Breathe in for luck breathe in so deep, this air is blessed, you share with me. I take a deep breath when Justin walks into my office. “Mr. Kinney?” he questions more than anything. “Taylor, come sit down” I say motioning to a chair. “You wanted to see me?” He sits down then glances up at me. “I gave it some thought. I decided you should take me back” he says looking at me. “Oh?” I say smirking. “Even though I’ve made a few mistakes I think you’d be making an even bigger one not giving me a second chance.” “I see” I say a look of utter seriousness on my face. “Because now I understand what you want of me” he begins. “And I know what I can expect from you” he finishes leaning back in his chair. “You also understand you'll be required to work long hard hours, sometimes deep into the night.” “It'll be a pleasure to work under you, sir.” “And you are never to play violin music in my presence again.” “I promise” he whispers getting up moving closer to me. “Good” I say our mouths inches apart. “Well than you can start immediately.” He breaks the space between is connecting us at the lips. This night is wild so calm and dull, these hearts they race, from self control. Soon we’re both undressed and on the floor. Your legs are smooth as they graze mine, we're doing fine, we're doing nothing at all. I missed having him in my arms. Missed the feeling of being inside of him, missed him. I know I love him, he knows I love him. I want to tell him, but I can’t. So for now I’ll just kiss him, and nibble at his ear. My hopes are so high that your kiss might kill me. So won't you kill me so I die happy. My heart is yours to fill or burst to break or bury, or wear as jewelry, which ever you prefer. A little while later we’re on the floor, our legs tangled together. Justin’s hair in his eyes, looking at me smiling. I smile back and kiss him, and I know that he knows. How could he not? Some day I’ll tell him, but right now I’m going to hold him in my arms as he traces circles on my chest. “Justin” I whisper. “Yeah” he says. “You know right?” “Of course Brian, I’ve always known.” “Good” I say smiling. “Oh and Brian” he says. “What?” I ask. “I love you too.” I press my lips to his, and I feel him smile against my mouth. The words are hushed lets not get busted; just lay entwined here, undiscovered. I can just see everyone’s face when they find out. Maybe we won’t tell them, just let them find out on their own. But I know Justin won’t be able to keep his mouth shut. I can here them talking now. Safe in here from all the stupid questions. "Hey did you get some?" Man that is so dumb. I laugh silently to myself and pull Justin closer. I mean we are going to need something to tell the guys right? Stay quiet, stay near, Stay close they can't hear so we can get some. I kiss Justin’s neck moving closer to his mouth. His eyes are closed and he’s smiling. I’ve never believed in destiny, that everything in your life is pre-decided. But with Justin it’s hard not to believe in it. Because this one-twink wonder had some how magically gotten under my skin and into my heart. My hopes are so high that your kiss might kill me. So won't you kill me, so I die happy. My heart is yours to fill or burst, to break or bury, or wear as jewelry, which ever you prefer. I never want this feeling to end. I have Justin back, which is the greatest feeling in the world. Knowing that I have the love of my life back in my arms where he belongs. I glance up at the clock. “Fuck” I say. “What” Justin says opening his eyes. “It’s almost one we should get out of here” I say sitting up. “Oh shit, you’re right” he says also sitting up. When we walk out of my office, I notice Cynthia has left for the night. The cleaning crew is giving us a dirty look as we walk to the elevator. Justin’s hand some how finds mine, and I lace our fingers together. The air is thick and wet when we step out into the dark night, it’s going to start raining any moment. Shit and my fuckin car is parked around the block at the staff lot, when the fuck is Vance going to build a lot closer to the building? Well we better hurry if we don’t want to get rained on, and as soon as the thought enters my mind it starts pouring. “Shit” I say as we stand by the door to keep dry. “I guess we have to wait” I say looking at my watch. “If wait we’ll never get home” he says with a sigh. Home he called the loft home, thank god it’s dark or Justin might see me smiling. “So what do you suggest Einstein?” I ask. “We haul ass to the car.” “And get fuckin soaked? Forget that Sunshine” I say turning to face him. “Fine, I’ll meet you there.” “What the hell are you…?” But I can’t finish me sentence because Justin has covered his lips with mine. Then he smiles and runs out into the rain. “Fuck! Justin” I shout at him. “Come on” he yells back. “And catch pneumonia, no thanks.” But it’s too late Justin has grabbed my hand and pulled me out into the rain. “You little fucker!” I yell at him. But he just smiles. “I’m going to have to kill you now” I say approaching him. “Oh really?” he asks still smiling. “Yeah” I say getting closer. “Not if you can’t catch me” he says turning on his heel. But im too fast for him, I grab him by the back of his shirt and pull him to me pressing my lips hard to his. I know it’s so Hollywood. Two lovers standing in the street, and me realizing how much I need him and that I would do anything, and go to any length to have him in my arms. It’s so picture perfect. Hands down this is the best day I can ever remember, I'll always remember the sound of the stereo, the dim of the soft lights, the scent of your hair that you twirled in your fingers and the time on the clock when we realized it's so late and this walk that we shared together. “Come on” Justin says pulling his lips from mine. “I’m freezing my ass off out here.” I laugh brush the hair from his eyes; and kiss him one last time. He grabs my hand and starts to run around the corner to where my car is. When we finally reach the gate to the parking lot, it’s locked. I look for the key in my pockets. Fuck just my luck, I lost it. “Hold on” I say walking to the fence. Shit I’m a little old to be jumping fences, but I do it anyway for Justin. I open the gate from the inside and Justin smiles as he walks past me. The streets were wet and the gate was locked so I jumped it, and I let you in. “My hero” he says sarcastically as we approach the Corvette. “Yeah and don’t forget it” I say putting my weight against him so we’re leaning against the passenger door. He wraps his arms around my waist and it feels so good to have them there again. I smile and he leans up and kisses me. And you stood at your door with your hands on my waist and you kissed me like you meant it. I feel all the love in the world pouring into me as we kiss. And I know it’s time. Time for me to grow the fuck up, and realize what I have with Justin. Because what I have with him is hard to find, and I’ve finally realized it. So it took me two years, him getting his head bashed in, and him leaving me to realize it. But at least I did. “I love you” I whisper into his ear. He looks up at me, and I can’t tell if those are tears running down his face or the rain. “You okay?” I ask. He nods and pulls me close to him. There I said it, and I’ll never hear the end of it from Michael, but never the less it was worth it. He lifts his head and looks up at me, and now I know those are tears in his eyes. “I love you too Brian” he says and then kisses me again. Yeah it was worth it. And I knew that you meant it, that you meant it, that you meant it, and I knew, that you meant it, and that you meant it.