(A/N:Italic is for the nightmare, I'm sorry for all the mistakes and if made it hard to read. I tried to fix it for now but it will be improved better. -Liberty)
Torn Apart
Chapter 3: Nightmares
No, please…don’t
You have to pay little boy….
I will give you money please don’t hurt me
*lays on Justin* you need to this…your such a slut….
Justin closes his eyes and tries not to cry..he want’s it to be over…..
Justin: No No *toss and turns in bed* please don’t
Brian: Justin, shh, it’s just a nightmare *try’s to wake him up* come on…
Justin: No *tears start to fall*
Brian: come on sunshine, wake up
Justin:*breathing heavily* Br- Brian…*feels Brian’s arms wrap around him*
Brian: It’s okay Justin, I’m here… he can’t get you..
Justin thoughts
"I wish I could believe Brian, that he couldn’t get me anymore but he can. Every time my eyes close I see him, I feel him. I just wish it would all go away. I feel safe here in Brian’s arms but I know that will never last. He has to go out but I can’t. I want to be free and be that Justin again but I can’t. I am stuck here afraid of everything. "
Brian: *lays down and holds Justin* do you want to talk about it?
Justin: No, I can’t…*starts to cry*
Brian Thoughts
"I wish I could do more. He won’t talk about it wait…he can’t. I have tried every night since “the incident” happened but he wont. I know I should call it was it is but I can’t. He was the one pure thing I had in my life and now I know he feels dirty but he isn’t. He is still the most beautiful man I have ever seen. All, I can do well, actually all he will let me do is hold him why he cries. I wish I could do more but I can’t. '
Brian’s POV
It’s 10 in the morning… It took Justin a little over an hour to cry his self to sleep last night. I feel so helpless. Daphne and I try to get him our or to talk to us be he wont. When it first happened we thought we should file a report but he just said no and he wouldn’t change his mind. I watch him every day.. He tries so hard to act like everything is okay but it’s not. I know today is going to stress him out. He is going out side for the first time in two days to get a tested.
Justin’s POV
I wish I was normal again but I’m not. I wish I could stop crying and waking poor Brian up but I can’t. I try every night not wake him but it never works. I always do. I haven’t slept in two days because that fucker has infected my every fiber. It’s like he is still there taking me futear and futher away from Brian and myself. I know the only reason I am here with Brian is because of guilt. He doesn’t want me anymore..hell, why would he. I’m damage.
Justin: Brian, I’m going to take a shower
Brian: Okay.
Justin
"I walk in the shower and turn it full blast hot water. I still feel dirty. I still want to rub my skin off just to make him go away. I walk in the water and let the hot water burn him off me. Who cares if my skin is so red and sensitive.
I feel the water wash over me…the steam melt away..
I want make it stop… the screaming.
The boot kicking…
I Scrub the skin off just make him go away to feel some what normal…
I'm on the bottom of the shower… rocking back and forth..
Justin: Please…stop. Make it stop
Brian’s POV
I look at the clock Justin has been in the shower for 30 minutes. I walk to the door and knock…
Nothing
"Justin, are you okay…"
Justin: Please make it stop..
I open the door to the shower and seem beat red holding his legs rocking…
I turn off the water and wrap a towel around him..
He is so lost….
My sunshine is gone…..
Brian: Come on Justin, let’s get you out of the shower..
Justin: Brian,
I lay him in the bed and lay next to him…
Brian: shh, sunshine, I’m here.
Justin: please make it stop
Brian’s POV
Justin looks at me with such hope and for a minute I see my old sunshine and then as soon as I see him he disappears again. I don’t know how but I will have my sunshine back.