Author's Notes: Thanks to my big bad beta KJ (who wouldn't let me name this chapter something naughty)! While condoms did exist at this time, safe sex was not a common practice so I don't feel that this is unsafe sex. It's just sex. And with no further ado….at long last here ya' go. ____________________________________________________________________________________________________ Brian's POV Now that I have Justin here I'm not sure what to do with him. I know what I would like to do with him but I am overcome with fear. A gripping fear that the sentiments he wrote to me over a year ago were the foolish writings of a scared young man, or perhaps he has changed his mind, or possibly… well there are just so many things that could have changed between that time and now. I have been with other men in my life and there were no feelings. Mostly it has been anonymous sex; I only knew the name of one man. Paul was my first; he was older and seemed so knowledgeable in the ways of the world and in the ways of pleasure. Neither Paul nor I ever had feelings for each other; we knew instinctively that we were only together for fun and for a short time. Justin is different, he has been from the moment I met him. I didn't know why in the beginning; I should never have so readily accepted his friendship and attention; but I couldn't stop myself. I began to crave his visits, needing to hear his voice, and longing to see him again after he would leave. Then we kissed that one time and I'm fairly certain the earth fell off its axis. Suddenly he is here in my home again, this time he will be staying for three months and I don't know what to do with him. I look across the room at him and he is still standing just inside the door, holding his wounded arm to relieve the pressure on his shoulder and looking more nervous than I feel. Suddenly I realize that I have to be the Paul in this situation. I need to be the worldly and knowledgeable one. I take a deep breath and ask him if he is going to come all the way in or not. He nods his head slightly and as he moves into the room he seems to relax a bit. "Uh, Justin." "Yes?" "I have a confession to make. There is no bed in the extra room." Justin's POV I never thought I would be so nervous just being in Brian's house but I can't seem to move forward beyond the doorway. Brian finally seems to come out of the trance he was in for a few minutes and asks me if I am going to come in. I nod because I do not trust my own voice, but I do feel the tension starting to ease up. I'm hoping that the longer I am in this familiar place with Brian the more at ease I will feel. Then he confesses to not having an extra bed and I realize that I knew that. Why I hadn't thought of it earlier when he suggested I come here to stay I don't know. And suddenly I am bowled over with the realization that Brian invited me to his home for three months, with every intention of me sharing his bed with him. A relief rushes through me, reducing a fear I didn't realize I had; that Brian would have changed his mind about wanting to be with me. I smile slightly, walk over to him and place my hand on his forearm. Looking up into his eyes I tell him, "Brian you wrote to me of having had physical pleasures with other men. I have not, but I want to. I want you. I don't know what to do; if you are willing I would like you to guide me. I want you to touch me Brian." He gasps slightly at hearing me tell him that, and then ever so slowly he lowers his lips to mine. Brian's POV Justin asks me to touch him and I nearly lose it. Slowly I capture his lips with my own, just a gentle tasting at first, it's really more lips touching lips than anything else. I part my lips slightly and suck his lower lip in between mine. He moans slightly and my blood starts to race a little faster. I realize that this night will be all about my needing to force myself to take it slow and easy. I tug on his lower lip slightly with my teeth and then use my tongue to caress his still closed lips. Slowly he opens his mouth to allow my tongue access and I slide it in. I probe the inner recesses of his mouth, tonguing the roof of his mouth and stroking his tongue with my own. After a minute he becomes more engaged in the kiss and starts to duel his tongue with mine. Pushing, pulling, pleasing; first in his mouth, then mine, and back to his again. The kiss seems to go on forever but in reality probably only lasts 10 minutes. I reach my arms around him and putting my hands on the small of his back I bring his body in flush against my own. I can feel that our kissing has made him hard and I wonder just how much his sense of propriety has kept him from exploring his own cock. I continue kissing him until he has fully relaxed against me and I feel it's safe to take this to the next level. I pull away from the kiss and look into his eyes. He seems concerned that I stopped so I kiss him quickly on the lips again to reassure him. I take a step back, grab the hem of his shirt and help get it over his head. I know this is going to hurt his injured shoulder so I take it as slowly as possible, getting one arm out and the shirt over his head so that it can simply be pulled down the other arm. I step back one more time, remove my own shirt quickly, and step forward again. I hold him so close that our chests are pressed together and moving up and down against each other with the rhythm of our breaths. I lower myself down until I can drop my head is level with his chest and begin tonguing his nipples until the buds are taut and erect. Just above my ear I can hear his constant stream of gasps and heavy breathing. I drop down a little lower and run the tip of my tongue over his stomach, outlining each muscle and marveling at how being in the war has done his body good. I can feel his stomach muscles fluttering against my face as I lave his belly button, circling the rim with my tongue, and gently pulling at the opening with my teeth. Justin's POV Oh god. Oh god, oh god, oh god! Brian's POV Finally I am on my knees in front of him. I kiss around the waistband of his pants and then slowly pull them, along with his underwear down his legs until he can step out of them. I sit back slightly onto my heels and take a minute to survey the beauty of his body with my eyes. He is pale and ethereal, his muscles have gotten more defined since he has been gone, and his cock is larger than I would have imagined for the slightness to his build. I have always known he had a wonderful ass, but to know that the rest of him is just as wonderful has my body raring to go. I place my hands on both his thighs and stroke them slightly to calm him. I'm sure that what I am about to do will push him over the edge if I don't get him to relax a little first. I look up at him and all looks of worry, fear, and nervousness are gone from his eyes, all that is there now is lust, and perhaps something more. Rising back up so I am level with his cock I slowly lap at the head with my tongue. I take just the cap into my mouth and suck. Justin's knees start to buckle so I stand up, move us both up against the wall and drop back to my knees. With Justin leaning up against the wall I feel secure that he won't fall over, and without warning I take his entire cock into my mouth, close my lips around the base and slowly pull away. I repeat the process, bobbing up and down over his cock, alternating between sucking and licking. Justin is panting above me, I'm not really sure if the breath is even making it to his lungs before he expels it out. I move my hands slowly up his body until my fingers find his nipples. I pinch and twist each one while continuing to make love to his cock with my mouth. It only takes a few minutes of the dual sensations assaulting him before he is shooting into my mouth. I rise and return my mouth to his, some of his semen still in my mouth I give it over to him; pushing it into his mouth with my tongue and then sharing it back and forth again in another mind blowing kiss. I grasp his hand and tug until he is in motion and following me to the bedroom. Justin's POV Brian kisses me with my semen filling his mouth and I have never tasted something so intoxicating; a flavor of Brian tinted with the flavor of my own body mixed in. I'm barely coherent as Brian pulls me into his bedroom. I never imagined I could feel as good as he just made me feel. I can tell by his tone of voice and the look in his eye that he is not over but I can't fathom anything more wonderful than this last half hour. He tells me to lie down on my stomach and I follow his instructions trusting him implicitly. Every nerve in my body is on fire and all my senses are heightened, so I can hear him rubbing his hands together behind me. Unsure at first what he is doing it becomes obvious when he wraps his hands around the muscles at my neck. His hands are warmed slightly from the friction and he begins a slow and sensuous massage. His massage encompasses my neck, shoulders, upper arms, down the muscles of my back, until he has made his way to my ass. His hands lift away from me, I hear them rub together again, and then they are down at my feet. He massages my left foot slowly moving up the leg until he once again reaches my ass. He then repeats the process with my right leg. I'm certain that at this moment I could not get anymore relaxed, I'm virtually boneless. And yet his massage has reignited the fire in my loin again, my cock is hard, aching, and leaking once more. Not knowing what Brian has planned next I am surprised when I feel his tongue on my ass. I'm shocked that he is doing something so indescribably intimate and instinctively start to pull away, but Brian must be prepared for my embarrassment because he simply holds my body still and makes a little shushing noise to calm me. I trust Brian so I decide to relax and let him do whatever he thinks we should. He is making small circles with the tip of his tongue, slowly increasing the size of the circle and slowly driving me crazy. I feel a little wild with need and try and rub my cock into the bed below me. Brian grasps my waist and effectively holds me still keeping me from going any faster than he wants me too. I sob slightly at the frustration and he tells me to relax and take it easy. He tells me to trust him and I do. I decide to give myself over to the sensations his tongue is creating on my ass cheeks and relax back into the bed. I tense up however when Brian pulls my ass cheeks apart and blows on my hole. I had given a lot of thought to sex between men while I was away missing Brian, but I wasn't sure I could handle it. Once again Brian tells me to relax and I try to. Brian's POV I know Justin will tense up a little at each new step I try and take so I keep doing everything I can to relax his mind and his body. Parting his cheeks again I flatten my tongue and lap at his hole. I can feel it quiver and convulse in reaction to my tongue. I smile a little at how trusting and open Justin is to me. This type of sex is entirely new to me; actually caring about the pleasure of my partner is new to me. I used to just assume they were having a good time and made sure I got mine. Stiffening my tongue I probe into Justin's ass for the first time. He tenses but I leave the tip of my tongue just inside his entrance until it stops protesting my intrusion and lets me in a little more. Justin is gasping and moaning and I think he tried to say my name but it came out jumbled and incoherent. I pull out and let a mouthful of saliva drop onto his opening, then push it into him slowly to help ease the way. I work at his opening for several minutes. Pushing in a little further each time, making sure to push as much saliva in as I can and making his hole as slick as possible. I pull away and tell him to roll over. When he does I see a look of disappointment on his face and I can't help but smile. With a small kiss I tell him not to worry that I am not done yet. Quickly I climb off the bed and rid myself of my clothes so I too am naked. I lift his legs up onto my shoulders and settle in between his thighs. I spit on my hand, rub it up and down my cock mixing it with the moisture that was already there. One hand on his knee, the other holding my cock steady I slowly push into him. Just the head gets through that first tight ring of muscle; he gasps loudly and tenses up. I tell him to keep his legs up on my shoulders, freeing up my hands to rub his stomach soothingly. Justin's POV It hurts, oh god how it hurts. My mind is screaming one minute to make him take it out, the next it wants more. I feel so conflicted and tormented so I try and focus on the hand he has rubbing my stomach. He tells me to breathe and I really try to breathe in and out steadily. Brian is not moving at all. I've never seen someone work so hard at staying still and I know it has to be hurting him to stay tense like that and hold off whatever he is feeling. I look deep into his eyes and see the desire he has for me there. That knowledge overrides the pain and I nod at him a little to continue. Before he does he leans his upper body forward to kiss me. Not like the urgent kiss that started this, but a gentler relaxed kiss. Brian's POV I feel Justin relax under me as I kiss him so I push a little further in. With each new thrust forward I pause, wait till he relaxes, kiss him, and then push again. Finally my entire cock is inside him and I have to sit still for a moment to take pleasure in his warm tight channel just hugging my cock. The walls of his anus are slowly caressing the sensitive nerve endings of my cock with every breath he takes. With one final kiss I feel Justin is relaxed enough, so I start to move. I pull out until just the head is inside him, and then slowly push back in. Again and again. Over and over. I keep withdrawing almost entirely and then pushing back in until I can sense the slow rhythm is driving us both insane so I speed up. As my speed increases I pull out less and less. Justin gasps every time my cock runs across his prostate. Finally I'm just jabbing into him as fast as I can, hitting that sensitive spot deep within him consistently, and then we are both shooting. Justin shoots all over my torso and I fill his ass with my semen. I collapse on top of him with my cock still buried deep and the feeling of my semen slowly leaking past my cock and out of his ass. Justin's POV After the initial pain subsided all I could feel was pleasure. I knew Brian could provide me with pleasure I just didn't realize it would make me feel like I was coming apart at the seams at the same time. He is thrusting into me quickly now and he keeps hitting a spot inside me that starts a mini explosion with each contact with his cock. Finally he seems to be coming to a precipice of his own, and I just can't seem to hold on anymore so I shoot all over him. While I am shooting I feel a wonderful warm filling sensation in my ass and realize that it is Brian's semen that is filling me and warming me from the inside. He collapses down on top of me, and for the first time ever I fall asleep with Brian's dick up my ass, and his body covering mine like a blanket.