I have to thank my BETA Lucel she really helped me flesh out this chapter, and she got it back to me the same day. How wonderful is that!
Justin's POV: I ‘Knock’ on Jarred and Trudy’s front door. After Jonathan told me how much they missed me, I gave Trudy a call the next day. We set up plans to get together her Jarred and Jonathan and I, however with all of our schedules the first evening any of us had free together was a month later. After a couple of minutes Jarred answer the door with a huge smile on his face, “Well hello boys. Please come in,” he says standing a bit off to the side. “Hello Jarred,” he holds out his arms waiting for me to hug him. I walk into them and he gives me a very tight hug. “I have missed you Justin.” he tells me. I pull back and give him a smile. “It’s been far to long,” “I’ve missed you too Jarred,” I tell him and he keeps his arm around my shoulder. “How are you doing?” he asks me. “I’m doing good,” “Good boy. How about school? It’s your last year right?” “Yeah, and I couldn’t be happier with everything,” “At the top of your classes I’d expect,” says Jarred. I chuckle; he would expect that. “Yes.” I nod my head and smile at him. “I wouldn’t have it any other way.” He gives me a smile. “Course you wouldn’t.” he looks over to Jonathan, “What are you doing just standing in the doorway? Come in my boy,” he tells him while extending his hand, which Jonathan takes. “How are you sir?” he asks. “Oh Jonathan you know better than to call me sir outside the office.” he says to him while putting his other arm around Jonathan’s shoulder and ushering us into the living room. “Sorry Jarred.” “That’s better, and I am doing just fine. How about you? How are you adjusting to the office? I know when I started Jarred’s Insurance it took me a while to get into the swing of things,” he questions. “Oh everyone’s been just wonderful about getting me into the swing of things.” “Good. I’m glad everyone’s making you feel at home. Have a seat boys,” he lets us sit on the couch as he moves over to the wet bar. “What’ll it be?” “Some Beam,” I reply. Perfectly punctuated! “Vodka tonic,” Jonathan asks. “Here you go,” he says handing us our drinks which we sip. “Thanks,” we say in unison. He sits down across from us with his glass of Beam, he’s the reason I like this drink. He gave me my first glass, and it’s been my favorite ever since. “Dinner should be ready in just a few minutes. Trudy is making your favorite Justin,” “Oh she makes the best Chicken Parmesan,” She does too. My mouth is just watering from the simple thought of it. “Did you know she got that recipe from your mother?” “No, I didn’t know that.” “As time went on and we ate at your house and them at ours, they would just swap recipes. Whatever tasted better or if they didn’t have it,” I nod my head, I always learn something new about my mother when I come here which makes it a little difficult to do sometimes. She was killed when I was 7 so I don’t remember to much of her. I still remember that day like it was yesterday though... from what I was told and from what I have looked up since then she was going to her car in an underground parking garage after a committee meeting. Then someone came and took her to a far corner and rape her than stabbed her to death. God I miss her so much. I wonder if my life would’ve turned out differently had she not died. I wonder if my father would’ve disowned me if she was alive? She probably wouldn’t of let him. I remember her being so kind and loving, never saying a bad thing about anyone. I remember one time I asked Trudy, “Do you think she still would’ve loved me if she knew I was gay?” “She wouldn’t have cared either way. She would’ve loved you the same. All she ever said from the moment she found out she was pregnant was ‘as long as you were healthy and happy that’s all that matters,’” “I miss her,” “Me too sweety. Me too,” she told me as she took me in her arms. I’m so thankful to have these two people in my life, not just because they are my only link left to my mother but because they love me, unconditionally. “Justin, Jonathan oh it’s so good to see you both again,” Trudy says coming into the living room with arms stretched out. Jonathan and I both stand up and she gives first Jonathan a hug then moves over to me. “Oh Justin, it’s been far to long.” she says taking me into a tight hug. “I know; I’m sorry.” “Ok well let’s not do it again then.” I smile at her and nod my head. “Dinner is ready,” she says and slides her arm through mine, so I can escort her to the dining room. I sit her down in her chair before I move to mine and Jonathan pulls out the chair for me. He’s so proper sometimes. But even this is a little much for me. I mean come on I’m not some little lady that’s in need of her man to pull out her chair for her. I notice Jarred looking our way and I just shake my head, I don’t want to talk about this. But he just nods his head and takes his seat. When we are settled and eating our food the conversation turns to the simple things of school and work. I had just told them I was still working for Grey’s without mentioning how just how much I work there. That got me a weird look from Jonathan, which I ignored because they would go into hyper drive trying to fix everything for me, and that’s something I definitely don’t want. By the time we are done with dinner Jarred and Jonathan are in full office talk so we let to into the study while Trudy and I go about clearing the table and doing the dishes. While we are doing the dishes Trudy starts the real questions, the questions my mother would ask me. I have no doubt. “So Justin I’m a little surprised to see you and Jonathan together,” she hands me a dish and I almost drop the thing. “What do you mean?” I’m not sure where she’s going with this. We didn’t even say we were together. “Don’t you play dumb with me young man. I’ve known you far to long for something like that to work,” she says shaking a wet finger at me. “So tell me what’s going on,” I let my breath go in a heavy sigh. “Well he came back wanting to give us a real try,” I simply reply hoping she will leave it at that. “Do you love him?” which obviously isn’t going to happen. “He’s my best friend, of course I love him,” why does everyone want to know the answer to that question? Can’t I have a little time to fall in love? Doesn’t it take time to fall in love? We’ve only been doing this relationship thing for a month now and I have been asked that question from the very start it seems. “I’ll take that as a no,” she stops washing dishes and turns to me. “What?” I hate it when she does this. “I knew he loved you Justin, but I also know you never loved him in that way. You know that yourself...” “It could happen though. I mean I just never thought about us in that way.” “And now that you have what do you see?” she asks. “I see my best friend.” it’s true I have tried to look at him in the boyfriend capacity and I just can’t see it. “But maybe it just needs some more time.” “How long have you two been trying this thing out?” “A month.” “And you haven’t seen any kind of change in your feelings for him?” “No,” I finally said it out loud. “Oh Justin,” she says worriedly. “I know,” I know what she’s telling me without her even saying it. “You need to break it off with him then,” I lean my back against the sink. “I can’t hurt him like that,” “Honey you are just going to hurt him more the longer you let this go on,” she rubs my shoulder, then turns back to the dishes. “So when is the graduation?” I love how the woman can just go from one subject to another like there was never a serious one going on. “June 18th,” “Well we better get an invitation,” she says handing me another dish. “Of course you will,” I say and we finish up the dishes. FYFYFYFYFYFYFYFYFYFYFYFYFYFYFYFYFYFYFYFYFYFYFYFYFYFYFYFYFYFYF Jonathan’s POV: When we finally get out of there it’s time for JT to go to work so he drops me off at the apartment and heads straight to work.. I still think he works to much and I have tried in this last month to get him to slow down to except my help but he always refuses. But I still try. The last month has been ok I guess you could say. But JT’s feeling for me haven’t changed in the way I was hoping they would. I have been waiting for them too, and I thought for sure they would. But it seems there was an unforseen problem in my plan, Brian Kinney. Yea I knew he wanted Justin from the first moment I saw him and then when he gave me that look, we totally understood that we were going for the same man. But I foolishly thought since I had known JT for years and since we were best friends, and already loved each other, I was a shoe in. I don’t know how I missed the way they seemed together and the fact that they had both fallen for each other, it was probably the fact that I was just so happy to have him back in my arms. Hell I didn’t even notice anything until we ran into Brian and his friends again in the diner about three weeks ago. We went in for Sunday breakfast and we were laughing at something or other I don’t even remember now, but when JT turned around to see where he was going he stopped all movement and there wasn’t a sound coming from him, I look in the direction and found Brian and him staring at each other. I tired to ignore it, to tell myself that JT would get over it, he just need some time. That’s what I kept telling myself even when I found the 6 paintings in the back of our closet, even though every time we ran into Brian it seemed like everything just stopped for both of them. But the one thing I couldn’t ignore was his subconscious telling me what he wanted. When I woke up this morning I was going to wake him up nicely I started to slowly kiss down his back, when I heard him sigh “Brian,” I knew that I wasn’t going to be the one for him. He won’t be truly happy with me the way he will with Brian. They are in love with each other. And god that hurts so much. But despite what I feel I want my best friend to be happy. I want him to have everything in the world to make him happy, whatever he wants. Just like he wants for me. I mean look at what he did for me. He tried giving me what I wanted, but it’s just not something he can give me. His heart isn’t his to give anymore. So now all I have to do is let him go. FYFYFYFYFYFYFYFYFYFYFYFYFYFYFYFYFYFYFYFYFYFYFYFYFYFYFYFYFYFYF Justin’s POV: The whole night all I have thought about is what Trudy and I talked about. I know she’s right but I still think that I should try a little harder. A little longer. So that’s what I have decided to do. Plus I don’t think I have put a hundred percent into this relationship with him, I am still trying to get over Brian. I know how pathetic. It’s been a month after all. But I still can’t get him out of my mind. We still run into each other every so often and it hurts so much to look into his eyes and see that he cares for me and that there is nothing I can do. Not to mention that I go down to the main floor every night after work just so I can see him for a second. I don’t watch long if I do he feels it and looks in at me, and then he gets this sad look that I just can’t stand to see on him. So I just take a second to see him. But I stopped tonight, when I realized that in order to do this relationship thing I have to give my full attention to Jonathan. When I open the door to the apartment I see Jonathan sitting on the couch with just the side table lamp on. I give him a smile, which he returns as I close the door. “Hey what are you doing up?” I ask him before I bend over and give him a quick peck on the mouth, and sit beside him. “I wanted to talk to you before I left.” I felt my stomach tighten into knots, why is he leaving? “What are you talking about? Where are you going?” he leans over putting his elbows on his knees and his head in his hands. “You know as well as I do this isn’t working JT,” he states. Oh boy. “Jonathan...” “JT, it’s ok,” he looks over to me, and I can see so much hurt in his eyes, that it makes me look away in pain “Hey,” he says taking my chin and making me look at him again. “I know you tried your best.” I can feel the tears behind my eyes. “No I didn’t,” I shake my head. “Maybe not but that’s just because you were already in love.” I see a tear coming down his cheek. “No, I just…” “You can’t pick who you fall in love with, it just happens...or doesn’t. You couldn’t help that you fell in love with Brian, just like I couldn’t help the fact that I fell in love with you.” he wipes the tear away from my cheek. “Don’t cry, baby. Everything’s going to be ok,” “I’m so sorry; I didn’t mean to hurt you.” “I know you didn’t. I knew when we started this that it may not work out, but I am so glad we gave it a shot. Now I can’t say I didn’t try.” he says with a tiny smile. “But we are still best friends,” “Always,” “Always. And as your best friend I’m going to give you a piece of advice, give you and Brian a try. If you don’t you will regret it for the rest of your life.” he tells me, and I am just amazed at this man, after everything he is still being my best friend and telling me to go for another man. “I don’t know,” “Why not?” “I know he cares for me, but I don’t know if I could handle him breaking my heart.” I tell him and it’s the truth. “How do you know he’s going to break your heart?” “I don’t know, I just do.” “You won’t know for sure unless you try JT, so try. I think he would do just about anything to make you happy.” I look at him and I see that he really believes that. “We’ll see.” I say and leave it at that. “Where are you going to go?” “Oh... I am going to go to a hotel for now,” “No stay here,” I can’t send him to a hotel. “No it’s time that I leave. We both need our space,” I nod my head. This is probably what he needs. “Ok,” he puts his hand on my cheek and I can feel the tears coming back, but I hold onto them. He brings our lips together in one last soft kiss. When he pulls back I see a tear coming down his cheek before he wipes it away, and I want to take him in my arms and make it all better, but I know this is for the best. I can’t give him what he deserves. I tried but I just can’t, and being his best friend I should make sure he has the opportunity to find the person who can give him everything he deserves and more. He stands up and grabs his bags, “I’ll call you in a couple of days to let you know what’s up,” “Ok,” I don’t know what else to say. He moves over to the door, and looks at me for a minute, “Ok,” he says opening the door and walking out. I walk over and look out the peep hole and watch him wipe another tear away as he steps into the elevator. Then I let my tears go, I broke my best friends heart. FYFYFYFYFYFYFYFYFYFYFYFYFYFYFYFYFYFYFYFYFYFYFYFYFYFYFYFYFYFYF Brian’s POV: The next day Brian’s office, ~~~~~~~~~~ God this last month has been so incredibly hard. I have missed him so much. The wanting to see him and touch him has only grown since that night in the parking lot. Having him in my arms is something that I just can’t seem to get out of my head. Hell I’m not even sure I want it out of my head either. But when I see him at the diner with Jonathan or coming down from the top level after he gets off of work, that’s when I wish I could forget. It hurts you know? I try my best to ignore them and he even tries to ignore me but there is just this pull with us that makes us look in the others direction whether we want to or not. But then when I am laying in my bed all alone, him being in my arms is the thing that I want to remember the most. It’s all just one big ball of torture. Not to mention how horrible I feel about him having to work at the club dancing every night of the week since he got fired from Grey’s. When I have caught him looking at me in the club I can see how tired he looks. I wish he would except the money from the accounts he’s helped me with. I have had to set up an account for him. All of his money is in there whether he likes it or not. I won’t let him give up the money he earned. ‘Beep..’ “Boss Mr. Daven is on line one.” humh? “Ok, thanks Cyn. Hello Mr. Daven, what can I do for you this afternoon?” He is one of our biggest accounts. “Well we are going to be bringing out a new line of designer furniture. So I was wondering if you could come up with a new campaign?” “Well of course we can. Did you have anything specific in mind?” I ask pulling out a notepad and pen to make a few notes. “I was talking to Mr. Calagane and he has told me that you have a new person that has been working with you on certain accounts, and he has told me that the young man and you working together is just an amazing package. So I was hoping you could get him to work on this account with you?” he says and my hand just stops all movement. “You want Mr. Taylor to work on your account?” “Yes if you think you could get him?” “Um well I’m not sure...” how do I get out of this one? “If your not sure maybe another company could get him to work on my account, however I would much rather it be with you,” great now I’m being threatened. I can’t fucking lose this account. Fuck!! “No, no problem I can get him to work on the account,” you fat fuck! “Good, good. Give me a call to make an appointment in a couple of weeks when the boards are ready.” the smug bastard. “Yes sir.” “Have a good day Mr. Kinney.” “You too Mr. Daven.” how the fuck am I supposed to get Justin to work on this account with me, and on top of that how am I supposed to work with him? “I’m in hell,” FYFYFYFYFYFYFYFYFYFYFYFYFYFYFYFYFYFYFYFYFYFYFYFYFYFYFYFYFYFYF Justin’s POV: Today just seemed to drag on forever. I didn’t get any sleep last night and I couldn’t of picked a worse time for this shit to happen. We are getting ready for exams in five of my classes right now and I had three of them today. Suffice to say I don’t remember a damn thing. Doesn’t matter though really cause I am so far ahead in my studies that he could give another four speech’s and I would already know what he was talking about even if I never showed up. But right now I am so exhausted and I think I could actually get some sleep so I am climbing into bed right now. I feel myself sinking into oblivion almost immediately and oh life is great right now. ‘Knock....knock.’ shit I spoke to soon. Fuck it, they’ll go away. ‘Knock...knock!’ ok maybe they won’t. Fucking shit, why is it that whenever I am trying to sleep something always seems to come along to ruin it for me? I swear I am going to chew whoever this is a new fucking ass hole. ‘Knock...knock’ “Alright, I’m fucking coming already, shit!” I yell stomping out of my bedroom while tying my robe and flinging the door open ready to dig into whoever has the nerve to bang on my door until I look up and see Brian and his gorgeous smile, and god those hazel eyes can stop me dead in my tracks. “I’m sorry was I interrupting something?” he asks with a smirk, “Hunh? Oh yeah,” I stammer. Jesus what this man can do to me. It scares the shit out of me. “Well I won’t keep you from the boyfriend,” he says. “No, no I wasn’t,... I was just trying to get some sleep before work tonight,” I tell him quickly. He gives me that adorable tongue in cheek smirk, “I’m sorry, I know you haven’t been sleeping that well,” he says looking a little worried. “How did you know I haven’t been sleeping well?” I ask, confused. “I can see it in your eyes,” he says reaching out to touch my cheek, lightly moving his thumb, before he quickly removes his hand, slightly looking over my shoulder. “Sorry. Is Jonathan here?” he asks quietly. “Oh um no, no he’s not here.” god I am so nervous right now. I feel like I’m in high school with my first crush. Fuck my palms are even sweaty. “In that case, do you think I could come in?” “Oh yes of course I’m sorry.” I step aside, “come in,” he walks past me and god could he look any hotter right now? Black suit, red button up with the first few buttons undone, hair perfectly messy, oh and he smells so good. I love the way he smells. “Have a seat. Do you want anything to drink?” “No I’m good. I won’t be here long, I just came by to ask a favor,” humh? FYFYFYFYFYFYFYFYFYFYFYFYFYFYFYFYFYFYFYFYFYFYFYFYFYFYFYFYFYFYF Brian’s POV: I can’t believe I am here asking him for a favor. Fuck after everything he’s already done for me and then me getting him fired. Not to mention he’s already got an over flowing schedule. He looks fucking exhausted. I wish he would just take the money he earned from the accounts he did and use that instead of working all these hours. He has more than enough to get him through the next semester of at least one school and with this next account it will make him enough to get through the other school as well. He sits down on the opposite end of the couch. I can’t help but notice that it’s as far away from me as he can get. This is the way he is around me now. As far away as possible. Not that it was ever a close kind of relationship but ever since that night it seems so wrong some how. “What do you need?” You. Is the first thought but I shake it off. “I got a call from Mr. Daven of Media Furniture,” I see his eyes open wide at the company name, and I just have to smile. “He wants to launch a new line of designer furniture.” “What’s that got to do with me?” he asks looking more than confused. “Well if you’d let me finish.” he mouth’s a ‘sorry’ and I continue. “Seems he heard from Mr. Calagane that you and I work amazingly together and now he wants us to work on his new campaign for him.” he looks a little weirded out. “Oh well um I can’t do it. I’m sorry I just don’t know when I would have the time.”he looks really sad about it. “Look Justin, with the money from the other accounts you did and this account that we could do right now, you wouldn’t have to dance anymore,” “Brian that isn’t my money I shouldn’t of even done though’s accounts,” “You know what stop giving me that shit,” I can’t take this any more. “Fuck Justin, this is what you want yes?” “What?” “To be in advertising, to write and draw some of the most famous campaigns ever?” “Well yes but,” “No, no buts. This is your chance Justin. These big wigs are asking for you to work on there accounts, when something like this happens you jump on it and never look back.” “But I haven’t even graduated college yet.” “Who fucking cares? They certainly won’t as long as you make their campaigns kick ass like your others.” and it’s the truth they don’t care about anything except what makes them more money and if he can do that it wouldn’t matter if he never even went to college. “Are you sure?” he asks almost shyly. “Yes, I’m positive,” I tell him seriously. “Ok,” “Ok you’ll work with me?” “Yes I’ll work with you,” he says with a sunshine smile which makes me smile one hell of a true smile. “Good” I watch him pull his legs up on the couch sitting Indian style, “So when do we start? Cause I am going to have to work around my schedule and maneuver some things,” I can see the wheels in his head turning a million miles a minute already. “Well why don’t you write me out your schedule and we will set aside specific times. I can work whenever you are free, so don’t worry about the times,” he nods his head and reaching for the sketch pad on the coffee table and starts to write in it. god we are going to be spending a lot of time together, working in close quarters. I am going to be with him most likely everyday until this campaign is done. Fuck this is going to be tough. This is going to be torture. Damn he’s still writing, I scoot over next to him and look over the top of the pad and see that he has almost the whole page full already. “Fuck Justin,” he looks up at me surprised, “What?” “This is your schedule? It looks more like an obstacle course.” he starts to laugh. “Yeah well going for two degree’s is a lot of work,” he says and starts to write again. With a few chuckles and a head shake added in. I wait patiently for him to finish and take a look around the place. He’s got some beautiful pieces, “Are these all yours?” I look at him and he looks at the walls then to me. “Yeah; well everything except that one.” he says pointing to Van Gough’s A Starry Night. It’s a good painting but if you could see the things he has painted, well they are just amazing. “They are amazing Justin. Really,” “Thank you,” he say quietly and returns to making his list, Jesus I wonder how long this thing is? “Ok, here ya go,” finally he hands the list to me, I take a look over it and I don’t see any free time here, well at least not any if he ever wants to sleep. “I’m not sure what to do with this, you’re going to quit the club right?” I ask cause right now he still has it on the schedule for all seven days, and as it is he only gets maybe three to four hours of sleep a day. “No I can’t,” I furrow my brow, “Why the fuck not,” I ask bringing my brows up. I don’t understand he doesn’t need to dance anymore. “I signed a contract stating that I would work for them for a full year.” he states like it’s no big deal. “Jesus well can you at least cut back on the days you work there? Cause right now I’m not seeing any opening for us to work together.” how was he thinking we’d swing this? “Well I figured since it’ll only take a couple of weeks to get the campaign done we could just work in between school and work.” he scoots right next to me leaning against my shoulder, he’s so warm against me and he smells so good, “see look here,” he pulls the paper so we are both holding it and he starts to point out the times but I am to busy looking at the sloop of the side of his neck, god I wanna lick, no no I can’t do this. Damn it, “see?” “Hunh? Oh no I’m sorry what did you say again?” he gives me a sweet smile, and chuckles a little bit, he taps his finger on the paper and I look down at it as he starts again “See I have three hours on Monday, two hours on Tuesday, Wednesday is kinda out of the question unless you can meet me for lunch then we can spend about an hour on it, then Thursday,” “Justin that is just ridiculous,” I say exasperated. “Why? I can make it work.” I shake my head. “There is no way you could make this kind of schedule work, when would you sleep?” “As you can see I left myself two to three hours a day for sleep and on the weekends we can spend quite a bit of time on the account and I could catch up on sleep then.” fuck that. “And when would you have time for Jonathan?” he looks away from me. “I’m pretty sure he is going to want your attention sometime,” I don’t want him to hurt his relationship I know it means a lot to him. “Were not together anymore.” I think he just whispered. “Did you just say your not together anymore?” I couldn’t of heard right, “Yeah,” “When the fuck did this happen?” I’m a little angry, why didn’t he tell me? I thought he wanted me just as much as I wanted him. Did that change? “Last night.”oh well then in that case. Is it to much if I jump for joy? Yeah probably not a good idea. “I’m sorry,” I’m not sure what to say in this type of situation. It’s what I have been hoping, and waiting for. “No your not,” he says with a slight smile, “Ok I’m not, but can you blame me?” “No I guess not,” he says with a frown, “Hey you ok though?” I ask putting my hand on his cheek. “Yeah. I just didn’t want to hurt him, but I ended up doing that anyway.” he looks so sad. I want to take that sadness away. I wonder if he’d let me? I guess there’s is only one way to find out. I scoot over and sit back against the couch and pull him towards me, “Come here,” he looks at me, for a second before he bites his bottom lip and lays his head on my chest, I instantly wrap my arms around him as his go around my waist. I nuzzle my nose on the top of his head and close my eyes as I take a deep breath. I give him a kiss on his head then move down to his forehead, and kiss him there as well. He lifts his head and we look into each others eyes, I watch as he thinks, probably deciding if he wants to do this or not, I am practically begging him with my eyes, to let us have this. He puts his lips into his mouth, before he lets them out slowly licking them with his perfect pink tongue, he slowly leans in without taking his eye off of mine, and let’s our lips touch in just a feather like kiss, I let him control it let him decide how far he wants to go and I don’t push for anymore. I don’t want him to get scared off, I want him to trust himself with me, the next kiss is a little more, he takes my bottom lip into his mouth licking and softly sucking on it, he pulls back once more, tracing my face with his fingers then moves in one more time closing his eyes when our mouths meet, he traces my lips and I open my mouth for him, and when he dips his tongue into my mouth I move my tongue to meet his. God I have never had a better kiss than with him. His taste makes me go crazy for more. The way his tongue feels against mine makes me want to devour him and never let him go. But for now I am just going to enjoy every last second of this, we are finally with each other. I am happier than I have ever been. I didn’t know anything like this ever existed. I pull Justin up by his waist and sit him on my lap. He pulls away from my mouth and I move to his jaw down his neck to a nipple as I pull open his robe. When I have his robe off I sit back and take a good look at his gorgeous body. “Your perfect,” I say before I slow everything down and kiss his mouth again, I run my tongue over every part of his mouth, making sure to memorize every inch of it, when I pull back to kiss down his neck, he starts to grind our cock’s together and we both shudder and moan each others names. “Bri, I want to feel you,” he pulls back and starts to undo the rest of the buttons on my shirt, slipping it and my jacket off of my shoulders. He slides his hands back to my chest, and I look down to see his cock just waiting for me to touch it and caress it, so I grab his cock, and he moves his hand into my hair bringing our mouths together in a passionate kiss. My cock is rock hard against his ass and he starts to slowly grind his ass against it. I want inside him so badly right now I don’t know how much longer I can wait. When I feel his hands trail down my chest and stop at my crouch I move my hand away from his cock so he can undo my pants, “Off,” he breaths and sits up some so I can bring them down I only get them to right past my ass before he sits back down on me, I reach into my pocket and pull out some lube and a condom, he starts to kiss down my neck. When I manage to get the lube open and get some on my fingers I throw the tube to the side and move my finger against his crack slowly making my way to his hole. “Hmmm,” I hear him sigh as I reach his hole and circle it a few times before I slowly start to push my finger in, he starts to kiss back up my neck sucking on my Adams apple for a second before he plunges his tongue back in my mouth, oh thank you I wanted to kiss him again, when he starts to fuck himself on my finger I push in the second one a few seconds later I push in the third one. I can’t wait. I take out my fingers and grab his waist. He pulls back and grabs a hold of my shoulders, I move one hand around my dick to slide the condom on and guide it to his hole and when I feel his hole quivering against the head of my cock I slowly start to push in, he starts to push himself down on my cock and I see the pinch of pain on his face, I start to slow but he looks into mine, “don’t stop,” “Hmmm,” I moan feeling his walls squeezing and pulsing around me, he swoops in for a kiss and then suddenly I feel him lower himself fully onto my cock, I gasp at the feeling moving away from his mouth, “god damn it,” he’s swiveling his hips and gripping my cock with his ass god it’s to much I grab a hold of his hips and stop his movements, but I don’t think he can help the squeezing of my cock, “Your so big,” he whispers, and god the raspy sound of his voice is also making me want to cum, fuck! “So much better than I could’ve imagined.” “Mmhhmm.” he’s biting his bottom lip and I can feel him trying to move his hips. “Not yet,” he opens his eyes at the sound of my voice and god I’m lost, he looks so hot right now with heavy lidded eyes, I am so not lasting long no matter how long I wait, but then again I think I waited long enough, I grip his hips harder and move him up my cock and his ass grips my cock so hard the entire time that I think I may cum right then but I fight it off. When I loosen my grip on his hips he slides back onto my cock, “Oh god,” he moans as he takes all of me inside, he starts to move his hips lifting and lowering himself on my cock, he’s going so slow that I am fighting with this hot tingly orgasm of mine, he is going just slow enough to keep me on the brink but not fast enough to throw me over. God it’s such sweet, sweet torture, and I would let him keep this up forever if it didn’t eventually get to a painful spot, so right before we get to that point I grab him around his ass and slowly maneuver us so we are lying on the couch with me on top of him, and I thrust back into him as deep as I can go, “Yes! Oh Brian..please,” god it is just the best sound in the world to hear him talk while I’m inside of him, “What Justin? Tell me what you want,” I start to move slower teasing him with the just the tip of my cock, he is trying to push up against me but I just pull farther away. “Tell me, tell me what you want me to do to you,” I slam into him as hard as I can and watch as he practically melts into the couch, I give three more thrust like that before I start to barely push the head of my cock into his hole, he’s writhing underneath me, fighting so hard to get to that place where you feel so good you could die, “I want to hear your voice,” I slam into him again three more times and he is practically clawing at my back trying to pull me into him, he is gripping my cock with his hole and god I wanna cum so bad but I just can’t help wanting to hear his thick raspy voice asking me, to make him cum, “Please Bri I wanna cum,” he looks me directly in the eye and I have never seen anything more beautiful. “Make me cum, please make me cum,” he says gripping the back of my neck pulling me down until our mouths are together and I plunge my tongue into his warm mouth, as fuck his ass hard and fast and that’s what’s going to send me over the edge, so I quickly grab his cock jacking him off fast and hard as I feel myself being gripped by his hole I cum into the condom with a scream, “Oh god Justin!” I feel his juices flowing over my hand, “Brian,” he sighs out, and I feel my juices flowing over my balls. My arms are weakening under the pressure I am putting on them and when they finally give out I feel Justin take me into his arms, and believe it or not this is the best thing I could think of, after being with him. But I must be smushing him, so I try and move to the side but he tightens his grip around me, so I settle back down. “Don’t want to let go,” he says shoving his face into my chest. “Humh, well neither do I,” I say shifting us so we are laying on our sides, all this with out him letting go. I grab between us and take the condom off, not sure what to do with it now though, “Jus, I have to throw the condom away,” I shake him just a bit when he doesn’t answer, “Throw it on the floor, just don’t let go of me,” he says snuggling deeper into my chest. He’s so cute, wrapped around me, and I don’t even want to let him go. So I kiss him on the forehead and place the condom carefully on the floor, and wrap myself around him tightly. He looks up to me with heavy eyes, smiles and I kiss him on the mouth. “Go to sleep now,” I say and I feel him totally relax against me kiss my chest, and five minutes later I hear his breathing even out. I kiss him one more time on the lips and let myself relax with him and finally fall fast asleep. FYFYFYFYFYFYFYFYFYFYFYFYFYFYFYFYFYFYFYFYFYFYFYFYFYFYFYFYFYFYF Justin’s POV: When I open my eyes, it’s to the most gorgeous site in the world, Brian wrapped around me, fast asleep. He looks so peaceful, oh my god last night, Oh My God this morning, “Fuck,” I whisper, shit time, what time is it? Oh god how could I have let this happen? Well I really don’t need to ask that question this is the first time in years that I have slept a whole night through. I didn’t wake up once that hasn’t happened since god I don’t even remember when. I feel one hundred percent better. I look at Brian again and I decide to just relax and enjoy this, I have never missed a class in all my four years of college, and I have never missed a night of work since I started, well except for that one day but I got fired so I don’t think that really counts. Hmm I wonder how this is going to turn out, when he wakes up that is. What if he does what I always thought he would?What is that? I can’t handle that, I just can’t. I squeeze my eyes shut trying to calm myself, my heart is beating so hard it hurts. “Hey gorgeous,” I hear Brian whisper and I jump, “Hey you alright?” he asks rubbing my arm, and looking into my eyes. “Yeah I just,” I look away from him, his gaze is always so intense. “I thought you were asleep,” “Oh well I was, but now I am awake, and I think we should go for round two,” he says nuzzling against my neck, and leaving wet kisses all over that make me shudder against him. “You certainly know how to persuade a person, ahhhh don’t you?” “I don’t really need to persuade you do I?” I open my eyes to see him staring at me not two inches from my mouth, but he really wants to know the answer to this question, and all I can think is, “No,” I see a smile instantly appear on his face as he leans in to kiss me. “Mmmm,” he moans as I trail my hand down his chest, to his cock, I slowly start stroking his cock till he is all the way up, he turns from me and reaches over to the floor, I hear a belt buckle and know he must be going for a condom, only I know I want a little more than he gave me last night. He shows me the condom and I take it from his hand, here’s a real test for him, “I want to be inside you,” I whisper to him, he smiles at me and takes the condom from me, leans in and begins to kiss me over and over on the mouth, “Don’t you want to feel my hard cock inside you?” he purrs into my ear, he kisses me hard and fast, and only pulling away when we are both panting for air, but he continues to my ear as I say, “Of course I do, but I want to feel your nice tight hot hole around my cock as well,” he stops kissing my ear and leans back so we can look at each other, I’m not sure what I see there. “Justin I’m a top,” “Mmmhhmm, and so am I. So what do you suggest we do about that?” I ask kissing his neck, he pulls away from me though and turns to sit on the couch. Uh oh, maybe this is going to be more of a problem than I thought. “Well can’t you just get your kicks off of some other guy?” and he doesn’t even have the balls to fucking look at me when he says that, well if this is the way he wants to play it, “Yep, sure can, and so can you,” I sit up on the other side of him and go through my room to the bathroom. I get into the shower and let the hot water run over my body. When I hear the curtain being pulled back I don’t even bother looking at him I just start to get myself all washed up, this is definitely not what I saw coming this morning. Sure I thought he’d run off or something like that but this, well I don’t play these games. I am not going to have these double standards between us, it’s just fucking ridiculous. I feel him stand against me as he gets in the shower. It’s not that big of a shower. I rinse out my hair and when I wipe my eyes he pulls me forward against his body. “Is this really that important to you?” I roll my eyes, I mean come on here, “Of course I’m serious. Shit I can’t even believe that your playing this game with me,” “There is no game Justin,” “Oh really then what would you call it? A big joke?” I shake my head, “am I just supposed to roll over and let you take me, and never get to show you how much I want you? Just how good I can make you feel?” I move a step closer and lower my voice, “I could make you scream, it’ll feel so good,” I hear his breath catch and I turn away from him. “It’s just,” and his voice actually squeaked. “I haven’t given myself to anybody like that in over sixteen years,” when I turn to look at him he turns away, I guess it’s it’s his turn to pull away a little bit and for me to bring him back in, realizing that, helps me to calm down, and take care of him. “That’s a long time,” he looks at me and just nods his head, “don’t you want to feel me inside you Bri?” I move into him again and he closes his eyes. “Yes,” he whispers, then opens his eyes and looking into mine he says again, “Yes,” I give him my most famous smile and wrap my arms around his neck, I stand on my tippy toes and kiss him softly at first letting him kind of control where the kiss goes, he licks the inside of my mouth slowly letting his tongue linger ever so slightly in places. He rubs his cock against my thigh, while he puts his arms around my back pulling me tightly against him. I grab for the soap behind me and start to wash his body with out breaking the kiss when I finish with everything but his cock and balls I pull away from his mouth and flash him a sexy grin and get down on my knees, I slide the soap along his sac, barely gliding it towards his hole before I pull it back and circle his balls again. I take them into my hand massaging and squeezing them just enough for him to feel it, then I take his cock in my hand and stroke it a couple of times before I glide the bar of soap all along his huge cock, when I feel he is clean enough I move the bar of soap back towards his balls, while I stroke all of the soap off his cock with the water coming down on us. I slowly let the bar of trail down to his ass slowly rubbing it along his crack when I feel it is soapy enough I drop the soap I slide my hand along his crack to help wash off the soap and take his cock in my mouth, I work his cock in my mouth until I feel his legs shaking so badly that I’m a little scared he may lose his footing and hurt himself, so I stand up, stand him back up straight and get us out of the shower. I dry us off and lead him to the bed, he climbs on and lays on his back but I roll him over to his stomach, I want to taste him, I start at the top of his neck trailing kisses, and licks down his spine. I lightly trail my fingers down his sides, and when my tongue reaches his crack I feel him start to wriggle a little bit, I wonder when the last time was he got rimmed? Doesn’t really matter. I straighten my tongue as I glide it along his crack to his hole I push it out and just barely let the tip go inside, for just the slightest taste before I pull it out and start to make wide strokes of my tongue over his entrance, he taste so good, smells so good I can’t help myself I have to have more so I straighten my tongue and slide it into his hole just the slightest bit before I take it out pushing back in farther each time I move in. When he starts to move his hips I know I have him, I stick my thumb into my mouth wetting it with my saliva before I start to push it in along side of my tongue, “Uhnn, oh god,” he gasps as he throws his head back, I lick another finger and slide it in with my tongue removing my thumb, so I can begin to really open him up for myself. I lick another two fingers slowly pushing them in along side my tongue one at a time as he’s ready for them, when I have all three fingers inside him, I sit up and grab the lube off the side table. I open the lube and pull my fingers almost all the way out of his hole and put some lube on them. I toss the lube to the side and rearrange myself so that I am lying underneath him my face right underneath his cock, I move his hard cock into my mouth, while I finger him and hear him gasp, “oh Justin, feels so good,” I feel myself smile around his cock, I knew he’d love what I can do to him. I let him fuck my face, while I play with his balls and finger fuck his ass, he helps with that as well. When I feel his movements becoming to rash I know it’s time. I remove my fingers, “mmhh,” I hear him protest so suck on his cock hard, “Ahhhh! God,” before I let him slip from my mouth and slide out from under him. “Lay down Bri,” he does as told and I grab a condom slipping it on and stroking myself a few times, god I am so fucking hard right now, mmmm I can’t wait to get inside him. I move my self to lye on top of him and position my dick at his hole. When I get there I pause and leave open mouthed kisses along the side of his neck, and jaw line, as I feel him move his neck to give me more room I start to slowly push my cock inside him. I have to squeeze my eyes shut from the pressure around my dick, god it’s like being with a virgin, “Fuck,” I gasp out. I stop when I am have way inside him, “god your so tight,” “And your so big,” he cranes his neck so I can meet his mouth and I give him a sweet kiss, I feel ready and continue my way in, as I do he pulls away from my mouth. “Ahhh!” He says as I get myself buried all the way in. I give him a minute to adjust before I slowly start to move inside him. He buries his face in the pillow but I want to be able to hear him, so I pull the pillow out from under him and throw it to the floor. “I want to hear you. Every sound you make I want to hear it,” I whisper into his ear. “Mmmm, ohhh,” oh god that’s sexy. I feel my cock pulse at the sound of his voice, I switch my position so I can hit his spot. “Oh! Right there,” I almost got him screaming, I slam into him picking up my speed, with every stroke, “Yes Jus, oh harder,” I do so and reach over for his cock, I grab the head and give it a squeeze and slam into him as I do so, “Jesus,” I slide my palm over the head and use his precum to lube my hand as I start to jack him off squeezing his head every so often, “I’m gonna, oh shit, YES!” ah there’s my scream, “Oh fuck!”his hole bears down on my cock squeezing and pumping it and I fall right over the edge with him, “Oh my god,” I bury my face in his neck, sucking right behind his ear, “Mmm,” he moans, and reaches around grabbing my hip forcing me closer to him. I push him closer to me with my hand still around his dick, before I bring it to my mouth and lick it clean. “You taste so good,” he chuckles a bit. “And you made me scream,” “Yeah,” I purr in his ear. I feel myself slipping from him so I grab the bottom and slide out of him remove the condom, and put it in the trash before I roll back over wrapping my arms around him. “I don’t think we are going to have a problem anymore with you topping,” he says quietly. “Oh really?” “Yeah,” “Good! ” I was hoping he’d say that. I can’t wait for round two. I want him inside me, “care to go another round Mr. Kinney?” I say scooting down a bit so I can look into his eyes. He chuckles a bit, “Only if I get to be the top this time?” he says putting both of our cocks in his hand stroking them awake. “Oh most definitely.” From there we spend the rest of the day learning everything we can to set each other off. We map out every sensitive point on each other bodies. We can work tomorrow, I’ve called Em, and asked him if we could go back to the original schedule and he thought that was a great idea and Brian called in a personal, something he said he’s never done before. So today is just for us.