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AN: This chapter can get a bit confusing but then again what’s new? Lol. If you have any questions go ahead and I’ll try to explain everything better. Hope you enjoy. Thanks to my beta. Oh, most of the time I’m making stuff up as I go. He, he. But you guys knew that.
Brian’s POV
I open my eyes because Stephanie is caressing my face. I look at her and arch my brows wondering what she’s doing here.
“Derek told me that he has food ready for you master,” she tells me.
I shake my head and push away from her. I stare at Justin who is looking at the floor and I know he’s back. I quickly go to him and unchain him. I pick him up in my arms and he wraps his arms around me. I don’t know what’s happening to him, but he’s splitting in two. This fight he has with his memories and his soul is driving him insane. At least I think that’s what’s happening. I’m afraid that what this thing he’s becoming will take possession completely and win. I think this is what they were talking about. He might very well turn into the monster that they proclaimed he was going to be and destroy everything in his path. I don’t have the will to end it. I can’t…well, I won’t.
“I’m a monster,” he whispers suddenly.
“We are what we are,” I tell him.
“You’re not like me,” he says. “I’ve seen it all. You…I was…am the most horrible being in this planet and the others too.”
I frown momentarily. He losing his mind.
“Don’t give yourself so much credit,” I tell him. “There are worst things. Trust me.”
“I don’t want to live like this,” Justin tells me.
That’s just perfect. I finally have him back and he wants to die. Can I get anything right?
“You never did the things I did,” he says. “The way you hunted was scary but the way I haunted…god, Brian.”
I kiss his forehead and sit down with him.
“I’ll bring your food here,” Stephanie says and only then I remember she’s there.
Suddenly Justin bolts up and jumps on top of her. He buries his fangs on her and starts drinking from her. I get up and pull him away.
“Stop it!” I yell as I manage to take him off of her.
Stephanie gets up slowly. “What the fuck?!”
I know what I have to do. I go back to the wall and chain him yet again.
“Brian,” Justin moans. “Please, I can’t do it.”
I sigh and ignore him. He has to be kept like this until I find a way to help him.
“I don’t like this,” Justin tells me. “I’m going insane, Brian.”
I caress his face after I’m done. I kiss him and pull away. I tell Stephanie to leave and I’m almost out of the door when he laughs. I turn around and stare at him. There is nothing there; nothing in his eyes.
“Scared, Brian?” he asks.
“Why would I be?” I ask walking back towards him.
He laughs and licks his lips. “I know everything,” he tells me.
“No one knows everything,” I tell him.
“I got information from both sides,” he informs me and laughs. “If you only knew.”
I shake my head and move away.
“I know what you are, Brian,” he tells me. “I know what you’re guarding.”
I arch a brow. He laughs and shakes his head. He tries to break free but can’t.
“I’m going to free him you know,” Justin tells me.
“Who?” I ask.
“My father!” he yells. “He will be free and he will kill them all! They betrayed him.”
I really don’t know what the fuck is going on anymore. It’s like he’s two people in one.
“I’m going to break you, Brian,” he growls. “You know what, Brian?”
“What?” I ask crossing my arms.
“They made this…this thing that could kill you,” Justin says smirking.
I arch a brow.
“And sadly for you…I’m it,” he informs me and laughs harder than before.
This can’t be happening. I know I’m losing him.
“I was made to destroy you,” he says. “I will make you bleed boy. I will make you scream. I will make you beg for me to end it.”
“I was in hell twice,” I let him know with a smirk. “You’re going to have to work hard.”
He growls at me. “They touched you!” he hisses. “They shouldn’t have. You’re mine!”
Well at least he still wants me for him alone in his own twisted very unpleasant way.
“I will open you, Brian. I will,” he informs me. “All these years waiting and finally it will be over.”
I wish I knew what he was talking about. Jack always said I was special but I never knew why.
“We’ll bleed for him, Brian,” he whispers. “We’ll be one. Hey, you will get what you want boy. We will be together for ever after all.”
Okay then. My mate has turned into a total psycho. He laughs and I know he’s laughing at me. It’s because I’m so confused and he knows it.
“You think hell is the worst place to be, Brian?” he asks me. “Just wait until I get my hands on you. I’ll show you the world I lived in.”
Like he can scare me off, I’m stronger. I caress his neck and smile at him.
“Oh,” he says. “You think because you’re stronger you will be okay. You won’t be.”
“Stronger people than me have tried,” I let him know.
It’s true. They always fall down at my feet.
“It’s different,” he whispers. “Because it will be me, Brian and it’s already killing you. I’m going to enjoy hurting you, Brian. I will.”
I push against him and kiss him hard. He moans and buckles and then stops. When I pull back he starts to cry. My Justin. My golden boy is back now.
“Brian,” Justin says. “You have to kill me now. Hurry there isn’t much time.”
“I can’t,” I tell him.
Even if what he’s saying is true. I can’t do it. I don’t care if he does kill me. I won’t be the one to end him. I can’t be.
“I’m seeing things,” Justin tells me. “They are not right. They weren’t there before.”
I caress his face.
“Brian, please,” Justin tells me. “I love you so much. Please you have to. Please protect yourself. You have to.”
“No Justin,” I hiss.
“Our family Brian,” Justin tells me. “I don’t know what this is…but…it’s part of me. It’s me.”
“No it’s not!” I yell at him.
“This thing…it’s in my blood. It’s what I am made of,” Justin tells me. “God, Brian. Just kill me. Send Derek here.”
“No,” I tell him again. I won’t lose him. I can’t lose him.
“Brian,” Justin whispers. “It’s going to win. I see it all. It’s going to win and then I won’t be able to stop it. I’m not lying. I can see it winning.”
I caress his face and hold him close.
“So fucking pathetic!” the thing hisses.
I pull away.
“Kill me, Brian. Kill me! Give me a fucking break! So disgusting, it flows all around me. Why was I cursed with this? I’m going to crush that love. I know how weak you are when it comes to me,” he says. “You won’t lift a finger to stop me, Brian. I’m stronger. Father taught me to be stronger than anything. Feelings won’t matter. They don’t matter!”
“You’re not him,” I tell him.
“We are the same person,” he tells me.
“That’s not true!” I yell.
“Say whatever you want,” he says and chuckles. “We were born as one and we will be forever. We’re supposed to always be together, Brian. Isn’t that what you want?”
Yes, that’s what I’ve wanted ever since Justin came into my life. For him and I to always walk side by side.
“But love is nothing Brian,” he says. “There are things stronger than love. Love comes and goes.”
“Like what?” I ask.
“Revenge,” he hisses. “For what was done to us!”
I had enough of this. I turn around and leave. Zeke is going to fucking tell me what’s going on. I will make sure he does. I walk slowly to the basement. I feel someone watching me and I look back. There is nothing there. I feel something but I ignore it and then it grabs me by the arm and turns me around.
“You should be more careful,” Jack says.
“What the fuck do you want?” I ask him.
“You called me, Brian,” he says smiling.
“I called you days ago, father,” I hiss at him.
He shrugs. “I’m here now.”
No shit!
“Don’t be that way,” he tells me. “I’m a very busy man.”
I roll my eyes.
“So why am I here?” Jack asks. “Don’t tell me you called me to complain about your treatment in hell?” Jack asks and laughs. “It’s not like we let you die.”
So that’s why I wasn’t ripped to pieces and vanished like the rest of them, both times. I always wondered about that. I should have known he was behind it. “I guess thanks are in order.”
“Don’t thank me,” he says. “Your uncle would never let anything happen to you. You know that,” he tells me smiling.
I roll my eyes.
“You look good Brian. Heard you killed your brother,” he says.
“I didn’t do it,” I tell him. “Justin did.”
“Right,” he says. “Because you weren’t planning on it.”
Fine he got me!
“I always knew it was you,” he says. “I always had my money on you, since the beginning.”
Should I be happy at this?
“Did you know we were going to kill each other?” I ask.
“I knew you guys were going to try to end one another. You see when your mother was pregnant she wasn’t supposed to have twins,” Jack informs me. “But shit happens.”
Right, like I don’t know that.
“What if he had killed me?” I ask.
“Then we would have had one hell of a problem,” he tells me and laughs.
I frown. “What the fuck gives me power, father?”
“Don’t worry about it,” he says.
“Justin wants to fucking kill me over it,” I hiss. “Only God knows how many others.”
I have always known there was something in me. I never questioned it. I just lived with it.
Jack pouts. “I knew this would happen. Damn it!”
“You knew and you did nothing?” I ask taken aback.
“I should have paid closer attention to the two of you,” he informs me. “I mean after all you were human and there were tons of people that wanted to kill you and your brother for what you represented. You were supposed to be left alone and then that bitch.”
I know this story. What I want to know is how he knew about Justin. “Jack.”
He smiles and shakes his head. “I did everything possible son.”
I frown at that. What did he do?
“We should have been more careful,” he murmurs and then looks up. “But he was part of you and you couldn’t help loving him, huh? Fucking weak assholes!”
“Are you screaming at God?” I ask him. “Are you serious?”
“Someone up there,” he tells me. “You know how when you rush things they don’t come out as great. Well, we were running on a dead line and they wouldn’t be around for long. We had to do it and it all happened so fast.”
“Make sense of your words,” I yell.
“Brian,” he says. “There was a time when…I’m not supposed to talk about this.”
“Tell me please,” I beg of him.
“There was more than one God once,” he tells me. “But they grew insane with power. They wanted more and more.”
I nod slowly. I heard a few stories but nothing definite.
“They had to be stopped,” Jack says. “We are demons but not even we would annihilate every human in the planet. I mean…you know how bored we would become?”
I roll my eyes and shake my head. Leave him to concentrate on the important things.
“We like playing games and see if they or us can get hold of more souls. You know how it goes. If we manage to get it they go straight to hell and if they can keep it they are granted heaven.”
“Right!” I say. “Father.”
He laughs. “You’re so impatient like your mother. I do miss her. She should have chosen me instead of her stupid God.”
I roll my eyes. Like he fucking cares about her. She was a nun that never did anything to anyone until he came along and raped her. I don’t know what ever gave him the idea that she would chose him.
“Quit stalling and tell me what happened,” I say.
“They created another world for these gods but they didn’t want to be there. They kept escaping and…” Jack says and stops. “I have to go Brian.”
“No,” I say.
“You’re uncle is calling me,” he says. “I can’t talk about this. I’m sorry.”
“Why?” I ask.
“It’s forbidden,” he tells me. “Kill Justin before he kills you.”
“Never,” I hiss.
“Then let someone do it,” Jack says.
That’s not going to happen either.
“I really did everything I could son,” he assures me.
“Did you?” I ask.
“He’s nothing I ever seen. He’s different and he knows too much,” Jack tells me. “That thing you got obsessed with can kill us all…including you.”
“No,” I tell him. “He would never.”
“He did once,” Jack spits at me.
“He was under a spell,” I inform him.
“Was he?” Jack asks. “That boy was never to become one of you. By Cain, you weren’t supposed to become one either. I wish I could have been better at protecting you son. I did everything I could but that fucker always managed for Justin to keep coming after you.”
“What do you mean still come after me?” I ask him.
Jack laughs and pats me on the shoulder. “You think Michael stumbling onto that house and killing everyone was just pure luck?”
I don’t know what he’s talking about.
“He was supposed to kill him too!” Jack yells. “But this time Justin’s appearance was different. He looked like something you would want.”
“What are you saying?” I ask him.
“That for years I kept track of it,” Jack relates. “When I found out what he was I did everything in my power to destroy it over and over again…well, keep it away. For years I managed for one of your boys to find him and kill him. I made sure he came back mostly as a girl or with some kind of defect. I made him blind, cripple, I made him deaf and so many other things. I always managed to find him before he turned ten and have one of your own kill him or her. I did everything I could and still he managed to find you and get close to you.”
That can’t be right.
“He’s been many people,” Jack informs me. “But this time I couldn’t find him in time. This time he grew up to be a fine young man. You couldn’t resist him, could you? I guess not since they did an excellent job. Just because they were trapped didn’t mean they still didn’t have some tricks up their sleeves.”
“Not making sense,” I tell him. “Why the fuck would you do that?” I ask getting angry.
“Because he was created with the simple task of destroying you,” he informs me. “That boy has power over you.”
Well, it sounds like Justin is not as crazy as I thought.
“This doesn’t make sense,” I tell him. “Justin loves me to no end.”
“Of course he does. He’s your soul mate, Brian. He does love you but…the other thing…the other thing is going to reap you apart, Brian,” he tells me.
Fucking shit! Anything but this, there has to be a way.
“Do you know how souls work, Brian?” he asked me.
I shake my head not really caring.
“You still have your soul, son,” Jack informs me. “Once you became a vampire the demon gets intertwined with it but the demon part is more powerful. The soul gets pushed all the way down. When dead came for him they undid it. They crushed his demon down and the soul was the one that shone; the one that led his way of life.”
“Okay,” I say.
That kind of makes sense.
“Now this witch brought the memories back as well as the demon,” Jack tells me. “But she wasn’t that strong. It’s like the demon and soul are living in the same room and battling against one another. That’s dangerous. Intertwining souls with anything is very powerful magic.”
“Magic you get when making a vampire,” I whisper.
“But he’s already one,” he tells me. “Whoever does it can die and it might not even work.”
“Fucking shit,” I say. “Why is this happening?”
“He knew that you would never trust anyone enough,” Jack tells me. “That’s why he found your soul mate and he put his own child with it. He wants vengeance so badly that he won’t stop at nothing. He wants out no matter what he has to do. He is sacrificing his own kid just to get out and…”
“Justin loves me!” I yell at him not caring what he’s babbling about.
“Of course he does,” Jack says. “But that’s only a well though plan. How else would he even get close to you enough to kill you?”
I can’t deal with this. Everyone has gone fucking mad!
“It took a lot of magic for him to be brought to this world,” he explains. “And divine intervention as well. Oh, Gabriel has been a very naughty boy. You will think that with the kind of power he has he could control himself and keep it in his pants…or robes,” he says and laughs.
I arch a brow. He’s fucking insane.
“Fine!” he yells as he looks upward. “I’m leaving.”
“Father,” I say but before I can reach him he’s gone.
What the fuck am I supposed to do now? What?! Well, one thing is for certain. I’m not killing Justin. I’ll find a way to help him. There has to be a way. I might as well end my life if I have to take his.