Brian pushed the chair inside the office and waited. Justin was sleeping in his chair. He looked at the blond and sighed. “Hey,” Daphne said when she came into the room. “What’s going on?” “He had an attack,” was the first thing to come out of Brian’s mouth. “God, it’s been quite a while.” “What was he doing?” Daphne asked as she caressed the blond’s face. She still thought that the blond looked like a little kid. “Nothing,” Brian said. “I mean, we were watching TV and suddenly he started shaking. I called you because this time it lasted longer and also because he wasn’t in a stressful situation.” Daphne nodded as she used her stethoscope to listen to the blond’s heart. Then she moved to check the blond’s pulse. Everything seemed to be alright. She frowned and straightened up to look at the brunet. “What?” Brian asked. “Is he taking his medication?” Daphne asked. Brian nodded. “I make sure of it.” “Good,” Daphne said. “Do you have an answer for this?” Brian asked getting frustrated. “I don’t,” Daphne told him. “But then again there is no basis to say that he gets his attacks only because he’s stressed out, Brian.” Brian rubbed his forehead. She put the stethoscope around her neck and held to it from both ends. “I’m sorry, Brian. I know this is a horrible side effect and I can’t guarantee you that he will be fully recover from them.” Brian felt his eyes stinging. He moved to where Justin was and caressed his forehead. “I don’t like it. He suffers so much through it. I wish I could do something.” “Look,” Daphne said. “There are many drugs that I can give him for it. But the side effects of them are too risky. I don’t want Justin going through that. These drugs are not for him.” “Why not?” Brian asked. “Because he has a chance at life, Brian,” Daphne told him. “These drugs are made for people that have no mobility whatsoever. It puts them into an almost coma state. He won’t feel pain when the attacks happen, but he won’t feel much of anything for that matter.” “So that’s it,” Brian whispered. “I’m sorry,” she told him. “Brian,” Justin whispered. Brian squatted in front of the blond. Justin’s eyes fluttered open. Daphne smiled seeing the two of them. Anyone could see clearly how much love there was. “What’s going on?” Justin asked when he looked around. “Why are we here?” “I was worried,” Brian told him. “You had an attack.” Justin sighed. “You didn’t have to bring me here.” “I’m sorry,” Brian whispered. “I got scared. I didn’t know what to do,” he brunet said as he rubbed the blond’s arms. “It was…it was longer than the ones before.” Justin lifted his hand and caressed Brian’s face. He smiled at the brunet. “Okay, it’s okay.” Brian sighed. “Let’s go home.” “I’ll like that,” Justin told him. “How are you doing, Justin?” Daphne asked him. Justin smiled at her. “I’m good.” Daphne was happy to hear that. She could see that the blond’s spirits were much more elevated since the last time she saw him. “Don’t forget to come for your check up in two more weeks.” “I won’t,” Justin told her. “He won’t let me forget.” Daphne laughed at that. She knew that Brian took everything relating to Justin very serious. In all her time working there no one had asked her so many questions as the brunet had. “Daphne,” Justin said. “Before we leave I wanted to ask you something.” “What’s that?” Daphne asked. “Brian and I were planning on a dinner,” the blond said. Brian rolled his lips inside his mouth. Brian arched his eyes brow wondering what the hell the blond was planning. He knew that look so well. “And we wanted you to come,” Justin told her. “It’s our way to say thank you for all you’ve done for me. Please,” he said like a little kid and batted his eyes. “I don’t usually accept invitations from my patients,” Daphne told him. “But since you asked so nicely I guess I’m going to have to accept. Justin smiled widely at her. He couldn’t have planned things better. Brian rolled his eyes because he still hadn’t met anyone that could say no to Justin when he pulled the love-puppy-eye face. *** Brian put the plates on the sink and sighed when someone knocked on the door. He went and opened it to find Emmett smiling widely at him. “I bought something for Justin,” the man said as he stepped inside. Brian rolled his eyes and closed the door. “Justin,” Emmett called as he went to find the blond. The brunet walked over to the phone when it started ringing and picked it up. “Yes?” “It’s Ted,” the man said. “We have an emergency here.” “What?” Brian asked pinching the bridge of his nose. “Cynthia is sick and she didn’t come to work,” Ted informed him. “So what?” Brian asked getting angry. “You can take care of the fucking place for a day, Theodore. Don’t call me here for stupid stuff like that,” he said and hung up. “Jesus.” “Brian,” Justin said when the brunet walked into the bedroom. “Look at what Emmett got me,” he said lifting the gray shirt that said ‘Princess’ in neon pink letters. “You have to wear it when we go clubbing,” Emmett said. “No one is going clubbing,” Brian said. Emmett rolled his eyes. “He thinks he’s my father sometimes,” Justin told his friend. “Shut up,” Brian said and groaned when there was another knock on the door. He went to see who it was and arched a brow when he saw Justin’s cousin. “Hey, Brian,” Ben said when the brunet stared at him. “I brought food.” “What is this?” Brian asked as he stepped to the side. “Does it say somewhere orphanage for gay boys?” “What?” Ben asked as he went inside. “Never mind,” Brian told him. He looked at the elevator and then towards the stairs. When he was satisfied he closed the door. “Hey,” Emmett said when he was halfway to the living room. “Who is this tasty morsel?” “That’s my cousin,” Justin said smiling. “Ben this is Emmett Honeycutt, Em this is Ben Bruckner.” “Nice to meet you,” Emmett said. Ben nodded and walked to the kitchen. “You guys already ate.” “I haven’t,” Emmett shouted out. “Good,” Ben said. The phone rang and Brian grunted. He wanted everyone to leave him the fuck alone so he could be with his blond. “Hello,” he grunted. “Brian, don’t hang up on me,” the man said. “Look I know this is really screwed up to have to do this but you have to come in. We have a meeting with the people from Liberty Air because as you know they change management and what not. They want to see if staying us is good for business and I really can’t go there and pitch it. I’m sorry but I can’t, Brian. I can’t do this!” “Could you fucking relax,” Brian hissed. “No!” Ted yelled. “I can’t!” Brian sighed. “Fine, I’ll be there in a few minutes.” “Thank you,” the man hissed and hung up. Brian had never heard Ted like that. The man was pretty much hyperventilating. “What’s gong on?” Emmett asked. “I have to go to the office,” Brian said. Justin smiled at that. He knew his man better than anyone. He knew all that Brian was sacrificing by staying each day with him, not that he didn’t like that. But he knew that Brian loved his work a lot and loved making his ideas come to life. No matter how much he bitched and moaned that his job was hard and that sometimes he felt like killing people. Maybe this was a good thing, Justin thought. He could convince the brunet to go to work even if it was only half of the day. “We’ll stay here,” Emmett offered. “Yeah,” Ben said. “Hey, could I use your computer?” “Don’t you have your own?” Brian asked as he walked towards the bedroom. “What crawled up his ass?” Ben asked as he gave Emmett a plate. “Enjoy.” “Thanks,” Emmett said and sat in the sofa. Justin was sitting next to them in his chair. “Can you turn the TV on?” Emmett searched for the remote control with Ben’s help. When they found it they turned the TV on. “What do you want to see?” Ben asked. “I don’t know,” Justin answered. “Check the TV guide.” Emmett started eating. “Uh, look The Fairly Odd Parents.” “You watch cartoons?” Ben asked. “What?” Emmett asked. Justin laughed at them. “Leave it there. They have the power puff girls next.” “Jesus Christ,” Ben said. “I’m trapped with kids.” “Oh shut up,” Justin told him. Brian grabbed the first suit he saw and quickly took a shirt that would match along with a tie. He got his dress shoes and socks and got dressed quickly. The faster he did it the sooner he could come home to Justin. When he was done he fixed his hair. He grabbed the watch that Justin gave him and smiled as he put it on. It was pretty much the only he wore recently even if he had an extensive collection. He just loved to see it and be reminded of his husband. “Brian,” he whispered as he looked himself in the mirror. “That boy has turned you into a fucking lesbian,” he said before he shook his head. “Don’t you have enough fairy friends?” Ben asked. Justin laughed and so did Emmett. “But they don’t have magic wands…at least not the wands that spill magic,” Emmett told him. “That is so crass,” Ben told him while Justin laughed. Emmett smirked. “Wouldn’t you want your every wish taken care of in the blink of an eye?” Ben shrugged as he thought about it. “What are you guys talking about?” Brian asked and then lifted his arm showing them his palm to stop them from answering. “I really don’t want to know,” he told him. He had heard bits of the conversation and really didn’t want to get into it. Justin smiled as he saw Brian. “Jesus,” Ben said. “You clean up very well.” “Are you hitting on me?” Brian asked smirking as he bent to kiss Justin. “I’ll be back as fast as I can,” he told him and kissed him hard. “Don’t leave him alone until I get back,” he ordered. Justin rolled his eyes. Emmett nodded. “Wouldn’t dream of it,” he answered. Brian kissed Justin again. When he pulled back they were both panting. He smirked as he stood up and put his shades on. “Suffer boys,” he said as he walked away. “God,” Ben said. Emmett laughed. “The crush would pass, don’t worry.” “Fuck off,” Ben said. “I don’t have a crush on him. What are we in high school?” Justin laughed. He was happy to be left on his own…or almost with Emmett and Ben. He just didn’t want Brian’s life to revolve around him twenty for seven. The brunet had a right to do his own thing on his own time. *** The brunet got into his office and sat down. He sighed as he ran his hands over the surface of his desk. He missed being in there so much. He groaned as he leaned back and threw his head back. There was a knock on the door and Ted came inside. “We got them,” Ted said. “By we you mean me,” Brian told him. “Right,” Ted said grinning a bit. “I’m sorry that I freaked out like that. I just didn’t want to fuck this up and have you had my ass for dinner.” “I wouldn’t want to have your ass anyway, Theodore,” the brunet said. Ted nodded and pointed back to the door with his thumb. “I should leave now. There is plenty of work to do still.” “Good,” the brunet said getting up. “I’m going home.” “Right,” Ted said. Brian went past Ted and opened the door. “Brain?” Ted said as he looked at the man. “What now?” Brian asked. “I saw…Michael has a pretty fucked up eye,” Ted told him. Brian closed the door and turned around. “What do you want?” “I just wanted to know why it happened,” Ted whispered. Brian clenched his jaw. Everyone wanted to know how it happened. He only had told Emmett about because…because Emmett had been there for him and he really thought of him as a close friend and also because he had needed someone to talk to aside from Justin. “Can you tell me what did he say?” Ted asked. “It’s none of your fucking business,” Brian told him. Ted looked at the floor. “I know.” “I have to go. I have to get home,” the brunet said. “Call if anything happens.” “You really love him, don’t you?” Ted asked. Brian stopped and turned around yet again. He arched a brow at the man. “Why do you want to know?” Ted shrugged. “I wasn’t really asking you that for you to answer me. I just…was realizing that.” Brian rolled his lips inside his mouth and without saying anything he left his office. When he got in his Jeep he didn’t started it right away. He sat there thinking about his life and how it all changed. He wondered if he could have made better choices. He didn’t know if there was some hope left between him and Michael. The man had been there when he most needed him when they were kids. He knew that his relationship with Michael as best friends was pretty much dead and he hated that. He knew he had plenty of people he could count on, there was Justin and Emmett and Molly and maybe even Ben. But with Michael it was different. He sighed and shook his head. There was nothing he could do if Michael didn’t want to forgive him for what had happened. He wasn’t even sure he could forgive the man for the things he had said about Justin. He picked his cell phone and called the loft. “Hello?” Evan answered. “Evan?” Brian asked. “Brian?” Evan asked happily. “Hey, where are you?” “Is Molly there with you?” Brian asked. “Yeah,” Evan said. “We came to see Justin. We’re about to watch a movie. Molly made us popcorn. Are you coming home now? My cousin is here and so is Emmett.” Brian smiled. “Yeah, I am.” “Okay,” Evan said. “Go watch the movie,” Brian told him. “I’ll be there soon.” “I’ll tell Justin you called,” Evan said. “Don’t do that!” Emmett’s voice could be heard from the background. Brian could hear some of then laughing and then shouting before the line went dead. He smiled at that. He was happy that Justin and him had his family there, that’s what they were. His decisions were made already and there were no changing them. He would make the same mistakes over and over again if it meant he would get Justin in the end. That’s all it came down to. *** Justin grabbed Brian’s stress ball and shove it in one of his pockets. He looked at Brian who had his back turned to him and then moved his head forward and stared at the bulge the ball was making but he didn’t care. He quickly moved his head back and smiled. Let anyone screw with him and he was going to send the damn thing flying like a missile. “How do I look?” Brian said turning around. He had on a pair of linen black pants with vertical black and white lines in his shirt. He was wearing a pair of black boots and his hair was rearranged with that ‘I just got out of bed’ look. “Very hot,” Justin said smiling. He in the other hand was wearing grey pants and a white shirt. “Are you going to put my shoes on?” Brian nodded and went to get them. He grabbed a pair of socks after he had them and sat on the bed pulling the chair towards him. He lifted Justin’s legs gently and put the socks on then the shoes. “There, you’re looking very hot tonight.” Justin smiled. Brian got up and grabbed his stress ball away from the blond. “You wanted to have guests so you’re going to behave.” Justin pouted and while the brunet put the ball away Justin grabbed one of Evan’s toys that the boy had left there. “You will be my superhero tonight, Spidey,” he said really softly to himself. “What?” Brian asked. “What?” Justin asked arching a brow. Brian frowned and shook his head. “I was thinking,” Justin told him. “Right,” Brian whispered as he splashed some cologne on. “Can you get me the other chair?” Justin asked. “I think I’m ready for it. It’s more comfortable and with the press of a button I can make it move.” “No,” Brian told him. “But Brian,” Justin said. “I can move my arms now.” “No,” Brian said. “You can move one arm and the other one you can lift for two seconds max. Isaac said that it wasn’t a good idea. You still don’t have full control of your neck and back. So the answer is no!” Justin pouted. He couldn’t wait to be able to sit in his other wheelchair. “Justin,” Brian said when the blond pouted. “Please, don’t get mad. This is for your own good.” The blond didn’t want to listen to it. “You remember when you could move only one arm and you wanted to do everything?” Brian asked. Justin nodded slowly. “And you ended up hurting yourself a few times,” Brian said. “Yeah,” Justin whispered. “God, Brian. Why do you always have to point that out?” “Because you seem to forget,” the brunet said. Justin rolled his eyes at him. “Uh,” he said excitedly when the buzzer sounded. “Our first guest.” Brian smiled and moved Justin out of the room and towards the living room. Then he went to buzz whoever it was in. When he opened the door Ben and Emmett were there. “Hey,” Emmett said. “I brought flowers.” “I brought wine,” Ben said. “It’s a good year too.” Brian nodded and grabbed the wine. “Put those on the table.” Emmett went in search of a vase so he could place the white roses in the middle of the table. Then pulled away to get a better view and smiled. “They’re fake you know. I didn’t forget.” Brain smiled as he put the wine in the fridge. “That’s good, Em.” “Hey,” Ben said as he looked at his cousin. “You look really nice.” “Thanks,” Justin told him. “Who else is coming?” Ben asked him. “Daphne and Isaac,” Justin told him as he scratched the side of his neck. “I invited Molly but she has a date and Evan is at a sleepover.” Ben nodded and sat on the sofa. “Uh,” Emmett said and walked to the door. He hit the button for the intercom. “Who is there?” “Daphne Chanders,” she answered. “Come on right up, sweetie,” Emmett told her as he hit the button to let her in. She came up and smiled at them. She had a present in her hands and handed it to Emmett telling him that it was for Brian and Justin. Emmett smiled and put the present in the kitchen island letting Brian know that she had brought it. Ten minutes later Isaac was there. The food was ready to be served and Emmett and Ben helped Brian to do so. When they were sitting down Emmett said a prayer. Justin was happy that they were there and so was Brian. “Wow,” Isaac said after he swallowed the first bite. “This is really good.” “Yeah,” Ben agreed. “Who cooked?” Daphne asked. “I did,” Brian told her. “No shit,” Isaac said. “You’re getting better,” he said having been able to taste Brian’s cooking before. Emmett laughed at that. “He’s planning on opening a restaurant soon,” Ben said very serious. “Just imagine it…him barking orders at everyone in his white hat and white chef coat.” “Fuck off,” Brian told him. “That could be sexy,” Justin said to the man. “Be nice Brian.” Daphne was smiling. She had never seen this side of Brian before. The first time she saw Brian the man was a mess and after that he was always very quiet and didn’t say much except when it was about Justin. She looked at Isaac that was staring at her and she quickly looked away. She couldn’t believe she was blushing like some school girl. “Did you make dessert?” Justin asked. Brian shook his head even thought he had. “You’ll get too fat and I won’t be able to lift your ass out of that chair.” Ben smirked and Emmett laughed because they knew it was all in good fun. Isaac rolled his lips inside his mouth to contain his laughter. Daphne looked a bit worried towards Justin but smile when she saw the blond laughing. “Your favorite,” was all Brian said before he winked at his husband. Justin smiled at that. “He’s right you know,” Ben said. “Maybe you should pass on dessert. You don’t want to end up being chubby like when you were a kid.” Brian smirked at that. Justin glared. “Shut up!” Ben laughed along with the others. “I hate you,” Justin told his cousin and a few seconds later Spidey was diving into his cousin’s pasta. *** “Mmm,” Justin said as he started nibbling Brian’s neck. “Stop that,” Brian told him as he carried the blond in his arms. Everyone had stayed past midnight. All of them had a wonderful time together. Justin had almost fallen asleep a few times but made himself stay awake. When they were gone Brian locked the place and went to get his blond. He picked him up from the chair and carried him to the bedroom. He was going to get the blond undressed then take him to his own bed and like he had become accustomed to he would sleep in Evan’s bed. “Careful,” Justin protested as the brunet took off his shoes. “Okay,” Brian answered. “You’re drunk,” Justin slurred. “Right,” Brian said smirking. “You’re the one that had too much to drink. You know you shouldn’t have, Justin. You’re taking pills,” he said as he dropped the socks on the floor. “I didn’t take them today,” Justin told him. “I wasn’t feeling any pain.” Brian sighed. “I gave them to you.” “I pretended to take them,” Justin informed him. “Jesus fuck,” Brian muttered as he took the blond’s shirt off. “Brian,” Justin said. “I’m moving.” “Okay,” the brunet whispered. “No,” Justin told him. “I’m serious. I’m moving!” “Moving where?” Brian asked him as he got the pants opened. Justin grabbed the brunet’s hand and placed it over his covered cock. “Fuck,” Brian said pulling his hand away. “Brian!” Justin complained. “This is what we’ve been waiting for.” “No it’s not!” Brian protested. “Are you shitting me?” Justin asked. “I…Justin I can’t,” Brian told him. “I mean…I want to but…well, we haven’t talked with Daphne or Isaac about this.” “My cock is rock hard and you won’t do anything without the permission of a woman or a straight man?” the blond asked full of anger. “Relax,” Brian told him. “You fucking relax,” Justin hissed. Brian smiled as he caressed Justin’s face. He took off his boots and then got in the bed next to his husband. He pulled the blond to him in a sitting position. He was being really careful not to hurt him. “Do you know you look so pretty when you’re angry like that?” he asked in a husky voice close to the blond’s ear. “Oh fuck!” Justin hissed. “Oh fuck…now…I’m really horny.” Brian licked his upper lip as his hand moved to Justin’s crotch. “Please, Brian,” Justin told him. “Okay,” Brian said. “Let’s take it easy here.” The brunet moved Justin back in the bed. He moved a few pillows behind the blond to make his husband as comfortable as possible. “Get them off me,” Justin said. “Now you want help,” Brian said smirking. Justin threw a glare towards the brunet but sighed with relief when Brian took his pants off. “Suck me off!” “Justin!” Brian said taken aback. He smiled not sure why he was fighting the blond on it. He just was surprised because he’d never seen the blond that desperate. “Put your mouth on my fucking dick! Now, Brian!” Justin yelled at him with urgency. “Jus,” Brian whispered. “Please, Brian,” he said more calm this time. “Please.” Brian kneeled in the bed and took off the blond’s underwear before he pushed Justin’s legs open. He kissed the blond’s lower abdomen and then moved down. He knew he had to be dreaming at that moment. Justin’s skin felt so good under his fingertips. His skin was soft and cool to the touch. He buried his nose on the blond’s pubic hairs and inhaled deeply. “Brian,” Justin moaned. “Please.” Brian felt the tip of Justin’s cock brush against his cheek leaving a dab of pre cum there. He moved up and kissed Justin hard before quickly moving down. He grabbed Justin’s hard shaft in his hand and stared jerking his husband really slowly as his tongue came out and circled the engorged head. “Oh fucking hell,” Justin gasped as his hand gripped the brunet’s shoulders. The older man pulled his hand away and let his tongue follow the swollen vein until he hit the base of Justin’s cock. He went right up and licked the underside of the head. Then he planted his tongue flatly around the piss hole and started giving it a few licks. He could hear Justin moaning and gasping for air. His hand went down and he opened his pants. He pulled his hard penis out and grunted with pleasure. Justin’s left hand moved into the brunet’s locks and started pulling. He wished he could push his hips up making the man swallow his entire cock. Brian took a good hold of the blond’s shaft and started moving his hand up and down while he covered his teeth and started sucking on the head. Some were hard sucks and some were gentle ones. “Fucking hell, Brian!” Justin growled. The brunet pulled back and let his breath hit his man’s penis. He felt the tremors on the blond’s body. He went back to sucking Justin’s head then his hand moved away and he let Justin’s dick slide all the way in his mouth. His hand moved down and he started massaging the blond’s sac. Justin felt Brian’s tongue doing wonders to him. He pulled his free hand up and covered half of his face. He didn’t think Brian had sucked him that way before. Brian opened his eyes and looked up at the blond. His hand moved up and he put pressure at the base. “No!” Justin hissed. He wanted to cum so badly. Brian stretched Justin’s balls next and he moved his head up until only the head of Justin’s cock was in his mouth. He circled his tongue around it before he started to tongue fuck the little hole. “Oh my fucking god,” Justin muttered. “Brian!” Brian slipped his index finger into his mouth getting it wet. He pulled it out and then pulled his mouth away from the blond’s dick as well. The separation made a wet pop. Brian kissed Justin hard, his tongue slipping inside Justin’s mouth and he moaned and shook with pleasure. He pulled away and then whispered in the blond’s ear. “Fill my mouth with your cum,” he said in a seductive voice. He quickly moved down and his mouth captured the blond’s cock as his finger started rubbing Justin’s hole. “Mmm,” Justin felt like he was going to explode. Brian slipped a finger inside of Justin and felt Justin’s cock pulsing inside of his mouth before the strong current hit his throat and he swallowed it all. When he pulled away Justin had his eyes closed. The brunet caressed Justin’s hips; the skin was hot and damp now. He moved up so he could hold his blond. “Brian,” Justin whispered. “I love you so much.” Brian smiled and kissed him hard. He made sure not to let his weight fall on the blond. “I want to suck you,” Justin whispered. “You can’t,” the brunet told him. “So you can suck the cripple but the cripple can’t suck you!” Justin said. “That’s such a horrible thing to say,” Brian told him. “Plus…I already shot my load.” “Fuck,” Justin hissed. “All those sounds you were making drove me crazy,” Brian said. “I pulled away not wanting to bite your cock off.” “You came before me?” Justin asked. Brian smirked. “Shut up,” he told the blond as he moved next to the blond and pulled him closer. “That was the best blow job ever, Brian,” Justin said. “You always say that,” Brian pointed out. Justin laughed. “Because it keeps getting better and better.” Brian hugged the blond to him. He kissed the man’s neck and nuzzled it. He was so happy to be laying there with the blond. “Can we stay here for a while?” Justin asked. “Like this.” “All the time you want,” Jus,” Brian answered him in a soft voice.