Thanks a lot for all the feedback. It gave me the inspiration to write a bit more. =) -------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Justin’s POV That couldn’t be true, could it? I thought Brian would be different, but as it seemed he was just as bad as the guys I have been with before. “What do you mean?” I asked nevertheless. I knew that question was stupid, but I still couldn’t assimilate what I had heard. I didn’t believe it. Could I really have been that wrong about this guy? Maybe I shouldn’t have given him my trust? “It was really nice fucking you. You have a great ass.” He mumbled, starring intensely at the sleeping dogs. “So I was only a fuck to you?” I hated that my voice cracked and my eyes got wet. I really didn’t want to break down in front of him. Even if my heart was breaking, I still wanted to keep some dignity. “I don’t do boyfriends and I don’t believe in love. I only believe in fucking.” I really didn’t want to listen to the bullshit Brian was telling me. “And you think it gives you the right to use me? Some guys actually DO believe in love!” “Come on, Justin. Don’t be such a drama princess. You had fun too! I didn’t force you to sleep with me. And I never promised you a relationship.” “No, you didn’t. But I thought you would care about me a little bit. I thought I would be more worth than a kick in the ass after you had your way with me! God, I trusted you!” “Well, that’s your problem.” He growled, his voice a bit sharper now. But he still didn’t look at me. What a coward! What only had I seen in him? I had to get out of here before I lost it completely. I was so sad, but also mad at the same time. I quickly grabbed my clothes and got dressed. Then I gently woke my dog. Jeannie looked confused at me. She probably didn’t understand why she had to leave her little boyfriend so suddenly. “I know, it’s hard for you. But we have to go.” I stroked her head and carefully picked her up. But she started to squirm in my arms. She howled heart-rendingly. I had trouble to hold on to her. Also Brutus was awake now and snapped at my legs. He wanted to halt me so that I couldn’t run away with his girl. I managed to open the front door and get halfway through it. But a part of my pants was caught between Brutus’ teeth. So I dragged him along with me. “Brutus, stop!” Now Brian came after his dog. He hadn’t even bothered to put on one single garment. So this guy had no sense of shame either. An elderly woman passed us. She screamed like an actress in a horror movie when she saw Brian, but she wasn’t able to take her eyes off his crotch. He instead only stuck his tongue out. Then he grabbed Brutus and finally freed me from the angry little guy. I had a big hole in my pants now, but I didn’t care. It wasn’t the worst thing that was torn here anyway. In the next couple of days I hardly got my ass out of the bed. I wasn’t really in the mood for anything. If it wasn’t for Jeannie, I would let myself go. But I wasn’t responsible for myself only. Unfortunately Jeannie wasn’t in a much better mood than me. She sat waiting in front of the door all the time. She didn’t play and cuddled with me anymore. And she refused to eat as well. She didn’t even touch her beloved dog biscuits and the beef that I bought for her. Yeah, we were a sad couple! And then there was still my art teacher who wanted me to paint some more pictures for another show. But all I wanted to do was to throw a can with black paint against the canvas. I had no other inspiration! Why was my life such a mess? Brian’s POV I didn’t know what was wrong with me. I never thought twice about a guy that I had kicked out of my bed before. (And let me tell you, I had A LOT of fuck partners already.) I had always felt good when I had gotten rid of a trick. But after Justin I felt like the world’s biggest asshole. I really wanted to apologize to him, but I had no address and no telephone number. (Damn, why did I never ask?!) Now it seemed too late because Justin didn’t show up at our park anymore either. I hadn’t even gone to the office for a few days because I had been sitting on the bench all the time. But after hours and days of waiting in vain I felt pretty silly and angry. If this little shit avoided me, then it was his loss! I surely wouldn’t pine for him. Stupid only that I didn’t even believe myself. Justin’s POV He didn’t look into my eyes. He didn’t dare to look at me when he said those harsh words to me! I was lying in my bed again, starring at the ceiling when I suddenly remembered Brian‘s behavior. That had to mean something. Maybe I still had a chance because he was only too much a coward to admit that he had feelings for me? Suddenly I felt some new power and energy running through my body. I suddenly had enough and didn’t want to be a depressed weak little faggot anymore! Perhaps it was time to fight for what I wanted. And as strange as it sounded, I still wanted Brian! I didn’t know exactly why, but I still thought he could be my “Mr. Right”. Maybe I was just crazy! Suddenly the bell rang and interrupted my thoughts. Who could that be? I didn’t expect anybody. I stood up and opened the door though. “I’m sorry, Justin.” My neighbor Tony mumbled sheepishly. He was a very chaotic guy who even had more problems than me. “Could you give me some bread? I wanted to make a sandwich and noticed that I had nothing to eat.” I didn’t think I had a lot of food in my fridge, but I went into the kitchen anyway. When I came back with some bread and salad in my hands, Tony made a strange face that I couldn’t interpret. “Your dog.” He whispered. “What about Jeannie?” My heart beat wildly when I looked around and didn’t see her anymore. “She suddenly ran down the stairs.” “What? Why didn’t you stop her?” I yelled in panic, but Tony only shrugged. “She was too fast. I couldn‘t do anything.” Without my shoes on I ran outside to the street. I looked to the right and to the left, but she was completely disappeared. Oh my god. I felt like my world was crashing down.