Brian opened his eyes and closed them again. Everything was so bright. He wanted to move but he felt like he was strapped down. He really started to think Michael had committed him to a mental institution. “Oh my god, I think he is waking up.” Brian opened his eyes again and blinked a few times. “Brian? Oh my god, Brian!” Michael screamed. “I can’t believe you are up. I just came to see how you were doing and if there were any changes and here you are. Fuck, this is great. I’m going to call everyone.” “Michael, what the fuck is going on? I was just with Justin and his mom and dad and we were talking. I know we were.” Brian said a little bit frantic. “Where are they?” “What the fuck are you talking about, Brian?” Michael asked puzzled. “I’m sure it’s just a dream.” Ben said. “Oh well, the doctor said you were going to be a little out of it. So I guess you are okay. I think…mmhm…I’m going to go get him and then I’ll call everyone else, okay. Emmett is just outside. I’ll tell him the good news.” Brian closed his eyes and blinked a few times. He was not going to freak out. Nope, he wasn’t going to. He was just going to stay calm and pretend like everything was okay because there was no way in hell that he was back to square one. He couldn’t be in a place where there was no Justin. He was definitely going to kill someone as soon as he could move again. Brian waited for what it seemed like hours. Ben had gone out of the room after Michael. The doctor came and told him he was okay. That he could start treatment at soon as possible. Dr. Henderson informed him of how he had a heart attack and later on he had fallen into a coma. Brian just stayed there in silence wondering what the fuck was going on. The first visitors to come inside after Ben and Michael were Ted, Emmett and some guy. Brian looked at them for a while and if he could have moved he would have jumped from the bed when Emmett kissed the stranger. “What the fuck are you doing?” Brian asked. “Why are you kissing him, Emm?” “Because he is my boyfriend, Brian, oh I’m sorry. Jake this is Brian, Brian this is Jake.” “Hi,” Jake said. “Brian is just jealous that he isn’t getting any right now.” Ted said smirking. “What happened to Bill?” Brian asked. “Or just plain fucking crazy,” Ted said. “Who’s Bill?” Michael asked. “Is that one of your tricks, Brian? How come you remember his name?” Brian shut his eyes and knew he was in hell. It had to be. There was no other explanation as to why they kept shifting him from one world to the other and always taking Justin out of the equation. Brian started crying even though his friends were standing right there. He didn’t care anymore. All he wanted was Justin and Justin wasn’t there. “Brian, are you okay?” Emmett asked. “The doctor said it would be a while before he was himself again.” Michael said. “Hey,” Lindsey said coming in. “Brian, how are you doing?” Debbie, Vic and Melanie were just coming after Lindsey. “Leave me alone. All of you just leave me the fuck alone.” Brian screamed. “Well, the shit never changes.” Debbie grumped out. “Daddy,” Gus yelled. Brian looked at Gus and was shocked to say the least. At least he had his son back. He didn’t know what was happening anymore. There had to be an explanation somewhere. “Do you remember what happened?” Lindsey asked. “No, I have no fucking idea what’s going on.” Brian said miserably. “Could you please not talk like that in front of Gus?” Melanie asked while she sat down with Gus. “After the accident, you had a heart attack.” Lindsey said. “You died Brian and thank god Michael told them to resuscitate you. Thank god you were smart enough to leave him in charge.” “What accident?” Brian asked. “You were with Justin and he pushed you out of the way.” Ted said. “At least that’s what the witnesses to the accident said.” “I guess it was a little too much for you to handle, to see Justin getting hurt again.” Lindsey said. “You are waking up now after almost two and a half months.” “That’s why I cannot move?” Brian asked. “Yeah, the doctor said that you were going to be okay. All you have to do is do your part and follow orders as hard as that might sound. You just need to be strong, Brian. Everything is going to be okay.” Lindsey said. “Plus you have us to help you.” Vic said. Brian closed his eyes trying to remember what happened that day. He couldn’t tell what was real and what had been nothing but a dream anymore. He couldn’t remember if he really had gone to Justin’s funeral or if he had dreamt it. Brian was too afraid to ask. He didn’t wanted to hear if Justin was alive or dead or just a fiction of his imagination. “Brian, are you okay?” Michael asked. Brian started crying and closed his eyes. He wanted his life to be back to normal with Justin by his side. The only problem was that he didn’t know what normal was anymore. ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Brian opened his eyes to people arguing. “You shut the fuck up, Michael. I don’t care what you have to say. I am not going anywhere and if you dare tell the doctor that I am here I might beat you with my fucking cane.” Justin said. “Justin,” “Brian,” Justin said and walked as fast as he could over to where Brian was. “How are you doing?” “You are here,” Justin smiled and nodded. “Of course I’m here, where else would I be?” Justin asked kissing Brian on the lips. Brian smiled happily even though tears were falling down his face. He didn’t care if he was dreaming or hallucinating. He had Justin next to him. “Where were you, baby?” “I was in my room. Michael didn’t tell me that you woke up.” Justin said raising his voice while he glared at Michael. Brian looked at Justin’s eyebrow. There was a new scar there. “Because you got hit pretty fucking bad and you needed your rest.” Michael said. “You almost died, Justin.” “But I didn’t.” “But you almost did, you asshole.” “I’m not going anywhere, Michael, so fuck off.” Justin told him. “I’m not some little weak faggot. So just leave me the fuck alone. I want to see Brian and I am going to see Brian.” “It’s not like he is going anywhere.” Michael said. “You are just jealous.” “Not of you,” Michael said. Brian would have been annoyed any other time, he would have told both of them to get the fuck out but now it was different. Brian looked at his boyfriend and his best friend and smiled. Things were back to normal. He had Justin at his side where he belonged. All this time while he was in a coma he had been dreaming. All of his dreams, hopes and fears had played out in his mind. He guessed that once he was strong enough to admit to himself that he loved Justin, his mind let go of him and he woke up. Brian smiled thinking of the day he would tell Justin. He could almost imagine Justin’s big smile. Brian was going to wait until he could move again. He wanted to hold Justin in his arms while he told the blonde he was in love with him. “You are being such a brat,” Michael said. Justin just stuck his tongue out. “I’m going to call mom.” Michael said. “You are such a tattletale.” Justin yelled. Brian watched happily. “I’m leaving,” Michael said. “Good,” Justin said. Brian was surprised but happy that Justin was trying to climb in bed with him. “There is not that much space, sunshine.” Brian said. “The closer the better,” Justin said. Brain nodded and watched as Justin smiled brightly. This time the room lit up completely. Brian knew he was where he was supposed to be. And this time around he was going to make things right.
I want to give big thanks to Rocketta. You helped me tons and I am glad you did. Boy did some things just sounded weird huh? Across his face??? Thank god you saw that. lol...I laughed hard about it. Anyways thanks to everyone that liked the story and told me so.