Justin kept swallowing hard over and over again.  He felt like he was drowning but he kept telling himself it was okay, that there was nothing to fear.  

“We’re here,” Donald told him. 

Justin almost jumped out of the car but he tried to stay relax.  He turned to his friend and smiled.  “Thanks for the lift.”

“No problem,” Donald assured him.

Justin nodded and got out of the car.  He waved at his friend goodbye and quickly made it to the building.  He had called Brian and told him that he didn’t need to be picked up.  Jim had told him that he had to stop counting on Brian and everyone else.  So the first step had been changing his routine.  In the morning Daphne had taken him to work and he was okay with that.  Coming back home was a bit more difficult.  He didn’t feel safe in the presence of many guys.  The one he trust to no end was Brian and maybe Michael.  It was just hard for him, but he was doing it.  The next step would be doing it all by himself but he wasn’t ready for that quite yet.

“Hey,” Brian said smiling. “How was your day?”

“Okay,” Justin assured him.

Brian arched a brow.  “Just okay?”

“No it was really nice,” Justin said smiling.  “Sorry, I was thinking of something else.”

The brunet nodded and let it go.  He was in the bedroom changing when the blond had come inside.  When he was done he walked towards the kitchen to find himself something to eat. Ever since Justin had moved with him the fridge was always packed. 

“Are you going out tonight?” Justin asked.

Brian shrugged.  

“I can make something to eat,” Justin said.

“That’s okay,” Brian replied.  “Do you want a sandwich?”

“Sure,” Justin told him.

The blond helped Brian make the sandwiches for them.  Then they sat down and ate.  No one was saying anything and Brian was getting worried that something happened to Justin.

“Is everything okay?” Brian asked when they were back in the kitchen putting the plates on the sink.

Justin smiled and nodded.  “Yeah,” he responded. “Let’s watch a movie.”

Brian walked with him to the living room and looked for something.  He lifted his arm up and around Justin when the blond moved close to him.  The brunet was enjoying having Justin so close to him.  Then Justin looked up and the movie was forgotten.

Brian couldn’t look away from the younger man.  He felt himself growing harder.  Justin was caressing Brian’s face and looking at Brian’s lips. Then he stretched up and kissed Brian.  Soon enough they were in a hot make out session.  Justin was straddling Brian’s lap and the brunet was holding on to his lover.

“You feel so good,” Justin moaned as his hips grinded against Brian.

“Yeah,” Brian murmured and his hands gripped Justin’s hips and brought him down.  

Justin started kissing Brian again.  It was just so good. The connection they had was amazing.  He loved kissing Brian.  The brunet was going crazy having Justin on top of him wiggling and kissing him hard.  He thought he was going to cum right there and to his surprise he did.

“Justin,” Brian groaned.

Justin licked Brian’s neck and then sucked on it.  “God,” Justin groaned as his hips shook and he shot his cum.  He gasped and pulled back to stare at Brian.  He couldn’t believe he had shot his load on his pants.  He was already turning red.

“Jesus fuck!” Brian hissed.  “I need a shower.”

“You came,” Justin whispered.

Brian pulled Justin into another kiss so he didn’t have to answer.  Justin pulled back and smiled. 

“Just a shower,” Justin whispered.  “Nothing else.”

Brian understood what the blond was saying.  They were going to shower together.  He knew his blond was coming to him and he couldn’t be happier about that.

***

“No,” Justin said smiling as the brunet tried to eat from his plate.

“How greedy can you be?” Brian asked smirking.  

Debbie looked at them and couldn’t help but smile.  Ever since the two had gotten there they did nothing but flirt with each other.  She was so happy for them.

“Hey ma,” Michael said.

“Michael,” Debbie kissed him and then cleaned the lipstick off.  “Brian and Justin are here.  Watch out they are contagious.”

Michael looked at the booths and found Brian and Justin laughing.  Brian was kissing Justin’s neck and the blond was trying to tickle the older man.  His mother was right, they were contagious.  Soon enough he was smiling like a fool as he walked over to them.

“How are you two love birds doing?” Michael asked as he sat down on the booth with Brian and Justin.

Justin smiled at the man while Brian glared at his friend.

“Don’t you have better things to do?” Brian asked.  

“Not really,” Michael told him.  

Justin laughed and kept on eating. 

“So how has it been?” Michael asked them.

“Things are getting better,” Justin said.

Brian was serious.  Michael knew that the brunet hated to show anyone he knew that he had a heart.  

“So,” Michael said.  “I was thinking that you guys could come to diner tonight.”

Justin looked at Brian.

“Why would we?” Brian asked.  “We have better things to do.”

“Brian,” Justin said and laughed.  “We really don’t.”

Michael laughed at that.  “So, can I count with you two?”

“Please,” Justin begged as he looked at the brunet then he kissed the man’s lips.

Brian rolled his eyes.  Michael knew that the brunet was as good a sold.

“Fine,” Brian said.  “I guess I can make an exception and deal with all the couple’s crap thing.”

Michael frowned momentarily.  Brian was acting like he always did when it came to relationships.  He thought the brunet would be on guard to pretend to be the sweetest boyfriend alive.

Justin chuckled.  “That’s why you’re the best.”

Brian smiled at that.  

“So, I’ll leave you two alone,” Michael said.

“You do that,” Brian told him.

“Don’t be rude,” Justin said smirking.  “You take care, Mikey.”

Michael nodded and walked to the counter where he sat at.  His mother was quick to put a plate in front of him. 

“What’s wrong Michael?” Debbie asked noticing his worried face.

“It’s nothing,” he told her.

“Michael,” Debbie protested.  “I know you baby.”

“Ma,” Michael sighed.  “Don’t call me baby.”

“Oh honey,’ Debbie said smiling.  “You’re always going to be my baby.  Now tell your mother what’s wrong.”

“It’s Brian,” Michael told her. 

“What about him?” Debbie asked worried.  

“He’s acting like himself,” Michael told her. 

“What do you mean, Michael?” Debbie asked frowning.  “Was he not acting like himself before?”

Michael couldn’t very well tell her that Brian had been pretending to be the sweetest guy alive to have Justin happy.  That it was nothing but a bet and that it all was coming to an end very soon. 

“Is not that,” Michael said. “It’s like he’s still him and well Justin is still there.”

Debbie shook her head.  “You’re not making any sense, Michael.”

Michael smiled.  “Forget it.  Brian is okay.  They are both fine.”

Debbie nodded before she walked away to attend her other customers. Michael started eating with a smile.  He thought that maybe Brian had it all planned out.  That if he was himself with Justin and the blond didn’t run away screaming for help maybe he would give it a try at the real thing.

***

Brian and Justin came out of the bathroom laughing.  

“That was fun,” Justin said.

The brunet nodded.  They had washed each other thoroughly; enjoying the feel of each others’ skin.  There hadn’t been any kind of rush in doing it.

“We have to get dressed,” Brian told him.

Justin nodded.  

“I swear to god that if Ben is making one of his special plates I’ll shove it down your throat,” the brunet informed him.

Justin laughed.  “I’ll eat it.”

“You would eat anything,” Brian said opening his closet.  “What are you going to wear?”

Justin shrugged and sat on the bed.  “How about the black shirt you bought me?”

“You weren’t supposed to see that just yet,” Brian said smirking.  “You’re so noisy.”

The blond laughed.  “And the gray slacks,” the blond said.  “They’re tight around my butt and you like them.”

Brian grinned at that.  He did like the gray slacks on Justin a lot.

“Do you think they invited anyone else?” Justin asked.

The brunet sighed.  “That’s the last thing I need,” he said.  “Couple’s night is not my idea of a good time.”

The smaller man knew that.  He still was happy that Brian had accepted to go anyways. 

“Here,” Brian said putting the clothes next to the blond.  His hand reached out and he caressed Justin’s face.  

The blond kissed the inside of Brian’s hand.  

“You look so fucking delicious,” the brunet said as he kneeled in front of Justin.

The other man arched a brow.  He wondered what Brian was going to do.  The voracious look in his face spoke volumes. The bronzed skin man let his hands caress Justin’s thighs.  

“Bri,” the blond whispered.

“I like touching you,” Brian told him.

Justin swallowed but didn’t say anything and didn’t pull away.  The older man pushed Justin back and then started touching Justin everywhere.  He pushed the towel to the floor so nothing was blocking his path. 

“Brian,” Justin moaned as he closed his eyes.

The brunet was currently licking Justin’s nipples.  Then his hands started moving downward. He touched Justin in every place he could.  The light skin man gripped Brian’s shoulders.  His breathing was erratic and to say he was frightened was an understatement.  The last thing he wanted was Brian attempting to make love to him and him not being able to give in.

“You’re beautiful,” Brian said as he pulled up and was at eye level.  “So fucking magnificent.”

Justin felt like he was going to cry.  He couldn’t believe the brunet could say such things after all that had happened to him.  “I’m not.”

“You are,” Brian argued and his hands played with the blond’s nipples.

“Mmm,” Justin murmured.

Brian stared at Justin’s face as his hand kept moving down.  He was caressing the blond from side to side and then his fingertips came in contact with Justin’s pubes.  He stopped briefly and then kept going.  Justin’s arms wrapped around the brunet and pulled him closer.  

“Brian,” he gasped when the brunet grabbed his cock.

“Feels good,” Brian whispered.

Justin groaned and buried his face on the crook of Brian’s neck.  His hips started moving faster and faster as he fucked Brian’s fist.

“You feel good,” Brian told him.  

Justin’s eyes closed as he bit his lower lip. 

“Smooth,” Brian’s husky voice said over the blond’s ear.

“Yeah,” Justin gasped.

“Hard,” the older man whispered.

The smaller man swallowed as he neared the edge.  

“Hot,” Brian growled.

“Oh god,” the blonde yelled, Brian’s voice was driving him wild.

“Wet,” the taller man said and licked Justin’s neck.  “Mine.”

“Bri!” Justin yelled and shot his load.  “Of fuck!”

Brian pushed Justin back and kissed him hard.  Then he pulled away.  “Let’s get ready.”

“What about you?” Justin asked.

“I’m okay,” Brian assured him.

“But…” the blond said and Brian shook his head.

“It was all for you,” Brian informed him.  “Come on.  We’ll be late.”

And Justin hadn’t thought it possible to fall more deep in love than he already was. 

***

Justin was smiling as he revised one of the new portfolios.  The artist in question was a fifteen year old girl who lived with her grandmother.  Someone that worked on the gallery had brought the works of art and explained the situation to the blond.  He loved every piece that the girl had made. 

There was a knock on the door and then Donald came inside.  “Hey, what you up to.”

“Have you seen Gail’s portfolio?” the blond asked.

“Yeah,” Donald said smiling.  “Nice huh?”

“Do you know they barely have anything to eat?” Justin asked.

“I know,” the man said getting serious.  “It’s horrible.”

“Well,” Justin said smiling as he looked at his friend.  “I’ll make sure she’ll be known by everyone and then they won’t know what to do with so much money.”

Donald smiled as he heard his friend.  He knew that the blond had a great heart.  

“I was thinking of getting something to eat,” he said.  “Do you want anything? On my dollar?”

“Oh, then,” Justin said chuckling.  “I must definitely do.”

There was a knock on the door and then Brian came inside.  He was holding a bag of food.  “Hey, I’ve come to feed you boys.”

“No wonder you love him so much,” Donald said.  “I love him too.”

Justin laughed.

Brian smirked.  “So I guess you guys are hungry.”

The three of them sat down and ate.  They talked about work and made plans to make plans about going out together.  When they were done Donald left them so they could spend time together. 

“I like when you surprise me like this,” Justin said.

Brian stood up from the chair he was and walked over to the blond.  He sat at the edge and crossed his arms.  Then he shrugged and threw a smirk in Justin’s direction.

Justin knew he was going to miss times like that when he and Brian were through.  He had the day marked on his calendar as his anniversary but he knew the truth behind the red x mark on the paper. 

“What are you thinking about?” Brian asked.

“Nothing important,” Justin said very lowly. 

“Right,” the brunet replied.  

Then Brian leaned closer and kissed Justin.  Soon enough Justin was standing up in between the brunet’s legs.  

“I can’t get enough of you,” Justin whispered.

Brian knew the feeling.

“I want to fuck you,” Justin whispered.

Brian didn’t hesitated and took off his clothes.  He wanted the blond and if he had to bottom to get Justin he would.  They both were silent as they kissed.  When Justin prepared the brunet he thought he was dreaming.  He was as gentle as he could because he knew that Brian wasn’t used to bottoming for anyone.  

The younger man pushed inside Brian while the older man was bent over his desk.  They didn’t last long being that it had been a while for both of them.  When they were done they both slipped to the floor where they kissed each other ferociously.  

“We have to get dressed,” Brian told him.

Justin laughed and hugged Brian.  Then he pulled back and kissed the man. 

“I can get off work now,” Brian said.  “I’ll call Cynthia.”

Justin nodded.  “Yes,” he said as he got up to find his pants.  “I’ll tell Donald to take care of everything.  Then we’ll leave.”

Brian nodded and got up.  He moved slowly as he collected his clothes.  The blond was watching him with a worried expression.  

“Brian, are you okay?” Justin asked swallowing.  

The only time he’d ever fucked the brunet, Brian and him had ended up fighting.  He didn’t want a repeat of things.  Brian managed to get on his pants and then he walked to Justin and kissed him hard.  The blond was happy knowing that silently the brunet was telling him that things were fine.

From outside someone knocked and then came inside.  It was Donald and he looked at the half dressed men not at all surprised.

“Really,” Donald said.  “We have to stop meeting like this.”

Brian and Justin laughed.

“Didn’t we talk about the lock?” Donald asked before he left the two men alone.

***

Brian was in his office when Cynthia came inside.  

“Michael and Emmett are outside and they say it’s important,” she informed him.

The brunet groaned.  “Let them in,” he told her.

“What’s going on?” Brian asked once Michael and Emmett were inside.

The two guests sat down and looked at each other before staring at Brian.

“What is it?” Brian asked.

“Well,” Emmett started.  “As you know you’re practically a winner.”

Brian smirked at them and Michael rolled his eyes.

“We like Justin,” Emmett said.

The brunet arched a brow.  “So?”

“So maybe he doesn’t have to go away,” Emmett pointed out.  “You said he was a great fuck. And he’s hot and everyone in their right mind would want someone like him.”

Brian arched a brow.

Emmett sighed.  “Maybe you can start pulling away slowly and maybe he’ll decide to end it all on his own.  Instead of you doing it because you and I and everyone else knows that you won’t be nice about it.  It really won’t affect your reputation at all.”

“You want me to let someone break up with me?” Brian asked and chuckled.  “That’s rich and it will so tarnish my reputation.”

Emmett sighed and looked at Michael.  

“Let’s go,” Michael said getting up.

Emmett frowned not believing that Michael wasn’t going to say anything to the brunet. It had been his idea to come talk to Brian in the first place.  So when he was out of the office and he looked back to ask Michael what was going on, he wasn’t a bit surprised that the man had stayed back.

“Don’t tell me,” Brian said.  “You have something to say as well.”

“How long have we known each other?” Michael asked crossing his arms.

“Is this going to be a long speech?” Brian asked.  “Because I have things to do and very little time.”

“You don’t fool me,” Michael said.

Brian smirked.  “Right.”

“I’m your best friend, Brian,” Michael said.

“So what?” Brian asked.

“I know you,” Michael said.  “And I know you love him.”

Brian didn’t make any comments.  He just kept looking at his friend.

“Don’t throw it away,” Michael told him.  “He’s the best thing that has happened to you and you know it.”

The brunet swallowed and pretended like he didn’t care.  “Mikey…”

“No,” Michael said shaking his head.  “Save it.  You know that what I’m saying to you is true.”

“I think Emmett is waiting for you outside,” Brian replied.

Michael chuckled.  “Right, I think he is.  Just know that I’m right.”

“Why is that?” Brian asked.

Michael didn’t know what to say to that and only smiled.  “Because I’m older.”

The brunet smirked.  “Not even a year.”

“Still,” the man said before he left.

Brian watched him go and frowned as he looked at his desk.  He hated when people gave him advice about is own goddamn life.  He tried to finish his day without thinking about Michael or Emmett.  By the time he was driving home it was all forgotten.  

When Brian stepped into the loft the place smelled good.  He looked at the kitchen were Justin was busy cooking something. 

“What are you doing?” Brian asked amused.

At that moment the blond had been sticking a cracker into his mouth.  “Hey,” Justin said with his mouth full.  He chewed as fast as he could and swallowed.  “I made dinner.”

Brian walked over to him slowly and caressed the blond’s face.

“What?” Justin asked.

“Nothing,” Brian whispered.  “I’m going to go change and then we can eat.”

Justin smiled brightly and nodded.  And Brian knew that Michael was right.  He should tell Justin how he really felt because he wanted the blond next to him forever.  The only problem was that he didn’t know if he was going to be able to give Justin what the blond deserved.