QAK 22

<b>Emmett</b>

I look to Brian who has the same concerned look in his face as I do mine. I lip to him to ‘call Dade’ which he does while I rub Justin’s back who is now hyperventilating.

“Shh, it’s okay baby.” I whisper to him as he lies in my lap, crying and repeating how he killed his sister.

“No baby, you didn’t.” I kept whispering back, but I don’t think he is paying attention.

“I called Dade, he is on his way. He said to just keep him calm.” Brian whispers to me as I nod my head, looking down at Justin.

“Why him Brian? He hasn’t done anything wrong.” I can feel my own tears.

“He’s strong Em, we just have to help him.” Brian is now sitting next to me, rubbing Justin’s arm.

“I hate seeing him like this. It reminds me of when he would come over and cry himself to sleep in my arms. Brian, he has been through enough.” I feel him wipe my tears looking at me.

“Emmett, he will be fine. We will make sure of it. He’s stronger then any man I know, including myself.” Brian looks down at Justin. “I love him Em, and I won’t leave him alone.” 

“I know you do, and he loves you as well.” Looking down at a crying Justin who is hugging my legs.

Just then there is a knock on the door. Brian gets up and lets Dade in, walking back over he kneels down by Justin.

“What happened?” He asks Brian and me.

“He remembered the rape with his father and now he thinks he killed his sister.” Brian quietly tells him.

“Justin, can you tell me what happened?” Dade asks as he gets a needle out.

“I killed my sister.” He whispers and buries his head into my lap.

“Ok let’s talk about this. The rape, what happened?” He asks.

Justin tenses up before looking up at my face. I nod my head as he looks at Brian before burying his head back into my stomach.

“Justin, what’s wrong?” Dade asks quietly.

“Brian.” He whispers before I look at Brian.

“You want him to leave?” Dade moves closer to Justin.

“Why is he here? I don’t want him to see me like this.” Justin cries out.

Brian moves over to us, putting a hand on Justin’s arm. “I am not leaving you Justin. I am here to stay. I love you. I won’t let you push me away.” 

“Okay.” Justin whispers softly.

“Justin, why don’t we get you onto the couch where you will be comfortable.” Nodding his head I stand up, as I pick him up, carrying him to the couch, since I noticed somehow we ended up sliding to the floor.

Sitting down and having him put his head on my lap, I run my hands though his hair as Brian sits on the other side of me. 

“Ok Justin, want to tell me what happened?” Dade pulls the chair right in front of the couch.

“No,” He tells us all.

“Baby, I know you don’t want to, but it will feel better to talk about it.”  I look at Dade who nods his head to what I said.

“Emmett?” Justin looks up to me.

“Yes Baby?” I ask.

“Brian?” 

“I’m here Sunshine.” Brian answers him.

<b>Brian</b>

“Please don’t leave me. I don’t remember what I did.” Crying again I move more in front of the couch, leaning over to hug him close. 

“I am not going anywhere. I promise.” I wipe my own tears as I lean back up, sitting on the floor to hold Justin’s hand. “But please, tell Dade what happened.” 

“Jus, this is a break through, don’t push it back in.” Dade quietly said.

“I can’t” Justin breaks out into tears again.

“Yes you can sweetie. I know you can. Brian and I are here for you.” Emmett wipes Justin’s tears.

Justin looks at Emmett and then to me as I nod my head, he shuts his eyes. “I remember opening the door, my dad attacking me and calling me names. He, he beat the shit out of me and then raped me. That’s when I remember, oh god Brian, you saw it. You saw what he did.” Crying louder and starting to panic I lean into him.

“It’s okay Justin, yes I was there. I was so fucking scared you wouldn’t want me anymore.” I look him in the eyes as he looks confused.

“Why wouldn’t I want you? Brian, you saw me, not the other way.” Justin wipes a tear.

“I know, but I didn’t think you would want me after I saw it because it happened. I will never walk away from you Justin. Just like Mikey and Deb never walked away from me when they helped me after getting beaten by my father.” Nodding he looks to Dade.

“Want to continue?” He asks.

“I guess.” Looking up at Emmett he smiled. “That is why you killed him, because of what he did to me?” 

“Yes baby, I couldn’t let him get away with it anymore. I had to protect you. For once in my life I had to do something right.” Running his hand through his hair. 

“I know.” Justin whispers.

“Why do you think you killed your sister Justin.” Dade asks and once again Justin begins to cry.

“He said I did. He said I killed Molly.” Crying he looks at Emmett. “What did I do? Maybe I deserved what he did to me because of what I did to her.” 

“Dade, I have to say this and I’m sorry if it’s not the way, but “ Looking at Justin he put his hand on Justin’s forehead. “Justin, you didn’t kill Molly. Your dad did. He blamed you for it. It was just easier for him to say it was you and get you in trouble. You didn’t do shit to deserve what he did to you or to Molly.” My eyes matching those of Emmett’s and Justin’s, with tears.

“I didn’t kill her? Are you sure?” Looking pleading eyes at Emmett. 

“Yes I am sure. I remember the day you showed up at my house. You said you just came from the hospital and that Molly was dead and that your dad said it was your fault and now you were going to be sent away.” Emmett wipes his tears.

“I was sent away?” Justin is now sitting up.

“Yes, which is probably for the better part of it. It got you away from your dad.” I run my hand over Justin’s arm while Emmett continues. A part of me has to touch him.

“Ya, I guess. But what about my mom?” Looking to Dade he nods his head. 

“Justin, I think for now this is enough. You have been through enough tonight. You just need to rest.” Moving over to us he has the needle in his hand. “I’m going to give you something to help you relax. I want you to rest Justin.” 

“I don’t want to sleep. Everytime I do, I dream of something bad.” Justin yawns out.

“It’s your mind giving you glimpse into the past that will come out sometime.” Dade speaks to him in a low voice.

Justin nods his head before laying back down with his head on Emmett. 

“Brian.” He yawns out. “Will you be here when I wake up?” 

“I wouldn’t dream of leaving. I’ll be here with Emmett. Just rest.” Kissing his head. “I love you.” 

“I love you both too.” Looking at Emmett he wipes his eyes.

After Justin falls asleep I help Emmett get up, putting a pillow under Justin’s head.

Walking Dade out we thank him.

“Just call me if anything happens.” Shaking his hand he walks out.

“Brian.” Emmett said from behind me.

“Yes Emmett.” 

“Thanks.” He simply said.

“For what?” 

“Everything you are doing for him.” Walking back over to sit near Justin. 

“It my pleasure.” I reply as I think to myself.

I just hope it ends quickly for him. But I have a feeling it will get more intense, before it gets better. 

And I will be there when it happens.