What a lovely chapter I really am enjoying the love and contentment Brian is feeling with Eric and Lilly. The things Lilly says made me laugh out loud several times 👏

Author's Response:

Aw, Lily is so fun to write so I'm glad you think that. :) Also, happy you are enjoying the love and contentment between this family. I know not everyone is but I say enjoy it while it lasts. ;) Thank you for reading and reviewing! 

My boys are almost 40 years old, I have 7 grandchildren including 4 year old twins (boys)

Justin to the rescue! I really liked the scenes between the three of them. I'm glad that Justin is moving ahead with the surrogacy plans too.

Curious to know why Brian is so uptight about the check payment... it seems like there's more there than just being too proud to take money from Justin, even now that his is an adult.

Author's Response:

Aw, I'm glad you liked their scenes together. And yes, Justin is moving forward with his plans. It's a really big step for him. :)

I think Brian was afraid of tying up loose ends at a time where Justin wasn't a part of his life. He may be proud but there are definitely other reasons behind it. 

Thank you for reading and reviewing! It means a lot!

Loved that Brian, Justin and Lily spent the afternoon together.  That soup she made was so cute yet so disgusting. I'm interested by Brian's reaction to Justin's questions about payback for the loan and why his demeanor towards Justin changed so much after it was mentioned.

Author's Response:

I'm glad you loved their time together! That soup really was something. I'm not sure if I could even force myself to eat it. I think Brian isn't quite ready to confront the past and what went wrong. More of that will be revealed before the first story is over. Thank you for reading and reviewing!

Good for j he need baby to

Author's Response:

I think that he's ready and is also a stable single man with a lot of love to give. If it is time for him, then the more power to him. I'm glad you're supportive too. :)

Terrific chapter.  Losing a kid can be scary, it's good that Justin found her.  Will Brian show his photo's at Justin's gallery?

Author's Response:

It really can be scary. Brian was pretty frantic so it's great Justin spotted her.

I'm not sure if he'll have a show there or not. You never know! Maybe he will someday. :) Thank you for reading and reviewing! :)

Uh huh... The tension is SO think... I'm curious of what's going to happen.

Brian might murder Sunshine in his sleep if he gets a photo exhibition he doesn't want.

Author's Response:

There is definite tension when the past is brought up. It isn't something Brian is ready to face, tbh. 

Lolol, I'm sure Justin would have to get his permission first. He is a professional, after all. ;) Thank you for reading and reviewing!

The dialogue between "Brian" and "Lily" is absolutely so outstanding; warm, touching and "she" is so Brian! So loving this chapter and haven't even completed yet! Just had to tell you now.  

Author's Response:

Awww, thank you so much! I'm glad you like their exchanges and their relationship. She really does take after Brian in some ways. I'm glad you loved this chapter! The next one is now up! Thank you for reading and reviewing!

Is there a parent out there that doesn't know that feeling?

Author's Response:

Probably not. I'm not a parent myself but I know I scared my mother once by getting turned around and lost in a Wal-Mart. Thank you for reading and reviewing, Carol!

Oh, no! Such a lovely day all ruined by Whole Foods! 

Author's Response:

Evil Whole Foods! They ruin all lovely days! (Kidding. But their prices sort of bum me out.) Thank you for reading and reviewing!

This is one of my favorite stories.  I love it.  Thanks for writing!

Author's Response:

Aw, thank you so much! I'm glad you love it! Thank you for reading and reviewing!

Oh no!  He's lost his daughter?  I got tired just from reading all they did.  Now I need a nap, but I can't until I find out if he found her.

Author's Response:

He did lose his daughter. :( In his defense, he didn't mean to. And in her defense, she didn't wander away on purpose. They really did do a lot. I feel like Lily is the perfect cure for insomnia (provided that she leaves you alone once you are ready to crash.) Thank you for reading and reviewing!

Noooo! You can't end it like this. After their beautiful day.... nononononono

Author's Response:

I'm horrible, I know. Thank you for reading and reviewing!

Dear readers, while I have not been actively reading or reviewing this story (something the author and I have discussed) it saddens me to see some of the hurtful comments being made. Please keep in mind that the author has feelings as well...encouragement will go a very long way.

Author's Response:

Thank you, JP. It means a lot :)

All I can say is that Justin could be a lot more than Brian's friend.
And as mean as I may sound...I hope something happens to Eric...though, it would gut Brian and Lily...

I'm curious on what you plan for them.

Author's Response:

It does sound pretty mean. Eric's a good man and a good father. :P But you want what you want, I guess lol.

I have planned this story out so much. Maybe too much. You shall see ;) Thank you for reading and reviewing!

this is story is not really friendly for bj fans isn't? while I wish Justin could find happiness with Brian, he is constantly grilled so many times with Brian-Eric that showing their romance before his bare eyes, can we at least have more Brian-Justin's interaction? and I think it would be partially great if Eric could see them together like really together :)

Author's Response:

I think that, even though it might cause a twinge in his heart, Justin is happy for Brian and likes Eric a lot. He wants them to be happy and supports their relationship. He's an adult and can accept that sometimes people fall in love again, just like he did. There will be more Brian/Justin interaction next chapter but I do wish you would read my notes about how this is a trilogy and that B/J is eventually coming down the road. I hate giving that way but I know many readers are so close-minded when it comes to this couple (which is frustrating) and wouldn't give the story a chance if they didn't know. 

Um, that was me with the vampire question... not sure why it posted as anonymous! =]

Author's Response:

lol, it happens! Thanks for letting me know. :)

Lovely update! Lily is adorable... at least in print. Not sure I could deal with her on a day to day basis, LOL! I kinda figured what Michael's big announcement would be, & that Brian & Eric would steal his thunder. I do like this mature well-adjusted Michael though... and more than a little happy that Brian also recognizes the hero worship that defined their early relationship. Please make Justin happy. 

 

BTW... any news of vampires in Pittsburgh? 

Author's Response:

Awww, you'd just have to get used to her excited and dramatic ways! ;) Brian and Eric did steal his thunder, even if unintentionally. Michael has matured some, hasn't he. I think the move, the comic, and his marriage with Ben has been great for him. Brian does realize the hero worshipping that went on and I do think that he's relieved that he hasn't been the center of Michael's world for a long time now, although they will still share a lot of love for each other for the rest of their lives.

As for Feed & Extract, I haven't given up on it quite yet. I know how I want it to end but not how I want it paced. I do need to work on it though. It just hasn't been a strong pull for me. I am glad that you enjoy it so much though! 

Thanks for reading and reviewing, Toto! It means a lot!

So we get to find out whether Lily gets a brother or sister next chapter?  It's good that Justin was able to help Lily when Eric had to leave.  Working away from home several weeks is hard when children are involved.

Author's Response:

You'll get to find out two chapters from now. :) And yes, Justin knows from his own heartache that food helps! lol. It is awfully hard when extended travel is involved for a career if kids are involved. Lily doesn't want her papa to go away and Eric doesn't want to be away from his little girl and husband either. :/ But sometimes these things have to happen. I'm sure he will Skype with them a lot in the meantime. :) Thank you for reading and reviewing!

This flows and feels like real life, it's not easy to be Justin at the moment and I love the man he has become .. but let us not forget at his still relatively young age he has loved, been loved and is still loved by two of the most gorgeous men ever imagined .. From the outside other people can appear to have it all, but life is certainly not perfect for Ben and Micheal and sadly the future is not going to be perfect for Brian and Eric either .. we can't have everything and "two out of three ain't bad" :)

Author's Response:

I'm so glad you are enjoying the flow and it's such a compliment to say it is so realistic. :) While Justin is down at the moment, he is getting better and trying to move forward accordingly. And you are right, he is a very lucky man to have shared love with two men as wonderful as Brian and Nathan. I think he realizes he's lucky in the money and career department but he feels as though his love and potential family desires are conflicting terribly. It's best for him to follow his heart and let the rest come as it may. Thank you for reading and reviewing, Carol! It means a lot!

God! I love Molly! She's brilliant!

"This is awkward as fuck so I can't really talk to you much. Lunch Tuesday?" lmao perfect! 

 I feel like Brian & Justin have a secret connection that isn't very secret at all...

Author's Response:

Molly is pretty great! :) I'm glad you like my version of her. 

I think Brian and Justin are on their way to becoming close friends and they have an undeniable and strong history. Of course, things can change. Thank you for reading and reviewing!

OMG Emmett! Open mouth, insert foot! Couldn't help but laugh though. I really wonder what the story will be for the next Rage issue or are they going to take from real life again? Hmmmmmm

Broke my heart when Brian looks over at Justin & his head is down looking sad...then of course when he blinks the mositure from his eyes and excuses himself. Jesus! Doesn't EVERYONE see their connection is still wicked strong?! I'm dying here!

 

Author's Response:

Emmett meant well lolol. And Rage will be disscussed at least a couple of times before the first story is over. :)

It's hard. Yes, they are in love with other men and don't regret the way they are living their lives now. However, they never got that closure that they needed so it's hard. I think that people do see the connection they have and they respect it. :) Thank you for reading and reviewing!

Sounds like Justin is coming to terms with his break-up...

I'm curious. How much longer is this story? When the sequel? :) I can't wait for B/J to reunite

Author's Response:

He's trying. He knows he can't mope forever. It should be about 6 more chapters (after this newest chapter. The sequel will be after the last six chapters are written. :)

"May the best sperm win."  Has anyone told them they're crazy? That should be mentioned :)))

Author's Response:

When has friendly competition made someone crazy? ;) lolol

One step ahead for the B/J happy ending...but 100 steps back what with Brian's wedding. Unless you kill Eric? I'll kind of miss him. I think. Not sure.

Author's Response:

Haha. Regardless, Brian's relationship with Eric will have a large impact on his life, even after it ends. He shares a child with him, after all. But, while the steps will be many, Brian and Justin do end up together.

This feels encouraging for Justin.  I'm glad he met Ewen and had the discussion about children.  He needs this in his life.  I want to see him happy again.

Author's Response:

I think meeting Ewan was good for Justin. He knew the option was there but it was nice to see someone living that option. And he's trying. Some days are harder than others but he's managing a little better now. Thanks for reading and revewing!

Great way to lead into Justin investigating single parenthood. I'm really looking forward to your next update:-)

Author's Response:

So glad you are a fan of the idea. :) I want to try to get a new update up this week. Thank you for reading and reviewing! 

Well, Sophia had me in tears... but Ewan, or at least the more hopeful outlook he gave to Justin, ceratinly lifted my spirits!

Author's Response:

Aw, Sophia is just really good with reading pieces she's passionate about. ;) Ewan is a kind man and unknowingly gave Justin a lot to think about in terms of where his life could leave. While Brian and Molly have both brought this option up to Justin before, this is the first time he's met a gay man who has done just that and was happy with his choices. Thank you for reading and reviewing! :)

Hope you had a good holiday too :)
Loved this chapter... the second half anyway. I'm glad life ahead looks brighter to Justin

Author's Response:

It was alright! :) There was some excitement in the morning but it has blown over. 

I'm happy you are happy for Justin. He's starting to get to a better place. Thank you for reading and reviewing!

I can't believe I'm up this early catching up on this fic, but I am, and I'm so happy for it. The last chapter left me feeling sad for Justin's and a little upset with Nathan because of the uprupt break up. But I guess all breakups seem a little uprupt for the person being dumped. But I'm so happy to see that this chapter has a more positive outlook at the end. Although, the thought of Justin having children alone....): When Ewan was first introduced- I thought NO! not another boyfriend that I'll fall in love with like Eric and have me questioning whether Justin and Brian really need to be together. But then nothing happened! :D

Great chapter! Can't wait for more.

Olivia

Author's Response:

I couldn't believe I stayed up until 4 am to post it so don't worry about it. ;) I'm honored you read it first thing! You are completely right, a lot of the time the person feeling dumped is taken by surprised and suffers a lot (but in this case Nathan is suffering a lot too.) He's slowly but surely starting to gain a more positive outlook on things. While being a single parent might not be ideal, many people are brave enough to do it and I think it speaks words that Justin would consider it. I don't think him having a child initially alone is something to be sad about because that child will bring him a lot of happiness. :) And he might not stay single for long...

As for Ewan, I have no (current) plans to make him a major character. Justin may speak to him from time to time and there might be some flirtation there but I doubt an actual long lasting romantic relationship will occur between the two of them. Justin can turn to him for advice. :) 

Thank you for reading and reviewing! It means a lot.

Heartbreaking. Your ability to bring such realistic emotion to the written words in this chapter is amazing. I really feel for Justin and Nathan and the journey they began together that day.

Author's Response:

I was particularly proud of this chapter and didn't expect it to be as long and detailed as it turned out to be. Justin and Nathan will forever have a close bond due to the day shown at the end of the chapter. Thank you for reading and reviewing!

I do hope this story also covers post B/J reunion as much as we've seen B/OMC or J/OMC or even more could be better..

Author's Response:

Like I have stated so many times, this is a trilogy. Brian and Justin get together eventually in the second story. There romance will be told. Even if it wouldn't be covered, there are thousands of stories revolving around them.

Everytime I see an update for this story I feel so happy. Even though it is full of angst, this story has captured my heart.

As I go over Brian and Justin's relationship I realize there was one element missing in their relationship. They were a one night stand, a crush. Then they were held together by guilt. Though I'm sure there was love, there were too many outside elements keeping them apart.

Justin needed to go to New York to grow up. Sadly they grew apart. Except now in this moment they are finally on the same page, and they have the last element. They are friends.

There will be tears. Because Nathan is now where Justin use to be. Justin is where Brian was. Eric is the one I am confused about. Because he is such a good person and he loves his family.

When this story ends I am going to go back and read it over again. Looking forward to the end.

Author's Response:

Hi, Toniu!

I do think you are right. They had friendly moments and shared a group of friends but there was never that build that led up to a relationship. Of course there was love but often circumstances held them together.

I agree on Justin needed to grow up into his own person. He needed to gain that independence to find out what he truly wanted and needed out of life. And yes, now Brian and Justin are finally friends. :)

There is a full circle element here, and I am glad that you see it. I'm also glad that you seem to like and respect Nathan and Eric.

The newest chapter is now up! I do hope you enjoy it. :) Thank you for reading and reviewing!

great update- hard to see Justin hurting but nice to see he has Brian's support.  I loe the way their friendship continues to evolve

Author's Response:

I'm so glad you like their friendship! Justin is going through a rough time right now but eventually he will take the necessary actions to make his life feel happier again. Thank you for reading and reviewing!

Great update! I know deep down Justin really is happy for Brian... but that had to have been really hard for him. Harder even then going to the wedding, because now he is without Nathan too.

Love the texting between Justin & Molly!

Author's Response:

It is hard for him, for sure. I don't think he meant to take it out on Brian. He is happy for him and for Eric. They are both becoming dear friends. But Brian was also his first love who was against all of these things at one point in his life. While Brian eventually came around when Justin was just finding himself as an individual, it's hard to see Brian get all the things that Justin is genuinely starting to want desperately. And he misses Nathan a lot, of course. Poor guy is going through a rough time right now.

Glad you liked the brother/sister interaction! Molly may be involved in one more chapter out of the 8 left of the first story in the trilogy, but she does have a somewhat prevalent storyline in the next story. :) Thank you for reading and reviewing!

all sounds so perfect in brian's world.  is this a happy-ever-after for brian and justin story?

Author's Response:

If you have been reading, you should know that I have stated countless times before that Brian and Justin do eventually end up together. It isn't cut and dry in terms of happily ever after but they will be happy and mostly at peace in terms of their relationship. 

Nathan is stronger than Justin and much as I hate to admit it I think he's right about Justin too. 'Love isn't always enough' .. What a cliche .. enough for what? Because as far as I can see Nathan loves Justin enough to not allow him to compromise and Justin loves Nathan enough that he will accept that truth and continue to love him and be a part of his life. And I purposely didn't say 'only as a friend' because a loving friendship is priceless. Let us not forget Brian let Justin go because he was ready for a commitment that Justin suddenly seemed less sure of .. he made a rash decision and there were obviously misunderstandings on both sides .. and that is why they will always have unfinished business. Despite what I might wish for I think Nathan despite his youth and issues sees Justin clearer than Brian ever did.

It's always a persons imperfections that endear them to me and the brief glimpse of snarky (in response to Craigs sincere comments) and bitchy (re Brian's perfect husband) Justin made me smile.

Author's Response:

Carol, you know I love how much you love Nathan. It warms my heart that you are rooting for him and think so highly of him. :) His friendship with Justin is just beginning and it will be a very close and dear friendship in time. But I was telling the truth when I told you their romance isn't completely over yet. There will be a period of time where the lines are quite blurred. But Nathan knows him and is open to communication. He's become very mature despite being so young and does see Justin and their differences in desires quite clearly. 

Justin had the tendency to snark and bitch in the show lolol, even with age that hasn't completely left him. ;) New chapter is now up!

I find myself rooting for Nathan and Justin as a couple.  Molly and Hunter?  Not so much.

Author's Response:

Aw, Molly and Hunter are sweet. Although, I do understand. You don't really get to see them together. I may write a one-shot revolving around them, which will go in the Intersect one-shot series. I will probably write an Emmett/Drew one first. 

I'm glad you are rooting for Justin/Nathan though! I like that there are more people showing love and empathy for Nathan. Thank you for reading and reviewing!

That was a lovely chapter I really enjoyed having some Molly interaction and the siblings forcing each other to voice their feelings good and bad. The relationship between siblings is so close as there is no agendas they just tell it like it is

Author's Response:

I always wanted a sibling growing up. I have a cousin I am close with but it is different. I'm glad you thought this was a realistic positive sibling relationship. They definitely can be real with each other and any hurt feelings caused do not last for long. Thank you for reading and reviewing! Next chapter is now up :)

I really, really, really love you, you know that, right? The whole chapter was great. I particulary love Justin in your story. And of course, Nathan is beautiful. Also, Molly, Craig, Jennifer and Tucker, it feels real. That's surely why some BJ fans have a hard time with that fic. Well, I feel privileged to exchange with you on this fic! Such a great work. Thank you :)

Author's Response:

Aw, I love you too, Alois! ;) I'm glad you enjoyed this chapter and you love Justin in this story. And I love that you're a Nathan fan. I was glad to include Molly, Craig, Jennifer, and Tucker here. I am trying to go for real and complex and maybe that rubs people the wrong way but whatever. I feel privileged to have a talented writer to discuss this story with! Thank you for reading and reviewing! You know it means a lot. :)

Okay, wait, just wait, how do you manage to do this to me? My emotions are all over the place. At first I hate Craig then I feel so sorry for him that I could cry - THEN I hated Nathan and now I like Nathan and want to smoosh him and heal his broken heart. 

Nathan's letter to Justin was beautiful, and I could see him writing it - willing himself not to cry but failing :(

And how is it that Jenn is only in this for the tiniest amont of time, yet she was probably my favourite part of this story? Her heart is just so big and she is such a genuine sweet lady. After all she went through with Craig and the divorce, he was still her husband for 20 years, of course she still has a place for him in her heart. Not everyone would be so sweet and considerate (TEAM JENN!)

Brian texting Justin was a lovely touch. And I lol'd imagining Brian and Drew discussing ballet. I bet they know all the names of the little moves the kids are taught :)

BUT FINALLY - THEY KISSED..... and then Petra walked in and ruined it. I mean, she didn't, because as much as I NOW love them together I wouldn't want either of them to sacrafice the things that are important to them. And Justin wants kids. Maybe not now, but he does, and I think if he stayed with Nathan he would regret that. It still hurts though :(

Author's Response:

I use this stories to manipulate the emotions of innocent readers. ;)

Craig is in a rough place and is quite depressed. At least he's letting a couple of people know and is talking to a psychiatrist. Awww, but you hated Nathan? I'm glad you don't anymore though lol. He needs a lot of smooshing so feel free. Writing that letter was a very emotional experience for him. It was tough and put him through the wringer but also cathartic in a way, even though he hated writing some of it.

Jennifer is a lovely lady. She still cares about Craig and will always love him due to the past and children they share, even though part of her despised what he did. She's very frightened for him and is quite concerned for his well-being. 

Brian was not about to chit chat with Justin while Craig was standing there. Too awkward for him. Drew knows his terms in ballet. Brian is trying to learn them. ;) 

Nathan and Justin did kiss. And I am shocked that you are happy about that! lolol. Yes, even though Petra kind of cut them off, I think that the same outcome would have been had, even if they had had sex in the dressing room. Kids are a hard things to compromise on. Too bad because Justin and Nathan really are a nice couple ;(

Thank you for reading and reviewing, Sally! It means a lot!

Update???? :(

Author's Response:

I only have five pages written. I've had a lot of stuff going on in RL. Every time I try to sit down something else comes back up. I hope to get some written today and have it up by tomorrow or in a couple of days though.

I'm not back full time reading this but i check to not lose too much.I loved this and i also wrote a long comment about this chapter but this site didin't pubblish soooooo i was so angry .

I love Nathan but i'm so sorry for him :(((I also think Eric was very helpful and caring.Good move.I want hug nathan and never let him go ( he is quite hot guy).

Don't take this as a critic but as a compliment to your way of compose:I can't stand Lily!!!!She is so hyper i would probably go crazy if i have to put with her!!!!when i finished i was like ...i need a break from children!!!!!WTH!!!!!!I think children are cute but i can't stand them too much time  especially little ones like lily high demanding...i prefer older ones.Your children are so real i can't stand them sometimes...like at the wedding your gus  was so teenagerish i would have toss his cellphone out of the window.Don't worry no baby here with me ghghg.

I can't wait to see what's next

 

Author's Response:

Lmao! It's okay, sweetc! I Lily's passion and energy is not for everyone. Although, we do become used to the quirks or the people we live with so I think Brian and Eric can deal because they watched her grow up from a normal infant to the crazy kid she is today. But yes, she is definitely a strong ENFP personality with a lot of quirkiness, imagination, passion, stubborness, and intellect lolol. (Eric is ENFJ and Nathan INFP, by the way ;)) 

As for Nathan, he is having a rough time. We can only hope he starts to embrace his friends more like Petra, Sebastian, and Nadia. And Eric is becoming a good friend as well, despite the age gap and the fact he is with Brian. He has a difficult journey in the second story but also an important one. 

Thanks for reading and reviewing!

I'll remember

Author's Response:

Awww, thank you! :)

Hi Anne! Loved this chapter and the way you bring Nathan to life. He is an amazing character and I really enjoy reading his thoughts. Lily is a hit!!! Thank you for another amazing chapter :)

 

Author's Response:

I'm glad you enjoyed this chapter, Alois! Also happy that you are a Nathan fan. :) He has become near to my heart. Lily definitely is a hit! She's a very passionate young lady, hehe! Thank you for reading and reviewing! 

ANNIE!

I didn't think you would be able to do it, to have me cross over from not really liking or caring THAT much about Nathan, to reading this and thinking he's adorable and just needs a good cuddle in his life. 

And urgh, I adore Eric for inviting Nathan over to spend the day with him and Lily, that was so freaking cute. He has found a good friend there.

LILY, OUR LITTLE ACTAVIST <3 I freaking loved it. That was perfect - and what a great idea Nathan had about writing a letter... I want to read it.... HINT HINT HINT :)

I now need more.... :)

Author's Response:

Mwhahaha. I really am manipulative. I am glad you like Nathan now! He really does need cuddles. And help. And possibly more therapy. And as many friends as he can get.

Eric's a good guy. He cares about Nathan and knows deep down that Nathan didn't have a good life. Even though things probably didn't go to plan, I think Nathan really appreciated it. 

Lily is hardcore over whale rights now. She's demanding "Save the Whale" decal stickers for her room and everything. 

I may write Lily's letter...maybe Nathan's too. Keep an eye on the Intersect Interactive fics ;)

I thought it was wonderful... I am glad Nathan has taken the small step to reconnect with Justin, at least on some level. I think those few minutes alone with Lily helped him with his "fear" of children... although I think I'm a little bit afraid of being alone with Lily, LOL!

Author's Response:

He did take a small step. It was a big one for him since he didn't know how to go about it but, when it comes down to it, he loves Justin and always will. He needs him in his life in whatever way he can have him. He's slowly getting the hang of things. He doesn't dislike children. He thinks Lily is cute and funny but I don't think he wants to be an actual parent (yet, at least.) 

Oh, Lily would be a perfect little angel for you! You'd be fine ;)

Thank you for reading and reviewing!

Great chapter-  my heart goes out to Justin.  Nice to see Brian having a relationship with him, but feel that he is also still in love with Justin.  I know he loves his life, but there is a strong history there.  Can't wait for the next updte.

Author's Response:

Part of him will always be in love with Justin. He cannot escape that. He's set on building a strong friendship with him and Eric trusts him. However, feelings will get more passionate the more time they spend together. Thank you for reading and reviewing!

Its ironic that Brian and Eric's ideal is the catalyst that prompts Nathan to sacrifice his own personal happiness for Justin's. It's classic Kinney, is it any wonder he's so dear to my heart. He's 23, damaged and doesn't appear to have the support system even Brian had.... And Justin, the only person privy to his past, heartbroken and worried is .. in bed!? I feel bad for him but he's been here before and I have to ask myself why isn't he banging on Nathan's door and making him believe that he is enough and worth compromising some of his dreams for. Could it be that in his heart of hearts he doesn't really believe it either:(  

 

Author's Response:

It is pretty ironic, isn't it? Nathan thinks the world of Justin and wants him to have everything he could desire in life. And, while Nathan has his band, and especially Petra, who loves him more than he realizes, he doesn't want to burden them with his demons. It's very sad. But I do promise you, they will prove to him how much they unconditionally love him. Justin will as well. You caught Justin at a bad time, as did Brian. ;) He's been trying to reach out but doesn't want to push too much. Part of it might be because he can't think of a compromise that Nathan would go for. I think that, if Nathan would come back if Justin told him kids weren't as important, Justin would say just that. But Nathan really feels that he isn't worth that sacrifice and wouldn't let Justin make it. 

Never fear though. Nathan will play a big part next chapter and we will have Nathan AND Justin the chapter after that due to it being opening night of his show. Their relationship is far from over. They will always have a connection. Thank you for reading and reviewing, Carol! It always woarms my heart to see how much you care for Nathan. I have a couple of readers on Ao3 who feel the same way you do but it's still so rare to see a review in his defense. :)

Hey Annie,

First I would just like to say AGAIN that you are doing a WONDERFUL job with Intersect. My emotions are all over the place, especially in this chapter. I feel like a damn traitor because I'm happy for Brian & Eric. Yet I feel so miserable for Justin. In my mind, when Justin said that he would never have a husband and a baby, I kinda thought that he's beginning to see himself as some sort of a fixer; like the guy only good enough to fix what's wrong or hurt within his partner of the moment only for them to leave and find someone else. And that really broke my heart even as I agreed with Brian that if he wants a child, he's financially stable and should make that happen for himself. So YES!!! I stay torn with this amazing world with REAL LIFE ISSUES you've created!

And Secondly, To the person (although that's NOT what I'd like to call her right NOW) who is saying that Nathan should "get over himself:" take a powder and chill out...or better yet DON'T review!! As writers, we are NOT obligated to tell the story YOU want but to stay true to our craft. Whereas I understand your frustration on Justin's behalf, you have disregarded the struggle of Nathan as a fictional character and VICTIMS who face this same issue EVERY SINGLE DAY. I know because I was one of them and even now 27 years later from the very FIRST inicident, I am STILL affected in some capacity.

There is an old adage: "If you can't say something nice, DON'T say anything at all." This should be a going motto among reviewers particularly because you don't have the knowledge or capability to understand what the AUTHOR was going through in delievering QUALITY work. Even if you are a writer yourself, you can't possibly understand another's thought process or the agony of writing a work which puts you as the author in such a vulnerable place. What we AUTHORS don't need is NEGATIVITY!! So please be courteous, conscientious and kind when leaving a review. We don't mind CONSTRUCTIVE CRITICISM but we do mind outright FOUL comments.

Annie, GREAT JOB ONCE AGAIN!!

~Nichelle   

 

I'm going to interject here.  We do allow 'constructive criticism' of an author's work.  But the types of combative comments to this story have been far and above that, even though the writer has made it clear that this is not just a B/J story.   That is the writer's decision to make.  Some readers will like certain plots, while others won't.  If any reader persists in repeating the same type of criticism over and over again, however, they either need to move onto another story that is more to their liking, or risk being banned for harassment.  The choice is theirs.

I cannot stress enough that the best response to such behavior is not to respond at all or delete them.  Easier said than done, I know, but the best approach.  This site is here to support writers, not condemn them, and neither Bob nor I will allow it to denigrate into a battlefield.  

~Predec2

Author's Response:

Thank you so much, Nichelle. It took me a while to answer the more recent reviews of this story and I wanted to come up with the right words for yours. I understand the conflict that this story brings to B/J shippers but I think it's important to remember that both this story AND the show are fictional and, while it is totally okay to feel the need to choose a side or not like this story's plot, it is also important to remember that the author is a real human being. And I completely understand defending characters. I did it with that person's review. But I feel that I did it for different reasons than she did when it came to her complaints. I feel that Nathan could represent a certain percentage of survivors and it isn't right to tell a survivor to get over himself. And not because it will hurt Nathan. Nathan is a figment of my imagination. But because it can hurt readers who have gone through similar things. It's a poisonous viewpoint and I am personally glad to have my defensiveness justified by your counterargument. I can't promise that she saw it, but I hope that if she did, then it gave her something to think about. If her claim is true, then I hope she realizes that not everyone can "get over themselves" as quickly as she assumably was able to.

I understand constructive criticism but facing THIS kind of petulant behavior is very trying. I know you have faced similar things with SLA and it really isn't fair. I try to take it as a compliment is some ways. Obviously the story is making them feel. But you can also understand how frustrating it is.

Now onto your first paragraph!

I think it's okay to feel torn! It's an upsetting time for Justin and Brian and Eric are extremely happy with their own lives. And I think you are right when it comes to Justin thinking of himself as a fixer. Even I can't truly imagine how he feels right now. I think he logically knows that Nathan needs to fix himself more than he was able to. Like the saying goes, you must love yourself before you can be loved by others. While I don't think you can't be loved if you don't love yourself, I think that a relationship can only be successful if you get to the point where you are at peace and can be on your own. You shouldn't just survive off of one person's love and praise. You need to be able to be an individual in order to be confident. Nathan had that in some aspects (like his talent) before he met Justin, but when it came to his personal life, he didn't. So I think that, after the hurt starts to die down a little, he is going to aim for that. It will be a rough road though and, of course, this isn't the last you have seen of Justin and Nathan. Their relationship isn't cleanly cut off by any means. They are too close for that and they love each other too much. But I think that, when they become friends and fall into becoming comfortable with that, they will be extremely close. 

And I think Justin should have a child too! I think he's financially stable and confident enough to raise a baby by himself. It isn't ideal when it comes to his personal goals, but there's no need to wait and keep hoping. That way, when the right man comes along, Justin will know that he and his child are accepted.

Thank you so much for reading and reviewing, Nichelle. It truly means a lot.

 

Hi, Kim! I also thank you for your input. My comment section can get a little heated but I hope this was directed more towards other reviewers rather than Nichelle. What the reviewer said was insensitive and I know it upset Nichelle greatly, since we were talking when it popped up. It got us both a little angry but I think she handled her response well (albeit with a lot of passion ;)) And I completely agree. Next time I will just delete them. I usually do with my hateful comments but sometimes when I feel that the reviewer is toeing the line, saying something troubling, or there's just a misunderstanding, I want to make my counterpoint. Sometimes it starts a good conversation and sometimes the returning comment is even more shocking or combative. This story definitely gets some surprising responses. 

 

HEY YOU!!!!!!!!when I was five I was abuse and raped by my uncle for 12yrs so I know what he's going through. So I'm sorry I offended you and your "fanfiction" character 

Author's Response:

I'm sorry for what you went through but I would think you would empathize rather than say he needed to get over himself. You have to realize how rude that sounds, even if it is over a fictional character. I have no way of knowing who a victim is when it comes to anonymous comments online and who isn't but I am trying to defend the ones who may be reading this story and could identify with Nathan. You aren't insulting a fictional character. But saying a character who is facing real life issues should get over himself isn't in your best interest or in the interest of other abuse victims. It sends off a signal that people think that abuse can just be completely overcome in a few short years. That's usually not the case.

You need to find a HOT BoyFriend for Justin I really dislike Nathan. He should get over himself and can we have more Justin in your story. This story mostly about Brian and Eric 

Author's Response:

Excuse me? You think a 23 year old man should just get over himself when he was consistently abused and mentally tortured by his father, the man who ended up raping him and being revealed as a serial killer? The man he killed? Nathan has accomplished a LOT for his age and, when you compare his accomplishments to the life he's had, that's inspirational and awe inspiring. You'll get more Justin. And more Nathan! And more love interests. This is a trilogy and, while you are free to have your opinion on the characters, your opinion on this one is flawed. I don't care that you don't like him but saying that a victim of horrific abuse, rape, and trauma should get over himself literally makes my skin crawl.

I had been waiting for Brian to find out about Nathan. But I was kind of disappointed that Brian was not very comforting to Justin. I quess I was looking for him to take Justin in his arms and say "Sunshine, everything will be alright".  They have that unbreakable bond. 

Author's Response:

I thought he was very comforting. He tried to give him a pep talk, laid down with him, stepped out of his shell to comfort him. It really isn't his way to take Justin into his arms and comfort him like that just over a break up nor is it his place as of right now. I'm sure if Nathan had died Brian would hold him though. Luckily that didn't happen. But you are right, they do have an unbreakable bond. Thank you for reading and reviewing!

Uh oh! I sense trouble afoot in paradise.  I look forward to the next instalment.

Author's Response:

There will be some drama and angst but we'll see which way it goes. Thank you for reading and reviewing!

Another amazing chapter Anne. It's bittersweet, yet full of love. I love everything about this!

Author's Response:

Aw, thank you! You're one of the few who do! Jokes...sort of. As you know, things will be closing relatively soon so it'll be hard to write the final chapters of the first story but there's still quite the journey ahead of us. Thank you for reading and reviewing!

You've got a lot going on in this chapter.  The Adventures of Lily are always fun.  I hope that Nathan doesn't do anything rash.  I've come to like the little shit.  Good grief, I'm channeling Debbie.

Author's Response:

The Adventures of Lily. That should be a series! ;) Nathan will have a hard time but he's possibly the strongest character in this series. I'm glad you've come to like him. He's a good guy. ;) You could do worse things than channel Debbie. Thank you for reading and reviewing!

Thanks for updating :o)

 

It was great as always. I feel with Justin, as with Nathan.

Maybe we get a little more interaction with Brian and Justin in the next chapter(s)??

That would be amazing. Keep going and F*** everyone who doesn't like it :)

Diana

Author's Response:

There will be more Brian/Justin moments, don't worry! I feel bad for both Justin and Nathan too. Yet I keep putting them through a lot...

Thank you for reading and reviewing!

Hey,

when are you going to post a new chapter? It's been three weeks already.....

i know i sound impatient but i really am. Kinda makes one loose interest because we know that the next chapter will take weeks again :(

Author's Response:

I have been very busy. I wish I could dedicate all my time to writing but I have to work and try to have a little bit of a social life to keep up appearances. :P I also wanted to get a couple of one-shots in and finish Nose to Bill (which only has an epilogue left.) I'd like to get Know You're Not Alone done too but I am starting the new chapter of this story now. Hopefully, if time allows, I can have it up by Tuesday but maybe even by Saturday or earlier. I don't like to keep people waiting but I got several LONG chapters of this updated within a short amount of time and this is my first longer break from Intersect since my dog died in April. Sometimes I have to take a break. I receive so many reviews and inquiries from lovely fans, such as yourself, but I also get horrible hate for this story as well. I have been told that I should get pissed on. I have received death threats. I have been told that my story is absolutely horrible. If I was getting paid for it, then I would probably handle it a lot better but sometimes I just need a little bit of a break. I love this story though so I'm not giving up on it by any means but I need to do this at my own speed, especially when I am doing all the work for free. ;)

I do thank you for checking in. You say that you are losing interest but checking in kind of gives evidence to the contrary. But the next chapter should be soon so I hope you stick around.

Sounds like Brian & Eric are having a magical honeymoon. The house and grounds were just breath-taking! A little surprised at Brian's announcement about a new baby. 

Author's Response:

They did have a magnificent time! :) I got jealous looking at those pictures and researching, not going to lie. Although I'm sure Eric is the one who is the most pumped about having another kid, Brian has been thinking about it and has warmed up a lot to the idea. He know he will love that child with all of his heart and he or she will make Lily and Eric incredibly happy as well. Thank you for reading and reviewing! It means a lot. :)

I'm familiar with the premise, this story sounds like Galeandrandy's Point of View -crossed- Simon's I forget the title and another story on this site with the same theme. god, Brian why did you spend your precious time and invest your feelings to wrong person, Justin is the one for you just open you eyes, you will get wrinkled cheeks and pins/needles when you get your blond in your arms again. Justin is your true love, no matter what 'all love is beautiful philosophers' might tell you, I can't believe the great tale of Brian and Justin is depending on someone's mortal :( they deserve much better than that.

Author's Response:

I have a copy of Simon's fic but haven't read it yet and haven't heard of GaleandRandy's story. I'm guessing you are talking about Alois's story Consequences (which I read after I started writing this.) But let me say this again: THERE SHOULD BE NO PROBLEM EXPLORING THIS CONCEPT.

By the way, have you even been reading my story? I'm guessing not because Brian would NEVER regret the years he spent with Eric. He loves him immensely. They share a beautiful daughter together and they are incredibly happy. Brian and Justin were in the wrong places in life and, yes, they broke up in less than ideal circumstances but they moved on because they are relatively healthy minded people. To say that Eric is the wrong person and that Brian is wasting his time with him would frankly be insulting to this version of Brian as well as to Eric who has been there for him and loved him so much for almost eight years.

Oh, and there's no "one true love" in the Intersect Universe. There are intense meaningful relationships that leave a mark on you and will shape you for the rest of your life but there's no place for that here. If anything, Brian has two true loves (if you have to use the term.) If you want a story about "one true love" that I've written, Feed and Extract is the closest thing you are going to get. I think that the notion you can only have one love in your life is harmful, especially if they are just supposed to doddle around for several years to wait to be in the same place, both in location and in what they both want out of life.

So don't tell this Brian what to do. If things end up not working out then he still wouldn't regret it because the years it did work out brought so much love into his life. Eric and Lily make him happy and he deserves happiness, as does Justin even if things are rough right now for him. So keep an open mind if you decide to actually read this story. Have a great day.

 

Perfect honeymoon. And thanks for giving us pictures. It feels like we were almost there with them! :P

I hope Brian realize how lucky he is. First he had Justin and now this perfect man Eric. Not everyone is that lucky! :P

So happy for the new baby. Well if they're is really going to have one...as I know you plan to get Justin & Brian together. So who knows what will happen. #nervous

 

great chapter as always, can't wait to read more. thanks!

 

 

 

 

 

Author's Response:

Happy you liked the pictures and the time they spent together! I thought the visuals would help people picture the sheer beauty of the island and the home they stayed in (and will now own!)

I think Brian realizes that he's a very lucky man. Not everyone is that lucky, myself included. Oh well, I'm only 24. Maybe I will be a late bloomer like Brian when it comes to love. I do tend to shy away from it like he did lolol.

I'm very pleased that you are happy with Brian's little family and excited over their plans for another child. It's nice to have so many readers who are open-minded when it comes to the boys finding happiness outside of each other. I will write an alternate ending where B/E and N/J ended up together since this was the original planned but the official ending leads to a three part series while that would have just been one story. You'll get to see both ways.

Thank you so much for reading and reviewing! It means a lot!

 

I find myself wondering if people ever go see romantic comedies or romances. The road to true love is long and arduous. The fun is in the story.

This is like a mini series that I am enjoying. I like the actor chosen for Eric.  I like Erick and Brian relationship. Hang in there. The people enjoying this story out number the people worried about Justin.

I feel most people would rather have Brian struggling and Justin finding that good love. This is really one of my favorite stories. Thank you

Author's Response:

Exactly, toniu. Especially with a couple like Justin and Brian. There can be a lot of road blocks plus the idea of "one true love" doesn't apply in this story since both Brian and Justin did find a deep love with other men again (although Justin's heart did just get broken.))

I'm glad you like Eric so much! I know that there are many people enjoying my story but it is hard to get biased comments from people who aren't taking the other love interests' feelings into consideration. They are good people and no one really deserves to get broken up with here. 

I understand that it is very hard to watch Justin struggle and have so many things going wrong in his life with Nathan, his dad, worrying about Hunter and Molly, and wanting a child but not having one yet. But I think some people are upset that Brian is still happy with his own life despite what is going on in Justin's. They think that one can't be happy if the other isn't. And that's not saying Brian won't be concerned or worried for Justin. He will be. But I can't belittle the great things he has going on in his life and make them unimportant, you know? Luckily I think most readers understand this. 

Thank you for reading and reviewing, toniu! It means a lot!

it's very hard to comment as an anonymous especially when you no longer have young eyes to read those random numbers, however i can manage to get through this time. Brian never had any bizarre trip with Justin and he got it now, i think if people keep comparing Eric and Justin is very normal since they both are very special to Brian on this verse, can we at least hope that when Brian and Justin get together for real later they will be as dynamic as Brian/Eric? i'm curious. I think if I'm right that Brian and Justin will only be together when Eric vanishes from the picture, it's just very sad, I may say that Brian/Justin's happiness can only come along when someone is died, even they have a beautiful incomparable beautiful love story even if you want compare to B/E. Brian/Justin will be very old then, right?, may i wish that Brian can shower Justin with love and luxury like what he did with Eric. Because, really Justin deserves happiness and loves from Brian, I know this review is very unoriginal because I see Justin's fans write the same thing even they had to mention Eric/Nathan this and that so their favoritism didn't appear too obvious, but i hope B/J happiness can come soon.

Author's Response:

I don't understand why their honeymoon was bizarre. I think it sounds like a great time in a beautiful place (but I'm biased.) And Eric's the one who showered Brian with luxury this time around since he planned and paid for everything. Also, I do mention that Brian took Justin to France a year after Justin went to NYC so, while you don't see that, it did happen in this universe. I'm sure they had a wonderful time. I'm not saying the two can't be compared but people shouldn't say he loves one more than he did or does the other. It's not fair to any of the characters involved.

As for the questions about the upcoming B/J relationship, you'll have to wait. Justin does deserve love and happiness though. I will agree to that whole-heartedly.