(A/N:Italic is for the nightmare, I'm sorry for all the mistakes and if made it hard to read. I tried to fix it for now but it will be improved better. -Liberty) Torn Apart Chapter 3: Nightmares No, please…don’t You have to pay little boy…. I will give you money please don’t hurt me *lays on Justin* you need to this…your such a slut…. Justin closes his eyes and tries not to cry..he want’s it to be over….. Justin: No No *toss and turns in bed* please don’t Brian: Justin, shh, it’s just a nightmare *try’s to wake him up* come on… Justin: No *tears start to fall* Brian: come on sunshine, wake up Justin:*breathing heavily* Br- Brian…*feels Brian’s arms wrap around him* Brian: It’s okay Justin, I’m here… he can’t get you.. Justin thoughts "I wish I could believe Brian, that he couldn’t get me anymore but he can. Every time my eyes close I see him, I feel him. I just wish it would all go away. I feel safe here in Brian’s arms but I know that will never last. He has to go out but I can’t. I want to be free and be that Justin again but I can’t. I am stuck here afraid of everything. " Brian: *lays down and holds Justin* do you want to talk about it? Justin: No, I can’t…*starts to cry* Brian Thoughts "I wish I could do more. He won’t talk about it wait…he can’t. I have tried every night since “the incident” happened but he wont. I know I should call it was it is but I can’t. He was the one pure thing I had in my life and now I know he feels dirty but he isn’t. He is still the most beautiful man I have ever seen. All, I can do well, actually all he will let me do is hold him why he cries. I wish I could do more but I can’t. ' Brian’s POV It’s 10 in the morning… It took Justin a little over an hour to cry his self to sleep last night. I feel so helpless. Daphne and I try to get him our or to talk to us be he wont. When it first happened we thought we should file a report but he just said no and he wouldn’t change his mind. I watch him every day.. He tries so hard to act like everything is okay but it’s not. I know today is going to stress him out. He is going out side for the first time in two days to get a tested. Justin’s POV I wish I was normal again but I’m not. I wish I could stop crying and waking poor Brian up but I can’t. I try every night not wake him but it never works. I always do. I haven’t slept in two days because that fucker has infected my every fiber. It’s like he is still there taking me futear and futher away from Brian and myself. I know the only reason I am here with Brian is because of guilt. He doesn’t want me anymore..hell, why would he. I’m damage. Justin: Brian, I’m going to take a shower Brian: Okay. Justin "I walk in the shower and turn it full blast hot water. I still feel dirty. I still want to rub my skin off just to make him go away. I walk in the water and let the hot water burn him off me. Who cares if my skin is so red and sensitive. I feel the water wash over me…the steam melt away.. I want make it stop… the screaming. The boot kicking… I Scrub the skin off just make him go away to feel some what normal… I'm on the bottom of the shower… rocking back and forth.. Justin: Please…stop. Make it stop Brian’s POV I look at the clock Justin has been in the shower for 30 minutes. I walk to the door and knock… Nothing "Justin, are you okay…" Justin: Please make it stop.. I open the door to the shower and seem beat red holding his legs rocking… I turn off the water and wrap a towel around him.. He is so lost…. My sunshine is gone….. Brian: Come on Justin, let’s get you out of the shower.. Justin: Brian, I lay him in the bed and lay next to him… Brian: shh, sunshine, I’m here. Justin: please make it stop Brian’s POV Justin looks at me with such hope and for a minute I see my old sunshine and then as soon as I see him he disappears again. I don’t know how but I will have my sunshine back.