Almost a year with no updates :( You could at least tell us a short summary of what you have planned next, so we'd know how it all was supposed to end. Pretty please?

Hi, MoSa! I was very happy to see the update from you, as always you surprised me, I was sure once again that you gave up on this story after all. I missed it.

OMG, it was funny to see Brian so excited, like a child :) I was as astounded as Justin. Cool. And I loved how patient Justin was later, even when Brian continued jumping up and down :)

I wonder what their trip would bring them. I can’t wait for truth to come out finally.

Thanks! I’m looking forward to the next chapter!

i'm so glad you are still writing for us, i lo9ve this story so much, i was really waiting for it, i missed it and you. great chapter! and so funny, i laughed a lot, brian and justin are unique! loved how brian was waking him up!
i hope for the next chapter soon!

Oh, Brian, Brian. Everything is always so complicated with him! One minute he’s loving and caring, the next one he’s a controlling asshole. Poor Justin must be torn – he loves one side of Brian, but another one pisses him off. Brian was a little thoughtless – he must know Justin had suffered from abuse, so of course it affects him to see boxing. Brian was rude and hurt him again. But he followed him – that accounts for something! I loved that moment.

The last scene was hot! I’m so glad to see our boys so close, so in love with each other. Great chapter, but short! I’m really looking forward to the next one, MoSa, thanks!    

Author's Response:

thank you so much again for the comment hun.  I hope I can update more but it's really being difficult for me, but I promise to do my best.

hugs

Looks like Justin enjoyed his movie even more than usual.

Author's Response:

lol

yeah it seems so ;D

Hi, MoSa! To say I loved this chapter would be an underestimation! I can’t help it, I love your Brian – especially the way he can say the nicest things in a most bored voice. He loves Justin so much, I feel warm every time I see his being affectionate. Of course I was disappointed is was only a dream, but a rather realistic one, anyway. I felt bad for Justin when he agreed to go with Brian right away, and only then realized it would mean seeing Derek. He loves Brian so much, he didn’t even realize he should have said no.

Brian should have thought what he was suggesting! Honestly, he knows how fragile and vulnerable Justin is, did he think it would be okay for him to watch him getting beaten? Argh.  

Derek seriously freaks me out, I wonder what his story is. I’m glad Lee is there for Brian and Justin, he might help them when it’ll be needed most.    

Thank you, I loved this chapter! I can’t wait for the next one!

Sounds like Sam knows what's going on, which is more than I do.  But I have complete confidence that you'll explain everything in the end.

Author's Response:

yeah he definitely knows more for now but you'll know even more than he does in the end ;)

Don't leave us like this!!!  So Brian is a kick boxer.  cool.  Now who is it that Justin sees?  Is it the guy that he was dreaming about, the one who hit him?

loved this chapter! i feel sorry and scared for justin, i don't believe that derek can hurt brian, brian is too strong and cunny for that. justin should have told brian! i hope he will! thanks!

Author's Response:

thank you hun :))

yeah Brian can defend himself pretty fine but Justin is just worried because of his previous memories and doesn't want to take any chances with Derek hurting his Brian. I hope he does too ;)

you are welcome sasha :))

Hi, MoSa! It’s so good to see you again, and with a new extra-long chapter! I couldn’t believe my eyes when I saw it.

Well, now we have the name – Derek, but who is he to Justin and how he happens to have so much influence over him, I wonder? Brian was very light-headed in this chapter, I think he’s so in love with Justin, so drunk on their happiness that he, unlike his usual self, lost vigilance. He should have noticed how disturbed and sick Justin was, but his attention was elsewhere. I understand why Justin got so scared, abused people sometimes behave this way, they can’t think rationally, they are scared and engulfed by bad, painful memories. What I can’t get is how Brian managed not to see something was wrong with Justin later, too! Justin seems to me like someone who can’t quite lie convincingly, but who knows, maybe he got experience while living with this Derek? I can’t wait to find out about his relationship with Justin – and I’m dying to *finally* see how Brian first noticed Justin, and how come he got so obsessed with him, watching him!

How does Joan knows about Justin, did Brian tell her about him already? More secrets here! But all in all, I loved their meeting. It was interesting.

Thank you for another great chapter, MoSa, I really can’t wait for the next one!     

Author's Response:

heyyyy. good to hear from you again. I hope I can come back again sooner :)

well, we'll know who was Derek to Justin in near future ;) .

as I said to nata too, maybe he also knows how to hide his feelings in the years when he really wants too .

yeah I guess Brian couldn't resist talking about Justin a few times when he was with his mom .

you are very welcome hun. I'm glad you liked it too and I hope you like the next ones too :))

Thought you abandon this fic, glad u pick it up =) I love protectice Brian haha

Just curious, how many chapters are u planning to go for this story? 

Author's Response:

of course I won't abandon the fic. I promised that right? so even if I take more than one year I will come back at last*lol*

I love it too. so I'm glad you liked it too :)

I think there may be a lot more. maybe I'll make it 40 chapters or maybe I decide later to make it just a bit less but I'm almost sure it won't be less than 30. I hope that's okay by you though ;)

and thank you for the review :))

Hi, MoSa!:) Is everything all right? You seem to have disappeared.

Author's Response:

hiii Kat. how are you doing hon?

exams made my life really hectic lately and that's why I coulnd't update sooner and I'm sooo sorry for that :( . but the good news is that they are finished now and now I just have to re read the previous chaps here to again get the hang of the story and then I'll post new chapters very soon for you again. I promise I'm not going to abandon this story I'll even post chapters from my grave if the time comes ;)

and it's good knowning you are missed when you are gone so thank you for the concern hon

*hugs*

Hi, MoSa! I finally got my hands on this story – like you, I had exams which were a big trouble. Finally they are over, and I can comment again.

Poor Justin… being in abusive relationship is hard, especially when the abuser apologizes and swears it won’t ever happen again. You so want to believe it’s true, even if at heart you know it isn’t. In this case, I hope Brian will make him pay!

Hah, Justin is spoilt!:) He’s so used to Brian’s complete attention, he doesn’t feel comfortable when Brian pays it to something else anymore. I think it’s adorable!:) But all in all, Justin is so confused…, I feel so sorry for him. He needs to learn some of Brian’s secrets, or he’ll never get peace.

I liked Justin’s conversation with Jennifer, but it was weird. Jennifer seems nice and sweet, but I have a feeling they don’t talk to each other frequently. I don’t know why. I hope to know more!

Wow… Brian, a kick boxer? Huh. I’ve never thought about this! Interesting, of course. Unusual. That surely explains his bad temper – sometimes it must be hard to distinguish between real life and the ring. I’m so happy to *finally* have some answers! But why is Brian doing that? Just for pleasure? I have a feeling there is more!

The ending just killed me! Really, what are you doing to me?:) I’m *dying* to know who Justin saw! The abusive boyfriend, I presume? What will Brian do when he realizes it? I so want to know! Please, update soon! And thank you for the wonderful chapter!       

Author's Response:

Hiiii Kat. ahhh the exams. don't remind me of them :((( . they are not gonna be finished for me for like another three weeks and I'm so sorry that I can't come again tp update this story till then :(

yeah. you want to belive them but you just get more confused when they don't do as they promised. so yeah I hope Brian will make him pay too .

*LOL* I agree, he is sooo spolied. one moment he acts like Brian's attention doesn't really matter to him and in another moment he gets all upset that he is not just concentrating on him :D

well, I practice that myself too so I just thought by my own experiences that a good way for releasing your anger is that :)

hehehe... I'm devil huh? ;) . I'll really try to update as soon as I can hun. and thank you again for the wonderful comment here :))

 

yay, all things are finally coming clear! intereting variant with brian being a boxer, i never expected it. it explains a lot! but now he might just kick the shit out of whoever it was that hurt justin! i'm ready to see that you can't imagine how much!

Author's Response:

hey sasha :) . I'm glad you liked Brian being a kick boxer then. well kicking that person isn't that bad really, is it? ;D

you'll see everything one by one here sasha so don't worry ;)

Ethan or his father

Author's Response:

*winks* . thank you for telling me your opinion :)

So, I found this by accident, and I can't find a link to the actual story

Everybody seems to think it is great so can you tell me how its called?

Pretty please?

Thank yoouuu

Author's Response:

hello , hi ;) .

I'm sorry hun but I don't understand your meaning exactly! you mean u just found the first chap and can't find the link to the other chapters? the story is called out of the shadows, of course :)

I hope you enjoy it when u read the next chapters. give me your opinion then please :))

Thank you for this incredible work! :) I'm completely fell in love with it! It is so interesting, tense and exciting! I never can get enough of it :)

Your Brian is so beautiful! I do enjoy his inner power very much. Of course, such a person like he can cause fear - even just subconsciously - but he is a real mystery at the same time. On the one hand, this one needs to be open, but on the other hand, there are such secrets that should always be closed to retain their charm. Maybe, it is one of them :)

As for Justin, he is a very interesting person, too. To tell the truth, I really enjoyed reading about his contradictory feelings :) He fell in love with Brian in such interesting, unusual way! It seems that their relationship are complicated and simple at the same time. Of course, Brian's agression mixed with Justin's unpleasant past can't be called 'simple', but their feeling to each other are so natural and sincere - it is just charming. They don't lie to each other, they don't hide their feelings. They do what they want to do. So they are free - at least in their own eyes. Of course, Brian's problems make everything more difficult, but I believe that as long as they can trust each other and love each other they will be happy :)

The last chapter was really beautiful! Skating was so funny - especially when Brian was angry with Justin because of his laugh :) They was so caring and protective! And I was really sad because of this unpleasant incident. I hoped that this homophobe would understand that it had been enough warnings for him to stop his annoying behaviour - but unfortunately, it hadn't, To tell the truth, I was afraid that Justin just wouldn't want to talk with Brian. So I'm very glad it didn't happen. But without doubt, Brian should deal with this problem - at least for Justin's peace of mind.

Thank you once again for this incredible story! I'm really looking forward to the next chapter!

Author's Response:

hello new one!!! I'm glad to hear from you for the first time here and I'm even more glad that you liked what u found in this story :))

 

interesting . I like your opinion about  Brian here. ;)

you are right. it seems our Justin can't stop himself from falling in love with Brian more and more each day. we should just hope that both of them can move on from their past and begin something new with eachother.

yeah unfortunately some idiots appear most of the times to ruin the good moments but fortunately our boys didn't let him win this time :)

 

you are quite welcome Aliada and thank you so much too for letting me know your opinion about this story. I really hope to hear from you in the next chapters too :)))

 

you're back! that's so great, i was beginning to worry you won't finish it. i love this story and the long chapters, like this one. we haven't approcahed the truth about brian or justin, but i agree that we can see some progress. brian is trying, that's remarkable. justin stopped running, too. very intensive and interesting chapter, thank you, i enjoyed it!

Author's Response:

thank you dear veronik. it's really good being back. I won't leave anything unfinished in my life, at least while I have a say in it ;) . so don't worry I'll complete this story before my last breath*LOL*

yeah both of them are really trying and let's hope they succeed too :) . thank you so much hun and you are more than welcome :)))

Brian certainly does seem to have quite the temper, especially when it comes to people being homophobic. But this still doesn't answer the question of why Justin is such an important part of Brian's life...or how this came to be. What gives my friend?

Author's Response:

yeah he has a long way ahead of him before he can control himself properly and I don't blame him for having that temper with those homophobic people ;) . arent we making progress with those things too? it sould reach a certain chapter here and then you'll know those answers u want dear jazze :)

thank you again  :)))))

Hello MoSa.  Welcome to MW.  I'm so sorry my welcome is late.  I hope you are enjoying the site.  I am intrigued to learn more about your Justin and Brian.  Brian in particular as I'm not liking him very much at the moment.  Not being able to control his temper is not a trait I like. 

I hope this is helpful to you.   I have noticed your fic is missing a disclaimer; it may be wise to add one.

"you can't IMAGINE how important a review is to a writer. By only posting a word like (nice) or (like) you can motivate a writer more than you can ever imagine" this is true; I am an advocate in encouraging anyone who reads a fic to let the author know their thoughts and for authors to support one another.   The words you describe only takes seconds to write and can make such a difference to an author's motivation.

I think you have been very brave to take on a multi-chapter fic for your first one and I am so pleased you have been welcomed with such support.  

Cheers :)

Author's Response:

Hello Flossee! late is better than never so thank you so much for the welcome :) . I'm absolutely enjoying the site so much and I'm sure I can post more stories here too :) .

hmmm... I hope you like him in the future then hun. I know he's not perfect here but I suppose most of the people around us aren't either ;)

WOW, I hadn't noticed. Of course I'll add one right now eventhough I'm sure all the people here KNOW that I'm not trying to own anything huh?!!! . thank you for reminding me :))

Yeah I really believe them. I know I wasn't a loyal reviewer in the past too but I'm now really realizing how important it is to a writer and so I really hope to hear from my readers more in the future then.

 

Thank you so much for the compliment Floss. There were so manyyyy ideas in my mind that couldn't be in a one-chapter fic so I closed my eyes and hoped for the best and I'm really happy that I have so many AWESOME readers here that give me their opinions with each chap.

Thank you for the review and I hope to hear from you more from now on too ;))

Wow, what a long chapter!:) Thank you, I just love when you make them like that! But for some reason, those chapters I read even faster. How is it possible, I wonder!

 I can’t wait to know Justin’s secret! And Brian’s too, of course, but I guess we can’t have everything at once:)

So Brian and his mother are close, huh? I didn’t expect it. But she must mean a lot to him, if he keeps her photo among his things. Or maybe Justin was mistaken, and she’s not his mother? Just a person who looks similar to him?

Brian’s reaction upset me. According to him, Justin means a lot to him, so why is he so against him learning some things? Brian himself admitted that he was sort of stalking Justin, even sitting in front of his windows, and Justin doesn’t have the right to even look at his old photos? That’s wrong. If Brian wants to have a relationship, he must learn how to share himself, past and present. I hope Justin will teach him – because really, who could be a better teacher?:)   

I’m shocked – in a good way – that Justin repeated Brian’s words, ‘you’re mine’. That was so great, my heart skipped a beat! Loved that moment! It was beautiful! Brian’s statement that he’s a monster confused me, of course. Why does he think so, is it true? I doubt it, just like Justin does. I’m so looking forward to finding out!

Thank you, MoSa, it was a great chapter, I loved it! Can’t wait for the next one!:)

Author's Response:

hey Kat. yeah I did my best to make it longer. hmm... so maybe we should go back to shorter ones? ;)

good girl ;D . I think you are gonna know Justin's secret first though ;)

yeah u r right... Brian is close to that woman so we shall see if she's his mom or not :)

You are so right, and that's why he got upset too because Brian is being so secretive about himself but I think he'll finally realize that and can make himself open up more for Justin.

awww that moment...yeah and Brian was really shocked in a good way too. I think he loved that  ;))

you are quite welcome as always my dear and thank you again for the GREAT review

*hugs*

Justin said that Brian was his!  That's big.  Who's the unfamiliar voice?

Author's Response:

Hi Yum :)

YAY he said that. So did you like him saying that or not?

who do u think he is? ;D

 

 

Silver...*raises eyebrow* Lol I'm curious to know why Brian would call himself a monster and holds the fear that he might not be able to control himself one day in regards to taking someone's life?

Author's Response:

Jazze...*grins* , now isn't knowing that very interesting? of course you'll know why is that in the near future ;)

awww, how sweet brian is! i can't believe it, this is so good, i like it so much! he's so tender and caring, i want someone like that too! i like that we get answers gradually, like justin does. but who hurt justin??? i hope brian will punish him!

Author's Response:

Hi nata. How are u today?

Yeah but don't let him fool you with his caring side hun cause we all know he has ANOTHER part in him too and it's only for Justin that it's different ;)

Don't we all wish for someone like that? But it seems our Justin is more lucky thatn us*lol*

I really don't want to see what he'll do to that person if he finds out who is it ;D

Silver, Silver, Silver...I think it's time for ALL the secrecy and mystery to come to an end...or at least be partially exposed, haven't we been tortured enough Lol

Author's Response:

My deeeaaaar Jazze... aren't we taking the steps towards that slowly by now? ;)) .

And as for you being tortured enough, are you assuring me that you've been tortured enough by now then? so maybe I can move on now*LOL*

Hi, MoSa! It’s so flattering to hear you waited until all your constant readers comment before posting a chapter!:) I really appreciate it. And you can’t imagine how great it was to see the next update so soon! I love your story.

Brian mentioned in his thoughts that he’d been waiting for a long time until he could touch Justin for real. I wonder, is it just a figurative way to show how much he wants Justin, that every moment apart feels like eternity, or did he really wait long? I feel like sitting in the needles constantly – I can’t even understand if Brian is a supernatural creature, or human whose life has hardened him.

Omg, Brian wanted to beat the driver up?? Good thing the man didn’t stop, then! Brian should really work on his aggression issues, or he’s risking to lose everything he’s built so far with Justin. Clearly Justin was abused, so he won’t tolerate violence – not ever. Brian has to understand that.

Oh, the whole hand&blow job thing was so hot! I loved it! I loved how Brian was guiding Justin, and that despite Justin’s obvious innocence, Brian still managed to get hat he wanted – and to get Justin want that. That was great. I wonder, is Justin a virgin? He certainly behaves like one, but those scars make me believe he had an abusive boyfriend. So he can’t be a virgin then. I’m completely confused!:) I also loved how Brian made Justin scream *blushes* It was fantastically hot.

‘You’re saving me’ – hmm… again, did Brian mean it literally? In this case, I believe he meant that Justin was a ray of sunshine in his life, but I’m not sure. There is nothing I can be sure of, except Brian and Justin’s mutual attraction!:)

Thank you, it was a great chapter! I can’t wait for more!

 

Author's Response:

Hi Kat! Of course I wait for them hon. THEIR comments are sooo valuable for me so know that if I ever stop updating it's maybe your fault or one of the other loyal commenters because you haven't commented yet. ;D

hmmm... let me think... , no, he didn't mean it just in words ;)

*sighs* Brian should really learn to stop himself very soon !!!

*smiles* I'm happy you liked that dear. It was te first time that I wrote anything like that and I wasn't sure you would like it :)))) . and about the virgin thing, we'll know soon ;D

so give me a few seconds to think again ... hmmm... my mind say literally about the last question ;)))

 

you are quite welcome my dear friend and thank you so much for the comment again :)

nooooo, why do you do that! so hot, so scorching, and so short! i want more! i'm becoming obsessed with this story! and with this brian! thank you!

Author's Response:

I'm sorry hon but it couldn't be longer but I'll try to make the future one longer ;) . thank you soooo much nata. It really makes me happy to know that you are enjoying this story :)))))

Hot chapter my friend...but I am still just as confused as Justin.

Author's Response:

thank you dear jazze :)

good then you really understand his feelings now ;D

thank you! it was a very satisfying chapter, justin got really lucky. who IS he to brian that brian's ready to sacrifice everything to protect him??? the ending was hot, i'm longing, dying for the next chapter!

Author's Response:

you are welcome hon and thank you so much for letting me know youropinion again :)) .

I hope you get your answers in the comoing chapters veronika :)

Yes, I sure as hell liked this chapter!:) It’s really hard to describe how relieved I am that you update so fast. Considering every time you finish the chapter, you finish it with a terrible, crazy cliffhanger! I’m glad to know Brian has managed to save Justin, even in the last moment! But it returns us to the initial question. Just what is Justin to him? Why he cares so much about him? Jealousy, possessiveness could be a part of obsession, but the fact that he is ready to risk everything, his life included, just to save Justin, takes all of this to a completely new, higher level. Where does Brian know Justin from? And, again, what is he? I hope we’ll get at least some part of the answers soon, because it’s getting more and more intriguing!

I loved how Brian didn’t lose his sense of humor even seconds after an accident:) It was so funny, especially his remark about ‘being always on top’.

I also love how Brian forces himself to control his anger, no matter what Justin is throwing at him. I support Justin, of course, and I think Brian now has some explaining to do, but still, aggression can’t just go away in an instant. So I love that despite the depth of his fury, Brian doesn’t hurt Justin. He’s not abusive, now it’s absolutely obvious, and it must help Justin to trust him again a little.

Hm, I noticed that Brian only drinks water, he hasn’t touched food so far. Is it a coincidence, or something more?

*Loved* it when Justin cleaned Brian up!:) That was so sweet, and I really enjoyed Brian’s reaction. He was so surprised.. it seems he is in love with Justin, but he doesn’t expect much tenderness from him. I wonder why. I can’t wait to see how he’ll react when Justin completely falls in love with him!:)

So, Justin has been suicidal not so long ago. I look forward to finding out. Did he have an abusive boyfriend? What about his family? His friends except Chris?

The ending was mind-blowing! I *really* hope you’ll update soon! Anger and aggressive nature of Brian quickly turned into passion, but it seems Justin isn’t fully ready for it yet. What will he do, and how will Brian react to his reaction? You’re a tormentor!:) Thank you for the great chapter, I’m hoping for more soon!

 

Katja   

Author's Response:

hey Kat!!! you know, in this story, there are some awesome people like you that let me know their opinions about each chapter and I REALLY adore them so whenever I post a new one, I wait to hear their opinions first and that's why I was waiting to hear yours too before I posted a new chapter and now here's the next one ;D

You know, I believe there are gonna be MORE hints in the next coming chapters and you just need to find them in each chapter before you get the complete back story ;)

Yeah, that's what I believe true love is about, you can't hurt the ones you love even when you're really ANGRY with them.*lol*

You are right, unfortunately, in Brian's life, there's not much every_day tenderness and when he sees that towards himself, he's surprised ;))

 

you are quite welcome dear. you don't know how much I love it and feel more energy to continue this story when I see you reviewing everything u liked in each chapter

*hugs*

I might be in the minority here, but I think after so many chapters the back story would be clear by now. We still have zero answers as to why Brian is involved with Justin or even what Brian is. I'm loving the story but I really don't understand it. There just aren't enough facts for me to solidly grasp it. I know you say that the answers will be revealed soon, so I'll try to be a little more patient...having one cliffhanger after another is starting to make me get antsy though ;)

Author's Response:

Hi jazze, thank you again for reviewing hon. yeah I know you want them sooner than later and I'm doing my best to give them away when I see a chance for it ;) . I assure you hon, I'm not gonna leave you without them in the end, so plz be more patient  and we'll know the story soon :))

oh it was a superb chapter, but it ended too early! i want more! it's such a torture to wait for the next chapter all the time. i'm so happy that you update fast - thank you so much for it! or my poor heart woouldnt be able to take it. i'm so glad that brian saved justin!!! i hoped it would be like that! i was almost hit my a car once, just like justin i was just standing and waiting, i couldn't move! it's a strange feeling. i'm glad brian was there! i loved that he got so angry when justin asked if he did it because he wanted justin to owe him something. but i noticed that no matter how angry brian is, he doesn't take it out on justin. i want to know what's next!!! cheers!

Author's Response:

Hi again nata :) . Thank you so mych dear. sure hon I'll update as soon as I can :)

awww I know what u say, I had experience like that once, before you experience it, you think, I'll jump out of the way at the last sec but you find yourself stuck to the ground in reality! but of course unfotunately I didn't have Brian then*lol*

yes I think our Brian loves his Jus in a special way that he can't even think about hurting him ;)

I've just read it again, and I have to say, it's so tragic, yet realistic that people who experience great inner turmoil can easily get into troubles. I remember seeing a documentary where girl who was usually very intelligent and careful saw her boyfriend kissing her friend in the club, got upset and ran outside. She caught some car to get home, even though she'd NEVER done it before, and the driver murdered her. It was so sad, especially because she knew not to get in the car with strangers, but she was so upset, she couldn't think straight. Same with Justin. He only noticed he was in the middle of the road when it was already too late :( And now his life and his health are in danger. I also feel sorry for Brian, because just like that poor girl's boyfriend, he will probably be unable to forgive himself.

Author's Response:

ohhhh really? so it was a REAL story? wow how TRAGIC. I don't think you can ever forgive yourself if someone you love is hurt like that because of you. I didn't have an exact experience like that myself but had someone I loved DEARLY hurt because of my foolishness and believe me, you can NEVER forgive yourself even when that loved one forgives you and forgets everything. It just never goes away :((((