Well fudge!    Bet Lindsay likes that shit too cause she's that kind of hag

it's perfet so who's gonna die?   Somebody gonna die   Where's Gus?   Don't kill the baby.    Are you going to kill Claire?   Go for it.

damn.  And OMG GUS!   He wanted to be with his daddy that' so sad.

aw so sweet.   i guessing calm  before the storm   Great

Loved it

that ending was some of the sappiest shit i have read in forever and it was amazing.   you have taken my last couple nights and now i haev to find away to update my stories but most of all what am i going to do now?   is there a sequel to this?   I'm going to go look but i bet there isn't.   if you never write another thing in ur life this was fantastc!!!!!

kill her oh god did u kil her in thisstory.   i'm done for her death like ten chapters ago

and she thought that brian would be the abusive one.  bitch!

That bitch!

your brraking my heart.

i love this shy brian that love his justin.  that needs his justin.   i should be writing but i can't stop reading.

 

damn Joan is a bitch!

You're making me cry, and this isn't the first time I've read this fic... But still there's so much emotion and love its breathtaking...

~ Kathleen

It's adults who like to complicate simple things."

This was my favorite chapter. Everyone showed their true colors with Gus’ innocence and wisdom leading the way.

Fabulous story! This is the second time I've read this and both times I adored it! Thanks for writing! TAG

It  was heart breaking beautiful  I cryed laugh i wanted to stomple linsay she is a bitch she played brian 

they talk about ur storie on  LJ i read it when u started came back to see if u finished it  

     thanku  kim 

Such a great way to end it! This is a great story, I had to re-read it all when you posted the Epilogue- much to the abandonment of all other up-dated stories I have been reading :). But totally worth it. Now I am off to read the 5 other updates I have ignored since you posted!! Thanks for the wonderful story.

Great story! By the way you forgot to write YES in completed.

What a beautiful ending to a great story. Thank you so much.

I think the word NO is missing in the last sentence.

"But Brian Kinney was no longer incomplete".

What do you think?

just wanted to ask if you are going to update your story again? i miss it!

Great chapter!!! I really hate Lindsey-she always bugged me a little on the show- I love that Mel and Brian are getting along and I think they are good for each other as support.  I hope Mel and Lindsey go ahead and give Brian back his rights they way Michael has his... Can't wait for the next chapter.

 

Author's Response:

Yeah, Lindsay always gave me bad vibes too. Not in the first two seasons, but after that, there was something quite not right with her. And in season five I just couldn't stand her, especially at the end. 

I'm glad you liked the chapter, thanks!

I love this story but wanted to make a quick note...Vermont is no where near West Virginia or Pennsylvania. 

Always look forward to the updates.

Author's Response:

Thank you, I'm happy you like it.

Sorry for the mistake, I live in Brazil and I don't have the slightest idea where Vermont, West Virginia or Pittsburgh are, lol! The only places in the USA I've ever been in were Miami, Orlando and NY!

 

yeah a new chapter! was thinking of this fic a few days ago and hoping for an update and tadaaaa, there it is!i love the brian - justin-gus dynamic and i hope lindz is going to ny, so the boys can have their family without the drama!

Author's Response:

Hey, Joe! I'm really glad you liked the chapter. It wasn't easy to write, especially when the girls were fighting and the children were scared. I love a little drama, don't I? Hehe. Thanks for the review!  :)

are there more chapters forth-coming?  this is a very good story.

Author's Response:

Yes, I'm working on the next chapter. If only real life gave me a break, I would update more frequently. But don't worry, I will finish this.

Soooo...He's hiding cancer so Justin will follow his destiny....then he will get treatment hiding from everyone so Justin wont find out.....and he plans on being healthier than ever when they visit and reunite?  Right?

Honestly, I think I need a little breather from this fic.  You are doing a marvellous job telling this story.  You are talented and know the characters well - - - Im just too pathetic for too much agnst.

LOL.  I think Ill either re read some fav fic or hunt down some fluffy or pr0n fic, just to fortify myself.  LOL

OH I am glad Justin is packing up his paintings and getting out of their!  He should also pack up his apartment and take it all home to Pittsburg.

And check on Brian.

Are you going to make me cry?

Author's Response:

Hopefully not, lol.

Fuck!  But Yay!  But fuck!  And the Ethan thing - shit.

Okay, Im getting a headache.  I dont do agnst well.  Ive been wanting to read Cynical21's fic, but I  cant bring myself to do it.  :o(

Okay, maybe Lindz is redeaming herself a bit here, but somehow it still sounds..............I dont know.

And that last paragraph. :o(

Damn Drama Queen!  By not saying anything he only worries everyone more!

He said 'bye', not 'later'.................

Okay, I think Im getting confused by the timeline.

Justin went to NY in winter and had not called Simon for 3 months.  Then, if he had three semesters of school and is about to graduate it means he has been gone just short of two years.  Which means we caught up to the prologue?

I didn't know there would be so much agnst in this story - at least that is how Im reading it.  Justin's talking about not being ready to come back, and Brian's visits are rare and conversations over the phone are stilted.  Brian has been having difficulty emotionally. Then that prologue!

Ok its time for Mel and Brian to make a stand against Lindsay. She is so screwed up! Brian, Justin and Mel can do much better for Gus.  Also looking forward to your vision of Brian's childhood and his telling Justin about it. Can't wait for an up date.

 

Author's Response:

I think that Brian and Mel are pretty much a team now, and they're both strong-willing...so Lindsay'e life won't be easy if she messes with them!

this was a great chapter for brian. justin completes his heart. he's not afraid to meet the brian that brian is hiding from him. he's been ready since day one.

there's no way brian would ever turn into jack. first of all justin wouldn't allow it and brian himself wouldn't. i understand why he compared joan and lindsay as being alike. lies and fairie tales and fake dreams.

his therapy sessions are going great. he's finally coming face to face with himself. meredith may have to keep repeating herself but she is getting through to him. let him run to her when he needs to, it can only help. he'll turn to justin shortly. this crap with lindsay running off to ny will be the turning factor.

let her go to ny to live the life she's always wanted, the one she tried to force on justin. as far as gus going with her, not going to happen. either mel will give brian back his rights so that he can stay in pittsburgh or brian will just go for custody against lindsay. no judge would give a child to an abusive parent when there are other parents who aren't.

nice to have this back.

Author's Response:

Yeah, Brian's progress with his therapy is clear here. He's starting to see that he deserves to be loved like everybody else. He's still afraid of being rejected and jack's ghost sill haunts him, but  he's a strong person and, with Justin, even stronger. He has nothing to be afraid of. Thanks for reading, hun!

this story is very compelling.  i can't wait for more chapters.  will they be coming soon?  is your muse having problems?  i hope not and we will be having more to read of this wonderful story soon.

Author's Response:

In fact, yes, my muse is hiding from me. But I'm insisting on it and chapter 41 is almost ready.

Thanks for reading!

thanks for another great chapter.

Author's Response:

Thanks a lot! I'm glad you liked the chapter!   :)

he was happy and content with 'his' family. gus was having fun with his cousin, family friends were getting along with family members. it was all falling into place. brian was having a glimpse of the life he always wanted. and then lindsay shows her true colors. i knew her speech was hiding something. it's her hatred for justin. it's not love she feels for him. he has everything she wants with brian. he has his love. he's in his bed. he shares all the intimate details of his life. and when gus is with brian then they have a wonderful family dynamic that she doesn't share. is it any wonder mel leaves for work early. who'd want to live with her.

then to top it all off, she has the nerve to tell him that she always thought brian would be the one to hurt gus. she says she knows him, not very well if she thinks that.

i understand brian not wanting to tell justin about the memory. it's too painful. but how he opened up about everything else, yeah he's changed and yeah he's grown, and yeah it's all due to justin's influence. that, brian is happy to live with.

Author's Response:

Wow, it's amazing how you understood all I wanted to show with this chapter. You're so right about Lindsay. It's not love she has for Justin: she wants his place. 

That's the only explanation I could find for her actions at the end of QAF season 5. Because after she made sure Justin would be gone, she left Brian too and took Gus with her. Was she punishing Brian because he didn't want her?

I loved this chapter. the way you flashed back to Brian's childhood, bringing forth his past to haunt him in the present. I only hope that he takes comfort in the fact that Justin and Gus are there with him and that he, unlike his own mother, stood up for his child and at least tried to protect Gus from suffering like he had.

Author's Response:

Thank you! That was my intention all the way. I wanted Brian to remember his past because he's always trying to avoid it and it's time for him to deal with it and move on. He'll do everything he can so Gus will always know how much he is loved by hs family. :)

I don't know how I missed this story - but it is FANTASTIC!!! 

Your characterizations are spot on that it's almost like reading a lost transcript of Season 6 :)

I'm eagerly looking forward to the next chapter!

Author's Response:

Wow, that's a huge compliment...thank you so much. I hope you enjoy the rest of the story. Thanks for reading and for taking you time reviewing.

Brian is going to have Lindsay's head and rightfully so! She's lost her mind, acting like that with Gus and now the baby has a broken arm. I'm glad he's going to be ok, but I really want him to go home with Brian and Justin at this point.

Author's Response:

Yeah, especially Brian, who went through a lot when he was a child. Lindsay's really losing control. 

I really like the relationship Brian and Claire have now. They both suffered so much due to Jack and Joan, its good that they are depending on eatch other more now.

Glad Brian is feeling comfortable enough to talk to Justin about the therapy session.

Author's Response:

I always wanted Brian to have someone from his real family whom he could trust. I know Claire made lots of mistakes, but she was raised with him, it was illogical to think Jack spared her and used to beat Brian alone. That's the beauty of fanfiction, you can do anything - as long as it's believable, lol!~

 

thanks for the update!!!! really looking forward for ur update............

just love this great story!!!!!!!!!!

Author's Response:

Thanks for the comment, hun! I really hope I'll update sooner this time.  :)

So glad you updated this story, I love it.

Lindsay is being illogical. At least Mel realizes that Brian is important for Gus and only wants the best for his son.

What happened with Gus is terrible, Lindsay should have never hit him. I believe Brian won't be happy about it.

Please update soon, don't leave us with such cliffhanger for too long!

Author's Response:

As someone pointed to me today, Lindsay is on the verge of a breakdown. But whatever her reason is, she should never had hit Gus.

Thanks for reading!

i was so thrilled to see an update. i thought this was forgotten about,

mel and ted have a great friendship, they always did. they're good sounding boards for each other. right now i could care less about melanie and lindsay's relationship. i think mel would be better off without her. her fears about what lindsay feels about brian are so true which is the cause of her anger at justin being back. it has nothing to do with his art. that's just her excuse.

boy does dr. carter have her work cut out for her. she's going to be stumbling over the walls to get to brian and for his sake i hope he lets her. as for justin having gus there when he came home and not pushing him to talk until he was ready was a smart thing for him to do. also knew that going through mel instead of lindsay was going through the right person.

Author's Response:

I'm having some problems to find time (and inspiration) to write. But I promise I will finish this fic.

Mel is showing a lot of maturity, she's in a much better place than Lindsay.

I'm glad you like Dr. Carter! Thanks!

i loved the family outing. nothing like that happens with gus and his mothers. i get the feeling that gus is freer around brian and justin.

lindsay, man what a bitch. to play with brian's mind like that. i think mel is going to finally get a clue what a bitch her wife can be. and if she does, it isn't going to be pretty when it all comes to a head.

Author's Response:

Gus is a LOT freer with Brian and Justin. It would be nice if he spent more time with them.  Mel and Linds have some things to sort out, and sometimes they say what they shouldn't near Gus. That's not good. 

great chapter. love that justin finally got thru to brian. How Gus got them to hold hands at the diner because they were being shy. How Mel isn't anti-brian anyway.... linds she's kinda needs something though..... maybe a mommy night would help her, both kids at the dads

Author's Response:

Thanks for the comment! 

Hey Ana,

it was so wonderful to see an update of this story. You´re doing a very good job here and I appreciate every chapter you post. Keep up the good work.

Hugs, Sunny

Author's Response:

Hi! Thanks for the comment! It's good to know you're enjoying the story.   :)

I too have to say that this is one of my favorite stories- please update more often!

Author's Response:

I try really hard to update, but real life sometimes gets in my way, lol. Thanks for reading!

in all honesty, this is probably the best story i've read on here. it's at least in the top three. it's way more developed then typical fan fictions and i definitely appreciate you being willing to add depth to the story without rotting it up with crazy out-of-this-world story lines like i feel a lot of other authors tend to do.

hope you continue! =]

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This was a very difficult chapter.  The messages by Joan and Lindsay were not rational.  Then  one could say “who cares”  and move on.  The problem for Brian are the messengers.  His close  friend and mother of his child, and his

own mother. 

 

Happily we can say good-bye to Joan who is off to Kansas or the Moon for all I care.   How she can still accuse Brian of molesting  John?  To me the point here is that she  looked for the most hurtful thing she could have said to Brian. She will never know the fine man her baby boy has grown up to be.  Brian will never know the mother’s love he had never got nor will  Very sad!

 

As for Lindsay, nothing makes any sense.  She refuses to let Gus have Brian’s

name.  Why?  Honestly, I have no idea – again – nothing makes sense except

she said no in a most hurtful and spiteful way she could think of.  That  in

some way Brian is not good enough, doesn’t deserve to have his son carry

his name.   Using the words that could most hurt Brian.

 

So to me, that is where we are now.  Can Claire somehow  give Brian the family

affection that his Mom never could?  Will Brian FINALLY (finally finally)  talk to Justin and tell him what has happened?  Can Justin convince Brian that it is Brian he wants and that what Lindsay has said is irrational and coming from an irrational person?  Maybe? Maybe not.

 

Let the story continue and we shall see.  Right now I can't see a way out for

Brian.

 

Anyway, thanks for the terrific story.  As you can see,  I am involved with the

characters and their situation.  A tribute to your fine story telling.

 

DavidR

 

Author's Response:

Thanks! I always love your comments! Hope you keep reading.  :)

Hey Ana,

thank you for this chapter even if all this angst is going to kill me.LOL I hope Brian and Justin will talk some more and find their way. Someone has to stop Lindsay.

Hugs, Sunny

Thanks for the update..........

Hate Lindsay!!!!!!!!!!!! Brian should stand on what he believes, that he can't leave without his Sunshine. And Justin should know that it was Lindsay again who put everything into Brian's head - of pushing him away, again............

More to come, please.............

omg, what a twisted mind lindsay has to have pulled that shit on brian. playing his son against his lover and more or less making him choose. if he sends justin back to ny or europe then gus can have his name. it will bring them closer, especially if mel decides that she's had enough of lindsay's bullshit. then in lindsay's mind they're a real family. if justin stays then lindsay will fight tooth and nail not to give him what gus so rightly deserves.

i can't believe that justin didn't pick up on the things brian said as to what lindsay said to him in his office. as for brian and justin. they'll fix this their own way. justin just has to walk back through the door. maybe being alone the light bulb will go off that brian went to see gus and lindsay bombarded him with all the other crap.

help them please.

Very interesting chapter.  There were so many  ‘ups’ and  ‘downs’.  No emotion could last very long.  I think it is a wonderful idea that Gus takes Brian’s name. 

 

Seems  strange to me that somehow Brian wants to give Gus something to bind them ogether and to insure that Gus knows that Brian is his Dad.  Wisely, Justin pointed out that Gus already loves Brian, and that Brian is a great Dad.  I believe that this

is more for Brian than it is for Gus.  A name is a name is a name, but a father in the best sense of the word is a Dad.  Gus’s Dad, Brian.

 

Joan?  I will say this for your writing; you know how to write joy and happiness, but you also know how to write someone – I don’t know how to describe Joan.  The things she said to her children were as hurtful as one can be.  I am just going to leave it there, as I don’t have the vocabulary to describe her despicable behavior.

 

Also, while I am here, Lindsay doesn’t  get it either.  From me to her, “leave Justin alone, and leave Brian alone”.  Melanie got it!

 

Anyway, thanks again for the story.

DavidR

                                                                                                                                   

Author's Response:

 "I believe that this is more for Brian than it is for Gus."

I'm impressed. You read so well between the lines! You're the first person who said that to me, and that's exactly what I was trying to show. Brian wants Gus to have his name, but this is for himself and not for Gus, although Brian doesn't know it. I agree with you, a name is just a name, but I think Brian needs this as a kind of reassurance, you know? Of course Gus loves him, and as always, Brian is the last one to really believe it because of the lpoor opinion he has about himself. This opinion, as you can see, is because of he way he was brought up. When Joan says that they almost sent him to a special place to "cure" him she shows once more what we already knew: That she sees Brian's homossexuality as a disease. But she's the only one who's sick here. And because she's Brian's mother, this coment really hurt him, even though he tries to deny. He still suffers because he knows he'll never have her approval, he's only human after all. 

Thank you so much for your review. I really lovet it.

Hugs, Ana.

omg what a chapter.

i loved that mel laid it on the line for lindsay and maybe woke her up to what she was doing. i'm glad that justin finally put his foot down with lindsay. nothing worked in her favor this time and she deserved it. she will punish brian though for letting justin speak his mind by refusing to allow gus to take his name.

i'm so happy that claire won her case.

what that bitch did to them is unforgivable. poor brian how will justin be able to help him through this? brian and claire will be there for each other and that's a big thing.

Author's Response:

Joan is a bitch alright. But Lindsay is acting like one too. I'm still not sure if I want her to act like that on purpose or not, but she is dangerous because Brian listen to everything she says. And knowing Brian, he always reachs his own conclusions, and they're not always good for him. And I'm sure Lindsay knows the influence she has. So, Joan is cold and bitter, but I believe that Lindsay can hurt him almost as much as Joan.

Thanks for reading and for commenting! Hugs, Ana.

Hi,

 

I just wanted to say hello and let you know that I am one of those happy readers of your story.  It is a wonderful story as I am really enjoying reading it.  I tend to be off line a lot and often batch chapter when reading.  However now I am up to date on this story.

 

Lindsay?  If she can’t handle Justin having everything she wants or thinks she wants, then as far as I am concerned, she can just get another job elsewhere. I think that is what Brian was telling her by his stoic expression.  Or to sound more like Brian – get with program or f**k off.

 

After all this, Brian and Justin still don’t talk about what is important.  You would think that by now they would finally get it – communicate, communicate, communicate.

 

Thanks for adding ‘this’ Claire to the story.  Brian needs a big sister.  It looks like he finally has one.  Almost.

 

Anyway – thanks for writing this story.  Again – I am one of the happy readers.

 

DavidR

    

Author's Response:

Thank you, David! I'm glad to know you like the fic, it's been exciting writing it because I can do whatever I want with the characters, lol! I never understood Lindsay's actions in season 5, so this story arc is my way of making Brian understand that he and Justin were manipulated by her. I agree with you, the boys need to communicate, but Brian is Brian, he will never talk freely, I think. Justin is young and he had already so much trouble that he's welcoming the peace for now. Thanks for reading and for taking your time to review! Hugs, Ana.

brian is keeping too many things to himself and soon he's going to implode if he doesn't talk to justin soon. well except for the truly important ones..."Without you I'm just...incomplete." he's going to wind up with an ulcer. sounds like he has the beginning of one already.

justin does what he wants to maintain his happiness and sanity. i don't blame him. lindsay should learn to but the fuck out of the life she wishes she was living. justin is right about her...."But...sometimes I can swear that she wants you all for herself, and she would be happy with me gone...". brian's eyes have to opened up to that. well at least he called her on her shit. she is a coward, and a bitch.

Author's Response: Well, you know Brian. His mind doesn't work like the rest of us, he just can't bring himself to do what's reasonable and sane. I think he doesn't even know why. Justin is sure of what he wants and He won't let anyone tell him what to do, not even Lindsay. Especially Lindsay.

Thanks for the update....

What took Justin long in NY?????

More please 

I just spent the last few days reading all of these chapters and catching up on this story. I love it and I hope you update it soon!!

Author's Response: thank you! I'm glad you like it. ;)

Thanks for the update!!!!!

Glad that Brian is healed and they are happy together...... but ------ Justin as heir of Ethan????????

Can't wait for the next update, please........ 

Author's Response:

Thanks for reading!

There's a little trouble for the guys around the corner, and I really hope you keep reading the story.

This is such a great story. Poor Brian. I did a report on that disease once and I know how horrid it is.

The lightsaber duel was adorable. 

an update on this story always makes my day... great chapter (as usual)!

Ooooh, I can't wait for the next chapter! I'm sure it'll be hot. :)

Please update soon, this is one of my favourite stories ever! 

michael gave brian something to think about, but as usual brian is avoiding it. will he and justin ever talk about themselves and where the relationship is going? maybe after they make up for all the long months without any.

mel's attitude was refreshing now that she realizes that lindsay really is the root of her contention with brian.

gus was certainly one happy little boy. so was his father.

it's nice that although brian being sick was the reason he and claire are on friendly terms.