So I finally got my happy ending. Brian and I finally did it. We finally committed to each other. Something I thought Brian Kinney would never do, especially with the "twink" who wouldn't give up. I just figured it would never happen between us. I loved Brian from the moment I saw him. I was also deathly afraid of him. He was going to be my first sexual encounter with anyone. What if I wasn't good? I was just so fucking scared especially when I realized I liked men. Then something I didn't expect happened. He came right over to me, took me home and made love to me. Though he'd never admit it because at that time everyone was just a fuck to him. I guess I was persistent enough because he stood up for me in front of my parents, took care of me and supported me. No matter how much I fucked up he was there to save me. He was what kept me going after the bashing. He's the reason why I drew again. He did things my own mother couldn't do. He reached me. He loved me enough to not let me give up. When Ethan came into my life he pushed me towards him. Never once saying how he felt. He told me to do what I wanted. So I thought I did. I didn't realize until much later that Brian was showing me how much he loved me by letting me go. I wanted him to fight for me but he didn't want to jeporadize anything. He never asked me to change who I was. He never expected me to be something I wasn't. He didn't care who I was. When I almost quit school Brian picked me back up. He bought me a computer to help me do my art. He didn't do it out of sympathy, he did it because he knew how much I loved drawing. He didn't want me to loose my passion. He never once pitied me for what happened after the bashing. I thought he did after he took me in, but he did it so he could watch me. Keep me safe. Later when I made the anti-Stockwell posters he didn't interfere or try to change my beliefs. He asked me to stop making the posters for fear of his job but after a short conversations he handed me the posters and I left. He didn't care that I didn't like Stockwell and in time helped me with my campaign to shut Stockwell down. I don't know what the future holds for either of us. I know that we've stuck by each other through everything. The bashing, Brian's termination from Vanguard, my suspension from PIFA, Stockwell, everyting. I know I love him. I know he loves me. And I know wherever we end up we'll be together.