Thanks to my wonderful Beta Carolyn, you are the best. Also thanks to the Delph gang, love you all. And tell Timmy 'COOL' Thanks to the girls. ------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------ WPS 8 Justin I sit in my car, going over everything I just found out. Brian and Heath are married. For 3 years. He’s been lying all this time. I hit my steering wheel with my fists. “Fuck. FUCK FUCK FUCK!!!” I scream out. I put my head on the wheel, as the passenger’s door is opened. “Brian not now.” I turn my head away not wanting to show how much I’m hurting. “It’s not Brian.” I turn to see Heath getting into the car. “And I’m not in the mood to talk to you either. You could’ve told me.” I take the tissue he’s putting out towards me. “It wasn’t my place to, and it sure as hell wasn’t Michael’s. Brian didn’t want to ruin your birthday, and just so you know, yes, he has filed for divorce. Plus he did give me money after we woke up and he found us married.” Heath states but I don’t look at him. “Justin, Justin.” I hear Deb and Ben and look out the window to see them coming over. “Want to go somewhere else? Just drive.” Heath tells me. “I, I can’t. I’m too upset.” He nods leaning back. He then leans over to lift me up and I’m about to protest when I realize what he is doing. I move over him and sit down as he starts the car and opens his window as we move past them saying “Sorry, Justin doesn’t feel like talking.” As we drive away. “Where to?” He looks at me. “I don’t know. Don’t care.” I lean my head against the window trying to calm down and why I’m letting this man, Brian’s hus—band (I can barely think it, let alone say it) drive me away from everyone. We drive in silence for what seems like forever before we pull up to this secluded place. “What are we doing here?” I ask. “It’s my place, well one of mine. It’s nice and quiet. We won’t have any interruptions and we do need to talk Justin.” I simply nod as he climbs out and comes to open my door. “I could’ve done that.” He nods smiling. “But thanks.” I quietly say. Walking in he takes my jacket and hangs it up. “Let’s sit you down, I’ll get you a drink.” “Okay.” I sit on the couch, lean my head back and close my eyes. Trying to make sense of everything. Heath “So Justin,” I walk in to find Justin with his head back, eyes closed and know from how he’s breathing that he’s sleeping. I place the drinks down and smile as I lay him down, putting his head on a pillow and a blanket over him. “Brian.” He whispers in his sleep before just snuggling into the pillow. I watch him for a bit, watching him sleep and trying to figure a way to get him back with Brian. I didn’t want to make trouble and Justin is so sweet. And Brian loves him. Yes I thought if I came here saying we aren’t divorced that Brian would want me again. But I was wrong. I should have known. Looking at the beautiful blond in front of me I can see why Brian is so into him. He’s gorgeous. Not knowing how much time has past I see a tear roll down Justin’s cheek and as I go to wipe it, my cell phone rings, seeing it’s Brian I stand up, flip it open and walk out of the room, to a location where I can still see Justin. “Yes dear.” I smile at the endearment. “Shut the fuck up Heath. Deb and Ben said you drove off in Justin’s car with him. What are you doing? Where’s Justin? Is he okay?” Brian rushes out. “Brian, slow down and take a breath. Yes I drove off with him. He didn’t want to have to face them. I could tell he needed to get away and he couldn’t drive himself due to the fact that he was crying too hard.” I look back to Justin. “Fuck, is he okay?” “Yes, he’s cried so hard he’s sleeping now. He’s really hurting. Brian I’m sorry.” I try to tell him but he cuts me off. “Why are you with him in the first place?” Brian is getting more upset. “I’m going to steal him from you.” I say sarcastically “I thought maybe I could talk to him about some things.” “Heath,” Brian starts but I stop him. “Look Brian, I fucked this up and I’m going to try to fix it.” I look at Justin who is looking at me. “I have to go, I’ll call you later. I’ll keep him safe for you.” Hanging up, I move over to sit in front of him once more. “Sorry, I didn’t mean to fall asleep. I was resting and…,” Justin sits up and rubs his eyes. “No need to apologize Justin. You needed the rest. You’ve been through a lot.” I hand him a glass of water. “Why did I agree to come here with you?” Having a guilty look on his face--I smiled. “Justin you didn’t agree to do anything. You were upset, I drove and you needed to get away. I wanted to talk to you where noone could interrupt us.” I sit next to him. Justin “Thanks for the water, but I could use something stronger.” Nodding my consent, he grabs the bottle of Jim Beam and I smile at the way he holds it so much like Brian. They’re a lot alike. Like equals. He smiles at me as he hands me a glass and fills it. “You know that drinking won’t solve this?” “Well it makes it easier.” Downing the drink I lean my head back again. “Then again maybe it doesn’t.” “Justin, I want to explain to you what happened. I know this is hard to handle, but I’m hoping what I tell you will help make it easier to handle.” I look at him and can see just how concerned he is. “You’re married to the man I’m about to marry. What part of this is supposed to be easy?” I attempt to take the bottle but before I can he takes it from me. “I want us both sober for this Justin.” I sigh as he puts the bottle down. “Listen, I know that man loves you. I know because even though he married me, it was your name he screamed out that night.” I look at him. “Don’t look surprised. Brian was wasted, I was wasted but lucky for me I remember everything. Now I might not have been able to stop myself from doing something, but I do remember it.” “He really screamed my name?” I ask. Laughing he looks me in the eyes. “Yes, it was your name my husband screamed out as he came.” “But it doesn’t make a bit of difference when he didn’t tell me.” I wipe a tear. “Justin, we thought it was funny that night because Brian caught the bouquet and said how you would think it was funny and sentimental. He got even more wasted and high and next thing we knew we were laughing and I told him we could fix the problem by just getting married. He looked at me, and smiled and said ‘Let’s get married Justin.’ And at the time I could care less what he called me, I just knew I should take the chance to be married to him. I liked him.” He looks down and then back up. “You’re bullshitting me. He would never say that.” Then I note the look in his eyes and know he’s telling the truth. “When you’re that far gone, the truth always comes out. He loves you Justin. He did give me money and kept saying how if you ever found out it would destroy what you had. I told him to just not tell you because it was just a fuck anyway. I took the money and was going to file but something stopped me. And now I think I know why.” I look at him confused. “What?” I sit up looking at him. “That I needed to come here and make it clear to you how he truly feels.” He looks me in the eyes. “No, I always knew. It does help to know the truth, but I’m still pissed and hurt he didn’t tell me.” “Justin, don’t walk away from him over my stupid mistake.” I snap my head towards him. “I’m not going to leave him. We fought way too hard to get where we are and I won’t let his husband ruin it for us. We’ve been through a lot tougher. I just need some time to get this out of my head and figure out why he didn’t tell me, and work this out.” I grab the water and take a drink, running my hands over my head. “You okay?” He puts a hand on my head. “Justin you’re burning up.” He gets up and leaves coming back with a thermometer and puts it in my mouth. I let him do it and admire how he moves around. After it beeps he takes it out and frowns. “You’ve got a fever. 101.3. Justin you need to rest. You’re making yourself sick over this.” “No, it’s not this, it’s my headache. Whenever I get too wound up it happens.” Sitting down next to me he runs his hand over my head. Moaning I close my eyes as he pulls my head down into his lap. “You don’t have to,” I start to sit up and he pushes me back down. “Justin, you’re here to relax and this isn’t helping your headache. I know some relaxation techniques since my mother used to get intense headaches and I used to help her.” I relax as his fingers from one hand gracefully run through my hair as the other rubs my back. “Brian does this, too.” I smile thinking about him. “Justin, listen to me. I know you are in pain. I can see it, but you have to fully trust me. I’m not going to make a move on you. I just want to help.” I let out a breath and totally relax and let his fingers help. Heath This has been an interesting day. I continue to run my hands through his hair as I tell him to relax. I can tell he is sleeping once again. I look into his sleeping face and can’t help but smile. “You’re a good man Justin, and so is Brian. You belong together.” I lift him up to carry him to the bed to lay him down and as I lay him down my cell rings again. Without looking at the ID I pull it out and answer it before it wakes Justin. “Just a sec, I’m putting a friend to bed.” I put the phone down as I take his shoes off and cover him up. “Heath, thanks.” Justin mutters out as he goes right back to sleep. Sitting down next to him I run my hand through his hair and he moans. What the fuck is going on there? I hear in the phone and pick it up. Walking out I shut the door before putting the phone to my ear. “Relax, he’s sleeping.” I smile thinking about how adorable he is for being so jealous. “Why was he moaning? Were you touching him? Heath I’ll kill you.” Brian starts to rant. “I did touch him. I was rubbing his head because he has a migraine and a fever and I was helping with it. Brian I’m not after Justin.” I sit down and pick up the Beam. “Is he okay? Where are you? I’ll come get him. I know how to deal with these things. He gets them sometimes. He needs me.” I can hear him grabbing something. “Brian, he’s sleeping. He isn’t ready to see you but has informed me that he isn’t going to walk away from you. He loves you. I have this under control. Just give him space or you’ll smother him away.” I lean my head back once more. “Heath, look out for him for me.” Brian sadly tells me. “You know I will.” I reply before I flip the cell shut. I close my own eyes again thinking to myself how these two were meant to be and that I’ll fix it one way or another. Smiling I know what I will do. As I begin to think of the plan, I find myself falling asleep. Brian I worry about Justin when he’s in pain like that. Laying back I want to jump up and go to Justin but I have no idea where they are. Just then my cell rings. Seeing it’s Justin’s cell I pick it up. ”Justin, are you okay?” “I just needed to hear your voice.” He sounds drowsy. “Justin I’m so sorry. I should have told you.” I wipe a tear away. “Brian, I don’t want to talk about this yet. I just want to say I love you.” I hear him yawn. “I love you, too, Justin.” I can tell he’s crying. “I’m going back to sleep. I didn’t want you to think Heath is doing anything. He’s been helping. I can’t believe how equal you two are. I mean, you are so much alike that it’s scary. Are you sure you don’t want him?” I feel my heart drop. “No, I don’t want him. I want you and only you Sunshine.” He sobs as I feel my world caving in. “I’m going to sleep now. Brian, I love you.” “Justin please tell me we’ll work this out.” I plead. “Brian, have I ever given up on you?” Smiling I shake my head. “No, you haven’t.” I wipe another tear. “Then why start now? Later.” He hangs up as I look at the phone. “Later Sunshine. Love you.” Placing my cell on the bed I take a sniff of Justin’s pillow and can’t wait to have the real thing here--which I hope isn’t too much longer.