then? Did he ever love me? Because, if he did, why is he letting me go? The End 28 Feb. 04