Note: Gerri was so nice to offer to beta so thank so much you did a great job. ************************************************************************* Matters of the Heart
Ch. 8
Three days of silence Justin It’s been three fucking days since I was released; three days since my mother started driving me insane. Three days since Brian kissed me. God that kiss was like nothing I have ever experienced or felt before. I have kissed guys before and even some girls but that was nothing compared to how it felt when Brian kissed me. It was so gentle, yet not to forceful, I could tell he wanted to deepen it and I wanted him to. Damn med’s for making me sleepy. Damn it now I’m hard. Great! Good morning mom, please ignore the woody I have for my hot med student doctor. God, I haven't heard or seen Brian since he kissed me as I was released shortly afterwards and my mom didn’t even ask Brian she went straight for Dr. Zippo. They didn’t even ask me if I felt ready to leave nope...just filled out the release papers, singed them and wham bam thank you ma’am, I was on my way home. Here’s a thought I could pretend to be in pain and have to go see Brian. No, that would mean more tests and let’s face it I don’t want that. Hmm, I could go to the hospital and pretend I’m lost, no; he will know I'm lying because I have been in and out of hospitals for 20 years. Yep that’s it I did the impossible I surpassed my own patheticness, I am at an all new time high.   Brian It’s been three days since I talked to Justin and I think I’m losing it. How can someone do this to me? I mean seriously we didn’t really talk but still I felt drawn to him. I still ask myself, why did you kiss him? Do I regret it; hell no! Even though it was a short and innocent kiss it still took me by surprise… the passion. That’s why I had to meet Mickey at Woody's three days ago to get a different perspective and make sure it wasn’t just my dick doing all the thinking and well, even thought that it is, it just feels like something more. Am I willing to risk everything for a 20 year old blonde haired, blued eye, kid? The scary thing is I think I am. {Three days ago at Woody's} "Hey Bri, sorry I’m late". "It’s okay." As Brian has another drink. "So, are we going to ignore why you called me and just talk about completely uninteresting bullshit?" "Umm… I pick the bullshit for now." Michael rolls his eyes. "What ever. So, Brian, how is the life of a doctor going for you?" "Good Mickey, how is the life of a comic book dork?" "Again I ask: What… is ... his… name?" I turn and look at him and think do I tell him the truth or do I just keep bullshiting him. We have been best friends forever and I know he wants me to be happy but he also knows how I feel about relationships and trust. I still sometimes can’t believe that we almost ruined our friendship for a summer of loneliness god, we were such idiots. Now we are both 28; He is running a comic book store and is living with a partner and I am a doctor and as Deb puts it; “Brian, get your dick out of every little piece of ass and find someone with more class.” So, here I am at Woody's with my best friend who is like my brother and do I tell him that I am willing to risk everything for some kid I don’t even know or even if he wants me? "Earth to Brian. I asked you something." "What, oh, sorry Mike, his name is…. Justin" Brian only whispers his name. "I’m sorry what was that?" Michael smirks. "I said Justin." "I know I just wanted you to say it again. Michael laughs. Brian punches him in the arm playfully. "You’re an asshole." "Whatever, so tell me about Boy Wonder?   {Back at the hospital in Brian’s office} That’s what happened at Woody's, I told Mike all about Justin Taylor and he smiled at me and said; “I tell ma to save a place” Like I am just supposed to call him out of the blue and ask him to dinner. Wait that might work. "I can’t believe I’m doing this." Brian picks up the phone shaking his head. Ring 1... He isn’t going to answer….. Ring 2… he doesn’t want to talk to me….. Ring 3 wait what if his mom answer? Damn! "Hello?" Silence "Hello? Is anyone there?" "Justin?" "Yeah, who is this?" "Dr. Kinney… um … Brian….. um… Brian Kinney… "OMG I must sound like an idiot. Justin laughs; "I think I would have known if you just said Brian." "Oh, so, how are you feeling?" "Good." Brian thinks it would be better if he could see Justin again. "Good, I just wanted to check… well I guess…" "Wait, Brian is that the only reason you called?" "No, I wanted to ask you something?" Brian is surprised. Justin smiles; "Oh, really what is that?" "Would you like to go out with me sometime? I mean I understand if you don’t because I am a little older than you but I was just, you know, curious?" Justin cracks up. "Are you laughing at me?" "No, well… um… a little." "Well, fuck you!" Brian slams the phone down. Little twat thinking he can laugh at me well, fuck him I don’t need him.