Justin's POV: "Whoa" I can't believe this! Why did I do that? Why did I say that? I wasn't thinking, that's the problem. I felt his eyes on me the moment he was there and I just couldn't help the impulse to look into his eyes when I came. "Damn it!" I rub my hands over my face. Uhgh, I need another drink. I walk over to the bar and order a couple shots of vodka. It's the quickest way for me to get wasted. I throw them back. I barely even register the burn. I see Ben and Michael over at the other end of the bar. Michael sees me and waves me over with a little smile. I'm beginning to feel a little more at ease with this whole situation.....or at least the part about Michael anyways. I walk over to them with a nice big smile, which is returned by both Ben and Michael. This is going to be good. "Hey feeling better?" Ben asks with a sly smile. I give a sly smile of my own. "Much!" I do feel better in some way and you know what, I'm just not going to let what happened with Brian ruin this night for me. I'm home with my best friend. Michael seems to be ok with all of this. I'm just going to let myself be happy and forget about the whole little thing in the backroom. As a matter of fact I ask, "hey Michael you wanna dance?........ I promise to keep my hands above the waist at all times" I say with an evil grin. Ben and Michael both laugh. Michael nods his head and says... "Sure I'd love too." I take his hand and lead him to the dance floor and we start dancing. He's not half bad. All the sudden this tall lanky cute man with an obvious 'flair' for fashion starts to dance with us. "Hey Michael......who's the gorgeous young thing you got here.?" I have to laugh it's just too much, Michaels laughing as well. Finally Michael says.. "This is Justin Taylor. Bens best friend." the other man gets these big eyes, and mouths an “Oh.” "Justin I'd like you to meet my good friend, Emmett Honeycutt." Emmett holds his hand out, and I take it. "It is a pleasure to meet you gorgeous." he's says in such a sweet voice. I'm going to like him. With my hugest smile I say, "The pleasure is all mine, Emmett." When he finally lets go of my hand, I start to dance again. "Call me Em sweetie, everyone does. I think you and I are going to get along wonderfully!" he says with a big ol' smile. "I think your right, Em." I say with a laugh. He is fun! Ah I love dancing. I throw my head back and let the music take over my mind, until there is nothing left but the beat, and the rhythm. I let my body move to the pulse and everything else fades away. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ Brian's POV: After I watched Justin walk out of the backroom, I couldn't move I was just so stunned. But I guess the other patrons of the backroom thought I was waiting for something because before I knew it there was a trick in front of me undoing my jeans. He tried to kiss me but without even thinking I turn my face away......'what the fuck did I do that for? Oh yeah I don't want to lose the feeling of Justin's lips on mine.' The trick doesn't seem to mind though and just pushes me against the wall and gets on his knees. My cock has been rock hard from the moment Justin started dancing with Ben, and well everything else after that didn't help. The trick has taken my dick in his mouth and the only thing that I can think about is the soft kisses from Justin "oh god" I moan. I feel the trick 'um humh' around my dick, he must think that's for him. Well it's not.....it's for those soft kisses, and those whispered words, and especially for that gorgeous man that gave them. He was a beautiful boy when I first met him and I have dreamed countless dreams of he and I together. I know, I know Brian Kinney dreaming of being with a blonde twink? And when I say “being with” I mean being with, all the little things that go along with being with a person. Well guess what… ‘The Stud Of Liberty Avenue’ wants to be with one person, and one person only. I wonder how to go about this? I mean I've never done anything like this before. I don't even know how any of this shit works. I guess I'm going to have to learn, and learn quick, cause now that he's back I don't think I can stay away. That's wrong....I don't want to stay away. I feel someone touching my chest....I open my eyes, and oh shit that's right I'm getting my dick sucked. I shake my head and look down, fuck this is not even what I want. I want a blonde man with the softest lips I've ever felt, with the sweetest smell, the most gorgeous blue eyes I have ever seen, and that beautiful smile, and those soft kisses.......uh "Get the fuck off me...."I say to the trick and he looks up at me with questioning eyes. I don't give a fuck I don't want this from him or from anyone else but Justin. I just give him my best 'fuck off' look, and he gets up and storms off like a five year old. Oh fucking well. I lean my head against the wall as what I've just started hits me full force....."oh god, this is it, the start of the rest of my life." This feels good, humh... I thought I'd be scared but I'm not, I'm actually excited, really excited for the first time in I don't even remember. I know I'm smiling like a fool right now and I don't even care. I'm Brian Fucking Kinney for fucks sake and I can do anything I want! Even go after a man, which is exactly what I plan to do. I pull up my jeans and button them up. I leave the backroom and make my way to the bar. I see Ben so I move to where he is and order myself a double beam. Ben looks over at me, I throw back the shot and look back at him. I think I can still feel the small smile playing on my lips. I feel good. Ben is looking a little uneasy right now and I wonder what Justin has told him of those times with us. "Brian, I know that you have a thing with never seeing your tricks again and well I know how cruel you can be to them.....how cruel you were to Justin." Obviously he's told him a great deal. "But he is my best friend so I would expect that you show him if not the respect I know he deserves, than at least some common courtesy. He's a really great guy who deserves a little happiness in his life, it hasn't been easy for him since the last time you saw him and well, I don't want to see him hurt anymore. So please, let’s just leave the past in the past, with this case." I wonder what has happened to him since our last meeting? Well if I have anything to say about this, he's going to be happy. I plan on making him happy. My smile just got a mile wide with that thought. Jeeze I feel like a little kid. "What are you smiling about? Please tell me you'll at least be considerate, Brian, please." "I plan on being extremely considerate, sweet, kind, and even better than all that...... I plan on sweeping him off his feet!" Ben looks scared…. "Brian stop fucking around. I mean it don't fuck with him. He doesn't deserve it over something that happened two years ago between you two. You know, you can't help who you fall in love with......" he stops abruptly from his little lecture. He's got big eyes and he's covering his mouth up. "Um.....you know what..... just..... oh fuck, " "Are you saying that he's still in love with me?" I'm praying that this is the truth. He just stares at me. "Tell me...." "Look Brian regardless of anything he wont bother you, he got your point a long time ago. That's why he left and never came back, but this is not his fault. Neither of us had any idea. So please just leave it alone." "I don't want to leave it alone...."I tell him. "Look goddammit I have put up with everything from Michael being in love with you to all your snarky remarks to your late night calls, everything without a word! Well now it's time you showed me a little consideration in return. Justin is MY best friend and I wont have him treated like a piece of trash, it won’t happen do you understand me?" Wow I'm a little taken aback, and he's a little angry. I shake my head and tell him, "Ben I don't want to let it go because.....because making him leave is probably the worst mistake of my life.” I’ve lost my smile thinking of that day. And Ben looks more than a little surprised himself. It's to be expected. "Are you kidding me? " he asks. "Does this sound like something I would kid about?" I ask him with absolute seriousness in my voice and expression. I want him to know just how serious I am. "You are serious aren't you? I can't believe it after all this time. After everything he has been through, and you, you......" "I was scared. I knew that if he stayed around I would change my world for him, and well I just couldn't do it then. I didn't know how. I still don't know how. But this time I'm ready to do whatever it takes to have him in my life. I just hope I don't fuck it up." "Wow. I never thought I would see the day. Although I have no idea how receptive he will be to all this. See he has been through a lot the past two years and it has taken a lot away from him, too much away from him. He's kept a few things for himself but he has hidden them away, cause they caused him too much pain to think of them. Do you understand what I'm saying Brian? Cause I can't break his confidence completely." I think I get what he's saying. "He still loves me but he buried it, because of what I did?" It's more of a question cause to tell you the truth I'm not sure if I got this right. "So you see, you have your work cut out for you." I nod my head and look out to the dance floor, I find him immediately. God he's gorgeous. The way his body moves is amazing. I feel Ben put his hand on my shoulder...." He's more than worth the fight though." I just nod my head in understanding, cause I already know he is. Because even though we only had that one night together; from the moment I saw him, I knew he was the one, I knew he was special. That he was perfect for me. That's why I pushed so hard. "I'll make sure you don't fuck it up...." Ben says in a very reassuring voice. I turn to look at him. "Thanks I'd appreciate it. You do know that it's going to be one hell of job for you right?" I say tongue firmly in my cheek. He laughs at that. "I'm sure I'll live, and as long as you do what's right by Justin you'll live too." he says. I laugh at that and when I straighten up I see that he is nowhere near kidding. "Oh yeah I'm serious." ok. "Fair enough." I turn from him and I see that Emmett and Mikey are heading over towards us, but Justin is still on the dance floor. Mikey heads straight for Ben’s arms and Em stands at the bar and leans so he can still watch Justin dance, I don't like that. "He's gorgeous isn't he?" Em asks me. I look over at him and give him a small nod. "Just look at those hips shake.....umm..umm...yummy." I whip my head around and give him an evil glare. I don't want to hear him talk about him like that. "What I'd say?" He doesn't even know what he's doing, he has no idea about what's going on. "Just ......just don't talk about him like that." I say and turn my back to him. "Are you kidding me?" he asks incredulously. I turn and look at him. "No I'm not kidding you , and I suggest you take my advice very seriously." I turn my back on Emmett’s shocked expression although it’s really pretty funny. However, what I see next isn't so funny. I see an averaged sized guy, a little taller than Justin, brown hair, nicely tanned, kinda cute, and maybe 25 head over to Justin and start dancing with him. Humh? Maybe it's time I show my hand. I don't want to see him in the backroom again with some trick. I make my way over to him, but they are so into the dance neither one even notices me. I stand behind Justin and slip my arm around his waist, pulling him back into my chest. The trick is still holding onto him, I guess he thinks this is going to be a threesome, 'I don't think so.' I feel Justin relax into me so, I put my hand on the tricks shoulder and tell him in a very menacing voice, if I do say so myself. "Fuck Off!!!!" He looks a little startled, but fuck him. He looks into my eyes and I don't look all too happy right now. So he tucks tail and practically runs off the dance floor. Justin's still dancing and now he's grinding his ass against my cock, I let out a low growl.... it feels so good. I start to sway to the music, pushing my cock into his ass. He lays his head back against my shoulder, and I softly kiss his temple, but his skin feels so good under my lips I just stay there, giving light kisses over, and over again. I hear a small gasp, and a low moan. He turns his head to look at me and I give him a small smile. He reaches a hand up and with a feather touch, caresses my cheek. His touch feels so good, I just can't help myself, I lean down, and place a small tender kiss on his lips. We stay like that for a long while; I don't think either of us wants to lose this feeling. When I finally pull away and look into his eyes he looks stunned. I slowly turn him around so we're face to face, chest to chest. He hasn't stopped staring into my eyes. Finally I pull him all the way against me, and tuck his head under my chin and hold him that way while we barely sway to the music. When I finally notice my surroundings and how all of Babylon has practically stopped dancing and are instead staring at me like I've lost my mind, I chuckle at them, give one of my best smirks and continue to dance with the man in my arms. He however looks up at me with questioning eyes, so I motion for him to take a look at the rest of the people on the dance floor, to see the looks on their faces. He takes a look around and chuckles as well. Then I grab the back of his neck and bring his head back down to my chest. I feel him take a deep breath and let it out slowly. I keep my hand at the nap of his neck gently rubbing there and running my fingers through his soft blonde hair. I have my other hand on the small of his back holding him tightly to me while rubbing my thumb up and down. Justin moves his hands from my chest to my back and presses my body even closer to his. I give him a small peck on the top of his head, he looks up at me and I kiss his forehead, then I lean down and press my lips to his again, slowly slip my tongue out and lightly run it between his lips. He invites me in by slightly opening his lips and I slip my tongue in. The kiss is slow and sensual, exploring what was lost so long ago. I'm not sure how long we've been standing there having the best kiss of my life when suddenly he pulls away..... ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ Justin's POV: When I finally got a half coherent thought, and I realized what I was doing, I pulled away, from what was the most incredibly perfect kiss of my life. I won’t do this again. He won’t use me again; I couldn't survive the morning after when he would just throw me away again. Once was enough for me. I look up into his eyes and I find a strange look there, one that I can't read, and to tell you the truth I don't know if I want to. I extract myself from his hold which is no easy task since if I had my way I'd stay in these arms forever. "What are you doing.......stay with me." he says. Ugh.... I would love to I wanna say.....but he's only going to break my heart so I can't. "Why Brian, have you forgotten we've already done this, and that you told me countless times in just two days that you don't do repeats. So I think it's best that I just go find my next trick for the night....... I'm sure you can understand this." He looks kinda stunned; I guess he doesn't see how someone could just walk away from him. Which is what I'm going to force myself to do. When I finally get out of his grasp, I take a couple of steps back and say, "thanks Brian, that dance was fun." I say it with as much bravado I can come up with. I see something in his eyes flicker. Humh? He must be upset that he's going to have to find another trick for the night...oh well it won’t be me...... I look around the floor and I see a pretty nice looking man. Not too bad, golden light brown hair and he's built, at least six feet tall. Well, he'll do. I need to get out of this mess I've managed to get myself into....and that man is going to help me. I give Brian my best evil grin and...... "Well, well I think I just found the next pick of the night," as I nod my head over to the trick. Brian looks over and before he can look back to me I start to make my way over to the guy. I can't be this close to Brian anymore. I stand in front of the trick and as usual he makes up the distance, and wraps his arms around my waist. I start dancing against him, but all that's going through my mind is 'why can't I get a break? Why did Brian have to go and play with my feelings the way he did right now? Why did I have to kiss him in the backroom? Why didn't I keep my distance? I fucking know better by now. But I still couldn't stop myself. Why? Why? Why? ‘I lean my forehead against this guys chest. I need to get out of here. But I don't want to show my weakness to Brian...... ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ Ben's POV: I've been watching this whole exchange between Brian and Justin and for a moment I thought Justin was going to see the difference in the way Brian was treating him. But unfortunately I knew better. I knew he'd pull back. He always does. The problem is, I really believe Brian. I know him well enough to know that he would never say anything like that if he didn't truly mean it. I mean it goes against everything that he supposedly stands for. So this is no joke. See, a while ago when Justin finally opened up to me about Brian and what happened, he told me he fell in love at first sight. He knew from the moment that he saw him that he was the one. But after the little speech Brian gave him in the street that night, he said he had walked away cause he realized that Brian didn't feel the same and it hurt too much. But the problem is, he never stopped loving him. He's drawn countless sketches and countless paintings of Brian. He had two boyfriends and he compared both to him and of course they always fell short. He told me one time that he believed that everyone has their soul mate, their perfect match, their one chance at true love. If you find that one perfect person, and the chance passes you up or the other person doesn't see it or feel it, 'you’re fucking screwed' his words not mine. So he said when he realized he was screwed and he couldn't stop comparing other men to Brian and the fact that the men he did choose were far from good people, he realized he would never have what most people look for their entire lives. He had found it his first time out and lost it two days later. So he gave up and has been just going through the motions ever since. So now he's dancing with some guy, but wait he's not looking so good, he's leaning his head against the guys chest and it doesn't look like he's enjoying himself at all. He fakes it really well but if you know him, you can see it. He doesn't want to be there. It's time for me to step in. I feel a tap on my shoulder and I turn to see Michael. He's watched the entire exchange as well, and he knows what has happened between them. "I think you should go get Justin he doesn't look so hot." he says with a somewhat sad look on his face. "I was about to do just that.....thanks." I say and kiss him on the lips. I turn and head off to get Justin... I'm almost to him when I see Brian coming in fast from the spot he and Justin had been dancing. I put my hand up to stop him. He sees it and stops, I shake my head and with my hand on my chest I tell him without words I'll take care of it. He nods his head, but doesn't budge from his spot a few feet away from where they are dancing. Unfortunately Brian is going to have to be a little patient, Justin just isn't ready for this. Right now I know he's just all mixed up, and he's probably tearing himself up inside. Kicking himself for letting this happen, right now Brian just doesn't know how to handle him. So until he does I'll take care of this part. I finally get to Justin and I tap his shoulder. He turns his head and sees me. He gives me that huge smile that is half real and half fake. Like I said, he knows how to hide his feelings well, anyone else wouldn't be able to see that it's only half real. The trick looks over at me with an evil glint in his eyes. I smile though and ask in a sweet voice. "May I cut in?" oh he didn't like that. "No. Fuck off can't you see we're busy here?" I look at Justin and we both start busting up, this guy hasn’t got a clue. He's still got a tight hold on Justin and he's starting to get a little upset that the guy won’t let him go. "Look buddy it's time to go find someone else to play with....cause you can't play with him anymore." I say as I talk hold of Justin's arm, Justin tries to walk away but the guy wont let him go. I'm getting ready to push the guy off when Justin turns back to the guy...... "Look mother fucker if you don't let me go now we are going to have a serious problem, and trust me when I say you don't want to have to deal with me." He says in an extremely calm dangerous voice. I hope the guy heard the danger in it. "Ohhh I caught a frisky twink tonight!" he says with a chuckle, and he still hasn't let Justin go. Uh oh. I see Brian starting to make his way over here again but then he stops in his tracks with big eyes. I look back over to Justin and he's grabbed the guy by his hand has it bent back to where it looks like it's going to break. The guy falls to his knees..... "You didn't catch shit you stupid fuck! What did I tell you? I told you that you didn't want to fuck with me. Did you think that just because I was, how did you put it….a twink.. I couldn't take your ass? Well my little bitch, look who's on his knees now." With that he turns, takes my hand and leads me off the dance floor. The guy is sitting on the floor cradling his arm. It looks like he's crying. I wonder if Justin broke his hand? I look over at Brian before we reach the bar and he's got a huge grin and he's chuckling. I had to laugh. When we get to the bar Michael and Emmett both have open mouths and wide eyes. Yeah I know it's hard to believe that a little guy like Justin can take down a guy who's got a couple inches and at least 60 pounds on him, down. Unfortunately it was a necessity for him to learn. I was hoping that with me going over there, that it wouldn't come to that, but the guy just wouldn't listen. So in the end he got what was coming to him. "Where did you learn to do that?" Michael asked. "I took some classes." I find myself rolling my eyes at that. Just some classes my ass! He's a black belt in Tai Kwon Do, and Karate, but whatever. "Double Vodka, double Beam!!" Justin yells at the bartender. When he gets the drinks he pounds them one right after the other. He doesn't even wince. I'm starting to wonder how he's really been doing after being in London all that time. I know that when he went out there he didn't know anybody, but I did hear him talk about a girl her name was.........oh yeah Dianne. He said she was one of the funniest people he's ever met, so I know he had at least one friend over there. But Justin only really has two real friends and that's Daphne and myself. So I tend to worry about him isolating himself, which I know he does. "Another......of both!!" oh boy he plans on getting wasted tonight. I can tell by his rapid succession. He can hold his liquor better than anyone I know. He and Brian would probably end up killing each other if they ever decided to make a contest out of it. Now that's a scary thought. Humh. Tonight is not turning out like I had hoped. I go over to Michael and I give him a big kiss, and he smiles after we break apart. "So sweetie did you enjoy London?" Em asks. I guess he's trying to break the tension I can feel coming off of Justin. Before he answers he throws back the next two shots. "Yeah it was really good the museums are amazing and all the different touristy sites are great. I got a lot of inspiration being there, so I painted a lot. All the shows I did were pretty good so I'm happy about that and I signed two more clients to my company. Overall, it was a very productive trip." Again the man understates his success. In every show he did he practically sold every piece that was there. As for his clients, well let’s just say that they aren't just ordinary clients; they are the big fish of clients. Justin does web designs, and he loves doing it. He just landed the largest luxury cruise company in London and Virgin Records. See what I mean, very big companies. His company isn't all that big yet, but in a couple of years it's going to be huge. For the better part of two years now he's been racking up the clients, he really is amazing. He hasn't even been to college yet. He will go though, or so he says. But I can see the problems that might create. He's got a very successful business and with that comes employees that count on him. Plus there is his art.....he's got bookings for the next two years planned out. So I guess if he ever gets the time he'll go to college. I'm just wondering, when he finally gets to college are they going to be able to teach him anything he doesn't already know? "Well that's wonderful sweetie. I would love to go one day. When I was a boy in Hazlehurst I dreamed of going all over Europe. Paris, Rome and London of course, just everywhere! I almost got to go too, with the man of my dreams at that! My poor George, I still miss him." uh oh, Em is going to cry". "No I am not going to cry." He is getting better at that. "Well I'm sure one day you'll get there Em, and when you do, I'll help you plan your trip. I’ll tell you where all the good clubs are, all the really good museums, places to eat, shows to see." "Yeah?" Em asks "Sure. Why not?" "Well that would be great. So when one day comes along you’ll be the first person I come to." Em states with a laugh. "Bartender, a round of beers…. Budweiser." Justin orders for us. We get our beers and I'm starting to wonder where Brian is so I take a look around and I don't see him............ ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ Michael's POV: This is turning out to be one of the weirdest nights I have ever had. First off it's Justin.......Ben's best friend is Brian's trick from two years ago. So it's more than a little strange especially since I always knew that Justin was different. I mean Brian brought him to his son’s birth, hell he even let him name Gus. If I didn't know it before that moment, I definitely knew it then. Plus he let him stay the night, he took his virginity, and when I walked in on them the morning after, it was like they had been together for years the way they were acting, all sweet and gentle. Brian was dressing him for goodness sakes. Then when Justin stopped coming around I noticed a change in Brian, when we would be at Woody's he would tend to watch the door, he never did anything like that before, and I knew he was watching for Justin. I remember how much it had hurt at the time, because I knew Brian wanted to be with him in ways he'd never want to be with me, with anyone really. But he wanted this seventeen year old kid and from what I saw on the dance floor just a little while ago, he's never lost those feelings. If anything they've grown. Brian has never, ever in his life treated anyone so tenderly before. He's never showed that much emotion and caring for someone, and in the middle of Babylon no less!! This is pretty amazing, and a true testament to the fact that I am really over Brian in those ways. Because when I saw them dancing and holding each other like that, the only thoughts that were coming were 'maybe Brian has finally found someone that can make him happy that he can spend the rest of his life with.' See what I'm saying? I know Justin is the one too, just as much as Brian does. But I think that Justin may need a lot more reassuring on that point. Not to mention I think I'm going to have to keep a close eye on Brian to make sure he doesn't fuck it up. I want Brian to finally be happy, and I know Justin is the one who can make that happen but Brian has never done anything like this before so I'm thinking a little guidance will do a world of good. Plus I know a little bit about Justin's past relationships so I know that it's going to be extremely hard on him as well. Maybe if Ben and I team up we can make sure they get what I know they both want......each other. I wonder where Brian is, I haven't seen him since the whole thing with Justin breaking the guys hand, by the way, can I just say how funny that was? I need to learn how to do that. But anyway I take a look around but I can't see Brian anywhere......... ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ Justin's POV: Well let see here, I was supposed to come see my best friend, meet his boyfriend and his friends and have a good time talking, dancing and fucking. Let's just say that even though I have done all these things, not much of it has been very fun. I think I'm ready to call this night a bust and head home. Ben and I can catch up later and hopefully I can get to know Michael better. He really is turning out to be a good guy. I'd like to get to know Emmett better too; he seems like a fun person. But for now, I just want to get out of here and regroup. Seeing Brian was almost too much, I thought I could just move past it, but when I felt his eyes on me in the backroom with that trick I knew I was in trouble. Then…oh god…then the dance. Him pulling me away from the trick and holding me so close and kissing me so softly, I haven't had those feelings in such a long time, with him holding me so close and slowly rubbing my neck and, "mmmm" that kiss........ "Did you say something Justin?" Em asks me. Oops I did that out loud. Yeah I think it's time for me to head home, plus if I have to feel Brian's eyes on me anymore I think I'm going to go insane. He's been watching me from the catwalk almost as long as we have been standing at the bar. Don't ask me how it happens but from that very first night, the first time he ever looked at me I felt him watching me. I can tell when he walks into a room. I can always tell where he is in a room. Soul mates. That's the only way to explain it. But Brian won’t give into it, won’t allow it to happen. We missed our chance, we're screwed...well I'm screwed, he doesn't want all that lovey dovey stuff so he'll be happy to lead his life the way it is. I'm ready to go now. So I walk over to Ben..... "Hey Benny boy..... I think I'm going to head out. I'm still feeling the whole jet lag thing." he looks a little disappointed. "It's alright I'm sticking around so if you want call me tomorrow we can get lunch or something. How's that sound?" "That sounds great. I'll give you a call tomorrow then." "Do you need a ride?" Michael asks. "No I'm good. I brought my car. But thank you for the offer." Ben gives me a big hug, and in my ear whispers.. "I'm so glad your home and that you're sticking around." "Me too." Or at least I was until a certain hazel eyed man showed up. Now I'm just getting scared for my sanity. "And I'm sorry about all the drama tonight, I really had no idea...." I pull back enough to see his eyes. "Ben I know you didn't. How could you? It's alright, things will be fine I just need to regroup, I was just caught off guard it wont happen again." I say while I look into his eyes. He's got the worried look. Ummmm. I don't wanna get into this now. "Look Jus....." but I cut him off. "Benny boy....not tonight. Ok. Just.....not tonight." hoping he listens to me. "Alright but if you need anything, anything at all.....you'll call me right?" "That I can do," but I wont. We finally let go of each other and I turn to Michael, "It was really great to see you again Michael. Maybe we can get together and have a lunch of our own. I have all kinds of embarrassing little secrets about him." I say with a chuckle. Oh I see Benny boy wince a little at that one, and then I'm laughing. "Well since you put it that way, we should definitely have lunch.," he says with a cute little grin and a little bit of a chuckle. "Ah come on this is just not fair," Ben whines. I giggle at that and then he's laughing, my giggle always does that to him. "Well Benny boy.......with all do respect, I think your boyfriend has the right to know what a weirdo he’s dating." I say in all seriousness. "Hey I am NOT a weirdo." he tries for the seriousness but he knows deep down he's a little bit of a weirdo. "Uh humh. Right Benny what ever you say." I tell him in my best mock voice. "Alright, I'm outta here guys. Thanks for a wonderful evening. I'll see you both later." "Bye Jus." Ben says. "Bye Justin." Michael says and I nod my head. I turn to leave and out of nowhere, I’m enveloped in a huge hug. "Well sweet thing, were you gonna leave with out saying good bye?" ah Em. "Sorry about that but I didn't know where you scurried off too." "Well see that fine man with that beautiful bulge standing by the bar?" Yeah I see him, not half bad. Black hair with what looks like brown eyes, not as tall as I would think, for a man as tall as Em but hey. I nod my head in approval. "Well then you go play dirty with your new friend, I’m taking off. But I'm sure I'll see you soon, as a matter of fact..." I pull out my wallet and hand him one of my cards," this has all my numbers on it except my home but I don't have a pen, so when you call I'll give it to you then." "Oh yeah." he says with a big ol' smile. He so cute. "Well I will definitely be giving you a call." "Sounds good. I'll talk to you later then. Now go and have some fun." I say pushing him towards his playmate for the night. I'm heading out but right as I get to the chains at the entrance my body stops and of it's own accord 'I swear' I turn a little and look directly at Brian. He's looking directly into my eyes and I can't tear my self away. I wish I wasn't so pulled to him. I wish he didn't make me weak in the knees when he looks at me, I wish I didn't want him with every fiber of my being. What am I going to do? He smiles at me, and I give the tiniest smile in return. Then I force myself to turn and walk away. It's what has to be done......... ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ Brian's POV: I'm watching Justin walk away and I hate every second of it. But in my heart I know it's not the time to push for more. This is going to take time, and finesse, which I'm more than willing to give. When we were dancing and I had him wrapped in my arms, his arms wrapped around me, it just proved to me that I was right. He's the one. But the kiss is what sealed it. I swear if that kiss could've lasted for the rest of my life I would be the happiest man alive. It was perfect. I can still feel his lips against mine. I never want to lose that feeling. But when he pulled away I felt a pain shoot through my heart. I wanted to hold onto him, but when he threw my words back at me, I knew that he needed to walk away from me for now. He needed the space. I don't blame him, I'm sure I wouldn't trust me either after what I've said to him. It's going to take time to prove that this time is different. That I'm ready now, that I want this. I want there to be an US. I'm also going to have to remind him that we are meant to be together. Well I have a lot of planning to do; I think I better get started. I head downstairs and move around the opposite side of where the gang is towards the exit. I wanna figure out a game plan before I discuss this, cause I know that's what's going to happen once they get a hold of me. That ought to be fun. But for now I'm gonna go home have a very hot shower and of course let my hand have a little work out, while my mind indulges on tonight’s wonderful surprises. Then I'm gonna figure out how I'm going to get Justin back in my life, as quickly as possible.....