Midnight Whispers
QAF Brian and Justin Fanfiction
Reviews For Entwined
Reviewer: nickknack (Signed) · Date: March 10, 2017 03:16 AM · On: Epilogue

Love the story and love the dynamics of the characters in this universe.  I would happily revisit for any sequels you may have planned. Adding to favorites immediately :)



Author's Response:

Hi Nicky! 

I'm very glad you enjoyed this story! I had a great time writing the dynamics between all those characters in this universe. I wrote a companion story with my beta called 'The date' and taking place between the last chapter and the epilogue of Entwined if you want to read it. It's mainly a humurous story though.

Thank you for your comment. I always love to know readers are still discovering this one :)

* Hugs from France to New Zealand! (I think you're from New Zealand, right? If not, I'm sorry!!) *

 

Reviewer: Flo3241 (Signed) · Date: March 01, 2017 12:50 PM · On: Epilogue

This was a brilliant read. LOVED IT! 



Author's Response:

Thank you Florentina! I'm so glad you enjoyed this story :) Thank you sincerely for taking the time to comment, too. I appreciate that so much.

* Hugs from France *

Reviewer: bktush (Anonymous) · Date: February 21, 2017 05:55 AM · On: Epilogue

Beautiful story! Well Done



Author's Response:

THANK YOU for all the reviews! You're wonderful :) 

Reviewer: bktush (Anonymous) · Date: February 21, 2017 05:27 AM · On: Chapter 35 - All over again

I have truly enjoyed your story--going back and forth with the past and present was a challange for me but it finally worked out. This is the first story I've read that let you feel joy about Jack and Brian as father and son. I so wanted a memory for Brian of a time his dad loved him and for Brian to be proud him, even with his restrictions.



Author's Response:

Aw, thank you so much :) I'm very glad you enjoyed this story and Brian and Jack's relationship!

Reviewer: bktush (Anonymous) · Date: February 21, 2017 03:49 AM · On: Chapter 34 - In his smile

Even Brian knew Justin walking away years before was what made Brian finally become the man he knew he could be. He was a son, and a father, and with the luck of fate maybe soon  a lover and partner.



Author's Response:

Accepting to be a father has changed everything for Brian :)

Reviewer: bktush (Anonymous) · Date: February 21, 2017 03:21 AM · On: Chapter 33 - Hug me, hold me

I realize Jack is damaged but he is written as such a sweet guy--frim insisting burgers and fries for everyone--his little happy dance--to the painting he did and gave to his much loved son, the cherry on top, Brian hugged his dad on his own. Brian has grown up to be a loving partner,son, and father. Making the decision on his own to go see Jesse will heal Brian and Jesse, he is truly the man Justin always wanted him to be



Author's Response:

Brian has become the man he was meant to be, thanks to Justin. Now, it's time they have their happy ending :)

Reviewer: bktush (Anonymous) · Date: February 20, 2017 08:31 PM · On: Chapter 32 - A new life

He has so many demons , maybe Debbie could reach him. Somehow a son made him think, how could he have a son growing up as unloved as he was--it's time to grow up.



Author's Response:

It's time indeed :)

Reviewer: cookiebun (Signed) · Date: February 20, 2017 02:29 PM · On: Epilogue

This was an absolutely wonderful story.  I will be honest, I wasn't sure I was going to enjoy the back and forth between the past and the present, but you did it so well, and it really worked.

I'm so glad you finished this so I was able to enjoy it so much!  :) 



Author's Response:

Hi Kathy!

I'm so happy you enjoyed this story so much. I assure you after the first chapters, I thought I was crazy to divide the story between the past and the present and I will probably never do it again LOL But I'm glad it worked for you!

Thank you sincerely for your feedback, I deeply appreciate it.

* hugs from France *

Reviewer: bktush (Anonymous) · Date: February 20, 2017 11:05 AM · On: Chapter 31 - Give it time

 Wow that had to be a huge surprise to see someone after eight years and he's walking. To bad Brian didn't ask him to sit causing Jesse considerable pain. I figure after the shock wears off they will re-build their friendship.I'm sure Brian still feels a lot of guilt that he got hurt.



Author's Response:

Yes, talk about a shock. Brian will need time to process that Jesse is back. And of course, a part of him will always feel guilty, even though he now understands it wasn't his fault.

Reviewer: bktush (Anonymous) · Date: February 20, 2017 10:01 AM · On: Chapter 30 - Broken

  Brian is so scared and so damaged, I'm surprised he hadn't had a heart attack the stress along with lack of sleep, the ,etc. are all stressors add the guilt he has on so many levels, the man is a mess  



Author's Response:

He is. It's painful, really and it was painful to write. But he will learn from that time. He will learn from his mistakes and accepts he is just a man. He will learn to be happy, even if it will take time...

Reviewer: bktush (Anonymous) · Date: February 20, 2017 09:31 AM · On: Chapter 29 - Jesse’s story

 I love that Jesse has a good life, walking,still loved by his partner, and a daughter who has made his life so much richer, and a job that lets him help people pick up their life and learn new skills and to feel alive again.This was a wonderful uplifting chapter.



Author's Response:

Aw, thank you! I'm so glad you enjoyed Jesse's story :) Also, again, thank you for all the reviews, it's wonderful of you to take all this time to leave your thoughts. I couldn't thank you enough 

*Hugs from France!*

Reviewer: bktush (Anonymous) · Date: February 20, 2017 08:23 AM · On: Chapter 28 - Drifting to the breaking point

Brian can't help himself in his guilt over jesse, he has come self-destructive he's slowly becoming his own worst enemy.



Author's Response:

You're absolutely right :)

Reviewer: bktush (Anonymous) · Date: February 20, 2017 08:01 AM · On: Chapter 27 - Loving life

A wonderful chapter Jack and Gus love each other and the best part Jack and Brian have come to love each other-even with the difficulties Brian and Jack have found a way to love and enjoy each other for the first time in many years Brian has a "Dad". I loved this chapter, how Brian's"family" accepts Jack it was really beautiful!



Author's Response:

The present part of the story is showing how much they had grown up, especially Brian. And now that they had all accept and embrace their feelings, I have a feeling they will be okay. More than okay ;) I'm so glad you liked this chapter!

Reviewer: bktush (Anonymous) · Date: February 20, 2017 07:13 AM · On: Chapter 26 - This is just goodbye

 Brians a mess, Jesse is a mess, Justin is heatbroken and a mess-chapter had no hope for anyone, when does it get better ?



Author's Response:

It will, I promise. But we're not here yet.

Reviewer: bktush (Anonymous) · Date: February 20, 2017 06:17 AM · On: Chapter 25 - New beginnings

Brian seems sincere when talking with Justin and excepts his leaving as he didn't really give Justin much choice. I don't think Brian would have grown up and felt the way he does about Gus or Jack unless Justin left him and forced the issue.



Author's Response:

You're absolutely right. As painful as it was, Justin leaving Brian had allowed the man to deal with his shit and grow up. As a result, he gained a father and a son.

Reviewer: bktush (Anonymous) · Date: February 20, 2017 05:42 AM · On: Chapter 24: Turning Point - Part Three

Jesse wasn't wrong, but Brian was beat down again. Now I guess the booze starts up again and Brian will try anything to dull the pain how much pain can he take before he snaps.



Author's Response:

I guess you're right. Brian doesn't deal well with pain. And at the moment, he hates himself so much he won't even see how much pain he will cause to the persons he loves.

Reviewer: bktush (Anonymous) · Date: February 20, 2017 04:37 AM · On: Chapter 24: Turning Point - Part Two

 My God , Spencer is a sicko and a prick, how does Justin find these people? Looks like Jessee is hurt, another burden of guilt for Brian this will devastate Brian. The sex was great between Brian and Justin, it's just for every beautiful moment they share there's a horrific moment yet to come,great chapter



Author's Response:

Yes. It seems unfair for Brian and Justin to have to deal with that when Brian had finally decided to lower his walls to save his relationship with Justin. Unfortunately, it will begins a downfall spiral for them, although, in the end, they will find peace. But in the meantime, it will be hell.

Reviewer: bktush (Anonymous) · Date: February 19, 2017 06:10 PM · On: Chapter 24: Turning Point - Part One

Spencer is creep and I hope Justin finds out the truth



Author's Response:

He is! The worst kind of creep.

Reviewer: bktush (Anonymous) · Date: February 19, 2017 05:10 PM · On: Chapter 23 - That night

  The pain that Brian has to live with is horrific.The burden of his guilt (in his mind) he just can't get past it.It makes you wonder how people manage to pick up their lives and continue on.



Author's Response:

I agree. The pain Brian experienced helps to understand why he is so fucked up in this story. And no, for now, he hadn't dealt with it at all. I agree with you that dealing with that kind of drama seems nearly impossible. It takes a lot of courage.

Reviewer: bktush (Anonymous) · Date: February 19, 2017 03:54 PM · On: Chapter 22 - Seeds of Doubt

Well, Spencer showed his true colors! what an asshole, Brian finally said he was sorry but was it to little to late?



Author's Response:

Maybe not too late... this time. But Spencer isn't done, unfortunately.

Reviewer: bktush (Anonymous) · Date: February 19, 2017 08:47 AM · On: Chapter 21 - Searching for Jack

So glad Justin went with Brian-he has a way of calming Brian, with the two of them to split up helped find Jack before nightfall. Justin helped keep Jack calm and telling him Brian just wanted to find him, poor Jack thought Justin was an angel even when being brain damaged Jack had a point.



Author's Response:

Justin is exactly what Brian needed to deal with Jack's disappearance :)

Reviewer: bktush (Anonymous) · Date: February 19, 2017 08:01 AM · On: Chapter 20 - Hints of Jealousy

 Spencer sure didn't help the situation, in fact he added to it, what's his problem?



Author's Response:

Spencer has a problem, you're totally right :)

Reviewer: bktush (Anonymous) · Date: February 19, 2017 07:32 AM · On: Chapter 19 - Moving On

 Brian and Gus love their soccer and Gus was delighted when scored a goal against Justin, wonder what happen to Jack? Brian will make heards roll is an understatement.



Author's Response:

Brian and Gus have a very special relationship :) Having a child has changed Brian for the better

Reviewer: bktush (Anonymous) · Date: February 19, 2017 06:59 AM · On: Chapter 18 - Tomorrow awaits

more insight on their earlier life. Want to know what went wrong so they can get together  



Author's Response:

You will :) Thank you for all the reviews!!!

Reviewer: bktush (Anonymous) · Date: February 19, 2017 06:36 AM · On: Chapter 17 - New promises

I like this story and appreciate that even if Jack is brain damaged he and Brian can have some type of relationship and with Gus.Brian still seems frighten of Justin, that Brian can just maybe hook-up again and he needs someone special like Justin who can love him



Author's Response:

Brian has come a long way since the time when he refused to even speak to Jack. You will understand why as you read, and more precisally, who has given him the strength to do so. And yes, Brian is still scared, but he has grown up a lot since his teens, so he will face his fears. Lucky us ;)

Reviewer: bktush (Anonymous) · Date: February 19, 2017 05:47 AM · On: Chapter 16 - Healed

It must be tough for Brian--abused by his father, then losing his mom and sister only to have Jack in the state he's in so diffrent than the man Jack is now! No wonder Brian has a character of not loving anyone he really distrusts people no one loves the man (in his eyes) he's afraid to love.



Author's Response:

Brian in the past has yet to come with closure regarding what happened to his family. This trauma is going to dictate his life for a long time, and trigger his insecurities until he will stop running away from his demons. It will take him a long time, though.

Reviewer: bktush (Anonymous) · Date: February 19, 2017 04:15 AM · On: Chapter 15 - Reunions and surprises

I feel really sorry for Justin, everyone questions his decisions. Tyler I can understand, but Daphene, Emmett, Debbie, mikey, and Jessee, I dont understand why it's their business. Brian and Justin's mom make sense to me, but to have every meeting every word examed puts Justin on the offensive. It would drive me crazy to have people who feel they know whats best for me. He is not a child.



Author's Response:

All Justin's friends are just trying to help him understand why he is suddenly changing his mind. They don't necessarily judge him, but considering he had been adamant for years not to speak about Brian while trying to convince himself that Tyler was the good guy, it's surprising to them that he changes his mind so fast. Now, we all know why he does, and I'm pretty sure his friends will support him, no matter what

Reviewer: bktush (Anonymous) · Date: February 19, 2017 02:41 AM · On: Chapter 14 - After the night

Calling Brian a coward certainly got his attention but also got Brian to admit Justin was  different which what Justin wanted. Great chapter



Author's Response:

Brian is still resisting, but not for long :)

Reviewer: bktush (Anonymous) · Date: February 17, 2017 07:25 PM · On: Chapter 13 - Decision

I can see Tyler's point, we know why Justin left Brian, yet it doesn't explain why after eight years he suddenly came home. I think it was love, some would call it fate ,Their love still burns for both them they just seem to get out of their own way.



Author's Response:

I think Justin wanted to come back, but genuinely didn't realize it until he saw Brian again. One thing is sure, Tyler didn't stand a chance... Brian and Justin's love story is one of those grand romance when nothing compared in that fic, even though they broke up. I can't say it enough, the angst will be hard to take at times, but their love is magnificent.

Reviewer: bktush (Anonymous) · Date: February 17, 2017 02:41 PM · On: Chapter 12 - Alive

 Hot chapter,Finally some of their secrets are being talked about , Justin is strong but the bashing made feel he was weak and Brian realizes that he was a victim of a hate crime he was to be blamed for some homophob's gutless attack



Author's Response:

They're making progress! Justin is a strong young man, but Brian is bringing back his will to live his life to the fullest. And Brian is falling for Justin :D

Reviewer: bktush (Anonymous) · Date: February 17, 2017 01:40 PM · On: Chapter 11 - Who's left behind

mikey being a friend to Justin will take a adjustment on my part. In this chapter the best scenes were between Brian,Gus, and Jack.Brian doesn'tr know how to explain things to Jack No one can resist darling Gus--not his daddy or his grandpa. I hope Jack never learns of treatment of Brian in his youth I think it would break a man that is already broken--it's sad Jack wanted to hug his son and Brian couldn't accept it, but they both have no trouble with Gus.



Author's Response:

Brian still needs to come to terms with his feelings regarding his father. I'm glad you're enjoying Jack's character, though, since he was such a bad father in the show. And for course, both Brian and Jack are totally enamorated with Gus! I promise Brian and Jack's journey will be fulfilling, even if not always easy.

As for Michael, he is a good guy in this story.  Brian will have some hard times to deal with, and he needs a friend.

Reviewer: bktush (Anonymous) · Date: February 17, 2017 10:49 AM · On: Chapter 10 - Truce

 Justin isn't the only one wondering about Brian's past. After talking to Jesse maybe Justin will talk with Brian in the privacy of their apartment.  



Author's Response:

I have a feeling things are going to heat up very soon :D

Thank you again for all the comments! I hope you will keep enjoying this one :)

Reviewer: bktush (Anonymous) · Date: February 17, 2017 10:03 AM · On: Chapter 9 - Revelations

Men often accuse women of talking to much, but these two men are fucked because they rarely talk at all. Brian is in a tough place will a ailing father, but running from Justin isn't going to make things better and Justin has his own secrets, both have demons but they are running away instead of fighting for each other.



Author's Response:

It's hard to fight after so many years, but I have a feeling they will not give up ;) Have I said that Justin was very persistent in this AU? 

Reviewer: bktush (Anonymous) · Date: February 17, 2017 09:23 AM · On: Chapter 8 - Connection

 Finally, the Brian we love! caring and kind when he tries to help Justin with his panic attack both of them hurting for different reasons and neither can seem to talk about it



Author's Response:

Yes! And this is just the beginning :)

Reviewer: bktush (Anonymous) · Date: February 17, 2017 08:53 AM · On: Chapter 7 - Caring

A great chapter, I wish we knew what is wrong with Jack. Brian is hurting the last thing he needs is mikey or Deb,he needs the comfort of Justin even if he doesn't know it



Author's Response:

We will know, I promise :) Michael and Debbie are a great support in that fic (Michael is not in love with Brian in this story). I have a feeling you don't like them much, so maybe try to imagine them as being someone else LOL And I agree that Justin can help Brian to deal with all this. But will Brian will let him?

Reviewer: bktush (Anonymous) · Date: February 17, 2017 08:24 AM · On: Chapter 6 - Breathe

Don't really understand Brian acting like a prick to Justin, the boy was ill and Em wanted to care for him, at least Justin found his voice and took Brian down a peg or two



Author's Response:

Try to think Brian pre season 1, and you have asshole Brian at his best. He is a prick to Justin, mainly because he can but I have a feeling it's his way to hide (and refuse to acknowledge) his attraction to Justin. Now, Justin might be unsure of himself, but he can stand for himself. Lucky us ;)

Reviewer: bktush (Anonymous) · Date: February 17, 2017 07:17 AM · On: Chapter 5 - Hesitation

Nice chapter, Brian always had so many demons and shortcomings in his own mind, In some ways Brian is more damaged that Justin. It's no secret they still love each other but have a hard time communicating



Author's Response:

I must warn you Brian is very fucked up in this story, especially in the past. in the present, he needs to process that Justin has come back. And communicating? What's that? LOL 

Reviewer: bktush (Anonymous) · Date: February 17, 2017 05:59 AM · On: Chapter 3 - Aftermath

I was really surpise by Jack, we never got to see Jack much on the series. Finding Brian helping the an eat they had up and down relationship to say the least. Can't wait to see where this goes. great chapters



Author's Response:

Jack is very different in this AU. I hope you enjoy their relationship!!!

Reviewer: bktush (Anonymous) · Date: February 17, 2017 05:28 AM · On: Chapter 2 - A New beginning

I never would have thought of Brian and Em being roomates, I would have thought more than five hours together Brian would have hung Em in the closet-- you know Bri's personality and living with someone so totally opposite in most ways usually spells danger watch for the studs moods! 



Author's Response:

The beginning of the story is inspired from a book and Emmett and Brian were the closest to the roommates in that book. Fortunately, the place is huge and Brian is barely there LOL.

Reviewer: bktush (Anonymous) · Date: February 17, 2017 04:44 AM · On: Chapter 1 - Unexpected Reunion

I Just saw your new story "The Date" and waned to refresh my mind of this story first, of course and story with Gus is always special to me, looking forward to the rest of this story, your have the best ingredients-Brian, Justin, and Gus



Author's Response:

Hi!

First of all, thank you for all the comments! I will answer then now :) The Date is very different from Enwtined, since it's mainly humor and romance while Entwined is as ansgty as it can get. I hope you will like it nonetheless. I promise some very cute moments, if you can stand the angst. Thank you again :)

Reviewer: WhiteSnowFox (Signed) · Date: January 31, 2017 01:24 AM · On: Epilogue

This was amazing!!  

From beginning to end this was entrancing and addicting.  You have such a way with words and an ability to weave stories so they're interesting and enthralling!  I wish I could be like that!!

I can't wait to read what you write next.  Thank you!  :)



Author's Response:

Hi Kristine! 

I just realized I hadn't answered your comment, I'm so sorry! And I'm so honored you feel that way about this story, because you know I really love your writing too :) You ARE very talented, and I'm anxiously waiting for more of your work!!!

Thank you and I hope to talk to you soon :) 

 

Reviewer: Marie-France TEJEDOR (Anonymous) · Date: January 22, 2017 10:09 PM · On: Epilogue

Ah vraiment très belle histoire! J'ai adoré !Brian et ses insécurités Justin qui s'accroche mais c'est très difficile je les retrouve bien là et puis à la fin tout s'arrange. Le mélange du flashback et du présent est vraiment original puisqu'on se demande tout le temps ce qui a pu arriver parce que forcément entre Brian et Justin ce n'est jamais simple ni linéaire ! Merci Alois vraiment très belle histoire ! Vivement la prochaine histoire qui a commencé j'ai vue....Je la lirai avec plaisir quand elle sera compète.



Author's Response:

Bonjour Marie-France!

Et que dire, sinon merci pout ton message, qui me fait chaud au coeur! J'ai vraiment aimé placer Brian et Justin dans cette situation, et écrire leur histoire, douloureuse parfois, mais aussi tellement forte. Je suis ravie que cela t'ait plu!!!!

La nouvelle histoire que j'écris avec addict_writter est très différente, plus légère - en tout cas pour moi! J'espère qu'elle te plaira :)

Merci encore Marie-France!

♥Amitiés de Bretagne♥

Reviewer: aglaja5 (Signed) · Date: January 22, 2017 09:28 AM · On: Epilogue

Hi my friend! First, I’m soooo sorry I’ve not reviewed earlier. To be honest I don’t know why I’ve waited so long. But here it is.

I’ve said it before, I really love your writing style. You created such a loveable mood at the wedding during the speech of Brian. And when he starts to speak about Justin… :-) You were right, ridiculously romantic! No, to be honest, I think you let them stay in character this way. I think it would have been too much if there would have been a proposal or something else. But the way you let Brian act and speak just suits him. And I feel very happy for them after all the things they’ve gone through. And although Justin might not expected them I really felt happy for him hearing those three words from Brian at least. They are so cute and beautiful together!

So, what should I say what I haven’t said before… THANKS for this brilliant, beautiful, exciting and amazing story! There was everything: tension, pain, heartbreaking-moments, sorrow, joy, friendship, family, humor, hot scenes, cute and beautiful moments, trust and love! Don’t stop writing! I’ve seen you posted another story yesterday. So, I’m curious…. And I really hope there will be this double-date some day!

So, a big big double-hug and all the best for you! Warmest regards, a.



Author's Response:

Hey! 

Aww, I think I'm blushing right now. What can I say to thank you properly? I'm so, SO thrilled you enjoyed this story so much. Thank you also for all the comments. It's very kind and amazing of you to have taken the time to review each chapter with so much details. So, really, THANK YOU :)

And yes! I'm publishing a new story which will be very different from that one, and which is a collaboration with another author. I hope you enjoy it, but I must warn you it's completely different from Entwined. Not as serious and angsty.

The double date is definitely going to be written with my beta soon, too. I'm eager to place Brian in such a situation LOL.

A gigantic hug to you!!!!!!! THANK YOU THANK YOU THANK YOU ♥♥♥

Warmest regards :)

~ Alois ~ 

Reviewer: cuivresdesaxe (Signed) · Date: January 04, 2017 09:01 PM · On: Epilogue

Et voilà la fin d'un bien joli voyage. J'ai vraiment beaucoup aimé la division de l'histoire entre le présent et le passé, les deux qui se complétaient et s'expliquaient l'un l'autre. J'ai lu quelque part que les producteurs de QAF disaient que la série pouvait se résumer à comment des enfants devenaient des hommes, cela s'applique bien à ton histoire je trouve, où l'évolution de Brian, qui se fait dans la douleur pour lui et son entourage, l'amène enfin à la sérénité. Enfin, j'ai beaucoup aimé qu'il commence par sauver Justin avant de se perdre et d'être à son tour sauvé par Justin. Merci pour cette belle histoire.

Béa



Author's Response:

Je suis heureuse que cela t'ait plu! L'évolution des personnages est assez intéressant, et j'ai vraiment aimé écrire l'évolution de Brian Kinney et de son entourage, ainsi que les relations avec Justin et Jack principalement. Mais aussi les amitiés.

Merci pour ton soutien Béa. J'espère aussi que tu partageras une nouvelle histoire avec nous :)

Reviewer: Tasha Terrilyn Tania Roberts (Anonymous) · Date: January 02, 2017 05:07 AM · On: Epilogue

Beautiful ending I'm a bit sad that your fic finished can't wait what you come up with next



Author's Response:

Thank you Tasha for letting me know you have enjoyed this story. It makes me very happy!

I will post a new story with another author in the next few weeks, which will be very different, but I hope you will enjoy it. Happy New Year to you and your family ♥

Reviewer: aglaja5 (Signed) · Date: December 30, 2016 09:09 PM · On: Chapter 35 - All over again

Hi my friend! It's been a while, i'm so sorry... First, thanks for asking, me and my family are okay. Friends of my parents had been at the christmas market this evening, but they are also okay. I think religious fanaticism is one of the worst. There is so much hate in this world and it's such a waste of time. Are you from Paris? I hope you've had a peaceful christmas time and I wish you a good start to the new year tomorrow. Now, this chapter. It's great how things has developed. I feel very happy for Brian and Jesse and of course for Brian and Justin. The scene with Brian and Gus is so cute and their talk... And you are right, I would love to see this "double-date" :-) So, there is only one chapter left. To be honest, I have kind of occupied myself with other stories these last days because I don't want your story to end. Hm, I think there's something weong with me... :-) A big big hug and and bye for now! a.  



Author's Response:

Sorry it took me a while to respond to you. First of all, Happy new year! I'm so glad you and your family and friends are okay. I'm not from Paris but my sister and friends live here (I visit regularly), and I have family at Nice, too. So, I'm sadly familiar with the atrocity of the recent attacks. This is insane.

Aww, I'm so glad you're postponing to read this because you don't want this to end. But you have just the epilogue left! I hope you will enjoy it. 

Thank you again, SO MUCH, for your amazing support with this story. You make it writing it so much more valuable, because I know some readers like you really enjoy it and for me, that's the main reason why I'm not giving up on this fandom. So, really, thank you.

A big hug!

Reviewer: Cristina (Signed) · Date: December 29, 2016 01:37 PM · On: Epilogue

Spectacular! This is what i have to say about this story. I really enjoyed. I cried, smiled, laughed and fall in love for this characters, all over again.

Thank you. a86;a039;

The best wishes for this new year 2017.

~ Hugs ~ Cristina ~



Author's Response:

Aw, thank you so much for your wonderful review! I'm delighted you enjoyed it so much :) 

Happy New Year to you and your family :)

* a big hug from France *

 

Reviewer: aglaja5 (Signed) · Date: December 23, 2016 06:29 PM · On: Chapter 34 - In his smile

Hi my friend! Again, you’ve done such an amazing job in describing Brian and how he behaves first with Mel… thanking her and apologizing. Wow! And later, at the hospital with Gus and finally being able to meet his father. Makes me happy to see that he is finally able to fight against his fears, his insecurity, his demons and starts to defeat them. Great! But there is still so much sadness and it’s nearly breaking my heart how he thinks about Justin in those important moments of his life. For example, when he thinks about the name Gus and this immediately reminds him of Justin's Teddy or in those moments when he just wishes that Justin would be there with him. “And as a smile appeared on his own lips too, he swore that for a second, Justin was standing in the corner of the room and smiling at him” – This is so fucking beautiful but also incredibly sad. I also love how you combine the past with the present here and thereby this chapter with your first. Nice that we could now also experience the first reunion of the two from Brian's point of view and his thoughts. Brilliant! Big big hug! a.



Author's Response:

I felt like Brian needed to apologize to Mel. I always find their dynamic interesting truthfully. And I loved writing about Gus's birth. Yes, it's bittersweet, but the love Brian will feel for his child will save him in the end. Of course, Brian would have wanted to share all this with Justin, because he thinks that without him, he would not have changed his mind and therefore, Gus would have never been born. It's a good thing they met again years later ;) Again, so glad you're enjoying this so much! You have almost finished now :) I will miss your reviews, they're fantastic!! A big hug and Merry Christmas to you and your family!!!

Reviewer: aglaja5 (Signed) · Date: December 23, 2016 04:02 PM · On: Chapter 33 - Hug me, hold me

This is such a beautiful and hot scene when they make love (this is not just fucking :-) ) – thanks for this. After the two and also we readers had to suffer so much pain it’s so good to see them happily together. And I really like Brian’s thoughts regarding other men. I’m very glad that Justin for once is all he wants and that he doesn’t has to prove himself so much through fucking so many other men. A very positive chapter. They are all just so content. Another beautiful scene with Justin and the “three Kinney men” – I really like them together. And finally Brian’s made peace with Jesse. It’s so cute and beautiful that he wants Justin by his side. Thanks for another brilliant chapter! Warmest regards and a big hug! a.



Author's Response:

Hot scenes are not my confort zone, but I know readers like them, lol. And they're pretty hot together ;) Brian is coming to terms with everything now, and embracing his life. He is happy. He has accepted that Justin is back for good, and that he never wants to lose him again. He is opening more and more to his dad. He wants Jesse back, and had decided that letting him in again was worth it. He is at peace, for the first time of his life, completely. 

Reviewer: aglaja5 (Signed) · Date: December 22, 2016 05:52 PM · On: Chapter 32 - A new life

Hi my friend! Oh, it’s still so sad. I was a little surprised because I hadn’t expect Brian to act this way the next morning. Thinking about his behavior since Jesse’s stabbing and more important realizing that this and the car-accident of his family wasn’t his fault but also realizing how much he had hurt Justin. I think this is a first step in defeating his demons. And he wants to apologize to Justin! And then Justin’s gone! Terrible heartbreaking! I wonder what would / could have been if Justin had stayed… Would his love had been enough after all this time? But it’s too late. And Brian falls apart once again, blaming it on Lindsay and going back to his pain management. It’s good that he finally listens to Debbie. I’m very curious about the birth of Gus! Big big hug!



Author's Response:

This chapter is still sad, you're right. Brian going to see his dad after his fight with Justin is Brianesque, if I can say that. He is struggling with the idea of becoming a father (even though he doesn't want to, deep down he knows it's not that simple) and he knows his own father is the man who is holding him back and making him acting like a cunt. Well, he slowly but surely realizes that HE is the one who can do something about it, and deal with his shit, instead of blaming everyone else. Brian is a smart man. When he blames others, he is always aware that it's bullshit. So, considering he had just let his fears win by screaming awful things at Justin, he is now trying to analyse everything and do the right thing. He just doesn't know that's it's too late to save his relationship with Justin. I doubt Justin staying would have been good for either of them. Brian needed to be alone to grow up. It's painful, but necessary. It will take him months, but he will get there eventually.

As always, thank you so much for all the comments! I also wanted to say how sorry I was for what happened in Berlin. I hope you and your family are alright. Big Hug! ♥♥

Reviewer: aglaja5 (Signed) · Date: December 21, 2016 08:09 PM · On: Chapter 31 - Give it time

Hi again! Why have you been unsatisfied with the chapter “Broken”? I think it’s perfect. The emotions are so palpable. So, now Jesse and Brian meet again! And as always, you are amazing. How you express their feelings. Brian’s anger as he learns that Jesse has been able to walk again for several years. Haven’t expect him to be so angry, but somehow it’s understandable. Jesse should have talked to Brian earlier, but again, we all make mistakes. Just Brian should know that and although he doesn’t do regrets and apologizes he has asked Justin for forgiveness -  and received it. But okay, as you said “Give it time”.

The scene between Brian and Justin is beautiful. “Your” Justin is incredibly, amazing. He loves Brian just as he is, always feeling what he needs and giving it to him. He knows when to keep silent and just be there – and thereby again Brian opens up. And again, it’s also good to see that Brian’s really grown up, not being angry or shutting himself off. They are just so beautiful together. Big hug and a thank you! Hm, I think I don’t want this story to end….



Author's Response:

I have no idea why I was unsatisfied with it. Maybe because it was an important chapter,  that I wanted to have it right and that of course, when you're writing it, it's hard to take a step back and to analyse it with a more critic eye. But now that I have reread it, I like it :)

Brian is surprised in this chapter. He never imagined Jesse coming to see him in his office. And he wasn't prepared. That's why he is reacting like that. He is not really angry, more perturbed and well, he is trying to deal with his feelings and have no clue what they are. But I have a feeling he just needs time to process it lol I mean, I'm not sure how I would have reacted in his case, but I know I would not have welcomed the person with open eyes at first sight. Time is essential here.

As for Justin, I said it before, he is an amazing character in this story. And I really love him with Brian in this chapter. They are beautiful together, I couldn't agree more.

As always, A huge hug my friend! And I'm thrilled you don't want this to end LOL

Reviewer: Toto_too514 (Anonymous) · Date: December 21, 2016 02:41 AM · On: Epilogue

In tears right now... not only from Brian's beautiful speech, but because I am already missing this story. Thank you so much for this beautiful story which will now always be listed as one of my all time favorites.

And yes, I DO think the story of Brian and Justin's double date with Gus and Lily needs to be told. 

Merry Christmas!



Author's Response:

Aww, you have no idea how precious your reviews have been during all this ride. I was always looking forward to what you were thinking. And knowing it will be one of your favorite truly warms my heart. I'm so happy!!!

I will work on the double date, because really, Brian Kinney on a date with his son? How could I resist? lolol It will be a collaboration work with my beta. We hope to post in a couple of months of so.

THANK YOU sincerely for all the support you've given me. I can't express how deeply I had appreciated it. Merry Christmas to you and your family :)

Reviewer: Toto_too514 (Anonymous) · Date: December 21, 2016 02:26 AM · On: Chapter 35 - All over again

This was wonderful! I am so glad that I waited to read this when I actually had the time to enjoy it. The meeting with Jesse went well, there's so much hope that they will be able to rebuild their friendship. Reading about Jack and his reactions to every little thing never fails to make me smile. The easy-going banter between Brian and Justin is so comforting... they will be fine. More than fine!

Off to read the epilogue...



Author's Response:

** smiling ** I'm so glad you have enjoyed this so much. I had a great time writing this chapter, especially the easy-going banter going on between the characters. And yes, they will be more than fine!!!

Reviewer: Alois (Signed) · Date: December 19, 2016 08:58 PM · On: Chapter 1 - Unexpected Reunion

To sfscarlet, mcm, Chris, and a reviewer who left me a comment on the epilogue. Unfortunately, the reviews were lost but I wanted to thank you sincerely for letting me know that you have read and appreciated this story!

Also, to the reviewer who have commented on chapter 2, thank you very much!

♥♥♥ A huge hug to all of you and I hope you have a wonderful Holiday ♥♥♥

Reviewer: aglaja5 (Signed) · Date: December 19, 2016 08:14 PM · On: Chapter 30 - Broken

No, no, no – this so sad, tragic, heartbreaking and real intense. I really admire how you describe Brian and his inner turmoil, his fight against his demons, losing it more and more. He loves Justin so deeply but doesn’t feel worth being loved, thinks that Justin would deserve better. One can feel his despair, so afraid of losing Justin but seeing no other way as to let him go by pushing him away. I suffer for them both. For Brian because of his hopelessness and self-destruction. And for Justin because he has to endure so much, there is just no end, it’s just getting worse and worse until everything shatters. And I have to repeat your words. Justin really is a saint. Thinking what would be best for all the others mainly for Brian, recognizing how wrong an abortion would be, trying again and again to reach Brian and getting more and more hurt by the person he loves so much and so selflessly. And a big big compliment to you. One can feel their emotions, their fear, the little hope Justin has for a few moments, the despair, the anger, the rage and finally after Brian’s left Justin’s pain and emptiness. “Justin’s love wasn’t enough” – so sad! Warmest regards, a.



Author's Response:

What can I say that you hadn't already said? This chapter was so hard to write and even when I pusblished it, I was unsatisfied with it. But this sentence 'Jutsin's love wasn't enough' resumes very well their relationship up to that point. Brian needs to find himself alone, to realize he needs to forgive himself, and to move on. He is still a 18 years old teenager stuck on the scene of the car crash for now. However, Justin might be gone, but Brian will eventually listen to him, even if t's too late for them at that time. The good news is, the major angst is over my friend!! Warmest regards back at you and thank you again for all your wonderful reviews. Warms my heart :)

Reviewer: aglaja5 (Signed) · Date: December 19, 2016 05:41 PM · On: Chapter 29 - Jesse’s story

Hi my friend! Interesting chapter. I like Jesse and also Aaron. Don’t know why, he reminds me a little bit of the Brian of the show. So Jesse is able to walk again – that’s great! And it’s also good to see that he’s finally found his way back to life and happiness. So, I think he will make his peace with Brian and through this helps Brian to heal completely, to fight his last demon. I’m so curious about their meeting. Big hug! a.



Author's Response:

Aaron is a little like Brian at the beginning, also, he is a more opened version of Brian, if I can say that. He lost Jesse once, and he won't ever again. He is a all or nothing kind of guy and regarding Jesse, well, he is the all kind of guy LOL. Jesse needed time to heal. Now that he has, and has a family, let's hope he will succeed in his quest of repairing his relationship with Brian :) A big hug to you!!!

Reviewer: aglaja5 (Signed) · Date: December 19, 2016 04:07 PM · On: Chapter 28 - Drifting to the breaking point

Hi my friend! What should I say… This is such an intense and sad chapter. But I think they would have split up anyway. And although Brian tries to stop his way of acting, his self-destruction, it seems as if there was already too much broken, as if it was already too late. The pregnancy seems to be the final straw. But the result is Gus and without Gus I don’t think that Brian would have been able to change his life, being able to believe in love or believe in being worth to be loved. So, as tragic and painful as it all is, everything seems to be somehow necessary. And In the present they get their second chance! Very well written. Warmest regards and a big hug! a.



Author's Response:

You're absolutely right. Gus is the reason why Brian will finally be able to move on. So, yes, it's painful but right now, Brian's fears and guilt are leading his life. He is scared out of his mind. He is lost. He feels guilty for so many things. He needs a shrink if you ask me LOL 

Reviewer: Lorma (Signed) · Date: December 18, 2016 11:16 PM · On: Epilogue

I hope you will continue writing Brian and Justin fiction.  You do such a great job.  I find your writing style unique and so enjoyed your alternating between past and present.



Author's Response:

Hi Lorma!

I'm so SO glad you like the alternating between past and present. It was so hard to write like that. I had to make notes and check things all the time and so on, but I'm very happy with the final result. Now, I doubt I will ever try that exercice ever again. I had so many headaches writing that one LOL

I have a couple of collaborations in the work, so you will hear from me again, even if the stories will probably be very different from Entwined.

THANK YOU  for having been such a faithful, supportive reader. Again, you're one of those who have carried me so as not to give up, really.

A huge hug my friend!

Reviewer: LauraB725 (Signed) · Date: December 18, 2016 08:03 PM · On: Epilogue

Hi Alois 😊. I don't remember what I said before my review was lost but I'll do my best with my repost! A beautiful ending to a beautiful story! What else can I say that I haven't already said 😊. Thank you for taking me on this awesome journey. It was both heartbreaking and heartwarming and I enjoyed every moment. I hope that you plan to write QAF again. I will most definitely read it! 😘d84;a039;



Author's Response:

Thank you so much for reposting your review! But most of all, thank you for your support all along. Again, I can't say enough how precious reviewers who have sent me words of support when I was feeling like giving up really are. 

I doubt I will ever engage in a story like this one again (read long and angsty), but I have a couple of collaborations in the work, so this is probably not my last post :)

Thank you again Laura and see you soon! :):):)

Reviewer: aglaja5 (Signed) · Date: December 18, 2016 06:50 PM · On: Chapter 27 - Loving life

And again, a short second review. I have to repeat myself... HOT and Beautiful. Ant it feels so good to see them together, relaxed, happy, content! Hug!!! a.



Author's Response:

Aw, thank you! I remember it being so good to write this chapter, without the usual angst :)

Reviewer: aglaja5 (Signed) · Date: December 18, 2016 06:43 PM · On: Chapter 26 - This is just goodbye

Hi again! I’ve already written a review the first time I’ve read this chapter and there isn’t so much more to say about it. It hurts and I suffer with both Brian, Justin and Jesse. I somehow admire Justin and his strength. You’ve said it before in one of your answers and I agree. He’s a saint! J I don’t know if I could handle such a situation. And when Justin says “I hope you will find what you are looking for…” – It shows his deep true love for Brian and it’s somehow so altruistic. Warmest regards, a.

Reviewer: YumYumPM (Signed) · Date: December 18, 2016 05:19 PM · On: Epilogue

This was a fantastic journey with an encredably happy ending.  Thank you.



Author's Response:

Thank you so much for your incredible support during all this ride, my friend. You're one of the reason why I didn't give up, too. 

Reviewer: Predec2 (Signed) · Date: December 18, 2016 03:59 PM · On: Epilogue

Hi, my friend - I wish I could recall everything I had said in my previous review about your story, but hopefully I can think of most of it. :) First of all, you have such a wonderful writing style that evokes great emotion in your words.  To write scenes from both the present and the past seems difficult to me, too, but you have done it with ease in this story. :)

I am very glad that Jesse and Brian's friendship was capable of being healed, and very happy for Jesse and Aaron's wedding. And Brian's heartfelt declaration toward Justin was so amazing. 

I still think the best part of all in this story is the portrait of Jack you have described, and how his relationship grew and changed over time to where it is now.  His relationships with both his son and his grandson are so precious! And in a bittersweet sort of way, Jack's condition/personality after his accident allowed him a second chance to be the father that Brian had always craved, to the point where Brian can now express his affection for this 'new' Jack; something he could have never done with the pre-accident Jack who was definitely not worth anyone's sympathy. 

I know this has been a difficult journey for you at times, so I would just like to commend you for your perserverence and determination in getting it done.  It would have truly been a shame to have not had the pleasure of reading this story from beginning to end. 

I do hope one day you will be inspired to write again, for you are truly a gifted writer. Thank you once more for being an author on MW.  XOXO  ~Kim

 



Author's Response:

Your review means so much to me. I'm glad I could touch you with my writing, make you feel the characters' emotions. Also, I have to admit that alternating between past and present was way more exhausting that I thought. Maybe that's why I had so much difficulty with this fic. I'm glad that the result flows, though, but I doubt I will ever try that exercice again, or at least, not with such a long story.

There were so many things I wanted to cover with this fic. Friendship. Family. How the birth of a child can change a man. Forgiveness, but most of all, flaws. Humans have flaws. Well except for Justin, who is clearly a saint in that fic LOL

I enjoyed very much writing about Jack. I will maybe revisit this universe just to be able to write about him again. The three Kinneys men here were a bowl of fresh air to write about toward the end.

Thank you for your support all along. I have no doubt when I say that, that I would have given up if not for you. I'm still...exhausted by this fic to be honest. So, your review and congratulations are very percious to me.

As you know, I've started a fic with another author, which I want to finish. So, this is not the last for me. Karynn and I will also write a oneshot with Brian and Gus from this universe. I will probably use your ideas ;)

A big hug, my dear friend :)

Reviewer: aglaja5 (Signed) · Date: December 18, 2016 03:45 PM · On: Chapter 25 - New beginnings

Due to the software problems, my review disappeared. I try to repeat it…. I’ve wrote that I love this chapter. It’s peaceful, relaxed, beautiful. It’s good to see the changes in Brian and the way he is able to handle anger, fear and insecurity now – withdraw, taking a shower, thinking, then listening to Justin. And you let him say it by himself: I’ve finally grown up”! I love the way they slowly approaching, open up and finally Brian explaining his former behavior and apologizing to Justin, asking him for forgiveness. And I love the way Justin’s answering… :-)

I have reached the point I stopped when I was reading your story the first time. So now, I’m getting curious… Also about Jesse and what will happen…

I’ve also wrote, that I’ve seen that you’ve finished this brilliant story! Congratulations! But as happy as it makes me I know for sure that I will miss you and your wonderful and beautiful way to treat our two favorite boys! But okay, first for me there are a few chapters left! Then I asked if you have plans to write another story or is it to early to ask? You are so talented, don’t stop writing! So, second try! Warmest regards and a big big hug! a.



Author's Response:

Hey! So, you finally catched up with where you stopped. It was a good place LOL. This is the beginning of their reunification while the past now deal with the end of their relationship. I had a good time - if I can say that - Showing how different Brian was then and now. The reasons for his evolution will be explained accordingly throughout the future past chapters. 

And yes! I have finally finished this and to be honest, I'm  glad I did. This one was hard to write. I'm now working on another story with another author which will be way more easy to read (it will be mainly a romance/humor kind of thing, with a little angst, but not near as much as here). I plan to add a oneshot to this universe, though, probably in the next two months. It will be a collaboration. 

Okay, I will stop for now :) Going to answer your other reviews ;)

Reviewer: Alois (Signed) · Date: December 18, 2016 10:01 AM · On: Chapter 35 - All over again

Dear readers, 

Due to the last restoration of the site, I was unable to respond to your comments. From memory, the reviews missing are from Laura, Sandy, mcm, Kim, Chris, aglada and two other reviewers, one who reviewed on the epilogue, and one on chapter 2. 

I would be very grateful for you to repost your review, so that I can respond to you. If you don't I will post a response to your review myself by tomorrow (luckily, I have a good memory and honestly, I love reviews!!).

Thank you so much!!!!! A huge hug to all of you :)

Reviewer: aglaja5 (Signed) · Date: December 14, 2016 05:44 PM · On: Chapter 24: Turning Point - Part Three

Hi my friend! So much pain, so much hurt. For both, Jesse and Brian. I think Jesse’s got a point. I can understand his rage and his accusations in his situation mainly because of his damaged legs. Who wouldn’t react this way? But also, I feel so sorry for Brian. How could one live with this guilt. Especially with his past. He’s already blaming himself for the car accident. It’s so tragic! And a big compliment because you’ve written this so lifelike. I think there’s no other way Jesse could have behaved at this moment, in his situation. Again, I’m somehow glad that I know what’s coming, so I’m prepared for the pain and hurt Justin and Brian will have to endure. Again, a big hug and warmest regards, a.

Reviewer: aglaja5 (Signed) · Date: December 13, 2016 03:58 PM · On: Chapter 24: Turning Point - Part Two

Hi my friend! No, no, no… It was such a beautiful beginning. Awesome to see Brian not only apologizes but also being able to fight his demons because of his deep love for Justin. Sooo great! And a real hot but also beautiful scene. Thanks for this! And then everything shatters in just one moment. Their whole world breaks apart. I know what’s coming so what should I say. It’s just so tragic! Again you’ve done an amazing job in combining the past and the present. It’s good to learn about their past to understand Brian’s insecurity about Jesse in the present. Thanks again for this brilliant story. A big hug, a.



Author's Response:

This moment is going to change everything! I'm revealed readers have reacting to it they way they did, as imagining something in my head and actually writing it wasn't all so easy. Past and Present are joining now :) 

Again, thank you for the praise!! Your reviews are wonderful to read :):):)

Reviewer: Predec2 (Signed) · Date: December 11, 2016 11:42 PM · On: Chapter 35 - All over again

Hi, my friend!  I will be so sad to see this magnificent tale end.  You have woven such a masterful story full of ups and downs, growth and change, with such moving emotion.

I am glad that Jesse and Brian are mending their relationship; I think they both needed that.  It would be unrealistic, IMO, to not need some time to fully reinstate their previous bond, but they seem to be well on their way.

And Jack and Gus - what a delight to watch them interact together!  I never in my wildest dreams thought I would ever LIKE Jack Kinney's character, but through tragic but lifechanging events, you have managed to do that.  And that moment when father and son hugged was so poignant.

I will truly miss this story when it is done.  Thank you for taking us along for the ride.  *Hugs*  ~Kim



Author's Response:

You're so kind with me, Kim :) Still not sure I deserve all the compliments, but I'm sincerely touched by your words.

Brian and Jesse need time, but they will get there, because they both want to. And, yes, falling in each other's arms too soon would  have been unrealistic or fake. I'm glad you approve their reactions.

Jack and Gus are a delight to write. Well, Brian and Justin too. Or Brian and Jack. Hey, even Justin and Jack lol. They're all a family now.

Thank you for having supporting me all along the ride, Kim, you know how much it means to me :) And if I don't have any occasion to say it, I hope you have a wonderful Christmas!! * Hugs back to you *

Reviewer: aglaja5 (Signed) · Date: December 11, 2016 07:04 PM · On: Chapter 24: Turning Point - Part One

Hi my friend! An exciting chapter. It’s scary how a single moment can change one’s life. What impressed me is Brian finally acting “normal”, asking Jesse for help. This is somehow unique. He must be real scared! An also impressing – I’ve stated this In another review and I think it’s the same with the Brian of the show: Brian saying he doesn’t believe in love, loves Justin so deeply – it’s so beautiful! Warmest regards and a big hug! a.



Author's Response:

Brian loves Justin, there is absolutely no doubt about it. Asking for help isn't something Brian does easily, but he has no choice here. I'm so glad you're loving this! Thank you again for letting me know :)

Reviewer: aglaja5 (Signed) · Date: December 11, 2016 07:09 AM · On: Chapter 23 - That night

Hi again! I like how you combine the present with the past. “You’ve always used my body to make me talk about my feelings” - one chapter before Brian had just done that. It’s a very interesting chapter mainly because there are lots of detailed information’s about Brian’s past. It’s good to see that Brian and his father are approaching slowly more and more. It will allow Brian to heal better. Then, there is also this positive approach between Brian and Justin until this moment when the phone starts ringing. You are so mean. :-) No no, it’s very exciting and I must admit that I’ve also forgotten about that. So now, I’m curious…. Warmest regards and a big hug! a.



Author's Response:

Hey! This chapter is very reveling about Brian's past and also the point where Brian let go. Eother with Jack or Justin, Brian is ready now to move one with his life :) Of course, I coulcn't let them just be happy LOL.

Thank you as always for your wonderfuls comments !!! * Hugs *

Reviewer: aglaja5 (Signed) · Date: December 09, 2016 05:54 AM · On: Chapter 22 - Seeds of Doubt

Hi my friend! This is such a painful but also beautiful chapter at the end, but first, I would like to answer your answer to my review on chapter 20. I think you’ve misunderstood. „Brian is hurting Justin over and over again“ This only referred to “your” Brian and I understand that he’s only hurting Justin mostly because of his own past and insecurity and because of believing that he isn’t worth being loved. And “your” Justin isn’t hurting Brian. I think he just tries again and again to deal with the shit Brian’s sometimes throwing at him but I think it’s so hard to endure it all. With their relationship in the show it’s different. I agree, they are hurting each other. In my opinion, Justin is too young, too unexperienced and therefore not able to deal with the kind of relationship Brian is offering. And Brian, yeah, it’s difficult, because on one hand his very mature, he knows what he wants, giving Justin so much, trying not to expect something, being honest, but on the other hand, there are moments when he is hurting Justin so much (I remember this picnic-scene where Brian refused and nearly laughed about him). There would be so much more to say about it… It would have been good if they would have talked more to each other, but okay, it was the show and it was sadly meant to be this way.

So, again, you have done a real good job in showing Brian’s inner conflict. Not able to deal with this situation in another way, but also never forgetting about Justin no matter how drunken or in what a state of mind he is. Would have been cute if it isn’t so sad. And the last sentence nearly broke my heart “maybe he was enough” – if he just could have a little more trust in Justin and more important self-confidence! As always, brilliant! Thanks and a big hug!!!!!! a.

 

 

 

 



Author's Response:

I undersatnd what you're saying. Brian in that story is so fucked up, even more than in the show (haha). He also is 'only' four years older than Justin here, which change their dynamic of course. But you got it. Brian's inner conflict is dictating his life, and preventing him from being the man he could be. He will change eventually, but the journey will be a long one, full of heartache and uncertainties. But in the end, it will be worth it, I promise :)

Thank you as always for your detailed reviews. Always a delight to read your thoughts! A big hug my friend :):):)

Reviewer: sfscarlet (Anonymous) · Date: December 09, 2016 03:04 AM · On: Chapter 35 - All over again

excellent chapter-  love the scenes with Gus and Jack-  such playfulness-  happy that Jennifer and Jesse are both moving back and Brian is finally admitting that he is happy



Author's Response:

I'm happy you liked it! Brian is one lucky guy :)

Thank you as always fro your support Sandy! ♥

Reviewer: YumYumPM (Signed) · Date: December 09, 2016 12:12 AM · On: Chapter 35 - All over again

Christmas was great, especially for Jack.  Brian and Justin together.  A double date with Gus seems in the cards. 



Author's Response:

Christmas spirit is certainly in the air. Gus is irresistible, isn't he?

Thank you as always for your amazing support!!!♥♥♥

Reviewer: Lorma (Signed) · Date: December 08, 2016 07:44 PM · On: Chapter 35 - All over again

This was beautiful!  The love demonstrated between Brian and his father was touching.  Brian has changed so much and grown so much emotionally throughout this story.  

I agree.  I think the date deserves coverage as well.  I will miss this story so much!



Author's Response:

Hi my friend!

You're right, Brian has changed a lot, I think I have a tendancy to make him grow up in all my stories. I'm happy that you were touched by his relationship with his father here :):)

LOL, I think I will keep that idea of a double date under my belt, in case I suffer from a huge withdrawal once I will post the epilogue. It shouldn't be too long now.

THANK YOU THANK YOU THANK YOU for all the support you gave me!!! ♥♥♥

Reviewer: LauraB725 (Signed) · Date: December 08, 2016 01:35 AM · On: Chapter 35 - All over again

Hi Alois...beautiful chapter! The Brian and Gus love discussion was hilarious, I imagine I smiled like a fool through the entire scene at least it sure felt like I did lol. I'm saddened that this wonderful journey is nearly over😔. Thank you for writing and sharing such a beautiful story. Definitely one I plan to read again from start to finish. Looking forward to the epilogue!



Author's Response:

I'm thrilled you liked it! I should have put a sweet overload alert haha. Brian and Gus conversation was hilarious to write, too. I feared that the whole chapter was too sweet and I struggled to write Brian in this last one but hey, he's happy, so, he deserves to be sappy LOL

Thank you so much Laura, for your support on this story. It had been a great help anytime I wanted to quit :D

* A big hug 'à la Jack' * :)

Reviewer: aglaja5 (Signed) · Date: December 06, 2016 05:33 AM · On: Chapter 21 - Searching for Jack

Hi again! A beautiful chapter. Although they are looking for Jack, which is somehow exciting, for me this chapter feels so quiet, peaceful, haven’t got better words for it. Brian and Justin just seem to be at peace with each other. Again, it’s just beautiful how you describe what they feel when they just touch or kiss. Great! Beautiful development between them!

And then this amazing moment when Justin realizes that Brian had told his father that Justin was his savor. I loved this moment while first reading it and the second time I love it even more.

From now on, I always have to read two chapters I think – I’ve told you before, I can’t endure to see them in too much pain…. :-) No, I overdraw a little bit…

By the way… I’m very pleased to see answers to my reviews but I don’t expect them. They are for you – also as a thank you for sharing your talent and this brilliant story! So, take your time and I hope your trip was great?! Warmest regards and a big hug! a.



Author's Response:

I love this chapter, too. It's a turning point in this story for both Brian and Justin. For Brian because he is finally embracing fully that he wants Justin back in his life and for Justin because he realizes how much Brian had changed over the years. And I loved writing about Jack here, too. So, I'm always happy to see the readers reacting to it!!

LOL I have tortured them so much in this story! I promise you by the end, though, they will be happier than ever, disgustingly so ;)

As always, thank you so much for your amazing support!! Warmest regards and a big hug right back at you :)

Reviewer: aglaja5 (Signed) · Date: November 29, 2016 05:03 PM · On: Chapter 20 - Hints of Jealousy

Hi again! Hm, now the more painful times are coming. I must admit I’ve forgotten about Spencer so it’s good to re-read it. It’s almost funny to see how jealous Brian acts although he is the one who hurts Justin again and again and who can’t give Justin what he wants or what he would like to have. And it’s soooo sad to see that Brian realizes it but can’t change it – at least at this time. There is nothing more to say about it I think. Again you’ve done a real good job because the pain and hurt and despair is so palpable. I’m glad that the next chapter is in the present where our two boys face better times. Warmest regards and a big hug! a.



Author's Response:

Hey!! So, I'm back home after a wonderful vacation! As promised, I wanted to respond (and yes, I love to respond to the reviews, especially when they are as detailed as yours :D )

Ahh, Spencer. I think Brian reacted strongly to him because of a gut feeling he had, although, he does overreact here. The future will give him reason though, as you already know. I don't necessarily agree about the fact that Brian hurt Justin over and over. Not that he doesn't either, but in the show, I felt like they both had the power to hurt each other, Brian because of his brutal honesty, and Justin because of his youth. In this story of course, this is different. Brian is way more insecure about his relationship with Justin, mainly because he is convinced he isn't worth it. Thus, the mistakes, and they are many. I think he is wrong to think that way, but at the moment, he is unable to think otherwise.

As always, a HUGE thanks for your review!! ♥♥♥

Reviewer: aglaja5 (Signed) · Date: November 29, 2016 03:39 PM · On: Chapter 19 - Moving On

Hi again! Yeah, I think you’re right with what you wrote about Brian’s friends. Furthermore, in the show they are mainly Brian’s friends against what in your story Justin first gets to know Emmett and started a friendship with him before he gets to know Brian. Michael – yeah, this is a different story. There are moments where I get so angry about his behavior as when he told Brian that they know about the cancer, but on the other hand he tried to repair his mistakes when he spoke with Justin about Brian’s behavior. But I think also this is life – we all make mistakes.

So, this chapter. I really like how you describe Brian’s thoughts while waiting for Justin at the diner (that he was always on his mind – ridiculously romantic :-) ) and their conversation, teasing one another. It’s great to see that “it was only time” and that it seems as if their separation hasn’t destroyed too much but was necessary in some way.

Justin is very mature – how he handles the one-night-stand between Brian and Lindsay. And I’m glad that he has forgiven Brian and tries also to forgive Lindsay, ‘cause in the end there is Gus – best what could have happened to Brian – besides Justin of course!

I know I’ve written this before – I really love your writing-style! Big hug!!! a.



Author's Response:

Hi my friend! Sorry about the delay in my response, I'm on a trip and typing on my phone (thank you wifi!!) so this won't be too long but I promise to respond to you properly as soon as I get back!

I just love your revieww :) Thank you so much for that and for the compliment on my writing :) it makes me soooooo happy!!!

a big hug me dear friend!!! And I promise to respond with more details as soon as I will be back to France next week! * hugs *

Reviewer: Predec2 (Signed) · Date: November 29, 2016 12:46 PM · On: Chapter 34 - In his smile

Hi, dear friend - what can I say about this incredible story that I haven't already expressed?  Such poignancy in this chapter, in addition to a touch of bittersweetness with the birth of Brian's son, but the loss of the man Brian loved.

You caught Brian's mixed feelings regarding his reunion with his father so well.  And connecting his decision to go see the father he loathed with the birth of his son - and his conviction to be a better father than his had been - was the perfect rationale for it.

Brian has always been such a complex character to me in so many ways, and I think throughout this story you have captured that so well.

It has been a long, gradual journey for Brian and Justin in this story; one that I will miss when it is over.  But it will linger for a long time in my mind, which is what a good story SHOULD do. 

Thank you for this amazing story.  I feel honored to have been a part of its creation, and I hope we can one day look forward to a new story from you. (hint, hint). 

*Hugs*  ~Kim



Author's Response:

Sorry for the delay in responding my dear friend, as you know, I'm on a trip with no phone subscription. Thank god for wifi!

I will never be able to thank you enough for your amazing support on this story. I was very moved by your review and as you know, I doubt I would have finished this one without you. Your help has been invaluable to me. Your friendship ever more so.

I have honestly no clue if I will ever engage this kind of journey with another long story, but I hope to write more in the future. We'll see :)

THANK YOU SO MUCH!!!!!! 

 

Reviewer: Lorma (Signed) · Date: November 28, 2016 02:53 AM · On: Chapter 34 - In his smile

Loved, loved, loved the part where Jack kept introducing him as his beautiful son. Such a touching update,



Author's Response:

I'm so thrilled with your 'loved, loved, loved' comment!! Thank you so much Lorma, you're wonderful  :):):)

Reviewer: Toto_too514 (Anonymous) · Date: November 28, 2016 02:28 AM · On: Chapter 34 - In his smile

What a lovely chapter! So much of who Brian is and how he relates to the other characters makes so much sense after reading this. The scene with Jack had me in tears.

I like how all the little details are being settled... but at the same time, I'm a little sad knowing it's almost over! I've become used to always being able to come here to read another chapter! 



Author's Response:

Aww, I'm so glad you feel that Brian's reactions to the events of his life in this chapter makes sense as to how he behaves going forward. And yeah! So happy that the scene with Jack could touch you :)

It will be weird not to work on this story anymore. I think I might want to revisit this verse one day. We'll see.

What I'm sure of, is that you have been one of the most wonderful reader a writer can dream of. Thank you so much for your amazing support! :):):)

Reviewer: aglaja5 (Signed) · Date: November 27, 2016 08:34 PM · On: Chapter 18 - Tomorrow awaits

Hi again! Another great chapter! There are so many beautiful moments. What I really love about Brian is that when he loves somebody it seems do be so much deeper even if he fucks other guys or doesn’t say the three words. But opening up to Justin, taking him to his father, giving him the key, confessing to himself that is he’s really scared to lose Justin… This means so much! And I like the way you place those rules in your story. Fits very well. And it’s good to see that in your story their friends (Mikey, Jesse and the others) try to support Justin in a very positive way. This was something which often was missing in the show I think. So, warmest regards and today you get two big hugs (because you asked for it) :-) a.



Author's Response:

Hey my friend! Oh, yes, Brian is completely fucked when Justin is concerned lol Of course he tried to resist or freak out at times, but actions speak volumes about hos he really feels.

I always though that the boys in the show reacted realistically to Justin. I mean, I'm not sure I would take seriously a 17 years old boy stalking my 29 years old friend, knowing how said friend usually behave. I think Michael, Ted and Emmett eventually supported Justin, in their own way. Of course in Michael's case, he was first and foremost Brian's friend and he behaved like a jealous wife at the beginning of the show. I think he became a better man to Justin overtime. Well, they all had their flaws, but this is what being humans is all about, right?

And aww, thank you for the extra hug!!!

Reviewer: qafqueenbee (Anonymous) · Date: November 26, 2016 01:52 PM · On: Chapter 34 - In his smile

I'm enjoying this story a lot, waiting fot the next chapter.



Author's Response:

And I'm really glad. I will post the next chapter as quickly as I can.

Thank you for your comment, which is deeply appreciated :)

Reviewer: Glo (Anonymous) · Date: November 25, 2016 01:17 PM · On: Chapter 34 - In his smile

Loved it! Can't believe it's almost over...



Author's Response:

Thank you Gloria! I can't believe it either, this has been quite a journey.

Thank you as always for your amazing support my friend!

Reviewer: YumYumPM (Signed) · Date: November 25, 2016 04:44 AM · On: Chapter 34 - In his smile

So we're back to square one and the first chapter.  Well done.



Author's Response:

Yep, the loop had been filled ;) Thank you as always for your support my friend!

Reviewer: DavidR (Signed) · Date: November 25, 2016 12:54 AM · On: Chapter 34 - In his smile

    I just wanted to tell you how much I have enjoyed this story.  You

told (tell) this story beautifully. In a way, it is very sad to see it finish, almost.  But we have covered what needs to be told.

   Thank you for writing it and sharing it here. 

DavidR



Author's Response:

I'm glad you enjoyed this story. I'm also sad to finish it, even if  relieved at the same time; but yes, we have covered whet needs to be told.

Thank you for you comment ut's very much appreciated :)

Reviewer: aglaja5 (Signed) · Date: November 24, 2016 06:29 PM · On: Chapter 17 - New promises

Hi again! It’s funny. Every time I ended reading a chapter I want to stay in that time, want to know what happens next. Then I start the next chapter and after reading a few sentences I’m again so fascinated by it that I forget that I actual wanted to stay in the other time. You always create such an intensive atmosphere. Awesome. I really like the conversations between Brian, his father and Dr. Collier and also between Brian and Debbie. Fortunately Brian has someone he can open up a little and ask for advice. And then this phone-call. It’s so beautiful to read how carefully they behave to each other. Warmest regards and a big hug! a.



Author's Response:

That's actually the best compliment you can give me, so THANK YOU SO MUCH!

And yeah!!! So glad you like the scene with Brian's father, and Debbie. I really enjoy writing about them in this story :)

Thank you again :) You're awesome!!

Reviewer: aglaja5 (Signed) · Date: November 24, 2016 05:28 PM · On: Chapter 16 - Healed

Hello again! Oh, Michael! I’ve told you I would like “your” Michael and I still do but why have there to be always at least one person who tells Brian how to behave or better tells him that he isn’t himself if he didn’t fuck at least one or better a few men per day? Grrrr… :-) And then again, THANKS. Their real first time! Great. Hot, cute, beautiful. I’m so addicted to them. Thanks for sharing! If there wouldn’t been humans like you who write such brilliant stories I would have gone crazy after the fifth session! :-) A big hug!



Author's Response:

LOL. Remember that this is the first time Brian is acting like this with any man, so I think it's quite normal that his friends would react like that. They will understand soon enough that Justin is special, although prying into friend's business is what friends do, right?

And aww, so glad you liked their first time!!! I can't thank you enough for your enthousiasm over this story. It warms my heart, you have no idea :) :) :)

A big hug my friend!!

Reviewer: aglaja5 (Signed) · Date: November 22, 2016 04:24 PM · On: Chapter 15 - Reunions and surprises

And hi again! Just a few words. I really like how you characterised everyone. They are all amiable in ther own way. Warmest regards and a big hug again!!! a.



Author's Response:

Thank you!!!! Warmest regards back at you :) :) :)

Reviewer: aglaja5 (Signed) · Date: November 22, 2016 04:20 PM · On: Chapter 14 - After the night

Hi again! Oh, I was wrong, the past isn’t still bright, it isn’t bright not yet. :-) Brian is still in denial. But they are on their way and I like the way Justin’s acting. Very brave. A few words to their first night together. Beautiful written, hot, cute, awesome. Thanks very much for that and a big hug! a.



Author's Response:

Brian is fighting, because he doesn't know yet that he can't resist Justin ;) I'm glad you liked their first time! Thank you as always for sharing your thoughts with me :)

♥ Hugs ♥

 

Reviewer: aglaja5 (Signed) · Date: November 16, 2016 05:56 PM · On: Chapter 13 - Decision

 

Hello! I’m glad that Justin was honest with Tyler and also with himself and yeah, also with Brian. Thanks for this passionate scene at Kinnetik – hot but also cute. And I’m also glad that Brian has grown up and doesn’t push Justin away. I’m looking forward to the next chapters because not only is the present now getting brighter but also the past is still bright. J Warmest regards and a big hug! a.

 



Author's Response:

Justin had to be honest if they were to find their way to each other in the present. i'm glad you like the Kinnetic office's scene!! I also enjoyed writing that one. The contrast, especially for Brian, in the past and in the present is really interesting to play here. 

Warmest regards back at you and a gazillion of hugs :)

Reviewer: aglaja5 (Signed) · Date: November 16, 2016 04:33 PM · On: Chapter 12 - Alive

Hi! Sometimes it’s good to re-read something. I already knew that the scene on the roof was great, but wow… It’s so cute, beautiful, awesome, hot… You really did an amazing job in showing how the come slowly closer and closer… step by step, but also it seems to be inevitably as if they belong together. And we know they belong together J And I really like how they open up to one another, also Brian to Justin. Great! THANKS again! Warmest regards; a.



Author's Response:

I loved that scene on the roof. One pivotal moment in the story and yes, they do belong together either in the past or in the present. THANK YOU for being so supportive, you're amazing!!!

Reviewer: aglaja5 (Signed) · Date: November 14, 2016 06:52 PM · On: Chapter 11 - Who's left behind

Hi again! This time just a few words. I like your Michael. There are many stories with an anti-Michael and somehow I can understand this opinion. In my opinion, there are these two sides of Michael in the show. The one who is in love with Brian, who does everything Brian asks of him and not accepting the relationship and the bond Brian and Justin share, but on the other hand, there is the Michael who also told Justin that Brian really loves him. Whatever. Again warmest regards, thanks for your wonderful story and a big hug! a.



Author's Response:

I'm one of those who like Michael. Sure, at times, he was annoying especially at the beginning of the show, but who wasn't once in a while. I agree with you about him having different sides. I chose to make him a good guy here, as he is not in love with Brian like he was in the show, thanks to Jesse mainly. But I'm sooo glad you like him here, as I know he is far from being a popular character. In fact, I created Jesse here partly for that reason, so that the readers wouldn't be influenced by their previous judgement about his character. I have a feeling if Michael had been the one hurt in here and rejecting Brian, people would have hated him more LOL

Again, a huge thank you my friend!!! ♥ Hugs ♥

Reviewer: aglaja5 (Signed) · Date: November 14, 2016 05:57 PM · On: Chapter 10 - Truce

Hello again! Great chapter! This time, because you make me laugh. The conversation between Emmett and Brian is so wonderful. It’s so great to imagine Emmett repeating after Brian and then later Brian’s confusion about Emmett’s behavior. Funny! And then finally, they have their first real conversation – again, you have done a real good job, how you let them come closer and how they behave – each in his own way which his somehow so untypical and which is already or again a proof of their deep bond. Brian who cares and Justin who let someone come closer. Great! And I really like Jesse and that he and Justin seem to get along so well with one another. Thanks!!!!! And a big hug! a.



Author's Response:

Hi my friend! As always, it's a pleasure to read your thoughts and to rediscover each chapter through your eyes. I'm delighted you like it!! From now on, the boys are going to get to know each other way better LOL

A big hug to you!!!!

Reviewer: qafqueenbee (Anonymous) · Date: November 11, 2016 06:20 PM · On: Chapter 33 - Hug me, hold me

I am enjoying this story. Now that everyone has made up can't waite to see what comes next. Hope there is more to come.

 

 

 

lah



Author's Response:

Hello!

We're reaching the end of this tale, but I'm very happy you're enjoying this. Thank you for reading, and for your comment. I hope you will like the last chapters :) :) :)

*Hugs*

Reviewer: aglaja5 (Signed) · Date: November 10, 2016 09:13 PM · On: Chapter 9 - Revelations

“Cry” This is so heartbreaking and again very intensive. I have to praise you again. You know, I start reading a new chapter and just after a few sentences, I can feel the mood. There is so much sadness and one can feel the hurt Brian is feeling (I mean not only about Justin but also about many other things in his life) but also their longing for each other. I really like your idea about how some people changed, influenced or engraved us although they might not be a part of our lives anymore. I’m still thinking very often about one special person or sometimes dream of him although I haven’t seen him for more than 13 years. And no, I’ll go on re-reading it even if you haven’t finished yet. I just won’t read it as fast as the first time. Thanks very much and a big hug! a.



Author's Response:

Hi my friend! Aww, so happy to see that you're drawned easily into the story :) Thank you for saying me that. This chapter was bittersweet (I'm actually checking the chapter as you write the reviews lol) and the part about remembering people who are now estrangled can be so true for some people, as it is for you. Thank you for reading my friend and for your beautiful words! I'm working on the penultimate chapter as I write this :) * Hugs!*

Reviewer: aglaja5 (Signed) · Date: November 10, 2016 05:28 AM · On: Chapter 8 - Connection

Wow! I really love this chapter. It’s amazing. First the way you describe how they both started to think about the other. As if they are already bonded in some way. Brian watching Justin while sleeping. Then this moment at the roof. And finally the panic attack and the way Brian acts, knowing instinctively what to do to help Justin to endure this moment, the unconscious need to protect Justin. Maybe I 'm doing a little too much interpretation? J Ridiculous romantic? J Whatever, I love this chapter! And I love your writing style. Thanks again and warmest regards!



Author's Response:

I do remember this chapter being the one I preferred so far when I was writing it :) So, I'm so glad to read your marvelous thoughts about it here. There is a connection between those two, that's for sure ;D

As always, a HUGE thank you for your wonderful support!!!

Reviewer: aglaja5 (Signed) · Date: November 09, 2016 09:02 PM · On: Chapter 7 - Caring

Hi again! Hm, I wanted to re-read a chapter a day and give a review but I don't manage it. However. I must admit I'm really looking forward to read the last three or four chapters which are new to me. What I like about this chapter is the background you've given us about Brian and his relationship to his father. It's nice because one get a little idea about a grown-up Brian. While reading it the first time it also makes me curious about the previous events between Brian and his father. Yeah, and then the sentence "when he came along" :-) Great! Thanks again!



Author's Response:

Hi my friend! Always a delight to see a review from you. For your information, I only have two chapters left to write and an epilogue, so I plan to finish the story before Christmas. Maybe you will enjoy better reading it then knowing it's completed. As you wish, but I'd understand if you'd prefer that, even if of course, I'm a sucker for reviews ;D

So glad to read your beautiful thoughts again! Thank you so much for the support :) * Hugs! *

Reviewer: Toto_too514 (Anonymous) · Date: November 09, 2016 12:28 AM · On: Chapter 33 - Hug me, hold me

So happy to see Brian and Jesse making amends... and thankful that Justin convinced Jesse to be patient. Brian would have found it nearly impossible if he wasn't able to do it on his own terms. And wonderful to see Brian include Justin on the trip to Baltimore. 

Sweet scene with the Jack and Gus at the bruger joint, and love Jack's present to Brian. 



Author's Response:

I was having this very good feeeling in my chest while writing this last scene, and this hug between Jesse and Brian. And of course, Justin's presence in Brian's life is all he needs to finally let himself live and love.

Brian has reconciled his feelings for Jack, and is starting to show it, too. 

As always, your thoughts are a delight to read. Thank you SO MUCH again for your support on this story ♥♥♥

Reviewer: YumYumPM (Signed) · Date: November 08, 2016 09:40 PM · On: Chapter 33 - Hug me, hold me

Things are going good.  Brian's allowed himself to feel for other people, Justin, Gus, Jesse and his dad.  It's all good.



Author's Response:

It's all good indeed! Brian is finally letting himself live and trust love. And it's the best decision he has ever made

My sweet friend, thank you, ALWAYS, for your wonderful support :):):)

Reviewer: Lorma (Signed) · Date: November 08, 2016 06:09 PM · On: Chapter 33 - Hug me, hold me

This was the most heartwarming chapter of all!  It is so wonderful that Brian is letting himself show love and be loved now that his relationship with his dad has been repaired.  I am so happy that he and Jesse have reconciled their friendship and that Justin now knows the depth of his love.  

I don't want this  to end and that is my gauge for an excellent story.



Author's Response:

I'm SOOOO happy you don't want this to end, truly warms my heart to read your words. Your support has been amazing all along this ride!!!

The boys, and especially Brian, is finally having an happy ending. And I don't see him complaining any time soon ;P

Thank you again. Sending lots of ♥♥♥ your way :):):)

 

Reviewer: Swayingcw (Signed) · Date: November 08, 2016 11:17 AM · On: Chapter 33 - Hug me, hold me

Loved this chapter.  Love this story.



Author's Response:

Thank you so much for leaving such a beautiful comment!!! ** smiling like a fool ** I'm so happy you're enjoying this story :):):)

Reviewer: bksbracelet (Signed) · Date: November 08, 2016 09:22 AM · On: Chapter 33 - Hug me, hold me

Oh that was lovely Brian has eventually arrived at a safe place in his life and he reaching out to it with both hands. Justin and Jesse and Jack (all Js lol) taking the gift of trust Brian is offering

Author's Response:

3 J's LOL I didn't even realize that Brian was surrounded by J's haha

Brian had grown up and he is totally fine with it. He is one lucky bastard ;P

Thank you so much for your comment Chris! * Hugs *

Reviewer: LauraB725 (Signed) · Date: November 08, 2016 02:36 AM · On: Chapter 33 - Hug me, hold me

Hi Alois! Thank you for the update...so heartwarming😘



Author's Response:

You're very welcome Laura! Thank YOU for reading and for your wonderful support!♥♥

 

Reviewer: sfscarlet (Anonymous) · Date: November 08, 2016 02:09 AM · On: Chapter 33 - Hug me, hold me

I can't beleive the story is almost finished. I love that Brian asked Justin to join him to visit Jesse and the picture Jack painted for Brian- priceless-  With all this growing, is Jack going to realize what he did to Joan and Claire?  I'm not sure that is something Brian really wants to deal with or if he already has.  Olay ,not to deal with it as it is something that can't be changed and Jack is in a way better place now.



Author's Response:

Ah, yes, I admit I can't believe it either, it's been so long since I started it! Brian and Justin are in a very good place now that Brian has dealed with his past.

About Jack, I'm not sure he can realize what he's done. Well,  he knows, because he had those dreams so he had figured it out and he had talked with Dr Collier and Brian about it. But they all chose to move on, to help him deal with the memories and not let them destroy him. Because if he could really understand and connect to the man he was before, it would destroy him. I think it's impossible for him to connect with the man he once was, and that's why he can't realize fully what he had done as a consequence. It's just inconceivable for him to be a man who killed his family because he was a drunk, insufferable piece of shit. But conversely, all he wants now is prove to his son that he cares, so who knows what's going on in his head? :D

It was one long response LOL Thank you as always Sandy for your amazing support!

Reviewer: Predec2 (Signed) · Date: November 08, 2016 12:22 AM · On: Chapter 33 - Hug me, hold me

What a great chapter, my friend!  As always, your writing is filled with so much passion and emotion.  And I love the way your write the sex scenes between B and J.  Sweet but sexy; just the way i like it!

Glad that Brian and Jesse finally made up. And Jack's painting; wow, that was a real tearjerker, but in a good way.  I'm curious about him calling Jack "Dad."  But I think it was Brian's way of having a new beginning with his father by not calling him what he used to call him. I think it fits. :)

I will truly miss this story when it's over.  BTW, I'm sorry to hear about your hand. That makes you updating and posting this even more amazing!  I will definitely look forward to the rest of this wonderful story. Thank you for posting it on here.  XOXO  ~Kim



Author's Response:

I'm glad you enjoyed the sex scene, Kim! Thank you also for your kind words, it warms my heart :)

About Brian calling Jack 'Dad' and not 'Pops', Jack had asked him not to call him Pops when they came back from the forest where Jack was missing. It was his way to let his son know that he wasn't that man anymore, and that he loved his son more than anything.

We're not far from the finish line, now. Thank you for everything my dear friend, you're amazing :)

 

Reviewer: chouchou (Anonymous) · Date: November 07, 2016 11:28 PM · On: Chapter 33 - Hug me, hold me

Just so happy for these two!



Author's Response:

I'm too LOL It was time :) Thank you for reading and commenting!

Reviewer: aglaja5 (Signed) · Date: November 02, 2016 08:43 PM · On: Chapter 6 - Breathe

Hi again! Another great chapter. I like the way you let Justin be a little more self-conscious in front of Brian.



Author's Response:

Justin is really stronger than he thinks :) Thank you again for your amazing support!

Reviewer: aglaja5 (Signed) · Date: October 31, 2016 08:37 PM · On: Chapter 5 - Hesitation

Wow! Even after reading this the second time it affects me so much. It's amazing how you are able to let the reader feel this deep feelings between them. Their disruption, their longing, their insecurity, their love. I love this chapter, i love your writing style and I love these two cute, beautiful but also damaged guys. Thanks for sharing this wonderful work! Warmest regards, a.



Author's Response:

I remember not feeling very satisfied when I wrote this chapter, so I'm glad you like it. This story was a challenge, and still is, even if it's easier now; Thank you for all your comments!!

* Hugs *

Reviewer: aglaja5 (Signed) · Date: October 26, 2016 01:53 PM · On: Chapter 3 - Aftermath

Hi! Another beautiful chapter. Very well written because while reading it the fist time you made me so curious but also afraid about their past and what have happened to them. You describe thei feelings and thought so detailed, one can feel their sadness and longing. Great! Wamest regards! a.



Author's Response:

You already know most of what happened to them, but it was intense to say the least. So, their encounter in the present needed to reflect that. I'm glad you can feel some sadness as well as some longing here! Thank you for your wonderful comments :)

Reviewer: aglaja5 (Signed) · Date: October 25, 2016 03:47 PM · On: Chapter 2 - A New beginning

Second day, second chapter. Interesting chapter because of the background infos about Justin's situation. I like "your Emmett" very much. He is very sensitive. And this first encounter between Justin and Brian is good written (it's somehow funny but also a little sad). Warmest regards! a.



Author's Response:

Yes, this chapter helped to understand Justin's story. Emmett is a sweetheart, isn't he? As for Justin and Brian's first encounter, well, as a reader said, Justin had met the big bad wolf. And this is just the beginning :)

Reviewer: aglaja5 (Signed) · Date: October 24, 2016 09:22 PM · On: Chapter 1 - Unexpected Reunion

Hello neighbour! I'm back. I must admit I was a little distracted with other great stories. But now I'm re-reading yours and I've pomised myself to take my time. Maybe one chapter a day and lots of reviews. Your story is still one of my favourite fanfictions about Brian and Justin and their wonderful lovestory. While reading this first chapter I started again to feel the same things I felt while reading it the first time. It's so exciting and also beautiful how you describe their reunion. One can feel their uncertainty but also their longing. While reading it the first time I felt also the dispair about their loss of eight years and Justin's injury but also astonishment about Gus. Thanks again for your amazing story and hugs and warmest greetings from Germany. a.



Author's Response:

Hey neighbour! I'm honored you've decided to read this fic again. I've written the first chapter of this story so long ago, that I will be thilled to relive it through your eyes :) I'm also very happy this story is one of your favorite!! Thank you so much for your amazing support. I will be delighted to read your reviews as you read. 

♥ Warmest regards right back at you ♥

Reviewer: Lorma (Signed) · Date: October 22, 2016 07:37 PM · On: Chapter 32 - A new life

This story is so good, I honestly don't want it to end!  I'm so glad Debbie got through to Brian.   I think Justin had to leave him in order for Brian to face the truth.  



Author's Response:

Thank you so much for the praise Lorma, it makes me so happy! I completely agree with you, Justin leaving Brian had been an eye opener for Brian, even if he still had to deal with its meaning and to realize his mistakes to finally move on. And having Gus will change him for good :)

* Hugs *

Reviewer: Toto_too514 (Anonymous) · Date: October 20, 2016 01:05 AM · On: Chapter 32 - A new life

It seems like Brian has finally "turned the corner." It comes too late to save his relationship with Justin, but this is the beginning of the man we see in the "present" portion of this story - the Brian who was able to be open to reigniting the passion he and Justin shared. I'm still sad it had to be so painful though. 



Author's Response:

Brian is finally getting his shit together, so to speak. Starting with Justin's leaving him and now knowing he is going to have a son as well as Debbie's push, is all Brian needed to finally 'move on' in his life; Sure, he has lost Justin, and that's sad, but he will find him again, and once he will, he will never make the same mistakes again. I promise you the last chapters of this story will be full of joy, especially the present parts :)

* Hugs *

Reviewer: Predec2 (Signed) · Date: October 19, 2016 05:31 PM · On: Chapter 32 - A new life

Wow. As always, so exquisitely written, my friend! I love the way you have analyzed Brian's feelings and thought processes here. And I think you did a great job of explaining how Brian changed his mind about the baby. You kept both him and Debbie very much in character, also.

 

I'm really going to miss this story once you're finished. Thank you for allowing me a sneak peek along the way,  and I hope we see many more from you in the future. *Hugs* ~Kim

 

 



Author's Response:

You have no idea what 'exquisitely written' coming from you means to me :):):)

I'm also glad you found Brian and Debbie IC here, as I really enjoyed writing that part. I always love their moments in the show.

I'm the one who needs to thank you for all you've done for me. Seriously, I wouldn't even publish today if not for you. And that's the honest truth :)

* A big hug my dear friend *

Reviewer: YumYumPM (Signed) · Date: October 19, 2016 02:41 PM · On: Chapter 32 - A new life

Looks like this is the turning point for Brian and it only took Michael mollycoddling him and Deb calling him on it, or was it finding out the baby was a boy?  It's a good thing I know that things do get better and Justin does come back.



Author's Response:

I think Justin's departure had started the whole thing, and knowing he is going to have a son, feeling it so real, is the last push Brian need to finally stop his demons from dictating his life. From now on, it's all about learning to forgive himself, and move on.

* A big hug my dear friend *

Reviewer: krussell87 (Signed) · Date: October 19, 2016 12:13 PM · On: Chapter 32 - A new life

OMG!! So love this story!!! d84;a039;d84;a039;

Author's Response:

And that makes me soooo happy!!!! :):):)

* Hugs *

Reviewer: bksbracelet (Signed) · Date: October 19, 2016 02:28 AM · On: Chapter 32 - A new life

oh come on Brian listen to Debbie and get your act together 😐

Author's Response:

Yes Brian, do that!!! LOL

Thank you for commenting Chris, always so good to read your thoughts :)

* Hugs*

Reviewer: sfscarlet (Anonymous) · Date: October 19, 2016 02:14 AM · On: Chapter 32 - A new life

such a a sad chapter.   i need to go back and read the reunion of them getting back together  just to reassure yjat they do



Author's Response:

Hi my friend! I'm sorry you feel like it's so sad, and it kind of is, but Brian needed to be ready to deal with his demons, and Justin's leaving has started to make him realize that he needed to move on and deal with his past, once and for all. What better incentive then than a mother act and a son to take the last step?

I promise you this time in their lifes will make their love stronger than ever by the end of this story :)

* A big hug my friend *

Reviewer: 7wildwaysup (Signed) · Date: October 12, 2016 11:36 AM · On: Chapter 31 - Give it time

I'm caught up now, and I'm left wanting more... I'm loving this fic, and I can't wait to see Brian and Justin fall completely in love all over again...

Hugs Darling ~ Kathleen

Author's Response:

Thank you again for all your comments on this fic. I'm so glad you're liking it! I think by the time this story ends, Brian and Justin will be more in love than ever. After all they went through, it's the least I can do ;)

* Big hugs * And thank you again Kathleen :):):)

Reviewer: Toto_too514 (Anonymous) · Date: October 11, 2016 10:55 PM · On: Chapter 31 - Give it time

I really like the title of this chapter... both Jesse and Brian need to give it time. There's obviously still a lot to work out between them, but after the initial shock of the first meeting, hopefully it will go smoother. As much as Brian was hurt by what Jesse said at the time, he's got to realize that Jesse wasn't in his right mind when he said them. I'm glad it didn't seem to interfere with the Brian and Justin reunion!



Author's Response:

Hi my friend!

Time can heal the wounds. Jesse and Brian need to heal, together. They both know it, even if Brian needs time to sort out his feelings. It's a good thing he has Justin to push him in the right direction ;)

The old Brian, the one who couldn't deal with his demons, would have probably pushed Justin away at that point. But Brian isn't that man anymore and I doubt he will ever do anything to jeopardize his relationship with Justin. On the contrary, he is even more grateful, and aware of how lucky he is.

Thank you as always for your wonderful support!!! * Hugs from France *

Reviewer: 7wildwaysup (Signed) · Date: October 11, 2016 01:09 PM · On: Chapter 30 - Broken

My heart is breaking... Thankfully the past has now been fully revealed. Hopefully we can now begin a future that has learned it's lessons from the past.... Seriously, I'm crying here...

Later Darling ~ Kathleen

Author's Response:

I'm sorry I made you cry!! I hated writing this chapter, even if it was necessary to explain how they had ended where they are in the present, but yes, it was awful. Hopefully the major angst is mainly over for now and is definitely over in the future. Both men have learned a lot from that time. Even if they both ended heartbroken, they also learned valuable lessons, especially Brian. He might have fought against himself to let Justin back into his life, but now that he had, there is no way he will let Justin go ever again.

As always, my eternal gratitude for all your comments, you're amazing Kathleen

*Hugs from France*

Reviewer: 7wildwaysup (Signed) · Date: October 11, 2016 03:19 AM · On: Chapter 29 - Jesse’s story

Eight years is a long time... Now it's time to heal old wounds, and kiss and make up... Hugs Hon ~ Kathleen

Author's Response:

Definitely! Thank you so much for all the comments, it was a delight to wake up and discover them this morning.

* Big hugs from France *

Reviewer: 7wildwaysup (Signed) · Date: October 11, 2016 02:41 AM · On: Chapter 28 - Drifting to the breaking point

Tears... ~ Kathleen

Author's Response:

I know. This chapter and the next one in the past are not my favorite parts, I wonder why...

Reviewer: 7wildwaysup (Signed) · Date: October 11, 2016 02:07 AM · On: Chapter 27 - Loving life

Just when everything was starting to get back to normal. Will Jesse's return help or hinder this family reunion? I hope Brian doesn't freak out too much, and he accepts Justin's help working through his emotions... On to the next chapter! Hugs Darling ~ Kathleen

Author's Response:

That is the question, right? Will Brian freak out or not? * evil author * LOL

Reviewer: 7wildwaysup (Signed) · Date: October 10, 2016 09:12 PM · On: Author’s note

I totally understand so much of what you were feeling when you wrote this message. I've gone through periods of feeling uninspired, and like you said it's so discouraging when you get few comments. I think all us writers go through these things. I'm loving this story, it's angsty and It took me a long time to be able to read angst, and I still hates reading death fics... I'm glad your back, and I looking forward to reading more. So does this mean that you'll be finishing it up soon? Either way I look forward to seeing where you take us...

Hugs Sweetheart ~ Kathleen

Author's Response:

I think the majority of authors go through similar things regarding their work. You experienced it, too? I'm better now to deal with a lack of motivation, but mainly, the readers are what help me to move on when I'm down, thus, this note. But yes, writing is a tricky process. I'm so glad you're enjoying this story, even with all the angst, as I know it's as angsty as it can get at times. Thank you so much for your wonderful support, Kathleen

Reviewer: 7wildwaysup (Signed) · Date: October 10, 2016 09:06 PM · On: Chapter 25 - New beginnings

It's a family reunion, I pray that all goes well. I think that's what they all need, it will help them finally finish healing...

Hugs Hon ~ Kathleen

Author's Response:

Exactly. They need to put their demons to rest to move on and be truly happy :)

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