There it sits unceremoniously on the counter.  The invitation Brian gave me.  "Come celebrate our love and commitment."  Makes me want to throw up every time I look at it.  To top it off it's happening in less than a week now.  

"I'm becoming to think you're having a love affair with that peice of paper."  Tim jokes looking up from his legal briefs.

"What?"

Tim smiles sadly and comes over to me.  "You can't stop looking at that invitation.  Every time you walk by it you sigh."

"I don't." I protest knowing he's right.  

"It's okay.  I understand."  He tells me.

I know he does.  "I'm sorry."

Nodding, he picks the thing up.  "You should go.  Tell Brian you still love him."

"I don't-"

"Yes you do.  It's really alright Jus.  It really is.  I knew going into this I was second best.  Runner up.  Could never compete with Brian Kinney."  

Sighing I hug him.  "Then why did you get involved with me?"

He gives me another sad smile when he pulls back.  "Because I wanted to make you smile.  Because I love you.  And even if I was second best, as long as I could be near you...it was worth it."

"You deserve much better than me."  I tell him seriously.

Chuckling, Tim opens his mouth.  "Yeah, probably.  But you can't help who you fall in love with.  And if Brian says no I'll always be here."