When I pretend everything is what I want it to be I look exactly like what you always wanted to see When I pretend, I can’t forget about the criminal I am Stealing second after second just cause I know I can but I can’t pretend this is the way it’ll stay I’m just (trying to bend the truth) I can’t pretend I’m who you want me to be, so I’m I never lied I told him I wouldn’t do what he wanted I’m fucked in the head [Chorus] Lying my way from you) No no turning back now (I wanna be pushed aside so let me go) No no turning back now (Let me take back my life,I’d rather be all alone) No turning back now (Anywhere on my own cuz I can see) No no turning back now (The very worst part of you is me) I lied to him Not with words but with actions Which is so much worse I remember what they taught to me Remember condescending talk of who I ought to be Remember listening to all of that and this again So I pretended up a person who was fittin’ in And now you think this person really is me and I’m (Trying to bend the truth) But the more I push the more I'm pulling away 'cuz I'm I know he smells them I know they smell him I hate it I wish I was stronger I am weak and don’t deserve to him [Chorus] (Lying my way from you) No no turning back now (I wanna be pushed aside so let me go) No no turning back now (Let me take back my life I’d rather be all alone) No turning back now (Anywhere on my own cuz I can see) No no turning back now (The very worst part of you) (The very worst part of you is ME) He is everything I need and I know In all honesty he is going to be my final sentence I can’t help it I can’t live without him This isn’t what I wanted to be, I never thought that what I said would have you running from me Like This This isn’t what I wanted to be, I never thought that what I said would have you running from me Like This This isn’t what I wanted to be, I never thought that what I said would have you running from me Like This This isn’t what I wanted to be, I never thought that what I said would have you running from me Like This What if I beg for forgiveness? What if I tell him I don’t need [Chorus] (You) No turning back now (I wanna be pushed aside so let me go) No no turning back now (Let me take back my life I’d rather be all alone) No turning back now (Anywhere on my own cuz I can see) No no turning back now (The very worst part of you) (The very worst part of you is me) I don’t know the words to make this better Tomorrow will be the end and I feel like I am dying He is holding me and I feel like he telling me something But I’m to fucked up to even remember how to show him I don’t need them I hate that I don’t want him and all I do is want him at the Same time. I’m Brian Kinney for fuck sake But that means nothing with out him now