Short chapter just to get into the talk. Wanna thank my lovly beta Brit. Who is crazy... but not so crazy as me! My woobie friend!

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<i>I'm sorry to say it, but you look like you're sad 
Your smile is gone, I noticed it bad 
The cure's if you let in just a little more love 
I promise you this, a little's enough</i>


Justin

It’s almost seven o clock. Nail biting, sweating, pacing. Fuck why I am so nervous. It’s Brian, just Brian.

Keep telling yourself that Justin. Tonight is the night where you tell Brian that Gus is his son. The reasons why you left all those years ago. The reason why you fled. But don’t you think that he already knows? I mean really. It’s a mini Brian and the times are correct and flowing. Gus is Brian’s. You know it and Brian knows it too, it’s just time to face it all. Time to face your future. You didn’t come here for Michael’s wedding alone. No, you knew you had to face Brian, it was your choice. Now get on with it. Take a shower and dress yourself. Get Gus ready and knock on the man’s door.

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<i>I can do anything, If you want me here 
And I can fix anything, if you'll let me near 
Where are those secrets now?
That you're just scared to tell 
I whisper them all aloud 
So you can hear yourself</i>


Brian’s POV

When I saw Justin this morning I thought I was going to faint. I mean it. I haven’t seen him in 3 years nor did I hear of him. It was like seeing a ghost. Like… heartbreaking. 

I wasn’t ready for seeing him. I don’t ever think I was ready to face him. When I was younger I was so sure I was going to tell him I loved him. That I was scared of being hurt but when I was with him that I had nothing to fear. But the moment I was going to he was gone and I had nowhere to go with my feelings. Beside myself. It hurt like hell but I also realize now how much I have changed since we were together as friends. Ok, I’m honest I was a real asshole. I ignored him like he was a disease after we slept together. But now after I know he can just go away and leave me. Leaving me behind alone… Well let’s just say I don’t want to loose him anymore I want to be the real me. Not the façade, not the farce. Because when I am the asshole Kinney I hurt people more then they hurt me.

I want to be with Justin, I want to be honest with him. But I know I hurt him bad and that I have to careful and slow in approach. At least those were my thoughts before I saw the mini me. 

Now one shock wasn’t enough. Gus was like a heart attack. But it clears the reasons for leaving. It shows that Justin is mature enough to raise a child… my child. And a beautiful child it is. I had to ask him, I had to see his reaction. On his face alone I could read it. Gus is the product of our fucking. Once… that’s all it needed. 

Now I’m just waiting for him and Gus to knock on my door, so we can have that talk that should happened 3 years ago.