I just wanted to thank everyone who supported me while writing this. Now i know these chapters come slow. But i don't have alot of free time. I hope the next couple of chaps will be easier. xxx Seve/Queen
“Whatever it is that you did, Justin, you need to fix it now. Whatever stupid reason you had, I don’t want to know. “ ”Mom, will you just listen to me? You haven’t given me a chance yet to say what’s wrong. Why is it, that every time I want to talk to you, you blow me of?” ”Now honey, I didn’t blow you off. But if you expect me to come back here, it must be something big. And I know that most of the time when you want to talk, it’s bad news.” ”Shut up!!!” Justin yelled over his mother’s words. He was furious, he hadn’t even told her anything and she was already blaming him. ”You will not take that tone with me, young man! Now tell me what’s wrong.” Jennifer spoke with a choked voice. They both took a seat on the couch. Justin was twitching around. He knew what he wanted to say to his mom, he just didn’t know how to say it. So he just blurted it out. ”Mom, I am pregnant.” Justin said quick. He made a face knowing he would get a blow out of Jennifer. But instead Jennifer stayed quiet. When he opened his eyes, Jennifer just sat there. The sad thing of it all was that she didn’t even respond the way Justin thought she would. He saw a single tear running from her eyes. ”Mom, would you please say something?” Justin pleaded. ”Go to your room Justin and pack your bags. You are going to stay at your grandmother’s for a while.” Jennifer said stern. ”A while? How long will that be?” Justin asked scared. ”Until you have this… baby.” She said with a disgusted face. ”Mom no, you said that if I had a problem we would work it out. Don’t send me away, please.” ”Justin, I have absolutely no problem with you being gay, in fact I already knew. But this is just not…It isn’t right Justin. Can’t you understand that? How far along are you?” ”Uhm…4 months.” ”Then there is no other way. You will go to your grandmother’s and have the baby there. You can come back when the baby is a little older. I am driving you tonight.” ”Mom plea…” ”Justin! Go and pack your bags, this conversation is over.” Justin stood up from his seat and left the room, crying the whole time. Going up the stairs he heard his mother talking to him. ”Justin, it’s Brian’s, isn’t it?” She was sure of her thoughts, she just needed to know. It was confirmed when Justin nodded. ” This is for your own good, honey.” Jennifer said in a softer voice. Justin didn’t respond, he just went on crying silently.
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Justin stepped out of the car after the long ride from home. He still had mixed feelings, he didn’t even have a chance to say goodbye to anyone. It would be like he just disappeared. In his mind it was. He had a feeling he was a freak that needed the be hidden from the world. ”Hey mom, how are you doing?” Jennifer said as she embraced the tender woman. She was a tiny lady with big mass of gray hair. Even if she was in her sixties she looked young. ”Hey Jenny darling. I’m doing good. How’s my son doing?” ”Craig is fine, busy as always.” Jennifer said with a little laugh. The lady turned to Justin and shook her head. Here it comes ,Justin thought. ”Justin my sweet sunshine, when did you become so big? Look at you! You are all grown up.” ”Hey grandma, yep got a little bigger.” Justin said in an uneasy way. ”And what did your mother tell me? You’re pregnant…Hmmm. Don’t you worry, Sunshine, I am going to take good care of you. And that’s without all the judgement.” Grandma said with a glare in Jennifer’s direction. ”Thanks grandma.” Justin gave her a hug and a kiss and went in the house. “Bye mother.” ”Don’t worry Jenny, someday he will understand what you did for him. And he is save with me.” ”I know, mom. I have to get going. I need to get back to the house. Oh and please don’t tell Craig. I don’t want him to know yet.” ”I promise I will keep my big mouth shut.” She told with a wink of her eye. ”Tell Justin I said bye.” Jennifer crawled in her car. She waved once more to Grandma and left. Grandma watched her go. “Don’t worry Jenny, I will take better care of him then the both of you did.” She whispered to no one.
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Brian had it all figured out. He would go over to Justin’s house and tell him how he felt. No more lies and pride had to disappear for a while. He needed him and owned it to both him and Justin to show what he felt. He needed to think about the future. Without Justin in his life, his future would be worthless. He locked the door behind him and started walking to the house next door. Standing in front of Justin’s house, he got a funny feeling inside. But he didn’t think about it and knocked. After a while the door flew open revealing Jennifer crying. ”Uhm…hey Mrs. Taylor, I didn’t expect you to be home so soon.” ”Hello Brian, well yes, there was an emergency with Justin so I had to fly back.” ”Is he alright?” Brian asked concerned ”He is fine, Brian.“ ”Can I talk to Justin for a sec?” ”I don’t think that is possible, Brian. Justin left.” ”Well when will he be back?” ”Brian honey, Justin is gone.” ”How do you mean gone? He has to come back sometime, doesn’t he?” ”In a couple of years. Brian, can I ask you to stay away from Justin? Whatever the two of you had with each other, it’s over. Don’t hurt him anymore. He’s in a place where he can be himself. Goodbye Brian.” With that, Jennifer closed the door. And Brian was left with the hurt Justin felt. Brian Justin left? Why? Why did he leave and where did he go? What did she say? A couple of years. Something’s not right here. He should be going to college in a little while. But there was no changing the fact that Justin was not here anymore. It would be just Brian, no more Justin.
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Justin sat on his new bed and took in the view. If he thought about it, this place wasn’t so bad. It had a lake behind the house and his room looked out over it. There were beautiful flowers everywhere. And next to the lake was a big weeping-willow where he could see himself sitting and drawing. Alone and peaceful, just the way he likes it. He could be himself here. He wouldn’t have to hide his belly anymore. He could be with someone now who cared for him. He could search for someone who could love him, just like he loved Brian. But that was impossible. No one could feel that love for him. He rubbed his belly and said “It’s just you and me, little guy.” After some time Justin lost track of time. He had been thinking about the future and the past for quite some time now. He got lost in his thoughts when there was a knock on the door. ”Hey sunshine, can I come in.” grandma asked. Justin nodded and seated himself comfortably so he could face his granny when she talked. ”Justin, I don’t know much about what’s going on. I just want to tell you that I am here for you. In whatever condition you’re in, what you decide to do… You know that when you’ll have this baby I’ll be happy to help take care of it with you. I can’t wait to see that little toddler running around.” She said with a laugh. ”Thanks grandma. It really means a lot to me.” Justin told her while grabbing her hand and rubbing it. ”Fine, that’s settled. Now get your bags and unpack. We have some decorating to do up in here. And don’t forget the baby’s room.” She winked at him before dragging him out of the house to do some shopping. ”By the way sunshine, that weeping-willow over there is yours.”